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		<name>Susan Robertson</name>
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			<title>Hello Eleventy</title>
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				<p>As of today my site is now being compiled by Eleventy. My <a href="/journal/2025/">prediction</a> at the end of December was correct. It wasn't a hard transition as far as getting Eleventy up and running, but my data needed a lot of work.</p>
<p>I have about 1700 markdown files that make up the content of this site and over the last several weeks I've touched every single one of them. Yes, you read that right, I did it all by hand. I probably could've figured out a way to do this faster and easier, but there was also this sense of wanting to see for myself what was going on in the files and clean them up myself. It was a walk down memory lane.</p>
<p>Many of my early link posts are to things that no longer exist (RIP Pastry Box) but I've kept them as an archive of the things I was thinking about and reading at the time. I was surprised and pleased to see how many folks with personal blogs still have the posts I linked to up.. My early journal posts are like revisiting my younger self and it made me grateful that I have kept it all and it's all mine. The beauty is that no platform can ever take this from me.</p>
<p>I did a major reorganization since Eleventy uses collections whereas I used categories in Jekyll. Everything I've written in some fashion is now in my journal. Reading posts, the shorter notes, and the longer, more traditional blog pieces are all in that collection. This meant that I broke a lot of URLs and I've done my very best to set up redirects for everything; I'm grateful to Netlify for making that part quite easy. The links and photos remain relatively the same from looking at it on the web even though the underlying structure has changed quite a bit.</p>
<p>If you're reading this via RSS, there's another change that's happened with moving to collections which is that there are now three feeds for this site. The <a href="/feed.xml">main feed</a> is all the posts from my journal category. <a href="/links/feed.xml">Links</a> and <a href="/photos/feed.xml">photos</a> have their own feeds. You'll need to add those to your feed readers if you want to see all my content.</p>
<p>In addition to the reorganization, I cleaned up my YAML front matter. Jekyll handles that differently, in some cases, than Eleventy so I had to tweak some things to make it all work. Because of the nature of how collections work I was able to trim down and get rid of quite a bit of the front matter in some collections (like links) because I can handle a lot of things at the collection level. This is a welcome change and it's nice to see the files lean and mean without extra cruft.</p>
<p>I redesigned and wrote new words for the home and about pages. Living with a photographer means I'm often the subject of photos and I'm grateful for the ones that G took to help me add a bit of personality to this site on those pages.</p>
<p>As for getting Eleventy up and running, I'm deeply indebted to the <a href="https://learn-eleventy.pages.dev/">Learn Eleventy</a> website. I built out parts of the practice site to help me understand how Eleventy works. It made getting the initial build and collections working locally a breeze. The community around Eleventy is so gracious and I found a lot of small helpful bits and pieces I used that folks freely shared on their sites.</p>
<p>Finally, I took inspiration for a few small design enhancements that are going out the door from various personal sites. Thank you <a href="https://nazhamid.com/">Naz</a> and <a href="https://ethanmarcotte.com/">Ethan</a> in particular for being great designers and I hope you don't mind me iterating on some ideas I got from your sites on these pages. I feel woefully inadequate as a designer and am grateful to know many wonderful folks who inspire me.</p>
<p>This isn't the end of things, but the beginning of what will be incremental changes as I iterate on the site. I currently use system fonts, but I want to shop around for some alternatives. Along with that I'd like to do some tweaking to my type styles. Working on this over the past several weeks has been a welcome respite from the state of <em>everything</em> and I'm glad that a <a href="https://ethanmarcotte.com/wrote/let-a-website-be-a-worry-stone/">website can be a worry stone</a>.  If you see any problems, please <a href="mailto:susan@susanjeanrobertson.com">email me</a> and let me know.</p>

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			<title>2025</title>
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			<updated>2025-12-29T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I want to acknowledge that 2025 was a rough year for so many people. I'm lucky that in my day-to-day I haven't felt much of the chaos, but I know that's not true for many, many people. Below I'm going to talk about the things that brought me joy thoughout the year becuase I think it's important to acknowledge these things, especially in dark times.</p>
<h2>Favorite Makes</h2>
<p>This year for the first time since I started making my own clothes I feel like I hit my stride. I made things, for the most part, that I love and wear a lot. Getting really honest with myself about what I love to wear and doubling down on making those types of clothing worked.</p>
<p>Here's a photo, taken by G, of a typical day for me and what I love to wear and it's all clothes I made.</p>
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                 src="/images/build/photos/favorite-outfit-sm.jpg" alt="A woman stands in front of a doorway with her right hand in the pocket of her trousers, she's smiling, almost laughing, and she's wearing white plastic frame glasses. Her hair is curly gray blond, she's wearing a striped gray cardigan, a green t-shirt showing underneath, and blue wide leg denim trousers with blue and orange socks and gray brown tennis shoes.">
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<p>My <a href="https://www.dreareneeknits.com/shop/stria-cardigan">Stria Cardigan</a> is an older make that is probably my most worn sweater.  Under it I'm wearing a <a href="https://closetcorepatterns.com/collections/sewing-patterns-all/products/core-t-shirt-free-pattern">Core T-Shirt</a>, a tried and true pattern for me that I've sewed so many times. On the bottom are the <a href="https://sewliberated.com/products/chanterelle-zipper-fly-expansion-pack">Chanterelle Pants</a> with the zipper expansion. I made these in November and heavily modified the pattern and I love them. I've worn them so many times since they came off the machine and I'll be making another pair for sure. These pants aren't perfect (really wish they were a bit longer) but those are all things I can refine as I sew the pattern again.</p>
<p>Other things I've made that have gotten a lot of wear or use that I've already posted about are: the <a href="/writing/made-it-monday-october-20/">Maeve Skirt</a>, the <a href="/photos/fo-friday-palisades/">Palisade Pants</a>, and the <a href="/photos/fo-friday-cushion/">Stella Quilt Cushion</a>.</p>
<h2>Favorite Trip</h2>
<p>We didn't travel nearly as much as we did in 2024, but we did get out about on the west coast a few times. My favorite trip was our drive along Highway 1 in Northern California on the way to San Francisco. We added on an extra day at the last minute and stayed in Ft. Bragg, a town I'd never heard of until we decided to stay there. It was really great. We ate a great meal, the downtown was cute and walkable, and the breakfast place was so good.</p>
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                 src="/images/build/photos/point-arena-sm.jpg" alt="The sky is large and there is blue to the top right but also gray, foggy clouds. A rocky cliff that isn't too high is scene leading out to a point where a white lighthouse sits small in the distance, to the right of the lighthouse is a tree.">
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<h2>Favorite Reads</h2>
<p>I looked back through my reading posts over the past year and two books jumped out at me as being ones I thought about after or particularly enjoyed. As I said at the time about <em>Margot's Got Money Troubles</em>:</p>
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<p>As the story moves on Margo starts to see people and the world and how things work so clearly and her perspective is really great.</p>
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<p>The second is <em>Demon of Unrest</em> about the start of the Civil War in the US, where I learned a lot about the origins of that war. I've found this year that I'm drawn to reading and thinking about both the Civil War and Revolutionary War periods of US history. So much of what is talked about in relation to both of them is romaticized and inaccurate. I've enjoyed reading more about them both to find out what really happened, how truly difficult and awful it was, and finding more nuance in the events than what I've learned in the past.</p>
<h2>2026</h2>
<p>I don't have resolutions but I do have a few things that I'll be focusing on in 2026. The first is travel, specifically outside of the US. A few things have happened lately that made me realize that you gotta live life and seize the day, so we're planning to do that.</p>
<p>The other thing I'll be doing is changing the engine that drives this little site from Jekyll to Eleventy. I've known for a while that I've needed to do something, but a week or so ago I started having problems building my site on Netlify. That led me to realize that I gotta make the change. If things are quiet here for a bit it'll be because I'm in the thick of it. I've been reading and I don't think it'll be particularly hard, but I do need to take the over 1000 posts and get them divided up into collections, by far the biggest task.</p>
<p>I'll see you here eventually, hopefully from a site that is easier to build and organized a bit better. Take care friends, 2025 has been rough and I'm not sure 2026 will be much better, but I hold on to hope in the midst of it all.</p>

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			<title>Recent reads: December 2025</title>
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			<updated>2025-12-22T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>The last book post of 2025. I'll probably finish at least one more book before the end of the year, but it'll be in my next post. I don't track too carefully what I read in terms of numbers and this year is no different, but I do like reflect on what books I'm still thinking about and that'll be in my 2025 wrap up post that's coming soon.</p>
<p>The biggest change in my reading lately is that I've been gravitating towards nonfiction more and more, particularly histories and biographies. I think with the world, and my country in particular, being in such a difficult state, I want to see how others handled difficulty in the past. There are so many stories out there and we can't read them all, but I'm trying to read more history to help me understand the present.</p>
<h2>Mansfield Park</h2>
<p>I realized I'd never read this Austen <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/mansfield-park-jane-austen/ac1e2bb1ec7a065d?ean=9780141439808&amp;next=t">novel</a> and found a used copy so was able to correct that. It isn't my favorite Austen, but I came away thinking about how clearly Fanny sees the other people in her circle. That is especially true of the entire situation with the Crawfords where Fanny sees them for who they really are right from the beginning.</p>
<h2>Gaudy Night</h2>
<p>Another Lord Peter Wimsey <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/gaudy-night-a-lord-peter-wimsey-mystery-with-harriet-vane-dorothy-l-sayers/cb1025615bff9e07?ean=9780062196538&amp;next=t">mystery</a> with very little Lord Peter in it. Harriet Vane does most of the detecting when odd things start to happen at her old college in Oxford. I have to say I almost didn't finish this one. It took so long to really get going but I'm so glad I finished. All the backstory and lead up paid off big time. I also love the chemistry between Harriet and Peter.</p>
<h2>The Knitter's Book of Wool</h2>
<p>I found this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-knitter-s-book-of-wool-the-ultimate-guide-to-understanding-using-and-loving-this-most-fabulous-fiber-clara-parkes/8633d06239c3f000?ean=9780307586995&amp;next=t">book</a> at my library and picked it up to read the first portion where Parkes talks about all the different sheep breeds. I found it super helpful for how to think about yarns made from different breeds. I'm already using that information to think differently about the yarns I use in my knitting.</p>
<h2>Delicious: The Art &amp; Life of Wayne Thiebaud</h2>
<p>A kids book that I adore because it has some really great color reproductions of Thiebaud's work. I've been getting more and more interested in his work and seek it out at musuems we go to. I'm so glad I have this in my collection to be able to look at the images. I'll also say that it's a good background on him and how he worked, a quick read, but I enjoyed it. I think it may be out of print, but I found a used library copy online.</p>
<h2>The Wager</h2>
<p>A <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-wager-a-tale-of-shipwreck-mutiny-and-murder-david-grann/b1f2a00fc56cba78?ean=9780307742490&amp;next=t">nonfiction read</a> about an absolutely harrowing shipwreck in the mid 18th Century. I'd not read any of David Grann's books before and now I really want to read more of them. His writing is amazing. This story is almost unbelievable and I learned more about scurvy than I ever thought I would.</p>
<h2>The Thursday Murder Club</h2>
<p>This <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-thursday-murder-club-a-novel-richard-osman/f3533fffb6ce321e?ean=9781984880987&amp;next=t">book</a> is the start of what has been an incredibly popular series of mysteries and I can see why. The folks living in the senior apartment fill their time trying to solve cold cases until a murder happens right there on the grounds of their complex. The characters are fun and the mystery was good as well. I'm sure I'll read more of this series at some point.</p>
<h2>The Bookmakers: A History of the Book in Eighteen Lives</h2>
<p>I found this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-book-makers-a-history-of-the-book-in-eighteen-lives-adam-smyth/bf9772aaa63f297c?ean=9781541605640&amp;next=t">book</a> via <a href="https://www.robinsloan.com/newsletters/2025-gift-guide/">Robin Sloanes 2025 gift guide</a> and it was sitting on the shelf at my library branch. What a great read! Smyth tells the story of the book via the different lives of people who made them and how they changed them or pushed the boundaries. It's a fascinating read that travels through time as books change and how they're made changes as well.</p>
<h2>Every Summer After</h2>
<p>I needed some lighter fare after the nonfiction and turned to <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/every-summer-after-carley-fortune/331734d813b7f0e0?ean=9780593438534&amp;next=t">romance</a> and a new to me author, Carley Fortune. I didn't love this one. By the end I wasn't quite sure what to think of either of the main characters. Sam and Percy meet when they're 13 and the story is told alternating between the past and the present filling in on their relationship and how it developed over the years. The writing was fine, but the characters didn't reel me in the way they usually do with these types of books.</p>
<h2>One Golden Summer</h2>
<p>I continued on the romance train with the <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/one-golden-summer-carley-fortune/ebf9620e684d4802?ean=9780593638910&amp;next=t">follow up book</a> to <em>Every Summer After</em> because I was very intrigued by Charlie, Sam's brother, and wanted to read his story. This book was so much better than the first one. I absolutely loved both main characters. The banter was hilarious and I could relate to both main characters in different ways.</p>
<h2>To Bless the Space Between Us</h2>
<p>A book of poetry that I've been reading bit by bit in the mornings over the last several months. O'Donohue also talks at the end extensively about the need for blessings which I enjoyed as much as some of the blessings themselves. This quote from the writing on blessings at the end hit me like a ton of bricks and feels especially important given the current times we live in.</p>
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<p>Your outlook actually and concretely affects what goes on. When you give in to helplessness, you collude with despair and add to it. When you take back your power and choose to see the possiblitiies for healing and transformation, your creativity awakens and flows to become an active force of renewal and enouragement in the world. In this way, even in your own hidden life, you can become a powerful agent of transformation in a broken, darkened world. (p 216)</p>
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			<title>Movie season</title>
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			<updated>2025-11-25T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Movie season in our house began on November 2 this year. I've come to realize there are two season around here in regards to what we're watching,  baseball and movie. Baseball ended on November 1, so movie season started on November 2.</p>
<p>We started out with the Criterion Channel collection <em>Black Out Noir</em> and we've dabbled in other things from there. Early Bogey and Bacall that I'd never seen as well as an epic that I spent two nights watching, <em>Once Upon a Time in Amercia</em>. I'm still thinking about that movie and about Max and Noodles and the differences between them. I'm also thinking about the cinematography and amazing way some of the scenes were shot (the mirrors in the dressing room, so amazing!).</p>
<p>We got <em>The Brutalist</em> out from the library (not for me, sadly) and we've watched some of the older Star Trek movies with the Next Generation crew.  We've watched some mindless older action and some James Bond, from all the eras.</p>
<p>One thing that's been fun about the start of movie season this year is that <a href="https://v7.robweychert.com/">Rob </a> is watching a lot of the movies we are around the same time. I've enjoyed seeing his logs and what he's thought about the noirs. Something about the early sunsets and the longer evenings makes me want to curl up and watch a movie, so I am.</p>

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			<title>Jury Duty</title>
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			<updated>2025-10-22T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Last week, for the third time in my life, I was summoned for jury duty. I was also a juror, for the third time in my life. Yup, that's right, three times summoned three times a juror in three different jurisdictions.</p>
<p>What's been interesting about these three experiences is how much has changed over the years. My first and second times on a jury I was summoned the old fashioned way, you had to show up at the courthouse on Monday of the week you were scheduled and sit there and wait to see if there were any juries needed. In both cases I'm fairly sure I sat at least one full day before being picked for a pool.</p>
<p>Last week it was a whole new world, I was able to go online to see if I was needed after 5pm the night before, such a better way of doing things. On Monday, no jurors were needed, on Tuesday a small group was needed, but on Wednesday over 90 of us were called in. Two trials were ready to go and they needed pools for two 12 member juries. It's amazing how many people they call in for that, over 40 people per pool.</p>
<p>As soon as I sat in the courtroom in the jury box I knew I'd be on the jury. It's all about luck of the draw and I was one of the first 13 people to be called in my pool which means I started out in the jury box and they had to find a reason to get me out of that box. No reason came and so I and 12 other people listened to a case. One of us was an alternate but we didn't know who it was until the end of the presentations by both sides.</p>
<p>What was different this time around was that the presentations of both the prosecution and the defense was over at around 4:30pm and we went into deliberations. We were kept there until we'd made a decision. I assumed we'd go home and come back, but nope. That meant a very long day, but they bought us pizza.</p>
<p>What I always tell people about jury duty is that it's hard. <em>It's really hard.</em> Many of my fellow jurors were excited at the beginning of the day, before we went to lunch, about seeing the process. By the end of the day, which was roughly 8:30pm, all of us were exhausted. This was a criminal case with three separate charges against the defendent and it was by far the hardest of the three cases on which I've served.</p>
<p>Understanding the law, what the words mean, when you aren't a lawyer and used to thinking in these ways, is hard. Processing all that you've seen in the courtroom and then putting that together with the physical evidence and the law is hard. Getting 12 people to agree is <em>really</em> hard. Doing all of this while being aware of any bias you may have adds yet another layer on top.</p>
<p>It takes me a long while to process through things and I needed to read and reread both the charges, the definitions, and the instructions from the judge to fully understand what we were being asked to decide. I'm also amazed that we did come to a unanimous decision by the time we did. The people I served with took it seriously and we all wanted to get it right, it made me grateful that this is our system. One of my fellow jurors said several times as we wrestled with the decision that if he ever was a defendent he wanted people to do the same as we were and I agree with him.</p>
<p>It isn't easy to do the job of a juror and I know most people complain a lot when they get summoned, but it's absolutely necessary. The other thing most people don't realize is that it's usually a short trial, a day or two, at most. Last Wednesday was a very long day for me, I was in the court house for roughly 12 hours, but it was only the one day. That being said, I sincerely hope this is the last time I'm on a jury, three times is enough for one lifetime.</p>

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			<title>Recent reads: October 2025</title>
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			<updated>2025-10-20T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<h2>Bel Canto</h2>
<p>A well known soprano is singing at a dinner for an executive of a Japanese company in a Central or South American country. After the show is over a group of rebels invade in an attempt to assasinate the president. The problem is the president of the country isn't there and then the rebels are left trying to figure out what to do. They take hostages and the <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/bel-canto-a-novel-ann-patchett/0fcbb7fc827a913c">story</a> proceeds from there. This isn't an easy story, but the writing is beautiful and there are moments of connection between the hostages and the rebels that were absolutely worth the read, even though I read with an impending sense of doom.</p>
<h2>American Creation: Triumphs and Tragedies at the Founding of the Republic</h2>
<p>I wanted to know more about the founding of the United States, so I decided to read some books we had on the shelf that G read when studying American History. I've read on other book by Ellis and really enjoy his style, so I picked up <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/american-creation-joseph-j-ellis/5fa76dae06c43e44"> <em>American Creation</em></a> and enjoyed the read. Ellis talks about the gradual pace of the creation of the country, it wasn't a fast process at all, and he also speaks to the things the men doing the work got wrong. I particularly appreciated the way in which Ellis wrote about Native Americans and the way in which they were treated so horribly, one of two major mistakes Ellis sees in the beginning of this country. I'm not done reading yet, but this was a good overview for a start.</p>
<h2>Book of Alchemy</h2>
<p>I touched a bit on this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-book-of-alchemy-a-creative-practice-for-an-inspired-life-suleika-jaouad/1f7a561e34f2384b">book</a> when I wrote about my experience <a href="/writing/100-days-journaling/">journaling</a> every day, but I hadn't quite finished it when I wrote that piece and now I have. The best parts of this book, by far, are the ones written by Jaouad herself. Her introductions to chapters are great and I loved reading them. What I've learned is that writing prompts aren't really my thing. While some of them were good and I've used them repeatedly in my journal, that was less than a handful, the rest didn't strike me, but that will be different for everyone and if they're your thing, you'll love having this collection.</p>
<h2>Great Big Beautiful Life</h2>
<p>I haven't read all of Emily Henry's books, but quite a few of them and this is my favorite of what I've read. Alice and Hayden are summoned to write the biography of a woman who was famous but disappeared from public life years ago. The two of them turn out to be competing for the job over the course of a month, but it's the story within the story, that of the old woman, that I thought brought so much to this book. Highly recommend this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/great-big-beautiful-life-reese-s-book-club-emily-henry/57d8b57f547bfb34">one</a> if you like Henry's work or romance in general.</p>
<h2>American Sphinx</h2>
<p>The second <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/american-sphinx-the-character-of-thomas-jefferson-joseph-j-ellis/2916c1ee1659205e">book</a> I read as I continue to read more about America's beginnings and this one is a biography of Thomas Jefferson, again written by Joseph Ellis and one that we own. Jefferson is a complicated person, as are most of the folks that were involved in the founding of the US because they're people and can't really ever be all the things we think, especially given way in which they've been romaticized or remembered for only certain things. I learned a lot reading this and it's by no means comprehensive, Ellis chose certain periods of Jefferson's life to highlight who he was. But it was the epilogue where Ellis brought together some threads that really stuck with me and the below quote has had me thinking for quite some time about why the US is the way it is. I've been thinking about that a lot lately in general, particularly after a friend from Canada asked me about things in our ongoing email exchanges. This quite sums it up for me pretty well.</p>
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<p>Both Adams and Madison and, to an even greater extent, Hamilton, began with the assumption of a society as a collective unit, which was embodied in the government, which itself should be designed to maximize individual freedom within the larger context of public order. Jefferson did not worry about public order, believing as he did that individuals liberated from the last remnants of feudal oppression would interact freely to create a natural harmony of interests that was guided, like Adam Smith's marketplace, by invisible or veiled forms of discipline. This belief, as Adams tried to tell him in the correspondence of their twilight years, was always an illusion, but it was an extraordinarily attractive illusion that proved extremely efficacious during the rowdy &quot;takoff&quot; years of the American economy in the nineteenth century, when geographic and econonomic growth generated its own topsy-turvy version of dynamic order. Not until the late nineteenth century, with the end of the frontier and the emergence of the massive economic inequalities of the Gilded Age, was it fully exposed as an illusion. (p 300)</p>
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<h2>The Unreal and the Real</h2>
<p>I started reading this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-unreal-and-the-real-the-selected-short-stories-of-ursula-k-le-guin-ursula-k-le-guin/8751ac63fb679e54">book</a> of short stories by Ursula Le Guin several years ago and it's taken me that long to get through it. I love Le Guin's writing but the second half stories spoke to me so much more than the first part. It feels like she's working through so many different themes that are expanded in her novels, but also trying out ideas that never made it to her novels. The world building is incredible and I know I'll be coming back to these and rereading some of them many more times. Le Guin's understanding of people and relationships is profound.</p>
<h2>London Rules</h2>
<p>The next <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/london-rules-mick-herron/20fc1ff2779e9d8c">book</a> in the Slough House series (and it's the one the the new season of <em>Slow Horses</em> is based on) was a welcome TV read for me after reading about the founding of the United States. The story focuses on Roddy, one of the long time Slow Horses and how he gets used in order for a plot to be carried out in England. It's a really clever plot so I don't want to say much more, but as usual, once I got into it I had a hard time putting it down.</p>
<h2>Table for Two</h2>
<p>I'm a huge fan of Amor Towles books and I finally got my hands on his <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/table-for-two-fictions-amor-towles/82f01315bdaa08bb">latest </a> which is short stories and a novella. I loved it. <em>The Line</em>, <em>The Bootlegger</em>, and <em>The DiDomenico Fragment</em> were some of the best short stories I've read in a long time. I also loved the novella and catching up with Eve after <em>Rules of Civility</em> and reading more of her story. If you like Towles, you'll love this one.</p>

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			<title>Made it Monday: October 20</title>
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				<p>I've been meaning to take pictures of all the things in this post for quite some time and finally got it done last weekend! I'm still trying to decide if I want to keep trying to fit my posts into the various things that are used on social media or if I'll let go of the illiteration and just post when I want to, we'll see. But here are my three most recent makes all in one picture.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/made-it-monday-october-20/made-it-monday-entire-sm.jpg 800w, 
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                 src="/images/build/posts/made-it-monday-october-20/made-it-monday-entire-sm.jpg" alt="A woman stands in front of a doorway with a window to her left that's sitting in a stone wall. She's holding out a traingle shaped shawl that has the rhythm of waves in the design or small oval wedges. She's wearing a brown two tiered skirt and flip flops with a cream sweater somewhat visible behind the shawl. She's got on glasses with a white plastic frame and her hair is curly and she's smiling.">
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<p>I made the <a href="https://nomadstitches.com/blog/fiamma-shawl">Fiamma Brioche shawl</a> which was an incredibly slow make, but I'm so glad I stuck with it. I talked about it in a <a href="/photos/wip-wednesday-fiamma/">WIP Wednesday</a> back in July. This is a really clever crochet design where you are using one stitch and short rows to create the effect and what's been most interesting to me is that so many knitters think it's knit rather than crochet. It's very squishy and warm and I think it'll be great for the coming cool weather.</p>
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                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/posts/made-it-monday-october-20/made-it-monday-shawl-sm.jpg" alt="A woman stands in front of a doorway with a blue shawl wrapped around her neck and she is visible only from mid chest up. The shawl is a wave design and she's wearing a cream colored sweater.">
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<p>Next up is the sweater, which is a new to me designer, Aimee Sher Makes, and it's one of the best patterns I've made in a long while, so well written with a lot of helpful details. I made the <a href="https://aimeeshermakes.com/products/slightly-sassy-v">Slightyly Sassy V</a> using <a href="https://yarnatwebsters.com/wool-dreamers-saona-yarn/">Wooldreamers Sanoa yarn</a>, which is 50% cotton and 50% wool. I love a blend like this because I tend to run warm, even in winter, and this makes a great garment but it's not too warm. I'm still not sure what I think of this make, it'll take wearing it a bit more to fully see if I like it and we're just now getting cool enough weather for that. The v-neck is very wide, much wider than I expected but the rest of the fit is pretty good. The designer is a huge believer in getting good fits and does have the option of bust darts which I didn't add in to my sweater. We'll see if I end up reaching for this or not in the coming months, but I loved working with the yarn.</p>
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                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/posts/made-it-monday-october-20/made-it-monday-sweater-sm.jpg" alt="A woman stands in front of a doorway wearing a cream colored v-neck sweater and she is visible only from mid chest up. She's smiling, has curly hair about chin length and wears glasses with a white plastic frame.">
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<p>Finally, the skirt is the <a href="https://truebias.com/collections/all/products/mave-skirt-size-0-18">Mave Skirt</a> by True Bias. I absolutely love True Bias patterns, so well written and she gives a lot of support with a sew-a-long on her blog with more pictures and helpful tips. The Mave is a simple skirt, but you can make so many variations with the pattern, from a mini skirt to a maxi skirt and all the various ways you can put together the tiers to make more or fewer ruffles. I made mine out of a light weight linen and lined the skirt with a light cotton voile, all purchased from <a href="https://stonemountainfabric.com/">Stonemountain and Daughter Fabric</a>. This is a relatively easy sew, other than the gathering, and it came together really quickly. It's also incredibly comfortable. I've already started thinking about more Maves I want to make, what variations and what fabric would be fun to use.</p>
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			<title>Baseball, my comfort watch</title>
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			<updated>2025-10-12T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been seeing some folks post about their comfort watches or reads and it's had me thinking the past week about baseball. It's my comfort watch. This year especially I think I've watched a lot of baseball, but we'll see what MLB says when they send the end of year stats.</p>
<p>I'm not a lifelong baseball fan, in fact I think I'm a rather new baseball fan. It started in 2020 for me. In 2019 G bought a streaming package to watch his childhood hometown team, the Brewers. I didn't really watch much that year at all. It all changed in 2020, when the baseball season was suspended during spring training, MLB opened up the archives to anyone with an account for free and we started watching 2019 games on the same day and month they were played they year earlier. It was a window into a sense of normalcy, seeing the crowds together in stadiums. It didn't matter that the games were already played because we didn't remember the details from a game a year earlier and that's all it took, I was hooked. We've traveled to games at all the major teams on the west coast and this year we went to spring training as well.</p>
<p>Fast forward to this year when the world is again in complete turmoil of a different kind and I needed to get away from it, baseball was my refuge. We now pay to be able to stream any game in the MLB (except where we're blacked out, don't get me going on that). Usually while watching I knit, it's the perfect thing to keep my hands busy and away from my phone.</p>
<p>In the last few seasons we've also started listening to radio broadcasts if there is a game on and we have decent service while on road trips. I've discovered some absolutely amazing broadcasters, including Tom Hamilton who calls the Guardians games and Howie Rose who broadcasts Mets games. Just a few weeks ago I listened to the Guardians play off series with the Tigers on the radio because the radio broadcasters follow their teams and cover them all the way through the playoffs, unlike TV where the playoff games are nationally broadcast and the announcers aren't nearly as familiar with the teams, a weakness in the system I think.</p>
<p>Now that baseball season is winding down, the playoffs are down to the final four teams (GO BREWERS!), I'm thinking about what I'm going to do to replace it and what my comfort watch will be this winter. But I also know when the World Series ends, no matter who's in it or who wins I'll be watching, I'll be counting down the days to when pitchers and catchers report in February.</p>

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			<title>100 Days of Journaling</title>
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			<updated>2025-09-01T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Last week I finished a 100 day project, quietly, just as I had been working on it. I decided during the spring that I wanted something to get me back in the groove of sketching and journaling, so bought a new journal and away I went.</p>
<p>I also bought <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-book-of-alchemy-journaling-toward-a-more-meaningful-life-suleika-jaouad/21707243"><em>The Book of Alchemy</em></a>, Suleika Jaouad's latest book, to use as inspiration and help me along. Although I've finished the 100 days, I haven't finished the book as I didn't take it with me on various trips since I was trying to pack light. That being said, while I do enjoy writing prompts, I didn't love this book and most days read the prompt but then did whatever I felt like. What stands out in this book is Jaouad's writing itself, her introductions to the sections are outstanding. I should also note that if you've subscribed to Jaouad's newsletter, that's where the prompts come from, so you've likely read many of them.</p>
<p>I'm most proud of the fact that I did this every day and I've kept going, albeit in a bit of a different form. For most of the 100 days I wrote, but since they ended I've been doing some drawing spreads inspired by a trip I took last week and Samantha Dion Baker's <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/draw-your-adventures-making-art-to-celebrate-everyday-experiences-and-travels-near-and-far-samantha-dion-baker/21885471"><em>Draw Your Adventures</em></a> and it felt good to be drawing and documenting life in that way.</p>
<p>I also put no pressure on myself as far as the journaling went, if I wrote a sentence, it counted. And a few days I wrote very little. Going forward my goal is to be in the journal/sketchbook every day in some way and that may be writing, it may be doing some drawing, it may be collage, we'll see where it goes. I'm proud I got through it, proud that I started processing life things via writing, and proud that I documented my most recent trip via drawing. I'm realizing that making, sketching, and writing, mostly when it's just for me, is enough and exactly what I need. I do share a lot of what I do, but I also love having a spot that's just for me.</p>

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			<title>Recent reads: August 2025</title>
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			<updated>2025-08-04T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I almost couldn't believe I haven't posted a reading update since the end of May, but when I look at how long this list of books is that I've read since then, I can believe it. Reading has been my refuge at times, my way to try and see how the world can be better and different. It also got me through 11.5 hours in the Denver airport and poetry has been a companion as I've journaled in the mornings. I've also found myself, much like in my making, going back to books I've read and reading bits and pieces here and there, some times even doing a complete reread, because it's <a href="/writing/comfort-of-repetition/">comforting</a>.</p>
<h2>Clouds of Witness</h2>
<p>Continuing on my mystery reading, I read another Dorothy Sayers Lord Peter Wimsey and I continue to enjoy the character and the mysteries. Wimsey is brought in to find out who murdered his sister's fiancé and, as the <a href="https://standardebooks.org/ebooks/dorothy-l-sayers/clouds-of-witness">title</a> suggests, there are a lot of people who saw key moments. Wimsey works his way through all of them and, of course, unravels the mystery. Sayers is a great writer and it's a good book.</p>
<h2>The Innocence of Father Brown</h2>
<p>I've watched the TV series based on Father Brown but had never read any of the books and decided to change that. Not gonna lie, this wasn't a great <a href="https://standardebooks.org/ebooks/g-k-chesterton/the-innocence-of-father-brown">read</a> for me, it's set up as a series of shorts, each chapter its own mystery. I was hoping for something more involved, but once I adjusted my expectations, I did end up finishing it. It may also be the way I moved towards reading more short stories.</p>
<h2>The Phoenix Crown</h2>
<p>This <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-phoenix-crown-janie-chang/19879569">book</a> will always remind me of being stuck in the Denver airport for almost 12 hours (long story), but I'm grateful the story sucked me in so well that I was able to while away the hours. A group of women are in San Francisco right before the big earthquake and they all become involved in some fashion with an incredibly rich man. Through all of this they meet each other and become good friends and help each other, in particular when the earthquake and fires hit. I really enjoyed this story and loved all the history that was worked into the various stories of the women.</p>
<h2>Exhalation</h2>
<p>My second read of this fantastic book of short stories and some of them hit differently, but it's still a great book. Chiang's thoughts on technology and humanity resonate all the more now that AI is constantly in my feed and the news.</p>
<p>You can read my <a href="https://www.susanjeanrobertson.com/reading/books-read-march-2021/">original thoughts</a> in the post from 2021. I don't disagree with any of those, but I did come away this time thinking a lot about how we interact with technology, especially now that I'm using it more as part of my life and less as part of my work life.</p>
<h2>Olive, Again</h2>
<p>The <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/olive-again-elizabeth-strout/15297453">second book</a> of Strout's to focus on Olive Kitteridge and I blew through this incredibly fast. I really like this character, she's blunt and says what she thinks, but also in her own way very much helps the people around her. She's clear eyed about her community and her own aging, while at the same time failing to understand her son or their relationships. She's so <em>human</em>. This was an enjoyable trip back into her world. (The post with the review of <em>Olive Kitteridge</em> from 2020 can be found <a href="https://www.susanjeanrobertson.com/reading/books-read-december-2020/">here</a>.)</p>
<h2>Selected Poems</h2>
<p>I've been reading poetry many mornings as part of my time spent with my journal and the lastest was a <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/denise-levertov-selected-poems-denise-levertov/12405247">compliation</a> of the work of Denise Levertov. I really enjoyed these, she wrote about such a wide variety of subjects, from her faith to the every day to pieces inspired by other figures in history and writing. I found myself looking forward to opening it up and seeing what was in store, but I'll admit, the every day was what I enjoyed the most as it made me slow down and notice more in my every day life.</p>
<h2>Suspect</h2>
<p>I was &quot;shopping&quot; in the library for my next read and realized I'd never read any of Scott Turow's legal thrillers and picked this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/suspect/18893634">one</a> up. The Chief of Police in Highland Isle is accused of trading sex for promotions and as the story continues, you realize there is a lot more going on here. I really liked the characters of Chief Gomez and Pinky, but the story ended incredibly abruptly with pretty much no falling action and I didn't love that at all. Not sure I'll read another of his books, but I'm glad I gave this one a go.</p>
<h2>Spook Street</h2>
<p>The fifth <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/spook-street-mick-herron/10575302">book</a> in the Slough House series by Nick Herron did not disappoint. It moved quickly and was hard to put down, especially the last 100 pages or so. Herron has a way of moving the story back and forth in time in a way as that is amazing to me and also keeps me on the edge of my seat (figuratively) as I read on to find out what happens. This book finds River dealing with his aging grandfather, a former spy, and it's really about what happens to those folks as they age and their mind starts to go. That whole premise set up for a terrific story and it's something I'd never really thought about.</p>
<h2>Tell Me Everything</h2>
<p>Elizabeth Strout has such a way of taking the story of an ordinary life and showing how it's really not that ordinary, in effect saying that there are no ordinary lives. It was great to read this on the heels of <em>Olive, Again</em> since Olive is once again in this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/tell-me-everything-elizabeth-strout/21003025">book</a>, but the main character is Bob Burgess, an aging lawyer who takes on a case to defend a local suspected of killing his mother. At the same time we see how Bob cares for so many around him. Stories like these are reminders of the importance of community and how we often care for each other without realizing it.</p>
<h2>Sandwich</h2>
<p>I tore through this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/sandwich-catherine-newman/20960889">book</a> in less than 24 hours, honestly I couldn't put it down. The main character and I are about the same age and while our life experiences are quite different, there was something so relatable to me about the way she talked about her marriage and what was going on with her body. Rocky is on vacation for a week with her grown children and her parents, the same place they've vacationed every year for a long time. The story isn't just about that week, but also about some things in Rocky's past and as you read you learn more and more about her. I loved it, fast moving and so very well written and all the characters are great.</p>

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			<title>Goodbye Substack</title>
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			<updated>2025-07-31T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Yesterday, aftering thinking about this for quite some time, I deleted my Substack account. I started to feel horrible about using the platform a while ago and I didn't pay for any subscriptions because I didn't want to put money into that company, but I was still subscribed to a handful of newsletters that I enjoyed.</p>
<p>If you're not aware, Substack is doing absolutely no content moderation, which means there are folks using that platform to promote pretty horrible things. It's been written about by quite a few large news organizations and yesterday I came across a helpful <a href="https://leavesubstack.com/">site</a> that puts it all together (thanks <a href="https://kottke.org/">Kottke</a>), if you want to read about it yourself.</p>
<p>I think what's been most disheartening for me is seeing people move <em>on</em> to Substack who previously hadn't been. I've had one email newsletter do this in the past few months and one person who used to be a great follow via RSS is now hardly posting on their site at all and when they do it's to steer you to Substack. It's really disappointing to see so many folks congregating around this one platform as if it too won't, in the end, do what's best for the platform rather than users. We've seen this all before, and yet....</p>
<p>As an alternative to Substack, RSS is great and I'm finding more and more people who are writing on their sites and it's been awesome. If you want some help to get going in that area, I just saw this <a href="https://www.citationneeded.news/curate-with-rss/">article</a> this morning, a handy how-to guide. I already linked to this before, but if you want to see some really good thinking about how Substack isn't going to make it in the end, I think <a href="https://newsletter.anamariecox.com/archive/substack-did-not-see-that-coming/">&quot;Substack Did Not See That Coming&quot;</a> is worth the read. While I may miss a few newsletters for a week or so, I'll get over it and in the end, I want to support and read folks who value the small web.</p>

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			<title>The comfort of repetition</title>
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			<updated>2025-07-19T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I recently listened to an episode of the <a href="https://www.sporkful.com/is-your-recipe-lying-to-you/">Sporkful podcast</a> entitled &quot;Is your recipe lying to you?&quot; I enjoyed the podcast, the conversation with Chris Kimball was hilarious, but I was caught by something the Elizabeth Dunn said towards the end.</p>
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<p>It's actually an incredibly pleasing and gratifying feeling, cooking things repeatedly and honing them. I don't know, there's something very comforting to me about cooking a dish over and over again and having it be part of my repitoire and I think we're, sort of, actively discouraged from cooking that way now, because of the focus on novelty.</p>
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<p>This hit me, because I do most of the cooking in our house, I do read a lot of recipes and I get the NY Times cooking newsletter. I try new recipes fairly regularly. That being said, I've started to file recipes away into a folder called &quot;Keepers&quot; and I've cooked many of them repeatedly, some of which I don't even need the recipe any more.</p>
<p>It's also, as the host said when setting up the above comments, the way my mom cooked. How did I get to have those favorite dishes that my mom cooked me over and over again in my childhood? It was by my mom repeating things. It's also why I and so many of my cousins missed certain dishes my grandma made in her lifetime, because she made them regularly.</p>
<p>The more I thought about this, the more I realized that right now, especially right now, I've been wanting to fall back on the comforts of things I know. I'm sewing patterns for a second or third time. I'm knitting patterns I've already knit. My plans for sewing and knitting aren't exclusively things I've already made, but I'm sprinkling in repeats to give myself a break and allow myself some easy meditative makes. Just as I do when thinking about a meal plan, I sprinkle in some easy recipes I've made repeatedly to give myself a break.</p>
<p>As things in the world and in the US become more chaotic and difficult and I need to take myself away from news, I'm returning to things that I enjoy and that bring me comfort. This translates in so many different ways, my making and cooking as well as what I watch and read.</p>

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			<title>Boredom, silence, wasting time</title>
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			<updated>2025-06-01T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p><a href="https://lithub.com/craig-mod-on-the-creative-power-of-walking">Craig Mod</a>:</p>
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<p>For me, from this boredom—this blankness of mind as I walk past sometimes fields and sometimes giant gambling pachinko parlors—words flow. I can’t stop them. My mind begins writing about what we see and refuses to shut up. That gap created by a lack of artificial stimulation is filled—thanks to the magic plasticity of our brains—with words and more words. Without Candy Crush, an inverted event horizon spawns, and out shoots: thoughts. I dictate as I walk. From afar, it looks like I’m either on a board meeting call with a CEO or am insane. Amidst all of this, in the lulls of dictation, I photograph—people, objects, mountains, trees, stumps, deer, shrines, temples, dogs depressed and dogs joyful, homes well used and those abandoned.</p>
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<p>I'd seen this piece by Mod linked so many times before I finally read it myself and it's good, it's worth clicking through and reading. Right after I read it I read the <a href="https://cliophate.wtf/how-to-think">following</a>:</p>
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<p>I am a strong believer in cultivating silence to let our minds go wild and start forming thoughts. It is not easy, though, modern civilization likes to flood us with distractions. Therefore, I try to find moments throughout the day where I embrace silence.</p>
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<p>I don't think the two are completely interchangeable, boredom and silence, but these two pieces are getting at the same idea, but from different angles. The second piece goes on to talk about AI and I don't have much to say about it, it's not something I use nor that I've delved into in any great detail. To be frank, I'm annoyed by it pushing itself into products I use more than anything else.</p>
<p>I agree with Mod, I walk with no distractions, often I don't even have my phone with me. I've also found that walking with the phone in a place where it's harder to pull out (say in a backpack), that's even better for me. And it's often on walks or in the garden or while knitting with no distraction, that I start to come up with ideas. The ideas that stick around, usually end up in a project that may or may not become public.</p>
<p>These two pieces also made me think of an older post by <a href="https://aworkinglibrary.com/writing/waste-time">Mandy Brown</a> quoting the excellent Mary Ruefle and then going on to say:</p>
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<p><em>For there is so little time to waste during a life.</em> What a lovely corrective to the advice we’re usually given, that wasting time is slothful or indolent. And note that Ruefle is careful not to suggest that wasted time is invisibly productive. This isn’t a backhanded lifehack—it’s a defense of inefficiency. And one we would be wise to heed.</p>
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<p>I wonder how much better off we'd all be if we were able (and I realize not everyone is able) to be bored more, to waste more time, to sit in silence.</p>

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			<title>Recent small things</title>
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				<p>If I was still on Twitter in the old days, maybe some of these would've been posted there. But I'm not on social media and I've been trying to figure out how to share some of the small things, so I'm trying this. All of these thoughts or events happened in the past couple of weeks, I've collected them and figured it was worth a share.</p>
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<p>We're in a large city for the weekend so G can make use of a community darkroom and I'm wandering around. I stop off at a small fabric shop and as my fabric is being cut, I'm fairly sure by the owner, we talk about how things are going. She says things are OK, she doesn't buy fabric from China and her suppliers have a lot of stock in the US. I'm happy that's the case. These past months I've learned so much about fabric and who makes what and it's been fascinating, even if I'm learning it because of unnecessary chaos.</p>
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<p>Each week as I drive into the main city in our county to walk dogs at our local Humane Society I cross under an interstate overpass that has a large sign up that says &quot;Save Democracy&quot; or &quot;Resist&quot; and people are waving at the passing traffic. It's a small thing, but it helps so much to know that there are others worried about the state of things and they're taking time <em>every week</em> to do something.</p>
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<p>I made a mistake when reupping a subscription for a streaming service and learned that customer service is almost nonexistent. It's not a huge deal, but it's annoying, so I've tried to find help but I don't think I will in the end. It's very telling about these times how much we rely on the internet for things and how little help we can get from companies if the process isn't smooth. Those that do help and put the resources into service stand out.</p>
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<p>I've entered my digicam era. G gave me an old camera of his, so it's technically a bit more camera than your typical digicam, but it's been interesting to use. I walked around on our trip with it and we did a large walk through our town and I shot a lot of pictures, they aren't all great, but it was fun to use a proper camera. The thing I love about it is that I'm not distracted by anything else when I want to take a picture, when I pull it out, all I can do is take the picture and go back to noticing what's around me.</p>
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<p>I'm standing with Zizi on the leash next to me in front of several small groups of second and third graders. The kids are meeting the dogs at the Humane Society in order to do a writing assignment that has to be persuasive. Cooper, a huge fluffy dog is standing calmly and soon surrounded by kids who are petting him so much his fur is flying everywhere as he blows his winter coat. Belle is a young dog and shy, but she soon crawls on her belly towards a group of kids and they eagerly give her all the love. Soon Belle is on her belly taking it all in. Zizi is a bit indifferent, but allows kids to pet her. At the end while things are slowing down I'm talking with a Mom who is chaperoning the trip and her daughter is petting Zizi and quietly I hear the girl say, &quot;I want her.&quot;</p>
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<p>I saw a t-shirt that said &quot;Pain is weakness leaving your body.&quot; Not sure what that means, but also know that I think it's BS.</p>
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<p>“I am painting, I am drawing, I’m doing photography. I’m climbing mountains and going on very long walks. I’m having little adventures, but yes, not on social media. I don’t think it’s something that would particularly serve my life, and I’m quite happy that I don’t have it.”<br>
-- Mia Threapleton, <a href="https://www.nytimes.com/2025/05/30/movies/mia-threapleton-phoenician-scheme.html">NY Times Interview</a></p>
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			<title>Recent reads: May 2025</title>
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				<p>It's Memorial Day Weekend and in some ways I can't believe it and in others it feels like we should be way deeper in 2025 given all that's happened and is happening. I'll admit that I've not dealt well with the events of the world lately and books, knitting, and journaling are getting me through. I've started some things and not finished them as they've not been for me, but as usual, here is what I've finished since my last post in March. My top pick from this list is <em>Margo's Got Money Troubles</em>.</p>
<h2>A Thousand Ships</h2>
<p>A <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/a-thousand-ships-natalie-haynes/16195540?ean=9780063065406&amp;next=t">retelling</a> of The Trojan War from the perspective of the women which was fast moving, each chapter was from a different perspective. I particularly loved the letters written by Penelope as she awaits the return of Odysseus. I'll admit that I don't know the stories this was based on super well, but I enjoyed the novel quite a bit and recommend it.</p>
<h2>Margo's Got Money Troubles</h2>
<p>I absolutely loved this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/margo-s-got-money-troubles-rufi-thorpe/20917237?ean=9780063356580&amp;next=t">book</a> and tore through it in a few days. Margo is pregnant at 19 and trying to figure out how to live life and what to do with her life to support herself and her child. I found myself cheering for Margo so hard as I read the book. As the story moves on Margo starts to see people and the world and how things work so clearly and her perspective is really great. I highly recommend this one, such a great story.</p>
<h2>Ms. Demeanor</h2>
<p>I found this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/ms-demeanor-elinor-lipman/18553232?ean=9780358677888&amp;next=t">book</a> at my local used bookstore, realized that I recognized the cover as being from my to read list and picked it up. It's a really funny story about a woman who's on home confinement after being caught by a peeping neighbor for an offense and how she makes it through the 6 months. This didn't go at all the way I thought it would, but I ended up enjoying it for the most part. There are a lot of offshoot stories, but only one of them bugged me and it was quite small. I've been in the mood for lighter reads lately and this fit the bill.</p>
<h2>The Space Between Worlds</h2>
<p>There are multiple versions of our world and Cara travels between them, working for a company that is collecting data from the other worlds. It's her ticket to living in the city, living the good life. She's carrying a secret and she's realizing things may not be as they seem in the company or her world. I loved this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-space-between-worlds-micaiah-johnson/13816547?ean=9780593156919&amp;next=t">book</a> and sped through it, the characters and world building are so fantastic.</p>
<h2>Those Beyond the Wall</h2>
<p>I love the previous book so much I got the <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/those-beyond-the-wall-micaiah-johnson/20159514?ean=9780593497500">second book of the series</a> from the library the day after I finished the first. The story shifts in this book, taking place a decade after the first and it focuses on a minor character we meet briefly in the first book, Mr. Scales. The story is about the world outside the walls of the city, the people of Ashtown. This is a very different story, but just as well written. I loved it until the last 50 pages or so, but I don't want to spoil it so I won't say more here. I'm glad I read it, but was sad that it hit a sour note at the end for me.</p>
<h2>Nothing to See Here</h2>
<p>A podcaster I watch who knits and sews recommended this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/nothing-to-see-here-kevin-wilson/19154266?ean=9780062913494&amp;next=t">book</a> and I decided to give it a try, the cover and title intrigued me. It's a fantastical story about a woman who gets a call from her best friend from boarding school to help her out with her step children who have an unusual quality needing a higher level of care. What made the book for me was the writing style, it moved quickly, and Lillian, such a great character. This probably isn't for everyone, but it gave me a lot of food for thought about what makes someone a parent and how we deal with difference.</p>
<h2>The Incendiaries</h2>
<p>A difficult <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-incendiaries-r-o-kwon/9711256?ean=9780735213906&amp;next=t">read</a>, to be honest. A man tries to figure out what drew his girlfriend to a cult, as you read you learn more about both of them and you realize the ending will not be a good one. Well written and fast paced, which is why I finished it. Not sure I fully recommend it, it depends on if you can handle the content in these times, not an escape by any means.</p>
<h2>One Good Turn</h2>
<p>The <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/one-good-turn-kate-atkinson/108717?ean=9780316012829&amp;next=t">second book</a> in the Jackson Brodie series by Kate Atkinson was very different from the first. Jackson is not really the main character in this one, but I honestly am not sure who I would say is. There are so many different story lines and Atkinson does a good job at bringing them together in the end, but it took a long time for various threads to make any sense to me. I finished it because I wasn't sure how she was going to reel it all in and yet, she did. We'll see if I read the next book or not.</p>

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			<title>Small things</title>
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				<p>I was recently reading through my feeds and came across a short post from <a href="https://scottboms.com/documenting/the-dignity-of-small-things">Scott Boms</a>, with a quote from Haruki Murakami so good I'm going to put it here to make it easy to read.</p>
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<p>Maybe working on the little things as dutifully and honestly as we can is how we stay sane when the world is falling apart.</p>
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<p>I've been thinking about that a lot as things in the US get worse. It's also made me think of <em>Small is Beatiful</em> which I <a href="/reading/small-is-beautiful/">read in 2016</a> and think I may pick up again. As I continue to read warnings about shelves going empty and things being difficult in the coming months I go back to thinking about how this global economy works. My CSA just announced they're getting a lot more local produce in now, the spring and summer abundance is starting. I'm grateful for that.</p>
<p>Even though I can buy local produce on the regular for the next several months, there is so much that comes from across the ocean. Hardly any fabrics are made in the US anymore. There are mills for yarn in the US but there aren't enough sheep to keep up with demand. I'm in no way minimizing the pain that many, many people will feel by talking about my hobbies, but this is what we do, isn't it? We take from our own experiences and think about how it affects us, but the reality is that many people could feel very real economic consequences from this and that makes me sad.</p>
<p>I'm keep going back to the quote above, trying to do the small things, trying to focus on today, trying to stay offline, trying to find ways to improve things where I can.</p>

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			<title>Back pain</title>
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				<p>A couple of years ago I injured my lower back doing some core work during a workout. I recovered and for the most part, my back is fine. Every once in a great while, like around once a year, my back decides it really wants me to slow down by seizing and spasming.</p>
<p>This happened last week. Now that I've been through this a few times, I know what to do. But for the first few minutes, it's always so unexpected. One minute I'm emptying a tea filter into the compost, the next I'm getting to the floor as gingerly as possible to lie on my back as G looks on with concern. I know what helps, walking is the best thing I can do, along with stretching as often as possible during the day. This time around I was feeling back to normal within a few days because I did all the things and started doing them immediately.</p>
<p>I'm reminded during these times, every time I get up from a seated position in fact, that I'm lucky. Most days of my life I don't feel pain and I can move around easily and not everyone is in the same position. It's a good reminder to slow down a bit, every time I start to feel better I incorporate a new thing into my routines that will hopefully help keep my back healthy and strong.</p>

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			<title>Current thoughts on my making</title>
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				<p>I've spent a lot of time this year thinking about the clothes I make, specifically looking for the intersection of what I like to make and what I like to wear. I'm a basics person almost all the time; I love a good jeans + tee + sweater. It's what I wear most days in the cooler months and sub out shorts for the jeans in the summer.</p>
<p>This year I've also been consciously trying to use fabric and yarn without wasting it, trying to make sure I make things I want to wear with yarn and fabric that suits the project. That may seem like the goal all the time, but believe me, it's possible to like making a certain type of garment but then you realize you don't really like wearing it all that much. To that end I've started to change how I approach projects and what projects I decide to do. Please note that these are unique to me and everyone is going to think differently about making and I wanted to share my current thoughts.</p>
<p>I don't wear summer knits but I love making summer knits. That means I'm no longer making summer knits. I have five different summer tees that I've knit and I rarely wear them. Where I live it's very hot and even knitting with silk or cotton, it's too much in a knit garment for me. So, no more summer knits for me and in the spring and fall when the weather is just right, I'll pull out and wear the ones I've already made.</p>
<p>Heavy sweaters also aren't worth it for me. I knit a sweater with rustic wool this past winter, it was so fun to knit and I love the fit, but I only reached for it for a couple of times over the course of the winter as it needs to be quite chilly for me to want to put it on. I guess I run hot? Or maybe it's that I live in a new construction, tightly built house where it doesn't get really cold in winter, but either way, the few heavier sweaters I have are enough.</p>
<p>I love to wear basic, plain stockinette sweaters. Those are the ones where there is no pattern of color work or texture, it's just the knit stitch all the way. I love knitting them too. I know many folks get bored with these types of projects, but there is something so great and meditative about knitting the knit stitch in the round. On top of that, they are so easy to wear and chuck on over a tee.</p>
<p>This past year I've knit and sewn a few things with a lot of positive ease, which is when the circumference of the bust is more than your actual measurements. High amounts of positive ease aren't my jam. I think it looks great on other people, but I never like it on me. I'm still learning this lesson as I sewed a dress recently that I'm not sure I'll wear much, the positive ease may be too much for me.</p>
<p>I'm taking all of this and using it to evaluate patterns and find things that I'll not only love making, but love wearing. This has led to discovering new to me designers in both sewing and knitting. I'm excited to make some of the things I've found and to continue thinking about what I'm making, as I'm sure this will evolve over time.</p>

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			<title>Finishing frenzy</title>
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				<p>Over the past few days I've been coping with the world by making. One of the things I love about making is finishing things and it's been several days in a row of finishing things, my favorite. On Saturday I finished a dress, on Sunday I sewed up a belt bag in one go, today I finished some socks, and I finally sewed on the buttons to fully finish my <a href="/photos/wip-wednesday-lauder/">cabled cardigan</a>.</p>
<p>I'll probably talk about all of these in their own posts at some point soon, but the interesting thing is how I don't feel great about absolutely everything when I finish it, but I love the fact that it's done. For example: I'm not sure about the dress, while I love flowy dresses on other people, I'm really not sold on them on me. And that isn't rare for me, it's more often than not that I finish a thing and don't love it. But then a funny thing happens. I put the item away, either in the closet or packed in the shelf full of sweaters, and I let it sit there. Over time I find out if I love it or not based on how often I reach for it and wear it. My favorite makes were often things I didn't like at all when I finished them.</p>
<p>Now I enter the period of figuring out if I love the four things I've made or not. I can fairly confidently say I'll love the belt bag and the socks will get worn no matter what, but the dress and cardigan will take time to either come to the fore or not. The more I make, the more I find I'm making things I love in the end because I'm getting better at fit and at choosing patterns that fit my wardrobe and style.</p>

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			<title>Recent reads: March 2025</title>
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				<p>What a start to the year it's been. I've been heartbroken to see what's going on in both my country and the world, it's hard to imagine that it will ever get better, but books step into that gap for me and help me see what's possible. I've read a lot and just keep on going with several books out from the library at a time so I'm never without the next read. I've also dipped my toes into poetry and enjoyed it, so I expect to read more of it in the future. Stories have become very important to me, they're not only a way to escape, but also, more importantly, a way to imagine and think about a better future.</p>
<h2>Before You Knew My Name</h2>
<p>A <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/before-you-knew-my-name-jacqueline-bublitz/18520048?ean=9781982198992&amp;next=t&amp;next=t">mystery</a> that is told in a really interesting manner. Two women arrive in New York City on the same day but they end up having very different experiences and become connected when one finds the other murdered. I really enjoyed this and the way the story inverted the typical way a mystery works.</p>
<h2>Little Fires Everywhere</h2>
<p>I saw this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/little-fires-everywhere-celeste-ng/7483845?ean=9780735224315&amp;next=t&amp;next=t">book</a> in my local used bookshop and picked it up. It took me a bit to get into the story and I'm not really sure I ended up liking it that much but I did finish it. I have a hard time when I don't like most of the characters and that was the case in this book. I saw where things were going and was hoping the ending would be better than it was.</p>
<h2>The Carrying</h2>
<p>A <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-carrying-poems-ada-limon/8997510?ean=9781571315137&amp;next=t&amp;next=t">book of poems</a> by Ada Limón that are unsparing in their emotions. I read this over a series of mornings and was always taken aback by her style and way of using so few words to say so much. That's poetry, isn't it? Since I haven't read much poetry, I found this to be a great way in. Limón writes about it all and I so appreciate her way of cutting to the quick, especially when it comes to dealing with other people.</p>
<h2>American Primitive</h2>
<p>I continued with poetry with a volume of Mary Oliver's <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/american-primitive-mary-oliver/114449?ean=9780316650045&amp;next=t&amp;next=t">work</a> that I've had for quite some time. Oliver always makes me see the outside world differently and as I was reading this I went into my walks looking at the animals, trees, and everything around me a bit differently. I'm particularly noticing the early signs of spring that are popping up around me.</p>
<h2>Think Little</h2>
<p>A <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/think-little-essays-wendell-berry/17314325?ean=9781640091733&amp;next=t&amp;next=t">slim volume</a> that consists of two essay written by Wendell Berry in 1968 and 1971. What's always amazing to me about Berry's writing, and many other folks as well, is how much something written 50 or more years ago holds up. Talking about movements for change in various areas or about how we treat the land, the descriptions and words aren't shy in telling it like it is but also in reminding us that we can be better. I'll be coming back to this one in the future I'm sure.</p>
<h2>The Nix</h2>
<p>A story spanning decades about a son and his mother, <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-nix-nathan-hill/7379901?ean=9781101970348&amp;next=t&amp;next=t"><em>The Nix</em></a> goes back and forth in time to tell both their stories. I didn't absolutely love all of the story lines in this but I was most curious about the mother and wanted to see her story through to the end so I finished the book. This was published in 2016 and some of the story did bring back the beginnings of the current era in the US, at least policitally, and it was interesting to see that juxtaposed with historic events from 1968.</p>
<h2>Echoes of Memory</h2>
<p>I didn't enjoy all of the poems in this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/echoes-of-memory-john-o-donohue/8783324?ean=9780307717580&amp;next=t&amp;next=t">collection</a>, but several made me stop and reread and I'll come back to them. The final section on love spoke to me the most, but I found others sprinkled in that stopped me in my reading. I've found reading some poems each day to be a good way to think about words and the world differently and am really enjoying it.</p>
<h2>Oribital</h2>
<p>A lovely <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/orbital/19729720?ean=9780802163622&amp;next=t&amp;next=t">read</a> from the perspective of different astronauts on the space station at it does it's orbits during a 24 hour day. The international crew all bring different perspectives of what they're seeing as well as their daily lives on the station. The meditations on the views of Earth from the station are particularly beautiful.</p>
<h2>Like Mother, Like Daughter</h2>
<p>I tore through this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/like-mother-like-daughter-kimberly-mccreight/20695821?ean=9780593536421&amp;next=t&amp;next=t">thriller</a> in a day and a half as I couldn't put it down. I really like the way the story moved back and forth from the daughter's and mother's perspectives. Cleo arrives home from NYU to her childhood home in Brooklyn to find the front door ajar and blood on the floor in the kitchen, food burning, and her mom isn't there. The book moves at a fast clip, taking you through Cleo's perspective of after the incident and her mom's perspective of the days leading up to it. Highly recommend this one if you like this genre.</p>
<h2>The Importance of Being Earnest</h2>
<p>My first <a href="https://standardebooks.org/ebooks/oscar-wilde/the-importance-of-being-earnest">read</a> from the Standard Ebook Project and it was such a well laid out ebook! I also love this story although I don't think I've ever read it and it was great to slow down and savor the lines. Wilde's humor and his skewering of the upper classes of his period make for a fun and light read, exactly what I needed at the time.</p>
<h2>The Demon of Unrest</h2>
<p>Erik Larson's way of writing non fiction draws me in every time. I always feel like I'm reading a novel, but it's not a novel and that's why I keep reading his books. I also find, during hard times, that reading stories from the past (along with dystopian fiction) comforts me and helps me see ways forward. This is the <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-demon-of-unrest-a-saga-of-hubris-heartbreak-and-heroism-at-the-dawn-of-the-civil-war-erik-larson/20335359?ean=9780385348744&amp;next=t&amp;next=t">story</a> of the months from when Lincoln was elected president to the when Fort Sumter was attacked. I learned a lot in this read and it gave me hope.</p>
<h2>Unnatural Death</h2>
<p>I'd never read any of the Lord Peter Wimsey series of mysteries and was glad to see some of them on Standard eBook. This is a <a href="https://standardebooks.org/collections/lord-peter-wimsey">mystery</a> in the same vein as Ms. Marple or Poirot and I really enjoyed it. Wimsey is hilarious and I was especially pleased to see how Sayers crafted a strong female character who Wimsey enlists for help, she reminded me of Poirot's assitant in many ways. I'll definitely be reading more of these.</p>

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			<title>One week (mostly) offline</title>
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				<p>I've spent the past week off of social media (since I no longer have any accounts) and trying to cut down my time online overall. At the same time, I've seen so many different articles of people talking about doing the same thing. I think, quite possibly, many folks are realizing that technology isn't the answer and that it may be a hindrance to living the life we want.</p>
<p>I spend time on both <a href="https://www.ravelry.com/people/susanjrobertson">Ravelry</a> and <a href="https://threadloop.app/members/susan_j">Threadloop</a>. They're  all about helping me figure out what I want to make next or documenting what I've made for future reference. I also use <a href="https://app.thestorygraph.com/profile/sj_robertson">Storygraph</a> and have found it an interesting way to track reading. I agree with this sentiment from the <a href="https://embedded.substack.com/p/twitter-facebook-detox">Embedded newsletter</a>:</p>
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<p>To use Goodreads, you have to be reading. To use Ravelry, you have to be knitting. To use Letterboxd, you have to be watching (ideally going to see) movies. Even a visit to Pinterest, one of the pioneers of the infinite scroll, more often than not ends with me pinning something I’d like to do IRL—a sewing pattern I’d like to try, or a new way to organize my office.</p>
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<p>The link to the above came via Ann Friedman's <a href="https://mailchi.mp/ladyswagger/its-a-crisis-babe?e=48fe2ddcbc">newsletter</a> where she also linked to an article by someone getting off of food delivery apps. I've found, in this past week, that my mind has calmed down. The fact that I don't know everything that's going on hasn't changed what's happening in the world but it has changed me. This past weekend I read a book in just a day and a half and we did our first puzzle in years. Going into week two, I'm feeling pretty good and hoping to keep it up.</p>

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			<title>Making a change</title>
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			<updated>2025-02-03T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I woke up to snow today. It's unusual for where I live, maybe once a winter we get snow that sticks. As the day has gone on the snow is falling heavier and sticking even more. I've welcomed the quiet, white world outside.</p>
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                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/snow-day-2025.jpg" alt="A barn sits in the middle ground, snow falling in front of it, the wood is weathered and worn and there are spots of unevenness with holes to the interior. The second floor is open and you can see inside, a glimpse of hay. To the left of the barn is a tee, snow clinging to it and covering all its branches.">
    <figcaption>From my walk in the snow, usually this is where I stop and chat with Meow Meow the cat, but today he was nowhere to be found. All was quiet as the snow fell.</figcaption>
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<p>I've not done well the past two weeks. Last night I realized, with the help of G, that I need to make some serious changes and today I woke up determined to do just that. A huge part of it will be not picking up my phone, it's too easy to get lost in the shuffle of the internet on that small thing. The other part, which I started this weekend is getting back to journaling most days, to get out whatever is in my head and let it go. The final bit was deleting my last social media account, Instagram. I hadn't posted there in almost a year and it wasn't a place that was creating community for me.</p>
<p>There is so much I can't control and spending time reading about it is not helpful. I've realized that community, for me, doesn't come from online interactions but from knowing people in real life. The most satisfying social media experiences I've had have been with folks that I already knew in some fashion and then continued to keep up that relationship online <em>in a private capacity</em>. That's long gone for me due to the changing nature of platforms and I'm finally letting go of expecting to recreate it.</p>
<p>In general, the goal for February is to be online less, <em>a lot less</em>. It's to use my laptop for whatever it is I need to do and leave my phone sitting on the sill in my office. I'm reading more paper books, either used from our local shop or the library. I'm watching movies and shows that are older or from another country. The Criterion Channel has been good for that, as has been PBS. Sidenote: I just finished season four of <em>Astrid</em> on PBS and I can't recommend that show highly enough if you like mysteries. I may also be posting more notes here, we'll see, but already journaling is leading me to want to write more and share some of it.</p>

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			<title>Tag, you&#39;re it</title>
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			<updated>2025-01-27T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been seeing posts popping up in my RSS feed lately where folks are all answering the same set of questions about their blogs. To my surprise I was tagged by <a href="https://nazhamid.com/journal/blog-questions/">Naz</a> and so here we are. As a complete aside: I don't track any analytics on this site so I have no idea who is reading it and it always surprises me to find out people are, in fact, reading it.</p>
<h2>Why did you start blogging in the first place?</h2>
<p>I'm going to go ahead and quote myself since I still have my first post from this blog on the site from 2011:</p>
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<p>[I]t mainly boiled down to two. The first is that I wanted to have a place to put links, quotes, images, and other stuff that I find on the web - somewhere it would be stored and I could have a record of it. I did think about doing a Tumblr blog, but I wanted more of a challenge coding wise, so here it is on WordPress. Yup. My second foray into the WordPress world, this time I am doing a completely custom theme for the first time. The second reason for doing the blog was to try this out, this theming thing. It’s been a challenge in all the best ways.</p>
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<p>What's still true about the above is that I still want a place to put the things I find on the web and keep them as an archive of sorts for myself. What is no longer true is that I have no interest in using this as a place to play with code. Over the years the consistency slowed down at times, but having my own little spot on the web has been important to me for quite some time.</p>
<h2>What platform are you using to manage your blog and why did you choose it?</h2>
<p>Currently I'm using <a href="https://jekyllrb.com/">Jekyll</a> for my blog and I absolutely love static site generators. I've heard the arguments against, especially lately since it's harder to post on the go, but for me that's a feature, not a bug. I like being more thoughtful about what I post and I've liked having to be on my machine to do so. That being said, I've integrated things with Github and Netlify and that's made publishing a breeze.</p>
<h2>Have you blogged on other platforms before?</h2>
<p>I've used Wordpress and Siteleaf in the past, but Jekyll has definitely been the platform that's stuck around the longest. I really, really like not having a database involved in my site.</p>
<h2>How do you write your posts? For example, in a local editing tool, or in a panel/dashboard that’s part of your blog?</h2>
<p>I write my posts in <a href="https://www.bywordapp.com/">Byword</a>, a really simple markdown text editor. Ever since learning markdown when working at Editorially it's been my go to. My only customization is that I use the same font Editorially did for writing in the app as my Byword writing font, a bit of a nostalgia thing for me.</p>
<h2>When do you feel most inspired to write?</h2>
<p>I get most of my ideas when I'm walking and then get home from the walk and promptly do other things, so very few see the light of day. If something sticks with me for several weeks, I may eventually write it to get it out of my head, but that doesn't guarantee that it'll get published.</p>
<h2>Do you publish immediately after writing, or do you let it simmer a bit as a draft?</h2>
<p>I always let things sit for at least a bit, usually overnight. I've found that I usually find small errors or typos if I do that and also if emotions are running high while I'm writing I may realize that posting isn't a great idea.</p>
<h2>What are you generally interested in writing about?</h2>
<p>Honestly, this is changing as we speak. I used to write a lot about tech and I no longer have any interest in doing that. I have some posts brewing in my head about making, sewing and knitting specifically, but other than that I have no idea what I'll write. For a good while I was posting only links and my reading round up and that's been fine with me, but it all could change, who knows.</p>
<h2>Who are you writing for?</h2>
<p>Me. Writing is how I think and how I process. This blog is only one piece of that writing, I do a lot more that stays private.</p>
<h2>What’s your favorite post on your blog?</h2>
<p>I don't know if I have a favorite, but I scrolled through just the journal section of this site when answering these questions and there are several that reminded me of things or that were significant in some way. <a href="/geekery/we-are-the-minority/"><em>We are the minority</em></a> was the first post I wrote that got a lot of attention and looking at it now I think it's aged OK. On a personal level, my post about saying <a href="/self/goodbye-my-girl/">goodbye to my dog</a> is right up there as is my post about <a href="/self/goodbye-editorially/">Editorially</a>. Lately I've been doing semi regular vibe checks (inspired by <a href="https://daverupert.com/">Dave</a> and <a href="https://rachsmith.com/">Rach</a>) and I've found it really interesting to chronicle the feelings and activities of a recent time period and it's my way of sharing now that I'm off social media.</p>
<h2>Any future plans for your blog? Maybe a redesign, a move to another platform, or adding a new feature?</h2>
<p>My biggest plan is to change platforms, hopefully. I no longer code a lot so I'm hoping I can make this happen on my own, but we'll see. I'd like to move from Jekyll, which is Ruby based and I feel very uncomfortable in Ruby, to <a href="https://www.11ty.dev/">Eleventy</a>, which is JavaScript based and I'm slightly more comfortable with it. I don't plan to change design or anything in order to make it strictly about switching platforms and getting everything working. (Anyone who reads this who may have tips, articles, etc about going from Jekyll to Eleventy, I'd love to hear them!)</p>
<h2>Tag ‘em.</h2>
<p>I'll tag <a href="https://snook.ca/">Snook</a>, <a href="https://daverupert.com/">Dave</a>, and <a href="https://rachsmith.com/">Rach</a> since I haven't seen them write one of these yet.</p>

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			<title>Recent reads: December 2024</title>
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			<updated>2024-12-31T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've spent the past two months reading a lot. I've had a book to hand and have picked it up rather than my phone much of the time when I have free moments. It's advice I saw on <a href="https://aworkinglibrary.com/thinking/">Mandy's</a> site and it's a great idea, highly recommend. To that end, Mandy wrote something else about reading and rereading that I found really profound in a recent newsletter (apologies for no link, but this one isn't online and was only via email).</p>
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<p>The more our media fracture and splinter into a million sharp and targeted blades, the more I want to read and reread. I’m convinced it’s more than an escape; it’s both fortification and fight, both a refusal to accept things as they are and the power to change them—one page, one sentence, one steel-toed word at a time.</p>
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<p>Books, and stories, are powerful and I try to start my day with some nonfiction and end it with fiction and in between read whatever strikes me. I'm not a huge rereader, but this winter I very well may pick up some favorites and read them again. Here's to a 2025 filled with books and stories.</p>
<h2>Real Tigers</h2>
<p>Book <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/real-tigers-mick-herron/10574304?ean=9781616957988">three</a> of the Slow Horses series and it didn't disappoint. I really love the way Mick Herron always has Jackson Lamb seeming like he doesn't really know what's going on, but the ending shows you just how much he really sees. I didn't fully see this ending coming; the cat and mouse between the Slow Horses and the rest of the service is so well done.</p>
<h2>If you only knew how much I smell you: True portraits of dogs</h2>
<p>G went to a different branch of our local library system to look through their photo books and he picked <a href="https://www.abebooks.com/servlet/SearchResults?cm_sp=SearchF-_-home-_-Results&amp;ref_=search_f_hp&amp;sts=t&amp;tn=If%20only%20you%20knew%20how%20much%20I%20smell%20you">this</a> up for me. It was so good and exactly what I needed to make me laugh and smile. The photos are by Valerie Shaff and Roy Blount Jr does the text which made me laugh out loud several times. Highly recommend if you can find it.</p>
<h2>You think it, I'll say it</h2>
<p>I really loved <em>Romantic Comedy</em> and when I saw a used copy of <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/you-think-it-i-ll-say-it-stories-curtis-sittenfeld/11378075?ean=9780525508700">short stories</a> by Curtis Sittenfeld I grabbed it. These stories are all just a touch uncomfortable at times, so real in how people act in relationships, and the prefect length. I enjoyed it, even though I often found myself squirming and wanting to shout out to the characters, maybe that's what made it so good.</p>
<h2>Here</h2>
<p>While watching the World Series, a movie based on this <a href="https://www.richard-mcguire.com/new-page-4">book</a> was constantly being advertised. I then found out it was based on a graphic novel and the library had it. I didn't love it, but the concept is super interesting, the same living room over time and glimpses of people as they live there.</p>
<h2>Wide Saragasso Sea</h2>
<p>A classic <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/wide-sargasso-sea-jean-rhys/11180660?ean=9780393352566">book</a> I found through the lists at the end of <em>The Sentence</em> and then put off reading for quite some time. How did the woman married to Rochester in <em>Jane Eyre</em> become who she is? That's what Jean Rhys imagines and it's a doozy of a book, showing how much the people with power abused and made her into the woman she became. A really interesting idea but also a difficult read.</p>
<h2>A Field Guide to Getting Lost</h2>
<p>This was my nonfiction reading for the past several months as I slowly read the <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/a-field-guide-to-getting-lost-rebecca-solnit/11218069?ean=9780143037248">essays</a>. I love Rebecca Solnit and this book was no exception. Solnit draws on her life and experiences to talk about loss in a variety of ways, from way finding to grief. I particularly enjoyed some of the ways in which she tied in historic stories of loss.</p>
<h2>Remarkably Bright Creatures</h2>
<p>How can an old octopus and an older woman save each other? That's what this really great <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/remarkably-bright-creatures-shelby-van-pelt/18727240?ean=9780063204157">story</a> set out to answer. I loved this book and flew through it, I guess it was popular for a reason. In particular the way in which Tova and Marcellus come to understand one another was so lovely. A perfect book to look at relationships in a new and different light.</p>
<h2>The Marriage Portrait</h2>
<p>I loved <em>Hamnet</em> by Maggie O'Farrell and have been waiting for the hype over this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-marriage-portrait-maggie-o-farrell/18252112?ean=9780593315088">book</a> to die down to get it from the library. This story was so surpising and so good. Lucrezia is such a rich character and yet the story shows her growing up and realizing what life is like for a young lady in her time. Loved this one and have been thinking about a lot of different bits of it since I finished.</p>
<h2>The Comfort of Crows: A Backyard Year</h2>
<p>I loved reading these <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-comfort-of-crows/19624587?ean=9781954118461">thoughts</a> on each week of the year, going through it by seasons. Renkl is great at noticing the small things that I love to think about and it's made me take a longer look at what's happening in our backyard, even though it's winter and a bit quiet. The art work that went with each week was a pleasant surprise, I didn't realize it was in the book and I loved that as well.</p>
<h2>The Appeal</h2>
<p>A <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-appeal-janice-hallett/18061378?ean=9781982187460">mystery</a> told entirely through the correspondence of the peopled involved and it ended up being super fascinating. How does one solve a mystery when reading emails sent between the key suspects, all of whom are involved in a small community theater group. It reminded me of the satire I read told entirely through office memos, it works and I ended up really enjoying this book.</p>
<h2>Melmoth</h2>
<p>I enjoyed <em>The Essex Serpent</em> so had this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/melmoth-sarah-perry/7988081?ean=9780062856401">novel</a> on my list for a while. Perry tells the story of Helen living in Prague who is friends with a man who starts to research Melmoth, a ghost like figure who follows people and sees all they do. As Helen's friend becomes more obsessed and seems to go a bit mad, she starts reading about Melmoth and she too starts to wonder about what's happening to her. All the while we learn Helen's story and why she feels Melmoth may be watching her. I didn't enjoy this as much as Perry's previous novel, but my curiosity drove me to the end.</p>

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			<title>2024 in photos</title>
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				<p>We traveled a lot this past year, more than we have in years, be it a couple nights in a nearby city or a longer trip to visit family, we got away from home 7 out of the 12 months. And instead of talking about my year, I thought I'd show it. Many of these photos were taken by G, since he's gotten into photography I've now got a lot of photos of me as he is behind the camera most of the time.</p>
<p>In order of travel, I slept at least one night in the following cities: Seattle, San Francisco, Chicago, Edwardsville, Milwaukee, Sacramento, Los Angeles, Portland, Monterey.  Being gone so much made me realize how much I love the quiet of our town. Getting to a big city is awesome and we love it, but I appreciate our little town quite a bit too.</p>
<p>A few nights in Seattle to celebrate my <a href="/writing/fifty/">50th</a>. The weather was good to us and I enjoyed exploring the city and going on a quick ferry ride over to Bainbridge.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/2024-year-end/seattle-sm.jpg 800w, 
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                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/2024-year-end/seattle-sm.jpg" alt="A picture out a window, looking over the Pike Place Market with the neon sign prominently in the mid ground. In the background is the sound and the industrial port area.">
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<p>We went down to San Francisco and it coincided with the home opener for the Giants, but due to ticket prices we didn't go to a game. We did, however, walk and walk and walk and walk. Again, the weather was wonderful and it was nice to take in a museum and eat some good food.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/2024-year-end/san-francisco-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/2024-year-end/san-francisco-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/2024-year-end/san-francisco-sm.jpg" alt="A view up a hill on a San Francisco street with buildings on the left, steps on the sidewalk because it's so steep, and the street on the right. Two people are coming down the steps and a single person is going up.">
    <figcaption>Photo credit G</figcaption>
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<p>Chicago! The weather was not great there, so we headed to the Art Institute on the night they stay open late and it wasn't too busy, especially in the parts of the museum for 20th Century art. I love that museum.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/2024-year-end/chicago-giacommetti-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/2024-year-end/chicago-giacommetti-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/2024-year-end/chicago-giacommetti-sm.jpg" alt="A woman stands in front of a large sculpture that is taller than she is, it's of a skinny man with very long legs and made of bronze. The woman is standing with folded arms and you see her from the side with the profile of her face and body.">
    <figcaption>Photo credit G</figcaption>
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<p>Finally a Brewers home game, such a great thing to cheer for the home time rather than always being the away team when we've gone to games on the west coast. It was a good game, they won, and I enjoyed the sausage race.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/2024-year-end/brewers-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/2024-year-end/brewers-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/2024-year-end/brewers-sm.jpg" alt="A shot of a baseball field that is under a closed roof, the shot is taken from high up from the corner of left field. The stadium is not very full of people, there is a gray sky coming in from the window panels on the far side, the infield for the home team, the Brewers is out and the Pirates player is at bat.">
    <figcaption>Photo credit G</figcaption>
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<p>A bit of every day life. I regularly walk into town, get a boba, and knit while hanging out and this was one of those days. G stopped by as he was doing a photo walk around town.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/2024-year-end/boba-sm.jpg 800w, 
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                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/2024-year-end/boba-sm.jpg" alt="A woman sits at a table holding a drink and straw. She's smiling and laughing. She's wearing larger framed glasses and has curly hair parted on the left. On the table, somewhat visible is a zipper pouch that is open and knitting is in her lap. Behind her is a large plant and window.">
    <figcaption>Photo credit G</figcaption>
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<p>LA meant another Dodgers game, really such a great place to watch baseball. I like to get there early and watch how meticulous the ground crew is when preparing the field. The Dodgers won and we got to see Shohei; a good night at the ballpark.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/2024-year-end/dodgers-sm.jpg 800w, 
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                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/2024-year-end/dodgers-sm.jpg" alt="A view of a baseball field in the open air, there is a lone woman sitting in the first row of the tier, one seat in, waearing a colorful striped tank top. On the field the grounds crew is working on wetting the infield dirt and putting a logo on the back of the pitchers mound. In the distance behind the stadium you can see a large parking lot filling with cars.">
    <figcaption>Photo credit G</figcaption>
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<p>While in LA we also went to some museums. A photo of me hanging out in a room full of Rothkos, my favorite artist.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/2024-year-end/la-rothko-sm.jpg 800w, 
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                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/2024-year-end/la-rothko-sm.jpg" alt="On a cream colored wall there is a very large painting that is two blocks of color, dark gray and a lighter gray, with red on the borders. A woman sits on a bench with her back to the camera, a belt bag across her side, in a green t-shirt.">
    <figcaption>Photo credit G</figcaption>
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<p>It gets hot here, really hot in July and August and so I end up spending time inside knitting on smaller items. G caught me here, working on a cowl.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/2024-year-end/knitting-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/2024-year-end/knitting-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/2024-year-end/knitting-sm.jpg" alt="A close up shot of hands as they knit, in the foreground and blurry is a woman's face with part of her glasses visible.">
    <figcaption>Photo credit G</figcaption>
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<p>A favorite friend in the neighborhood, we call him <a href="https://gregorygross.com/blog/entry.php?id=2024082400">Meow Meow</a> but his name is Valentine. He's a talker and if you whistle he may pop out of the barn and meow as he walks over to see you at the fence.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/2024-year-end/meow-meow-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/2024-year-end/meow-meow-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/2024-year-end/meow-meow-sm.jpg" alt="There is a hole in a fence with a small post on the left side and through the hole is a cat, close up, his face is looking away from the camera towards something in behind the photographer.">
    <figcaption>Photo credit G</figcaption>
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<p>A couple of last minute nights in Portland meant I took some morning walks along the Willamette. Beautiful light while we were there.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/2024-year-end/willamette-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/2024-year-end/willamette-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/2024-year-end/willamette-sm.jpg" alt="A view of a river with a bridge in the distance that is a lift bridge so there are two large structures on either end of the lift area. The sky is filled with clouds but sunlight is starting to light up the day.">
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<p>Our anniversary in Monterey was so nice. Beautiful weather and sunsets, amazing jellyfish at the aquarium, and amazing coastal drives along the peninsula.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/2024-year-end/monterey-sunset-sm.jpg 800w, 
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                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/2024-year-end/monterey-sunset-sm.jpg" alt="A beach with a sunset happening over a large sky. The waves are gently rolling on the beach and in the distance is a spit of land coming out into the ocean.">
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<p>We got new furniture in our living room and rearranged things, so the tree moved to a new spot this year. The jury is still out as to if we like where it is, but the tree itself is beautiful and I love the lights in the evenings.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/2024-year-end/christmas-tree-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/2024-year-end/christmas-tree-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/2024-year-end/christmas-tree-sm.jpg" alt="A corner of a room with windows and shades drawn up, a Christmas tree is in front of the corner, lit up with white lights and assorted ornaments are on the tree. Under the tree is a tree skirt that is red with a print of ornaments on it. A bit of table is on ">
    <figcaption>Photo credit G</figcaption>
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<p>Whew, what a 2024. Looking forward to 2025; we plan to continue traveling and I hope to be making and taking walks wherever I find myself.</p>

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			<title>Marking time</title>
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			<updated>2024-12-10T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>This year, especially in the last few weeks, I've been thinking a lot about marking time. How does one see and notice time going by and how, in particular, I do that. This also has a lot to do with the round numbers that've been part of my life this year, via my <a href="/writing/fifty/">birthday</a> and our <a href="/writing/fall-vibes/">anniversary</a>.</p>
<p>What I realized as I thought about this on walks and runs and while knitting is that I've noticed time having jumped forward this year quite a lot because things we use in our house have broken and needed replacement. Each time this happens, be it a small thing in the kitchen or something larger, I'm surprised because I feel like we haven't had it that long. Then I take a beat and I realize that we actually have had it for a long time, be it an item I bought while in graduate school or something we got at the beginning of our marriage. It always takes me back a bit when I realize it's been 20 years or more that I've been using whatever it is.</p>
<p>A small thing, but as I age, time moves slowly and then all of a sudden, I'm not quite sure if that's what happens to others, but it's been a realization for me at the end of this year. Time moves, but it definitely doesn't always feel like it does so at the same pace.</p>

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			<title>What to watch</title>
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			<updated>2024-11-17T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Baseball season ended at the end of last month and the last few years when that happens, I reup Netflix to stream <em>The Crown</em> but that show ended last year. This year I wasn't quite sure what to do. I started searching around for what streaming service had things on it we wanted to watch and, honestly, there wasn't anything leaping out at me. What a first world problem, all these services but really not being sure I wanted to subscribe to any of them.</p>
<p>Two days ago we decided to sign up for <a href="https://www.criterionchannel.com/">The Criterion Channel</a>. I've been curious about the it for a while and like the emphasis on older movies and classics. I've been scouring their library and adding things to a list and we've already watched three movies with more on the way. There is such wide variety in the library that I've been impressed. Not everything is my cup of tea, but quite a bit of it interests me. I'm watching films I've read about or heard about but never seen and actually seeing the classic lines. Last night it was Brando, &quot;I coulda been a contender, I coulda been somebody.&quot;</p>
<p>I'm also excited to watch directors I've heard so much about but never watched much of their work such as Billy Wilder; <em>Witness for the Prosecution</em> is fantastic with quite the twist at the end. I'm looking forward to catching up on some Coen Brothers films and it's Noirvember, so we've already started watching those. Peter Lorre in <em>The Face Behind the Mask</em> is where we started but I've got more on the list.</p>
<p>I'm not sure how long this will be what we're into, but it's been a really good way to escape and watching movies has been a nice change from a longer running series. But don't worry, we've still been watching a bit of baseball, Arizona Fall League just wrapped up and a few games aired, but I fear that may be it for a while.</p>

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			<title>Fall vibes</title>
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			<updated>2024-11-09T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I started this post prior to the election and have sat on it since, trying to figure out if I should post it. I realized I should  with some additions. Day to day life is ongoing and prior to November 5 I'd had a good fall, celebrating with G on a trip and figuring out how to cook some really good food without meat.  Hiding away the good isn't going to change what happened or what's going to happen.</p>
<h2>Monterey</h2>
<p>We went down to Monterey for our 20th anniversary and it was a great trip. The weather cooperated and was perfect. We stayed at an old motel that's right on the beach and the views and the room were both fantastic.</p>
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                 src="/images/build/november-2024/sunset-sm.jpg" alt="">
    <figcaption>Sunset view from our hotel room.</figcaption>
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<p>We went to the aquarium, which I highly recommend, and on a Monday it wasn't very busy. I spent a lot of time out on the back deck areas and spotted the otters in the ocean amongst the kelp and the birds. It's amazing to see them floating away and hanging out. I also really enjoyed all the displays of the jelly fish and shot some video of the ones that change colors as they move around. G has a <a href="https://gregorygross.com/blog/entry.php?id=2024110200">post</a> with some great shots from the aquarium and the jelly fish in particular.</p>
<p>The only disappointment of the trip was the hotel restaurant, it looked like it would be good but wasn't. It's always funny how some random restaurant we go to on the last night of trips usually ends up being the best meal we eat and this trip was no different.</p>
<h2>Making</h2>
<p>I sewed one <a href="/photos/project-bag/">project bag</a> at the beginning of the month and then didn't sew again for the rest of the month. I've since cut out a few things, but still have yet to sew them up. I've been having issues with my back and I don't have a great cutting station so I do it on the floor and I couldn't do that for much of the last several weeks, so I knit.</p>
<p>I did finish a sweater and worked on a pair of socks. I find when I'm making a sweater that I can get a little obsessive when I get towards the end and it was no different with this one. I got it done in time to take on the trip and wore it quite a bit. I love it.  I also don't knit when traveling, unlike most of the knitting world, since we're out doing things and I can't knit while riding in the car (makes me sick).</p>
<p>I've been thinking a lot lately about making, what I'm making, how much I'm making, how much I'm spending and consuming to make things. I'll most likely post about it, but suffice it to say, I'm having a hard time with the larger sewing and knitting communities right now and how much emphasis is put on making all the time and always having a lot of yarn or fabric to hand.</p>
<h2>Cooking</h2>
<p>Fall is always when the cooking vibe hits me hard. I've been making beans and freezing them, making stock and freezing it. I love Rancho Gordo beans and have been experimenting with ones I've not made before. For health reasons, we need more fiber in our diets and I'm also cutting back on how much meat we eat, so beans have been the route I've gone. It's been a good challenge to think differently about what I cook and what we eat and how to make sure we're eating well. In good news: it's working according to my latest health tests.</p>
<p>For those interested I've also found Jenny Rosentrach's <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-weekday-vegetarians-100-recipes-and-a-real-life-plan-for-eating-less-meat-a-cookbook-jenny-rosenstrach/15796047?ean=9780593138748"><em>Weekday Vegetarians</em></a> along with the second book that just came out, <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-weekday-vegetarians-get-simple-strategies-and-so-good-recipes-to-suit-every-craving-and-mood-a-cookbook-jenny-rosenstrach/20925208?ean=9780593580851"><em>Weekday Vegetarians Get Simple</em></a> really helpful as I figure out how to think differently about the evening meal. I especially like how she points out some ready to go things in the store that are good and worth having on hand. The puff pastry tomato tart is so good and it's not enough for a meal for us but it was a great side with some other things.</p>
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                 src="/images/build/november-2024/tart-sm.jpg" alt="">
    <figcaption>A not great picture of a squash tart that I recently made that is quite good.</figcaption>
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<h2>November 5</h2>
<p>I don't know what to say about what happened  but I do know that for many people things could get very bad after January 20, 2025. I think about the functions of government that are important and are taken for granted—food and drug safety, the social safety net such as it is in this country, and so much more—and I wonder if people realize how much could change for the worse.</p>
<p>What I am doing is making some changes to my daily routine. I'm done with national news media and have cancelled the one subscription I had. I'm still thinking through how I want to get news going forward, but I do know the firehose that is most media now is not good for me. I'm thinking about a magazine subscription or something similar, that isn't quite so reactive to the day-to-day events, but I'm still unsure. I've also been very offline with brief forays onto the secretary of state site to check Oregon results and reading my feeds. My sketchbook/journal, poetry, fiction, and comfort TV have been the order of the day while I figure out what I can do locally and offline that can help folks in my community. I'll be here, sharing my making and reading and thoughts and the patches of light I find.</p>

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			<title>Recent reads: October 2024</title>
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			<updated>2024-10-23T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>It's been much longer than I thought since I've posted about books. September was a month of starting things, realizing they weren't for me, and setting them down. But if there's one book in this list that I think everyone should read it's the first one, <em>Blood in the Machine</em>, I could say so much more about it, but I've opted to let it all settle in, think more about it, and quite possibly, I'll read it again soon.</p>
<h2>Blood in the Machine</h2>
<p>A look a the Luddite movement and what really happened with it and how the myth of the Luddites was born. Contrary to what people today think, they weren't against the new machines. The Luddites were interested in treating workers well, not taking away their livlihoods and in preventing the growing inequality the new factories were creating. What I enjoyed most about this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/blood-in-the-machine-the-origins-of-the-rebellion-against-big-tech-brian-merchant/17824365?ean=9780316487740">book</a> was how well Brian Merchant takes the history and directly relates it to tech work today, in particular AI. I highly recommend this one.</p>
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<p>We can look back at the Industrial Revolution and lament the working conditions, but popular culture still lionizes entrepreneurs cut in the mold of Arkwright, who made a choice to employ thousands of child laborers and to institute a dehumanizing system of factory work to increase revenue and lower costs. We have acclimated to the idea that such exploitation was somehow inevitable, even natural, while casting aspersions on movements like the Luddites as being technophobic for trying to stop it. We forget that working people vehemently opposed such exploitation from the beginning. (loc 1811)</p>
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<h2>Bee Sting</h2>
<p>A <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-bee-sting-paul-murray/18789047?ean=9780374600303">novel</a> that made a lot of lists in 2023 and it's how it got on my list. It's a tragedy that I kept thinking would somehow resolve differently so I kept reading. The Barnes family is reeling after the 2008 financial crisis, which hit Ireland particularly hard, and the book follows each member as they try to find their own way out. I didn't dislike the book, but it wasn't a great time to be reading a tragedy like this with all that's going on in the world</p>
<h2>Rich People Problems</h2>
<p>Given what I wrote above about <em>Bee Sting</em> it was fitting to follow it up with the final <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/rich-people-problems-kevin-kwan/7280700?ean=9780525432371">book</a> in the triology about extermely rich families from Singapore and Hong Kong with all the back stabbing and maneuvering you'd expect when the matriarch of the family is dying. I did like this one better than the second book, and it's served the purpose to lighten things up that I definitely needed.</p>
<h2>The Magicians</h2>
<p>The first <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-magicians-lev-grossman/11195440?ean=9780452296299">book</a> in a series where the young hero, Quentin, finds out the magic he's doing is real magic and he's soon whisked off to a boarding school to learn more. The set up of the book is long, but given that it's the first in the triology that makes sense. I didn't find the world building or Quentin's character anything that drew me in and made me want to continue the series, but I didn't dislike it and I finishes it, so that's saying a bit.</p>
<h2>Reader, Come Home</h2>
<p>I found this book when Ezra Klein <a href="https://www.nytimes.com/2022/11/22/opinion/transcript-ezra-klein-interviews-maryanne-wolf.html">interviewed</a> the author, Maryanne Wolf and was intrigued. The <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/reader-come-home-the-reading-brain-in-a-digital-world-maryanne-wolf/6435860?ean=9780062388773">book</a> is comprised of letters about reading and the digital world and how to educate children to read deeply and be able to gain knowledge in both the print medium and digital mediums. The first few letters and the final letter were the most interesting to me as I'm not heavily involved in teaching children to read so the details on that didn't grab me as much. But what Wolf does really well is show in the final letter how reading has a direct effect on the world we live in. If you don't know how to read critically and think deeply how can you understand what's going on and since the world of digital reading has sunk into small snippets on social media, we've lost a lot.</p>
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<p>If we gradually lose the ability to examine how we think, we will also lose the ability to examine dispassionately how those who would govern us think. The worst atrocities of the twentieth century bear tragic witness to what occurs when a society fails to examine its own actions and cedes its analytical powers to those who tell how to think and what to fear. (p 199)</p>
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<h2>North Woods</h2>
<p>The way in which this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/north-woods-daniel-mason/19507917?ean=9780593597033">book</a> is written was so good. It centers on a house in the woods and tells the story of the people who live there over the centuries from Puritans to modern day and beyond. It was a slow start but then as the threads began to weave themselves together, I was hooked. I don't want to say too much because I don't want to spoil anything, but I found using the house to move the plot super interesting and different.</p>
<h2>Funny Story</h2>
<p>By far my favorite of Emily Henry's <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/untitled-emily-henry-5-emily-henry/20283837?ean=9780593441282">books</a> so far. Maybe it's because one of the main characters is a librarian, maybe because I relate to some of her family issues, or maybe because she's a planner and never late. A perfect light read, made me laugh out loud several times. I also loved the characters surrounding the main couple. Highly recommend if you like her books or contemporary romance.</p>
<h2>Swimming Home</h2>
<p>A slim <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/swimming-home-deborah-levy/7178271?ean=9781620401699">novel</a> that follows a family from England on holiday for a week in France. There is something sinister at work in this story, which I felt right from the beginning. The family and the folks traveling with them are slowly coming apart as the book spans the week of the holiday. A quick read, one that made me think, but also not the most uplifting thing.</p>
<h2>The List</h2>
<p>A short novella by Mick Herron that is a part of the Slow Horses series, but as an aside almost. I enjoyed it, what happens with spies when they retire? And, as usual, there were some twists and turns that I didn't quite see coming. I really enjoy Herron's writing and story telling. (I could only find <a href="https://www.abebooks.com/servlet/SearchResults?an=Mick%20Herron&amp;cm_sp=SearchF-_-home-_-Results&amp;ref_=search_f_hp&amp;sts=t&amp;tn=The%20List">this book</a> for sale used and collected with another novella, but I read the copy from my library.)</p>

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			<title>The networks</title>
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				<p>Lately a lot of links about social media and the networks we use to connect online have popped up in my feed reader or my email. So I've been thinking a lot about networks and how we connect online. I have thoughts, many thoughts, and I've started this post so many times, but then left it alone. But I wanted to collect the various things I've been reading in one spot at the very least.</p>
<p>I've read Mandy's two <a href="https://aworkinglibrary.com/writing/what-are-we-making-together">separate</a> <a href="https://aworkinglibrary.com/writing/peasant-woodland">posts</a> about how she's using syndication. Alan Jacobs <a href="https://blog.ayjay.org/pos-not-posse/">response</a> to the first of those posts. I watched Erin Kissane's XOXO <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0FwM8HdOY-A">talk</a> from this year where the big call to action is to fix the networks. I've read about the <a href="https://www.garbageday.email/p/nostalgia-will-not-fix-this">explosion</a> of users on Bluesky and the idea of nostalgia in all of this and the idea that text may not be the thing. And this <a href="https://jennydeluxe.substack.com/p/from-the-outside-you-look-great">quote</a> that made me nod emphatically:</p>
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<p>As someone who came of age online and on social media, learning how to comport myself into legibility is a familiar act. Lately, it’s more of an uncomfortable act. (There’s probably an entire essay on The Internet We Lost to write some day.) There has never been more distance between who I appear to be online and who I am in my actual life. I relish in the distance. I’m simply unwilling to try and capture the tensions, frustrations, delights, complexities of my exquisite human life on these apps. They don’t deserve it.</p>
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<p>I'm sure there's even more being said that I don't know about as I'm not on any social media networks and I'm not as involved in the world these conversations are happening in as I was in the past. All of this has raised <em>a lot</em> of questions for me, ones that I'm not sure I want to ask in an open space like this. But I do wonder this, do folks who aren't as involved in the tech world think about these things? And what is it about this conversation that has me thinking about it so much? I'm really not sure, but maybe, if I can come to anything approaching a thoughtful post I'll share them, or else I'll continue to wonder and think and read.</p>

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			<title>September vibes</title>
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			<updated>2024-09-30T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>September felt like a month full of fits and starts with me finally hitting my stride on a few things towards the final week. It also brought cooler weather, at least in the evenings and mornings, along with changing leaves. I'm more than ready to put away the shorts and tanks and not be sweating anymore, but I think the warm days will linger well into October.</p>
<h2>Making</h2>
<p>In August I decided I really wanted to use up a lot of smaller amounts of leftover yarn, mostly sock yarn, so I've been knitting socks since. I finished two pairs this month and am really happy with them. I've almost got my perfect basic sock recipe totally refined  and that feels good.</p>
<p>I also finished up a really simple raglan pullover in a cotton/linen blend yarn. I still have yet to wear it because it's been so warm, but I really like the fit and I had 3 balls of yarn left so I'm planning another striped version.</p>
<p>Sewing was a different story. A while back I bought an <a href="https://sewliberated.com/products/learn-to-sew-your-clothes-fit-and-sew-bodices">online course</a> all about bodice making and the course took you through making a dress. I'll admit that right after buying the course and seeing the video table of contents I was worried that I'd wasted my money given the fact that this course was more than double any other sewing related course I've bought.</p>
<p>This month I started in on making a muslin to fit the dress bodice and it.... did not go well. You get fitting help with the class so I asked for help and made a second muslin. Again there were a lot of issue so I made some adjustments and made a third muslin, and there were still issues. Primarily it wasn't comfortable. The communication with the fitting expert was difficult. While on a quick road trip (see below) I spoke with an experienced sewist at a fabric shop and it was so informative and helpful and in many ways gave me permission to abandon this project.</p>
<p>This isn't easy for me, I'm a finisher, but honestly, the block this bodice is based on is not meant for my body without a lot of adjustments. And I found some other reviews online of the pattern and I'm not the only one who hasn't had a great experience with it. Thank goodness I never cut into the nice linen I'd bought for this and can use it for a different pattern.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/september-2024/josephines-sm.jpg 800w, 
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                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/september-2024/josephines-sm.jpg" alt="the reverse of a neon sign shows in the window which says Josephine's Dry Goods and in front of the window are manniquins without heads wearing samples of sewn clothing and the tops of bolts of fabric.">
    <figcaption>Insides Josephine's Dry Goods in Portland. <em>Photo credit G</em></figcaption>
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<h2>Road trip</h2>
<p>We did a last minute trip up to Portland to celebrate G's birthday and it was good. We got a great deal on a hotel, parked the car and never used it again over the two nights we were there. We walked around, did some shopping, hit up Powells, and ate a lot of great food. We needed the get away and a &quot;big city fix&quot; and while I don't want to live in Portland again, it was good to hang out there for a few nights.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/september-2024/road-trip-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/september-2024/road-trip-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/september-2024/road-trip-sm.jpg" alt="A windshield with the road in front of it and the top of a dash board is seen and in the review mirror is part of a woman's face wearing sunglasses as she drives.">
    <figcaption>Driving down the interstate. <em>Photo credit G</em></figcaption>
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<h2>Walking</h2>
<p>I've been walking a lot in the mornings and it's so nice that it's cooled down. G and I also ran some errands together and he caught this picture of me with the local goat. We call him chocolate head because G overheard a guy talking with his daughter about naming the goats and she'd named him that—makes sense with the brown head. Chocolate head ran to me at the fence that day and as it's the only goat now (we think this is a sanctuary where older animals live out their days) I can't help but wonder if it's lonely.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/september-2024/me-with-chocolate-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/september-2024/me-with-chocolate-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/september-2024/me-with-chocolate-sm.jpg" alt="A black and white photo where a woman is standing holding a bag at a fence. She's wearing a baseball cap, a long sleeved white shirt, shorts, and athletic shoes. On the other side of the fence is a goat with a dark head and floppy ears and it strains to reach and sniff at the hand the woman holds out.">
    <figcaption>Saying hello to Chocolate Head. <em>Photo credit G</em></figcaption>
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<p>All in all, a good month. Some sewing fails (including another the day I published this) but I'm learning a lot. For October I've got no big plans, other than trying to sew a few things, knit for the meditative pleasure of it, and I want to get back into my sketchbook. I'm staying away from news and social media as much as I can over the next 6 weeks, picking up my Kindle or book instead of a connected device. And, of course, there are the baseball playoffs and I love playoff baseball.</p>

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			<title>August vibes</title>
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			<updated>2024-08-31T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>August started rough but turned out to be a good month. Typically it's hot and often smokey and none of those things were true this month, the past few weeks have been absolutely wonderful. It's finally cooling off at night to allow for enjoyable mornings and evenings. Although we are hot during the day, I find it so much easier when I can go on a walk and not be dripping with sweat when I get back in the mornings.</p>
<p>It's also been a very quiet month. No travel, even though we'd planned to go somewhere at the last minute if smoke rolled in, but it never came. And I found myself doing a lot of cleaning out and using up.</p>
<h2>Making</h2>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/august-vibes-makes-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/august-vibes-makes-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/posts/august-vibes-makes-sm.jpg" alt="Four photos arranged, one of a woman with glasses with a navy knit hat on, another of a hat on a floor that is gray with colorful pink and blue in the pattern, another of a shawl lying on the floor in greens and blues and whites and a pair of socks on feet, the socks are blue variegated yarn and pink toes and cuffs.">
    <figcaption>Four of my makes this month starting on the upper left with the Traveler Hat, the Find Your Fade shawl, DRK Everyday socks, and a Follow Your Path hat.</figcaption>
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<p>I ordered yarn early in the month for some sweater projects and found that I couldn't fit it into the bin where I keep my yarn because I had too many bits and bobs left from other projects. I honestly get stressed out when I have a lot of yarn on hand, so I pulled out all the partial skeins and divided them into project bags and started in on making some smaller projects.</p>
<p>A couple of hats were made, which I tend to do every August to donate to the hat drive my local yarn shop does every fall. I love knitting hats when it's hot out because of the size, not having a lot of fabric in my lap is great. But it's also fun to try some patterns, match up some yarn, and see what happens.</p>
<p>I also made a shawl, another typical summer project for me, and I'm working on socks to use up all the sock yarn I have, one pair is done and another is almost done.</p>
<h2>Mystery solved</h2>
<p>Near our house is some land that is still being used as a hobby farm of sorts. There have been goats and horses there, different ones coming and going, since we moved in. A few years ago, near the dilapidated barn, a cat appeared. It was super friendly, always walking towards the fence to greet you and meowing away.</p>
<p>G finally found out the story of this cat and <a href="https://gregorygross.com/blog/entry.php?id=2024082400">his post</a> is worth a read because it was a huge mystery solved for us. We'd been wondering for so long how this cat got food and water and such; it's nice to know it's taken care of and loved.</p>
<h2>Hummingbird battles</h2>
<p>I'll admit that I have no idea if the hummingbirds in our backyard are battling or playing or what, but I tend to think they're battling for the two feeders we have on either end of the yard. They are up at first light and we hear them all day long, with activity picking up at dusk. It's amazing how fast they fly, how close they'll fly to me as I garden, and how much noise they make.</p>
<p>Again, G with a <a href="https://gregorygross.com/blog/entry.php?id=2024081800">great post</a> about them with some photos. We also had an incident with a hummingbird and a praying mantis and I had no idea praying mantises were capable of what we saw.</p>
<h2>Cleaning out</h2>
<p>I spent the past two weeks cleaning out a closet and realizing that when you let a bin sit untouched for 6 years, maybe you don't need what's inside. It's been good to pass on some items to folks who are excited to get them for free (thanks Nextdoor, the one thing I use it for) and to open up the space in the closet as well.</p>
<p>I also cleaned out books. Some folks will find this appalling but I don't hang on to books. I rarely read things again, the ones I do I keep and they are my &quot;canon.&quot; As I've changed and especially as my life has changed over the last several years, I'm letting go of some books that I no longer find interesting or worth owning. G kindly took them to the used bookshop in town and now we have a bunch of credit so new books can enter the house.</p>
<p>The calendar is still in summer for us and I love that, summer doesn't really go away until late September when the days start to get much shorter and temps start to really cool down. The tomatoes are growing and ripening like mad on my plants and the flowers are still blooming. I'm finding the beauty in the late summer light, which is so golden in the garden right now.</p>

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			<title>Recent reads: August 2024</title>
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			<updated>2024-08-08T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I don't think I've been reading quite as much as usual, but recently have finished more books and enjoyed reading as the weather remains hot. I started using <a href="https://app.thestorygraph.com/profile/sj_robertson">Storygraph</a> to track my reading and I'm still not sure how I feel about it, it's the first time I've used something like this, so I'm still figuring it out. I like the idea of the data about my reading on the one hand, but I have very little desire to any type of social thing to go with it, so we'll see what happens. But never fear, these rounds ups aren't going anywhere, as I do want to keep my thoughts on this site.</p>
<h2>Menewood</h2>
<p>This is the second <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/menewood-nicola-griffith/18402461?ean=9780374208080">book</a> about Hild and it's long and fascinating and I had a hard time putting it down. Hild deftly plays the politics of the kings of her time now that she is lady of Elmet. She sees war coming and while it's a difficult story to read for the first several hundred pages, I will say that it's also amazing. Hild sees how egos and the personalities of the people leading and fighting the war play into their decisions and she does her best to protect her people during it all.</p>
<h2>With a Mind to Kill</h2>
<p>A bit of <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/with-a-mind-to-kill-a-james-bond-novel-anthony-horowitz/17354445?ean=9780063078420">candy</a> to follow the difficult book above. Anthony Horowitz has written three books in the style of Ian Fleming, new books in the Bond series Fleming wrote. A good story that comes at the end of Bond's career and it was a good palette cleanser after <em>Menewood</em>. Horowitz has written or worked on a lot of British mystery shows that I love, so it's not surprising I liked this book.</p>
<h2>The Fraud</h2>
<p>I recently listened to an interview with Zadie Smith and was so excited to see this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-fraud-zadie-smith/19427896?ean=9780525558965">book</a> sitting on the shelf at my local library branch. Smith takes the life of a writer who's been forgotten, William Ainsworth, and intertwines that with the real story of the Tichborne Claimant from Victorian England and it's quite good. Eliza Touchet, Ainsworth's cousin, gets caught up in the trial and the story takes the reader from Jamaica to Australia to Victorian England. I really recommend it, although to be frank, some of the ways in which people talked about the Tichborne Claimant and whether he's really a Tichborne or not hit very close to home with how many things are spoken about today.</p>
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<p>When young she had never understood why old women dithered so. Why they led conversations down dead ends and almost always overstayed their welcome. She did not know then what it was to have no definition in the world, no role and no reason. To be no longer even decorative. All too easy to lose your footing, to misunderstand everything, get the wrong end of every stick. (p 396)</p>
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<h2>So Late in the Day: Stories of Men and Women</h2>
<p>I've loved the two novels of Claire Keegan I've read and couldn't wait to read this slim <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/so-late-in-the-day-stories-of-women-and-men/19824713?ean=9780802160850">book</a> of short stories. The three stories each delve into the relationships between men and women and how personality traits of either can ruin and damage them. As is typical for Keegan, words are used sparingly and the stories are short, but pack an amazing punch. I love reading her work for that reason.</p>
<h2>The Sentence</h2>
<p>Tookie, a bookstore employee and avid reader, goes through a year in which she tries to rid the bookstore of the ghost of her most annoying customer. That year coincides with covid lockdowns, grief surrounding a racial reckoning, and through it all Tookie shows us a different side of Minneapolis. This isn't always an easy <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-sentence-louise-erdrich/17388336?ean=9780062671134">read</a>, but I loved it as I love books that feature books prominently. I'm not sure I was completely ready to read a book that takes place during 2020, but I'm glad I did.</p>
<h2>A Sunlit Weapon</h2>
<p>The second to last <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/a-sunlit-weapon-jacqueline-winspear/17236233?ean=9780063142275">book</a> in the Maisie Dobbs series was yet another new twist on how Dobbs and her kin are not only dealing with the war but also all the things that continue to happen away from the fighting. This mystery highlights the female ferry pilots that worked to get planes where they needed to be after maintenance and other issues had them at the wrong air base, a piece of WWII history that was new to me. I didn't love this one as much as previous books, the main story line felt like a bit of a stretch to include the Americans in some way, but it was definitely good TV reading.</p>
<h2>When Friendship Followed Me Home</h2>
<p>A young adult <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/when-friendship-followed-me-home-paul-griffin/6663804?ean=9780147510068">book</a> about a dog following a kid home and from there helping him to find his tribe? Yes please. Ben is bullied at school, has only one friend, but one day a small white dog follows him home and they are instant best friends. Through the dog he meets the Rainbow Girl and it changes his life entirely. This book was a bit corny at times, but I think I needed corny.</p>

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			<title>July heat</title>
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				<p>Whew, July is over. It was <em>hot</em> here for the majority of the month. I think we were above 95 for a good two weeks or more starting on July 5. This month was filled with getting up and getting a walk in, tending to the garden right after that, and then closing up the house and hiding from the sun until evening.</p>
<p>We've been fairly lucky with wildfire smoke in our area so far, we've had a few spells, but nothing too horrible and I'm crossing all the things that continues in August. I'm also hopeful the heat won't continue or at the very least we'll have cooler evenings and overnights, but we'll see.</p>
<h2>Lots of making</h2>
<p>I ended up doing a lot of making in July, mostly because I finished a lot of things but also because summer is when I want to sew more than any other time. It's the perfect thing to do to avoid the afternoon sun. I started the month finishing off my <a href="/photos/vellichor">Vellichor</a> even though I have yet to wear it, I anticipate wearing it a lot once it cools down. Then I went on to the <a href="/photos/red-dress/">Bedrock Dress Hack</a> which I absolutely love and have been wearing a lot.</p>
<p>After those two things I started on trying to figure out the <a href="/photos/pietra-shorts/">Pietra Shorts</a>, which I wrote aobut in more detail already, but I'll just say it felt sooooo good to finally get a pair of these made that fit me well. Sewing is a learning process and I've gotten much better about embracing that, accepting the fact that not every project works out and giving myself time to come back to a pattern after I've had a difficult time, some times months or even a year later.</p>
<p>Finally I sewed up a quick <a href="https://corefabricstore.com/blogs/news/free-belt-bag-pattern">belt bag</a>, a free pattern from <a href="https://corefabricstore.com/">Core Fabrics</a>. I wanted to have this project done in order to use the bag on our trip to LA and I did that easily. I used fabric from a bag I made a few years ago and never used, along with the strap from that same bag, so all I had to buy was a zipper for this project. Using up things I have is always satisfying and cannibalizing a bag I'd made to repurpose the fabric to make something I'll use was even more so.</p>
<p>This bag turned out to be <em>perfect</em> for travel. It holds just enough and the bag lays well so as not to be a bother when walking around. I know I'll be using it a lot both in every day life and for more trips.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/july-2024/belt-bag-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/july-2024/belt-bag-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/posts/july-2024/belt-bag-sm.jpg" alt="A blue bag with a white zipper laying on the floor with the cream colored strap laying over the top.">
    <figcaption>A scrappy belt bag that I love.</figcaption>
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<h2>LA</h2>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/july-2024/rothkos-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/july-2024/rothkos-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/posts/july-2024/rothkos-sm.jpg" alt="A wall of large paintings that are color fields, there are three with the one on the left being rectangeles of red, the one in the middle deep purple almost black in areas, and the one on the right deep to lighter purple shades. There is an empty bench in front of the paintings.">
    <figcaption>A room full of my favorite painter, Mark Rothko, at MOCA. Photo credit G.</figcaption>
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<p>We flew down to LA towards the end of the month to catch a Dodgers game and get our big city fix. We've never flown to a west coast city and it was wild to be in LA so quickly. We also stayed in downtown LA which where we'd never spent any time. It meant we didn't have to rent a car because we could take a shuttle from the airport to Union Station and we could use the free shuttle from Union Station to Dodger Stadium.</p>
<p>Overall it was a great trip. The Dodgers won, our hotel was really great and we had an afteroon of lazy pool time at the roof top pool, and we hit up some museums on our last day. Highly reccommend both <a href="https://www.thebroad.org/">The Broad</a> and <a href="https://www.moca.org/">MOCA</a> if you are near downtown LA.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/july-2024/dodgers-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/july-2024/dodgers-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/posts/july-2024/dodgers-sm.jpg" alt="The sun is setting over the top of the stadium seating as baseball players on field play ball and the stands are full of people watching.">
    <figcaption>Setting sun as the game was getting under way.</figcaption>
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<h2>First tomatoes</h2>
<p>I came home from LA to find some ripe sun gold tomatoes and a lot more on the plants nearing that stage. I have that and another variety of cherry tomatoes planted, four plants total, and all of them are loaded with both fruit nearing ripening and flowers, so I expect I'll have a lot to harvest soon. Always so satisying to go out and pick them and then make a salad of some kind for dinner, as I tell G, true &quot;farm&quot; to table.</p>
<p>Overall not a bad month, but I'll admit that summer is no longer a favorite season. I'm already pining for the cooler temperatures of fall and we still have August to go. I am excited for tomato season, for more local produce from the CSA, and, hopefully, cooler evenings.</p>

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			<title>DVDs</title>
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			<updated>2024-07-03T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Yesterday we bought a DVD player. It felt a bit odd, to buy a piece of tech we'd eschewed years ago, but it's in line with some of the other choices in life I've been making lately. You can stream so many things; it's too many things and it's overwhelming. When I would bring up older movies to G that I wanted to watch for one reason or another, we'd look to see where we could watch them. Some times we couldn't find a way to stream them, other times we could if we rented them or paid for a service we weren't currently using. Invariably though the library would have a copy of the DVD.</p>
<p>Given that, we decided to buy a player so we didn't have to use our dilapidated old Mac Mini with the portable DVD player and could more easily play movies. The library provides the added bonus of allowing the old feeling of the video store, we walk the aisles of DVDs and find things we want to watch and it may be nostalgia, but looking for things in that way can turn up surprisingly good films about which you've forgotten.</p>
<p>As I age I find myself going back to the things that worked well and that I miss. More paper and pens, more physical media like DVDs from the library, reading more paper books. I'm finding it slows me down and it helps me be present in the moment. Evaluating tech and using only that which is helpful is becoming a larger and larger part of life these days and some times going backwards feels like the right move.</p>

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			<title>June jottings</title>
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				<p>Phew, June is ending and sometimes it feels like maybe not a lot is going on, but looking back things happened. I did some making, we took a quick weekend trip, the garden is going gangbusters, and we got some house maintenance done. Without further ado a bit about what's been happening and what I've been thinking about this past month.</p>
<h2>Rediscovering makes</h2>
<p>One thing that's happening these days is that I have enough clothing I've made that's seasonal that I forget about things I've made because I'm not wearing them for a good chunk of the year. This month I pulled out a tank top that I'd forgotten about but turns out I love it. A regular occurrence when I finish sewing or knitting something is that I'm not always sure I like it, but putting it away and not looking at it for a bit is so helpful. And that happens when I pull out summer clothes I made the year before, the long break lets me reevaluate things and it's really helpful.</p>
<p>I also took some time this month to take a t-shirt dress where the neckline turned out wonky and fixed it. It isn't absolutely perfect, but you'd have to look very closely to see that things aren't perfect which makes it wearable! In an effort to not waste and consume as much I've been trying to go back to things that I'm not wearing and figure out what it would take to make them wearable. Not everything can be saved but it's been really good for me to think it through and try. It's also helpful to think through these things as I look for what I want to add to my wardrobe and make next.</p>
<h2>AAA Baseball</h2>
<p>The very first day of the month found us at a AAA baseball game and I think it <em>may</em> have been my first one. We saw the Sacramento Rivercats, which is a part of the San Francisco Giants system. It was a good game. Plus the AAA games always have funny things in between innings and they're much more relaxed in a way, which I enjoy. The night we were there was celebrating dinosaurs so all of the inbetween inning entertainment centered around them. Side note: it was also interesting to be in the stadium where The Athletics (currently in Oakland) will be playing starting next year until they get their stadium in Las Vegas. I'm not sure how the major leaguers are going to enjoy playing in a AAA stadium, it'll be an interesting transition.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/june-2024/aaa-ball-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/june-2024/aaa-ball-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="images/build/posts/june-2024/aaa-ball-sm.jpg" alt="Looking out from the seats of a baseball game with netting in the foreground, players on the field, and in the distance a yellow bridge, the scoreboard, and the rest of the stadium along the right side.">
    <figcaption>AAA baseball from our seats that were fairly decent.</figcaption>
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<h2>Crater Lake</h2>
<p>We day tripped to see a college friend of G's who was nearby and saw the big blue lake that is always beautiful. It's also funny to be at home and it's incredibly hot and then you drive 2.5 hours, go up several thousand feet and there is snow on the ground and it's comfortable and not too warm. Since there was so much snow on the ground the rim drive wasn't open, so the park was also delightfully crowd free.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/june-2024/crater-lake-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/june-2024/crater-lake-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="images/build/posts/june-2024/crater-lake-sm.jpg" alt="In the foreground some snow and cedar trees with a large very blue lake in the middle ground and an island rising up out of it filled with pine trees and in the background mountains with a sprinkling of snow on them.">
    <figcaption>The unbelievable blue of Crate Lake.</figcaption>
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<h2>House projects</h2>
<p>Even though we live in a 5 year old house, it still needs maintenance. We were going to hire out some things, but instead decided to save the money for other things by doing one project ourselves. G and I have sealed a fence in the past and so we know it's a job that isn't fun. But a weekend rolled around with cool weather and we decided to go for it. I don't love doing it, the smell of the seal is awful to me, but we got it done in two mornings and it felt good to get the job done.</p>
<p>We also got some mechanicals serviced and checked and a help with a few other things. These are small things in the grand scheme, but it always feels so good to get it done and not have to think about it anymore. And, as an added bonus, we've saved some money and have room in the budget for something fun.</p>
<h2>Blueberries</h2>
<p>Four years ago I got three tiny blueberry bush starts and put them in the ground. Last year I got a few cups of berries, but these bushes still weren't that big. This year we got a decent harvest, with a quart so far and there are more berries still ripening. I love them fresh off the bush and breakfast has been berries with yogurt and a bit of granola.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/june-2024/blueberries-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/june-2024/blueberries-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="images/build/posts/june-2024/blueberries-sm.jpg" alt="A glass bowl filled with blueberries to the very top, sitting on a brown table with the edge and corner visible in the background.">
    <figcaption>Look at all these berries, loving getting a decent amount this year.</figcaption>
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<h2>Hummingbirds are back</h2>
<p>I finally got our hummingbird feeder filled and put out amongst the flowers and within a week we had birds using it. As has happened the last several years the rufous are fighting over it territorially and the Anna's are swooping in while they fight to quietly take some good long draws from it. Gotta love a bird that sees an opening and grabs it.</p>
<h2>Brewers Socks</h2>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/june-2024/brewers-socks-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/june-2024/brewers-socks-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="images/build/posts/june-2024/brewers-socks-sm.jpg" alt="A pair of legs with one that has the bottom of the foot propped against the other, each has on a sock with blue variegated yarn and yellow stripes at the cuff, a yellow heel, and a yellow toe.">
    <figcaption>One quick make photo, a pair of socks made in the colors of the Milwaukee Brewers, using a custom colorway I got while we were in Milwaukee last month.</figcaption>
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			<title>Podcast listening</title>
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				<p>I go on binges of podcasts on a regular basis, usually when my podcast fetcher has filled up with quite a few episodes. Recently I realized I was really behind, which is a bit of an odd thing to say, but I wanted to listen to them all, but just hadn't been. Here are some one off episodes of things I liked and few that I've been listening to the full seasons.</p>
<h2>How Do We Survive the Media Apocaplypse?</h2>
<p>I'd never listened to the <a href="https://pjvogt.substack.com/p/a-big-announcement-from-search-engine">Search Engine podcast</a>, but this episode was linked by quite a few people I trust, leading me to download it. It's an older episode but still really relevant if you are at all interested in thoughts about media and how things are going and what a way forward is for folks who want to write, think, share, do journalism, etc. Ezra Klein is the guest and what I found most interesting is his clear eyed view of the 2010s and how media companies were doing during that time. In addition I think he's right, what you as a consumer click on and where you spend time is how you show what you care about, something I've thought about a lot recently.</p>
<h2>The Economic Theory That Explains Why Americans Are So Mad</h2>
<p>I listen occasionally to the <em>Ezra Klein Show</em> when the guest is interesting (obviously since I just linked to an episode and now I'm linking to another one), and <a href="https://www.nytimes.com/2024/06/07/opinion/ezra-klein-podcast-annie-lowrey.html">this episode</a> caught my attention because I've enjoyed Annie Lowry's writing about the economy quite a bit. It's a really wide ranging conversation but I learned a lot and I'm still thinking about the wide differences there are in how people experience the economy.</p>
<h2>Significant Others</h2>
<p>This <a href="https://teamcoco.com/podcasts/significant-others">podcast</a> is so good. Each episode looks at a person who is connected to someone famous but you probably know nothing about them. I love it. People discussed include the wife of Benedict Arnold, the man who planned the March on Washington in 1963, the husband of Amelia Earhart, and more. I really enjoy them and have learned a lot of interesting things about the people and stories surrounding historic figures.</p>
<h2>Wiser than Me</h2>
<p>Julia Louis-Dreyfus is one of my favorite actors and last year I discovered she was doing a <a href="https://lemonadamedia.com/show/wiser-than-me-with-julia-louis-dreyfus/">podcast</a> talking to older women to learn from them and I listened to them all. The second season is out now and I'm enjoying these episodes as well. I'll admit that sometimes my favorite part is the introduction by Louis-Dreyfus but usually at least some part of the interview grabs me as well.</p>
<h2>Decoder Ring</h2>
<p>Gonna admit that I'm pretty sure this <a href="https://slate.com/podcasts/decoder-ring">podcast</a> plays on my Gen X nostalgia, but I don't really care as I laugh out loud so much when listening and love it. Decoder ring takes cultural mysteries and tries to figure out what was happening with them. For example: why don't teens slow dance anymore (yes, that's right, they don't and I had no idea) or what is a bookazine or what type of impact did Captain Planet cartoons have or how did subversive art get on to <em>Melrose Place</em>? Highly recommend this as they're fun.</p>

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			<title>Summer</title>
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				<p>It's summer where I live and that means the following things have happened this week.</p>
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<li>We ate breakfast on the patio for the first time yesterday. Living in a place where it gets hot, the mornings are the best time of day on the patio and I love sipping my tea as the bees and bugs do their thing in the flowers around us. Some times a lizard even joins us to start the day with a sun bath.</li>
<li>Stone fruit, stone fruit, stone fruit! I had my first nectarine and it was glorious, worth the price as they are still a bit expensive. I've also bought some blueberries as I wait for the bushes in our yard to ripen up, but they're loaded with fruit so I'll have fruit soon.</li>
<li>Last weekend we went to a AAA ballgame, I think my first one ever but I'm not totally sure (I <em>may</em> have gone to a St. Paul Saints game long ago). It was a beautiful evening and AAA ball is pretty good ball. Along with the game there are always funny things for entertainment and the Rivercats didn't disappoint as it was Dino Night for National Dinosaur Day.</li>
<li>I'm excited to sew again. For some reason sewing is a bit seasonal for me and hot afternoons means I'm content to be inside in the AC at my machine. Currently I'm making some t-shirts, a pair of shorts, and hopefully a dress if I can figure out the fit.</li>
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<p>What I most love about the beginning of summer is the fact that I'm outside more and it shifts the way I start my day. Instead of a device and the world creeping in right away, I'm often outside taking a walk. And while I drink my tea after eating, I'm outside looking at the flowers. Something about being outside shifts me away from screens and news and the world and right now that's been good for my well being.</p>

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			<title>Recent reads: June 2024</title>
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				<p>Wow, I didn't realize I hadn't rounded up books for such a long time, but well, it's been a bit. We've traveled a bit this spring and I don't read as much when we're traveling, so I forgot about the round up. That being said, I've read some books that are sticking with me and I'm still thinking about, even though I finished them a while ago.</p>
<h2>Tom Lake</h2>
<p>I saw so many recommendations for this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/tom-lake-ann-patchett/19879908?ean=9780063347724">book</a> and finally got my chance to read it after waiting for the hold from the library. It's a beautiful story which I loved. During lock down in 2020 a mother is telling her daughters a story from her past, it goes back and forth in time. It's about the story of the mother and her coming of age but also about the family relationships and the pandemic and how everything is affected. I really loved it and don't want to say much more other than you should read it.</p>
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<p>I have told myself for so many years that my career fell apart because I wasn’t any good, but now I’m starting to think it all fell apart because I had ceased to be brave. “If this were a movie, I’d be drowning in regret now. But I’m telling you, Hazel, it doesn’t feel anything like regret. It feels like I just missed getting hit by a train.” (loc 1736)</p>
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<p>There is no explaining this simple truth about life: you will forget much of it. The painful things you were certain you’d never be able to let go? Now you’re not entirely sure when they happened, while the thrilling parts, the heart-stopping joys, splintered and scattered and became something else. (loc 2144)</p>
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<h2>How to Be Idle: A Loafer's Manifesto</h2>
<p>Originally published in 2007, this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/how-to-be-idle-a-loafer-s-manifesto-tom-hodgkinson/8827215?ean=9780060779696">book</a> feels like it may have been at the beginning of so much of the things I've read about living life and slowing down. Hodgkinson uses the hours of the day to go through different ways in which either we can be idle or we're pushed to not be idle. Idleness is a way to think and enjoy the current life you're living and to push back against the productivity culture we live in. One thing that is sitting in the background, but never explicitly mentioned is how being able to do all those things isn't available to everyone. I didn't enjoy every chapter, but particularly loved the chapters on tea, holidays, and dreaming.</p>
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<p>Coffee is for winners, go-getters, tea-ignorers, lunch-cancellers, early-risers, guilt-ridden strivers, money obsessives and status-driven spiritually empty lunatics. It is an enervating force. We should resist it and embrace tea, the ancient drink of poets, philosophers and meditators. (p 98)</p>
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<p>... [D]reams are not about money. They are about you, and they are about quality of life and imagination. Perhaps the reason why we find this difficult to accept is fear—we are afraid of our dreams, and so we deliberately avoid them. (p 270)</p>
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<h2>A Place On Earth</h2>
<p>I thought I'd read most of Wendell Berry's books about his fictional small town, Port William, but I hadn't read <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/a-place-on-earth-revised-wendell-berry/17313830?ean=9781582431246">this one</a>. It's about a family waiting to hear about their son/husband who is declared MIA in World War II. It's the usual cast of characters that are in the other books, but it also is the beginning of the story of Hannah Coulter, who's name is also the title of my favorite book in the series. An enjoyable read as you see how the various people of the town handle the difficulties of war and its impact on their community.</p>
<h2>These Precious Days</h2>
<p>After reading <em>Tom Lake</em>  I wanted more Ann Patchett and turned to <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/these-precious-days-essays-ann-patchett/18273089?ean=9780063092792">this book of essays</a>. I'd read the title essay and one other, but was interested in the others as I love the way Patchett talks about life. I find I have some things in common with her which makes the way she talks about certain aspects of her life even more interesting to me. I really enjoyed <em>A Talk to the Association of Graduate School Deans</em>, <em>Cover Stories</em>, and <em>There Are No Children Here</em>. I especially like the way she talks about her choice to not have children and people's reaction to it, which I can totally relate to.</p>
<h2>The Heaven and Earth Grocery Store</h2>
<p>This <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-heaven-earth-grocery-store-james-mcbride/19508178?ean=9780593743775">book</a> is extremely popular but it was when a podcaster talked about it that I decided to put a hold on it at the library. It's a really interesting book about stories of people who are living on the outside of the mainstream American culture in the early 20th century. The way in which the characters and stories overlapped was really well done and I recommend the book, but it was a slow burn for me, taking me a while to get into it. That being said, the pay off was worth it.</p>
<h2>The Vaster Wilds</h2>
<p>I'm honestly not sure how to write about this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-vaster-wilds-lauren-groff/19900858?ean=9780593418390">book</a> or exactly how I feel about it. A young girl runs away from her settlement in what is now the US and is trying to live on her own in the wilderness while trying to get as far away from the settlement as possible. It's her trying to survive, live in harmony with nature and anyone else who may notice she's around, and find freedom in some capacity. The last two chapters were so good, but I'll admit it was a bit of a struggle for me to get there.</p>
<h2>Mistress of The Ritz</h2>
<p>This was a super interesting <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/mistress-of-the-ritz-melanie-benjamin/8382600?ean=9780399182266">book</a> to read after watching <em>The New Look</em> on Apple TV+ since the book is centered on the hotel where Coco Chanel lived during World War II. The story centers on the man who manages the hotel and his wife, an American who has a secret from her past. You follow the story back and forth in time from the war era and the history of the couple and how they met and married. But of course the story also centers on the war and how both of the Auzello's handled the war and tried to find a way through. I enjoyed this, especially when I read in the author's note that the Auzello's really did live at and manage The Ritz but very little is known of their time during the war.</p>
<h2>The Lost Bookshop</h2>
<p>A <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-lost-bookshop-evie-woods/20322117?ean=9780008609214">book</a> that mixed a bit of fantasy in with history, which I didn't quite expect, but it worked. Martha is fleeing an abusive husband and lands a job as a housekeeper for an older woman in Dublin. Henry is searching for a bookshop that was supposed to be right where the house Martha works in is, but it isn't there. And we go back in time to learn about Opaline, who is trying to make a life for herself in the 1920s when such things weren't easy to do as a woman. It took me a bit to get into this one, but how can you not love a book that centers around the love of books and stories.</p>

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			<title>May musings</title>
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				<p>May is almost over, but it was a good month for the most part. We traveled, I got my garden going, and I made some things. I'll have a book post up soon, but I thought I'd do a bit of a round up via photos of the month.</p>
<h2>Travel to the Midwest</h2>
<p>We started the month with a trip to the Midwest to see family but also a bit of big city time for us in Chicago. We stayed in Wicker Park and really enjoyed being close to the train downtown as well as lots of restaurants and shops close to the small inn where we stayed.</p>
<p>The weather was not great at all, raining on our first day so we took refuge in the Art Institute of Chicago. It's always crowded and while we were there it was no different, but for the first time we spent a lot of time in the Modern Building which was less crowded and had some really great work from the 20th Century. I realize that Impressionists are what most people go to see, but I was really glad to see a lot of work by artists that were hugely influential on me when I was in art school.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/may-2024/art-institute-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/may-2024/art-institute-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="images/build/posts/may-2024/art-institute-sm.jpg" alt="A woman stands with her back to the camera in front a a full length wall of windows and outside the sky is gray, skyscrapers are seen and some of the tops are obscured by clouds.">
    <figcaption>Looking out at the city and the rain as captured by G in front of the huge windows in the Modern Building of the Art Institute of Chicago.</figcaption>
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<p>We made our way to Milwaukee where I went to my first home Brewers game. The highlight, other than the fact that they won, was seeing the racing sausages in person. Such an oddball thing, but also so funny. The Polish Sausage ran away with the win.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/may-2024/racing-sausages-sm.jpg 800w, 
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                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="images/build/posts/may-2024/racing-sausages-sm.jpg" alt="Five different people dressed up in sausage costumes line up on the sides of a baseball field, in front of them are seats with people and behind them are baseball players warming up for the next half inning.a">
    <figcaption>The racing sausages at the Brewers game, ready to race. (Photo credit G)</figcaption>
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<p>A final shot of me at O'Hare on the way home. We got there with a lot of time to kill because we were worried about the traffic when driving down from Milwaukee. I'll be honest, I don't mind extra time at the airport, I do what I'm doing here, find a quiet gate and get out my knitting or my book and relax.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/may-2024/knitting-ohare-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/may-2024/knitting-ohare-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="images/build/posts/may-2024/knitting-ohare-sm.jpg" alt="A woman sits in a row of chairs, with no people on either side, the chair to her left is filled with bags and sweatshirts and she is looking down at her hands as she knits. Out the windows to her left is a jetway and a plane.">
    <figcaption>At O'Hare, on the way home, with plenty of time to kill, so I found an empty gate and sat and knit while listening to a podcast. (Photo credit G.)</figcaption>
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<h2>Snapdragons galore</h2>
<p>We came home from our trip and I was ready to get going in the garden. My snapdragons were also about a foot taller than they were before we left. I scoured through a local nursery and found plants for the raised beds and pots (of which I have two new ones) and got to planting. Our patio table is right next to the raised beds and I've loved in recent years filling it all up with color. There are still several plants that need to fill in and bloom, but I'm really pleased with the way it's going so far this year. A highlight has been the sedums I planted in pots last year and they've really come into their own this year with interesting colors and textures.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/may-2024/garden-view-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/may-2024/garden-view-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="images/build/posts/may-2024/garden-view-sm.jpg" alt="In the foreground is a tiny bit of a metal lattice work table, behind it sits several different pots, a raised bed, and flowers blooming. In the raised bed is a large group of snapdragons, each about 18 inches tall, in the bots behind are yellow and red flowers. In the pots in the foreground are various daisy like flowers and some succulents with spikey red and yellow shoots.">
    <figcaption>The view of my raised beds and pots full of things that are blooming. I spend a lot of time at this table in the summer and love all the colorful blooms being right next to it.</figcaption>
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<h2>Finished some knits</h2>
<p>As is normal for me, I did finish some makes, all knitting this month as it's so much easier when traveling. I'll get back to sewing soon as I have a large stack of fabric staring at me from my sewing table, patiently waiting. But I did get some summer weight tees made and a hat.</p>
<p>The <a href="https://www.ravelry.com/patterns/library/uptown-tee-2">Uptown Tee</a> was a great travel knit (sorry for the Ravelry link but this designer doesn't have a website). I got the yoke and sleeves done before we left and set it aside to save the never ending stockinette for travel. I'll be honest, I love knitting stockinette in the round even when not traveling, so it was a good mindless, but meditative knit. I'm wearing the tee here with my favorite shorts pattern, <a href="https://truebias.com/collections/all/products/emerson-pant-short">Emerson shorts</a> by True Bias.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/may-2024/uptown-emersons-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/may-2024/uptown-emersons-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="images/build/posts/may-2024/uptown-emersons-sm.jpg" alt="A woman with brown glasses stands in front of a door and window in the corner of a porch, wearing a bright blue knit tee and a pair of shorts that are mottled green color. She's smiling and her hands are behind her back, with her head tilted to the left and one leg in front of the other.">
    <figcaption>A recently finished knit tee, what I was knitting while traveling earlier in the month along with my favorite shorts pattern, the Emerson shorts. (Photo credit G.)</figcaption>
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<p>I also finished up the <a href="https://www.ozettaknitwear.com/patterns/p/34te1gbocvj7i2wu94ub9r417ls10y">Moonset Tee</a> and I found a new favorite summer weight yarn, <a href="https://knittingforolive.com/collections/knitting-for-olive-cottonmerino">Knitting for Olive Cotton Merino</a>. So soft and wonderful to work with and I think it'll only get better with wear and washing.</p>
<p>My final make for May was a knit-a-long challenge, knitting a hat over the long weekend. I started it on the Thursday before Memorial Day and finished it on the Saturday, so I knit it in three days. Andrea Mowry runs the challenge and released a new hat pattern specifically for it, <a href="https://www.dreareneeknits.com/shop/the-traveler-hat">The Traveler Hat</a>. It was fun to knit with a lot of other people. That being said, my hat is way too big, I chose the wrong size and probably should've changed my needle size as well. But the good news is I have enough yarn left to make another one, which I'll probably do at some point. The one I've made will be donated via the hat drive my local yarn shop does every fall.</p>
<p>I'm hoping, by documenting some things, I'll remember a bit more about the small things this month down the road. Since I'm not using Instagram anymore, this is a great way to get myself to share some photos from the month as well. That, not using Instragram, has been really good for me, by the way. I'm on my phone a lot less for meaningless things and using it to read more longer form or putting it down all together. Being off line more has been so good for me, especially since the news of the world is... awful. I'm far from perfect in this respect, but I'm trying.</p>

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			<title>Recently watched: May 2024</title>
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				<p>I don't watch a ton of TV or movies, especially not during baseball season, but I just finished two shows that I really enjoyed and thought I'd share. I'll also add that this may be a regular thing but much less frequently than my book posts. I've given up all social media (except Ravelry—is Ravelry social media, I'm still not sure about that), so I'm once again trying to put the things I'm thinking about here.*</p>
<h2>Franklin</h2>
<p>When G and I saw the previews for <em>Franklin</em> while watching <em>Masters of the Air</em> we were quite skeptical. Michael Douglas as Benjamin Franklin, would this really work? Reader, it works. It works for a couple of different reasons; the series is based on a book by Stacey Schiff and the story is really well done and the rest of the casting is spot on. It's about the time Franklin spends in France trying to win support from them for the revolutionary war. Highlights include the casting of John Adams and how he and Franklin interact, Franklin's grandson Temple who I knew nothing about, and the spy game being played by Britain throughout. I liked it so much I'm considering reading the book it's based on. You can find the show on Apple TV+.</p>
<h2>Sugar</h2>
<p>A noir detective series where each episode is roughly 30 minutes? Yes please. Colin Farrell is fantastic as John Sugar. He's hired to find a missing woman by her rich, famous grandfather. Classic noir story and Sugar is really into old movies so you see clips throughout the show. There is a lot more to this show and I don't want to spoil it, but I did see the big twist before the actual reveal and it didn't bother me, but it made the last 2 episodes a bit odd. That being said, the performances by Farrell and Amy Ryan are fantastic and I enjoyed the show as it felt different right from the very beginning of the first episode. This show is also on Apple TV +. (Can you tell we have a free 3 month trial and are making the most of it?)</p>
<p>*This is completely inspired by <a href="https://rachsmith.com/">Rach Smith</a> and her posting every day this month.</p>

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			<title>Me Made May</title>
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			<updated>2024-05-01T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>It's May and in the sewing world that means it's #memademay. I struggled with this last year and this year I finally did some research to figure out what it is and what the intentions of the <a href="https://sozowhatdoyouknow.blogspot.com/p/about-me-made-may.html">founder</a> were when she started it all. It was <em>really</em> helpful for me to <a href="https://checkyourthread.com/podcast/84-what-is-me-made-may/">listen to a podcast</a> that Zoe did where she explains what Me Made May is and isn't.</p>
<p>Guess what? It has nothing to do with taking photos of yourself in your makes every day, contrary to what many, many people say. It's also not about making loads of new things, contrary to the barrage of emails I've received about sales at various pattern companies and fabric shops. It's a challenge where you set it up to work for you, creating your own guidelines with the goal of wearing the things you've made more. I love that it all started on blogs before social media and, quite honestly, would love to see more of it go back to blogs. But, alas, I have no idea what will ever knock makers of off Instagram, they are very into it even though it's become harder and harder to see what you want to see there.</p>
<p>I haven't made a pledge for Me Made May, which is what the founder recommends, instead I've pledged to get off Instagram for the month. Yesterday I deleted it from my phone. I don't find it hard to wear the clothes I make, I wear them every day. At this point the clothes I've made now out number the ready to wear items I wear regularly. I make simple clothes that fit with my lifestyle; think jeans, comfy trousers, lots of knit tees, shorts, and the occasional dress. Nothing fancy, the fit isn't perfect on everything I wear as I'm still learning, but it's all comfortable and fits me better than ready to wear.</p>
<p>My pledge, if you can call it that, has been what I've been doing with my making in 2024, slowing down. I'm trying to be more thoughtful and really ensure that what I'm making I want to wear again and again. That doesn't mean that fails won't occur—a fail to me is making something that even if it fits great isn't something I reach for when I'm getting dressed— it does mean I'm making less overall. It's also meant that I'm looking at the things I've made that I don't reach for and seeing if I can alter or change them to be something I want to wear.</p>
<p>I'm really glad that I researched Me Made May to see what it's all about since pretty much everything I'd seen as explanations weren't right. I've also found another blog to put in my feed reader along with a podcast on sewing that I've added to my queue that's about sustainability as much as it's about sewing.</p>

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			<title>The Power Broker</title>
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			<updated>2024-04-02T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>1,162. That's the number of pages, not counting any end material, in the copy of <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-power-broker-robert-moses-and-the-fall-of-new-york-robert-a-caro/11251293?ean=9780394720241"><em>The Power Broker</em></a> that I read. Probably the longest book I've read in my life. I honestly wasn't sure if I would finish this when I set out to read it in January, but here we are less than three months from the day I started and I'm done.</p>
<p>I read this book, nothing more; no notes, no underling, no writing in the margins. It's not that those are bad things to do, it's more that I just wanted to read it and enjoy it and see where it took me without necessarily thinking about every single part. I had no idea when I started exactly what I would think of this book, this book that is talked about by so many; it's a daunting thing to pick up. But I enjoyed it. I enjoyed it a lot.</p>
<p>I knew this book was about power and how one attains it and keeps it, the title and interviews with Caro make that clear, but I wasn't quite prepared for how much I'd change the way I see power. I'm not, by my nature, really interested in power. I've never managed people in a job and I've always had very little interest in moving up the ladder in the corporate world. In the past I've seen how power changes people to some extent, but this book really showed me how much power motivates many people. I started to see that motivation all around me in small and large ways; people striving for power in whatever way they can get it.</p>
<p>Robert Caro is a great writer and ends a chapter better than almost anyone I've ever read. His writing is why I was able to finish this book in a relatively short amount of time, I always wanted to keep going and see where things were going to go. Plus, by the time I was at the half way point I was really interested in how in the world Moses was going to lose power, what would take him down.</p>
<p>I don't feel the need to say a lot more about this book, there are a ton of people writing and talking about it and if you want to get a recap of it, the <a href="https://99percentinvisible.org/episode/the-power-broker-03-david-sims/">99% Invisible Podcast series</a> is a great way to do so. I'll be thinking about this one for a long time. Not only did one man do so much to shape and change a major city, New York City, as well as other parts of New York state, but he did so by becoming completely nefarious in his dealings. He started out young and idealistic and it didn't take long for all of that to go out the window. Personality and his nature had a lot to do with it, but I can't help but wonder about aging, culture, the nature of power making you want more power, and so much more. I'm also now intrigued by the entire concept of power and how it motivates people and want to read more. I gotta admit it, I'm consdering starting Caro's series on Lyndon Johnson.</p>

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			<title>Recent reads: March 2024</title>
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				<p>It'd been longer than I realized since I did one of these round ups. Part of that is because I've been reading the same book since the beginning of January and then supplementing with other books for my before bed readings. <em>The Power Broker</em> is going well, I have roughly 200 pages to go, but it's also dense and heavy (both literally and figuratively) and I can't read it in bed simply because the book is too heavy to hold up. Here's what I've been reading along side it.</p>
<h2>Passing for Human</h2>
<p>A graphic novel where i enjoyed the drawing quite a bit but didn't enjoy the story quite as much. Liana Finck is on a quest for understanding herself and what she may have lost, which she calls her &quot;shadow.&quot; At times I didn't quite understand where Finck was coming from but there were some panels that were beautiful.</p>
<p>[Note: This isn't on Bookshop and I don't really link to Amazon anymore, so I suggest your local library if you want to read this one, that's where I got it.]</p>
<h2>A Morbid Taste for Bones</h2>
<p>A mystery where a monk invesitgates a death during the twelfth century and while I didn't dislike this book, I didn't immediately want to read more of the series. The pacing was slow for me but the mystery ended up being quite good and it was ingenious how Brother Cadfael solved it.</p>
<p>[Note: Again, not on Bookshop, so look at your library.]</p>
<h2>Happy Place</h2>
<p>As I said above, I've been gravitating towards easier, more relaxed reads and this book was perfect. Emily Henry books always make me laugh and the best part is usually how much I would love to be in the middle of the mix hanging out with the group of friends she's writing about. This particular <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/happy-place-emily-henry/18695278?ean=9780593441275">book</a> was no exception and I enjoyed it a lot.</p>
<h2>Baltimore Blues</h2>
<p>The first <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/baltimore-blues-pb-laura-lippman/6435715?ean=9780062384065">book</a> in a new to me mystery series and I loved it. One thing I really loved is that it was written in 1997 so before the advent of a lot of the tech we currently use today, which made things better.  Tess Monaghan is an out of work journalist and her friend gets arrested for murder, so she helps the lawyer representing him investigate the case. It twisted and turned in ways I wasn't expecting and I enjoyed it a lot. I'll be reading more of these.</p>
<h2>Georgie, All Along</h2>
<p>Another relaxed read, a <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/georgie-all-along-kate-clayborn/19515004?ean=9781496737298">romance</a> where Georgie goes back to her home town in order to figure out what to do with her life after losing her job as an assitant to an actress. I related to Georgie in a lot of ways but I also loved that a dog was a key character. If you're a romance person I recommend this one.</p>
<h2>The Unhoneymooners</h2>
<p>Maybe the <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-unhoneymooners-christina-lauren/6682300?ean=9781501128035">title</a> gives it away, but yup, another romance. I didn't enjoy this one as much as the other two in this round up, but I finished it. Olive and her twin sister's brother-in-law end up going on the sister's honeymoon because everyone but them gets food poisoning at the wedding reception. They supposedly hate each other, but of course we all know what happens when they're in Maui.</p>

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			<title>50</title>
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				<p>A few weeks ago I turned 50. I was so ambivalent about this birthday, it felt so different than when I turned 40 that I wanted to do something quieter and more relaxed.</p>
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    <figcaption>View from our hotel upon arriving in Seattle.</figcaption>
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<p>We got a big city fix and walked and walked and walked. Luck was in our favor as the weather in the Pacific Northwest was dry both days we were in Seattle. All of that walking and looking around and thinking was good for me. I've been a bit worried about what aging will bring, if I'm being honest. Society doesn't really seem to know what to do with older folks and I still, even at this age, feel like I'm trying to find my place and fit.</p>
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                 src="images/build/posts/fifty/wheel-port-sm.jpg" alt="The ferris wheel and cranes from the port in the distance with a clear blue sky and water.">
    <figcaption>Walking along the water on a gorgeous sunny day.</figcaption>
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<p>I came home from the trip feeling more settled. The day is an arbitrary day in many ways, I wasn't really all that different that day than I was the day before, and yet..... I'm leaning into holding onto the things I know will be good for me and no longer doing things that I think will somehow please others. I'm grateful beyond words for G as he continues to make me laugh, support me, and help through the rough spots that inevitably come up in life.</p>
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    <figcaption>Birthday dinner of gnocchi at a small french restaurant where we ate at the counter and it was soooooo good.</figcaption>
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<p>The one part that felt absolutely right about my birthday is that I was wearing all clothes I made: socks, trousers, t-shirt, and sweater. It was great to feel so comfortable in my clothing and in my own skin. The gift I wanted most was some yarns that I've heard a lot about and not knit with yet, and I got them. Making has been how I've really figured out a lot of who I am and what I love over the last few years and I don't expect that to change any time soon.</p>
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    <figcaption>The yarn haul from Shop La Mercerie and Lamb & Kid both on Bainbridge Island.</figcaption>
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			<title>Subscriptions as a sustainable income model</title>
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			<updated>2024-02-06T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>The other day as I was eating breakfast and going through my feeds I clicked on a link that Baldur Bjarnason had in a round up links post entitled <a href="https://joanwestenberg.com/blog/the-creator-economy-cant-rely-on-patreon">&quot;The creator economy can't rely on Patreon.&quot;</a> and read through it. It wasn't that I didn't know it was hard to make a sustainable living off of subscriptions, but I didn't realize it was quite as hard as Westenberg lays out.</p>
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<p>Relying solely on organic user payments rarely provides reliable and adequate income. Creators soon discover building a subscriber base is far easier said than done. Though some succeed due to viral content or niche popularity, creators are more often stranded in the discouraging and disappointing gap between audience reach and monetisable support.</p>
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<p>Above this Westenberg points out that roughly 5% of any subscriber list is paying. So in order to have reliable income you need to have a lot of subscribers. I'd seen vague references to this before, but this piece lays it out better than any other I've read. And the author goes on:</p>
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<p>The transactional ask inherent in requesting money damages community trust and goodwill. Turning fans into individual revenue streams backfires, breaking the genuine parasocial relationships creators build with their audiences. The shift from viewing fans as community members to income sources changes social dynamics in ways many find unpalatable.</p>
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<p>So much this. Once you are hustling and asking for money, it changes everything and can suck the joy out of it for the creator and for the audience member. I've also seen, with writers I used to follow, that as their community and list grew their writing changed. Once you are in an echo chamber of people who love what you do, how do you change and grow and hang on to those same people? Will they come along for the ride as that happens or will you change what you create in order to satisfy them? I fear that the latter is what happens more often than not.</p>
<p>[As a complete aside, it's interesting to note that Westenberg is using the patron model with her writing, which is probably why they're clear eyed about how it's not a workable model.]</p>
<p>But as I kept reading my RSS feeds that morning, Bjarnason wrote a <a href="https://www.baldurbjarnason.com/2024/media-needs-more-than-subscriptions/">piece</a> tagging on to Westenberg that resonated equally with how I view supporting the things that I enjoy. Bjarnason goes deeper into why subscriptions are so hard to keep going and to make money off of, mostly the large platforms are benefitting a few big names few and the smaller folks aren't getting much out of the aggregator at all.</p>
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<p>Again, a subscription is the hardest media artefact to sell, by a huge margin. You could go through an aggregator who is taking care of the work involved with finding those subscribers, but those platforms are dominated by the big names. They are geared to the already popular, not new entrants into the field. The UIs of these services don’t surface smaller titles because there isn’t any money in it. Smaller names on aggregators get peanuts. Even many of the big names get peanuts.</p>
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<p>But in my own consumption, since that is what makes the world go round, I'm much more prone to buy a book, an art print or piece, or the digital files to the music I want to listen to. I find that a way to diversify what I'm consuming, rather than a subscription to the same person's work. I'd add that often times I don't really need more content to consume; there is a lot out there already (you should see my book list) and the benefits that come with subscriptions are always more, more of whatever the creator is doing and that usually isn't appealing to me.</p>
<p>As Bjarnason says at the end of their piece:</p>
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<p>But that money may be better spent buying individual books from a dozen different writers instead—one a month instead of one subscription for a year. You’ll get a wider variety of writing, a plurality of ideas, and you’ll be giving twelve artists or writers a leg up instead of just one.</p>
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<p>That's my goal and often I feel twinges of guilt as so many people I follow in the knitting and sewing world are starting up subscription based things to supplement their income. But I can't support everything and I remind myself of that often.</p>
<p class="small">Side note: If you aren't following Baldur Bjarnason on RSS I highly recommend it. His links and thoughts on both the tech world and the wider world are thought provoking. This may be the first time I've blogged about things he's linked to or written about, but it isn't the first time I've continued to think about them long after I've read them.</p>
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			<title>Recent reads: February 2024</title>
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				<p>It's been over a month since my last book round up and in some ways I can't believe it. I've been reading more than ever lately as I stay away from screens, one reason this post has taken so long. Now that I'm not on a computer all day, it's been much harder to push myself to write and post than it was and the more I spend time away from screens, the less time I want to spend on them. In addition to what's below, I've been steadily reading <em>The Power Broker</em> and really enjoying the book, Caro does a great job of diving into details and then zooming out to help you see why what's been happening is important within the context of Moses' life.</p>
<h2>Crook Manifesto</h2>
<p>The <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/crook-manifesto/18888269?ean=9780385545150">sequel</a>, of sorts, to <em>Harlem Shuffle</em> was interesting and not too bad, but I really like the main character and he was less a focus in this book. The three parts of the book felt a lot like novellas that were loosely connected, which I liked quite a bit because you could put it down in between parts without worrying about forgetting pertinent details. If you like the first book, you'll probably like this one, but the story (or stories) didn't draw me in as deeply.</p>
<h2>Case Histories</h2>
<p>The <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/case-histories-kate-atkinson/108653?ean=9780316010702">first book</a> in the Jackson Brodie series and it's unlike other mysteries I've read lately. Brodie is brought into cases that are cold and don't feel like their connected in any way, but as the story goes along you find out more details. That being said, I didn't see all of the ending coming at all and that's the mark of a good mystery in my opinion.</p>
<h2>Last Seen Wearing</h2>
<p>The <a href="https://www.abebooks.com/servlet/BookDetailsPL?bi=31694740233&amp;searchurl=sortby%3D17%26tn%3Dlast%2Bseen%2Bwearing&amp;cm_sp=snippet-_-srp1-_-title1">second book</a> in the Inspector Morse series, which is a bit tricky to find, yet G managed to track it down and put it in my Christmas stocking. Morse books are very much in the weeds often, with tangents and side shoots that make it hard to know where they're going and this book is no exception. The endings are always really satisfying though and it's been interesting to read these after having watched all of <em>Endeavour</em>.</p>
<h2>The Silent World of Nicholas Quinn</h2>
<p>Another Inpsector Morse <a href="https://www.abebooks.com/servlet/BookDetailsPL?bi=31710612184&amp;searchurl=kn%3Dthe%2Bsilent%2Bworld%2Bof%2Bnicholas%2Bquinn%26sortby%3D17&amp;cm_sp=snippet-_-srp1-_-title1">book</a>, also tracked down by G for my Christmas stocking. This was a really interesting case and as I've gotten used to the way Dexter writes, I've started to enjoy these more and more. What I really like about reading mysteries is they are like watching TV in a way, but more relaxing without the glowing screen and these fit the bill quite well.</p>
<h2>Mr. Churchill's Secretary</h2>
<p>A completely fluffy <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/mr-churchill-s-secretary-a-maggie-hope-mystery-susan-elia-macneal/7335699?ean=9780593600535">mystery</a> that takes place during World War II and centers around a woman who was born in Britain but grew up in America and is now living in London. She gets a job working for the Prime Minister and she's also trying to find out more about her parents along with a mystery that involves the PM. Not the best mystery I've read, but I finished it and am contemplating the second book in the series, a nice way to escape this bat shit crazy world we're currently living in.</p>
<h2>Mrs. Palfrey at the Claremont</h2>
<p>I'm fairly certain this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/mrs-palfrey-at-the-claremont-elizabeth-taylor/18153692?ean=9781681375649">title</a> made it on my list via a NY Times reading newsletter, because it's an older book but quite acclaimed. It's a difficult story to read about a woman who retires to a hotel to live with other older people and try to pass her days in some fashion. She's lonely, as it seems all the older people living there are, but through a chance meeting with a young man in then neighborhood she sees a life line to some community. It's a heartfelt story that at times is utterly heartbreaking.</p>
<h2>Dead Lions</h2>
<p>The <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/dead-lions-mick-herron/6565401?ean=9781616953676">second book</a> in the Slow Horses series that I read quickly in order to watch the second season of the TV series before my free trial of Apple TV+ runs out. The book was really well done and I like the Jackson Lamb character more and more. If you like spy thrillers with a twist of them being the spies that MI5 hates, you'll love this series. They're fast paced, well plotted, and funny. Alas, I've watched the first episode of the season that's based on this book and am not sure I like how they've adapted it.</p>
<h2>Dinosaurs</h2>
<p>Lest you think all I've been reading is mysteries and spy novels, this is <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/dinosaurs-lydia-millet/18138777?ean=9781324021469">something</a> completely different. I wasn't sure what to expect with a book about a man who walks from New York to Phoenix after his partner leaves him, but it ended up being a really lovely book about community, what matters in life, and how we relate to our neighbors. I also loved learning more about birds via Gil learning about them.</p>
<h2>Snow, Glass, Apples</h2>
<p>A <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/neil-gaiman-s-snow-glass-apples-neil-gaiman/9918695?ean=9781506709796">graphic novel</a> based on the Snow White story that got on my list quite a long while ago and I've been prioritizing grabbing things from the library that are on the shelf and this was. Not my favorite graphic novel, but I did find the very adult spin on the classic tale an interesting way to look at it. There were also parts of it that weren't quite clear so I was a bit confused at the end, but maybe that's part of what Gaiman intended.</p>
<h2>Warrior Girl Unearthed</h2>
<p>The <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/warrior-girl-unearthed-angeline-boulley/18698955?ean=9781250766588">second book</a> from Angeline Boulley that takes place on Sugar Island and in the same community, this time roughly ten years after the first. I enjoyed the first book so figured I would the second, but that turned out not to be the case. It was pretty good until the final part and then it went off the rails for me. I had a very hard time believing that a group of teenagers would be able to do what they did without the adults and the close knit community figuring out what was going on. But the focus on the way in which Native American remains still have not been returned to the tribes so long after the law passed to ensure they would be was extremely interesting and something I knew nothing about.</p>

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			<title>2024</title>
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				<p>Is it too late? Too late to be talking about plans for the year? I've had a slow start to 2024 and I didn't do a 2023 wrap up because, frankly, it was a good year but I couldn't think of a clever way to talk about it compared to all the wrap ups I read.</p>
<p>I watched a <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LE1F1fptFQA">video</a> about goals for 2024 yesterday that resonated with me. Last year I did a <a href="https://www.nytimes.com/2021/01/02/at-home/more-less-lists.html">More/Less list</a> and was all set to do another one for 2024 but realized, quite frankly, that it would be quite similar. Maybe it's because there haven't been any dramatic shifts in my life, but I basically want to do more of the same things in 2024 as 2023 and less of the same things as well.</p>
<p>Along with that, I decided I didn't really want to make concrete goals. I did pick out a theme for the year: let go and be present. That's it. Be in the moment and don't try to get ahead of myself. It isn't that there <em>aren't</em> plans, there are. Trips are on the horizon with more travel this year than last and I have making plans as well, but if things change, that's OK.</p>
<p>I buy both yarn and fabric as I need them and don't keep a large stash and one reason for that is I try very hard to use up what I buy. This year, much like last year, I'm scheming ways to use up the partial skeins of yarn I have left and some of the scraps of fabric as well and I'm excited about that, but I have no idea when I'll make those things. I do intend to slow down this year in my knitting and sewing because the truth is, I have a lot of clothes. I'm being more thoughtful about what I want to wear and what will complement what I've already made. I'm starting the year off with some basics and then I'll go from there.</p>
<p>My only concrete plan for 2024 is to read <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-power-broker-robert-moses-and-the-fall-of-new-york-robert-a-caro/11251293?ean=9780394720241"><em>The Power Broker</em></a>. <a href="https://99percentinvisible.org/episode/breaking-down-the-power-broker/">99 Percent Invisible</a> is doing a bit of a book club around it this year, reading roughly 100 pages per month and they'll be releasing monthly podcasts to talk about each section. I'm a reader and love to read, but this is an intimidating book, the soft cover copy I bought is 1161 pages (that's just the book, not the notes, index, etc). That's.... a lot. But I'm 90 pages in and by breaking it into 100 pages a month, it feels manageable and still leaves time to read other things. Yes, Caro adds a lot of detail, but I'm treating this book as I did books in graduate school; I don't need to read every word.</p>
<p>My hope for 2024 is a year of good things but also, more importantly, finding my way through the difficult times with a bit more ease. And, to be honest, even with the world the way it is, I'm excited for several things coming up this year.</p>

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			<title>Recent reads: December 2023</title>
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			<updated>2023-12-19T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Well, maybe it's because I just finished them but I read two of the best books I've read in a long while in this round up; very different books but both really great reads. And this month has been good both in reading and in life. Even as I struggle with some aspects of this time of year in this culture, I'm also really grateful to be able to slow down and enjoy it, which in our household means very few plans and lots of time to enjoy the weather if it's nice and do the things that bring us joy. Until next year, happy reading!</p>
<h2>For the First Time, Again</h2>
<p>The final <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/for-the-first-time-again-sylvain-neuvel/18774690?ean=9781250262578">book</a> in the <em>Take Them to the Stars</em> trilogy was my favorite. We meet the main character as a young child and grow up with her as she navigates a world in which she's seen as a predator or a freak and is protected by her greatest enemy. Aster is so wonderfully written and the twists at the end are so well done. This book doesn't leave the end tied up with a bow, but it was incredibly satisfying. I enjoyed the series and was so glad the final book was so well done.</p>
<h2>Book of Delights</h2>
<p>Ross Gay calls these <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-book-of-delights-essays-ross-gay/12566058?ean=9781616207922">essayettes</a> since some are incredibly short. He sets out to write about delight every day for a year, starting on his birthday. I read these slowly over the course of many quiet mornings and while I didn't love every essay, it did get me thinking about and looking for delight in my own daily life. It also showed me how much defining delight is different depending on the individual.</p>
<h2>The Perfume Collector</h2>
<p>A story of a housewife married to a man striving in the world of 1950s London to continue moving up the social ladder finds out she's got to go to Paris to see a lawyer about an urgent matter. When she gets there she finds out she's inherited a great deal of money from a woman she never met. The story goes back and forth between the current time and the past as you learn who Eva was as Grace learns and searches more information. I really enjoyed this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-perfume-collector-kathleen-tessaro/6432432?ean=9780062257840">one</a>.</p>
<h2>Romantic Comedy</h2>
<p>I think I can say with some certainty that this is one of my top <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/romantic-comedy/18929924?ean=9780399590948">reads</a> for 2023, at least for fiction. A woman who writes for a weekly Saturday night sketch comedy show meets the host who is also the musical performer and feels an attraction. Fast forward to the pandemic and they start emailing. The dialogue is so well written and the pacing so spot on that I couldn't put this one down and ended up staying up quite late one night reading. But I also completely related to the woman, Sally, with her anxieties and her wondering about life and the hilarious way she thought about things. Highly recommend this one.</p>
<h2>The Eyes of the Queen</h2>
<p>Well, I went from one of the best to one of the mediocre <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-eyes-of-the-queen-oliver-clements/14358331?ean=9781501154690">reads</a> of 2023. Spies during the Elizabethan era in England? Sounded good but the execution wasn't great. It is short and action packed so I finished, but the ending was absolutely so cheesy and well, I don't know that I'll read the other two books in the series.</p>
<h2>The Queen of Attolia</h2>
<p>The <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-queen-of-attolia-megan-whalen-turner/6439026?ean=9780062642974">second book</a> in the <em>Queen's Thief</em> series and I didn't love this one as much as I did the first. The world building is still top notch, but I found some of the story line choices strange and I'm not sure I buy the main love story at all. But I finished it and I'm now contemplating if I'll read the third one, I've got it on my list but it's not at the top at this point.</p>
<h2>The Exiles</h2>
<p>This <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-exiles-christina-baker-kline/15205272?ean=9780062356338">book</a> pulled me in and wouldn't let go until I read the last word. I loved it. I knew nothing about the practice of transport in England in the mid 1800s and was fascinated with how they shipped off their convicts to Australia, specifically in this book Tasmania. The story revolves around three women; Evangline who is sentenced to transport and 7 years labor after a false accusation, Hazel who is on the transport ship with Evangeline, and Mathinna an aboriginal girl who is brought to live with a high up official in Tasmania. Christina Baker Kline did amazing amounts of research as she talked about in her afterword and it shows, the story comes to life in so many different ways. While it's not always easy to read what happens to these three women, there is a sense of hope in the end.</p>
<h2>N or M?</h2>
<p>Another Tommy and Tuppence <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/n-or-m-agatha-christie/6437569?ean=9780062074324">mystery</a> from Agatha Christie and I still love these characters. The dialogue between them is always a highlight in the books, but this time the mystery was quite good as well. Tommy is tapped to help root out a group sympathetic to Germany in 1940 England and of course Tuppence inserts herself as well. It was nice to read something a little lighter after <em>The Exiles</em> and to chuckle at how very British Tommy and Tuppence are.</p>

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			<title>MLB Stats</title>
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				<p>G got the end of year email from MLB, letting us know our stats for streaming for 2023. In 2022 we streamed a lot of baseball, but in 2023, we blew our 2022 numbers out of the water. He wrote up a <a href="https://gregorygross.com/blog/entry.php?id=2023121500">post</a> about it all and you can see the stats for yourself. I streamed the majority of these games as it was in the high heat of summer, the games start at 4 or 5 pm and I sit down with my knitting and watch baseball, usually The Brewers. Then, after dinner, we would usually stream a west coast team if they were playing at home, since those games would just be starting up. There is something really relaxing about baseball for me, it's also perfect have on while knitting, so it's a win-win.</p>

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			<title>Holiday vibes</title>
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			<updated>2023-12-13T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I struggle with the holidays, not because I dislike them or have bad memories, but instead as I've aged I've come to struggle with how much they revolve around consumption. So many folks I know who do amazing creative things are pushing to sell as much as possible and yet, I've come to believe that consuming at the rate we do is bad for the planet and, I'd argue, often times bad for individuals.</p>
<p>Add to that that two of my hobbies are, by their very nature, oriented around consuming, either fabric or yarn, and you have a recipe for constantly questioning my consumption. I buy as I go with my making, so as not to have things I don't use sitting around. This year I've made a concerted effort to use up the partial skeins and scraps of fabric I've accumulated. I've started slowing down how much I make both because I want to enjoy the process but also because I've become keenly aware of much I've made and how little I need. I love the act of making so it's a conundrum that I'm caught in constantly.</p>
<p>I came across a <a href="https://creativefuel.substack.com/p/seasonal-deals">newsletter</a> this past weekend that resonated with me from a creative who also struggles with this season and the amount of consumption that comes with it. She quotes a Swedish woman who said:</p>
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<p>Buy what you need, want what you have.</p>
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<p>The newsletter author added:</p>
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<p>Support what you love.</p>
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<p>The first two statements resonate with me so very much and our household thinks a lot about purchases, but I struggle with the support what you love and have struggled with it for a while. I think about this not just in terms of physical items, but also in terms of supporting things via Patreon or subscriptions. I can't support all the things I love, my budget isn't big enough and I've been wondering if this truly is the best way to live. Capitalism means everyone needs to both make money and also the economy runs on people spending money, and yet....</p>
<p>I don't know what else to say other than it's hard, isn't it? So many great things being made at small scale or writers saying important things, how does one decide what to support? And ultimately, how do we get away from this being the way it all works?</p>
<p>And now for the usual list of a few good things from the recent months, which have been hard with all that's going on in the world, so I've been looking even harder for the small, good things in my days.</p>
<ul>
<li>As I walk through the neighborhood on my daily walks I get glimpses of the mountain and have been watching as it gets covered in snow, the ski runs visible as bright white lines running down it. On the days we have fog and clouds, it's even more beautiful as it pops out from behind the clouds and mist.</li>
<li>I got a new phone and with it all the usual free trials of Apple Services and for the first time I opted in to the Fitness app. To my great surprise I'm loving it. I'm mixing things up and doing a lot of the various workout types. It's been great.</li>
<li>I made another pair of jeans, this time with significant pattern tweaks to improve the fit and... IT WORKED! You never know about these things until you complete the project, but it was so satisfying to pull these on and have a great fit at the end.</li>
<li>I've been knitting by the tree, mostly in quiet, enjoying the meditative quality of the stitching and the twinkle of the lights as I go. As the darkness comes earlier and earlier, it's been great to find the light where I can.</li>
<li>Last month I was walking home from an appointment in town, it was dusk when I left town but by the time I was near our house it was dark. Some kids came out of a house with their mom and one of them yelled &quot;HI&quot; and I said hi back. The older kid then yelled across the street at me, &quot;Why are you walking? IT'S DAAAAARK!&quot; and I replied that I had to get home. Maybe this interaction is part of small town lyfe (of which I've had quite a few lately) but maybe it's also the reminder to be more curious like that kid. It brought a smile to my face.</li>
<li>The fact that people who themselves are running small creative businesses trying to sell in these time are also struggling with what that all means, I'm glad to know I'm not alone in thinking about all of this.</li>
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<p>Whatever is going on with you as you read this, I wish you more of the things that bring you comfort and joy and less of the hard things if at all possible. I'm working hard to hang on to the former and find the quiet moments of peace in this season.</p>

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			<title>Saving Time</title>
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				<p>It seems appropriate that I finished a book on time over the weekend when the clocks rolled back in the US. Jenny Odell's latest, <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/saving-time-discovering-a-life-beyond-the-clock-jenny-odell/18556369?ean=9780593242704"><em>Saving Time: Discovering a Life Beyond the Clock</em></a>, is fairly difficult to summarize, so I'm going talk about the things I thought about while reading it, rather than my usual summary.</p>
<p>Odell writes about time as we think of it from a wide range of perspectives. Including how time associates with how we view work and labor, how we view leisure, how we view illness and disability, how we view the changing planet and geological time, and more. While reading it I couldn't help but think not only of the way I use and view time, but also the way those around me and the society I live in does at large. Along with some current events, I started to wonder about a few things.</p>
<p>The auto workers strike ended while I was reading this book and at one point I turned to G, after we watched a news segment on the strike and the demands, and wondered if the current auto workers are producing in 4 days what the auto workers of 20 years ago were producing in five. I wondered this because one of their intitial demands was a four day work week. And in Odell's book on the chapter on labor and work she very plainly lays out how much more productive and efficient we've become in our work and yet we still work at least 40 hours if not more. Why?</p>
<p>In talking about natural time versus a human lifetime, it's hard for us to grasp so much of what is happening within the world. Even as the climate crisis deepens, we still can't quite comprehend how long it can take parts of the earth to change and build back up. I live in an area that had a large fire three years ago and while much of the scarring is gone and many homes have been rebuilt, I've been keeping my eye on a natural area to see how it's coming back. There has been some human intervention in the area, but as I walk near it the dead trees that were left are often full of woodpeckers. And, if left alone, I wonder how that area would change and grow. When would fire touch it again? Living in a fire prone region, I've come to the conclusion that fire is necessary, it's how so much of the area around where I live renews itself, but how do we live with that and reconcile that with how we're living in these areas?</p>
<p>Odell ends with how we think about life and death and illness and disability and that, for me, was the chapter I'll reread and think about the most. Society wants everyone to fit the same mold, think of time in the same way, and yet it doesn't work. We can't all do the same things in the same amount of time and yet the expectation is that we can, which is ridiculous when you think about it. In addition, we try so hard to fight illness and death, to try and control every aspect of our lives (see some of my recent links on the wellness industry) and yet, in the end, we can't.</p>
<p>At one point in the book, Odell recounts being in high school and asking her art teach what the point of life is. Is it to go to school, then work, then retire, and that's it? Her conclusion later in the book is lovely:</p>
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<p>Maybe “the point” isn’t to live more, in the literal sense of a longer or more productive life, but rather, to be more alive in any given moment—a movement outward and across, rather than shooting forward on a narrow, lonely track. (loc 4425)</p>
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<p>Odell has left me thinking a lot about time, how I see it in day to day life, how the way I think about time shifts, and how our society views time. There is no one view of time, as she makes clear, which is why the book is so throught provoking and why I'll be returning to the ideas as I continue to turn them over in my head.</p>

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			<title>Recent reads: November 2023</title>
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			<updated>2023-11-04T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Well, it feels very much like the holidays are bearing down on me and with the time change happening overnight tonight, the darkness will be closing in. I'm a huge fan of standard time (I'd prefer to stay on standard then to do permanent daylight savings) and I'll admit that I also welcome the hibernation and opportunities to sit by the fire and read. My reading slowed a bit in the recent months as we did a road trip and I was spending as much time in the sun as I could, but I did read. I'm back at it now with a vengeance as I make some changes in my daily routine as I put the phone down even more while also unsubscribing from a lot of email lists and picking up my kindle more.</p>
<h2>The Thief</h2>
<p>A thief is taken out of jail by the king's magus and given the chance to win his freedom by stealing something incredibly difficult to steal. The adventure begins and we follow Gen and the magus as they set out to sneak into the neighboring country and find a hidden treasure. I really enjoyed this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-thief-megan-whalen-turner/6439027?ean=9780062642967">book</a>, enjoyed the twist at the end, and the adventure was well done. Now I'm waiting for the library to get the second book in the series.</p>
<h2>Wilding: Returning Nature to our Farm</h2>
<p>A really interesting <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/wilding-returning-nature-to-our-farm-isabella-tree/6394219?ean=9781681373713">book</a> about a couple who decide to take their estate in Britain back to its natural state (or as much as they can get it back to that state). Isabella Tree lays out so many details and reasons and research about how this is a good thing both financially and for the land, that I will admit I skimmed some parts of this. But overall I found it a truly interesting read, what happens when you add back in grazers and allow the land to return to what it once was? What species start to show up? How can this not only be better for the land and the countryside, but also sustain the estate in ways previously unthought of? And why are we so stuck on the stories we've told ourselves that may not be true? This last one is a question for the ages about so many things, but I really enjoyed reading about how much of what is thought of about Europe and how it was long ago may not be quite the way it was.</p>
<h2>The Diamond Eye</h2>
<p>Kate Quinn writes books based on people from history and I've absolutely loved everything I've read by her and this is no exception. Mila Pavlichenko is a sniper during World War II who travels to the US on a goodwill tour and becomes friends with Eleanor Roosevelt and the <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-diamond-eye-kate-quinn/18247341?ean=9780062943514">story</a> Quinn weaves based on her life is so well done. I know very little about the Soviet front during the early days of WWII which made this all the more interesting to read. I'm aware that Quinn takes a lot of artistic license, which is why this is fiction, but she also writes amazing notes at the end pointing out what was based on fact and where she goes off on her own, which I appreciate a lot.</p>
<h2>Demon Copperhead</h2>
<p>So many people are talking about this book right now and how it's one of the best they've read lately and it was on the shelf at the library so I grabbed my chance to get it. I've never read <em>David Copperfield</em> so I went into this one cold and not truly knowing where I was going and I have to say, it's not a read for the faint of heart. I interspersed reading some lighter books while in the thick of this one. Set in Appalachia during the 1990s and 2000s when the opiod crisis is hitting, it's a story about how much we don't truly care for life and how much the people of this region have been pushed around and abused. It's a great story and necessary and I loved the way Barbara Kingsolver created characters to share her thoughts and points of view so clearly.</p>
<p>Side note: Ezra Klein <a href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/barbara-kingsolver-thinks-urban-liberals-have-it-all/id1548604447?i=1000621869449">interviewed</a> Kingsolver and I highly recommend giving it a listen or read.</p>
<h2>People of the Book</h2>
<p>Having read one of Geradine Brooks' novels, I was eager to read more and this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/people-of-the-book-geraldine-brooks/14934335?ean=9780143115007">book</a> didn't disappoint. Brooks uses all the myths and ideas surrounding the Sarajevo Haggadah and turns it into a wonderful, can't put it down, story. Hanna Heath is called in by the UN to verify and study the Haggadah in Sarajevo but inbetween her work, we're taken back in time where Brooks imagines who and where and when the haggadah came to be. It's really wonderful.</p>
<h2>Well Met</h2>
<p>A detour into the world of romance novels as a way to take myself away from the real world and this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/well-met-jen-deluca/9570344?ean=9781984805386">one</a> achieved that goal. Emily is staying with her sister to help her recover after a horrible car accident and since her life has gone terribly wrong from what she planned, she's free to help. Her niece wants to be in the local Renaissance Faire and an adult must be with here so Emily becomes a character. Of course she meets someone and off we go from there. An enjoyable read, but I'm not sure if I'll keep going as this is the first in the series.</p>
<h2>Dead Men Don't Ski</h2>
<p>I subscribe to a newsletter from the NY Times books section and they regularly highlight books that are older and this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/dead-men-don-t-ski-patricia-moyes/8381855?ean=9781631941276">mystery series</a> caught my eye. Luckily the library had it available and I read it in a few days. Henry Tibbets is a detective and works for Scotland Yard, when he and his wife go on vacation to a remote little hotel on the border of Italy and Austria, Interpol asks him to keep his eyes open for anything suspicious. Of course there is a murder and a short list of folks who could've done it. This is a mystery in the same vein as Poirot or Inspector Morse and I really enjoyed it.</p>
<h2>Bloomsbury Girls</h2>
<p>In 1950 three women end up working together at Bloombury Books in London and times may be changing, but not at the bookstore. As the women realize they could have different lives, each in their own ways still healing from World War II and other events, they band together to get what they want in life. This wasn't a great story, but the author uses real people from the time and brings them into the bookstore and it was an interesting way to think about <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/bloomsbury-girls-natalie-jenner/17389647?ean=9781250889690">the story</a> and the time.</p>
<h2>Last Bus to Woodstock</h2>
<p>We've been watching <em>Endeavor</em> since PBS made the entire series available on Passport and it made me curious about the books in which Morse first appears. This <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/last-bus-to-woodstock-colin-dexter/14834128?ean=9780804114905">book</a> is very slow to give much away about Morse and Lewis as people, I have a feeling that will build over the course of the series, but the mystery is fantastic. I had no idea who the real killer was until it was revealed. I'll definitely be reading more of this series.</p>

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			<title>Fall vibes</title>
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			<updated>2023-10-20T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>It's fall, even if the weather where I live can't quite decide to be fall, but I'm getting used to October being all over the place here, and as long as we have cool nights and mornings, I'm OK. I'll admit, the few days of sweater weather that we've had have me very excited for more of it. I'm ready for sweaters, thick knit socks, the fire place going, and feeling a chill in the air.</p>
<p>So, in the same vein as my <a href="/notes/august-vibes/">August Vibes</a> post, here's a quick hit of things I'm loving this fall. With all that's happening in the world, find the good things where you can and take care of yourselves.</p>
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<li>I'm slow to this, but we started watching <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Endeavour_(TV_series)"><em>Endeavor</em></a> on PBS Passport and I really like these mysteries and the fact that they're set in the 1960s Oxford. I'm a total British mystery addict and was super excited that the entire series was put up to stream recently.</li>
<li>On my morning walks throughout our neighborhood I've been watching the decorations spring up and some of them are so fun! I don't love Halloween, but I do love how much it feels like the community comes alive after the heat of summer when October rolls around.</li>
<li>I'm seeing more people blogging and am so excited about it. I think the breaking of social media has driven people back to some old school ideas about how to share online and I, for one, am totally here for it. I love curating my RSS feed and am so excited to find some new folks who are talking about sewing, knitting, and books.</li>
<li>The end of baseball is close but I'm loving the playoffs because you never know what's going to happen. I don't really care who wins it all, but I do enjoy good baseball games with players at the top of their game and so far we've been getting that fairly often.</li>
<li>We joined the 21st century and got a smart TV as both our TV and aging Mac Mini which we used to stream were starting to not do very well. I feel like we are huge dorks, but we've been finding it hilarious how much free stuff Roku show has channels for. An all <em>Price is Right</em> channel, really? News from almost any major city? <em>How It's Made</em> running non stop? It's a weird world in the world of smart TVs and streaming, but I will say it's been nice to click my way easily to a show we want to watch and not have to fire up an old and very slow computer to watch things.</li>
<li>The annular eclipse was amazing and I'm so glad that our weather cleared up and we could see it where we live. We live a bit outside the path of totality, so we didn't see a complete ring, but it was still really fun. I spent over an hour in a chair with eclipse glasses on and watched as the moon slid across the sun. Look up y'all, it's worth it. I'm also seeing Jupiter through a particular window in our house most evenings and it makes my evening.</li>
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    <figcaption>The peak moment of the annular eclipse where we live. Photo by G using a camera hooked up to a telescope with a solar filter attached. You can see more at his <a href="https://gregorygross.com/astronomy/solar/annulareclipse20231014.php">post about the event on his site</a>.</figcaption>
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			<title>Bedrock Tee</title>
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				<p>Last year I made two different t-shirt patterns several times each and I liked both of the patterns, but there were things I wanted to change about the finished garments. I fully realize that pattern hacking is a thing and I could've done that and just as I was about to do that, the <a href="https://sewliberated.com/products/bedrock-tee-pattern">Bedrock Tee</a> was released. As soon as I saw this pattern I knew it could be the one for me.</p>
<p>Finally, at the end of the summer, I got around to trying out this pattern and since mid August I've sewn it seven times, different variations and different sizes. One thing I've found with knit tees is that making them in different sizes for different looks is a good idea, giving more or less ease depending on the fabric and the cut of the pattern. For the Bedrock, I started out too large, which is when I remeasured myself (I know, I know sewists, I should do this every time) and I figured out a better size for me.</p>
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                 src="images/build/posts/bedrock-tee/bedrock-view-b-sm.png" alt="Me, in front of a while stone wall and a door, a slight tilt to the head and smile, and an peach colored tee with darker peach dots on it and with a bit of blue pants showing.">
    <figcaption>The Bedrock Tee, view B, sleeveless in size 8</figcaption>
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<p>What I absolutely love about this pattern is how many variations you get with the pattern, it's a great value. There is a more fitted cut, view A, and you can do a tank, short sleeves, or long sleeves. View B is a more boxy drop shoulder tee with sleeveless, short sleeves, and long sleeves. I've made the view A tank and short sleeves and the view B sleeveless. I love both cuts. The only thing I'm still trying to figure out with this pattern is the arm band length for the view A tank, I need to shorten them up a bit, but that shouldn't be a problem when I make more in the future.</p>
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<p><a href="https://sewliberated.com/">Sew Liberated</a> writes fantastic patterns with great directions and lots of tips included. I also love how you don't need a serger for this one at all, all the directions include how to do this on your regular sewing machine, so if you want to try sewing knits, this is a great place to start. I'll definitely be sewing more Bedrocks this spring—I've already mashed up the neckline of this with a <a href="https://truebias.com/collections/all/products/rio-ringer-t-shirt-dress">Rio Ringer Dress</a> to improve it and hopefully wear it more.</p>

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			<title>Recent reads: End of summer</title>
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				<p>It's been a while since I wrote about reading and books and such. I slowed down a bit with the reading in July when we had some really nice weather, but as the weather got unbearably hot and then the smoke moved in, I started reading with a vengeance to since I couldn't be outside as much. But fall is coming, who knows where the books will take me, but, as always, my list of what I want to read is very long.</p>
<h2>Having and Being Had</h2>
<p>I'm not sure exactly how to talk about this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/having-and-being-had-eula-biss/14348432?ean=9780525537465">book</a> of mini essays, but I can say definitively that I loved it. Eula Biss uses the purchase of her first home to reflect on a wide variety of topics, especially capitalism and how our wealth is acquired or not. She's in a connundrum I often feel, the capitalist system is awful and yet it is what we live in. Biss often laments how she wants time to write, she wants to retire some day and in order to do these things she's investing and saving and participating in a system that is not the best, to put it mildly. I highly recommend this one, the writing is fantastic and Biss explores ideas from a different angle than I would've thought of and it made me think deeply—good fodder for my daily walks.</p>
<h2>Rogues: True Stories of Grifters, Killers, Rebels and Crooks</h2>
<p>I've found Patrick Radden Keefe's writing to be completely engaging, reading two of his previous books, so when I saw this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/rogues-true-stories-of-grifters-killers-rebels-and-crooks-patrick-radden-keefe/17736340?ean=9780593467732">collection</a> of his <em>New Yorker</em> articles, I couldn't resist. His articles span topics ranging from the fraud in the wine market to a Swiss banker whistleblower to a really lovely profile of Anthony Bourdain. I always wonder where Keefe gets his ideas, because some of these stories are things I've never heard of but I found them fascinating.</p>
<h2>The Cloisters</h2>
<p>I didn't love this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-cloisters-katy-hays/18615861?ean=9781668004401">book</a> but I'll give it credit for having a twist at the very end that I totally didn't see coming. Ann Stilwell graduates college and is hoping to get out of her home town and secures a summer position with The Met in New York City. Unexpectedly they don't need her at The Met and she ends up at The Cloisters instead. She works with a woman and the curator on the history of tarot cards and, well, I won't say much more, but you start to wonder about what's really going on there. I didn't love these characters so it was hard to love the book, but I finished it because I was curious about the end and the twist made that worth it for me.</p>
<h2>Coq au Vin</h2>
<p>The second <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/coq-au-vin-charlotte-carter/16504042?ean=9780593314128">book</a> in the Nanette Hayes mystery series, which was as delightful as the first. These are short books, filled with action and quick reads, rather hard to put down. Hayes finds herself in Paris trying to find her aunt to help her but, of course, ends up in the midst of something she doesn't completely understand and a mystery that is from her aunt's youth.</p>
<h2>Slow Horses</h2>
<p>The first <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/slow-horses-deluxe-edition-mick-herron/15133448?ean=9781641292979">book</a> in Mick Herron's spy series doesn't disappoint. I heard about the series due to the show on Apple+, but wanted to read it before watching anything and I'm really glad I did. A quick moving spy thriller, involving spies who are considered sub par, was funny and entertaining. I recommend the book if you haven't watched the show yet, based on the trailer for the show which I watched after finished the book leads me to believe they were quite faithful to the book. I'll be continuing on with the books.</p>
<h2>The Water Knife</h2>
<p>It's the near future and Las Vegas, California, and Arizona are all fighting over the Colorado River and water rights. But in this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-water-knife-paolo-bacigalupi/7434664?ean=9780804171533">book</a>, the near future feels like now, especially given the negotiations over water that were done this year and the way in which Phoenix is finally admitting they can't build forever and supply people with water. The powerful head of the Southern Nevada Water Authority sends her agent, Angel, to Phoenix to find out what's going on. Angel meets a journalist covering the horror of living in Phoenix and the stories of the refugees from Texas, everyone looking for ways into Nevada and California as states have shut down their borders. It's a difficult story to read and I had to stop reading it before bed as it was too much for my brain to handle right before sleep, but it's compelling and I had to finish it.</p>
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<p>They have no idea what they're doing. These are the people who are supposed to be pulling all the strings, and they're making it up as they go along. (p 344)</p>
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<h2>Exiles</h2>
<p>Jane Harper is back with the final Aaron Falk <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/exiles-jane-harper/18965082?ean=9781250235350">mystery</a> of the triology and it wasn't a bad mystery, but it does feel like the formula has been played out a bit. As is normal in these books there are secrets that not everyone knows and as Falk works to solve the current disappearance he's also sucked into a mystery from years earlier. I finished it, but it wasn't the best of her books that I've read.</p>
<h2>Foster</h2>
<p>A slim <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/foster-claire-keegan/17839847?ean=9780802160140">volume</a> that I read in one sitting, soaking up the wonderful writing of Claire Keegan. The story is lovely and quick and full of emotion and of course, Irish family dynamics. It's a quieter story than <em>Small Things Like These</em> and doesn't pack quite the same emotional punch, but I enjoyed it just as much.</p>
<h2>Yoga</h2>
<p>Emmanuel Carrère sets out to write a <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/yoga-emmanuel-carrere/18721745?ean=9780374604943">book</a> about yoga along with his experience doing a ten day silent retreat. Unfortunately, life has other plans and instead he writes a memoir about how his life unravels unexpectedly and so much of what he intended to write about; how he had it all together, doesn't work. But the book is better for it as Carrère devles into his life and where it's at and what's going on. It wasn't always an easy read, but I'm glad I read it.</p>
<h2>A Dangerous Business</h2>
<p>Jane Smiley writes a <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/a-dangerous-business-jane-smiley/18327356?ean=9780525520337">mystery</a> that takes place in Monterey in 1851 and we meet Eliza, a woman who works at a brothel after her husband is shot shortly after they arrive in California. Eliza is a curious type and loves to read when she can get her hands on books, she's also upset when women start being killed. She and a friend decide to investigate just like Poe's detective stories they've read. A fun read and the mystery was well done.</p>
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<p>&quot;Between you and me, being a woman is a dangerous business, and don't you let anyone tell you otherwise.&quot; -- Mrs Parks</p>
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<h2>Midnight In Chernobyl</h2>
<p>If you've watched the HBO series, <em>Chernobyl</em>, then you know this isn't an easy story to watch but this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/midnight-in-chernobyl-the-untold-story-of-the-world-s-greatest-nuclear-disaster-adam-higginbotham/15129431?ean=9781501134630">book</a>, while a hard read, is so well written. The first third of the book is especially difficult, but it's fascinating. G's been after me to read it ever since he did and I finally did and have to admit, it was hard to put down.</p>
<p>In essence Chernobyl is the story of a very large bureaucracy that is completely unable to function with any level of competence. The culture of those in power in the USSR by the mid 1980s is one of power grabs and ass covering and, unfortunately, many thousands of people paid the price when the reactor melted down. Adam Higginbotham does what the best nonfiction writers do, he pickes real people and we follow their stories throughout the crisis and in the years after. There are a lot of moments when you almost can't believe what you're reading and the lack of competence on the part of the government. Highly recommend this one.</p>

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			<title>August vibes</title>
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				<p>Over the last several years August has become the hardest month of the year for me. I know so many folks who have a hard time with the end of winter, but where I live, the spring starts early and it's long and it's gorgeous, but August, ugh, August.</p>
<p>In an attempt to write a bit more about life here, I thought I'd start a semi regular vibes post. August is almost over, I can't wait for September to start, fall is coming, right? But it's not here quite yet and with heavy smoke in our area off and one and still warm temps, here are the things that are getting me through:</p>
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<li>The <a href="https://sewliberated.com/products/bedrock-tee-pattern">Bedrock Tee</a> pattern. I had high hopes for this one and it's living up to them. I'll be cutting and sewing up a few more of these this last week of the month.</li>
<li>Using up leftover yarn from other projects to knit up some things that I'm loving! 2023 has been all about using up, both yarn and fabric, and it's been great to do that. I just finished a <a href="https://www.ravelry.com/projects/susanjrobertson/laurelie">shawl</a> that turned out so well and I tried a new to me knitting technique. I'm currently doing a <a href="https://www.westknits.com/collections/hats/products/follow-your-path-hat">hat</a> that should be bright and colorful and fun. (Sorry for the Ravelry link, which you need an account for, I do my best where I can to use open links but some designers don't have their own websites.)</li>
<li>Cooking vegetarian for summer. This has been a struggle for me, but this summer I <em>finally</em> found some vegetarian summer meals that we both like. I'm trying to cut back on meat for reasons I don't really want to get into here, but finding some ways to do salads and other things with beans that are meals we enjoy and are filling has been a huge step forward. I highly recommend <a href="https://www.dinneralovestory.com/">Jenny Rosentstrach's recipes</a>, they've been super helpful to get me thinking in a new way.</li>
<li><a href="https://radioink.com/2023/06/08/iheartpodcasts-takes-wilder-look-at-beloved-author/">The Wilder Podcast</a>. I know, this is a weird one maybe? But I read all of <em>The Little House</em> books as a kid and I've really enjoyed the way this podcast has looked back at them honestly and with grace. It probably helps that the main host and I are the same age, there's a lot of shared experiences here.</li>
<li>Books. I'll have my latest round up out soon, but so many books that I tore through in the last couple of weeks and really enjoyed. Something about summer heat and laying on the couch with the AC on me and a good book in my hands that really helps me get through the rough patches. Heavy smoke? Who cares when I have books. (I mean, I care, I do, but books help.)</li>
<li>Yoga with Adrienne 30 days of Yoga, <a href="https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLui6Eyny-UzzJ4NSTesh4xRWg4ZWNz5s4">Breath</a>. This is the first 30 days of yoga I did with Adrienne and I've been doing it again this month and it's been a lifesaver. I've slowed down, followed my breath, and stretched out my body. When I can't be outside for my daily morning walk, this helps so much. I subscribe to her app because I love her videos so much, but this is all available for free on YouTube if you are interested.</li>
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<p>I'll make it through no doubt, we're almost done with August and into September and the cooler weather will arrive at some point. Hat tip to both <a href="https://daverupert.com/">Dave Rupert</a> and <a href="https://www.made-by-rae.com/">Made by Rae</a> for inspiring me to do this as they each do semi regular posts on vibes and faves that I enjoy reading quite a bit.</p>

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			<title>The tomato sandwich</title>
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			<updated>2023-08-21T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Anyone who knew me growing up knew that I didn't like tomatoes. I mean, it wasn't a small dislike, but I <em>really</em> disliked them and avoided a chunk of raw tomato at all costs. No wedges on the salad for me, no pico de gallo, absolutely no slices on a sandwich, and never in a million years would I eat a salad that was mostly tomato.</p>
<p>I had an older cousin who disliked them as well and I pointed to her often when people told me I would like them when I grew up. She was an adult and she didn't like them.</p>
<p>But then something happened. I ate some fresh cherry tomatoes and... I liked them? I decided at that point (my mid-thirties) to try to grow a tomato plant and chose a sun gold cherry tomato variety. Reader, I loved them. They're like candy freshly picked and I loved eating them raw. So I kept growing those and then tried various other types.</p>
<p>I still only grow cherry tomatoes myself, but I've been buying gorgeous heirlooms from the coop and our CSA and, yeah, I don't think anyone gave me tomatoes like these when I was a kid. I'm sure they didn't.</p>
<p>This summer I've been reading Jenny Rosenstrach's <a href="https://dinneralovestory.substack.com/">newsletters</a> and she raved, in several of them, about tomato sandwiches. I was intrigued. They were so simple: toasted bread, mayo, fresh slices of the best tomato, and some salt and pepper. I tried it. I loved it. I've been eating them most days for lunch. I guess I'm fully converted now, here at mid life, I like tomatoes, I love them. Does this mean I'm grown up now?</p>

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			<title>Posting, blogging, sharing</title>
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			<updated>2023-08-04T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I posted a bunch of links with this post. Many to posts talking about social media, how we relate to one another, what the heck we're all doing on the internet now, and I've been reading even more than I've posted. I've read takes that talk about aging out of social media, people who are throwing themselves into one particular thing, or others, like me, who are retreating.</p>
<p>I'm honestly not sure where I'll end up, but right now, I'm here. And I'm going to be trying to post a bit more of these notes while keeping up with the links and book round ups. The one thing I've noticed is how much more energy I have for other things in life because I'm not scrolling. To my surprise, along with not doing social media much, I'm also not reading much online.</p>
<p>Reading paper books, knitting, sewing, cooking, doing the things that take care of me and mine in this little house are all at the forefront. All those things on that list energize me and make me feel better, not worse. I'm loathe to see if any of the places the people I miss from social media have gone are worth disrupting the equilibrium I've found.</p>

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			<title>Social media ugh</title>
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			<updated>2023-07-19T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm down to one social media account that I use with any frequency, Instagram. I honestly don't love it, I can't stand Meta, and I have a lot of qualms about using it, but I'm using it. Why, you may be asking yourself, if I don't really like it do I use it? A very good question.</p>
<p>Over the past two years I've become a sewist—a sewer? I never know what word to use here, but a person who sews her own clothes. And, in order to find out about new patterns, what people are making, learn more about specific patterns, I needed to go where they were. Yup, you guessed it, they're all on Instagram. I revived a dormant account and started to follow people who sew and knit and crochet. But, most importantly to my ugh on the title of this post, I started to use hashtags for specific patterns to find out how people were liking them, what modifications they made, etc.</p>
<p>Now comes the ugh. Recently Instagram made a change, you can still search for a hashtag, but you can no longer see all recent posts with that hashtag, you're only options are &quot;Top Posts&quot; or &quot;Recent Top Posts&quot; Let me say that how they define &quot;top&quot; is a complete mystery. And, for the life of me, I can't figure out why this change was necessary? It's leading to me spending <em>less</em> time on the app, which is probably the opposite of what they want, right? But it may be better for me in the long run.</p>
<p>I have, through a lot of different channels, stumbled onto the blogs of people whow sew and write about it with frequency, but this feels like a rarer thing because so many people abandoned their blogs for social media. For all things yarn related this isn't a big deal because <a href="https://www.ravelry.com/">Ravelry</a> exists and is wonderful. But, for sewing, it's been harder and I'm caught wondering why I'm feeding this content machine and if I shouldn't continue to search out blogs for my RSS reader. But then I wonder how to find them? To be honest, I've found quite a few through Instagram, which is just ugh, ugh, ugh and the cycle continues.</p>

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			<title>Recent reads: July 2023</title>
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				<p>It's been a while and I've been reading, probably not as much as in the winter, but still reading in the warm evenings after we open up the house to catch the breezes and listen to the crickets. As I look this over, it's an eclectic grouping, but I'm back to my strategy of reading what's available immediately at the library and it's working out quite well.</p>
<h2>Under the Banner of Heaven</h2>
<p>Not gonna lie, this was on my list and available from my library digitally and so I read it. I find <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/under-the-banner-of-heaven-a-story-of-violent-faith-jon-krakauer/7830377?ean=9781400032808">stories</a> of faith and why people do what they do fascinating, but this was a hard read at times. The fundamentalists in the LDS church are, well, not very nice people and so reading about them for several hundred pages got depressing at times. That being said, I'd never read a book by Jon Krakauer and he's a great writer.</p>
<h2>For All the Tea in China</h2>
<p>How in the world did the British East India Tea Company come to dominate the tea industry and grow it in India? Sarah Rose tells that <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/for-all-the-tea-in-china-how-england-stole-the-world-s-favorite-drink-and-changed-history-sarah-rose/15282813?ean=9780143118749">story</a> in this book and it was fascinating. Who knew that one man did several daring trips into China to get tea samples and figured out how to send them on so they would live and it would change forever how plants were transported. It's, of course, a bit enraging at times, but, as a tea drinker who hates coffee, I found it really interesting to read about the history and battles over who would dominate the market of tea for the Brits.</p>
<h2>What Fresh Hell is This?</h2>
<p>I don't have much to say about this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/what-fresh-hell-is-this-perimenopause-menopause-other-indignities-and-you-heather-corinna/15431075?ean=9780306874765">book</a> other than if you are going through perimenopause and want a book to help you figure out what the hell is going on, this is an option. The tone is a bit snarky at times, but I found that helpful because our society refuses to talk about this stage of life for the many of us going through it, hence me turning to a book. I've found this stage I'm in right now extremely disconcerting at times but this book helped me feel less of that and it helped me figure out ways I can help myself through it all.</p>
<h2>Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine</h2>
<p>I didn't really know what to expect from this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/eleanor-oliphant-is-completely-fine-gail-honeyman/18628275?ean=9780735220690">book</a> and I have to say, it twisted and turned in ways that I didn't see coming. Eleanor is working a job, living her life, and I got the sense a bit unhappy right from the beginning of the book, but then the story really starts to get interesting. I don't know how to talk about it without spoiling it, but the ending was beautiful and I'm glad I read it.</p>
<h2>A Gentleman in Moscow</h2>
<p>A reread, something I'm doing more of and loving. This book, THIS BOOK! I know, it may not be everyone's cup of tea, but it's on my top five list because the <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/a-gentleman-in-moscow-amor-towles/10206530?ean=9780143110439">story</a> is so lovely and the descriptions make me feel like I'm in the hotel with the characters. Alexander Rostov lives for years in a hotel in Moscow after the revolution, his sentence is to stay there. He builds a life with people who become family. After the second reading, I find the family he created even more beautiful and the way in which Rostov remains optimistic and able to see the good in people amazing. Side note: Amor Towles books are all great.</p>
<h2>Book Lovers</h2>
<p>The weather is heating up where I live and that means I gravitate to romance and lighter reading and this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/book-lovers/18860710?ean=9780593334836">one</a> didn't disappoint. Emily Henry always makes me laugh out loud and I enjoyed that this story wasn't just about the romance but also very much about the sisters as well.</p>
<h2>Sea of Tranquility</h2>
<p>A <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/sea-of-tranquility-emily-st-john-mandel/17768221?ean=9780593321447">book</a> about time travel, pandemics, how we view history, and a writer trying to make it through. I didn't enjoy this one as much as Emily St. John Mandel's last book, but I did find some of the themes here intriguing. Mandel is working through ideas of technology and isolation, while at the same time thinking about history and how we view it and how we'd like to change it. I'm still thinking about the questions it brought up.</p>
<h2>Love Lettering</h2>
<p>A <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/love-lettering-a-witty-and-heartfelt-love-story-kate-clayborn/12035050?ean=9781496725172">romance</a> about two people who are diametrically opposed on paper, but who find also bring out the best in each other. Not the best romance I've read lately, but it did make me chuckle in a few spots and I admit, I loved all the talk about lettering.</p>

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			<title>Recent reads: May 2023</title>
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				<p>I didn't realize until I was going to post this that it'd been so long since I posted a reading round up, but here we are. We traveled in April and I don't read as much on road trips as I do when at home and now that the weather is finally nice, I'm in the garden quite a bit when I have free time. So, I've been reading less, but there are seasons for things and I'm OK with that. I didn't love everything in this list, but I'm usually glad I read things because even if the story isn't great I learn something that makes it worth it.</p>
<h2>Less</h2>
<p>Arthur <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/less-andrew-sean-greer/15286336?ean=9780316316132">Less</a> wants to avoid a wedding so he says yes to everything he's invited to that will take him around the world, thereby avoiding the wedding. As he travels you learn why he wants to avoid the event, but also you learn more about who he is and in a hilarious and also heartfelt way, what is really important in life. Less is far from perfect, but in his bumbling I saw myself at times, which is maybe why I enjoyed the book so much.</p>
<h2>Shanghai Girls</h2>
<p>A sweeping <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/shanghai-girls-lisa-see/11734061?ean=9780812980530">novel</a> that follows two sisters from 1937 Shanghai to the US as they try and find a life after losing everything. I wanted to like this book and I guess I liked it enough to finish it, but it often flew through the years without enough of the characters to keep me so engaged I couldn't put it down. At times, when a chapter started years later, it felt like the author was listing out what had happened before trying to get to the meat of it, but I'm not sure the meat of it was ever really good. There is a second book in the series, in fact this ends on a bit of a cliff hanger, but I don't feel the need to go on, which says a lot.</p>
<h2>The Lost Man</h2>
<p>Jane Harper thrillers are usually quite good, involving going back and forth in time and secrets coming out that help solve the mysterious death. In this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-lost-man-jane-harper/6986661?ean=9781250105707">book</a> we meet a family that lives in the Outback of Australia and ranches and one of the three brothers is found dead. I enjoyed this one, but I also found it difficult; the cast of characters is very small, the outback is an unforgiving place, and the secrets were layered and many. In the end I was left with a feeling of sorrow.</p>
<h2>Natural Causes</h2>
<p>The subtitle of this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/natural-causes-an-epidemic-of-wellness-the-certainty-of-dying-and-killing-ourselves-to-live-longer-barbara-ehrenreich/7395301?ean=9781455535897">book</a> is <em>An Epidemic of Wellness, the Certainty of Dying, and Killing Ourselves to Live Longer</em> and that really does say it all. I'd only read one book by Barbara Ehrenreich before, but was intrigued by this one, especially as I'm entering that phase of life where the number of health screenings is going up and, if I'm being honest, my anxiety over it all is also rising.</p>
<p>Ehrenreich wrote this when she was in her 70s and she'd decided she was done with doctors unless she felt something was wrong. She is deeply cynical about the medical profession, and having done a PhD in cellular immunology, she also does a lot of work to explain how our immune cells work and what the scientific community does and doesn't know. I found some parts of the book to be odd, but I also found it very freeing to realize that no matter what I do I will die and maybe, whenever it comes to that, I can choose to do so in a way that isn't painful and agonizing but accepting of what can and can't be done in the situation.</p>
<p>One note on this book:  I've talked with people about it a bit and many of Ehrenreich's opinions are controversial and I recognize that. I appreciate that she's asking questions and she explained the science behind many of them to help you understand her perspective. One thing I find <em>incredibly</em> difficult about our health care system in the US is how often asking questions and educating yourself are seen as bad by providers. It's taken me a while to get used to speaking up for myself and what's right for me. I don't agree with everything in the book, but I'm so glad I read it.</p>
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<p>If there is a lesson here it has to do with humility. For all our vaunted intelligence and “complexity,” we are not the sole authors of our destinies or of anything else. You may exercise diligently, eat a medically fashionable diet, and still die of a sting from an irritated bee. You may be a slim, toned paragon of wellness, and still a macrophage within your body may decide to throw in its lot with an incipient tumor. Elie Metchnikoff understood this as well as any biologist since his time ever has. Rejecting the traditional—and continuing—themes of harmony and wholeness, he posited a biology based on conflict within the body and carried on by the body’s own cells as they compete for space and food and oxygen. We may influence the outcome of these conflicts—through our personal habits and perhaps eventually through medical technologies that will persuade immune cells to act in more responsible ways—but we cannot control it. And we certainly cannot forestall its inevitable outcome, which is death. (p 165)</p>
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<h2>Smoke</h2>
<p>It's the Victorian age in England and two boys who are at boarding school find themselves launched into an unexpected adventure. The big twist in this era is that people smoke and through the smoke you can see their feelings. The wealthy and upper class learn to control it or use things they can buy to do so, but the underclass is left to smoke and have their feelings known to all. But why do people smoke and have they always? Can it be reversed so people no longer smoke? The metaphors are abundant in this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/smoke-dan-vyleta/8587002?ean=9781101910405">story</a> and the adventure was twisty and turny in all the best ways.</p>

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			<title>Recent reads: March 2023</title>
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				<p>I've been reading much more slowly lately. Spring is trying to come here, my crocus are up even though they've been covered by snow a couple of times. I think winter is going to hang on a bit longer, but that means that I don't feel guilty being inside reading, watching baseball, and knitting. This group is an eclectic bunch, but I've found myself wanting to read something completely different from what I just finished and thankfully the library has been quite helpful with supplying the perfect thing.</p>
<h2>Please Be Advised</h2>
<p>A <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/please-be-advised-christine-sneed/18497875?ean=9798985376265">novel</a> completely told via interoffice memos? It feels like an absurd thing, but it works in the end, it works very, very well. Christine Sneed tells the story of Quest Industries, a company that makes collapsible office furniture, and it's rapid decline. The entire cast of characters, all shown via the memos they write, is hilarious and at times makes you realize how truly bad office life can be. I was hesitant about this book when I started it, but I ended up really enjoying it.</p>
<h2>Making a Life</h2>
<p>An absolutely gorgeous <a href="https://www.moderndailyknitting.com/shop/making-a-life/">book</a> telling the stories of various makers and how they live. I read this slowly, taking in a chapter or two each day, and soaked up all the beautiful photos. Melanie Falick does a brilliant job capturing each person or the group she's focused on and she draws out such interesting nuggets from them, I'm still thinking about many of the things I read.</p>
<p>I particularly enjoyed Nikki  McClure and Jay T Scott highlighting how important our hands are and the idea of asking kids what they're going to make rather than what they want to be when they grow up. And when talking about the founder of Purl Soho and her relationship with her painting:</p>
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<p>It was the conceptual part of painting—the constant quest for higher meaning, which seems so crucial at Yale—that tripped her up and led her to give it up for a long time. (p 273)</p>
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<p>One of the things I'm thinking about a lot after reading this book is just how much knitting, crocheting, and sewing have let me express myself in ways that are relaxed. I hated it in art school how much we had to come up with words that sometimes felt like complete bullshit to explain what we were doing. I want to create things, enjoy the process and the outcome, and let the rest go.</p>
<h2>Unraveling</h2>
<p>The first pandemic memoir I've read, but I'm sure it won't be the last book to incorporate the weirdness of 2020. Peggy Orenstein decides she wants to knit a sweater but she wants to shear the sheep, spin the yarn, dye it, and then knit—doing the entire process to make a garment. I couldn't put this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/unraveling-what-i-learned-about-life-while-shearing-sheep-dyeing-wool-and-making-the-world-s-ugliest-sweater-peggy-orenstein/18727193?ean=9780063081727">book</a> down and it was profound at times and laugh out loud funny at others. I could relate to so many of the things Orenstein thinks about as she uses the project to talk about the fashion industry (spoiler: it's a shit show) and living in a fire prone region.</p>
<p>The subtitle of the book is <em>What I learned about life while shearing a sheep, dyeing wool, and making the world's ugliest sweater</em> and it's the perfect subtitle, with the exception that the sweater isn't ugly. But the pandemic was so difficult and so many of us used it to learn something new and, while doing that, we all learned a lot about ourselves in the process.</p>
<p>A few passages that I'm still thinking about are below.</p>
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<p>Spinning demands that my hands grow accustomed to things they've never done, to shapes they've never made, to work in novel and unfamiliar concert with my feet. It calls for patience and persistence, neither of which is my long suite when starting something new. It's all a bit like the feeling you get when you try to pat your head with hand while rubbing your stomach with the other. There are flashes, seconds, when it comes together—when left hand, right hand, and feet move in harmony—but most of the time my limbs are as tangled as my thread. (p 79)</p>
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<p>These days, when I glance down at the hands holding my knitting needles I'm surprised to see they are not my own, but my mom's. Change, some old Greek dude said, is the only constant; learning to accept that, I find, is the work of a lifetime. (p 130)</p>
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<p>I am an incessant seeker of validation, perpetually worried, despite my age and relative success, about missing the mark, about not meeting unspoken expectations, about getting an A in whatever there is to get an A in: about how my work will be judged rathter than what engaging in it means to me. Deep down I know that's a trap, one that sabotages creative thinking. Maybe that is part of what draws me to this eccentric project—the relief, the excuse, the <em>joy</em> of incompetence. (p 135) [Note: I feel seen.]</p>
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<h2>Consolations: The Solace, Nourishment and Underlying Meaning of Everyday Words</h2>
<p>I started 2023 reading one of these <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/consolations-the-solace-nourishment-and-underlying-meaning-of-everyday-words-david-whyte/13619601?ean=9781932887341">short essays</a> each morning and what a great way to start the day. David Whyte defines each word in unique and thought provoking ways and it never failed to make me think about that word in the coming hours and days, for certain words. He defines words such as beauty, alone, genius, hiding, pain, and withdrawal. Highly recommend this one, especially if you're a word person.</p>
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<p>Beauty is the harvest of presence. (p 27)</p>
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<h2>The Birchbark House</h2>
<p>There was a discussion last year about <em>The Little House on the Prairie</em> books and from that I learned about Louise Erdrich's series for kids based on Native American experiences. What a delightful <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-birchbark-house-louise-erdrich/17373791?ean=9780063064164">book</a>, the first in the series. Omakayas is finding her way with her family, living on an island with her people. They are interacting with the &quot;chimookoman&quot; but are still living a very traditional life in the place they've always lived. It's a great coming of age story as she deals with so much change in one year and I highly recommend it.</p>
<h2>Friday Night Knitting Club</h2>
<p>I listened to this book as I knit, which G found hilarious. It's a fluffy <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-friday-night-knitting-club-kate-jacobs/7717321?ean=9780425219096">book</a> about a group of women who come together and form a social knitting group, but it's also about each of their lives and how they've come to be where they are. It's not great, in fact there are parts of it that are horribly written, but it was something to help me get through a tedious project.</p>
<h2>Men at Work</h2>
<p>This may be shocking for some, but I've become a baseball person. I love watching it, the World Baseball Classic was an awesome tournament and so fun to have that type of baseball in March. And now I've read a <a href="https://www.abebooks.com/servlet/BookDetailsPL?bi=31254414824&amp;searchurl=an%3DGeorge%2BWill%26sortby%3D17%26tn%3DMen%2Bat%2BWork&amp;cm_sp=snippet-_-srp1-_-image1">book</a> about baseball, which would shock my past self. George Will is <em>really</em> into baseball and he knows a lot about it. He takes the main positions of the game and he talks about it via specific players who play those positions: the manager, the pitcher, the batter, and defense. It's a bit of a tough read at times with all the stats and I'll admit I didn't read every single word of it, but there was a ton of interesting stuff in this book, especially his tangents on the history of the sport.  It's also an older book (1990), but even though some things have changed about the game, many things have not.</p>

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			<title>Recent reads: February 2023</title>
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				<p>I've been reading more slowly lately, probably reading overall a little less, and it's been good to take my time through books. I'm also spending a lot of time on poetry and rereading it, which I'll probably post about at some point. For now, here's what I've read lately that I've enjoyed in some fashion, at least enough to finish the books.</p>
<h2>A Visit From The Goon Squad</h2>
<p>Since everyone was talking at the end of last year about Jennifer Egan's latest release (<em>The Candy House</em>), I decided to read her earlier <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/a-visit-from-the-goon-squad-jennifer-egan/229047?ean=9780307477477">book</a> first. This is one of those books where I was reading for quite a long time not really sure what was going on and where it was going, but the final chapter made it all worth it. I would totally understand if you couldn't make it there though, the threads are so loose that get tied together that at times I wasn't sure how in world it would come together. We follow Bernie and Sasha throughout their lives as they work together, their stories before they work together, and where they go after that. Each chapter takes you to a different time in one of their lives, even if you don't see the connection right away. And the end was great.</p>
<h2>Hamnet</h2>
<p>The subtitle to this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/hamnet-maggie-o-farrell/16519834?ean=9781984898876">book</a> is <em>A Novel of the Plague</em> which may be a bit off putting but Maggie O'Farrell has a way of taking a tiny bit of history and creating a fascinating story. In this case it's the fact that Shakespeare's son died in 1596. She uses that to imaging what his life was like in a period where there isn't much known about it and to write about the plague. His wife, Agnes, is an unusual woman and it seems like such a good fit as Shakespeare is unusual in some ways himself. The story is beautifully told and I'd like to think that <em>Hamlet</em> is somewhat based on these ideas, but how could we ever really know.</p>
<h2>Principles of Uncertainty</h2>
<p>I wanted to like this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-principles-of-uncertainty-maira-kalman/586717?ean=9780143116462">book</a>, I loved the art, but I didn't love it all together as a book and I'm still not sure I can put my finger on why. But I've paged back through it a lot to ponder the artwork and the way in which Maira Kalman portrays life in New York and other places.</p>
<h2>The Round House</h2>
<p>An incredibly difficult <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-round-house-louise-erdrich/6431393?ean=9780062065254">read</a> which starts off with horrific violence and then we see how a family reacts. We follow Joe as he navigates massive upheaval in his family and his lust for vengeance on behalf of his mother. At the same time we see how truly difficult it is to prosecute someone for crimes against Native Americans and how the jurisdictional issues can lead to never getting satisfaction. Erdrich's fantastic writing kept me going in this one and the relationship between Joe and his friends, which is captured so beautifully.</p>

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			<title>Daniel Deronda</title>
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				<p>I've spent the last month with George Eliot's <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/daniel-deronda-george-eliot/15546778?ean=9780140434279"><em>Daniel Deronda</em></a> and while I enjoyed the read, I definitely found one storyline better than the other. This book was originally released as eight books in a serial and so it's long, with lot of the fantastic descriptions that Eliot writes so well. But it's also a strange book, with the way she portrays Jews in British society, which even while reading I was questioning. [Note: I did a bit of reading after finishing and apparently the way in which Eliot portrays Jews in British society was not really the way it was, but perhaps she was trying to say something with this portrayal? I'm still thinking about it.]</p>
<p>The storyline with Gwendolen captured me most and the relationship between her and Deronda. Gwendolen starts off as a seemingly selfish girl, one who gambles and does as she pleases. But as she lives with the difficulties of facing poverty and a loveless marriage, she changes and in some respects becomes almost pitiful as she blames herself for much that was not in her fault. Deronda is the only person she can truly share everything with and with whom she feels comfortable.</p>
<p>Deronda is trying to figure out who he is, who are his parents? The mystery of this leaves him to investigate the Jewish religion, going to services and then becoming involved with a woman who he rescues and helps at a low point in her life. The two story lines weave in and out and even as I enjoyed the writing, I was left wondering more when it came to Deronda and what Eliot was trying to say about her time and society.</p>
<p>A few passages that struck me as I was reading are below.</p>
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<p>What should we all do without the calendar, when we want to put off a disagreeable duty? The admirable arrangements of the solar system by which our time is measured, always supply us with a term before which it is hardly worth while to set about anything we are disinclined to. (p 341)</p>
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<p>Our consciences are not all of the same pattern, an inner deliverance of fixed laws: they are the voice of sensibilities as various as our memories (which also have their kniship and likeness). And Deronda's conscience included sensibilities beyond the common, enlarged by his early habit of thinking himself imaginatively into the experience of others. (p 464)</p>
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<p>Among the things we may gamble away in a lazy selfish life is a capacity for the truth, compunction, or any unselfish regret—which we may come to long for as one in a slow death longs to feel laceration, rather than be conscious of a widening margin where consciousness once was. (p 674)</p>
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<p>It is hard to say how much we could forgive ourselves if we were secure from judgment by another whose opinion is the breathing-medium of all our joy—who brings to us with close pressure and immediate sequence that judgment of the Invisible and Universal which self-flattery and the world's tolerance would easily melt and disperse. In this way our brother may be in the stead of God to us, and his opinion which has pierced even to the joints and marrow, may be our viture in the making. (p 693)</p>
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			<title>Books Read: December 2022</title>
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				<p>Another year of reading is mostly done for me. I didn't read nearly as much in December as in previous months, but that can be attributed to a change in attitude about things, which I already <a href="/notes/learning-to-be-unproductive/">discussed</a>. That being said, I <em>am</em> reading, just more slowly and with a bit more of a deliberate pace. I'm also in the middle of the a 700 page novel, so it's taking me a while.</p>
<p>I don't typically pick out best books read, mostly because it takes a while for a book to take a hold of me and I like to see what I'm thinking about a year after I've read it. That being said, if I were to recommend one or two from this year it would be <em>The Quiet Before</em> by Beckerman (read in <a href="/reading/books-read-july-2022/">July</a>) or <em>Small Things Like These</em> (read in <a href="/reading/books-read-january-2022/">January</a>). Here's to more great reading and thinking in 2023 friends!</p>
<h2>Two Heads: A Graphic Exploration of How Our Brains Work with Other Brains</h2>
<p>An incredibly clever <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/two-heads-a-graphic-exploration-of-how-our-brains-work-with-other-brains-chris-frith/18061252?ean=9781501194078">graphic novel</a> about your brain and how it works written by two well regarded scientists? Yes, please. This book was so much fun to read, so well written and drawn, and so interesting. The two scientists are a married couple who both have studied the brain but focusing on different specific niches. What was best of all was the really well done interlude about how science is done and how to know what to trust when reading studies. Highly recommend this one.</p>
<h2>Gideon The Ninth</h2>
<p>I'm not quite sure how many friends I have who've raved about this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/gideon-the-ninth-tamsyn-muir/6986580?ean=9781250313188">book</a> and the entire series, but it's quite a few. I picked up the free kindle version of it from Tor a while back and tried to read it several times but just couldn't get going with it, it didn't hook me in. Then <a href="https://aworkinglibrary.com/">Mandy</a> mentioned that the audio books are quite good and it was available from the library right away! The woman who reads them is amazing. After listening to it I went on to read it and I have to say, I enjoyed it, the last quarter of the book is really quite good, but I don't love it. The world building wasn't quite as complete as I'd like, so I was often confused and the plot really moved slowly for at least the first half. I will most likely listen to the next two in the series because of the woman who reads, they're perfect to have on while knitting.</p>

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			<title>Favorite makes 2022</title>
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				<p>I made a lot of things this past year and I thought I'd share a few of the things that have bubbled up to the top as favorites. I don't have photos of everything, since I didn't feel like doing a photo shoot in the past two days, but I did get snaps of most of what's on this list.</p>
<p>I'm finding that I'm starting to understand why people make the same patterns over and over again, both knitters and sewists, as I'm leaning towards making patterns I've already made in 2023. As I make a pattern for the second time I start to feel like I really undestand it and for those patterns that I'm getting ready to make for a third time, I feel the confidence to really make it my own and do some larger modifications and customizations.</p>
<h2>Palisade Pants</h2>
<p>I've made two pairs of these <a href="https://papercutpatterns.com/products/palisade-pants">pants</a> and I love them! The huge pockets along with the faux front that looks really nice but it's elastic in the back means they're comfortable but also good looking. The first pair I made out of a light canvas that I got from <a href="https://stonemountainfabric.com/">Stonemountain and Daughters Fabrics</a> and the second pair from a cotton double cloth from the same shop. I traveled in the canvas pair last spring to visit my mom and wow, what perfect travel pants with the relaxed fit and huge pockets. The double cloth pair feel like pajamas but look fantastic. This isn't the easiest pattern and the way the pockets are set up means that you do need to be careful with the fabric you use as it can get bulky (the double cloth was a challenge, but worth it). Neither of my two pairs are perfect, but honestly, I don't even notice the small mistakes anymore because I love them that much.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/2022-makes/palisades-sm.jpg 800w, 
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                 src="images/build/posts/2022-makes/palisades-sm.png" alt="Me, standing with my left foot in front of me in front of a fireplace with holidays decorations on it, wearing a blue and light blue striped t-shirt and a pair of pants made from a crinkly cotton cloth.">
    <figcaption>Me, just the other day, in my double cloth Palisades. I'm also wearing the Closet Core T-shirt which I talk about below.</figcaption>
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<h2>Rio Ringer Tee</h2>
<p>Last summer I went on an odyssey of t-shirt making. I picked out three patterns and away I went. The <a href="https://truebias.com/collections/all/products/rio-ringer-t-shirt-dress">Rio</a> can be a t-shirt dress or just the tee and I've now made the tee twice and the dress once. It's by far my favorite t-shirt pattern although the <a href="https://closetcorepatterns.com/collections/sewing-patterns-all/products/core-t-shirt-free-pattern?variant=39577882263686">Core T-Shirt</a> is a close second (and it's a free pattern, so a great place to try your hand at sewing with knits).  As I end the year I'm sewing up two more of these and have plans for another dress. I'm also going to be playing with some modifications to truly customize the shirt.</p>
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                 src="images/build/posts/2022-makes/rio-tee-sm.png" alt="Me standing in front of a blank wall in a green and white striped t-shirt and wearing jeans.">
    <figcaption>Here's the Rio tee, and I even did pattern matching with stripes and am even more impressed that I got the neckband to look decent.</figcaption>
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<h2>Stria Cardigan</h2>
<p>I'm still knitting, it takes longer, but I love the meditative nature of it and I'm finally finding my groove with what I like to wear and what my wardrobe needs, which means I'm more thoughtful with what I knit. I finished this <a href="https://www.dreareneeknits.com/shop/stria-cardigan">cardigan</a> in June, tucked it away since it was hot out. I pulled it off the shelf in November. I reach for this thing constantly. It's easy to wear, comfortable, and goes with everything. The main color is Malabrigo Sock Yarn and the stripes are all left overs of different brands, each stripe color is a very small amount so perfect for using up stash bits. I'm tempted to make another and go for a larger size and possibly no stripes.</p>
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    <figcaption>The Stria, over the Rio, it's all stripes all the time some days around here.</figcaption>
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<h2>Fringe Dress</h2>
<p>I started on this <a href="https://www.chalkandnotch.com/shop/fringe/">dress</a> in September thinking that I'd wear it next summer, but then the weather was hot in September and in October as well, so I got to wear it several times. What a fantastic dress and I'm already planning another. I used Brussels Washer from <a href="https://stonemountainfabric.com/">Stonemountain and Daughters Fabrics</a> and the rayon with linen is a perfect combo for this dress.</p>
<h2>Free Range Slacks</h2>
<p>I <em>may</em> have made these in 2021, I'm honestly not sure, but they've been a favorite to wear in 2022. Sew House 7 is a great independent design shop out of Portland, OR and what I love about <a href="https://sewhouse7.com/collections/pdf-sewing-patterns/products/freerange-slacks">these pants</a> is how simple they are. You can do flat fell seams if you like, but you don't have to. I wear my 100% linen pair a lot during the spring and fall here, they're perfect transitional weather pants and I made a second pair out of Essex Yarn Dyed linen cotton which are a bit heavier so more suitable for cooler weather. I modified by lengthening the legs, shortening the rise, and doing a small scoop out on the back legs to tighten up the rear.</p>
<h2>Inclinations Shawl</h2>
<p>Let's hear it for super large <a href="https://www.dreareneeknits.com/shop/inclinations-shawl">shawl wraps</a>! Like the Stria talked about above, the Inclinations Shawls is knit in half fisherman's rib, which is now a favorite stitch. It's so squishy and wonderful and it's fun to knit as well. I used 3 skeins of <a href="https://spincycleyarns.com/collections/dream-state">Spincycle Dream State</a> and 1 large 150 gram skein of <a href="https://blueskyfibers.com/product/woolstok-150g/">Blue Sky Fibers Woolstok Worsted</a> for this. It turned out so well and I love it so much that it sits on the back of my favorite chair for easy access and I can't wait to use it for travel as it could double as a bit of a blanket as well as a wrap.</p>
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                 src="images/build/posts/2022-makes/inclinations-shawl-sm.png" alt="A selfie of me with the large inclinations shawl wrapped around my neck, showing the colored stripes that are moving between blues, turquoise, and other shades. ">
    <figcaption>A selfie, bundled up with the Inclinations on a day I couldn't seem to get warm.</figcaption>
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<h2>What's next</h2>
<p>For 2023 I'm definitely making some things I've made already, but I'm starting the year with the Closet Core Patterns <a href="https://closetcorepatterns.com/collections/sewing-classes/products/sew-your-dream-jeans-online-sewing-class?variant=31646637785222">Sew Your Dream Jeans Course</a>. I have all the fabric and notions I need, so I'll be starting to watch videos and make a muslin soon. This is definitely going to be a challenge, but I'm so excited to make jeans that fit me and are customzed for me. I've made a lot of shorts and pants and feel like I finally know my body and how to read patterns well enough to custom fit things from the first go at a pattern.</p>
<p>A knitting pattern designer I follow, she designed both the Stria and the Inclinations Shawl, has said something a few times on her <a href="https://www.youtube.com/@dreareneeknits">podcast</a>; &quot;I feel the most like myself when I'm wearing things I made.&quot; I'm starting to feel exactly the same way. I didn't expect to love sewing as much as I have grown to, it was a thing to do during lockdown. Turns out, I really love both doing it and wearing the things I make.</p>

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			<title>Learning to be unproductive</title>
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				<p>I listened to a <a href="https://www.nytimes.com/2022/11/22/opinion/ezra-klein-podcast-maryanne-wolf.html">podcast</a> the other week where Ezra Klein interviewed Maryanne Wolf about reading. I was fascinated when Wolf described how we read and how reading digitally varies from reading in print.</p>
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<p>...[T]he affordances of the digital medium, which enhance the speed in which we’re reading and focusing on vast amounts of information, multitasking and being entertained, if you will, being engaged at that level. All of that actually takes away from the ability to use the full circuitry — the full circuitry which includes using your background knowledge to infer, to deduce the truth value, to feel what that author is feeling in a work of fiction, to understand a completely different perspective.</p>
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<p>And I've thought about that a lot since hearing it, Wolf goes on to say:</p>
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<p>All of that takes time. The print mediums affordances advantage the giving, the allocation of time to words, concepts in a way that when we skim we simply don’t have the same amount of time to process. So plasticity changes the nature of attention. Attention is very sophisticated and complex. But the amount of attention that we have is going to be influenced by all the distractions that you just discussed as you framed my question. But it will lead, ultimately, to the diminution of the time necessary for the insights at the end.</p>
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<p>And there are times when I equate quanity over quality. When you live in a productivity culture that is constantly telling you to be productive above all else, you often don't slow down, you want to check things off the list, even the things that are supposed to be fun, enjoyable, a hobby! Many folks have reading goals, and in my case I often have an idea in my head about when I'll finish a book, or a sewing project, or a knitting project but not so much a firm goal. The reality is that part of the enjoyment is slowing down, the process of knitting each stitch or sewing each seam, or, yes, reading each word.</p>
<p>In the last year I've read more print books than probably the five years previous. I realized that in my library system the print books are available and sitting on shelves when often the digital versions have long hold times. I'm not totally sure why, but I think being in a rural community is part of why, getting to the library isn't always easy or convenent for folks. So I read a lot of print in the last year with my trusty book light  and I really enjoyed it. I slowed down, and was able to flip back and forth and reread sections.</p>
<p>I want to stress that there is nothing wrong with a goal if it gets you doing a thing more, we're all motivated differently, but I think for the next phase of my reading life (and my hobbies as well), I want to really slow down. I'm already planning to reread some books that I can't stop thinking about, but I'm also planning to read slowly, taking notes at times, thinking more. It also means how I talk about my reading may change on this site, I'm not sure, I'll be feeling this out as I go.</p>
<p>It all comes down to a concerted effort to stop using productivity as my barometer. When I sit at the dinner table with G and we talk about our days, I'd rather say that I had a good day then that I had a day where I got lots of shit done. I want to take the time to let it all sink in which may mean I'm looking out the window doing nothing at times.</p>
<p class="small">Note: this entire line of thinking also got me thinking about the quote <a href="https://aworkinglibrary.com/writing/waste-time">Mandy</a> cites from Mary Ruefle on her site and the fantastic idea of <em>wasting time</em>.</p>
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			<title>The watch</title>
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			<updated>2022-12-02T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm approaching one year with an Apple Watch and I've grown to really like it. I was incredibly ambivalent about this purchase, so I got the cheapest one I could, an SE with no cellular capabilities. It turns out, this is the device that has helped me get away from screens more than anything else, which was unexpected.</p>
<p>I'm no longer on a computer all day long as I was at a different point in my life and I haven't talked about that much, because I'm not sure how much I want to share about this new phase, but it's definitely been a change. And the watch has allowed me to still get the important notifications without any sound or having to be near my phone or machine and I love that.</p>
<p>Not having cellular capabilities has also been wonderful, I can track my walks without hauling around the phone but also without any interruptions. It's great! And when I'm out and about with my phone, it doesn't need to leave my bag. But I'll admit it, the fitness and health tracking is what I use the most. I didn't realize how much I would find that helpful, but as I age, it's good to know if I'm moving enough.</p>
<p>The other feature I use a lot is the heart rate monitoring. I don't have heart issues, but it's suprising how much keeping an eye on my heart rate has helped me recognize when I'm anxious and may need to do some things to deal with that anxiety. I didn't even think of this before getting the watch, but I'm grateful for how much it's helped me with mental health as well as physical health.</p>
<p>For a tiny device that sits on my wrist, I've found it helpful. I've almost no notifications on, the same set up as my phone, and so it rarely taps my wrist, interrupting me. But it's tracking things as I go through the day and I've found that more useful than I would've imagined.</p>

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			<title>Books Read: November 2022</title>
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			<updated>2022-11-30T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Fall arrived in earnest at the beginning of the month, with the warm afternoons ending and a week of rain that was very welcome. This week winter should arrive, tonight in fact, with possible snow at our house, we'll see if that really happens or not. But the darker days and the cooler weather meant that I did read a bit, but I also watched a lot of things, so didn't read as much as I do when I sit outside in the summer sun reading and watching wildlife. We're heading for the end of 2022 and I'm contemplating a reading goal for 2023, maybe reading something that is long and difficult, giving myself the year to do it? We'll see.</p>
<h2>Force of Nature</h2>
<p>Another Jane Harper <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/force-of-nature-jane-harper/16314998?ean=9781250105653">thriller</a> with Aaron Falk investigating and it didn't disappoint. Falk's investigation is related to the incident which drives the book, as women who work together go on a 3 day camping and hiking weekend as part of a work event. But of course things don't go as planned and as the book jumps between current events and the past, you learn more and more about what's really going on, both with each woman in their personal life and with the company as a whole.</p>
<h2>Wanderlust: A History of Walking</h2>
<p>I'm a walker, it's by far my favorite form of exercise. I've walked all around my small town and neighborhood and I use walking not just for exercise by as a form of transportation, often running errands as I walk and check out my town. When I saw Rebecca Solnit had written about walking I knew I had to read this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/wanderlust-a-history-of-walking-rebecca-solnit/11593837?ean=9780140286014">book</a> and I'm so glad I did. She starts with anthropology and works through history and through movements, ending with the fact that in many places we've made it physically hard to walk. If you, like me, like to walk and look around and see what's going on, this book is for you.</p>
<h2>March</h2>
<p>Geraldine Brooks takes the part of <em>Little Women</em> we know nothing about, the story of Mr. March as he's off at war, and creates a great <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/march-geraldine-brooks/9693621?ean=9780143036661">novel</a>. It took me about a hundred pages to really get into this story, but once it grabbed me I could hardly put it down. March goes to war to be a chaplain and finds out so much more about his own story and the story of people he encountered long ago. And, in many ways, we learn a lot about Marmee too. I've no idea what Alcott would think of this book, but I loved it.</p>
<h2>Thunderstruck</h2>
<p>Erik Larson is now one of my favorite non fiction authors around. He finds stories that you know nothing about but they're absolutely fascinating. In this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/thunderstruck-erik-larson/7860600?ean=9781400080670">book</a> he weaves the story of a man working to make wireless telegraphy work across the Atlantic with the story of a doctor in a bad marriage. I know, you're thinking, really? But it works so well and each story is a fascinating look at the times in which they lived (the beginning of the 20th century). And it was also an interesting time to be reading about someone trying to make connections between people faster via a network with all that's been happening lately.</p>

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			<title>What&#39;s next</title>
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			<updated>2022-11-26T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>The last few weeks have been fascinating from an observation stand point for me. A certain social media company may (or may not) be on the way to its demise and how many people I know via that very website are handling it, is interesting. I've also been seeing things from people who write newsletters and of course it's been all over the media. It's felt very much like a lot of folks were waiting for a reason to leave, but they were also waiting to see what other platform people ended up on so they could still find their community.</p>
<p>I &quot;left&quot; Twitter several years ago in the sense that I deleted all of my tweets and I stopped posting anything. I didn't lock the account (although I have now) and I kept following a handful of accounts that are extremely helpful during fire season. Other than that, I stopped spending time on the site. Many of my friends are now doing the same, but they're also trying to figure out what will take the place of Twitter, if anything.</p>
<p>I've been reading about a lot of what people are doing in my RSS feed reader,. One day I read a post saying how <a href="https://adactio.com/journal/19650">absolutely fabulous Mastodon</a> is and on the next day one saying how it's <a href="https://blog.ayjay.org/mastodonic-thoughts/">just like Twitter</a>. I tried out Mastodon a few years ago when it arrived and didn't particluarly love it, but my community wasn't there so I deleted the account and moved on.</p>
<p>I've also noted the reactions of  non tech folks who are trying to figure out Mastodon, such as a <a href="https://linksiwouldgchatyou.substack.com/p/in-praise-of-the-internets-house">recent newsletter</a> put it:</p>
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<p>Mastodon won’t let you search the text of “toots,”’ for instance, or suggest popular users or posts to you. (One wonders why chirp or post or publish wasn’t considered the optimal term.) You can’t see how many “boosts” a “toot” gets. You can’t quote-tweet (quote-toot?) others’ posts. Mastodon denotes replies with a vague “+1” … whether there are two responses or two thousand. And getting more replies or boosts or likes does not surface your toot to a wider audience.</p>
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<p>It's more work, discoverability is harder, for some that's awesome, but for folks who want to reach an audience with their writing, maybe not so great. Some have also <a href="https://simonwillison.net/2022/Nov/8/mastodon-is-just-blogs/">compared it to a blog</a>, but I have a blog and using  Mastodon versus posting here is not the same. Maybe those hosting their own instance of Mastodon see it differently? I'm not sure since I've not done that.</p>
<p>I keep coming back to the idea of <a href="https://rachsmith.com/tired-of-timelines/">timelines</a> and realizing that I absolutely do not like the idle timeline scrolling anymore and it isn't good for my brain or my heart. RSS feels distinctly different to me, mostly because the feed contains a lot of varied pieces in length and tone and it isn't set up like a timeline (at least not in the reader I use).</p>
<p>But I also agree with <a href="https://daverupert.com/2022/11/silos/">Dave</a> who posted about being online and thinking through how you value yourself and where you choose to post. He writes:</p>
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<p>Wherever you end up I want to offer an idea; you are the value. Your ideas, your insights, your compassion, your ability to help someone in need, your dumb puns and dank memes; that’s what’s valuable. This situation has me thinking hard about where I’m distributing my contributions, where I’m adding value (modest as it may be), and who is benefitting.</p>
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<p>He goes on to say:</p>
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<p>Pour a foundation for your own silo or home.</p>
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<p>I'm not heading to another platform, as I've said before, but I am trying to think more deeply, write more, and post here more. I'm on the lookout for more blogs to follow in my feed—hit me up if you know of any good ones. And I'll end this with another quote from Mandy's <a href="https://aworkinglibrary.com/writing/out-of-time">great piece</a> on time and rest, because it's rattling around my brain and I think it's connected to all of this. I don't know what will be next for anyone, but I'm thinking about this:</p>
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<p>Phones (and, I’d argue, other digital technology, and social media in particular) have an abundant sense of restlessness—I feel as if I am scurrying from one notification to the next like a hunted animal, one item in the feed, after another, after another, never stopping or lingering. Never <em>resting</em>.</p>
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			<title>Strange New Worlds</title>
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			<updated>2022-11-07T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>When CBS started to put out new Star Trek shows, I got excited. I've watched all of <em>Next Generation</em>, <em>Voyager</em>, <em>Enterprise</em> and quite a bit of <em>Deep Space Nine</em>. But I didn't like <em>Discovery</em> at all, it didn't feel like Star Trek to me, there was too much war and fighting. Then <em>Picard</em> came out, I thought for sure I'd like it, but the story line that spanned the entire season also felt off to me and I hated the ending of season 1. But I heard from a trusted source (my sister), that <em>Strange New Worlds</em> was good. OMG was she right. It's got a lot of nods to the original series in it, the episodes are mostly self contained story lines with a few overarching stories running the course of the season, and the characters are great. We have one episode left and I'll be eagerly awaiting season two.</p>

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			<title>Twitter</title>
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				<p>I've been watching all the various posts about the impending demise of Twitter for the past week or so. Twitter for me was at its best during the early 2010s and I know that I got connections and friends via the community I was a part of at that time. I pulled way back from the platform in 2017. A year or more ago, I deleted all of my tweets and stopped following everyone but agencies and local news orgs that I find helpful to get info from quickly, especially during fire season.</p>
<p>But I've seen <em>a lot</em> of great posts on the subject and, to my delight, a few of the RSS feeds that haven't had new content in my reader for a while had posts this week. I'll link to two that I've found particularly interesting, but there are a lot of people talking about this if you look for it.  I do like that there is thinking going on and people are talking about it <em>on their blogs</em>.</p>
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<p>If you leave Twitter for less obvious places, fewer eyeballs will see your work; but if people have to make a bit of an effort to find what you write, they’re far more likely to be intelligent and receptive readers than the average Twitter user.</p>
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<p>And <a href="https://blog.ayjay.org/eyeballs-2/">Alan Jacobs</a> goes on to say this and I love it:</p>
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<p>We all need to stop thinking arithmetically. For good and for ill, the people who make the most significant impact on the world are those who pursue what Milton called “fit audience though few.” Very few people have read Wang Huning’s academic writings, but he directs the ideological program of the Chinese Communist Party. A far more positive example, from Eno: “The first Velvet Underground record sold only 30,000 copies in its first five years. Yet … everyone who bought one of those 30,000 copies started a band.”</p>
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<p>Maybe audience isn't the goal? I can trace only one significant career event that occurred because of my blog, not my Twitter presence, but my blog. And that was a turning point for me, in a huge way, but it was the slow writing that got me there, not the pithy short thoughts.</p>
<p>Austin Kleon <a href="https://austinkleon.com/2022/11/03/theyre-coming-for-every-second-of-your-life/">wrote a short post</a> that talks more about audience and what that means as an independent artist. I love the clips he shows (from Twitter no less) that illustrate that growth demands we give our all to these companies and welp, maybe that's not a good idea.</p>
<p>Unlike many folks, I'm not looking for a replacement for Twitter. And, to be honest, I've deleted all my content from Instagram too. I'm not sure helping these companies make money is good for me, so I've been searching for alternatives to find interesting things on the topics I'm into. To my delight there are a lot of folks still blogging about the things they do and I love it.</p>

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			<title>Books Read: October 2022</title>
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			<updated>2022-10-31T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>October was unusual around here, dry and very much still summer until it suddenly wasn't and we got rain and now we're headed this week into full on winter with snow in the mountains. It was a stressful month for reasons I don't want to get into here, but that meant I reached for books that were easy and relaxed, comforting: mysteries, YA fantasy, a romance, and of course some thrillers. I'm very much continuing on that trend into November, but I think a nonfiction read could finally sneak in and be what I need.</p>
<h2>People We Meet On Vacation</h2>
<p>There are times when I want to read a book and get away and forget what's going on in the world and when that happens I usually pick a romance. They're light and you know you will have a happy ending and this <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/people-we-meet-on-vacation-emily-henry/17120277?ean=9781984806758">one</a> didn't disappoint. Poppy and Alex are best friends and they vacation every summer together. Of course there is a falling out and then we start the story, going back and forth through time to learn about their history and to see where they go from the present.</p>
<h2>Briarpatch</h2>
<p>A <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/briarpatch-ross-thomas/12245252?ean=9780312290313">mystery</a> published in 1984 with all that comes along with being of a different time, but the story itself is a timeless one. Benjamin Dill learns on his birthday that his sister has been killed and he goes to his hometown to investigate. From there we are taken on a journey through the corruption of the home town as well as the corruption of Washington, D.C. It's a twisting story and I wasn't quite sure how it was all going to come together, which kept me glued to the book to find out.</p>
<h2>Siege and Storm</h2>
<p>Book <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/siege-and-storm-leigh-bardugo/6315697?ean=9781250044433">two</a> of the Shadow and Bone triology was unexpected in where it went and yet it all fit quite well. As Alina and Mal try and forget about where they've been the adventure continues and they get sucked back in to what they were trying to escape. But there were a few twists here that I didn't see coming and of course the end was a complete cliffhanger. Quite excited to see how this series ends.</p>
<h2>The Good Assassin</h2>
<p>The second <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-good-assassin-paul-vidich/6761933?ean=9781501110436">book</a> featuring George Mueller and this time he's sucked back in to the world he's worked so hard to leave behind. Vidich uses the backdrop of the revolution in Cuba for this story and Mueller is sent down on a special mission by the director of the CIA. As with any spy thriller, of course there are things he doesn't know when he leaves and things we may not fully understand either. But as Mueller works to figure out what's really happening in Cuba, we begin to see it as well. Not a great thriller, but not the worst I've read.</p>
<h2>By the Pricking of My Thumbs</h2>
<p>Another Tommy and Tuppence <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/by-the-pricking-of-my-thumbs-agatha-christie/9096070?ean=9780062074331">mystery</a> from Agatha Christie and I continue to enjoy these as the characters are very well matched and funny. This time Tommy's aunt dies and Tuppence is convinced something is going on, they're older and retired, for the most part, and Tuppence takes off to solve the mystery while Tommy is away at a conference. And, to be honest, I didn't see the ending coming at all, which always makes it that much better. Side note: this book was used for an episode of the Miss Marple series from the early 2000s and that episode is <em>awful</em>. They loosely used the story, but completely changed the characters, especially the relationship between Tommy and Tuppence, which made me very sad.</p>
<h2>Ruin and Rising</h2>
<p>The final <a href="https://bookshop.org/p/books/ruin-and-rising-leigh-bardugo/8247094?ean=9781250063168">book</a> of the Shadow and Bone triology and Leigh Bardugo ends it so well. I tore through the last half of this book as the action was swift and the story was unexpected in several ways. Alina and Mal continue their fight against the Darkling, but also learn several surprising things about themselves and the way in which Grisha power works.</p>

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			<title>Books Read: September 2022</title>
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				<p>Fall, it's here, I'm  waking up to cool mornings and enjoying warm afternoons before the cool off in the evenings. I love this time of year. A good month of reading as we had one last heat wave early in the month and I waited on the cooler temperatures to arrive.</p>
<h2>Mr. Penumbra's 24-House Bookstore</h2>
<p>I know of Robin Sloan and had seen this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/mr-penumbra-s-24-hour-bookstore/9781250037756">book</a> talked about for years and happened upon a copy at my local used bookstore (autographed no less) and am so glad I read it. It's hard to describe the book, to be honest, but Clay Jannon takes a job working at a strange bookstore, covering the overnight shift. He doesn't fully understand what's going on there but as he learns more he's sucked into an adventure that I didn't see coming. I couldn't put this down and loved it, laughing at times and enjoying the ride.</p>
<h2>The Yarn Whisperer</h2>
<p>I found Clara Parkes via her other books on knitting and decided to give her <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-yarn-whisperer-my-unexpected-life-in-knitting/9781617690020">essays</a> a try. I do like her writing, so much that I've subscribed to her daily email, but in this book some of the essays didn't quite hit the mark for me. Not everything from knitting can be correlated with life quite the way she does, but I enjoyed enough of them that it was worth it.</p>
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<p>The internet has given rise to a culture in which our private-facing side is our public-facing side. Perpetual self-revelation is not only appropriate, it's expected. It's getting hard to tell if we're viewing someone's smooth stockinette facade, a genuinely vulnerable bumpy backside, or a new kind of reverse-stockinette-stitch fabric that's a highly edited, fictionalized version of our true selves. Each reveal is designed to give you the feeling of being intimate friends with someone who is, in fact, a complete stranger. You know how they say you can be in a crowded room and feel completely alone? Nowadays you don't even need to leave home to feel alone among the crowd. (p 52)</p>
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<h2>Firekeeper's Daughter</h2>
<p>Angeline Boulley's <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/firekeeper-s-daughter-9781250779526/9781250766564">story</a> is fascinating, difficult, and filled with hope all at the same time. Daunis Fontaine graduated high school, but her family is filled with difficulty as her uncle died in the spring and her grandmother has had a stroke and is in care. She is close to her indigenous family, but isn't a formal member of her tribe. And she's seeing breakdowns in her community due to drug use. In a fast paced story, we travel with Daunis as she decides to use her strength and do something to help her community, taking risks along the way, but also hoping she can save lives. Highly recommend this one.</p>
<h2>The Witches: Suspicion, Betrayal, and Hysteria in 1692 Salem</h2>
<p>I found this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-witches-suspicion-betrayal-and-hysteria-in-1692-salem-9780316200592/9780316200592">book</a> after watching the Benjamin Franklin doc on PBS and seeing Stacy Schiff speak about Franklin. Intrigued I looked up her work. I only knew very surface things before reading this book, mostly from Arthur Miller's <em>The Crucible</em>, but this book didn't leave much out. It's dense and it took me a while to make my way through, but Schiff does a great job of plainly saying what we know and don't know. A few things struck me. One, how many men who were heavily involved and were avid diary keepers and yet there weren't any suriving diaries from that time period, maybe they knew they'd done something awful? Two, how much this same exact scenario has happened over the course of history. And finally, how much the Puritan ethic of how to live life—no joy, no leisure, and working all the time—truly still infects the way many people in the US live today.</p>
<h2>Shadow and Bone</h2>
<p>Alina Starkov, a cartographer in the army, finds herself with her best friend in a horrible situation and does what she can to save lives. From that act her entire life changes and she learns more about who she really is and what her powers are in this world that has been at war for a hundred years. I tore through this first <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/shadow-and-bone-9780606319034/9781250027436">book</a> of the series and found the world building engaging as well as the story line of the Grisha. I'm currently waiting on the second book from the library.</p>
<h2>The Sound of a Wild Snail Eating</h2>
<p>A small <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-sound-of-a-wild-snail-eating-9781452634807/9781616206420">memoir</a> about a year in which the author couldn't get out of bed and a friend brought her a wild snail in a pot of wild violets and set it next to her bed. The snail gets transferred to a proper terrarium and Elisabeth Tova Bailey watches it as it goes about its life. She starts to research snails and throughout the book she sprinkles in facts about gastropods as you learn more about what her snail is up to. This book is fascinating and wonderful.</p>

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			<title>Books Read: August 2022</title>
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				<p>For many, this weekend marks the end of summer, kids are back to school, or schedules are changing. For our house summer is still going strong, especially given our above average temperatures that won't quit (it's been soooooo hot!). I've been reading, knitting on a sweater, and starting to evaluate the garden and what worked and what didn't, thinking about changes for next year. I'm ready for fall, or at least high temperatures in the 70s, but I'm trying to remember that soon it will be cooler with (hopefully) rain. I'm trying to soak up and enjoy the good things that this time of year offers—fresh sungolds like candy in your mouth which I know I'll miss in a few months.</p>
<h2>The Knitter's Book of Yarn</h2>
<p>I've been watching a <a href="https://www.youtube.com/c/AndreaMowry">podcast</a> by one of my favorite pattern designers in the last few months and she talks a lot about yarn and fiber and the differences and I wanted to learn more so I ordered a book to do just that. This <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-knitter-s-book-of-yarn-the-ultimate-guide-to-choosing-using-and-enjoying-yarn/9780307352163">book</a> has a lot of patterns in it, but it also is a great overview of yarn starting with the various fibers and then moving from there to how it's made and finally looking at plys and how they change the nature of yarn. I enjoyed it and I'll probably make some of the patterns as well, but I know I'll refer to the various beginning sections quite a bit. I hope I get better at matching yarn with patterns.</p>
<h2>Between Two Kingdoms: a memoir of a life interrupted</h2>
<p>Suleika Jaouad is diagnosed with leukemia at age 22 and goes through a years long odyssey to beat it and then has to figure out how to live. Her <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/between-two-kingdoms-a-memoir-of-a-life-interrupted/9780399588600">memoir</a> is heart felt, honest, and a fascinating look at how after you recovery there is still so much work to do. I ripped through this book and found the road trip portion in the second part so fascinating, how much time on the road alone helps to sort through what's going on in one's mind. Jaouad, unfortunately, just suffered a relapse and has been battling cancer again, but this book is filled with hope even amidst the ongoing health battles that she and the friends she makes go through.</p>
<h2>Knitting Yarns: writers on knitting</h2>
<p>More reading about knitting! This is a <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/knitting-yarns-writers-on-knitting/9780393349870">book of essays</a> edited by Ann Hood, who wrote <em>The Knitting Circle</em> that I recently read, and every essay is written by a writer who either knits or has been around people who knit. These really varied for me, but several made me laugh out loud and others made me think quite a bit about why I knit.</p>
<h2>Jayber Crow</h2>
<p>I first read this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/jayber-crow-9781582431604/9781582431604">book</a> just over twenty years ago and it was a novel that I loved and thought about often. It's traveled with me through many moves even as I have thinned and gotten rid of the vast majority of my books, so I decided another reading was in order. I still think it's a great character novel, Jayber tells the story of Port William while also telling his story. It's really a history of the mid twentieth century, told through the changes in a small town. And I don't disagree with Wendell Berry's view on how farming changed for the worse, but I did feel like there is a bit of nostalgia (maybe this isn't the right word but I can't think of another) for that time. And I suppose that events of the last 8 or so years have me thinking differently about nostalgia for previous eras.</p>
<h2>The Secret to Superhuman Strength</h2>
<p>Alison Bechdel has a way of taking really difficult subjects, personal subjects, and making them fascinating reads that are hard to put down. The title may lead you to think that this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-secret-to-superhuman-strength/9780544387652">book</a> is about exercise and fads and I thought that too through the first couple of chapters, but it's about so much more. Bechdel is looking at her life and the lives of writers she admires and using those lives to also help her understand herself and her own life. Finally, in her 50s, Bechdel feels a sense of understanding, but it's after a lot of ups and downs.</p>
<h2>Farenheit 451</h2>
<p>I read this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/fahrenheit-451-dc10abb2-2e14-42bd-9ad5-0a40aa1dfe1c/9781451673319">book</a> because G couldn't believe I hadn't ever read it in school and because I kept making comments about people always having in ear buds everywhere I went. (If you've read the book, then you get why he connected those comments with it.) The book appeared on my night stand and joined the to be read pile. I'm glad I read it, especially in these times. As Bradbury shows people being constantly distracted as the government essentially bans thinking, one can't help but draw at least some loose parellels with today's world of easy entertainment as the real issues get lost in the noise. But so too, as in the book, there are people fighting to keep things that matter front and center. The only other thing I've thought about a lot is how in the world the fire chief could quote books so well if he never read them because it was against the law. In the the afterword in the edition I read Bradbury points out that in the play he shows the chief's house, full of books (aha!). That play would be interesting to see based on the tweaks Bradbury made to the story.</p>

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			<title>Baseball</title>
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				<p>I'm a baseball fan. There, I said it, or rather wrote it. Just three years ago I wasn't a baseball fan, but the pandemic changed that.</p>
<p>In 2019 G bought an MLB subscription for his hometown team, the Brewers, and he watched quite a bit of baseball, usually I was in the room, but only half paying attention.</p>
<p>In 2020, during the lockdown, MLB opened up their archives and we were able to watch 2019 games for free when the season was delayed. There was something about watching those games, everything seemed so normal, I needed that escape. Crowds in a stadium cheering on their teams? In 2020 that wasn't happening but I could pretend just a bit while we watched a game. But then I started to get hooked on the game and the players and their stories. We watched the shortened season once it started.</p>
<p>In 2021 we bought a streaming package to watch any game we wanted (excluding media blackouts which for us means we can't watch Giants, A's, or Mariners games). But I watched a lot of baseball and in September we made a last minute trip to San Francisco to see the Brewers in person and it was a great trip.</p>
<p>For Christmas G gave me a <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-complete-baseball-scorekeeping-handbook-revised-and-updated-edition/9781476663890">book</a> on how to score baseball which has plunged me into the intracacies of plays and scoring and deeper into the world of baseball. I've scored a couple of games (well, the at bats) and I'm slowly making my way through the more intricate ins and outs of the game. There is a lot left for me to learn and it's not unusual for a play to happen as we watch a game and one of us wonders aloud, &quot;how would you score that?&quot;</p>
<p>This year we made the trip to San Francisco again and I didn't leave my seat for the entire game; I didn't want to miss anything and I find the happenings between innnings so interesting. Most days I watch or listen to a game—Bob Uecker still calls the home Brewers games on the radio, which is amazing. There is something calming about it, it's a slow game and I know many think it's boring (if I'm being honest, sometimes it is) but I've come to enjoy it more than I would have ever imagined. Go Brew Crew!</p>

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			<title>Books Read: July 2022</title>
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				<p>A month of reading, I ended the month with a couple of different things on the go, but below is strictly what I finished. We traveled to a big city, watched some baseball, and then the heat pushed us inside for the last week or so. But, in these times, some times these regularly monthly posts feel like a triumph in that I made it through, no matter what's been going on and I read, taking time to think or escape as the case may be given the particular book.</p>
<h2>Silverview</h2>
<p>John Le Carré's final <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/silverview-9780593554739/9780593490594">book</a>, finished by his son, Nick Harkaway, after he died in 2020 is probably his most critical book on the service he wrote about his whole life. We follow a man who's opened a book shop in a tourist town after leaving London for a more peaceful life and he becomes friends with an older, mysterious, man. Of course as Julian and Edward get to know each other it becomes apparent there is more to Edward's past. At the same time, an aging agent of the service is trying to find out what Edward may be up to. I won't say much more, but this is an extremely tightly written book, very much in the style you would expect, and I found the fact that it's critical and seeing some faults in the service to be refreshing.</p>
<h2>The Quiet Before: On the Unexpected Origins of Radical Ideas</h2>
<p>Gal Beckerman wrote a fascinating <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-quiet-before-on-the-unexpected-origins-of-radical-ideas/9781524759186">book</a> that I ended up tearing through quite quickly. He sets out to look at how ideas are born and how they come to fruition and he does so using the internet as a moment of change. The first part of the book is fascinating, looking at movements in various countries and how they sustained themselves and kept going. The Chartists in England that were seeking the vote for all men, the dissidents in the Soviet Union in the late 1960s that passed writing from person to person, each person typing a copy to pass on, in order to shed light on what the government was doing, and more. These movements took decades to see their work pay off.</p>
<p>In the post internet age Beckerman uses Tahrir Square in the 2010s and the use of the social media to show how the internet may not be the help we think it is. He goes on to talk about many other movements, including how doctors communicated privately during the pandemic to formulate good public messaging and how two different Black Lives Matters groups stepped away from the internet to do the work. The need to be able to communicate privately, to be able to be blunt and debate amongst the group, is important. Social media doesn't allow for mulling over, thinking through; it's all about emotion and likes. For anyone interested in organizing and <em>sustaining</em> a movement this would be a great read and it has me thinking about what I can do in this current time.</p>
<h2>The Survivors</h2>
<p>I read Jane Harper's first book <em>The Dry</em> and loved it and was pleased to see she has several more out now, and, even better, this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-survivors-9781250232434/9781250232434">book</a> was on the shelf of my local library branch. Kieran is back in his home town with his partner and daughter to help his Mom pack up their house and get ready to move his dad into a care center. While there a murder occurs, unusual for a small town in Tasmania, and it dredges up a terrible day from 12 years before where Kieran's brother and his brother's best friend died and a 14 year hold girl disappeared. Harper does such a great job of weaving together the two stories, just as she did in <em>The Dry</em> and whipped through this mystery, surprised by the ending.</p>
<h2>Generation Loss</h2>
<p>As I looked for the previous book at the library, the books on the shelf above it caught my eye and I saw Elizabeth Hand's novels. I knew the name thanks to a few different people talking about them and decided to pick up the <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/generation-loss-9781618731746/9781618731746">first Cass Neary book</a>. I'm honestly not sure what I think of this book? I finished it, so I enjoyed it enough to do that and wanted to see what happened. But at the same time I found Cass Neary a difficult character who on the one hand annoyed me and on the other fascinated me. This is a dark mystery, Cass travels from New York City to Maine to interview a photographer that greatly influenced her and along the way she falls into a mystery, or at least she thinks there's something going on and she isn't wrong.</p>
<h2>Zen and the Art of Knitting</h2>
<p>Last month I read a novel where knitting helps a woman heal from devastating grief and in the afterword the author listed off a whole bunch of knitting books she read to help with the writing of the novel and I was <em>intrigued</em>. I found a few things used online and this <a href="https://www.abebooks.com/servlet/SearchResults?sts=t&amp;cm_sp=SearchF-_-home-_-Results&amp;tn=Zen%20and%20the%20art%20of%20knitting">book</a> was one of them. It's older, published in 2002, but I found a lot of the parts of it fascinating as Bernadette Murphy talks with a lot of different people about knitting and what it means to them. Alongside the knitting stories she shares a simple stitch pattern at the start of each chapter. A quick read, enjoyable, and it's made me think more about my knitting and crochet and sewing and how they function in my life.</p>
<h2>A Stash of One's Own</h2>
<p>I've been going down the rabbit hole of reading things related to knitting and this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/a-stash-of-one-s-own-knitters-on-loving-living-with-and-letting-go-of-yarn/9781419732904">book of essays</a> was interesting. A stash of yarn is something a lot of knitters have and some of them have a very large stash, skeins they've picked up because they couldn't resist but they may not have immediate plans to knit them up into a project. But what I enjoyed most in this book was how many folks defended <em>not</em> having a stash. I'm not a stasher which in my knitting group puts me in a the minority. I have yarn in a bin that is left over from previous projects and this year I've been working quite hard to use that up, but I don't buy yarn until I need it and I buy for a specific project and it was nice to learn that I'm not alone, other knitters do the same thing.</p>

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			<title>Learning to sew</title>
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				<p>I've spent much of the last year and a half learning to sew clothes and it's been quite the journey, but in all the best possible ways. When I started out on this the driving force was to be able to make my own pants, since they're the hardest thing to find a good fit on when shopping ready to wear. Little did I know how much I was going to learn about my body, what I like, what fits me well, and how much practice it takes to make clothes I'm excited to wear.</p>
<p>I took an <a href="https://closetcorepatterns.com/collections/sewing-classes/products/learn-to-sew-clothing-online-sewing-class">online class</a> to learn, that came with three patterns and so many vidoes about sewing in general and helping through the difficult bits of the patterns. I can't say enough good things about <a href="https://closetcorepatterns.com/">Closet Core Patterns</a> and this class, it's great. From helping me to think about what type of machine to buy, to helping me learn the basics of sewing with the machine I got, to thinking about fit and patterns and fabric and how to make all of those things work together to make a successful garment. I've bought a second class from them on how to make jeans and that'll be my upcoming winter project, making my own jeans.</p>
<p>I've made four pairs of pants, three pairs of shorts, a couple of tops from woven fabric, and four things from knit fabrics (t-shirts and one t-shirt dress). That's the total of what I've made that I <em>like and actually wear</em>. That means I've made things I don't really like, that I don't wear, and they've gone back in the fabric bin to be used as scraps for other projects. That's OK with me, that's how I learn. It was the exact same way I learned how to crochet and knit, many of my early yarn projects are things I don't wear or use at all, and I'm totally OK with that.</p>
<p>The biggest thing with learning to sew that's made an impact is how much I've gotten to know my body and my own personal style. As I make patterns I'm figuring out how to make them fit <em>me</em>, which isn't always easy, but so many online resources have helped me along the way. And I've thought long and hard about what I wear and what I like to wear, which means I'm choosing both better patterns and better fabrics to go with them, so the final product is something I'm excited about wearing.</p>
<p>One of the biggest hurdles for me is that I don't have a fabric shop where I live, which means I'm ordering all my fabric online, which is hard. But guess what? Another helpful resource came my way and I can email the folks at <a href="https://stonemountainfabric.com/">Stonemountain and Daughter Fabric</a>, down south of me in Berkeley, and they've been great about giving me ideas of fabrics to go with the patterns I have on my list to make when I've emailed with a list of questions. Just this month we were down in the Bay Area and I got to go there in person and feel the fabrics and ask questions in person and it was so fun. It'll be a regular stop for me whenever we're in the area.</p>
<p>So I'm sticking with this sewing thing and I'm starting to really enjoy it. It's slow. It takes time. It keeps me away from the internet and screens. I think long and hard about what to make, what size to make, I usually make a muslin as a test run (for woven fabric projects), and then I sweat it out as I cut into the real fabric. I've made enough garments between sewing and knitting that most days I'm wearing something I made, and I gotta say, I love that feeling.</p>

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			<title>Claes Oldenburg</title>
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				<p>Claes Oldenburg <a href="https://www.nytimes.com/2022/07/18/arts/claes-oldenburg-dead.html">died</a> last week at the age of 93. I haven't talked about this much here, but I studied art in college and Oldenburg was one of the artists I looked up to during those years and since.</p>
<p>I knew his work, growing up in the Twin Cities I drove past the <em>Spoonbridge and Cherry</em> more times than I can count. But it was on a spring break trip with a friend to Washington, D.C. while in college where I saw a retrospective show that I really saw the full breadth of his work. Even as a college student without a lot of money I bought the massive catalogue from the show and it's traveled with me ever since.</p>
<p>It wasn't the large sculptures that hit me like a ton of bricks in that show, it was the soft sculptures. Mason Currey talked about them in a <a href="https://masoncurrey.substack.com/p/claes-oldenburg-was-always-starting">newsletter</a> this week and I think he says it well:</p>
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<p>I think Oldenburg’s soft sculptures are a good example of this. It’s easy to imagine them coming across as silly or gimmicky or just ho-hum. <em>A big floppy ice-cream cone on the gallery floor? Sure, I guess.</em> Instead, they are utterly delightful and weirdly poignant.</p>
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<p>That describes it perfectly and images of them don't do them justice, you need to see them in person to fully understand how great they are; if you ever have the chance, grab it. RIP Oldenburg and thank you for all the art that you made and shared throughout your life.</p>

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			<title>Books Read: June 2022</title>
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				<p>I made an amazing discovery this month;  a lot of the books that have long waits for digital loans are sitting on the shelf within my library system and available for checkout immediately. Even better? Many of them were on the shelf at my local branch! For the first time in a long time I read only paper versions of books this month and I reall enjoyed it. I also read a lot this month, I've been in retreat mode and so I've shut out most of the online life and read books, worked with yarn and fabric, and gardened. It's been good for my soul in the midst of all that's going on.</p>
<h2>Spear</h2>
<p>Based on the legends of Arthur and his companions, Nicola Griffith tells the <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/spear-9781250819321/9781250819321">tale</a> of a girl with no name who sees that she can be more, that she has a story, and she leaves her mother to seek it out. It's about love, jousting, honor, and what can be when you trust yourself. The writing is amazing in this short, fast moving story.</p>
<h2>Empire of Pain</h2>
<p>The subtitle of this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/empire-of-pain-the-secret-history-of-the-sackler-dynasty-9780593416280/9780385545686">book</a>, <em>The Secret History of the Sackler Dynasty</em>, sums up very well what the book is about. It isn't about Purdue Pharma, per say, or the opiod crisis, but rather the family behind the company that made the drug that triggered the crisis. It's at once hugely enraging but also fascinating; I read it so quickly because of that fascination and because Patrick Radden Keefe is a great writer. The start of the story is so much earlier than the 1990s and OxyContin, as it begins with three brothers, one of whom pioneers how to market and sell drugs.  It's very much a tale of how people with money can get away with the worst evils.</p>
<h2>The Code of the Woosters</h2>
<p>I'd never read P.G. Wodehouse, but felt like the timing was right for something funny and utterly ridiculous and that is exactly what I got in this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-code-of-the-woosters-9781585670574/9780393339819">book</a>. We follow Bertie Wooster and his ever faithful man Jeeves as they try to help Bertie's aunt, two good friends, and avoid upsetting a friend's father. It's a story of missed moments, bad communication, and comedy and I thoroughly enjoyed it.</p>
<h2>Harlem Shuffle</h2>
<p>Ray Carney is trying to live a good life in Harlem. He's married with one child and another on the way, but circumstances keep pulling him into living a bit of a double life, with his upstanding furniture store business and his side hustle fencing stolen items. Colson Whitehead is great at creating characters and places that suck you in and <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/harlem-shuffle-9780593460184/9780385545136">his latest</a> is no different. We see Carney in three different vignettes as his life changes and he grows older, but we also see Harlem and New York City through his eyes in the late 1950s and early 1960s. Highly recommend this one.</p>
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<p>Following his two targets back-to-back, the banker and the peddler, Pepper had to say they were in the same business. There were the obvious junkies in Harlem, swaying, grooving to some inner refrain, and then there were citizens you'd never know were on junk. Normal people with straight jobs who strolled up to Dixon's men, copped, then split to their warrens. Then there was Duke. Every day Duke hustled, doing his own handoffs in restaurants and club rooms, pushing that inside dope: influence, information, power. You couldn't tell who was using what these days, their drug of choise, but half the city was on something if you had your eyes open. (p 182)</p>
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<p>The boys' constellation knowledge stalled after the Dippers and the Belt, but you didn't have to know what something was called to know how it made you feel, and looking at the stars didn't make Carney feel small or insignificant, the stars made him feel recognized. They had their place and he had his. We all have our station in life—people, stars, cities—and even if no one looked after Carney and no one suspected him capable of much at all, he was going to make himself into something. (p 311)</p>
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<h2>Knitting Circle</h2>
<p>This isn't a great <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-knitting-circle-9780786159369/9780393330441">book</a>, but it hit me in the right way since it uses knitting to tell the story. Mary's daughter died suddenly and she's frozen by her grief, after a lot of badgering from her mother, she goes to a shop to learn how to knit. She joins a weekly knitting circle and as she learns to knit we learn the stories of the women in the circle. It was, in many ways, hard to read, but also I ripped through it, wanting to know if Mary would get through it, would her marriage survive, would she continue to knit?</p>
<h2>Fuzz: When Nature Breaks the Law</h2>
<p>Mary Roach is a funny writer and takes the idea of human and nature coming together and talks about it in all kinds of scenarios. Bears eating our garbage, rats running around our cities, birds and how they can spoil the Easter service in Vatican City, and much more. I loved this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/fuzz-when-nature-breaks-the-law/9781324001935">book</a> and if you read don't skip the footnotes as they are equally as funny. It's a fun read, and easy to pick up and put down as the chapters are somewhat self contained.</p>
<h2>My Life in Middlemarch</h2>
<p>Is this a memoir? Is it more about a book and its author? I'm not exactly sure even after reading this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/my-life-in-middlemarch-a-memoir/9780307984777">one</a> how to categorize it, but I enjoyed it. Rebecca Mead talks about the life of George Eliot as well as how <em>Middlemarch</em> has been a constant companion in her own life. But I found the parts about Eliot the most fascinating, what a life in a time when it wasn't easy to live life in a way that wasn't the norm.</p>
<h2>The Secret Adversary</h2>
<p>The first <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-secret-adversary-a-tommy-and-tuppence-mystery-6f09c392-7d71-4948-8023-652deb2ba7f8/9780525565093">book</a> in the series featuring Tommy and Tuppence and I loved it! So great to see how they came together to unravel mysteries, and Christie writes so well about the married couple. In a quest to make money, the broke pair who are only friends at this point, decided to advertise their services to help people solve problems and from there they're sucked into a mystery that is at once incredibly strange, but also really well done. I'll be reading more of this series for sure.</p>

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			<title>Books Read: May 2022</title>
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				<p>May, a month I normally love, but this month involved air travel for the first time since November 2019, which I found stressful, and very cool and wet weather. So I read, as one is wont to do in order to calm nerves and lose oneself.</p>
<h2>Saga issues #55-58</h2>
<p>I traveled this month via plane for the first time since November 2019 and didn't feel like reading my novel on the way home, so checked out the newest issues of Saga on Hoopla. This series took a long break after a huge cliff hanger and it was good to see it come back and I do like they way they've picked it up. I won't spoil anything, but I will say that the daughter continuing the narration of her own story is one of the things I like best about this series.</p>
<p>(Note: I really don't know where to link to single issues of a comic series, so you'll notice there is no link here. But it's by Brian K. Vaughan and Fiona Staples.)</p>
<h2>The Peripheral</h2>
<p>I first read <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-peripheral-9781467687447/9780425276235"><em>The Peripheral</em></a> in the <a href="/reading/the-peripheral/">summer of 2017</a> and I'm not usually a rereader, but there was something about the concept of The Jackpot, especially now given world events, that pulled me back into the book. As Flynne slowly makes her way through figuring out how things work with different timelines and her ability to go into the future, I was thinking about what was to come in her timeline a lot. This is still a great read, still fast moving and action packed, but it's also got the added extra layer of making me think long and hard about where we're at today in history and where we may be going.</p>
<h2>The Wave in the Mind</h2>
<p>I've started spending the first half hour or so after I get out of bed with a nonficiton book, it gets my mind going in a more focused way than jumping online and it's been good for starting my day in a calm, relaxed mood. This <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-wave-in-the-mind-talks-and-essays-on-the-writer-the-reader-and-the-imagination/9781590300060">collection of essays</a> by Ursula K. Le Guin was a page turner for me, I loved so many of them. She talks about writing, readers, and a wide range of opinions on various topics. I wrote down many quotes in my journal as I read, I especially loved the way in which she talks about imagination and uses that word instead of creativity (what a great idea!).</p>
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<p>The exercise of imagination is dangerous to those who profit from the way things are because it has the power to show that the way things are is not permanent, not universal, not necessary. (From the essay <em>A War Without End</em>)</p>
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<h2>Little Bird Volume 1</h2>
<p>Another comic I grabbed on Hoopla that was on my list because it made some award lists, and I'm honestly still not sure what I think of it. We follow <a href="https://imagecomics.com/comics/releases/little-bird-the-fight-for-elders-hope-hc">Little Bird</a> as she sets out to figure out how to survive living in Canada in a time when a theocracy is ruling and the native ideas of land and life are being surpressed and, often, killed off.  It's quite violent and that may not be my thing in comics, a bit too much blood and guts in the drawings at times for my tastes, but the ideas are intriguing and I'm thinking about them in relation to how we treat native people currently.</p>
<h2>Until the Last of Me</h2>
<p>Book <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/until-the-last-of-me-take-them-to-the-stars-book-two/9781250262110">two</a> of  the <em>Take Them To The Stars</em> series and as we move forward in the story, following Mia and her daughter Lola, we also get a larger view into the life and world of the trackers trying to kill them. I didn't enjoy this story as much as the first novel in the series, but it's really interesting how the author uses actual events from history and wraps his story around them. In this one we follow the Voyager missions as they launch and start to document our solar system. And Mia and Lola, while at odds at times as mothers and daughters can be, start to figure out more about how to fulfill their mission.</p>
<h2>Violeta</h2>
<p>If there's one thing you can count on in an Isabel Allende book, it's that there will be a lot of drama. I hadn't read her since college when I read <em>The House of the Spirits</em> in Spanish, but I saw a <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/violeta-english-edition/9780593496206">new book</a> of hers and felt like a bit of a Latin American telenovela was right for me at this time. Violeta is born in 1920 and she tells her entire life story and, as expected, a lot happens. Allende loves to set things in Chile and she doesn't shy away from the difficult parts of that country's history, so we see it all through Violeta's point of view and her life.</p>

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			<title>Attention</title>
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				<p>I recently listened to an <a href="https://tinhouse.com/podcast/mary-ruefle-incarnation-of-the-now/">interview with Mary Ruefle</a> and was struck by the way in which she talked about technology. She doesn't use technology much at all and has decided that even though it's demanding her attention, she's saying no. Her <a href="https://www.maryruefle.com/contact.html">contact page</a> on her website (and yes, the irony that she has a website) is the best I've seen on the internet.</p>
<p>But it's had me thinking on my walks the last few days about technology and the demands it makes of us, or at least very much wants to make of us. Over the course of the last year I've pulled way back from technology, spending quite a bit less time online. And when I do venture online I notice a few things immediately, one of which is my anxiety rises, which I feel in a raised heart rate.</p>
<p>And you'll probably find it ironic, but I've done some very unscientific tracking of this by looking at the heart rate monitor on my Apple Watch. So yes, I'm using technology to track how other technology makes me feel. But I've definitely found, especially since getting the Apple Watch four months ago, that some tech allows you to <em>disconnect</em> in a way that other tech doesn't. The watch is that very type of tech for me, I leave my phone sitting in a room most of the day, and since I need reading glasses now and I don't love reading things on the small screen of my watch, I look at a screen a lot less.</p>
<p>We've all heard the phrase that what you pay attention to is how you live your life (or it's something like that, isn't it?) and I've found that the demands of tech and the ways in which all the crap of the internet come into my head have serious negative effects. So, much like Ruefle, I'm saying no a lot more, not as completely as she is, but I'm being much more deliberate in what I choose to pay attention to and when.</p>

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			<title>Books Read: April 2022</title>
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				<p>This month turned cold and rainy, which is a very good thing, we need that rain so very much. But it also meant that I wasn't out in the garden as I normally am at this time of year, prepping and getting it ready. Don't worry, I did get out there some, but I haven't planted a thing yet, still way too chilly. That meant I did a lot of reading and I did a lot of sewing. This month's reading was both incredibly good and for a few of the books, incredibly frustrating. But as is always the case, no matter my reaction to the book itself, it made me think and that's why I read.</p>
<h2>Cost of Living</h2>
<p>I wouldn't say I totally enjoyed this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/cost-of-living-essays/9781250213297">book</a> of essays about the health care system and a person who struggles with mental health and her interactions with trying to get help, but I did find it enlightening. Emily Maloney ends up with a lot of debt from mental health care she seeks at a young age, and from there she ends up spending a lot of time working in the health care industry directly and around it, which gives her a really unique perspective on how it all works in the US. It's worth the read even if it isn't always easy to read.</p>
<h2>Transcription</h2>
<p>A young woman is recruited into working for MI5 in the early stages of World War II and ends up transcribing conversations of Nazi sympathizers who are living in England and trying to help the German cause. Kate Atkinson drew inspiration from the archives of that time period, but of course took it in her own direction. The <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/transcription-3b36835f-d608-4a33-aba3-4b155a052794/9780316176668">book</a> moves between 1940, 1950, and 1980 and it took some turns in the last third that I honestly didn't see coming as Juliet deals with both what happened during the war and what happened after it.</p>
<h2>The Lincoln Highway</h2>
<p>With this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-lincoln-highway-9780593459874/9780735222359">book</a> Amor Towles became one of my all time favorite novelists and I think I'll be reading this book again. Towles style of telling the story through the eyes of the various characters works so well, allowing you to see what's going on and understand what's motivating all the main people in the book. But it's the order and way in which he introduces this that makes it even better. Emmett gets out of juvenile detention and goes home to reunite with his little brother and start a new life together, but it's thwarted when two of of the boys he was in the detention center show up and as the road trip starts, one thing after another goes wrong. There is more I could say, but the final bit of the book was amazing and I've already reread it.</p>
<h2>Project Hail Mary</h2>
<p>I keep reading Andy Weir's books because I liked <em>The Martian</em> so much, but I think I need to rethink this strategy as I didn't enjoy his second book and I didn't love this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/project-hail-mary/9780593135204">book</a> either. Ryland Grace finds himself waking up on what he discovers is a space ship, not remembering his name or why he's there. As his memories come back, we learn more about his story, while at the same time an alien life form contacts him by flying up beside his ship. From there we're off and running, but something about this one didn't work as well for me and I think it's because it was very much a similar story to <em>The Martian</em>, man alone in dangerous situation, well not quite alone, trying to save himself and this time around earth as well.</p>
<h2>The End of Burnout</h2>
<p>The first half of this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-end-of-burnout-why-work-drains-us-and-how-to-build-better-lives-9781713699507/9780520344075">book</a> was good, a great overview of how we look at work and why we think of it the way we do, at least in the US. In the second half Jonathan Malesic shows us examples of people who are avoiding burnout and then he concludes, using the pandemic to help form thoughts about how we can move forward. The second half of the book is so incredibly frustrating, the examples are of monks, nuns, and people who have physical disabilities so they can't work and there really are no examples of what type of system wide change needs to happen to make this work for everyone. He glosses over some ideas from Senator Sherrod Brown, but nothing about policy or system change is gone into with any depth. And the conclusion? Woooooow is all I can say about that, but I'll let you read it yourself if you're so inclined.</p>
<p>I do agree with him, our ideals about work are way off which is why so many people are frustrated and feel disconnected from their jobs so quickly. People have dignity no matter if they work for pay or not, that's a no brainer. But how we get to a place where everyone is treated with dignity and valued, he falls very short on that score and so I was left frustrated.</p>
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<p>I hope this book will help our culture recognize that work doesn't dignify us or form our character or give our lives purpose. <em>We</em> dignify work, <em>we</em> shape its character, and <em>we</em> give it purpose within our lives. (p 2)</p>
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<p>Work simply can't deliver what we want from it, and the gap between our ideals and our on-the-job reality leads us to exhaustion, cynicism, and despair. (p 3)</p>
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<p>Ironically, believing in the ideal of a good life earned though hard work is the biggest obstacle to attaining what it promises. (p 115)</p>
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<p>We say we don't want to burn out, but we also don't want to give up the system of meaning—not to mention the system of profit making—we have built around the work that causes our burnout. (p 192) (<em>A note on this, it sounds so good, but he never gives any indication of how we'd give up that system, which is...frustrating to me.</em>)</p>
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<h2>Flora &amp; Ulysses</h2>
<p>I recently listend to an <a href="https://onbeing.org/programs/kate-dicamillo-for-the-eight-year-old-in-you/">interview</a> with Kate DiCamillo and found her really interesting, so that led to reading one of her <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/flora-and-ulysses-the-illuminated-adventures-4b8c1d6a-73bd-4c9e-b459-f8b713069db1/9780763687649">books</a>. She writes for children, but as is usually the case, the books are so wonderful and full of deep ideas that shine through. In this case Flora sees a squirrel get sucked up by a vacuum cleaner and rescues it. That's the start of a friendship with a squirrel that is so much more than a squirrel. I laughed out loud and enjoyed this story so much.</p>
<h2>Oh William!</h2>
<p>Elizabeth Strout has a way of writing that draws me in immediately to her characters and this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/oh-william/9780812989434">book</a> was no exception. It's a bit of a continuation of Lucy Barton's story and the way in which she currently relates to her first husband. As they work through some shocking news he finds out while also going through a bit of a personal crisis, we also learn more about Lucy and how she thinks about the world, her kids, her marriages, etc. One of the reasons I enjoyed this so much is that I saw a lot of myself in Lucy and it's fascinating to be inside her thoughts.</p>

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			<title>Learning to rest</title>
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				<p>In February I read three books that all, in one way or another, were about rest. This topic, especially now, is a hot one, how does one rest and do we, as a culture, really know how to rest? And, can we rest without being thought of as wasting time?</p>
<p>In <em>Wintering</em>, Katherine May asks this question as she's forced to rest because of illness. There is guilt associated with rest in our culture, she touches on it, but in <em>Laziness Does Not Exist</em> Devon Price goes farther, arguing that we are killing ourselves for fear of being lazy, but it's not laziness to recognize that you need to rest. And in <em>24/6</em> Tiffany Shlain is giving a guide to taking sabbath, a very old tradition, but one that's gone by the wayside. As she talks about sabbath and putting away screens, she too is trying to teach people how to rest and recharge.</p>
<p>What struck me about all of these books is how much it goes against the grain of our culture to do the things they discuss. It reminded me about coming back from my semester abroad in Argentina when I was in college. That semester fundamentally changed something about the way I saw day-to-day life and it took me a long time to realize how very profound it was. I now realize that I learned how to rest living in a culture that took siesta every day and I'm so grateful for that now.</p>
<p class="small">Note: I wrote this in March, but then sat on it, and in my attempts to post more here, I'm throwing out some of my thoughts, a bit unfiltered and probably in need of editing, but I hope you bear with me, it feels like the right thing for me to do. Also it's been over 20 years since I studied in Argentina, and I think I'm just now realizing the profound changes in my life and the way I look at the day-to-day that came out of that experience.</p>
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			<title>Books Read: March 2022</title>
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				<p>Time has gotten away from me recently, mostly because I've been staying away from this glowing screen with the attached keyboard quite a bit. Spring is doing its thing where I live and I've been leaning in hard to my non digital hobbies, so I totally forgot yesterday was the end of the month. It also explains why I didn't post anything else all month. I have ideas in my head, but haven't wanted to sit at my machine and make it happen. We'll see what happens in April.</p>
<h2>The Rooster Bar</h2>
<p>We've started doing our regular trip the library again to browse the shelves and I picked up this John Grisham <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-rooster-bar/9781101967706">book</a> while on one of those trips. Grisham is usually reliably entertaining and not too much work and that's what I was in the mood for and he delivered. Three law students who are going to a for profit law school that isn't giving them a great education and they're all in large amounts of debt, decide that maybe law school isn't for them. But of course they need to make money and off we go as they scheme around ways to pretend to be lawyers and pull off fraud. It's not the best Grisham, but it's probably not the worst either.</p>
<h2>Home/Land: A Memoir of Departure and Return</h2>
<p>After the 2016 election, Rebecca Mead and her husband decide they don't want to live in the US anymore and Mead, from the UK, wants to move back to her home country. The <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/home-land-a-memoir-of-departure-and-return-9781638082736/9780525658719">book</a> isn't exactly a memoir about that though, it's more about her family history in London as well as her thoughts on the future her son will inherit. It's also astonishing how easy it seems for Mead to sell a home in one expensive city and buy a home in another expensive city—not everyone could react to the election of our former president in quite the same way. I didn't love this book, parts of it were interesting, but I also started to get annoyed with how much she failed to acknowledge that what she'd done wasn't possible for those who would most be affected by the transition of administrations in the US.</p>
<h2>The Storm of Echoes</h2>
<p>The final <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-storm-of-echoes-book-four-of-the-mirror-visitor-quartet/9781609456979">book</a> in <em>The Mirror Visitor Quartet</em> and it is quite an ending. Christelle Dabos weaves a tale brings together all of the disparate things Ophelia and Thorn have been searching for and we see Ophelia do what's necessary to save those she loves. It's a fitting ending, even if it felt very complicated at times, and I'll miss Ophelia, I really enjoyed that character.</p>
<h2>Jesus and John Wayne</h2>
<p>The subtitle to this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/jesus-and-john-wayne-how-white-evangelicals-corrupted-a-faith-and-fractured-a-nation-9781631499050/9781631495731">book</a> is <em>How White Evangelicals Corrupted a Faith and Fractured a Nation</em> and as Kristin Kobes Du Mez traces the history of Evangelicalism throughout the 20th and early 21st Centuries we see just how much White Christian Militaristic Patriarchal Nationalism has taken over the faith. It's a hard read for someone who was involved in that world for quite a while and ultimately left because of many of the ideaologies she's tracing through the movement. But it was also good to see all the dots connected, to know that I wasn't imagining some things. Most of all, it's been good to read about how the term evangelical no longer means a person who believes in a certain theology, but rather it's a cultural and political movement. And it's a movement that allows awful men to do awful things and excuses them at every turn.</p>
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<p>Despite evangelicals’ frequent claims that the Bible is the source of their social and political commitments, evangelicalism must be seen as a cultural and political movement rather than as a community defined chiefly by its theology. (loc 5102)</p>
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<p>Side note: I followed up this book by listening to the podcast <a href="https://www.christianitytoday.com/ct/podcasts/rise-and-fall-of-mars-hill/"><em>The Rise and Fall of Mars Hill</em></a> and what a hard listen, but it touches on many of the things that Du Mez talks about with regards to masculinity and evangelicalism.</p>
<h2>Akata Woman</h2>
<p>A new <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/akata-woman/9780451480583">book</a> in the series?!? This was very much in line with this series and I enjoyed another adventure with Sunny and her friends. These books move so quickly and the action for the last portion is usually non stop, making it hard to put down. I wonder if there will be more or if this is it.</p>
<h2>An Honorable Man</h2>
<p>I discovered Paul Vidich because he has a new book out and decided to go back and start with his <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/an-honorable-man/9781501110412">first book</a> instead. This book has the feeling of a John LeCarré book, set in the 1950s with the cold war in full swing and the attempt to find a mole within the very newly formed CIA. I had a hard time putting this one down for the last 100 pages and can't wait to read more of his work.</p>

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			<title>Books Read: February 2022</title>
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				<p>A month of a lot of reading, due to me attempting to change some habits and pick up a book rather than a device when I have some moments and am waiting on something. I'm still thinking a lot about <em>Wintering</em>, <em>Laziness Does Not Exist</em>, and <em>24/6</em> and trying to formulate thoughts into a post, so we'll see what happens. In the midst of everything that is so much this month with world events, I'm getting lost in fiction and yoga and meditation for sanity's sake.</p>
<h2>Master Butcher Singing Club</h2>
<p>Louise Erdrich is quickly becoming one of my all time favorite novelists, much like Wendell Berry, her ability to write so well about people in a certain place draws me in to her books. And this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-master-butchers-singing-club/9780060837051">book</a> is no different. We follow Fidelis as he comes home from World War I in Germany, emmigrates to the US, and sets up a butcher shop in Argus, North Dakota and all that it entails to build a life in a new place. Fidelis and his family's life intertwines with one particular resident of Argus and the story grows from there. It's so well told and so beautiful.</p>
<h2>Wintering</h2>
<p>The subtitle of this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/wintering-the-power-of-rest-and-retreat-in-difficult-times-9781432887131/9780593189481">book</a> by Katherine May is <em>The Power of Rest and Retreat in Difficult Times</em> and wow, did I love this book. I'd heard May interviewed on <em>On Being</em> (which I talked about in a recent note), but the book goes even deeper into what wintering can mean and be, no matter if you are going through the difficult time during an actual winter or not. The past year I've been resting and I've definitely been in retreat and this book articulates so well how so much of our culture doesn't know how to rest and even scoffs at the need for it. I'm hopeful that as we learn from the past two years one of the things we take with us is that rest is valuable and necesssary.</p>
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<p>How is it that we can code so carefully the weight of loss, grief, time, and continuity into our children’s books, but forget them so thoroughly ourselves? (loc 649)</p>
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<p>Sleeping is my sanity, my luxury, my addiction. (loc 789)</p>
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<p>Over and again, we find that winter offers us liminal spaces to inhabit. Yet still we refuse them. The work of the cold season is to learn to welcome them. (loc 925)</p>
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<p>Here was yet another liminal space, a crossing point between the mundane and the magical. Winter, it seems, is full of them: fleeting invitations to step out of the ordinary. (loc 1668)</p>
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<p>But the works of winter are more intricate than the simple laying in of supplies, which are then run down until the summer replenishes them. Cooped up in our hives, with cold winds blasting at the roof, we are invited into the industry of the dark season, when there is nothing else to do but keep our hands moving. Winter is a time for the quiet arts of making, for knitting and sewing, baking and simmering, repairing and restoring our homes. (loc 2097)</p>
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<p>If we don’t allow ourselves the fundamental honesty of our own sadness, then we miss an important cue to adapt. (loc 2380)</p>
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<p>We need friends who wince along with our pain, who tolerate our gloom, and who allow us to be weak for a while when we’re finding our feet again. We need people who acknowledge that we can’t always hang on. That sometimes everything breaks. Short of that, we need to perform those functions for ourselves: to give ourselves a break when we need it and to be kind. To find our own grit, in our own time. (loc 2385)</p>
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<h2>How Beautiful We Were</h2>
<p>A beautiful, haunting <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/how-beautiful-we-were/9780593132425">novel</a> about the way in which an American oil company uses and abuses the people of one village and their quest to find a way to take back their land. Imbolo Mbue uses some unique ways to tell this story which made it a bit harder for me to fully get into, it took time to figure out what was going on, but in the end I loved this novel and finished it saddened and angry about the ways of the world that seems to difficult to change.</p>
<h2>24/6: Giving Up Screens One Day a Week to Get More Time, Creativity, and Connection</h2>
<p>Confession: I didn't read this entire <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/24-6-giving-up-screens-one-day-a-week-to-get-more-time-creativity-and-connection/9781982116873">book</a> because I've already read a lot about the history of the sabbath and I don't need to be convinced that taking time away from screens and being online is a good idea, so I skimmed through some chapters. That being said, I found several of the concepts that Tiffany Shlain explores really interesting, especially thinking about entrances and exits. I haven't installed a land line and I'm not turning off my phone every weekend for a day, mostly because I take large chunks of each day away from the world already, but I am thinking about a few of my daily routines differently.</p>
<h2>Lazinesss Does Not Exist</h2>
<p>If it feels like there is a theme to my non fiction reading this month, well, there definitely is. Devon Price explores the history of the word lazy and then looks at how we use it today to talk about the laziness myth; how it's used to make us feel like there is always more to be done, we are never good enough, and we shouldn't trust ourselves or our bodies. The <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/laziness-does-not-exist/9781982140106">book</a> is filled with personal stories of burnout as well a lot of research into how much people can focus per day and how to live our lives better. My favorite factoid from the book is that most people can only do focused work for about 3 hours a day (this is knowledge work, not manual labor) and so the 40 hour work week is ridiculous and no one is actually working that much.</p>
<h2>The Four Agreements</h2>
<p>I read this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-four-agreements-a-practical-guide-to-personal-freedom-9781878424310/9781878424310">book</a> because so many in the yoga community love it and I did finish it and I have a lot of questions after reading it.  The agreements themselves are fine, if a bit generalized: be impeccable with your word, don't take anything personally, don't make assumptions, and always do your best. Who wouldn't want to do those things? But by being so generalized, I've found that it makes them harder to put into practice in concrete ways (I found the examples a bit superficial) and I can't help but wonder if this caters to people looking to feel good. It all felt a bit too pat to me. This fits in very well with how the wellness industry operates these days and if you google for this book or search on Bookshop, woooooow the amount of merchandise and things that go with it is astounding.</p>
<h2>The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue</h2>
<p>Addie LaRue wants to escape the life that she feels she's being forced to live in early 18th Century France. She makes a deal with a dark God in order to live life to its fullest. Of course she doesn't fully realize the terms of the deal until after and the book is off and running then, we move back and forth between her story from that point and where she currently is in 21st Century New York. I ended up loving this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-invisible-life-of-addie-larue/9780765387561">book</a>, but it took a lot of set up to get to the point where I couldn't put it down.</p>
<h2>Rhode Island Red</h2>
<p>A fast moving <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/rhode-island-red/9780593314104">mystery</a> where Nanette is left to figure out what's going on after someone she meets in passing dies in her apartment. Nanette is a tenor sax player and loves jazz and the story moves so quickly that I finished this in no time flat. I can't wait to read another in the series.</p>

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			<title>Books Read: January 2022</title>
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				<p>A new year and I was inundated with books this month as many of the titles I recommended my library get digitally they go the rights to, so I read more, which is pretty normal when it's dark and cold for me. Some books I'm still thinking about in this list, especially <em>The Midnight Library</em> and <em>The Matrix</em>.</p>
<h2>The Midnight Library</h2>
<p>Nora Seed finds herself unhappy with her life and decides to end it all after her cat dies, but she ends up in The Midnight Library with her elementary school librarian who guides her through seeing what her life would've been like if she'd made other choices. And she lives in those lives until she feels unhappy in them. It's a brilliant <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-midnight-library-9780655697077/9780525559474">story</a> where we see played out something we've all wondered about all our lives, what if I had done X instead of Y at a certain juncture?</p>
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<p>Maybe that’s what all lives were, though. Maybe even the most seemingly perfectly intense or worthwhile lives ultimately felt the same. Acres of disappointment and monotony and hurts and rivalries but with flashes of wonder and beauty. Maybe that was the only meaning that mattered. To be the world, witnessing itself. Maybe it wasn’t the lack of achievements that had made her and her brother’s parents unhappy, maybe it was the expectation to achieve in the first place. She had no idea about any of it, really. (loc 1781)</p>
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<h2>The Churchill Sisters</h2>
<p>I came across this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-churchill-sisters-the-extraordinary-lives-of-winston-and-clementine-s-daughters-9781250861115/9781250272393">book</a> on a list somewhere and asked my library to get the digital rights and they did! After reading so much history that was told in a novel like way, it was an adjustment to go back to reading a more traditional history, but I did find this book fascinating. I had no idea that Sarah Churchill was the actor in one of my favorite 1950s musicals, for example. But I also didn't know just how much Churchill's children suffered in various ways, a reminder of possible costs of being a great man and having so much of family life revolve around him.</p>
<h2>Tastemakers</h2>
<p>Like the above, I also asked my library to get this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/taste-makers-seven-immigrant-women-who-revolutionized-food-in-america/9781324004516">book </a>and they did, and while I didn't love it, it was definitely interesting. The subtitle is <em>Seven Immigrant Women Who Revolutionized Food in America</em> and the author also throws in a bit of the story of Julia Child to contrast with the other women in the story. I enjoyed learning about these women and how they lived and worked within the food world of the US in the varying time periods.</p>
<h2>Small Things Like These</h2>
<p>An Irish tale that has seen great success and sucked me in and I read in quite quickly. It's a <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/small-things-like-these/9780802158741">short novella</a> and it was easy to get lost in the language and ideas. Furlong is a man who never knew his father and was born to an unwed mother, but her employer took her in and helped her through the pregnancy and the raising of her son. But in the lead up to Christmas 1985 he has an experience with the convent on the hill that leaves him troubled while he's also questioning his life and what it all means. A brilliant story that I highly recommend.</p>
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<p>Always it was the same, Furlong thought; always they carried mechanically on without pause, to the next job at hand. What would life be like, he wondered, if they were given time to think and reflect over things? Might their lives be different or much the same – or would they just lose the run of themselves? (loc 170)</p>
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<p>‘Where does thinking get us?’ she said. ‘All thinking does is bring you down.’ She was touching the little pearly buttons on her nightdress, agitated. ‘If you want to get on in life, there’s things you have to ignore, so you can keep on.’ (loc 375)</p>
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<p>Was it possible to carry on along through all the years, the decades, through an entire life, without once being brave enough to go against what was there and yet call yourself a Christian, and face yourself in the mirror? (loc 869)</p>
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<p>...[T]he worst that could have happened was also already behind him; the thing not done, which could have been – which he would have had to live with for the rest of his life. (loc 879)</p>
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<h2>A History of What Comes Next</h2>
<p>Mia finds herself in Germany in 1945 helping to rescue Nazi scientists who'd been working on rockets and from there we learn that Mia and her mother are the latest generations of women who've been passing on knowledge for generations and following a set of rules that can never be broken. Unfortunately Mia and her mother do break some of the rules and they pay the price, as they move through the space race, trying to fulfill the mission of the Kibsu; to take them to the stars. I'm intrigued where this story will go in the next installment, as this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/a-history-of-what-comes-next-a-take-them-to-the-stars-novel/9781250262066">first book</a> ends with more questions than answers.</p>
<h2>Matrix</h2>
<p>Marie, a bastard who is half sister to the Queen, finds herself dumped at a convent to become the prioress. She's tall and not the best looking woman, but she soon learns there is a power in her role and she settles in to care for the women of the convent to the best of her ability. As we follow her life, we see a glimpse into a world of women in the midst of the Middle Ages, women who care for each other, protect each other, and accept everyone who comes their way. This <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/matrix-9780593459652/9781594634499">book</a> is on so many 2021 end of year lists—deservedly so—it's a great story.</p>
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<p>Aging is a constant loss; all the things considered essential in youth prove with time that they are not. Skins are shed, and left at the roadside for the new young to pick up and carry on. (loc 2227)</p>
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<p>Foolish creature, old Marie would say to that child. Open your hands and let your life go. It has never been yours to do with what you will. (loc 3124)</p>
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<h2>The White Album</h2>
<p>After Joan Didion died I realized I'd read very little of her work. A novel, her memoirs of growing up in Sacramento, but I still had yet to read others that sat on my library list. Luckily I was able to get this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-white-album/9780374532079">book of essays</a> quickly as all her books now have long hold lists at my local library, and I slowly read through them. While reading, I read a <a href="https://www.nytimes.com/2022/01/20/books/review/reckoning-with-joan-didion-the-archpriestess-of-cool.html">piece</a> in the <em>New York Times</em> that was critical of her, in a way I hadn't seen before. As I continued with the essays I realized that Didion most likely is quite elite, but she's also a great writer with a lifetime of writing that's worth reading.</p>

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				<p>It all started last November when we were clicking around <a href="https://kanopy.com">Kanopy</a> trying to settle on something to watch and found a section called Noirvember. That was it, we added a bunch of titles to the watch list and we've been watching old noir movies ever since.</p>
<p>Not all noir is good noir, that's quickly apparent. And as we've watched we've seen young stars, before they were quite so well known such as Kirk Douglas in the late 40s or early 50s before he was Spartacus. Actors that may not have gone on to any real fame, but we recognized them from other things we've watched; so many were in <em>Star Trek: The Original Series</em>.</p>
<p>We supplemented Kanopy with a few movies from HBO Max, to get some Bogart in our lives. <em>The Maltese Falcon</em> and <em>Casablanca</em> are classics and great films, well worth a watch any time. And we're not done yet, we have a few more on the list to watch.</p>
<p>All this time with old films has been so good for my mind, seeing how people told stories 70-80 years ago. Even if the story isn't great, it's always interesting to see the way in which it's shot and the dialogue delivery has been amazing in several. It's been fun to find some hidden gems as well.</p>

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				<p>Over the course of the past week I've seen the word rest come up several times and each time, in my head, I'm yelling &quot;YES!&quot; I wanted to keep track of this, so I'm writing down these references with some thoughts here.</p>
<p>The first reference was in a <a href="https://aworkinglibrary.com/reading/laziness-does-not-exist">post</a> by Mandy on a book she finished reading, <em>Laziness Does Not Exist</em>, where she doesn't use the word, but it's implied by the fact that laziness isn't a thing we should ever talk about again. I'm now tracking down this book to read it for myself.</p>
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<p>...[T]hat your worth is your productivity, that you cannot trust your own feelings and limits, and that there is always more you should be doing.</p>
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<p>Then yesterday, as I took down Christmas decorations I listened to Krista Tippet <a href="https://onbeing.org/programs/katherine-may-how-wintering-replenishes/">interview</a> Katherine May, the author of <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/wintering-the-power-of-rest-and-retreat-in-difficult-times-9781432887131/9780593189481"><em>Wintering: The Power of Rest in Difficult Times</em></a>. Several things May said in the interview hit me like a ton of bricks, here's two.</p>
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<p>And to see rest and the need for rest as shameful, like rest is something that you only ever get forced into or that it has to be commodified, somehow, too — that rest can only be something that you’ve paid to do: a fancy retreat or a day at spa, or [<em>laughs</em>] whatever it is that you fancy doing.</p>
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<p>And I think we’ve just got that all wrong. Rest should be part of the simple rhythm of our day and of our week and of our year, in different ways. I don’t think we know what rest even is anymore, to be honest. I think we’ve lost track of that.</p>
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<p>And May goes on to talk about what it took for her to rest, getting a doctor to say she needed to do it, but as she says:</p>
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<p>We’ve divorced ourselves from our gut instinct, actually, I think. If I felt I had the right to judge my own wellness, I’d have declared myself ill a year before that, and I would’ve taken a rest much earlier. But I didn’t feel like I had the right to decide it for myself, ultimately.</p>
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<p>How have we gotten to a place where someone saying they need rest is shameful and that we look to our medical system, which in the US is a trash fire, to tell us when we should. I haven't read the book yet, but again, I'm tracking it down to read in the near future.</p>
<p>Finally, I read this <a href="https://www.theatlantic.com/family/archive/2022/01/history-hobbies-america-productivity-leisure/621150/">article</a> about hobbies, which is all about how we are using hobbies to be productive much of the time, rather than what they should be, things we enjoy doing, even if we do them badly.</p>
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<p>The message that a hobby is the best way to spend one’s free time is also a message about what you should value most in life: hard work, achievement, productivity. Those aren’t bad things, but are they really more important than relationships, contemplation, and rest?</p>
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<p>Maybe this is all an affirmation of my own life choices, but to be clear, I can't say how many times I hear people say that the moment they go on vacation they get sick, or that they're now taking the thing they enjoy doing in their free time and turning it into a side hustle, or they start work after a vacation and say they are exhausted. We're not getting enough rest and telling people you're taking a break, of any length, is something people feel ashamed to do, or as is often the case, can't afford to do. This has all got to change.</p>

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			<title>Goodbye 2021</title>
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				<p>2021 is ending; don't worry, this isn't a long retrospective of the year that was, mostly because I've pulled back from sharing as much online and I don't really want to get into details, but 2021 was bumpy, wasn't it? For me it got very bumpy towards the end; don't worry, we're all fine in this house. But as I've navigated the bumps I've thought a lot about what I wish had happened and what I hope will happen in 2022.</p>
<p>This is vague, I know, but I'm honestly only thinking about 2022 terms of what I can do that's in my control. The virus? Very much not in my control. Because of that I'm focusing on our home, my physical and mental well being, and how I can find some community in the midst of the ups and downs of virus case counts and new variants and intractable social problems and (waves my hands all over the place) <em>everything</em>.</p>
<p>If you're reading this, thanks for following along. One goal is to post more here, that started in the last month with doing more photos in this space rather than social media. And I've got some posts rolling around in my head about a few other things. This isn't really a blog about the web anymore, sorry, not sorry. It's a place where I share what I'm comfortable sharing about my life.</p>
<p>Happy New Year friends, my wish is that we all find the thing we need at the exact time we need it to make it through whatever is coming our way.</p>

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			<title>Books Read: December 2021</title>
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				<p>Phew, the year is over, and my gut tells me I read more in 2021 than I've ever read. I could count up the books, but the number doesn't really matter to me and I'm feeling lazy this last week of the year. I've sprinkled in more nonfiction for sure, read more romance as well. The books that stay with me are books either about a dystopian future that people are still finding their way through with some goodness in it, or books about families, particularly found families that lift people up during the trials of day-to-day life. Here's to a lot of reading in 2022, finding the right books at the right time to help me through whatever the year brings my way.</p>
<h2>The Splendid and the Vile</h2>
<p>The subtitle of this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-splendid-and-the-vile-a-saga-of-churchill-family-and-defiance-during-the-blitz/9780385348713">book</a> is &quot;A Story of Churchill, Family, and Defiance During the Blitz&quot; and that's an apt way to put it. I'd never read any of Erik Larson's work before, but he's one of those people with the gift of writing history as a novel, I tore through this one. Larson uses two primary sources more than any other throughout telling the story of Churchill's first year as Prime Minister, the diaries of one of his private secretaries, John Colville, and those of his daughter Mary. Those two first hand accounts, along with other sources, bring the story to life in an amazing way. I really enjoyed this one and will probably read another of his books soon.</p>
<h2>When We Cease to Understand the World</h2>
<p>I'm fairly certain I found this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/when-we-cease-to-understand-the-world-9781666527827/9781681375663">book</a> via one of Obama's book lists, but maybe not? I really didn't know much about it, then I saw it on the New York Times best 10 books of 2021, so figured it would be pretty good. It's an interesting fiction book that uses real historical characters to talk about the inventions and work that changed our world. Each chapter is a different work and some, according to the acknowledgements, are more fictionalized than others. I found it an interesting look at what the various theories did to their creators as well as the world and I'm still thinking about it, which is always the sign of a good book.</p>
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<p>...[T]he sudden realization that it was mathematics—not nuclear weapons, computers, biological warfare or our climate Armageddon—which was changing our world to the point where, in a couple of decades at most, we would simply not be able to grasp what being human really meant. Not that we ever did, he said, but things are getting worse. We can pull atoms apart, peer back at the first light and predict the end of the universe with just a handful of equations, squiggly lines and arcane symbols that normal people cannot fathom, even though they hold sway over their lives. (pp 186-187)</p>
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<h2>Act Your Age, Eve Brown</h2>
<p>A <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/act-your-age-eve-brown/9780062941275">romance</a> to chase the doom and gloom of never being able to understand the world, why not? I didn't love this one, but did finish it because I was intrigued. I find the trope of the rich girl with a lot of insecurities to be a bit old at times, but the fact that this romance highlighted autism was very unexpected. It's light and fun and was a good diversion from the world.</p>
<h2>Curtain: Poirot's Last Case</h2>
<p>Poirot is Poirot until the <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/curtain-poirot-s-last-case/9780062573346">end</a>, pushing Hastings to figure out the case, make the connections, and see what's really happening. As the two old friend reunite in the house where they first met so many years before, Poirot is sick, but insists there will a murder in the coming days and Hastings must help him figure it out. And as the title points out, it's his final case to solve. A fitting ending for a wonderful character.</p>
<h2>Binti: Home</h2>
<p>The <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/binti-the-complete-trilogy/9780756416935">second</a> in the triology, Binti has settled into school but is now traveling home to do the pilgrimage all the women of her people do when they come of age. She's nervous and scared and traveling with her friend who is hated by the majority people in her area of Earth. But even more than that, Binti learns more about where she truly comes from and what that means. This is such a great series and the second book adds on even more depth.</p>
<h2>Josh &amp; Hazel's Guide to Not Dating</h2>
<p>A light hearted <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/josh-and-hazel-s-guide-to-not-dating/9781501165856">romance</a> about two people who become friends and are determined not to date each other and instead set each other up with people they meet. The series of double dates don't go well and, as expected, the two start to have feelings for each other. What I liked most about this book is how Hazel feels so truly comfortable to be herself with Josh, while others find her difficult or embarressing. Reminds me of how I feel with my partner, to be honest. My only nit with this book is that it takes place in Portland, OR and the authors get some details <em>very</em> wrong.</p>
<h2>In the Garden of Beasts</h2>
<p>It's 1933 and a new ambassador to Germany is appointed by FDR, William Dodd. He moves to Berlin with his entire family, which includes his two grown children Martha and Bill Jr. And hekeeps a diary, as does his daughter, of the events they witness over that year and what they see happening as Hitler solidifies power. Erik Larson has written a fantastic <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/in-the-garden-of-beasts-love-terror-and-an-american-family-in-hitler-s-berlin/9780307408853">book</a> that is also quite frightening when you read it as a bit of a view into what can happen, given the times we're currently living in. It's a time where Hitler and his close advisors are starting to test the limits, what can they get away with and what will push other countries to rebuke them. Unfortunately, as Dodd sees and understands, there are no consequences for Hitler's actions and so he continues to act in despicable ways. There's a lesson here for our current times, when you allow people to get away with it, when there is no punishment for authoritarian tendencies, they will only push further.</p>
<h2>Binti: The Night Masquerade</h2>
<p>The final book in the Binti triology was the best of the series, where Binti continues to come into who she is while at the same time balancing the forces of the world in which she lives. The book picks up right where the last one left off and we find Binti struggling to figure out how to maintain the peace she helped broker in the first book. But also Binti starts to figure out that who she truly is and she's amazing.</p>
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<p>Deep down a tiny, tiny voice in me had wondered if something were wrong with me, if my spirit was that of a man's, not a woman's, because the Night Masquerade never showed itself to girls or women. Even back then I had changed things, and I didn't even know it. When I should have reveled in this gift, instead, I'd seen myself as broken. But couldn't you be broken and still bring change? (p 149)</p>
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<h2>The Rose Code</h2>
<p>Another Kate Quinn <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-rose-code/9780062943477">novel</a>, this time centered on Bletchley Park and the codebreakers that worked there throughout World War II. Of course, throughout the book real life people come and go, Alan Turing, Winston Churchill, Prince Philip, but the book focuses on three women, all of whom are trying to attain some goal via their work. Mab who desperately wants to rise out of the poverty she was born into. Osla who's looking to be taken seriously and as more than a &quot;silly deb.&quot; And Beth who everyone thought was slow but who's brain works differently and ends up being brilliant at the work they do at Blethchley. I flew through this one, it's well paced and the story itself is intriguing, I wasn't quite sure where it would end up, a sign of a good story.</p>
<h2>Meditations from the Mat</h2>
<p>This is a <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/meditations-from-the-mat-daily-reflections-on-the-path-of-yoga/9780385721547">book</a> I read over the course of the entire year, reading each day's small meditation before I did my asana yoga. Rolf Gates goes through the philosophy of yoga throughout the year, taking you through the eight limbs, pranayama, and meditation in a way that was easy to digest and I found so helpful. I especially enjoyed his pranayama section as I've been getting more and more into breathwork this year.</p>

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			<title>Books Read: November 2021</title>
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				<p>Another month done and only one more month to go in 2021, hard to believe in some ways, but in others I'm very ready for this year to be done. This month I read what may turn out to be my favorite novel of the year, finished a comic series, and tried a few books that have gotten some press to see what I think. I didn't love everything I read, but it all entertained or informed me in some way.</p>
<h2>The Plot</h2>
<p>This is a very popular <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-plot-9781432888183/9781250790767">book</a> and I waited quite a while to get it from the library but I thought it was just OK. A struggling writer teaches in order to make ends meet and as he does he learns about an amazing plot from a student. Fast forward and we see what happens with that plot and so much more. There are twists and turns, some of which I saw coming and some of which I didn't, but in the end both the main characters were kinda awful people, so I didn't really care what happened to them in the end.</p>
<h2>A Conjuring of Light</h2>
<p>The <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/a-conjuring-of-light/9780765387479">final book</a> in the <em>Shades of Magic</em> series and while it felt a bit like two books in one, it was very good and wrapped up the series well. I wasn't too sure about this series when I started it, book one is the weakest of the three, so I'm glad I stuck with it. We continue to follow Lila and Kell as they fight some truly evil magic, but we also learn even more about many of the lesser characters. A very satisfying conclusion to this fantasy series.</p>
<h2>Ascender Volume 3</h2>
<p>I absolutely love the art in this series, the style of drawing is amazing. In this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/ascender-volume-3-the-digital-mage/9781534317260">volume</a> we start to come back around to story lines from the <em>Descender</em> series and the links start to become more obvious as young Mila meets some old friends of her Dad's and the curmudgeonly captain continues to help her on her quest.</p>
<h2>A Gentleman in Moscow</h2>
<p>Since we're getting towards the end of the year, I'm feeling OK saying that this is probably my favorite <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/a-gentleman-in-moscow/9780143110439">novel</a> of 2021. I had no idea when I started the book exactly where it was going to go, and where I thought it was going to go about 50-75 pages in wasn't at all where it went. It's a lovely story about thriving in unusual circumstances and found family.</p>
<h2>Ascender Volume 4</h2>
<p>And the series is done, I don't want to spoil it by saying too much, but the <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/ascender-volume-4-star-seed/9781534319226">ending</a> was quite satisfying. I really enjoyed both <em>Descender</em> and this series and love the artwork in these stories.</p>
<h2>The House on Mango Street</h2>
<p>I heard Sandra Cisneros interviewed on the <em>On Being</em> podcast and was intrigued by this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-house-on-mango-street-9780739322796/9780679734772">book</a> and how many people love it. Now that I've read it, I can see why. It's an interesting book where each chapter is a vignette almost, showing you different characters and asepects of Esperanza's life on Mango Street. She wants to get away, but the street and its community is central to her childhood.</p>

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			<title>Books Read: October 2021</title>
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				<p>What a month of books, books, books. The weather changed and got cooler and rainy, which we desperately need so I'm not complaining, but it meant more time indoors reading. Plus my baseball team lost in the playoffs so that freed up time. Books never cease to amaze me and I've been reading a lot of very different things lately, but each, in their own way, come at me at the right time and place.</p>
<h2>A Court of Wings and Ruin</h2>
<p>The <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/a-court-of-wings-and-ruin-9781619635203/9781635575606">third book</a> in the series, this one did what I feared would happen since the series has been popular, they stopped editing the author. The overarching plot of the book is great and it's what kept me going, but I think it could've been tightened up quite a bit so it wasn't dragged down by overly descriptive passages. That being said, it's a great plot, I still love the characters, and I'll be reading the fourth book.</p>
<h2>Beach Read</h2>
<p>I cleansed my reading palette after a lot of war and darkness in the above book by reading a <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/beach-read/9781984806734">romance</a> that's very popular. Emily Henry does a great job of making a funny book that I could relate to on several levels and I sped through it in a day. I laughed a lot, which I've found to be the key to romance novels that I end up really liking. We follow a novelist with writer's block who's also dealing with the death of her father as she goes to a beach house on Lake Michigan to try and write in time for a deadline. Of course there is a meet cute and the story goes from there.</p>
<h2>That Thing Around Your Neck</h2>
<p>I've read <em>Americanah</em> by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie, but not much else so I wanted to read some more of her work and happened upon this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-thing-around-your-neck/9780307455918">short story collection</a>. The stories bounce back and forth from taking place in Africa and the US as we follow different characters in <em>very</em> different circumstances, but as usual I learned a lot about how life is on both sides of the Atlantic for people.</p>
<h2>Binti</h2>
<p>A short young adult <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/binti/9780765385253">novella</a> by Nnedi Okorafor was a fascinating story about relationships between species and how peace can or can't be forged. Binti is the first of her people to leave their planet and head off to a very renowned university to study. Tragedy occurs on the way and she's left to try and figure out not only a way to survive, but how to communicate and interact with a species very different from her own.</p>
<h2>Court of Silver Flames</h2>
<p>The final <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/a-court-of-silver-flames/9781681196282">book</a> out on the series I've been reading and while it was a good overall story, once again I really felt like it could've been tightened up quite a bit. This book focuses on the sister of the main character of the first books of the series and I liked her character a lot and the story of her figuring out who she is now that she's no longer human, but I ended up skimming a lot because the writing got so bogged down.</p>
<h2>Rules of Civility</h2>
<p>I discovered Amor Towles via reading reviews of his latest book that came out this year and since that's a long hold at the library, I instead read <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/rules-of-civility/9780143121169">his first book</a>. I loved this book. The story really resonated with me deeply and the writing is absolutely fantastic, it was one of those books where I stopped and read sentences a few times over because they were so well written. We follow Katey Kontent as she reflects on the year 1938 which changes her life and she tells the story of the people of that year who played key roles as she figures out where she's going in life. In many ways this book felt like it was written many years ago, not in 2012.</p>
<h2>Seek You</h2>
<p>I wasn't quite sure what to expect in a <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/seek-you-a-journey-through-american-loneliness/9781524748067">graphic novel</a> on loneliness, but my curiousity pushed me to check it out. It's a really interesting mix of the author's experiences, friends anecdotes, and a deep dive into research on the topic. Some of it is hard to read, to be sure, but I really enjoyed the fact that there's so much we don't know about loneliness and that it's a hard topic to truly understand. I also loved the graphic style and the way in which that added an extra punch to many of the points made.</p>
<h2>Four Thousand Weeks</h2>
<p>I've never read a <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/four-thousand-weeks-time-management-for-mortals/9780374159122">book</a> on time management or productivity, but I've been a subscriber to Oliver Burkeman's newsletter for a while and was intrigued by his ideas so I decided to read the book. What was really fascinating was how much of what Burkeman talked about was putting into words the way I've lived the last several years. We aren't going to get everything done, so learning to leave things undone is the key. But I also appreciated the way in which he talked about hobbies and rest. Our culture is obsessed with being busy, to the point of utter ridiculousness and Burkeman shows this quite clearly.</p>
<h2>Gathering of Shadows</h2>
<p>This is <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/a-gathering-of-shadows-9780765376473/9780765376480">book two</a> in the Shades of Magic series and like most good trilogies it ends on a cliffhanger and a moment of darkness. Lila has made her way aboard a ship, become part of the crew, and is sailing with her captain as he also teaches her about magic. When they return to London for a type of Olympics of magic, Lila and Kell both weave deceptions as they try desperately to find freedom and happiness. It's a well done middle book, and now of course I can't wait to read the final installment.</p>

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			<title>Books Read: September 2021</title>
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				<p>The smoke cleared finally this month so I didn't read quite as much, but I still read. With sunny warm days and cool nights, I'm making the most of the nice weather before winter sets in.</p>
<h2>A Darker Shade of Magic</h2>
<p>I read about this on a recommendation thread and it was posed as a <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/a-darker-shade-of-magic/9780765376466">book</a> about magic but for adults. I would say that's true, but the author does write a lot of YA and I could tell. We follow a magician who is able to move between various versions of London taking messages back and forth between the leaders of them. One is the London we know from the 18th Century, the other two are where magic still lives and is used regularly. We follow Kell as he gets tangled up in the desire by White London to rule over Red London, where he lives. And along the way someone from Gray London ends up helping him unexpectedly.</p>
<h2>A Court of Mist and Fury</h2>
<p>The <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/a-court-of-mist-and-fury/9781635575583">second book</a> in the Crown of Thorns and Roses, this book kept me riveted as much as the first one and ended on a complete cliff hanger so now I'm waiting for the third book from the library. We follow Feyre as she tries to recover from what happened and what she had to do in the first book. And we learn a lot more about what is happening and the war that is to come. This series is hard for me to describe, but I love it.</p>
<h2>The Plague of Doves</h2>
<p>After I read <em>The Night Watchman</em> by Louise Erdrich I put a lot of her other books on my list and this month read <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-plague-of-doves-9780062277732/9780060515133"><em>The Plague of Doves</em></a>. It's not as good as <em>The Night Watchman</em> but it was an interesting read. We follow a few characters and learn about a town, a reservation, and a secret from a previous generation and how it affected all of them. It's a slow build, but that didn't bother me as the characters were so interesting and I wanted to see where they went and what happened next.</p>
<h2>Hercule Poirot: The Complete Short Stories</h2>
<p>I've been chipping away at this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/hercule-poirot-the-complete-short-stories/9780062251671">short story collection</a> for a couple of years now and finished it this month. If you're a fan of the TV series with David Suchet, this book is a great compliment as you read through every single short story and can see the way in which they were adapted for TV. But mostly I liked being able to read a story and finish it quickly. It was a great break inbetween heavier reads and I do love Poirot.</p>

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			<title>Books Read: August 2021</title>
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				<p>I tore through so many books this month, it's been a tough month with a lot of smoke in the air from wildfires and our little county is a major hotspot for covid right now, so we are mostly at home again. But, as is usual for me, books brought me comfort, took me away from the present, and helped me learn about this world of ours and myself.</p>
<h2>A Court of Thorns and Roses</h2>
<p>A fanatasy/romance/adventure book all wrapped into one that I ended up having a hard time putting down. Sarah J. Maas <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/a-court-of-thorns-and-roses/9781635575569">creates a world</a> divided, quite literally, in two with the fairy world and the world of humans. Feyre, aftering killing a wolf, crosses over into the fairy world and discovers a world she doesn't quite understand, but also a world that intrigues her. There is a battle taking place and coming to its head for control of the fairy lands and unbeknowst to her Feyre is caught up in the middle of it. As she learns more about what's really going on, she encounters love, near death experiences, and wisdom. I can't wait to read the next book in the series.</p>
<h2>Only Killers and Thieves</h2>
<p>A <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/only-killers-and-thieves/9780062690982">classic western</a> but it's set in the outback of Australia, specifically Queensland in 1894. Tommy and his brother Billy live with their family on a ranch, but the drought has made the year very difficult. They're plunged into adulthood after tragedy strikes and as they're swept up in the agenda of the rich neighbor, Tommy begins to doubt and question what's happened and what is happening. This was a hard read, I skipped an entire chapter because I didn't want to read the violence and killing of Aboriginal people. There is a second book out now and I'm still debating if I'll read it or not.</p>
<h2>The Alice Network</h2>
<p>Kate Quinn writes a lot of historical fiction and I recently discovered her through the Bookshop emails. This <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-alice-network/9780062654199">particular story</a> is told through two women, Charlotte who is 19 in 1947 and looking for her cousin who disappeared during World War II in France and Eve who is helping her but also you hear her story of being a spy in World War I when she is in her late teens. Eve's story grabbed me from the jump and it kept me going throughout the book. But the connections and twists made both stories all the better by the end. And the fact that some of the characters were based on real people from a real World War I spy network made this book even better in my mind. I'll be reading more of Quinn's work.</p>
<h2>A Ride on the Red Mare's Back</h2>
<p>This is a picture book, but I was curious about it because of the author, Ursula Le Guin. It's also based on Dalarna Horses, a Swedish thing which is something I know well. I love that Le Guin traveled to Sweden, was given a horse, bought a smaller one for herself, and her granddaughter loved them so she went on to write a story about them. It's a really beautiful book, with amazing illustrations, paintings really. Unfortunately I think it's out of print, but check to see if you can get it at your library, which is how I read it.</p>
<h2>The Loyal League Series</h2>
<p>A series of romance stories that take place during the Civil War (are you sensing a theme this month of reading historical fiction?) focusing on people living in the South but working as agents for the North. Parts of these stories are well done and the characters drew me in, but other parts I had a harder time suspending my disbelief. But with hot summer weather and smoke in the air, these books gave me respite and for that I'm grateful.</p>
<p>Books read: <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/an-extraordinary-union-an-epic-love-story-of-the-civil-war/9781496707444"><em>An Extraordinary Union</em></a>, <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/a-hope-divided/9781496707468"><em>A Hope Divided</em></a>, and <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/an-unconditional-freedom-an-epic-love-story-of-the-civil-war/9781496707482"><em>An Unconditional Freedom</em></a></p>
<h2>Partners in Crime</h2>
<p>A light and funny <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/partners-in-crime-9780062074362/9780062074362">mystery book</a>, the start of the Tommy and Tuppence series by Agatha Christie, this one often made me laught out loud. The dialogue between the two is fantastic, which kept me reading if I didn't love the structure of the book. It's a great one to be able to pick up and put down as the mysteries are solved in a chapter or two and the overarching storyline is much more in the background.</p>
<h2>Braiding Sweetgrass</h2>
<p>See my <a href="/reading/braiding-sweetgrass/">full review</a>, it was too good for the round up quick review.</p>
<h2>Drunk</h2>
<p>The subtitle of this is <em>How We Sipped, Danced, and Stumbled Our Way to Civilization</em> and I gotta say, <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/drunk-how-we-sipped-danced-and-stumbled-our-way-to-civilization/9780316453387">this book</a> is fascinating. Edward Slingerland sets out to figure out why we drink and what, if any, benefits there are to it. He writes at length about the benefits he sees; bringing a sense of community, socialization, and belonging. He also writes at length about the dangers of alcohol as well, pointing out that the invention of liquor is what really got us in trouble as you could get so drunk so fast. But he clearly believes that the benefits of drinking are, on balance, worth it. He believes in moderation and drinking socially, pointing out that drinking alone or out of habit are two danger zones to avoid.</p>

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				<p>Over the past year I've thought a lot about fire. It's a natural reaction when a fire starts just blocks from your house and takes out parts of two towns near you. I've been reading articles and listening to podcasts and doing the things I can to make sure our house is ready if another fire comes our way.</p>
<p>Last week I finished a podcast series, <a href="https://www.firelinepodcast.org">Fireline</a> which is the best thing I've consumed on the topic by far. During one of the final episodes a firefighter who lost his home in a wildfire, <a href="https://www.firelinepodcast.org/episode-06-part-1-moral-hazard/">said this</a>:</p>
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<p>That line hit me like a ton of bricks. I have very clear memories of being a small child in the crawl space under the stairs with my family and the dogs on leashes as the emergency radio played and tracked severe storms and tornadoes in the area I lived. And at no time was there ever an expectation that the storm would somehow be stopped.</p>
<p>And yet, with fire, because of the history of working hard to stop and put out all wildfires during the 20th century, we all seem to have that expectation. And as I thought about the overall discussion that occurred on that episode and the fires that are currently burning in the southern part of Oregon where I live, it became clear to me that my expectations are out of whack. For the most part, the fires that are in my region of the state started via lightning storms, which means it was all mother nature. Yes, we can debate the way in which climate change and the severe drought are affecting things as well, but these aren't fires that started via humans (such as power lines blowing into trees or a catalytic converter sparking a fire on a remote road); these wildfires are natural and when they intersect with property and human values we label them disasters.</p>
<p>As firefighter Lily Clarke says in the <a href="https://www.firelinepodcast.org/episode-01-suppressed/">first episode</a> of Fireline:</p>
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<p>Fire in itself is not an issue. It is only an issue when it begins to threaten human values.</p>
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<p>I'm now working on accepting and being at peace with where I live, the wildland urban interface, and what that means. The best I can hope for, just as other folks who endure natural disasters such as tornadoes and hurricanes, is to get enough warning to grab the go bags and the other items on our evacuation checklist and get out before the fire hits.</p>

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			<title>Braiding Sweetgrass</title>
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				<p>It's so hard for me to figure out how to talk about this book, it is so many things at once. A primer on the idigenous way of thinking about Earth, a  bit of a primer on science, and a strong statement on what we're doing to this home of ours. Robin Wall Kimmerer's <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/braiding-sweetgrass-3e12996d-ea04-4dd2-b9a9-04cfd82f361f/9781571313560">book</a> is beautiful, filled with wonder, filled with pain, and filled with teachings we all need to hear.</p>
<p>I highlighted quite a bit, which is part of why I wrote a separate review for this read, but it's also because it hit me hard and I've been thinking about it quite a bit since I finished it. Kimmerer is one of the most eloquent writers about the problem we face, which is how do we get ourselves out of the absolute horrible spot we're in with the climate, when taking and possession and money are what we hold dear as a culture.</p>
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<p>I like to imagine that when Skywoman scattered her handful of seeds across Turtle Island, she was sowing sustenance for the body and also for the mind, emotion, and spirit: she was leaving us teachers. The plants can tell us her story; we need to learn to listen. (p 10)</p>
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<p>The market economy story has spread like wildfire, with uneven results for human well-being and devastation for the natural world. But it is just a story we have told ourselves and we are free to tell another, to reclaim the old one. (p 31)</p>
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<p>What would it be like to be raised on gratitude, to speak to the natural world as a member of the democracy of species, to raise a pledge of interdependence? No declarations of political loyalty are required, just a response to a repeated question: “Can we agree to be grateful for all that is given?” (p 112)</p>
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<p>What happens when we truly become native to a place, when we finally make a home? Where are the stories that lead the way? (p 207)</p>
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<p>We are all complicit. We’ve allowed the “market” to define what we value so that the redefined common good seems to depend on profligate lifestyles that enrich the sellers while impoverishing the soul and the earth. (p 307)</p>
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<p>Maybe we’ve all been banished to lonely corners by our obsession with private property. We’ve accepted banishment even from ourselves when we spend our beautiful, utterly singular lives on making more money, to buy more things that feed but never satisfy. (p 308)</p>
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<p>I never thought that night of what I might save from a burning house, but that is the question we all face in a time of climate change. What do you love too much to lose? Who and what will you carry to safety? (p 370)</p>
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<p>I fear that a world made of gifts cannot coexist with a world made of commodities. (p 374)</p>
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<p>Scarcity and plenty are as much qualities of the mind and spirit as they are of the economy. Gratitude plants the seed for abundance. (p 376)</p>
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			<title>Books Read: July 2021</title>
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				<p>I found my groove with reading again this month and it felt really good. I'm not gonna lie, I'm getting a bit angry and upset with the world (or at least it's rising to surface more right now!) and so I've buried myself in books to get away from it all. And memoirs have become increasingly interesting to me, seeing how folks talk about their families, personal story, and life.</p>
<h2>Home Waters</h2>
<p>John Maclean <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/home-waters-a-chronicle-of-family-and-a-river-9781665096386/9780062944597">writes</a> about family, their connection to a certain part of Montana, and his life in relation to having his family fictionalized in a famous story that became a book. His father, Normal Maclean, wrote the story <em>A River Runs Through It</em>, and John gives the background, the true story of his family and his own life. It's not as poetic as his father's story, but it's an unvarnished look at what drove his father and himself and their connection to Montana. It made me think about my family, connections to place, and how we hang on to them or not as we age.</p>
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<p>We fish as a way to communicate with each other, living and dead. We fish to keep a present hold on Montana and to recall the frontier Eden it once was. We fish to compete against each other—living and dead. We fish because it’s the family legacy, a demanding craft handed down from one generation to the next. (loc 2118)</p>
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<p>Memory can and should be more than a bridge to the past. It’s also a way to see yourself as a thread in a broad fabric long in the making. (loc 2192)</p>
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<h2>Crying in H Mart</h2>
<p>While I didn't relate to all of the things in this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/crying-in-h-mart-a-memoir/9780525657743">memoir,</a> it's so beautifully written and can't help but make you think about your relationship with family, your identity and what makes you who you are, and how you hang on to what's important to you. Michelle Zauner writes so beautifully about her mother, her Korean heritage and the struggle to hang on to it after her mother dies, and her own struggle to figure out her place in life as an adult. I tore through this one and I guess I'm on a bit of a memoir kick as this is the second one this month.</p>
<h2>The Dry</h2>
<p>Set in a small town in rural Australia during the second year of a massive drought, <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-dry-9786049796982/9781250105622">Aaron Falk</a> returns to his hometown after 20 years away for the funeral of his best friend growing up, he's supposedly killed his wife and child and himself. Falk, a police detective, is persuaded to investigate the deaths to see if what everyone thinks is true and at the same time he's thinking about the death of a girl he was friends with 20 years previously. The book explores both the current mystery and the one from 20 years ago and Falk works through his own past. I enjoyed this one, but I don't know that reading a book that is about a massive drought while living through one currently and worrying about wildfire was the best idea.</p>
<h2>Homegoing</h2>
<p>An extremely clever construction makes <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/homegoing-9781101971062/9781101971062">this book</a> hard to put down. Two half sisters born in Africa lead very different lives and you follow their descendents through 8 generations to see how their lives had an impact on all family line. Each chapter is a different person and it rotates between to the two lines, following one in Africa and the other in what becomes the United States. Not only was this hard to put down, but the construction clearly and cleverly illustrates all the ways in which the cards were stacked against people in the various times in which they lived.</p>
<h2>Finding Freedom: A Cook's Story; Remaking a Life from Scratch</h2>
<p>I'm not gonna lie, this was a hard <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/finding-freedom-a-cook-s-story-remaking-a-life-from-scratch-9781432885472/9781250312341">book</a> to read at times, but I wanted to see how Erin French picked herself up so I kept reading. It became obvious what was going to happen about a third of the way into the book, but how she talks about food and her story of building up the restaurant kept me in it. I'd love to eat at The Lost Kitchen, but who knows if that will ever happen.</p>
<h2>The Last Bookshop in London</h2>
<p>Madeline Martin tells the <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-last-bookshop-in-london-a-novel-of-world-war-ii/9781335284808">story</a> of Grace Bennett who moves to London right as World War II is starting and we follow her through the worst of the blitz as she works at a small bookshop. In truth, this book is an ode to reading and stories and books; as we watch Grace fall in love with reading. It's not a great book itself, but it was entertaining and I'll admit the ending got me a bit teary eyed.</p>
<h2>Ascender Vol 1 and 2</h2>
<p>It's been a good long while since I lost myself in a comic and I'd forgotten how much I love the genre. <em>Ascender</em> picks up well after <em>Descender</em>, after robots have been banished and a weird magic/cult has taken over the worlds. But we see the same characters, older, trying to adjust to living in this new reality and then, of course, some of our favorite robots return. It's a great story with <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/ascender-volume-1/9781534313484">volume 1</a> doing a good job of explaning where things are at while keeping the action going and I'm on the edge now as <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/ascender-volume-2-the-dead-sea/9781534315938">volume 2</a> ended on a huge cliffhanger, so I'm going to reading it very soon.</p>

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			<title>Books Read: June 2021</title>
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				<p>June flew by for me and I ended up not reading quite as much as usual because I was out in the garden, watching baseball, and sewing quite a bit. But I managed to finish some things and they are all wildly different in good ways. I'm currently on a non fiction binge, with several books in on deck that are memoirs or histories.</p>
<h2>Piranesi</h2>
<p>I'm honestly not sure how to write about this book. Susanna Clarke has written an <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/piranesi-9781432886578/9781635575637">ethereal book</a> about a man trapped in a house where the bottom floors are ocean and there is only one other person he ever interacts with, The Other. It's a book about what is real and what isn't, imprisonment, persuasion, and so much more. I enjoyed it, but it's also a puzzle that I'll have to reread and I may not even fully understand it after several readings.</p>
<h2>State of Wonder</h2>
<p>The only other Ann Patchett novel I've read, I absolutely loved. This <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/state-of-wonder/9780062049810">book</a> was so completely different as we follow Marina Singh who travels to Brazil looking for information on her collegue at a pharmaceutical company who died there. I enjoyed it, but didn't love it. Singh's looking to find out what's going on with a drug that's being researched that would allow women to give birth well into their 70s in the middle of the Amazon jungle by a small group of people; she finds much more than she anticipates.</p>
<h2>One Summer: America 1927</h2>
<p>I've read a few of Bill Bryson's other books, but decided to read <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/one-summer-america-1927/9780767919418">this one</a> since it's summer and I'd heard some folks talk about how the 1920s and the 2020s could be similar. Bryson takes you through the entire summer and all the events of 1927, there were many. Babe Ruth's run of home runs, Charles Lindbergh crossed the Atlantic, Al Capone's empire in Chicago, and much more. But along the way Bryson also tells you the background to the events and, in many cases, what happens after 1927. I picked up a lot of small stories that were interesting and can also see how this decade we're currently in may very well have many similarities to 100 years ago.</p>

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			<title>Books Read: May 2021</title>
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				<p>Another month of reading and where I live we are heading for true summer weather this week, which means a lot of heat. That also means I'll be hunkering down with books and loving it. I've spent a lot of time reading on the back patio as lizards run around and birds are flying over head and it's been glorious.</p>
<h2>Animal, Vegetable, Junk</h2>
<p>Other than cooking many of is recipes, I've never read a Mark Bittman book, but <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/animal-vegetable-junk-a-history-of-food-from-sustainable-to-suicidal-9780358394839/9781328974624">this one</a> caught my eye when I read a review of it. Bittman goes through the history of food production, in a very high level quick overview, and then dives more deeply into the way we changed agriculture and food production in the 20th century. He's fairly angry about the way in which the system rewards the wrong things and uses this book to show how the system is working now. I was disappointed in how little time was spent in the book helping the individual understand what they can, the final chapter and conclusion go into it but not in much depth. This left me overall feeling overwhelmed about systemic practices but very unsure how I can do much other than try and buy my food from local producers and put pressure on my state and federal reps to try and change it.</p>
<h2>The Blind Assassin</h2>
<p>Margaret Atwood never disappoints me, <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-blind-assassin/9780385720953">this book</a> is a really interesting construction where there is a novel inside the novel. While I figured out some of the twists and turns early, the beautiful writing and the way in which Iris Chase Griffen is so open about her life, her flaws, and her regrets, made this a wonderful read. As is normal for me with Atwood books, it takes a bit to get into it but then I flew through it, not wanting to put it down. As Iris tells the story of her life, interspersed with media accounts of it and chapters of the novel inside the novel, you see how difficult it is to ever really know what the consequences of our choices will be. It's a tragic story, but I also found underlying elements of beauty and hope.</p>
<h2>One by One</h2>
<p>Ruth Ware takes the general concept of Agatha Christie's <em>And Then There Were None</em> and puts a modern spin on it in <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/one-by-one-9781432882839/9781501188817">this thriller</a> set in the Alps. A hot start up brings the employees plus one shareholder (also an ex employee) to the Alps to discuss if they should take a buy out offer or not. Those ten are joined in the book by the two employees of the company that rents out the chalet. The book goes back and forth from the perspective of two characters, seeing everything through their eyes. Of course everything starts well, but then it all starts to go very wrong, starting with one of the company cofounders disappearing and then an avalanche which strands them all at the chalet. Ware writes a very fast paced book and while I felt like I had an inkling of what was going to happen, the ending went further than I ever suspected.</p>
<h2>The Consequences of Fear</h2>
<p>The latest <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-consequences-of-fear-a-maisie-dobbs-novel/9780062868022">Maisie Dobbs book</a>, where we're in 1941 and the war is ongoing and Maisie takes a case from a young, poor, message runner who believes he saw a murder. The story revolves around fear and how it can be a good thing to keep people safe or it can go too far and incapacitate a person. And of course we continue to see how Maisie, her family, and her friends are coping and doing throughout the war. I enjoyed this latest installment, it felt like it was setting up to be the final book perhaps, but maybe not.</p>
<h2>Four Lost Cities</h2>
<p>Annalee Newitz researches and writes about <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/four-lost-cities-a-secret-history-of-the-urban-age-9781665115629/9780393652666">four different cities</a> that people abandoned for one reason or another and delves deeply into why the cities were formed in the first place, what their culture was like, and finally why they ended up being left. She does all this in a compact book that is a quick and fascinating read. I thoroughly enjoyed this especially as she's thinking throughout what this history means for us today, how will we deal with cities with climate change and catastrophes that are changing the way we live.</p>
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<p>You might say that people went from identifying with each other to identifying with a special, shared location. (loc 454)</p>
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<p>“Abundance” meant having enough food to ward off total starvation, and shelter that was relatively stable. At Çatalhöyük, there was no opportunity to become rich, at least in the way we understand it today. (loc 750)</p>
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<p>That’s the difficult part about studying cities: they are not static entities that remain the same over time before suddenly disappearing into nothingness. At any given moment, they are a composite of many social groups, who likely view city life in different ways. And those social groups also change over time, altering the physical and symbolic fabric of the city to reflect their worldviews. Until they stop wanting to live together. (loc 821)</p>
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<p>In the soft apocalypse at Angkor, we can see directly what happens when political instability meets climate catastrophe. It looks chillingly similar to what cities are enduring in the contemporary world. But in the dramatic history of the Khmer culture’s coalescence and survival, we can see something equally powerful: human resilience in the face of profound hardship. (loc 1899)</p>
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<p>For Cahokians, abandonment was not a failure or loss, but instead part of the expected urban life cycle. (loc 2742)</p>
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<p>Perhaps a better way to look at cities is as ecosystems whose components are always transforming, and whose boundaries expand and contract naturally. Maybe all our cities are in constant cycles of centralization and dispersal; or, if we think with our galaxy brains, they are temporary stops on the long road of human public history. (loc 3154)</p>
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<h2>The Glass Hotel</h2>
<p>I've read another book of Emily St. John Mandel, <em>Station Eleven</em>, and while I thought it was good, I didn't absolutely love it like so many others I know. But i saw <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-glass-hotel-9780525562948/9780525521143"><em>The Glass Hotel</em></a> on so many lists that I decided to give it a go and I'm <em>very</em> glad I did. It's fantastic. Mandel weaves a story of several people who are in and around the orbit of a corrupt man running a Ponzi scheme who also have connections to a hotel on a remote island in British Columbia. It's haunting at times, but also deals so well with the ideas of loss and illusion and money that I had a hard time putting it down.</p>

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			<title>Garden Notes—May</title>
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				<p>In some ways the month of May has flown by and in other ways it's dragged. But the garden has kept me on my toes as the weather has been a rollercoaster. This year I've been watching <em>Gardner's World</em> on Brit Box and even though I don't have the same weather as most of the UK, I've learned <em>a lot</em> about how to deal with cold snaps and the tools available to help me out and that came in very handy in the last week.</p>
<p>I've left most of the side and front yard alone, keeping an eye on the new Shasta Daisies I've put in to replace a few things that weren't doing well, but other than that, things are humming along. Some ground cover that I have no idea what it is (one of the things you deal with when buying a house), has bloomed all it's delicate yellow blooms and it brightens things up so much. I have it in three spots around the house and absolutely love it. It's evergreen, so a nice shade of green the rest of the year. Also crickets love it and hide out in and chirp away.</p>
<p>I planted out my pots with an assortment of annuals that looked good to me and they are doing well. I usually buy whatever I find at the nursery and this year was no different. Some trailers and other things for color. I've also put in Cosmos in a few spots near the patio for some butterfly attraction and color. I still want to fill in more with some other things there, but it's coming along. Annuals for color are usually hit and miss for me, so we'll see what happens this year.</p>
<p>The veggie garden is well and truly under way now. Just this morning I harvested my first three sugar snap peas, and there are more on the vines and lots of flowers, so I think these are gonna do well. We have cooler nights through mid June, so there is still time for them to do their thing before it gets too hot.</p>
<p>I put in four tomato plants and two cucumber plants about a week and a half ago. Last Sunday we were at close to 90F and everything was loving it. I bought a pony pack of 6 basil but didn't put them in the beds right away and I was still taking my pepper plants in every night. I checked the weather for the week and welp, immediately decided that the basil and peppers would stay inside at night for another week and bought garden blankets for the tomatoes and cukes.</p>
<p>By Thursday morning we had snow on tops of the foothills around us. I covered the tomatoes and cukes on Tuesday evening and added another layer for overnight all week long, leaving them covered during the day since the highs were only around 60F. I'm happy to report it worked! I just took the covers off for the first time since Tuesday night this morning and three of the tomaotes have flowers and the cukes look to be in good shape. My first time successfully keeping things alive in a cold snap!</p>
<p>Within the next week I'll plant out the basil in the remaining raised bed space and I'll put the peppers in the two pots I've got ready for them. I am, however, going to be making a garden blanket cover for the peppers since we'll still be chilly at night for the next few weeks, most likely, and they really like the heat so will benefit from some insulation at night.</p>
<p>I'll admit, I'm now researching cold frames and cloches, looking for easy ways to pop something on a young plant to keep it safe overnight during times like these. Living where I do and with the weather changing so much, I think I need to be ready for anything.</p>

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			<title>Books Read: April 2021</title>
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				<p>Much of my reading this month has been guided by what's available right away at the library, either digitally or physical books. I've worked my way through my list that way because I've used up all my digital holds waiting for some books that will take a long time for me to get but that I really want to read. (I belong to a small system so I only get six holds at a time.) So this month is an eclectic mix, but it's turned out that I'm reading the right books at the right time.</p>
<h2>Weather</h2>
<p>Jenny Offill's <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/weather-9780345806901/9780385351102">second short novel</a> captivated me from the start. There is something about the clipped way she writes, moving quickly from scene to scene that draws me in quickly and makes it hard for me to put the book down. This time her main character is a married woman with a young child who's also trying very hard to take care of her brother who struggles with addiction. The thoughts on marriage, family, and work are abundant in this short read and I loved it.</p>
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<p>I spot my favorite shirt, my least depressing underwear. I go into the bedroom and change into them. Now I am a brand-new person. (p 13)</p>
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<p>Young person worry: What if nothing I do matters? Old person worry: What if everything I do does? (p 21)</p>
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<p>“These people long for immortality but can’t wait ten minutes for a cup of coffee,” she says. (p 39)</p>
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<p>Funny how when you’re married all you want is to be anonymous to each other again, but when you’re anonymous all you want is to be married and reading together in bed. (p 167)</p>
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<h2>A Desolation Called Peace</h2>
<p>The <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/a-desolation-called-peace/9781250186461">sequal</a> to <em>A Memory Called Empire</em> finds Dzmare back at her station and trying to make sense of what she experienced in the previous book. She's also trying to navigate the politics of the station and keep herself safe from the Councilor for Heritage. At the same time Teixcalaan is waging war with an enemy that doesn't seem to speak and can make itself invisible. Martine continues with the themes of memory in this book but she also gets into collectivism, what makes a human, and how do we all live together and maintain some sense of our cultures. It's fascinating and the last third was very hard to put down.</p>
<h2>The Power of Ritual</h2>
<p>I'm <em>fairly</em> certain I found out about <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-power-of-ritual-turning-everyday-activities-into-soulful-practices-9780062881823/9780062881816">this book</a> because Anne Helen Peterson interviewed Casper ter Kuile in one of her newsletters and I was intrigued. The subtitle of the book is <em>Turning Everyday Activities into Soulful Practices</em> and ter Kuile goes about talking about how we find connection and the sacred today, especially since so many aren't affiliated with any religious instituation or organization. This book made me a think a lot about how I spend my days and, more importantly, how I <em>want</em> to spend my days. It's a quick read, but there is a lot of depth about how we form community that I'm still chewing on. I've found it hard to become part of a community of folks <em>where I live</em> for years now and this book has given me ideas on ways to possibly change that.</p>
<h2>Boom Town</h2>
<p>Sam Anderson weaves <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/boom-town-the-fantastical-saga-of-oklahoma-city-its-chaotic-founding-its-purloined-basketball-team-and-the-dream-of-becomin/9780804137331">the story</a> of the 2012-2013 Oklahoma City Thunder NBA season with the history of Oklahoma City in a really funny, delightful book. I know, I know, sports! I'm not a huge NBA person, but this book was so well written, so funny, and incorporated so many interesting details that it sucked me right in. Anderson finds a way to take that NBA season and keep it suspenseful, I was on the edge of my seat wondering what would happen. I learned a ton about the land run and the founding of the city, and more. I highly recommend this one, it's great.</p>
<h2>The Monogram Murders</h2>
<p>Sophie Hannah got permission from Agatha Christie's estate to write a new <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-monogram-murders-a-new-hercule-poirot-mystery/9780062297228">Hercule Poirot mystery</a>! I had to read it. I went into this wondering if Hannah could pull it off, but I've gotta say, she did a great job. The same quirks were there and, on top of that, it was a great mystery.</p>
<h2>The Proposal</h2>
<p>This is the <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-proposal-9780399587689/9780399587689">second</a> Jasmine Guillory romance that I've read and it was a bit disappointing. I'm not sure why I finished it other than thae fact that I'm a finisher. It wasn't nearly as well written as the first book and I think this will be my last of hers.</p>

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			<title>Remote work, burnout, or something else</title>
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				<p>Normally I would put both of these in my links category, but I had more I wanted to say about Mandy's latest newsletters, so here we are in notes. Mandy's been taking what's being talked about in the media and turning it on its head a bit, putting words to the feelings I've been having about a lot of the things I've been reading about.</p>
<p>A few weeks ago in her <a href="https://tinyletter.com/aworkinglibrary/letters/remote-to-who-a-working-letter">newsletter</a> she talked about remote working and what's happening now as we slowly look to the future after everyone has been working from home for so long.</p>
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<p>I am not actually a fan of the “remote” terminology: I prefer to talk of teams as being either co-located or distributed, as those terms describe the team not the individual. After all, no one is remote all by themselves. But if we’re going to be stuck with that term, and it seems like we are, then we have to ask—remote to who? Perhaps you are remote to your colleagues, but you can be deeply embedded in your local community at the same time. <strong>Whereas in a co-located environment, you are embedded in your workplace and <em>remote to your neighbors</em>.</strong></p>
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<p>I love that last thought, that you're remote from your community when you are in the office. And as we've seen in the last year, many folks have realized that where they live isn't necessarily where they want to live and folks who are working in distributed teams are able to work as they live in the cities and areas they want to live in. I've worked with folks who are in rural areas, large cities, and everything in between but it doesn't matter at all, we've all been where we want to be and are able to be productive members of the team.</p>
<p>As she says:</p>
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<p><strong>Because if remote work gives us anything at all, it gives us the chance to root ourselves in a place that isn’t the workplace.</strong> It gives us the chance to really live in whatever place we have chosen to live—to live as neighbors and caretakers and organizers, to stop hoarding all of our creative and intellectual capacity for our employers and instead turn some of it towards building real political power in our communities.</p>
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<p>That's the real rub, isn't it? We can live where we want, make our lives what we want them to be, have work be one aspect that isn't necessarily the largest, therefore we aren't as attached to our jobs, are we? And that just may be what so many folks are afraid of that are in positions of power in these companies. When the rest of your life gets better, starts to matter more, you are less willing to put up with a job that isn't fulfilling and interesting; at least that's been my experience.</p>
<p>But then Mandy sent out another <a href="https://buttondown.email/aworkinglibrary/archive/burned-a-working-letter/">newsletter</a> this morning and she did it again! This time on the subject of burnout:</p>
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<p>I keep looking at the word “burnout” and feeling like something about it is off. It’s an image of being out of fuel, a tank run dry, a fire with a few rapidly cooling embers and no kindling in sight. But that may not be sufficient for what this past year feels like. <strong>Maybe we’re not burned <em>out</em> but burned <em>up</em>.</strong> The former assumes we’re empty vessels simply in need of refueling while the latter asks what might rise from this heap of ash at our feet. However we come out of this year, it’s not going to look like what came before.</p>
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<p>Many folks are quitting jobs, making changes, and some are taking extended breaks if they can afford it and it isn't necessarily because we're burned out, it may also be because we're disillusioned and tired and want to figure out how to do something that is useful instead of just meeting the demands of a roadmap or the OKRs. And framing all of this as a whim or burnout after a year where so many have had their lives changed forever feels shallow and wrong.</p>

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			<title>Garden Notes—April</title>
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				<p>I've been spending a lot of time in the garden over the last few weeks. This will be my third year in this house and I'm finally turning my attention to the rest of the yard and not just focusing on the backyard. I'm also trying to make sure the things I've done in the backyard are surviving. For my own remembering I decided to write some posts on this, hopefully monthly through the normal growing season, so I can look back on what worked and what didn't.</p>
<p>We're already very warm here, today it's supposed to be at or above 80 degrees, and it's dry. That's not good. I'm crossing everything that we get a bit of rain before the true dry summer weather hits, but we'll see what happens. The entire west needs it. This is the earliest I've used the irrigation system, which is worrying.</p>
<p>I've worked a lot on the west side of our yard, it gets very hot sun and the heat bouncing back off the house as well, so it's a difficult area. This year I took out 5 bushes that weren't doing well and I don't think they were a good fit and I've put in two shasta daisies for some blooms as they're drought tolerant and deer resistant. We don't spend time on that side of the house and I don't want to put a lot of water into plants there, so I'm making it look OK, but it won't be a showstopper. With water shortages becoming the new normal, I'm trying to be mindful.</p>
<p>In the backyard I've replaced two bushes and added in two more lilacs. The ones we put in two years ago are doing very well and will be blooming soon, and since I love the spring color I added more. I also have two packs of sunflower seeds, it's a bit too early to put them in, but we're gonna have even more sunflowers this summer and I'm excited, I love them.</p>
<p>I've got snap peas coming up in one of the raised beds. I got them in a bit late, but they seem to be doing fine. Even though we're having warm days, our nights are still quite cool which they like, so here's hoping we have some snap peas in the coming months. In really exciting news, yesterday I saw blossoms on my, still tiny, blueberry bushes. I put these in last year as very small starts and they are doing well and survived the winter, so we may get a few berries this summer!</p>
<p>My plan for the veggie garden is done and I have seeds for mini cukes that I can plant next month and tomato and pepper starts are due to arrive next month as well. I learned a lot last year, so hopefully things will go better this year, especially with the peppers.</p>
<p>The final big project that is <em>almost</em> done is getting all the bark mulch away from the house before fire season. I only have two more spots left! Fingers crossed we don't have a fire, but I'm doing my part to &quot;harden our home&quot; as they call it. Fire protection has been the talk of my neighborhood this year after last fall and I wish I believed that doing a lot of things would help, but I honestly feel like it's a bit of luck of the draw, we'll see.</p>
<p>Next month will be getting veggies and herbs in and annuals in pots for more color around the patio. Then I can relax and go into maintenance mode.</p>

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			<title>Books Read: March 2021</title>
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				<p>This month has been strange and odd for me in ways that I'm not quite ready to talk about fully anywhere, but I did read and at times it was what brought some sense of direction to my current situation.</p>
<h2>A Memory Called Empire</h2>
<p>Mahit Dzmare arrives to be the ambassador to Teixcalaan from her small space station and finds that not only has her predecessor most likely been murdered, but the memory machine that was implanted in her brain with his memories to help her isn't working. That's the beginning of this fast paced story that is about memory, death, individualism, and diplomacy. I highly recommend this one, I'm on the hold list for the second book and am hoping it's just as good. <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/a-memory-called-empire/9781250186447">Arkady Martine</a> creates a fascinating world, but also the exploration of individuals and memory is fascinating.</p>
<h2>Castle in the Clouds</h2>
<p>A bit of a change and a lighter read, a <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/a-castle-in-the-clouds/9781250300195">YA novel</a> that follows Sophie Spark as she spends her first holiday season away from home working as an intern in an old hotel in the Swiss Alps. Of course there is intrigue and a bit of a mystery and many characters that both work in the hotel and are staying in it. I relate to Sophie as I think I was much like her at that age and found the story charming.</p>
<h2>The Night Watchman</h2>
<p>This is the first Louise Erdrich <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-night-watchman/9780062671189">book</a> I've read, but it certainly won't be the last. Centered on the story of a tribe's fight to not be terminated by the federal government, we follow as they write letters, talk to people, and pull out all they can in order to remain a tribe in the eyes of the government. It's a story about something I knew nothing about and it's engaging and became a page turner as I worried and wondered what would happen with each character.</p>
<h2>The Wedding Date</h2>
<p>A romance, of all things, but a community I belong to regularly talks about what they're reading and a long thread on romances put me onto this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-wedding-date-9780399587665/9780399587665">book</a> and I decided to give it a try. There are things that almost always annoy me about these books (why aren't people more upfront and talking about more before the end?), but it was entertaining and kept me engaged. A nice light read that I needed.</p>
<h2>Crudo</h2>
<p>I've read quite a bit of Olivia Laing's nonfiction, but this was my first venture into her <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/crudo/9780393357417">fiction</a>. I'll be honest, I didn't really like the book for the first two thirds, but something about the end brought it around for me and I saw the beginning in a very different light. If you still have a hard time with the events of 2017, best not read this one, because it's very much of its time, but in some ways you watch Kathy grow and change and truly fall in love and during that process she becomes a much more likable character.</p>
<h2>Exhalation</h2>
<p>This book of <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/exhalation/9781101972083">short stories</a> by Ted Chiang surprised me. I think it got on my list through an end of year best books list, and while some of the stories weren't as compelling to me, there were three that were absolutely amazing. Chiang is challening notions of memory, what does it mean to be alive, choices we make as humans and how we make them, creation myths, and what exactly is technology and what isn't. Even better, he has some notes on where the ideas for the stories came from which I found equally fascinating.</p>
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<p>We don’t normally think of it as such, but writing is a technology, which means that a literate person is someone whose thought processes are technologically mediated. We became cognitive cyborgs as soon as we became fluent readers, and the consequences of that were profound. (p 226)</p>
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<p>My species probably won’t be here for much longer; it’s likely that we’ll die before our time and join the Great Silence. But before we go, we are sending a message to humanity. We just hope the telescope at Arecibo will enable them to hear it. The message is this: You be good. I love you. (p 236)</p>
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			<title>Books Read: February 2021</title>
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				<p>Still reading, at times so focused on books I tend to forget other things. It may be, along with yoga, the thing keeping me sane and going as the days get longer and I wait for spring.</p>
<h2>Second Nature: A Gardener's Education</h2>
<p>This is an older Michael Pollan book, with a series of essays broken up by the seasons where he talks about becoming a gardener. It's quite lovely, especially if you have an inclination towards gardening yourself. But the ideas he has around wilderness vs nature vs gardens are really interesting and he also does a good job of tearing down some of what many garden books hold dear. I myself believe that the true successful garden comes from enjoying the process as well as the outcome, which I think Pollan would agree with.</p>
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<p>But the discovery that time and chance hold sway even in nature can also be liberating. Because contingency is an invitation to participate in history. Human choice is unnatural only if nature is deterministic; human change is unnatural only if she is changeless in our absence. If the future of Cathedral Pines is up for grabs, if its history will always be the product of myriad chance events, then why shouldn't we also claim our place among all those deciding factors? For aren't we also one of nature's contingencies? And if our cigarette butts and Norway maples and acid rain are going to shape the future of this place, then why not also our hopes and desires? (p. 184)</p>
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<p>Because of his experience, the gardener is not likely to conclude from the fact that some intervention in nature is unavoidable, therefore &quot;anything goes.&quot; This is precisely where his skill and interesting lie: in determing what does and does not go in a particular place. How much is too much? What suits this land? How can we get what we want here while nature goes about getting what she wants? He has no doubt that good answers to these questions can be found. (p 194)</p>
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<p>The gardener knows how tenuous his control of nature is, especially here in North America, where the land can seem so ungovernable. So why then does he go to such lengths to hide this fact, to clothe such recalcitrant land in so much lawn? Maybe it's time we began to acknowledge, perhaps even evoke, that tenuousness in the design of our gardens. By leaving some parts wild, and by making a viture of their juxtapositions with more formal areas, we can introduce into our gardens a measure of doubt about our control of nature, and that might be a good thing to do. ... It may be in the margins of our gardens that we can discover fresh ways to bring out aesthetics and our ethics about the land into some meaningful alignment. (p. 255)</p>
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<h2>The Warmth of Other Suns</h2>
<p>I don't even know how to talk about this book that justifies how good it is. Isabel Wilkerson's <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-warmth-of-other-suns-the-epic-story-of-america-s-great-migration/9780679763888">work</a> is one of the best history books I've read in quite some time. The way in which she weaves the story of the three people into larger themes and views of the wider migration is quite well done. I also got sucked in to the people's stories so fully and completely it felt like reading a novel. This is a part of history that I knew about superficially but this book opened up the story and showed my how much I didn't know and I'm grateful to Wilkerson for writing it.</p>
<h2>The Darkest Evening</h2>
<p>A new <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-darkest-evening-a-vera-stanhope-novel-9781250204509/9781250204509">Vera mystery</a>! It took a while to get from the library but I devoured it in a few days, it's that good. I love the main character with all her flaws, but Cleeves also wove a great mystery. Small village life in England and all the secrets and stories that lay underneath the surface came to the forefront. It's well done and kept me completely captivated.</p>
<h2>Akata Warrior</h2>
<p>The <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/akata-warrior/9780142425855">sequel</a> to <em>Akata Witch</em> where we see more of Sunny's story, along with her group of friends. Nnedi Okorafor weaves a suspensful story as Sunny is once again called upon to do the extraordinary with help from her friends, all while keeping her hidden life hidden from her family. Okorafor tells a great story and if you enjoy YA that centers around magic and secondary worlds connected to our own, this is a great series to read.</p>
<h2>Funny Weather: Art in an Emergency</h2>
<p>Olivia Laing has a way of writing about artists that draws me in and makes me want to go on a deep dive to find out more about them and in this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/funny-weather-art-in-an-emergency/9781324005704">collection</a> of essays and columns she talks about art more than anything else. She's introduced me to more interesting stories and also found interesting tidbits about artists I already knew something about than any other writer I've read to date. This book is a great one for dipping in and out of, mostly short pieces but many of them pack quite a punch.</p>

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			<title>Books Read: January 2021</title>
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				<p>Welp, this month felt a bit like 2020 wanted to hang on and continue its vibe, but I feel like at the end of the month there is hope. And the books I read helped me get through the worst of it, as always I'm thankfulf or writers.</p>
<h2>Exit West</h2>
<p>I read this because some friends recently talked about it, it'd been on my list, it was available at the library, so I went for it. It was unexpectedly beautiful and haunting. <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/exit-west/9780735212206">Mohsin Hamid</a> creates a world where doors start leading people to other parts of the world and in so doing, people start moving quickly to look for better lives. We follow the romance of a couple as their country falls into civil war and they walk through a door. It brings up so many things about immigration, refugees, how does a country handle it when the influx can't be stopped? How does a country have compassion? And how do the people on the move adapt and make it work so quickly? I'll be thinking about this one for a long while.</p>
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<p>...by making the promise he demanded she make she was in a sense killing him, but that is the way of things, for when we migrate, we murder from our lives those we leave behind. (loc 877)</p>
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<p>She wondered whether she and Saeed had done anything by moving, whether the faces and buildings had changed but the basic reality of their predicament had not. (loc 1419)</p>
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<h2>Jack</h2>
<p>I love Marilynne Robinson's writing and have read most of her fiction and this <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/jack-9781432883362/9780374279301">latest book</a> is beautiful.  Robinson tells Jack's story completely through his thoughts, and yet you still know what Della is thinking and wanting. The hints we've seen of Jack in her previous books make him out to be the black sheep, which he definitely is, but he's also looking for a reason to keep going and straighten up and he finds that in Della. They both fight long odds and ultimately we don't know for certain what happens to them, but I like to believe they find a life together in the end.</p>
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<p>So many things made no sense to him at all, which is one reason he had kept to himself so many years. He regretted this as often as he realized he had learned next to nothing about the world. (p. 199)</p>
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<h2>Casino Royale</h2>
<p>I live with a James Bond fan and he's a fan of the original novels and owns them and I'd never read any of them, so while I was waiting on holds from the library, I picked this one up. It's the <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/casino-royale/9781612185439">first Bond novel</a> Ian Fleming wrote and if you've seen the movie, the screenwriters did an excellent job of taking a 1950s spy story and updating it for modern times, the story at times is dead on to the novel. It was an enjoyable escape and the Bond character of the books is nothing like the character in most of the movies, I'd say the film made from this book gets the closest to what Fleming wrote.</p>
<h2>A Stranger in Olondria</h2>
<p><a href="https://aworkinglibrary.com/">Mandy</a> read this one and I was intrigued and my library had it sitting on the shelves so I got it and am so glad I did. Sofia Samatar <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/a-stranger-in-olondria/9781931520768">creates a world</a> that is intriguing and I wish I could read more stories set in it. Jevick travels to continue his father's business in Olondria and finds himself caught up in a religious war. As he struggles to survive, Jevick faces a difficult choice and in the process he's changed forever.</p>
<h2>Akata Witch</h2>
<p>Nnedi Okorafor tells a <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/akata-witch/9780142420911">tale</a> of teenagers fighting evil and learning about the magical powers they posess. It takes place in Nigeria and the teens are all Leopard People, learning to use Juju and as they form a group of four, realizing that their elders believe they're meant to hold off a great evil that is happening. Sunny is an American who was born to Nigerian parents and they moved back to Nigeria when she was 9. And she's albino. She's already an outcast but then she becomes friends with others who introduce her to who she really is. This is a delightful story and I can't wait to read the follow up.</p>
<h2>The Dutch House</h2>
<p>I've never read an Ann Patchett novel, which is somewhat surprising to me now that I've read <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-dutch-house/9780062963673"><em>The Dutch House</em></a> as it's such an amazing story and I can't wait to read more of her writing. The story follows two siblings, Maeve and Danny, as they grow up and live their lives, but never far from the story is the unique house their father bought for their mother. The house ends up being the reason so many things happen, it's the part of their story that they can never shake even after they stop living their themselves. Parts of this novel hit me like a ton of bricks, mostly dues to things from my own story, which is one reason I loved it so much. But it also got me thinking about the places in our lives and how much they can shape so much of our lives before we even fully understand it.</p>

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			<title>Books Read: December 2020</title>
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				<p>Another month and another round of books read. In many ways I can't believe the year is over and in others I'm so glad that it's over, what a strange, sad, and difficult year. Books definitely got me through it and I did a bit of a round up and read over 60 books this year which may be a record for me. This month, with two weeks of vacation at the end, I've been reading more than ever.</p>
<h2>Jonathan Strange &amp; Mr. Norrell</h2>
<p>I honestly had no idea what to expect when I started <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/jonathan-strange-mr-norrell/9781635576726">this novel</a>, but everyone was talking about Susanna Clarke as she'd just published her second novel. As you follow Mr. Norrell in his quest to bring magic back to England and he takes on a student, Jonathan Strange, you see what can happen when you open the way to that magic. Set during the wars with Napoleon, Strange and Norrell open up the way to magic in England and use it in the wars, but don't realize exactly what they've done until it's already under way.</p>
<h2>The Memory of Babel</h2>
<p>The <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-memory-of-babel-book-three-of-the-mirror-visitor-quartet-9781609456139/9781609456139">third book</a> in the Mirror Visitor triology is not bad, but it's not nearly as thrilling as the two previous books. Christelle Dabos continues the story of Thorn and Ophelia, this time taking us to another ark where there is no crime and life is perfect (on the surface at least). But of course, life can never really be perfect. Ophelia is trying to find Thorn and also continue on the mystery of who or what is controlling the universe. I'm fascinated that this has ended up being a story about God, so many YA series like this are about that and it's interesting that yet again someone is telling a story to explain God, which becomes much more real and apparent in this installment.</p>
<h2>The American Agent</h2>
<p>Another <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/the-american-agent-a-maisie-dobbs-novel-9780062436672/9780062436672">Maisie Dobbs mystery</a> and with it I've caught up to the author, this is the latest that's been published. We find Maisie at the beginning of The Blitz in 1940 London investigating the death of an American reporter who's trying to become one of Murrow's boys. It's a good mystery, I didn't see the end coming, and it's the usual escape for me, I enjoy the character quite a bit.</p>
<h2>Olive Kitteridge</h2>
<p>There is something about Elizabeth Strout's writing that makes me think so much about my grandmother and about the place in which I grew up, even though she's never written about Minnesota. In <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/olive-kitteridge/9780812971835">Olive Kitteridge</a> Strout has written so beautifully about a town, a woman who's part of that town through and through and how she interacts and lives with her community. Olive isn't a nice woman or a perfect woman, but she is a fascinating character that had echoes of people I've known. As I read I often felt melancholy, the stories aren't necessarily uplifting, but they are so true to life and families and how utterly difficult relationships are.</p>
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<p>What young people didn’t know, she thought, lying down beside this man, his hand on her shoulder, her arm; oh, what young people did not know. They did not know that lumpy, aged, and wrinkled bodies were as needy as their own young, firm ones, that love was not to be tossed away carelessly, as if it were a tart on a platter with others that got passed around again. No, if love was available, one chose it, or didn’t choose it. And if her platter had been full with the goodness of Henry and she had found it burdensome, had flicked it off crumbs at a time, it was because she had not known what one should know: that day after day was unconsciously squandered. (page 270)</p>
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<h2>Dept. of Speculation</h2>
<p>I've had this book on my list for a long time and when I needed something to read while waiting for my turn in the hold line for some other books, I decided to give it a try. It's a quick read, beautifully written, and I loved it. Jenny Offill tells a <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/dept-of-speculation/9780345806871">love story</a> with the most important bits at the forefront, skipping around the thoughts of a woman who, if I'm being honest, felt somewhat like she and I had the same type of mind. And now I'm off to read all of Offill's work.</p>
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<p>The reason to have a home is to keep certain people in and everyone else out. A home has a perimeter. But sometimes our perimeter was breached by neighbors, by Girl Scouts, by Jehovah’s Witnesses. I never liked to hear the doorbell ring. None of the people I liked ever turned up that way. (page 18)</p>
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<p>But now it seems possible that the truth about getting older is that there are fewer and fewer things to make fun of until finally there is nothing you are sure you will never be. (page 114)</p>
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<h2>Pachinko</h2>
<p>This <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/pachinko-national-book-award-finalist/9781455563920">epic story</a> of a Korean family living in Japan throughout the 20th Century is beautiful and so well written by Min Jin Lee. I'll admit to complete ignorance on the history of Korea and Japan and what happened between the two countries and that so many Koreans lived in Japan. Lee tells their story through that of one family, a woman marries a pastor and they immigrate to Japan and the story follows her and her family throughout the next 70 years. It sucked me in from the beginning and I had a hard time putting it down.</p>

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			<title>Goodbye 2020</title>
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				<p>Wow, we made it, here we are, it's the end of the year. I can't help but think of how many <em>haven't</em> made it to this point and it breaks my heart. What an incredibly hard year and one that I think most of us are glad to see the end of for so many reasons. I've been thinking, as the year draws to a close, how did I make it? What things helped me get through this year? I thought I'd talk about them for my own memory, but also because maybe they can help you get through the end of this long winter, the light is coming back, the vaccine is going in people's arms, we have to hold on a bit longer and I'm focusing my energy on doing just that.</p>
<h2>Yoga</h2>
<p>I know, this feels very cliche to say, especially since I'm going to talk about <a href="https://www.nytimes.com/2020/11/25/magazine/yoga-adriene-mishler.html">Adriene</a> as so many have been doing over the past few months, but I started 2020 by doing the <a href="https://www.youtube.com/user/yogawithadriene">Yoga with Adriene</a> 30 days of yoga and then I kept going. I was on the mat pretty much every day in 2020.</p>
<p>Now, to be sure, I didn't always do the entire practice, I didn't always move a lot, some days I laid down with a bolster under my spine to open my chest and took 10 deep breaths and called it good. Adriene, with her monthly calendars, made it easy to not have to think, I could hit play and do it. And so I stopped and took a moment, at the very least, every day. In this of all years I'm feeling proud of that. It saved me many days and gave me the energy to log on to start my work day or do whatever I needed to do that day or it gave me the peace I needed to rest and sleep at night.</p>
<h2>Books</h2>
<p>I know some folks had a hard time with reading during all of this, focus at times was difficult for me as well so I shifted what I was reading to something that required less focus. I read the adventures of the Moomins, finished off Wilson's run of writing Ms. Marvel, read mysteries that were entertaining and light, and when I felt ready started to add back in books that required more attention and focus. I found being online hard this year, especially this past fall, so books became my safe place. I've written about all of them, if you have any interest, over in my <a href="/reading">reading section</a>.</p>
<h2>Newsletters and RSS</h2>
<p>I lumped these two together because I think in some ways they are very similar. Many folks started or kept going with newsletters this year and I think I subscribed to quite a few more. I find that both of these formats are people thinking more deeply and writing longer form and I enjoy that so much more than what's going on in social media.</p>
<p>I subscribed to <a href="https://drawinglinks.substack.com/">Drawing Links</a> by Edith Zimmerman and it's great, I love her drawing style and the fact that she often writes about every day things, pointing out the interesting in what she sees around her. I discovered <a href="https://chrislatray.substack.com/">Chris La Tray</a>, a poet, writer, bookstore owner, and I've so enjoyed his thinking. Matt Thomas reads the entire Sunday New York Times and emails out the most <a href="http://tinyletter.com/mattthomas">interesting links</a> and I've loved this! I find that I miss paging through a paper because it's so much easier to discover the hidden gems in the sections and this newsletter feels like he's finding those for me. Finally, one of my coworkers writes a super thoughtful <a href="https://twitter.us18.list-manage.com/subscribe?u=c87332e437f3b29dfd595a0e8&amp;id=47a439520f">newsletter</a> about creativity and writing and it's been wonderful. There are more, I could keep going, but these are the latest gems I've found that make their way to my inbox.</p>
<p>As for RSS, a few folks continued to impress me and I'm grateful to all those who have their own sites and write regularly. <a href="https://www.robinrendle.com/">Robin Rendle</a> is a favorite with his thoughtful and often times thought provoking writing, <a href="https://colly.com/">Simon Collison's stream</a> is lovely, and <a href="https://kottke.org/">Kottke</a> keeps on keeping on (I think this maybe be the feed I've been subscribed to the longest that has kept going the entire time). I'm grateful to these folks for bringing their thoughts, ideas, and interesting links into my life as they often times got me to think about things other than the horrible news of the day.</p>
<p>This year was hard, harder than I ever thought it would be when it started. So many people experienced a worse year than me, they're ending it without someone they love, it's been heartbreaking to watch all the suffering. I'm more grateful than I can say that we're nearing the end of the tunnel, maybe, but I also wanted to take a minute and give some shout outs to those that have truly made my year better. Take care friends and hopefully we all have a better 2021.</p>

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			<title>Books Read: November 2020</title>
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				<p>Not too much read this month because I read a trilogy and am now in the middle of a long novel. And, to be honest, I've been reading a lot of articles online, thinking through them while knitting, and so books took a bit of a back seat. So it goes with the ebb and flow of life. I also spent a lot of time with the Oankali and Lilith, slowly reading, thinking, savoring.</p>
<h2>Persepolis 2: The Story of a Return</h2>
<p>I really enjoyed the first volume of this series and the <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/persepolis-2-the-story-of-a-return/9780375714665">second</a> picks up right where it leaves off. Satrapi is in Vienna and trying to figure out how she fits in there, not knowing German, but speaking English and French while attending a French school. But what I enjoyed most was the story of her return to Iran. How hard it was to go back, to figure out how she fit in, and how much her parents wanted her to suceed in life, but also to leave Iran. Her clear eyed writing about how a dictatorship uses fear to oppress and how to overcome those things also felt very relevant for now.</p>
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<p>The more time passed, the more I became conscious of the contrast between the official representation of my country and the real life of the people, the one that went on behind the walls. (p. 150)</p>
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<h2>Lilith's Brood</h2>
<p>I've read <a href="/reading/the-xenogenesis-series/">this trilogy</a> already, back in 2016, but so much of it stuck with me that I decided to read it again, to see what I think now, to see how it hits me now. I'm not a big rereader, but this may be the start of something for me.</p>
<p>And all I can think about with <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/lilith-s-brood/9780446676106">this book</a>, reading it during this weird, awful, strange year, is about the contradiction that Butler highlights about humans. The Oankali reach Earth when a horrible war has occurred, making it uninhabitable. They save humans, heal them, put them into a stasis of sorts, save Earth and make it habitable again, and then slowly wake up humans to populate it with them. They see a contradiction in humans, great intelligence and this need for hierarchy that causes them to destroy themselves.</p>
<p>I found in this read through the book, as Lilith makes her way through working with the Oankali and sharing life with them while so many humans run from them and move back towards grasping onto the old way of life, that it resonated so much. So much of what's happened this year has been a struggle between collectivism and individualism (as Anne Helen Peterson has been writing about) and the contradiction that the Oankali see in humans is part of why I think that struggle exists. I'll be reading this one again or at least picking it up to read certain passages soon.</p>
<h2>And Then There Were None</h2>
<p>I've watched a lot of Agatha Christie stories that were made into shows (all of Poirot and quite a bit of Marple) but I haven't read as much. The premise of <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/and-then-there-were-none/9780062073488">this book</a>, all ten people end up dead, intrigued me. How in the world did she do it? This is one of the most clever mysteries I've ever read and it kept me on my toes. A perfect bit of light reading to balance all of the election stress.</p>

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			<title>It&#39;s all high school</title>
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			<updated>2020-11-24T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>A few weeks ago I finished reading <em>Lilith's Brood</em> for the second time. And in that book there is the concept of the contradiction. If you don't know the story, an alien species finds Earth when it's just had a planet destroying war. The Oankali rescue humans, but note that they contain a contradiction: incredible intelligence along with a need for hierarchy that causes them to eventually destroy themselves.</p>
<p>With that rattling around in my brain last week I read <a href="https://www.theatlantic.com/ideas/archive/2020/11/why-obama-fears-for-our-democracy/617087/">the interview in The Atlantic</a> with President Obama to talk about the first volume of his memoirs. There's a lot in that interview that made me think but at the very end he says this:</p>
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<p>It’s interesting. You’re in high school and you see all the cliques and bullying and unfairness and superficiality, and you think, Once I’m grown up I won’t have to deal with that anymore. And then you get to the state legislature and you see all the nonsense and stupidity and pettiness. And then you get to Congress and then you get to the G20, and at each level you have this expectation that things are going to be more refined, more sophisticated, more thoughtful, rigorous, selfless, and it turns out it’s all still like high school. Human dynamics are surprisingly constant.</p>
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<p>I started to see several different situations I'm in through the lens of both of these concepts and it's helped immensely. At work and in my community, we're all just playing out the same patterns we've been playing out for most of our lives and reacting to them in the same ways. Is this healthy? Not necessarily, but it helps me to understand it, see it clearly, and name it as I make my way through life.</p>

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			<title>Books Read: October 2020</title>
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			<updated>2020-10-31T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Another month, more books. I didn't feel like I read very much and then I opened up this post in progress and realized I'd read more than I thought. I'm deep into reading <em>Lilith's Brood</em> right now, and I'll have much to say on the second time through—so much in there that I didn't see the first time through. That's likely to be a theme for me in the coming months, reading books again, especially onces that keep coming up in my thoughts and conversations with friends.</p>
<h2>In This Grave Hour</h2>
<p>Yup, another <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/in-this-grave-hour-a-maisie-dobbs-novel/9780062436627">Maisie Dobbs mystery</a>, but they've turned a corner again. The story once again had a good balance between the mystery and Maisie's life. And I have to say it's amazing how it's now set in the very beginnings of World War II, but still weaving in the reverbations of World War I. The mystery here was a good one and the bits about Maisie's life were also interesting. I think I have two more of these and then I've read all of them.</p>
<h2>A Book of Common Prayer</h2>
<p>I've only read one Joan Didion book, a memoir of her family in California, so this was the first fiction of hers I've read. It's a <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/a-book-of-common-prayer/9780679754862">short novel</a> set in a fake Central or South American country where a woman who married into the ruling family meets and I guess I'd say befriends a woman who travels there. They're both American, but that's where the similarities end. Grace understands the country, the family she's part of, and how things work. Charlotte is getting over a series of traumatic events in her life and doesn't quite see the reality of what's going on. It's not a bad book, but I'm still puzzling over some of it.</p>
<h2>Essays of E.B. White</h2>
<p>These <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/essays-of-e-b-white/9780060932237">essays</a> were written between the late 1930s and the 1970s on all variety of topics, many of them appeared in <em>The New Yorker</em> and they're delightful and thought provoking and amazingly relevant for now. White's grouped them by rough categories and the section on his farm is really shines, you can see exactly how he got the ideas and wrote this most famous children's book. Other sections cover New York and writing and vacations and diversions, but a theme throughout them all is a search for quiet, good writing and reading, and keen observations of the world.</p>
<h2>Persepolis: The Story of a Childhood</h2>
<p>I've known about <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/persepolis-the-story-of-a-childhood/9780375714573">this book</a> for quite some time and finally looked for it at the library, it was checked out, but they had a free copy to give me! I love libraries so much. The stark black and white drawings in this novel bring home the stark realities of the changing Iran the author is experiencing in her childhood. It's well written and lovely even as the story gets more and more difficult. I can't wait to read the second volume.</p>
<h2>Vesper Flights</h2>
<p>More essays, this time centered around nature and how we can learn from the creatures living in the world around us. Helen MacDonald's <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/vesper-flights/9780802128812">writing</a> is beautiful, the title essay is amazing, but honestly all of them are good. She writes about community, weather, animals, and with deep observations and interesting juxtapositions, making me wish I could write and observe nearly half as well.</p>
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<p>No weather so perfectly conjures a sense of foreboding, of anticipation and waiting, as the eerie stillness that often occurs before the first fat drops of rain, when storm light makes luminous all roofs and fields and strands black silhouettes of trees on the horizon. This is the storm as expectation. As solution about to be offered. Or all hell about to break loose. And as the weeks of this summer draw on, I can’t help but think that this is the weather we are all now made of. All of us waiting. Waiting for news. Waiting for Brexit to hit us. Waiting for the next revelation about the Trump administration. Waiting for hope, stranded in that strange light that stills our hearts before the storm of history. (loc 2306)</p>
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<p>When I was a child I’d assumed animals were just like me. Later I thought I could escape myself by pretending I was an animal. Both were founded on the same mistake. For the deepest lesson animals have taught me is how easily and unconsciously we see other lives as mirrors of our own. (loc 3445)</p>
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<p>...[T]he more I’ve learned about animals the more I’ve come to think there might not be only one right way to express care, to feel allegiance, a love for place, a way of moving through the world. (loc 3478)</p>
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<h2>To Die But Once</h2>
<p>Another <a href="https://bookshop.org/books/to-die-but-once-a-maisie-dobbs-novel/9780062436641">Maisie Dobbs</a> and we're getting deeper into World War II, with war declared and people joining up. As usual the case still has a connection to World War I, but the connection is much less the focus on the mystery. The balance in this book between what's going on with Maisie's family and friends and the mystery was well done. Another good TV book, as I call these, and it took my mind off of the horribleness of the world.</p>
 <p class="small">You may have noticed that I've switched from Powells links to Bookshop links. I'm torn on this, I don't do affiliate links, so I'm not making any money of off these, but I thought I'd spread the love around. I'll probably rotate between the two from now on.</p>

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			<title>Working from home</title>
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				<p>I've been working remotely for almost nine years. Over that time it's been a combination of working for myself and working full time for a company, but the day-to-day of remote work has been the same in both of these situations.</p>
<p>As the years have gone by I've had a hard time expressing why it is that I love working from home. Then, this year, most people started doing it too, although what they're experiencing isn't really working remotely, they're working from home during a pandemic, while care giving, worrying about health and safety, and generally feeling much more stressed out. 2020 isn't normal in any way, so the remote working experience for most isn't what it normally is.</p>
<p>But previous to this year, when I've met people I inevitably get asked about work and talk about working remotely and they ask how I like it. Most people balk at the idea, they don't think they could do it. Many worry about separation issues or feeling like their house is the office. I realize that it doesn't work for everyone, but many of the things people worry about are assumptions because they've never done it.</p>
<p>Last weekend Anne Helen Petersen's <a href="https://annehelen.substack.com/p/youre-still-not-working-from-home">weekly newsletter</a> arrived and she talked at length about her new project, a book on working remotely that she's writing with her partner. And for the first time ever I saw in words the perfect expression of why I love working remotely:</p>
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<p>We don’t work from home because work is what matters most. We work from home to free ourselves to focus on what actually does.</p>
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<p>Working from home has put work into a smaller, better place in my life, rather than at the center of it. That's hard to believe for many, but the separation issue hasn't been an issue for me; I work my hours, get my work done, and I walk away from the computer. I feel lucky because when life things happen, I can take care of them. I've used time when I'm at home working to get the chores of life done, such as laundry, throwing a meal in the crockpot, and more which means that when I'm not working, I'm able to do the things I really love to do. So much of the administration of life is easier because I have more time without the commute and can have things going while I'm working.</p>
<p>Over the past 5 years I've started up new hobbies, spent more time outside, and generally felt more relaxed and more focused. That's because work has taken up a smaller and smaller role in my life and because it's remote, I look for things in my community to meet social needs.</p>
<p>Again, it needs to be said clearly: 2020 is not a normal year to be working remotely and I don't have any care giving responsibilities, so my life is quite different from many others I know. But I've found a freedom that only working from home can give me and I'd be loathe to ever give it up.</p>

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			<title>Books Read: September 2020</title>
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				<p>A slow reading month for me, <em>Death's End</em> took me a bit as the book was long but also a bit hard to follow at times. The fires near us and the bad smoke we had for over a week also made it hard to focus on books. But reading Solnit after all of that was a balm for my soul.</p>
<h2>Death's End</h2>
<p>The <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/deaths-end-9780765386632">final book</a> in the Remembrance of Earth's Past trilogy is an incredibly ambitious book. Liu attempts to tie everything together and wrap it up and well, I don't know that he quite manages it. The first half of the book was really well done, but then it felt like there was too much left to sort out and as he rushed to get it done in a reasonable length, the story got a bit out of control to me. I didn't love the way this series wrapped up, but there are <em>a lot</em> of interesting ideas in it that are still rolling around in my head.</p>
<h2>A Paradise Built in Hell</h2>
<p>Rebecca Solnit takes a look at a <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/paradise-built-in-hell-the-extraordinary-communities-that-arise-in-disaster-9780143118077">series of disasters</a> that occurred over the course of roughly 100 years in the US and Canada, specifically looking at how common people and those in power react to them. While many folks I talked to about the book as I was reading it thought it would be a difficult read, I found it incredilby comforting and hopeful. From the San Francisco earthquake in 1906 to Katrina in 2005, Solnit show repeatedly how people in the midst of these situations react well, helping each other, taking care of their communities. It's when those in power, or as Solnit calls them, the elite, panic and beging to enforce rules and beuracracy that things can start to go downhill. This is especially true, with utterly distastrous results, during the aftermath of Katrina.</p>
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<p>&quot;The instant formal government is abolished, society begins to act. A general association takes place, and common interest produces common security. So far is it from being true, as has been pretended, that the abolition of any formal government is the dissolution of society, that it acts by a contrary impulse, and brings the latter the closer together.” It’s a revolutionary statement: government represses the potential strength of civil society. (loc 1657)</p>
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<p>What difference would it make if we were blasé about property and passionate about human life? (loc 4004)</p>
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<h2>The Looking Glass War</h2>
<p>It probably seems an odd move to go from disasters to a <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/looking-glass-war-9780143122593">1960s era cold war spy novel</a>, but they complemented themselves quite well. And as is typical with Le Carré, the machinations of the Circus and Control, while behind the scenes, are pulling the strings of the story. This is the story of a separate ministry attempting to bring back the glory of World War II and the operations they ran in that time. A quick read and very much in the vein of other Le Carré books, this one spoke to me about the times we live in and how much we haven't seemed to figure much out since the 1960s.</p>

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			<title>The smoke</title>
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			<updated>2020-09-18T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>In 2018, our first summer in southern Oregon, we had smoke from wildfires in the area for roughly a month. Not gonna lie, it was a tough month, but we made it through and decided to stay here.</p>
<p>As I write this, it's the first time our air outside has been even close to good, we're in the moderate range, after eight days of being at unhealthy or above, five of those days we were in the hazardous range. It was the toughest eight days I've experienced in a long time.</p>
<p>That month in 2018 the air fluctuated, a lot. At times we were moderate or in the unhealthy for sensitive groups range, at others we would move up into unhealthy and even occasionally we dipped towards the high very unhealthy range. Because of that fluctuation, we got mini breaks. Since I don't have any respiratory issues, I'll take a walk, even when it's unhealthy for sensitive groups if I really need to get out of the house. And the dips into the higher ranges were for shorter periods of time.</p>
<p>But last weekend our air was hazardous for five straight days. If you haven't ever been in air like that, it's very hard to explain. Visibility was at about a quarter of a mile and you needed your lights on when driving during the day. No matter how much we sealed up the house, it still got in; even in a new, tightly built house. The amount of anxiety and helplessness was something I've never felt before. And with the pandemic, there was no where we could go as we aren't comfortable in indoor spaces with other people. It compounded an already bad situation.</p>
<p>I know wildfire will be part of our lives going forward, there is way too much work to do to fix the wrongs of the past and deal with all that climate change is doing, but I hope that serious smoke events like last weekend aren't frequent. When the smoke does come back, we're now prepared; this morning a large air purifier got delivered and another smaller one is on the way next week.</p>

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			<title>Tuesday</title>
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			<updated>2020-09-12T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>This past Tuesday started out normal enough. I woke up groggy after the long weekend, and I tried to figure out what was what after a not-great-night's sleep. Tuesday was hot and dry, and we had a wicked wind coming out of the SSE that was gusting up to 50 mph. It had started overnight and I spent my first 15 minutes awake taking apart patio furniture and moving it so it wouldn't blow all over the yard.</p>
<p>We live in southern Oregon, it's a dry region that has only gotten drier in the past decades and that has meant fires. In the two years we've been here, we've dealt with the smoke, but we've never had to deal with the actual threat of fire. That all changed on Tuesday.</p>
<p>At about 11:15 am or so I was working in my office and suddenly heard sirens. Living in a small town you hear them, but not too often, but this was a lot of sirens and they were all quite close by. I got up, went out the front door, and saw plumes of smoke that looked to be a few blocks away. I went back in the house and my phone dinged with a text message from the city. There was a fire, and it started very close by.</p>
<p>I went back outside and the sirens continued to roll past. Now the county sheriff's office and the wildfire trucks were heading towards the fire. Another text message: part of the neighborhood was being evacuated, but not where I was exactly. The Interstate was closed down in both directions, and the state highway was also closed. More text messages came. I stood with my neighbors on my driveway.</p>
<p>Within an hour we were told by the county to evacuate, and we started to pack up the car with the things we deemed vital. After the Camp Fire in California, the fire that ravaged Paradise, CA, we had taken steps to prepare for a quick evacuation, and on Tuesday I was so grateful that we did. I got the folder with the vital papers in it, and we started to go down the list and pack the items on it in the car. We packed a few days worth of clothes, I filled water bottles and grabbed some blankets and portable chairs, and we were ready.</p>
<p>Then the question: where do we go? The entire west is burning, it's a pandemic, we couldn't really go anywhere, so we headed up the hill towards our downtown, thinking it best to get ourselves further away. Within 30 minutes the city texted to say no evacuations were necessary and we could go home. This was the biggest frustration of our day: the county and city communications were not in sync.</p>
<p>We went home and watched reports of the fire moving north, away from our house, we watched reports of the towns near us burning. In the evening we called family in other states so they'd know we were OK. We talked about how we felt with each other, we started to process a day that was stressful and difficult.</p>
<p>And in the days since I've continued to think about that day. The destruction of the Almeda Fire has been incredible, it's a suspicious start and the state police came to our door Wednesday asking if we saw anything Tuesday morning. But the thing that has stuck with me is how little I truly cared about stuff in those minutes we were packing up our car. What was most important to me was us, that we were safe, that we were OK.</p>
<p>I also realized how doing a bit of planning, which to be honest we don't have the full-on kit that authorities say we should have, helped us more than we could ever imagine. A folder of the things we really needed and a list of what to grab made a huge difference. It's odd to say this, but I feel a bit better about how we'd handle this if it happens again, I feel like we figured out what really matters.</p>

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			<title>Equilibrium</title>
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				<p>Last night I was listening to the Brewer's game on the radio, they were losing, so as the sun sank behind the foothills I went out on the patio to see what was going on. We've been watching a small lizard a lot of the summer that's been hanging out in our back yard, fairly reliably, basking on some rocks in the evenings and mornings, we call him Larry (with no idea if it's the same lizard all the time or what sex the lizard is, but we like alliteration).</p>
<p>We hadn't seen Larry for a few weeks and were a bit worried, but he was back last night, basking on the rocks and enjoying the remaining heat. I sat down to watch him. Meanwhile a calliope hummingbird was buzzing around, grabbing sips of nectar out of the feeder. Bees were hanging out in my selvia and grabbing pollen and I occasionally felt a light breeze.</p>
<p>Larry started making moves, but kept aborting, deciding the rocks were the best spot to be. Another hummingbird tried for some nectar and a fight broke out, I could hear their beaks hitting each other. The bees were oblivious to it all.</p>
<p>It was a peaceful 20 minutes or so, watching the smallest of creatures as they did their thing in an environment I cultivated for them. And to be honest, it's the most calm I've felt in a long time. I'm starting to get some equilibrium back and it's been a welcome change.</p>

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			<title>Books Read: August 2020</title>
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				<p>Another month done and we're now into September, which I welcome. I can't wait for cool fall breezes and the for the election to be over. Here's the latest on the reading front!</p>
<h2>Red at the Bone</h2>
<p>A short, <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/red-at-the-bone-9780525535270">haunting story</a> of one family's life, mostly centered around Brooklyn, but it touches on Tulsa, Chicago, and a small college town. The story begins with the coming of age party for Melody, but it goes back and forth in time and changes with each chapter on who's telling the story. Jacequeline Woodson's characters are vivid, amazing, and at the same time you feel the pain they've felt. This is a quick read that I really enjoyed and when it was over I thought a lot about those characters and about the ways in which the past continually influence the future.</p>
<h2>Heartland</h2>
<p>This one got its very <a href="/reading/heartland/">own review</a> post!</p>
<h2>The Dark Forest</h2>
<p>The Remembrance of Earth's Past series keeps getting better. This one was not quite as mind bending as the one before, but so many pieces came together. Cixin Liuis weaving together an ambitious story and I can't wait to read the end. In this installment Earth unites to try and battle the foe, but the amazing thing is how much changes over the years, how much technology helps them but also quite possibly hurts them. I'm can't wait to read how it comes together in the final book.</p>
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<p>“The universe is a dark forest. Every civilization is an armed hunter stalking through the trees like a ghost, gently pushing aside branches that block the path and trying to tread without sound. (p 484)</p>
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<p>“But in this dark forest, there’s a stupid child called humanity, who has built a bonfire and is standing beside it shouting, ‘Here I am! Here I am!’” (p 485)</p>
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<h2>Prairie Fires</h2>
<p>Growing up in Minnesota meant that The Little House on the Prairie books were a big part of my childhood, in fact I still own the copies I read as a little girl. But I never took much time to find out much about Laura Ingalls Wilder and in 2018 I read a review of a new biography of hers and added it to my list, finally reading it this month.</p>
<p><a href="https://www.powells.com/book/prairie-fires-9781250182487"><em>Prairie Fires: The American Dreams of Laura Ingalls Wilder</em></a> is an exhaustive look at the author's life. I found it interesting, but also maybe a bit too detailed for me, especially when it came to her daughter Rose. I'll admit that this is as much a biography of Rose as it is of Laura, their lives were so intertwined and she edited all the books, so it makes sense, but I wasn't nearly as interested in Rose's life as I was Laura's. I enjoyed this, but it took me a while to finish it, taking it in in small doses.</p>
<h2>Journey to Munich</h2>
<p>Another <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/journey-to-munich-9780062220615">Maisie Dobbs</a> was the perfect thing after a heavy biography and with World War II approaching, the storylines are getting better again. This time Maisie is sent to Munich to help save an important British businessman who's gotten arrested by the Nazis. It's quick paced and overall was the perfect book for getting away from the current awfulness and replacing it with the awfulness of the past.</p>
<h2>The Last Flight</h2>
<p>I always peruse the round ups of mysteries and thrillers in the NY Times book section and a few months ago <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/the-last-flight-9781728215723"><em>The Last Flight</em></a> popped up. Julie Clark does a wonderful job of weaving the story together, I couldn't put it down and finished in a day. Two women, both trying to escape different dangers in their lives swap boarding passes after security in the airport and get on each other's flights. One of the planes crashes but the story goes back and forth in time as we learn about both women's lives and their reasons for running.</p>

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			<title>The dog park</title>
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				<p>To get to the dog park in my small town, most people drive by my house. It's become one of the things that makes me most happy about where we live. Last night as we were eating dinner we began to hear a faint bark, from fairly far away, and we knew. Our house was opened up after the heat of the day and we stayed quiet, smiling at each other. The bark got louder and louder. And then it was right on top of us. Yup, there it was, silver truck dog was on his way to the dog park and he wanted <em>everyone</em> to know it. And yes, we do have names for the two dogs that are the loudest and we know the best, they hang out of the windows of the trucks and bark nonstop until they arrive at the park. I like to think they're telling their friends at the park to hang on, they're on their way.</p>

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			<title>Finding solitude</title>
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				<p>Anne Helen Petersen wrote about her garden today in her <a href="https://annehelen.substack.com/p/how-does-your-ugly-garden-grow">newsletter</a>. I can relate to this so much. My garden hasn't done well this year. I over watered in the beginning which led to the green beans getting root rot, the pepper basically stopped growing, and the basil and cucumber weren't happy.</p>
<p>We had very cold nights in June, which affected the pepper and the cucumbers. The success stories were the sun gold tomatoes, they are going wild, but that means they shaded the pepper once I backed off on the watering and there are two peppers on there, but it's stopped growing. The extreme heat in July (temps around 100 for several days) meant that the early girl and roma tomatoes dropped blossoms and are just now starting to come back.</p>
<p>I planted sumatra basil, something different, and it turns out we don't really like it (has a bit of a licorice taste that I can't quite figure what to match with in a way we like). It's been a success story, doing very well especially after I backed off on watering. And my snap dragons are finally on the way to blooming after also getting too much water in the first part of the summer.</p>
<p>If I'm lucky, I'll get some more tomatoes before the cold nights start, I'll get one or two cucumbers as it's really taking off right now, and I'll get some decent basil. But as I read Petersen's piece, I thought a lot about how the failures didn't bother me. I'm learning, next year I'll place things differently, water much less, and see what happens. The garden is about something much more, as she says:</p>
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<p>I find all of those things to be more restorative, more like actual self-care, than those prescribed for us within capitalism: skincare routines, pedicures, sweet treats, elaborate vacations, even massages — none of it feels as good as actually figuring out something you like to do, and then doing it as if no one was watching, and no one ever will, and it will never, ever find a place on your resume.</p>
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<p>Knitting and crochet are just as restorative for me, but it will never be something I try and do perfectly or make money off of.  And, as Petersen refers to, they aren't things that I'm doing to make myself better, I do them because I enjoy them. I love the idea of leisure as cultivating solitude, Petersen quotes Cal Newport and thinking about &quot;freedom from other people's minds&quot; which I really love.</p>
<p>In these times especially, freeing myself from the minds of others and all the the things I can consume and getting lost in the meditative state that knitting stockinette brings to my mind or digging in the dirt as a way to get away from screens, is the best way I can take care of myself.</p>

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			<title>Site updates</title>
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				<p>I quietly updated my site this past week. Recently <a href="/notes/this-site/">I wrote about trying</a> to figure out what I wanted to do with this site and this past week's changes are part of answering that question. This wasn't so much a redesign as it was an exercise is stripping things back. The design elements that I was using before are, for the most part, still the same. But I got rid of a lot. The site is HTML and CSS with the only JavaScript being my serviceworker.</p>
<p>I'm definitely still playing around with font sizing, line length, and more, but I'm the type that needs to get it out there and not wait, so I pushed it out, crossing fingers that nothing was too horrible. So far so good.</p>
<p>What's probably more interesting is what I'm not doing. There are no web fonts, it's systems fonts and so the scripts I was using to load all of that weren't necessary. I'm not using sass for the first time in a very long time. My CSS is straight CSS using variables for the very first time. I also got rid of several pages since I'm not currently freelancing. This is an old school blog again and it feels rather good.</p>
<p>I also got rid of my email newsletter and deleted all the data associated with it. I'm finding keeping my site up-to-date hard enough these days that the newsletter, which had a very small audience, didn't seem worth the effort. I'm focusing on RSS and cleaning up my site to highlight posts was one of the big reasons for making changes.</p>
<p>I'm still using Jekyll and still hating the fact that there isn't a decent way to paginate pages that aren't the index page, but I've lived with that for years at this point and right now I'm not in a place where I want to do the work of figuring out what to move to. I did glance at Eleventy, but decided I wasn't up to the task right now. I love Netlify, it makes redirects and deploying super easy.</p>
<p>The biggest benefit of all the changes I've made is that this site is fast. It's really fast when there is only CSS and HTML to download. And I'm doing well on the accessibility as well. That's probably what matters most to me right now and what I care about on the web most, clean markup and accessible sites.</p>
<p>Now that this is mainly a blog again, I'm going to be trying to update it more. I'm using social media less and less and this feels like my spot and if I can perfect my iPad flow for adding posts, I think it'll be as easy to update things here as it is on social media (:fingerscrossed:).</p>

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			<title>Heartland</title>
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				<p>Much like when I read <em>God Land</em>, when I read <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/heartland-9781501133107"><em>Heartland: A Memoir of Working Hard and Being Broke in the Richest Country on Earth</em></a> by Sarah Smarsh I saw glimpses of a world that I knew, but also that I avoided due to the actions of my parents when I was young. I in no way grew up in the same way as Smarsh, but I did grow up for the first third of my childhood in a small town where poverty was, most likely, all around me. In her memoir, Smarsh tells her story but weaves in and out of it sections on policies that were enacted at the various levels of government that greatly influenced the place in which she grew up.</p>
<p>Smarsh grew up outside Wichita, Kansas and was born to a teenage mother who was also born to a teenage mother. The cycle of poverty was continuing and she was determined to get out and break it. As she tells the story of her mother, grandmother, and great-grandmother, you see how history repeats itself and how little the policies that are supposed to help people actually do.</p>
<p>At times this is a difficult book to read, but the way in which Smarsh points towards policies and elections and shows how their outcomes affect people, especially women and people of color, is vividly outlined as she also tells her story. There was a lot in this book and I'm still chewing on much of what she wrote, thinking about policy and outcomes, and people who's lives are affected.</p>
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<p>We can’t really know what made us who we are. We can come to understand, though, what the world says we are. (p. 13)</p>
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<p>That America couldn’t hear his message about worshiping the false idol of wealth is a public fact that would be felt privately for decades to come. No one would feel it more than the poor. (p 24)</p>
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<p>That we could live on a patch of Kansas dirt with a tub of Crisco lard and a $1 rebate coupon in an envelope on the kitchen counter and call ourselves middle class was at once a triumph of contentedness and a sad comment on our country’s lack of awareness about its own economic structure. Class didn’t exist in a democracy like ours, as far as most Americans were concerned, at least not as a destiny or an excuse. You got what you worked for, we believed. (p 29)</p>
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<p>Wealth and income inequality were nothing rare in global history. What was peculiar about the class system in the United States, though, is that for centuries we denied it existed. At every rung of the economic ladder, Americans believed that hard work and a little know-how were all a person needed to get ahead. (p 42)</p>
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<p>I would have passed all sorts of poverties to you. But some late night a tractor would have pulled you, well fed by what we grew, under a clear sky full of stars. That laughter—that freedom—would have been the fortune you inherited. (p 98)</p>
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<p>For me, country was not a look, a style, or even a conscious attitude but a physical place, its experience defined by distance from the forces of culture that would commodify it. That place meant long stretches of near-solitude broken up by long drives on highways to enter society and then exit again. (p 105)</p>
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<p>The countryside is no more our nation’s heart than are its cities, and rural people aren’t more noble and dignified for their dirty work in fields. But to devalue, in our social investments, the people who tend crops and livestock, or to refer to their place as “flyover country,” is to forget not just a country’s foundation but its connection to the earth, to cycles of life scarcely witnessed and ill understood in concrete landscapes. (p 122)</p>
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<p>America has an idea that people in poverty make sketchy decisions, but everyone does. The poor just have less room for their errors, which will be laid bare in public for need of help. (p 130)</p>
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<p>Was I a good kid or a bad kid? The answer to that question, I knew from both Catholicism and capitalism, would decide my fate. Heaven or hell. Wealth or poverty. Freedom or prison. (p 144)</p>
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<p>I had no choice but to understand that people can demean and hit you and in their better moments love you, at once be a mess themselves and carry a deep pride in your strange togetherness. (p 162)</p>
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<p>Economic power is social power. In the end, for all her hard work and tenacity, the poor woman lacks both. (p 225)</p>
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<p>The American Dream, in particular, sometimes seems more like a ghost haunting our way of thinking than like a sacred contract worth signing toward some future. (p 288)</p>
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			<title>Books Read: July 2020</title>
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				<p>Another month and another batch of books read. I read more nonfiction which is a goal of mine, but also I read a book that, quite honestly, may be in my top 5 list of 2020 and quite possibly at the top.</p>
<h2>The Yellow House</h2>
<p>This book introduced me to so much that I knew so very little about and the fact that it's about two things I think a lot about in my own story, place and family. Sarah M. Broom <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/the-yellow-house-9780802149039">writes</a> so eloquently about growing up the youngest of twelve children in East New Orleans in a house that is barely holding together. She writes about her struggle with New Orleans as an adult, the several times she tries to live there again, the experience of Katrina as an non resident worrying about her family, and how the place shaped her. And she asks a lot of questions I ask myself, just in relation to a different place.</p>
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<p>Who has the rights to the story of a place? Are these rights earned, bought, fought and died for? Or are they given? Are they automatic, like an assumption? Self-renewing? Are these rights a token of citizenship belonging to those who stay in the place or to those who leave and come back to it? Does the act of leaving relinquish one’s rights to the story of a place? Who stays gone? Who can afford to return? (loc 4791)</p>
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<p>There are always, I have come to know, more questions than answers. (loc 5367)</p>
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<h2>A Dangerous Place</h2>
<p>Yes, my addiction to Maisie Dobbs mysteries continues and <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/a-dangerous-place-9780062220561">this book</a> was even more of a transition book than the last one. But I'm the type of person who keeps going, hoping they'll get better, wondering where the character goes next. Maisie is on her way back to England from India in 1937 and stops in Gibraltar. World War II is on the way and the Spanish Civil War is going on and of course Maisie finds herself in the middle of a mystery. This wasn't the best of the series by far, but it was entertaining at times and what I like to call a good TV book.</p>
<h2>The Overstory</h2>
<p>Richard Power's <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/the-overstory-9780393356687">novel won the Pulitzer Prize in 2019</a> and it must have made it onto my list via best of lists from that year.  I really wasn't sure what the book would be, but I found the first third of the book absolutely lovely. The way in which trees played a role in each of the characters' lives was inventive and compelling.</p>
<p>The final two thirds of the book are the various characters we've met weaving in and out of each other's lives as they work in different ways to save trees, care for the planet, and learn more about the forests. I'll admit it, the last two thirds of the book went in directions that I didn't expect and didn't enjoy nearly as much as the first third. I kept thinking it may get back to the magical type of writing of the first portion, but it never did.</p>
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<p>That’s when Adam realizes: Humankind is deeply ill. The species won’t last long. It was an aberrant experiment. Soon the world will be returned to the healthy intelligences, the collective ones. Colonies and hives. (loc 874)</p>
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<p>And yet, places remember what people forget. (loc 2472)</p>
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<p>The problem begins with that word world. It means two such opposite things. The real one we cannot see. The invented one we can’t escape. (loc 7337)</p>
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<h2>God Land</h2>
<p>I wrote a full on solo review for this one that you can find <a href="/reading/god-land/">right on this site</a>. It had a large impact on me, as the review talks about, mostly because of my personal history.</p>
<h2>Terra Nullius</h2>
<p><a href="https://aworkinglibrary.com/reading/terra-nullius">Mandy</a> read this and I was intrigued and lo and behold my library had a copy and it was available. Wow, it's an <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/terra-nullius-9781618731517">amazing novel</a>. Claire Coleman slowly reveals what's really going on and as the layers continue to be peeled back it gets better and better. Jacky escapes from his life as a slave and starts runnning to find his home after being taken as a very young child from his parents for re-education. As he journeys to find the town he's from and anyone who may still be alive, we learn more and more about what's happening on Earth. I can't say much more because it would spoil the book, it's best to go in and read, it's a can't put it down book. Highly recommend as this book is firmly in the running for my top 2020 book.</p>
<h2>The Pleasures of Reading in an Age of Distraction</h2>
<p>Another <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/pleasures-of-reading-in-an-age-of-distraction-9780199747498">book by Alan Jacobs</a>, this is the older book in a triology he's working on about reading and thinking. I love to read about reading for some reason, not lists of what I <em>should</em> read, which Jacobs doesn't like, but more to see what others think about reading. <em>The Library at Night</em> is another book like this and Jacobs quotes it. I enjoyed this quick book and will be thinking a long time about relying on whim for what I read, thinking about how much reading different things calls for different ways of reading, and how much books can mean different things at different points in our lives. I'm not a huge rereader, but this book may have changed my mind on that.</p>

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			<title>God Land</title>
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				<p>I've never read a book that felt like it was written just for me until now. <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/god-land-a-story-of-faith-loss-renewal-in-middle-america-9780253041531"><em>God Land: A Story of Faith, Loss, and Renewal in Middle America</em></a> is part memoir and part investigation into the way in which churches and Evangelicalism play such an important role in the culture of the Midwest. Lyz Lenz moves to South Dakota as a teenager, then to Minnesota, and then when she's engaged to Iowa, where she still lives today.</p>
<p>I grew up in Minnesota, quite close to where Lenz did for the last years of high school and I was heavily involved with a Christian campus organization and in various churches throughout my twenties. Most of the people who know me today would be surprised about that last sentence. But as I read Lenz's story I started to feel like she was, in some ways, writing my story. I didn't experience what she experienced in her marriage, but I definitely experienced the way in which view points are shut down and people are not truly welcome in so many different churches.</p>
<p>Lenz so clearly punctures many of the myths that surround Evangelicalism and the Midwest. Along with this she articulates the aggrieved nature of Evangelicals, how they feel persecuted, when the reality is so different. Is it any wonder that they cling to political leadership that expresses those sames grievances?</p>
<p>She writes about the yearning for another time, even if those times weren't actually good times, the example of the farmer who's conveniently forgotten about the farm crisis of the 1980s. The people teaching pastors how to pastor in rural areas who won't acknowledge the reality of high abuse rates of children in these areas. How the number of people who went to church in the middle of the Twentieth Century isn't that many more than go to church today.</p>
<p>One thought that I've thought about a lot since the 2016 election is something a friend said in a slack in the year following the election. And Lenz's book proves this out in powerful ways, but it's that we're constantly talking about how we have to understand rural American better, but in this book and in much of the coverage of the divide in our nation, I've never heard a rural person say they need to understand city folks better. And as Lenz hears a woman say that the city is full of sinners the point is proven.</p>
<p>Lenz and I didn't go the same way in our stories, but I found hers so helpful in thinking and understanding my own.</p>
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<p>The power of the Midwest is that it is the sanctifying myth of American. (p 32)</p>
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<p>Nostalgia works like the yew. It is a protection, but a poisonous one. It offers shield and weaponry, but often turns on those who touch it. It os both everlasting and a harbinger of death. (p 44)</p>
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<p>Love is political when it is radical. Faith is political when it believes in something better. Hope is political when it looks for something more. (p 94)</p>
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<p>The problem of the megachurch is the problem of the faceless corporation—the problem of power. The way it twists a narrative, the way it controls a region, the way it flattens and assimilates, expects adherence, and capitulation. Challenges are ignored. And the story that is told is a tight flat circle—those who don't fit fall away and the circle closes (p 120)</p>
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<p>I am conforted by the ritual of liturgy, the way it provides a scaffolding to acess the mystery of what is happening around us. The cycles will continue. Seeds will break down into plants. Plants will grow to produce a seed. Death. Life. Resurrection. ( p 144)</p>
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			<title>Books read: June 2020</title>
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				<p>Wow, what a month for reading for me. I think, but can't be totally sure, that this could be the most books I've read in a month in a good long while and none of them were comics! Part of this is that I've pulled back from being online and so am picking up books when I'm eating or am waiting on something, rather than doomscrolling. But the other part is that I'm really enjoying reading again and found my focus. It's felt so good and as soon as I finish one I'm thinking about what to read next or have it already from the library or pulled off the shelf.</p>
<h2>The City We Became</h2>
<p>N.K. Jemisin's <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/the-city-we-became-the-great-cities-trilogy-1-9780316509848">latest book</a> is the start of a trilogy, she looks at New York City as it's being reborn and the people who become the avatars of the boroughs and united New York City to save it from destruction during the birth. I enjoyed the book, Jemisin's tale is funny and full of adventure and the characters are smart, resilient, and bold. But I'm fairly sure that the fact that I don't know New York very well means that I missed a lot of the humor of the book.</p>
<h2>How to Think</h2>
<p>I've been reading Alan Jacobs newsletter for quite some time now and enjoying it, which led me to his books. And <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/how-to-think-a-survival-guide-for-a-world-at-odds-9780451499608"><em>How to Think</em></a> was the right book at the right time for me. The subtitle is <em>A Survival Guide for a World at Odds</em> and it was just that, helping me through what has been a very tough moment in time.</p>
<p>Jacobs lays out a lot of the psychology of how we're swayed, how to recognize that and also how to think deeply and surround yourself with people who also want to do the same. I really enjoyed the way he took ideas from a whole host of disciplines and brought them all together to make his arguments for what is going on in the world and what is preventing us from deeper thinking right now.</p>
<p>In our current era there is so much happening and so much to think about and we're pushed to not think, react only in so many of the places we engage with folks. I found this small volume to be a helpful reminder on how slowing down and being choosy about how and who I share my ideas with to be extremely helpful. I've grown so tired lately of the group think that I've started to cocoon and now I'm ready to come back out and find the right folks that I can think through things with clearly and supportively.</p>
<h2>The Three Body Problem</h2>
<p>Since I finished this book, several people have asked me if I'm going to read the next one, which I've found an interesting reaction. Yes, I'm going to read the next one. But I'll admit that <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/the-three-body-problem-9780765382030">this book</a> was mind bending in many ways, Cixin Liu weaves a good story.</p>
<p>Professor Wang is asked to investigate an underground group that is involved in a virtual game, The	Three Body Problem. As he plays and as he meets people involved in the group he learns they're hoping aliens are coming to set Earth right. Things get messy, tangled, and religion and science are wrapped up in it all. I'm still very much thinking about this one, the cultural and scientific ideas about how we'd react if we did indeed hear from aliens are fascinating.</p>
<h2>My Private Property</h2>
<p>Ever since I read <em>Madness Rack and Honey</em> I've kept my eye out for more writing by Mary Ruefle and picked up this <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/my-private-property-9781940696515">slim volume</a> a few years ago. The book consists of short pieces that I would say land somewhere between poetry and essays, with a few longer essays.</p>
<p>I enjoy Ruefle's writing and this book didn't disappoint. I especially liked the short vignettes on color and I stopped several times to reread them and savor the words. Her writing was a welcome escape in a time of difficulty and I'll be picking it up again to reread certain pieces again, I'm sure.</p>
<h2>Leaving Everything Most Loved</h2>
<p>Another <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/leaving-everything-most-loved-9780062049612">Maisie Dobbs</a>, I know, I can't stop. I'll admit that this one wasn't as good as the past books I've read and I think it's because Winspear was using it very much as a transitional novel. It focuses much more on Dobbs than it does on the mystery she's trying to solve and at times it was too much on that side of things and repeated much of what was in other books. I realize she's writing for each volume to stand on its own, but I think she got too verbose with back story explanation at times.</p>
<h2>Washington Black</h2>
<p><a href="https://www.powells.com/book/washington-black-9780525563242">Esi Edugyan</a> tells the story of George Washington Black and how his life changes dramatically when the brother of the plantation owner makes him his assistant. Wash, as he's known, learns to read and write and discovers a talent for drawing. Titch, the man who changes his life, also becomes the very thing that drives Wash through his late teens and early adult years. Even as they part ways, Wash is overcome with wanting to know why Titch chose him, why he left him, and how all of it fits into the person he becomes. Highly recommend this one, I devoured it.</p>
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<p>And that, it seemed to me clearly, was the more obvious anguish—that life had never belonged to any of us, even when we’d sought to reclaim it by ending it. We had been estranged from the potential of our own bodies, from the revelation of everything our bodies and minds could accomplish. (loc 5209 in a kindle formatted book)</p>
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<h2>Big Magic: Creative Living Beyond Fear</h2>
<p>I've enjoyed Elizabeth Gilbert's fiction and saw a few folks recommend <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781594634727">this book</a> as well and well, I didn't love it. I didn't hate it either, but the format made it hard for me to really feel like it went beyond the surface. Gilbert's broken the book up into several larger sections, themes really, composed of very quick sections that weren't really chapters, but in the kindle version were broken out like chapters but were so short it felt way too choppy to me.</p>
<p>In spite of that Gilbert does a really great job of talking about money and creativity and the need to pay for your life. It's so helpful to me to see folks point out in books like these that expecting your art to pay for your life puts a burden on it that it may not be able to handle and it changes everything. So I'm not totally sure I recommend this book, but my curiousity was satisfied and I did get some good things out of it. And it's in keeping with my goal to read more non fiction.</p>
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<p>So what if we repeat the same themes? So what if we circle around the same ideas, again and again, generation after generation? So what if every new generation feels the same urges and asks the same questions that humans have been feeling and asking for years? We’re all related, after all, so there’s going to be some repetition of creative instinct. (loc 901)</p>
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<p>There’s no dishonor in having a job. What is dishonorable is scaring away your creativity by demanding that it pay for your entire existence. (loc 1430)</p>
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<h2>There There</h2>
<p>Wow, another book that I had no idea what to expect, it made it on the list because for a while I was seeing it everywhere, and <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780525436140">I absolutely loved it</a>. The story follows several different Native Americans as they are preparing to attend the Oakland Pow Wow and in reading this book I learned about a world I knew very little about. At times it's hearbreaking and Tommy Orange spares nothing in the language he uses to describe both the present and past. Highly recommend.</p>
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<p>But for Native people in this country, all over the Americas, it’s been developed over, buried ancestral land, glass and concrete and wire and steel, unreturnable covered memory. There is no there there. (loc 639)</p>
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			<title>Reading, voraciously</title>
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				<p>I'm not really sure what's come over me this month, but I'm reading at an astounding rate. I've had two books going at all times and as I finish one I'm planning which I'll start next. Because this appetite is so voracious, I'm also pushing myself to read more nonfiction and it's working.</p>
<p>I realized at the beginning of this month that to take care of myself I needed to retreat. I feel the privilege of being able to do that, believe me, I'm able to do it without negative consequences. It started by stepping back from social media and it's increased to where I'm staying off screens other than when I'm working to keep myself away from all the things that I don't need to read.</p>
<p>And my inputs then naturally went up. If I was going to take away the option to doomscroll, I needed to do something. Books have been the main replacement. Mary Ruefle, Alan Jacobs, Esi Edugyan, Tommy Orange, and others have taken me into different worlds or ways of thinking. At first I thought it was a distraction but I now realize that it's helping me process <em>waves hands all around</em>... everything. Even staying away from the news, I still get bits and pieces here and there and I'm still trying to process the insanity in some way. Books are my way.</p>

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			<title>This site</title>
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				<p>Robin <a href="https://www.robinrendle.com/notes/2d-websites">wrote</a> something this week that's had me thinking a bit. He said:</p>
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<p>When I log onto someone’s website I want them to tell me why they’re <em>weird</em>. Where’s the journal or scrapbook? Where’s your stamp collection? Or the works-in-progress, the failed attempts, the clunky unfinished things? Instead, we find websites that are squeaky clean; minimalist layouts with circle avatars and sans-serif type.</p>
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<p>Lately I've been thinking about this site quite a bit, it's set up as a sales site, to sell my professional services and yet I've been at a full time job now for a year and a half and am not taking on freelance work. And I've ruminated on ideas of what to do with this space as I've been on runs and while falling asleep, but I haven't settled on what I should do quite yet.</p>
<p>But there's more to it than that, there's something else holding me back: most of what I do with my time when I'm not working has nothing to do with the web. In fact I'm spending as little time on screens as I can get away with lately to help me work through the events of the world in my own way rather than being pushed by what others are saying too much. So I've stepped back, quite dramatically over the past weeks, from all things internet.</p>
<p>On top of that the last thing I want to do when I close my work laptop is open up my personal laptop. And so this site sits here and waits for me to update it. I still post fairly regularly, but I haven't quite figured out how to make this the space that I want it to be and share the things that I do that have nothing to do with the web. And I'm not quite sure when I'll get to that, but some day I will.</p>

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			<title>Books read: April and May 2020</title>
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				<p>Whew, I lost a month in there somewhere, but never fear, I've been reading. I ended April right in the middle of a massive book, so decided to hold off on the post. But as is usually the case, May got away from me and so I'm combining the two months. I didn't read as many things as usual and I blame Hilary Mantel for that.</p>
<h2>The Missing of Clairdelune</h2>
<p>The <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781609455071">second book</a> in The Mirror Visitor series is an absolute fantastic build on the first one. Ophelia is introduced at court, she's known in the The Pole, and she's trying to figure out how to behave, what's really going on, and most importantly, who she can trust. I really like Ophelia, she's a great character who is smart, funny, and often times surprising. I can't wait for the third book, but it's not due to be published in the US until some time this fall.</p>
<h2>Hallelujah Anyway: Rediscovering Mercy</h2>
<p>I've been reading Anne Lamott for years and once this pandemic set in I decided I needed a dose of her and <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780735213586">checked this out</a> from the digital library. I was surprised by how much I didn't love this book, I usually love everything she writes, but something about it didn't hit me in the right spot. It could very well be the climate of the world and the state of things, but there weren't as many bits as I read that made me stop and reread and think.</p>
<h2>The Mirror &amp; The Light</h2>
<p>Whew, this is a <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780805096606">long book</a> and well, you know how it's going to end as you go into it, don't you? Overall I enjoyed this trilogy and am glad I finished it. Cromwell is an interesting figure in history and the reign of Henry VIII was such an up and down affair. But in the end I realized that I was reading the story of an egomaniac who was manipulating and attempting to control an emotional train wreck of a world leader right at a time when that is the reality I'm living in. It was a bit of a hard read and took me a while to get through. BUT Mantel is a great writer and her descriptions are worth the read.</p>
<h2>Ms. Marvel Vol 10: Time and Again</h2>
<p>I really enjoyed the <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781302912697">story arc in the this volume</a> and didn't realize until I finished it that it was G. Willow Wilson's last as the writer. As Kamala is growing up and learning, she's realizing what's important, what matters, and who matters. As is usual with any volume of this comic, there were lines that hit me, hard, and issues that made me laugh as well. Wilson's done a great job and I'm sad to see her go, but interested to see where the series goes from here.</p>
<h2>Agency</h2>
<p>I was excited to read the sequel to <em>The Peripheral</em> and once my digital hold came up I dug in. I love the concepts of stubs and timelines and the way in which one change in history can change everything. And I enjoyed <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781101986936">this book</a> right up until the last 50 or so pages. The ending fell very flat for me. Verity Jane, a whiz with apps, is testing a new program, a new AI. It turns out that the AI, Eunice, is very much in control of things that no one fully understands. And in Verity we learn more and more about Eunice and meet a whole host of characters that Eunice brings together. But at times, especially when referencing the wider events in Jane's stub, the book felt like it was a different book. This book was delayed quite a bit as he reworked parts of it and I keep wondering what it was meant to be before that work was done, before he took into account the events of 2016.</p>
<h2>Hold Still</h2>
<p>I read this <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780316247757">memoir</a> on the recommendation of Austin Kleon, and I'm so glad that I did. I wasn't familiar with Sally Mann's work and am now in love with it. This book is a great introduction her body of work. It's rare to find an artist that can look back at over 40 years worth of work and talk about it so clearly. And the way in which she weaves in her life story, the history of her family, and the history of the south where she lives is captivating. I highly recommend it, she's a great writer as well as a great photographer.</p>
<h2>Dinner: Changing the Game</h2>
<p>I've long loved many of Melissa Clark's recipes on the New York Times cooking site, so when I saw Anne Helen Petersen raving about this <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780553448238">cookbook</a> I was intrigued. I got it from the library to see if I would like it and welp, it's on the way from Powells as I type this. What sold me on the book was the wide variety of vegetarian recipes, as well as some super intriguing chicken recipes. Her writing style is great and it's been easy to make things and sub in what I have on hand as well. Can't wait to make more dinners from this book.</p>
<h2>The Art of Noticing</h2>
<p>Austin Kleon's also talked about this <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780525521242">book</a> quite a bit and even though I can't go too many places right now, I wanted to get a feel for the book and what he's getting at. I'm glad I did. I haven't done all the exercises, but I really enjoyed the introduction and reading through ways in which I can incorporate noticing more into my day-to-day-life.</p>
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<p>Let's stop trying to be so productive all the time and make an effort to be more curious. Do you want to look back on a life of items crossed off lists drawn up in response to the demands of others? Or do you want to hang on to, and repeat, and remember, the thrill of discovering things on your own? (p xv)</p>
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<h2>The Secret Commonwealth</h2>
<p>The <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780553510669">second book</a> in the Book of Dust series by Philip Pullman was a bit of a disappointment for me. It's definitely a transitional story that ends with everything up in the air (reminded me of <em>The Empire Strikes Back</em> in that way), but I also feel like Pullman is getting so caught up in proving his philosophical points that he's sacrificing the story. The story starts after <em>The Amber Spyglass</em> and Lyra is now a young lady in college herself. She and her dæmon aren't getting along, when he suddenly leaves her, along with other events in the Magisterium, she begins an epic journey. I do like how more of the back story is filled in, how Lyra learns more of what her story is, but I can't quite see how Pullman will draw all the threads to a close in the third book. Of course I'll have to read it, since I've come this far.</p>

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			<title>Star Trek</title>
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				<p>I guess you could say I'm a Star Trek fan, I'm not a super fan, but I've watched quite a few of the series and enjoyed them. But I haven't watched much of the original series, although I live with someone who really enjoys it. This week he got me to watch the original pilot episode. This isn't the pilot that the network accepted, but the first pilot that Roddenberry tried to sell them. It's a strange episode to watch, because parts of it were used for a later episode of the show, so it goes between and old scratchy black and white version and a cleaned up color version, but it's about Captain Pike and Majel Barrett plays Number One. Yup, you read that right, the original vision was for the first officer to be a woman. And Roddenberry included non white actors. It wasn't accepted and he changed things in the next one to get it on the air, but it was really interesting to see how much Roddenberry was pushing the boundaries and trying to change things right from the beginning.</p>

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			<title>Keeping the good</title>
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				<p>I've been in this socially distant life now for quite some time, in some ways it feels like forever and in others it feels like just yesterday we were at our favorite restaurant for my birthday in early March. But here we are and this past week my county got permission to enter phase one of opening back up. It's led me to think about how my life will going forward, what changes have I made during this time that I want to keep?</p>
<p>First up is how I've been cooking. I've been flying by the seat of my pants and not meal planning as I did before and I'm fairly sure this is going to stick. When I grocery shop I make sure to get a wide variety of things we like and the only thing I think about ahead of time is if I need to take anything out of the freezer to thaw for a meal the next day. It's been good for me, challenged me to come up with more meals by tossing things together and I've discovered that I've learned a lot over the years about flavors, what we like, what works, and what doesn't. This will stick with me well past this weird time.</p>
<p>Second is morning meditation or yoga. I've consistently taken time in the mornings before work to get on the mat. On the weekends I'm still doing longer yoga sessions later in the day, but it's been amazing to start my day focusing on my breathe and my body. And in the past week I've extended this practice to read a poem before I get off the mat. It's a good change.</p>
<p>And the last thing I want to retain is being intentional with how I use a device when I'm not working. I've been trying, very hard, to not be on a screen before I start my work day and after I finish it. The fact that I knit and crochet helps, I usually pick up yarn in between work and making dinner and work on a project. Or I go out and sit on the patio and stare at the garden and watch the birds. Both of these things help me to let go of the day and the news. I've also ended up spending more time reading, after calming my brain from the day, I'm able to focus on a book.</p>
<p>I'm thinking about how I want to spend this summer. Not gonna lie, I'm <em>super</em> disappointed that all of the things I love about where I live are canceled (summer band concerts in the park, Fourth of July parade and fireworks, etc). This is my favorite time of year here because of the activities. I'm trying to figure out a longer term project, other than a yarn one, that will help me feel focused on something so I don't miss these things quite as much. I have two ideas, but am not totally sure yet what I'll start on June 1. I don't know how this will go, but I want to get ahead of spending time this summer moping and use my energy towards something different, we'll see how it goes.</p>
<p>I hope you are well friends, I hope you're finding the things that help you out. I sincerely hope that no matter what your circumstances, you're at least finding a moment to take a breathe.</p>

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			<title>What I miss</title>
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				<p>I've seen the question around in many different places. What do you miss? What do you miss from the before times, from what was normal, from life as it was? And I see a wide variety of answers, common is going out to eat and being able to hug friends and family.</p>
<p>I miss the library. Towards the end of our time in Portland, I started to use the library quite a bit, but once we moved to a small town, the library became one of the main sources of books and movies for me. When it shut down suddenly in March, I was bereft. We have a pile of books waiting to return and I'm sad that I can't go and browse the DVDs to get a movie.</p>
<p>I've been reading digital loans, which of course are now in high demand, but I put several on hold at once and haven't been without anything to read yet. But I miss going there, being with my community, being able to look around and see what books they've gotten in.</p>
<p>This week they announced they'll be starting front door pick ups for items you have on hold and you can start putting items on hold again next week in order to use this service. I'm not gonna lie, that was the most exciting news I've gotten in a while. This is a bit of normalcy that our household needs. Even though I can't go in and browse around, I'm very grateful to have access to what's inside in some form.</p>

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			<title>Reset</title>
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				<p>Last weekend after a particularly difficult week at work I spent a lot of time journaling and processing and attempting a reset. During this past week of work my journal was by my side at all times and instead of tweeting or typing something in Slack, I wrote a lot in my journal.</p>
<p>This isn't a new thing for me, I've done it before when taking long Twitter breaks, but I was reminded of it when someone else mentioned that they were typing into Notes on their phone rather than Twitter. And it's a good practice for me, especially since I can take a long while to process things and writing helps me do so.</p>
<p>But I realized as the week went one how much I'm finding online communication difficult right now. There is so much judgment in the air, so many are quick to lay out blanket statements that definitively say what is right and what is wrong. I came to the conclusion yesterday that most folks truly are trying to do what they think is best. The amount of competing information is hard to wade through right now, there are so many articles that may say opposing things, and each of us is reading what we can and making decisions about how to move forward.</p>
<p>Today marks five weeks that my household has been social distancing. We've been to the grocery store twice and the post office once. We're still taking walks outside and I'm going on runs. I've been ordering veggies and other local good things from a CSA that's delivered right to our door. I'm cooking more than I ever have. And I'm attempting to take weekends as a time to step back from the world. As our weather improves, I'm spending time in the garden and on the patio.</p>
<p>This isn't easy. I worry if  I'll have a job by the time this is over, will someone I love get sick, and how in the world will this ever end? But my reset this weekend is about being easy on myself and others during all of this. I don't always succeed, this past week I had failures, but I'm trying my hardest to leave judgment to the side and remember that we're all doing our best.</p>

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			<title>Small luxury</title>
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			<updated>2020-04-02T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>We got take out last night. It felt luxurious as it was the first time since March 7 that I didn't cook our evening meal. But as we ate and chatted I realized that this change in life came quickly and settled in quickly. It felt like a luxury, whereas before this all started we did take out or went out almost weekly. And my town, my small town is eerily quite, there were hardly any cars on the plaza as we approached to pick up our food. Even as I enjoyed the meal, I was still processing how quickly it's changed and how odd it was to luxuriate in take out.</p>

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			<title>Books read: March 2020</title>
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				<p>Not gonna lie, the rate of reading dropped off a bit this month, I'm knitting a lot right now, which means reading is getting less time. I <em>almost</em> finished a sixth book, but not quite, so it'll be on next month's round up. Hope you are well friends, stay safe and well during these times.</p>
<h2>Ms. Marvel Volume 9: Teenage Wasteland</h2>
<p>This is an <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781302910785">interesting volume</a> of Ms. Marvel because she hardly appears in it and it's mostly about how her loss affects her friends. I didn't love it, but it showed a different side to the community in which Ms. Marvel lives and that's not a bad thing. As the friends attempt to replace her, they're all wondering where she is and why she's left.</p>
<h2>The Sabbath World: Glimpses of a Different Order of Time</h2>
<p>Judith Shulevitz dives into <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780812971736">the world of the sabbath</a> and how it's been practiced and asks if we can still practice it and what that means in today's world. You may think this is all about religion, but I found it to be more about how we take a pause or disconnect ourselves from the world on a regular basis. It pairs nicely with <em>How to do Nothing</em> in some ways. And Shulevitz doesn't end with anything profound, but I found the walk through history and thinking about the rhythms of my week really helpful.</p>
<h2>Agent Running in the Field</h2>
<p>John Le Carré's <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780593152188">latest book</a> was very much in the tradition of his spy books with one twist, I'm fairly certain that several of the longer pieces of dialogue rampaging about the state of the world right now were really stand ins for how he himself feels. It's an interesting story, with an older agent who's come back to England and is given a job of not much importance. He's befriended by a younger man and they play badminton together, from there we learn a lot about both the agent, how his life affected his family, and how this young man may not quite be who we think he is. If you like Le Carré's work, this is worth it for the fantastic diatribes about both the English and US governments.</p>
<h2>Lovely War</h2>
<p>For the life of me I can't remember how I heard about <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780147512970">this book</a>, but however it was it made me recommend to my library to get the digital rights and then it showed up in my holds. It's a love story about two couples during World War I, as told by Aphrodite to her brothers and a few other Greek Gods. It's a bit sappy at times, corny at times, but the history is quite good and after I finished it and read the notes from the author, realizing how much research was done and how much was based on real things, it became a better book.</p>

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			<title>Weekends vs weekdays</title>
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			<updated>2020-03-30T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>On Friday I listened to<a href="https://www.marketplace.org/shows/make-me-smart-with-kai-and-molly/"> <em>Make Me Smart</em> </a> with Kai Ryssdal and Molly Wood and Kai was wondering how people who work from home differentiate between the weekend and regular old work days. I realized as I thought about it that I have three things I do to help me out and it may help out other folks who are newly entering the world of remote work.</p>
<p>I've been working remotely, either full time employed or freelancing, for eight years, and this is probably the part of my routine that's taken the longest to figure out. But finally in the last year, after returning to being a full time remote employee, I think I've figured out what works for me.</p>
<p>First off, weekends equal no alarm clock. I live on the west coast but work with a lot of east coast folks and so I get up a bit earlier than my natural body clock wakes me during the week. I like some time in the morning before starting in on work and this is the best way for me to get that time and also not feel overly behind when I start my work day.</p>
<p>Second, I shut my work machine down on weekends and <em>put it in a closet</em>. I know, it sounds a bit drastic, but my office is also where I do yoga and stow crafing supplies and I'm not lying when I say the out of sight out of mind thing has been very helpful to me.</p>
<p>Finally, I stay off of screens for most of the weekend. This is a general mental health thing, but it also means that I'm in a different mode than work. The reason I'm writing this on Monday is because I didn't want to open up my personal laptop over the weekend.</p>
<p>Finding some ways to make some separation between work time and regular home time is different for everyone, so play around and find what works well for you, especially if this is all new.</p>

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			<title>Hold tight friends</title>
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			<updated>2020-03-15T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>These are weird times friends, very weird times. Today is when things really hit home for me, I planned meals with what we have on hand. I didn't go to my Sunday knitting group, even though it was still held. And I called my mom to make sure she's taking this seriously. It's a strange thing, I don't go out a lot as it is, but the few things I do regularly are now cancelled (including the knitting groups). I'm very glad I live near nature, I'll still be running this week and going for walks. I already got all the supplies I need to get my veggie starts going for summer, garden planning is still on. But there is an underlying tension that isn't going away. I'm grateful for the online support of friends and that I don't need to go out at all. Hold on tight friends, face time with each other, make sure you are checking on folks in the community around you, and most of all, feel what you're feeling.</p>

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			<title>Community moment</title>
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			<updated>2020-02-29T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>The other night I was knitting while dinner was in the oven. The doorbell rang and I assumed it was a late delivery of some new shoes. But it wasn't. It was my neighbor and her son and their dog, on the way home from the dog park on a clear but chilly evening. They were wondering what the planet was that was so bright in the sky and they knew our house would be able to help them out. G came out and within a few moments he had one of his telescopes set up and a mini star party was happening. Everyone got a look at the crescent moon and Venus and then we said good night. It was reminder, in the course of a difficult week, what living in a community can be and a very good reminder to look up more often.</p>

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			<title>Books read: February 2020</title>
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			<updated>2020-02-29T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm mixing it up a bit, because I'm reading a lot lately and I'm not entirely sure I want to write a full on review of everything I've read. I will still do that, but there will be regular brief round ups as well, such as this one.</p>
<h2>The Spies of Shilling Lane</h2>
<p>A <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780525576495">decent mystery</a> that takes place in London during World War II. A woman goes looking for her daughter, to tell her the long held family secret, and ends up finding herself searching for her instead. This was a decent read, a good TV read as I like to call them. It took a bit to get into it, but I ended up enjoying the way the characters evolved.</p>
<h2>Moominsummer Madness</h2>
<p>I <em>love</em> the Moomins! And this story about their <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780374453107">adventures during Midsummer</a> is both very Scandinavian and very fun. Every one of the characters makes me laugh. If I knew kids the right age, I'd be buying them all these books.</p>
<h2>The Moomins and the Great Flood</h2>
<p>This was the <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781770463288">first Moomin story</a> that Jansson wrote and the illustrations are amazing, I got this from the library but have been thinking about buying it because I love the drawings so much. And again the Moomins go on a great adventure, getting into trouble and then somehow finding their way back out again.</p>
<h2>Say Nothing: A True Story of Murder and Memory in Northern Ireland</h2>
<p>I don't read a lot of non fiction these days, but I'm trying to change that slowly but surely. And <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780385521314">this book</a>, even though it's non fiction, reads like a novel. I know very little about the history of The Troubles in Northern Ireland, so this was my first in depth read on the subject, and the way in which Patrick O'Keefe uses three people's stories to share that history was utterly engrossing. The other thing this book did was give me some hope. We live in very difficult times, but The Troubles were incredibly difficult times and they've found their way to peace.</p>
<h2>Drive Your Bones Over the Bones of the Dead</h2>
<p>This book, I don't quite know where to begin. It's a mystery, that touches on mental health, being a neighbor, the importance of animals, finding your family, and it sucked me right in. Janina, the main character, gives everyone nicknames and love animals. When her neighbor dies, it kicks off a series of deaths in the small valley where she lives. Janina, along with her friends, investigate the deaths and along the way we learn about her passions and about the ways in which she views nature, animals, and people. <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780525541332">I really enjoyed it.</a></p>
<h2>A Lessons in Secrets</h2>
<p>Another <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780749040048">Maisie Dobbs book</a> and they keep sucking me in so that I can't put them down. As time passes we're now in 1932 and even as Maisie is still seeingthe ghosts of World War I as she investigates a case, she's also worrying about the events in Europe. And even though you know where events of history are going, Winspear does a great job of finding ways to continue to tie in both the history of the characters along with the events currently happening.</p>
<h2>Sing, Unburied, Sing</h2>
<p>The other novel I've read by Ward was just as other wordly as this one. I love reading to be brought into different cultures and worlds than what I know and <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781501126079">this novel</a>, following the story of a young boy and his family as they welcome his father home from jail is amazing. The boy and his sister have a power that none of the others have, to see ghosts and learn from them, helping them free themselves in some way. The final few pages are amazing.</p>
<h2>Ms. Marvel Volume 8: Mecca</h2>
<p>I took a long hiatus from Ms. Marvel, but I'm back to catch up. At times <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781302906085">this volume</a> felt a bit too on the nose for our times, but at others I read a line that made me stop and realize how perfect it was. And it's the latter that keeps me coming back to this story.</p>

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			<title>My patch on the web</title>
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			<updated>2020-02-21T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been thinking a lot over the past two weeks about this little patch of mine on the web. Warren Ellis has been thinking about these things too and he <a href="https://warrenellis.ltd/jot/broadcasting-house-1/">wrote a bit about it today</a>:</p>
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<p>It’s a personal log, that sends signals to the outside world about my daily status and whether or not I’m alive. I would like parts of that to be automated better, but IFTTT can only do so much with WordPress, and I cannot get to grips with iOS Shortcuts. So I have to manually post stuff like a peasant in the olden days. This bothers me more than it should.</p>
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<p>And I realized when I read the above that that has been my problem. Posting isn't quick for me. I've figured out how to do things from my iPad, which is nice, but it still take a bit of work. This is an old creaky Jekyll site and I don't really want to change that right now either, I want to focus on posting things. So I'm left with a more manual process than I would like, but instead of making that an excuse not to post, I'm trying to use it as a way to be more thoughtful about what I post. And the one thing I know for sure is that I still like this little patch of mine, there is a lot of history here, and I'm glad I have it.</p>

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			<title>Drawing without looking</title>
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			<updated>2020-02-20T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>This morning as I was eating breakfast and reading my feeds I read Austin Kleon's <a href="https://austinkleon.com/2020/02/20/blind-contour-drawings/">post about blind contour drawing</a>. It's worth a read if you're into learning about a bunch of people who are also into blind contour drawing. But it led me to read the <a href="https://www.nytimes.com/2015/05/17/magazine/letter-of-recommendation-blind-contour-drawing.html">piece he cites in the New York Times by Sam Anderson</a>.</p>
<p>I really like doing blind contours and contrary to what many folks think, I think many of them can be finished drawings, just as valuable and worthy as the ones you do while looking. There is a magic to them that can only happen when you give up that kind of control. As Anderson says in his piece,</p>
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<p>But inevitably, almost by accident, your hand will produce little slivers of excellence — a nose that looks exactly right, an inscrutable expression on someone’s face, the dip and curve of a dog’s back — but then these will be obliterated, immediately, by the subsequent maelstrom of lines. I have learned to enjoy the feeling of swimming in sensory ignorance, to appreciate the vast distance between my hand and the reality it tries to trace.</p>
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<p>I haven't been drawing as much as I'd like recently, this was a good reminder to pick up the pen and draw something without looking at it.</p>

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			<title>Iterating on self care</title>
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			<updated>2020-02-01T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I spent the last month working on a new habit. Some of you may be thinking it's because of the new year, but that was a coincidence for me, I've been adding in things here and there to my life to help me take better care and deal with the world.</p>
<p>Last fall I committed to running three times a week throughout the entire winter. The winter of 2018-2019 I'd done a horrible job of running regularly, using bad weather as my excuse. This winter I wanted to keep going, knowing it was good for my physical and mental health. And, except for one week where we had ice on the ground for a few days, I've done it. I missed only one run one week since the beginning of November. On top of that I've run much longer distances, each week I do a long run and they increased in length. It's been good for me in numerous ways, but the most important is that I get a break and simply run. I know it's good for my physical body, but for me the mental benefits out weight the physical.</p>
<p>Knowing that January was going to be a tough month with a huge project launch at work as well as the events of the world and my own government, I wanted to add something else in. This time I chose to commit to getting on the yoga mat each and every day of the month. I woke early on week days to do it before work and used a free thirty day program offered by <a href="https://www.youtube.com/user/yogawithadriene">Yoga with Adriene</a>. I came to enjoy the early morning quiet as I got up, snuck out of the bedroom, walked through the house to the room with my yoga mat, and sat down taking in a deep breath. I kept the volume on the videos low and after they finished I sat in quiet for a few more moments.</p>
<p>It's hard to put into words how much that addition changed things for me this month. I started my day off with easy movement and then three days a week I ran at mid day. My back, which troubles me in a particular spot, is not nearly as bad as it was in December. I was able to stop during frustrating moments at work and walk to the window and look out and take a deep breath, giving myself space before dealing with whatever was before me. I honestly had no idea how much this would change my attitude towards work and everything else.</p>
<p>I say all of this not to brag, but to remind myself that these things are important. The running along with the yoga are helping me cope in a time when that's quite hard. It keeps me away from the news, keeps me away from work slack, and helps me focus some time on just being with myself. These times are hard, but there are ways we can get through them if we look for them and we try. If you like low-fi physical ways to start a new habit, I recommend <a href="https://austinkleon.com/2020/01/31/29-day-challenge/">Austin Kleon's free PDF</a> to cross off the days as you go on a journey of trying something new.</p>

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			<title>Inputs outputs</title>
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			<updated>2020-01-05T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Just before the holiday weeks I read something on <a href="https://austinkleon.com/2019/12/19/your-output-depends-on-your-input/">Austin Kleon's website</a> about inputs versus outputs that really resonated with me. I decided to take the quieter holiday time to change my inputs and it's been so good for me that I thought I'd write about it.</p>
<p>I stopped looking at news, I think I went to a news website three times, one of which was to look for a specific article in the food section. I stopped with most social media. But most importantly I made decisions to watch a bunch of movies and read and listen to podcasts. I watched more movies over the past two weeks than I did in all of 2019, getting DVDs from the library of older things I hadn't seen.</p>
<p>So here's a bit of a round up of some of my inputs and what I thought of them.</p>
<p><em>The Grand Budapest Hotel</em> I loved this movie, laughing out loud several times. I hadn't watched a Wes Anderson film in quite some time and that was a mistake, I love his style so much.</p>
<p><em>Phantom Thread</em> I didn't really know what to expect from this film, and well, it was certainly interesting and different. It's the story of  an artist at work and what happens when love enters his life, causing complete disruption to someone who can't function well with disruption.</p>
<p><em>Booksmart</em> WOW is all I can say about this film. So many scenes that I laughed at, but also so relatable for me and it brought me back to many of my own high school moments, in a good way. It's amazing.</p>
<p><em>Isle of Dogs</em> Yup, more Wes Anderson and I loved this one more than any other Wes Anderson film I've seen. It's quirky, funny, and the stars are my favorite animals, dogs. I'll be getting this and watching it again for sure.</p>
<p><em>Wonder Woman</em> This is my one stinker of the entire time. I really disliked it, I didn't find the story that good or convincing and the way in which it played out was not for me. I found the very beginning on the island to be the best part and wanted to know more about some of those characters.</p>
<p><em>Little Women</em> I honestly didn't think I needed another version of <em>Little Women</em> in my life, but I heard David Remnick interview Greta Gerwig on the New Yorker Radio Hour and decided to see it. It's so good. A really interesting new look at the book and the back and forth between the present and the past brought together connections in a new way. I highly recommend it.</p>
<p><em>Lady Bird</em> A coming of age tale that at times had me aching for Lady Bird. There were so many scenes where she's talking with her mom that were almost directly from my own expereince. I loved it. And I realized that I still know all the words to the Dave Matthew's Band <em>Crash Into Me</em>. (I know, I know....)</p>
<p>Bonus for the viewing side of things: <em>Chernobyl</em>. We finished this prior to the two weeks of the holidays, but in our house this series was something we talked about for quite a while. There is so much here about government, organizations, how they work, etc. It's a hard series to watch, but so worth watching.</p>
<p>I read four books and you can find the reviews in my <a href="/reading">reading section</a>. The best of the two weeks by far was <a href="/reading/secrets-we-kept/"><em>The Secrets We Kept</em></a>, an amazing novel based on the CIA getting <em>Doctor Zhivago</em>, publishing it in Russian, and having it smuggled back into the country. I also highly recommend a <a href="https://www.nytimes.com/2019/08/29/books/lara-prescott-secrets-we-kept.html">New York Times article</a> about the author, it's how it got on my to read list in the first place. My favorite book of 2019, since I'm talking about books, is a tie between <a href="/reading/gnomon/"><em>Gnomon</em></a> and <a href="/reading/life-in-code/"><em>Life in Code</em></a>, very different books, but ones I'm still thinking about.</p>
<p>Finally, I listened to a podcast episode that's a few years old at this point, but so well done. The <em>Secret History of the Future</em> is right up my alley and I really enjoyed the first season, especially <a href="https://slate.com/technology/2018/10/people-thought-the-trans-atlantic-cable-or-facebook-might-bring-world-peace.html">episode nine</a>. It's so well put together, you should give it a listen to find out all the ways in which tech isn't the answer.</p>
<p>And here's the thing about all of these inputs: they started me thinking and I've been drawing and doing some rough comics and using the mixed up batch of thoughts that's come from them all to produce some outputs. I'm not ready to share many of those outputs quite yet, but I'm on the road to doing different things because I have so much going on in my head at the moment. The most significant change from the past two weeks that I hope will carry through this whole year is a lot less news. Taking time once a day to take in more thoughtful and less reactionary news is enough for me.</p>

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			<title>The Secrets We Kept</title>
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			<updated>2020-01-04T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Lara Prescott's <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780525656159"><em>The Secrets We Kept</em></a> is a great spy caper all told through the eyes of women on both sides of the story. Inspired by the way in which the CIA used <em>Doctor Zhivago</em> as a propaganda tool in the 1950s, Prescott weaves a tale told from both sides and it sucked me in, I tore through the book in a couple of days.</p>
<p>Prescott uses the typing pool in the CIA headquarters (back before Langley was built) to tie the story together, but then also has three other women involved in the story tell their sides, one of which is Pasternak's mistress in the Soviet Union. Between these four different points of view, the story unfolds and we learn about the writing of the book, the way in which the Soviet government sees it, and what the CIA wants to do with it.</p>
<p>The book is about so much more than that, it's also about how women and people of that era were forced to live hidden lives if they didn't fit in culturally. And as we learn more and more about the main characters, we see how difficult it was to be different in that era. But for me the true brilliance was the use of the typing pool characters, the chapters from their point of view wove it all together and helped you see just how the other characters' lives intersected.</p>
<p>I have no idea how much of the history is true, but the book has made me want to read more about that era and about this operation in particular, because it's a fascinating idea to use literature to help change a country.</p>

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			<title>How to Disappear</title>
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			<updated>2020-01-04T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I was really excited for this book. I thought it would be a great follow on to <em>How to Do Nothing</em>, but unfortunately it wasn't quite what I expected. <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781101980415"><em>How to Disappear: Notes on Invisibility in a Time of Transparency</em></a> by Akiko Busch wasn't bad, it just wasn't quite what I thought it would be going in.</p>
<p>The introduction started out strong, she asked the questions I was hoping for answers to and then as I read on, she didn't really answer them at all, but instead looked at different ways in which, during the course of our lives, we make use of invisibility. From children who have invisible friends to academics working on creating an invisibility cloak, Busch does a lot of research and talks with a lot of folks, but it always felt like she was talking around the true subject.</p>
<p>I was looking for more about the transparency that seems so inherent in our culture now and how we can get away from that and she never quite got there until the final chapter which ended with more questions than answers. But maybe that's the point, maybe you can't really answer these questions? I'm not sure but the book left me wanting something more. Something more about the fact that our current technology asks us to sacrifice a great deal of privacy in order to use it.</p>

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			<title>The Song of Achilles</title>
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			<updated>2019-12-26T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Earlier this year I read <a href="https://www.susanjeanrobertson.com/reading/circe/"><em>Circe</em></a> and absolutely adored it, Madeline Miller spins stories from bits and pieces of the classics. I had no idea she'd written another book and I put the hold on it and got it and devoured it. <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780062060624"><em>The Song of Achilles</em></a> is a beautiful love story between Achilles and his life long companion Patroclus.</p>
<p>I'll be honest, I don't know much about the Greek classics. I haven't read any of them myself, although I do have the Emily Watson translation of <em>The Odyssey</em> on my shelf and it's a 2020 goal to read it. But Miller manages to make the stories amazing and exciting. I realize that she's filling in a lot of blanks and they aren't necessarily true, but her descriptions of their lives are beautiful. She writes amazing sentences.</p>
<p>I highly recommend her writing and I really hope that she's writing more because I for one will read anything she writes as soon as its published.</p>

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			<title>Moomin books one and two</title>
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			<updated>2019-12-26T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I loved the Tove Jansson adult novel I read earlier this year and so many people recommended the Moomin books that I needed to read them for myself. And after a stressful fall at my job, this break felt like a good time to dive into the world of the Moomins. So far I've read the first two books, <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780312608880"><em>Comet in Moominland</em></a> and <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780312608897"><em>Finn Family Moomintroll</em></a>, and they're both delightful.</p>
<p>Jansson does an amazing job of creating a world that is funny, full of lovable characters, and has several bits of wisdom strewn throughout. The Moomins live with several friends and they're all a bit odd in their own way, but each is accepted into the family with no questions asked. As new folks arrive at the Moomin house Moominmama welcomes them in.</p>
<p>The other part of these stories I loved was how much science was in them, of course in the first one as they are trying to find the comet and get more information, a telescope is involved and then in the second book a barometer makes an appearance. I love that Jansson incorporates these odd ball science lessons into the books and it works so well.</p>
<p>If you have kids, I highly recommend these books, I'll be hitting up my library to get the rest of them very soon.</p>

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			<title>Life in Code: A Personal History of Technology</title>
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			<updated>2019-12-18T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>There are times when you read a book and it hits you in so many ways, it's the perfect time to be reading the book and you tear through it and you love it. <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781250181695"><em>Life in Code: A Personal History of Technology</em></a> by Ellen Ullman was this type of book for me. It's composed of essays written over the course of several years telling the story of working in tech but also critiquing tech. Ullman spares no punches and her essays from twenty years ago are just as relevant today as the final essay written after Trump came into office.</p>
<p>Ullman's writing style is fantastic and her sense of humor pitch perfect, but it was her story, her story of getting the job done when no one thought she could, of figuring out and seeing what tech could become, of worrying about what it would become that struck me so hard. I don't know San Francisco well at all, but I think for any of us that have lived in cities that've gone through major change over the past twenty years, you can relate to how Ullman talks about the changes she witnesses in SOMA.</p>
<p>Ullman talks about her fear of what the internet would do to the world and in her final essay, as she relates what the world is now, what SOMA is like now, and what the world has become with tech driving so much awfulness, it was amazing to see how many of those fears were realized. I don't even remember how I found this book or how it made it onto my list, but I'm very glad it did.</p>
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<p>A senior engineer once asked me why I left full-time engineering for consulting. At the time, I had never really addressed the question, and I was surprised by my own answer. I muttered something about feeling out of place. “Excuse me,” I found myself saying, “but I’m afraid I find the engineering culture very teen-age boy puerile.” This engineer was a brilliant man, good-hearted, and unusually literate for a programmer. I had great respect for him, and I really did not mean to offend him. “That’s too bad,” he answered as if he meant it, “because we obviously lose talent that way.” (p 13)</p>
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<p>Here is a suggested letter home from our journey closer to the machine: Software engineering is a meritocracy. Anyone with the talents and abilities can join the club. However, if rollerblading, Frisbee playing, and water-balloon wars are not your idea of fun—if you have friends you would like to see often, children you would like to raise—you are not likely to stay long. (p 14)</p>
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<p>No one left who understands. Air-traffic control systems, bookkeeping, drafting, circuit design, spelling, assembly lines, ordering systems, network communications, rocket launchers, atom-bomb silos, electric generators, operating systems, fuel injectors, CAT scans—an exploding list of subjects, objects, and processes rushing into code, which eventually will be left running without anyone left who understands them. A world floating atop a sea of programs we’ve come to rely on but no longer truly control. Code and forget, code and forget: programming as a collective exercise in incremental forgetting. (p 52)</p>
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<p>We were reminded that software engineering was not about right and wrong but only better and worse, solutions that solved some problems while ignoring or exacerbating others. That the machine the world wants to see as possessing some supreme power and intelligence was indeed intelligent, but only as we humans are: full of hedge and error, brilliance and backtrack and compromise. (p 54)</p>
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<p>most of the veteran programmers are amazed to learn that their ancient code is still working somewhere. They were sure someone would replace it. (p 61)</p>
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<p>But now, without leaving home, from the comfort of your easy chair, you can divorce yourself from the consensus on what constitutes “truth.” Each person can live in a private thought bubble, reading only those websites that reinforce his or her desired beliefs, joining only those online groups that give sustenance when the believer’s courage flags. (p 89)</p>
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<p>It is a profoundly libertarian vision, and it is the message that underlies all the mythologizing about the web: the idea that the civic space is dead, useless, dangerous, and the only place of pleasure and satisfaction is your home. You, home, family; beyond that, the world. From the intensely private to the global, with little in between but an Intel processor and a search engine. (p 91)</p>
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<p>But who exactly gets to stay at home? Only a certain class of knowledge worker can stay home and click. On the other side of this ideal of work-anywhere freedom (if indeed it is freedom never to be away from work) is the reality that somebody had to make the thing you ordered with a click. Somebody had to put it in a box, do the paperwork, carry it to you. The reality is a world divided not only between the haves and have-nots but between the ones who get to stay home and everyone else, the ones who deliver the goods to them. (p 92)</p>
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<p>Other people are annoying interlopers. They stand between you and your experience, which is special, unique, for you and only you. (p 93)</p>
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<p>Evolution, dismissed as a sloppy programmer, has seen fit to create us as a wild amalgam of everything that came before us: except for the realm of insects, the whole history of life on earth is inscribed within our bodies. And who is to say which piece of this history can be excised, separated, deemed “useless” as an essential part of our nature and being? (p 149)</p>
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<p>And that’s what human sentience is: a hurricane—too complex to understand fully by rational means, something you observe, marvel at, fear with a sense of awe, what finally we give up and call “an act of God.” (p 159)</p>
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<p>I knew years ago that technology would intrude into the intimacies of our lives. But I could not know that so many people would be delighted at that changed state of existence. I could not have imagined that they would simultaneously know they were being surveilled by massive corporations and the government, yet still suppress the thought and go on revealing themselves. This seemed to me a madness of our time. (p 206)</p>
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<p>I had to get away from this man, I thought, I had to quit. But there was my résumé to think of: at least one year on the job. And what revenge I was extracting by staying and succeeding. (p 214)</p>
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<p>Through it all, I embraced the new technologies as they emerged but looked at them with a gimlet eye. I could not succumb to believing in the ultimate goodness of technology; something kept me from the dizzy addiction. I was not surprised to find out the worst of what had happened to the internet. (p 236)</p>
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<p>From then on, I knew I could be shamed and humiliated by others for my struggles and failures, but that was no reason to give up. (p 239)</p>
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<p>The goal is for the general population to pierce the computing veil; to demystify algorithms; to know that code has biases, that programs are written by human beings and can be changed by human beings; to know the concepts, the patterns of thinking, the paths through which human thoughts get altered as they pass into the language of computers. (p 246)</p>
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<p>Yet all vital cities must change. A city that does not extend its boundaries into underused areas is a dead city. The question is, into which boundaries and what sort of change? (p 279)</p>
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<p>It occurs to me that most of the new inhabitants of the new SOMA don’t need a neighborhood as we once knew it. Maybe the city planners were right in their careless and unfeeling way. The new residents have a different idea of what a city is; their primary concern is finding comfortable, affordable quarters, not necessarily a community. They won’t miss the local dry cleaner or drugstore or convenience market. They do need places where the actual physical body must be present—the hair salons, yoga studios, and gyms. Otherwise, their needs will be satisfied by delivery people. (p 282)</p>
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<p>The deliverers deposit the goods by the door and are gone, faceless servants. The recipients have no idea who has come by to fulfill their desires. They come home to see their wishes fulfilled as if by magic, materializing out of an ethereal, disembodied world. (p 284)</p>
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<p>It is best to be the CEO; it is satisfactory to be an early employee, maybe the fifth or sixth or perhaps the tenth. Alternately, one may become an engineer devising precious algorithms in the cloisters of Google and its like. Otherwise one becomes a mere employee. A coder of websites at Facebook is no one in particular. A manager at Microsoft is no one. A person (think woman) working in customer relations is a particular type of no one, banished to the bottom, as always, for having spoken directly to a non-technical human being. (p 285)</p>
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<p>“Do what you love,” as if that choice were possible for the vast vast majority of people on earth. (p 292)</p>
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<p>The assumption is change for the better. But rarely have I met would-be founders who consider how the “better” world they envision may be entwined with one that is worse. Without that introspection, the motto of change devolves into an egoistic motive, a willful blindness to the contributions of the past, not realizing that with every advance there also comes some aspect of life that is diminished, or will vanish, for good or ill; and we are at least obliged to look back and recognize what was before and what may never be again. (p 292)</p>
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<p>Uber is changing the world. Amazon is changing the world. Facebook is changing the world. In their wake follow struggling drivers and deliverers, disappearing opportunities for immigrants to join the middle class, fake news, echo chambers in which anyone can choose to believe anything … this list too long to continue here. (p 293)</p>
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<p>When I read a tweet from Trump, I think back to 1998, to the coming of disintermediation, the process of removing the intermediaries who for centuries had been part of our economic and social relationships. We were witnessing a moment when the public was being coerced into believing that the brokers, jobbers, agents who traditionally had been involved in their transactions—even librarians and journalists—were incompetents, out for themselves, dishonest, the next thing to snake-oil salesmen and mustache twirlers. The intermediaries were useless; you could trust only websites; go directly to the internet. (p 297)</p>
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<p>compared to the early hopes for the web, the internet is a god that failed. (p 304)</p>
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			<title>Vera Stanhope</title>
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			<updated>2019-12-03T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I finished the Vera Stanhope series by Ann Cleeves and the final book was so well done. <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781250193322"><em>The Seagull</em></a> is a great mystery spanning the decades and it brings Vera right into the past of her father. It's the best book of the series.</p>
<p>But I like this series, I like the character, and I have no idea if Cleeves is done writing it or if she's going to keep going, but Vera, the character, is super interesting to me. I've tried to watch the TV show, but honestly, the Vera in my head is nothing like that Vera so I can't do it. And if this is the last book with Vera in it, that's OK, because it's a decent ending for it.</p>

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			<title>A Legacy of Spies</title>
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			<updated>2019-12-03T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'll admit it, I've recently taken to reading a lot of mysteries and thrillers, it's my way of getting away from what's going on in the world right now. When I'm exhausted by the news, I pick one of these books up. And recently I went back to John LeCarré. <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780525505488"><em>A Legacy of Spies</em></a> is a more recent book of his, and it's finished retired spies being asked to account for their actions of years before.</p>
<p>It's a George Smiley book, even though he is a character lurking in the background for the vast majority of the story. Peter Guilliam is the main character here, answering the questions and recounting the story, slowly leading us to the secret that he's kept for decades.</p>
<p>As is usual for a LeCarré book, I read for quite a while not really knowing how it all fits together and then it slams together in the end with very little falling action. But what I liked about this one was the fact that the characters were having to be honest with themselves about what they did years before and whether that was right or wrong. It's as if LeCarré is coming to terms with the actions of all those spies he wrote about for years and now stepping back and analyzing if it was all worth it.</p>

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			<title>Working</title>
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			<updated>2019-11-25T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'd already read several of the pieces in Robert Caro's <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780525656340"><em>Working</em></a> but it was so good to read them again. Caro reflects deeply on his work, what makes it successful, and why truth matters and writing matters. He's best known for his in depth writing on Robert Moses and Lyndon Johnson, but what he's really writing about, as he readily says, is power.</p>
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<p>...in order to write about political power the way I wanted to write about it, I would have to write not only about the powerful but about the powerless as well—would have to write about them (and learn about their lives) thoroughly enough so that I could make the reader feel for them, empathize with them, and with what political power did for them, or to them. (loc 99)</p>
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<p>Everything you’ve been doing is bullshit. Underlying every one of my stories was the traditional belief that you’re in a democracy and the power in a democracy comes from being elected. Yet here was a man, Robert Moses, who had never been elected to anything, and he had enough power to turn around a whole state government in one day. And he’s had this power for more than forty years, and you, Bob Caro, who are supposed to be writing about political power and explaining it, you have no idea where he got this power. (loc 440)</p>
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<p>I was starting to glimpse, through the mists of public myth and my own ignorance, the dim outlines of something that I didn’t understand and couldn’t see clearly but that might be, in terms of political power, quite substantial indeed. (loc 579)</p>
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<p>But these conversations with the Long Island farmers had brought home to me in a new way the fact that a change on a map—Robert Moses’ pencil going one way instead of another, not because of engineering considerations but because of calculations in which the key factor was power—had had profound consequences on the lives of men and women like those farmers whose homes were just tiny dots on Moses’ big maps. (loc 1040)</p>
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<p>There is evil and injustice that can be caused by political power, but there is also great good. It seems to me sometimes that people have forgotten this. They’ve forgotten, for example, what Franklin Roosevelt did: how he transformed people’s lives. How he gave hope to people. Now people talk in vague terms about government programs and infrastructure, but they’ve forgotten the women of the Hill Country and how electricity changed their lives. They’ve forgotten that when Robert Moses got the Triborough Bridge built in New York, that was infrastructure. To provide enough concrete for its roadways and immense anchorages, cement factories that had been closed by the Depression had to be reopened in a dozen states; to make steel for its girders, fifty separate steel mills had to be fired up. And that one bridge created thousands of jobs: 31,000,000 man hours of work, done in twenty states, went into it. We certainly see how government can work to your detriment today, but people have forgotten what government can do for you. They’ve forgotten the potential of government, the power of government, to transform people’s lives for the better. (loc 2942)</p>
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<p>Rhythm matters. Mood matters. Sense of place matters. All these things we talk about with novels, yet I feel that for history and biography to accomplish what they should accomplish, they have to pay as much attention to these devices as novels do. (loc 2600)</p>
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<p>Really, my books are an examination of what power does to people. Power doesn’t always corrupt, and you can see it in the case of, for example, Al Smith or Sam Rayburn. There, power cleanses. But what power always does is reveal, because when you’re climbing, you have to conceal from people what it is you’re really willing to do, what it is you want to do. But once you get enough power, once you’re there, where you wanted to be all along, then you can see what the protagonist wanted to do all along, because now he’s doing it. (loc 2788)</p>
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<p>The more we understand about the realities of the political process, the better informed our votes will be. And then, presumably, in some very diffuse, very inchoate way, the better our country will be. (loc 2808)</p>
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			<title>Resilient Management</title>
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			<updated>2019-11-25T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I finally read the copy of Lara Hogan's <a href="https://abookapart.com/products/resilient-management"><em>Resilient Management</em></a> that I've had for a few months. I'm so glad I finally read it, because it's about so much more than management.</p>
<p>I'll be honest, I don't have a lot of interest in being a people manager, if I do move up a <em>ladder</em>, so to speak, I'd rather move into a leadership role that is more strategic, but doesn't necessarily involve managing people. BUT this book is about so much more than managing a team, because in order to help someone manage better, Hogan goes into team dynamics, brain science behind how people react to things, and how to give feedback.</p>
<p>Normally, I type up my highlights, but to be honest, I plowed through this book and didn't underline things because I probably would've underlined whole chapters. I know I'll be referring back to the chapters on setting expectations and communicating effectively over and over as I work. I find team dynamics hard, so I'm really glad to have a reference when I'm working through a rough patch at work, something that can give me words to help explain what's going on when I'm flummoxed.</p>
<p>My bottom line is even if you aren't interested in managing people, this book is well worth reading.</p>

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			<title>City of Girls</title>
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				<p>I read a lot of novels, every night before bed that's what calms me down and helps me fall asleep, but it's rare for me to read a book that keeps me up later than normal and is hard to put down, but <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781594634734"><em>City of Girls: A Novel</em></a> by Elizabeth Gilbert was the rare novel that kept me up. It follows the story of Vivian Morris as she flunks out of Vanderbilt and moves to New York City to live with her aunt who's in the theater business in the 1940s.</p>
<p>The book follows Vivian well beyond the 1940s, Vivian is explaining to a person why she and that person's father were friends, what was their friendship. In Vivian, Gilbert creates a fascinating character and I loved following her life because it didn't go at all where I expected.</p>
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<p>And I do want to assure you: I’m aware that many things were not better in the 1940s. Underarm deodorants and air-conditioning were woefully inadequate, for instance, so everybody stank like crazy, especially in the summer, and also we had Hitler. But trains were unquestionably better back then. When was the last time you got to enjoy a malted milk and a cigarette on a train? (loc 134)</p>
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<p>...but here is the thing about drinking: one can always drink more, if one is truly committed. It’s just a matter of discipline, really. (loc 2397)</p>
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<p>The one good thing about being Protestant is that we are not expected to cringe forever in contrition. Yours was a venial sin, Vivian, but not a mortal one.” (loc 4396)</p>
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<p>Once I got the hang of it, I found that eating alone by the window in a quiet restaurant is one of life’s greatest secret pleasures. (loc 4588)</p>
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<p>When we are young, Angela, we may fall victim to the misconception that time will heal all wounds and that eventually everything will shake itself out. But as we get older, we learn this sad truth: some things can never be fixed. Some mistakes can never be put right—not by the passage of time, and not by our most fervent wishes, either. (loc 4631)</p>
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			<title>The Remains of the Day</title>
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			<updated>2019-10-21T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I saw the movie of this book years ago when it came out, but I honestly didn't remember the storyline very well and this book is so highly regarded, I finally got it out from the library. <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780679731726"><em>The Remains of the Day</em></a> by Kazuo Ishiguro is a wonderful book and I can't believe I waited so long to read it.</p>
<p>Ishiguro's descriptions and depictions of all the various characters, but most especially the interactions between Stevens and Miss Kenton. But I also really enjoyed how much was conveyed in so few glimpses of Lord Darlington and his various associates as they come in and out of the house. There were times when reading that I could feel the tension and the repressed emotions seeping out to the side as people interacted.</p>
<p>This is a beautiful and fantastic novel. The way in which Stevens looks back on his life, on his years of service, and touches on the way in which he never says certain things, but you understand the subtext perfectly. Ishiguro is a masterful writer.</p>

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			<title>Milkman</title>
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			<updated>2019-10-21T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>It took me a while to get on with this book, <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781644450000"><em>Milkman</em></a> is written in a different voice and tone, but by the halfway point, the book started to work for me, in all the best ways. Anna Burns writes about an unknown place, where people live in separate districts, where there is the country over the sea that is hated, and where middle sister is trying her best in life.</p>
<p>The language and the way no one had a name works perfectly for the book, middle sister could be anyone, she is easy to relate to, as she walks and reads and people find her strange. But middle sister is living life in a world where there is no thinking, really, and most of the world does as its told by those in authority. She reads to escape, she goes to classes to learn new things and because of the teacher in her French class, the world opens up in bits and pieces.</p>
<p>Milkman is a great story, funny at times, and poignant at others and I grew to be intrigued with the world Burns created, I have thoughts about the influences, but I would love to talk with her about it.</p>
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<p>If what she was saying was true, that the sky – out there – not out there – whatever – could be any colour, that meant anything could be any colour, that anything could be anything, that anything could happen, at any time, in any place, in the whole of the world, and to anybody – probably had too, only we just hadn’t noticed. So no. After generation upon generation, fathers upon forefathers, mothers upon foremothers, centuries and millennia of being one colour officially and three colours unofficially, a colourful sky, just like that, could not be allowed to be. (loc 1114)</p>
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<p>...it was at that moment, just as I was thinking, what the fuck are they— that something out there – or something in me – then changed. It fell into place because now, instead of blue, blue and more blue – the official blue everyone understood and thought was up there – the truth hit my senses. It became clear as I gazed that there was no blue out there at all. For the first time I saw colours, just as a week later in this French class also was I seeing colours. On both occasions, these colours were blending and mixing, sliding and extending, new colours arriving, all colours combining, colours going on forever, except one which was missing, which was blue. (loc 1174)</p>
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<p>Which was why, eighteen years old, I didn’t talk about the renouncers, was unwilling to reflect upon them, pulled down shutters against the topic of them. It was that I wanted to stay as sane in my mind as I thought then I was. (loc 1759)</p>
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<p>If he could acknowledge one of the unmentionables, also acknowledge he was unable to do anything to alter this unmentionable, maybe that meant it might be possible for anybody – for me – even in powerlessness, to adopt such an attitude of acknowledgement, of acceptance and detachment too. (loc 2226)</p>
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<p>‘Just because I’m outnumbered in my reading-while-walking,’ I said, ‘doesn’t mean I’m wrong. What if one person happened to be sane, longest friend, against a whole background, a race mind, that wasn’t sane, that person would probably be viewed by the mass consciousness as mad – but would that person be mad?’ (loc 3077)</p>
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<p>Of course there was the big one, the biggest reason for not marrying the right spouse. If you married that one, the one you loved and desired and who loved and desired you back, with the union proving true and good and replete with the most fulfilling happiness, well, what if this wonderful spouse didn’t fall out of love with you, or you with them, and neither of you either, got killed in the political problems? All those joyful evers and infinites? Are you sure, really, really sure, you could cope with the prospect of that? (loc 3912)</p>
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<p>So it was, while standing in our kitchen digesting this bit of consequence, that I came to understand how much I’d been closed down, how much I’d been thwarted into a carefully constructed nothingness by that man. Also by the community, by the very mental atmosphere, that minutiae of invasion. (loc 4632)</p>
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			<title>Digital drawing</title>
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			<updated>2019-10-20T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Over the course of the past month or so I've been taking an online course at <a href="https://sketchbookskool.com/">Sketchbook Skool</a> learning techiniques and tips and tricks for using Procreate to draw on the iPad. I've been keeping a physical sketchbook for quite some time, but ever since I got the latest iPad mini with the Apple Pencil I've been looking for a way to learn more about using them for digital drawing.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/digital-drawing/dark-plant-sm.png 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/digital-drawing/dark-plant-lg.png 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="images/build/posts/digital-drawing/dark-plant-sm.png" alt="A plant drawn on a very dark gray background in green, in a sketch style.">
    <figcaption>Playing with using different background colors easily is one of the things I started to love about drawing digitally.</figcaption>
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<p>It's very much been an up and down process for me, but I ended the course last week feeling really good and interested and refreshed about how I can switch up my drawing life using these tools. I feel like I should also say that most folks use a larger iPad when drawing, for more space, but since the mini is my favorite device, my most used device, and also the same size as my preferred sketchbook, it works really well for me.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/digital-drawing/layer-play-sm.png 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/digital-drawing/layer-play-lg.png 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="images/build/posts/digital-drawing/layer-play-sm.png" alt="A strange drawing of a daisy like flower, yellow, with blue background, but the layers are distorted and changed to show under drawing through and more.">
    <figcaption>I don't love the way this turned out, but it was a great learning experience about how I can manipulate layers and change things digitally in ways I can't in my sketchbook.</figcaption>
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<p>Once I got comfortable with Procreate, the pencil, and the size of the screen and how it all worked together, I started to <em>really</em> enjoy drawing on my iPad. I used it when I traveled for work earlier this month, which cut down on how much I had to pack. I'm using tools in the software that I would <em>never</em> use in real life because I don't want to sink the money into it or make the mess.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/digital-drawing/mask-learning-sm.png 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/digital-drawing/mask-learning-lg.png 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="images/build/posts/digital-drawing/mask-learning-sm.png" alt="The word knitting in cursive script with the texture of a photo of actual knitting coming through, along with a hand drawn ball of yarn.">
    <figcaption>Masks are fun and I did a quick piece using a photo of one of the things I've knit for the texture in the script.</figcaption>
</figure>
<p>I'm by no means going to abandon my paper sketchbooks and my beloved colored pencils, but I am feeling a renewed sense of play and freedom in this new outlet for drawing. For now, it's how I prefer to draw, but I'm sure I'll be going back to my sketchbooks soon.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/digital-drawing/photo-drawing-sm.png 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/digital-drawing/photo-drawing-lg.png 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="images/build/posts/digital-drawing/photo-drawing-sm.png" alt="A white case for glasses sitting on a photo of a table.">
    <figcaption>I did a quick drawing of my new glasses case and then decided to take a photo of the actual table I was sitting at for the background.</figcaption>
</figure>
<p>One other note, I've really enjoyed both of the courses I've taken through Sketchbook Skool, the videos are great and the forum they host for students, while not being the best software, is a great way to share with others who are learning right along with you.</p>
<figure>
    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/digital-drawing/final-drawing-sm.png 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/digital-drawing/final-drawing-lg.png 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="images/build/posts/digital-drawing/final-drawing-sm.png" alt="An empty glass next to a bottle of Rededemption Rye, the details sketched in for the label, all sitting against a bright green background.">
    <figcaption>My final drawing for the course "homework" where I put a lot of techniques together. I had fun drawing this and am excited to continue to learn and practice more.</figcaption>
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			<title>The Summer Book</title>
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			<updated>2019-10-19T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Tove Jansson is best known for her Moomin books, but she did write for adults and this slim novel is a wonderful traipse through a summer on a remote island, following a young girl, her grandmother, and her father as they spend the summer together. <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781590172681">_The Summer Book _</a> is a delightful get away book and I read it right at the end of summer here in the Northern Hemisphere, which seemed appropriate timing.</p>
<p>Jansson mostly hops from chapter to chapter following the girl and her grandmother as they spend their days on the island together. The grandmother is a bit cranky, often wanting to rest, but the young girl often wins her over to going on some adventure. The relationship between them is beautiful and I'll admit, I felt a bit of longing for being a young girl again on a summer day staying at my Grammie's house and doing fun things.</p>
<p>And I'll also admit that I would love to be in the world of the island for a summer, getting away from most of the rest of the world for a few months, since that isn't really possible, the novel will have to do for now.</p>

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			<title>The Spectator Bird</title>
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			<updated>2019-10-19T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I wasn't quite sure what to expect when I started <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780525431879"><em>The Spectator Bird</em></a>. I love Wallace Stegner's writing, so I trusted that it would be good, but I didn't realize how much it would make me think about the life I've lived so far. The book is about a retired publisher, Joe Allston, who digs out old journals from a sabbatical he spent in Denmark just after his only child committed suicide.</p>
<p>Joe's wife insists he read the diaries to her, and they relive the experience together and through those memories confront some difficult emotions and experiences. Joe is cantankerous, he's aging and he doesn't like it, but through the reading of the diaries, he and his wife put to rest some of ghosts from their past.</p>
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<p>Some people, I am told, have memories like computers, nothing to do but punch the button and wait for the print-out. Mine is more like a Japanese library of the old style, without a card file or an indexing system or any systematic shelf plan. Nobody knows where anything is except the old geezer in felt slippers who has been shuffling up and down those stacks for sixty-nine years. When you hand him a problem he doesn’t come back with a cartful and dump it before you, a jackpot of instant retrieval. He finds one thing, which reminds him of another, which leads him off to the annex, which directs him to the east wing, which sends him back two tiers from where he started. Bit by bit he finds you what you want, but like his boss who seems to be under pressure to examine his life, he takes his time. (loc 501)</p>
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<p>Getting old is like standing in a long, slow line. You wake up out of the shuffle and torpor only at those moments when the line moves you one step closer to the window. (loc 2797)</p>
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<p>...I had a fatalistic sense of how delusory are the options that seem to open during the course of a life. In an instant, the opportunities that open like the eyelids of someone rousing from coma can close again, and be closed forever. Even if the eyes stay open after death, you can look into them and see not a glimmer of what for an instant was revealed. Close them, weight them with pennies. (loc 3165)</p>
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<p>t is something—it can be everything—to have found a fellow bird with whom you can sit among the rafters while the drinking and boasting and reciting and fighting go on below; a fellow bird whom you can look after and find bugs and seeds for; one who will patch your bruises and straighten your ruffled feathers and mourn over your hurts when you accidentally fly into something you can’t handle. (loc 3483)</p>
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			<title>The Reporter&#39;s Kitchen</title>
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			<updated>2019-10-19T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Jane Kramer has been writing for <em>The New Yorker</em> for years, she's a reporter who's traveled the world and written about it. But she's also a home cook, and a very good one at that. Roughly once a year for the last several years, she's written a piece about food and <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781250074379"><em>The Reporter's Kitchen</em></a> collects these essays in one place.</p>
<p>I love reading about food and how people think about it and cook, and in these essays Kramer runs the gamut from interviewing famous chefs to telling the stories of how she's had Thanksgiving in all different parts of the world. And it's the stories of her adventures cooking meals, both in New York and around the world, that I most enjoyed. Having lived in Argentina and been a part of putting on a Thanksgiving where we cooked the turkey in a bread oven, her stories of Thanksgivings she's cooked especially hit home for me.</p>
<p>Kramer is a great writer and she obviously loves cooking and the enthusiasm she has for throwing together a dinner party, deciding to cook something extravagant for the love of it, and the way in which she uses food to bring people together was a great break from all that's going on in the world. If you like food and travel, this is a great book to pick up.</p>

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			<title>Sacrifice</title>
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			<updated>2019-09-16T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>This past weekend two different things have led me to think about how willing we are to back up our beliefs with any type of personal sacrifice. And I've found, in recent years, that most people don't want to have to make any sacrifices in order to stand up for the things that they profess as being important to them. And when I talk about sacrifice. I mean either time or money or both.</p>
<p>Anne Helen Peterson in <a href="https://annehelen.substack.com/p/what-great-inconvenience">her newsletter</a> talked about this at length.</p>
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<p>Hedge funds and private equity often take pretty solid jobs and render them shitty. But start-ups, with their dependency on the independent contractor model, are shitty job generators. They launched their services, grew them exponentially, and insinuated them into everyday life — and were celebrated for their “disruption” for the unoptimized, analog way of doing things. For those who could afford them, they’ve made life quicker, easier, more seamless. But they’ve done it by creating a whole layer of shitty jobs, excused away as “side gigs” without acknowledging that those side gigs are necessary because of how many <em>other</em> layers of shitty jobs there are.</p>
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<p>And Peterson goes on:</p>
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<p>All we see with an Uber is convenience. All we see with a cheap yoga class is the ability to spend money on other things. None of this is discount what rideshare has made better, or mainstream yoga affords in terms of access. But there’s a disconnect between things that we value and our willingness to pay what they actually <em>cost</em> — what those conveniences, that “affordability,” does to the actual humans who provide them.</p>
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<p>And then in a <a href="https://www.washingtonpost.com/climate-environment/americans-increasingly-see-climate-change-as-a-crisis-poll-shows/2019/09/12/74234db0-cd2a-11e9-87fa-8501a456c003_story.html">Washington Post article on climate change</a> it came up again.</p>
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<p>Though Americans are increasingly worried about climate change, fewer than 4 in 10 say they believe that tackling the problem will require them to make “major sacrifices.” And most are unwilling to pay for it out of their own pockets.</p>
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<p>To be sure, there are people who can't afford to pay more for things or who are already living on the edge so additional costs will hurt them. But it's amazing to me how many people profess to believe that the climate is changing that it poses a threat to humanity's very existence and they have the ability to make some sacrifices but won't do it; they won't inconvenience themselves.</p>
<p>And in turn, those same people want the conveniences and the &quot;affordability&quot; of the things Peterson references. As she says at the end of her newsletter:</p>
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<p>If you’re actually serious about treating burnout — yours, your partners, your future children’s — you have to be serious about treating it for people you might not even know. If you want to actually make life better, more livable, less of a slog for yourself, that involves making it better for a whole lot of other people as well. For that, you don’t need a self-help book with an asterisk in the title to blunt the profanity. You don’t need a better organizational app. You just need to legitimately and actionably care about other people.</p>
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<p>Thinking about how we treat other people, the costs associated with our choices, both seen and unseen is something I think a lot about these days. And now I'm thinking as well about what personal sacrifice looks like to help mitigate climate change.</p>

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			<title>Winter</title>
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			<updated>2019-09-08T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>The second installment of Ali Smith's seasons quartet, <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781101969953"><em>Winter</em></a>, wasn't quite what I was expecting. And as is usual for a lot of books for me lately, the last quarter of the book is where it really all came together. Smith's writing about our times in ways that I find intriguing, but will admit I'm not always sure I totally understand.</p>
<p>In <em>Winter</em> a son is going home for the Christmas holiday after being humiliated online by his partner and because his mother is expecting it, he pays someone else to play the role of his partner so he doesn't have to deal with explaining what happened once he gets home. But unbeknownst to him, his mother has been going through difficulties.</p>
<p>And there we get to what will carry us through the novel, the meeting of people who are family or not, but all of whom are struggling mightily at this very moment. The character willing to tell the truth and speak is the aunt, who is called when the son realizes how much difficulty his mother is having. And through some flashbacks to the past, we learn how very different these sisters are and possibly why they haven't spoken in years.</p>
<p>I'm still not sure what I think of these characters. I'm not totally sure what I think of the book, but I've got <em>Spring</em> on hold now, so I trust Smith enough to keep going with the series.</p>

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			<title>Anything is Possible</title>
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			<updated>2019-09-08T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I really like Elizabeth Strout's writing and <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780812989410"><em>Anything is Possible</em></a> is a wonderful revisiting of the characters and people met in <em>My Name is Lucy Barton</em>. Strout structures this novel with each chapter focusing on a different person who Lucy grew up with and it starts as Lucy's memoir is released.</p>
<p>People fascinate me and Strout does an amazing job of clearly painting the picture of who all these people are and how they relate to each other and, ultimately, to Lucy Barton. As we meet each person we're occasionally given tidbits of the people in previous chapters. Time moves, but it's not always clear how quickly, and we start to see the world Lucy grew up in very different ways. Each and every family had their difficulties.</p>
<p>And isn't that always the truth? No one knows the full story of what happens in families and in so many cases so much more is going on than even the people involved realize. Strout gets that in a way that is amazing and she shows you that reality, again and again, in so many interesting ways. I really enjoyed this book, her descriptions are so amazing I always feel like I'm right in the place.</p>
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<p>It seemed the older he grew—and he had grown old—the more he understood that he could not understand this confusing contest between good and evil, and that maybe people were not meant to understand things here on earth. (p 13)</p>
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			<title>How to Do Nothing</title>
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			<updated>2019-08-11T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I devoured this book, reading it in two long sessions, thinking, underlining, and thinking some more. Jenny Odell presents one of the most compelling arguments I've seen for how to think about and interact with social media and how to take space away from that world. <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781612197494"><em>How to Do Nothing</em></a> made me think even more than I already have been about how I spend my time, right at a time when I've made significant shifts in what I'm choosing to give attention to.</p>
<p>Odell packs so much into this book and I found myself thinking about two of her ideas after I finished it. The first is that we usually present different versions of ourselves and our stories to different people. This is normal, as she quotes a book from 1985 by Joshua Meyrowitz and how he told different versions of European adventures to different people, such as his family versus his friends versus professors. This story in the context of thinking about social media, struck me and has stuck with me. Today we're often told to bring our whole selves to all the various situations we find ourselves in, but is this truly what we do? Should this be what we do? Is there only one version of us and the entire world should see this version?</p>
<p>This ties in with Odell talking about how social media doesn't allow one to change her mind. We're to stay the same, as if we are a brand, for our entire lives. This doesn't allow for growth which is a normal part of the human experience. But in our online lives, with the context of everything taken away, we're not given the latitude to change, to struggle, to go through what are normal human experiences.</p>
<p>This brings me to her ideas about bioregionalism and knowing the places where you are. I've moved to a more rural area, a small town, and I run in a place with no cars. Some times I see other people walking and running or cycling, but often times it's me and the birds, squirrels, maybe a deer or rabbit is nearby. I'm very close to a major interstate, but the area in which I run is teeming with wildlife. I've begun to take an interest in learning more about it all, which birds are these? What are the trees and bushes I'm surrounded by? How can I put native plants in my garden to attract and nourish the local wildlife?</p>
<p>Odell isn't actually calling for us to do nothing, she's calling for us to be deliberate with our attention, to focus it on the things we care about and that matter. In many senses I felt her calling for us to be more aware of our local community rather than focusing on the broader community and in a time where so much of what we see and hear is difficult and depressing, I find these ideas appealing. And it's given me a better vocabulary to talk about what I've been doing this summer, less time online, more time with my community.</p>
<p>I underlined and made notations all over this book, but here are a few favorite nuggets:</p>
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<p>As I disengaged the map of my attention from the destructive news cycle and rhetoric of productivity, I began to build another one based on that of the more-than-human community, simply through patterns of noticing. (p. 122)</p>
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<p>For me, doing nothing means disengaging from one framework (the attention economy) not only to give myself time to think, but to do something else in another framework. (p 179)</p>
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			<title>Gnomon</title>
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			<updated>2019-08-11T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I finished <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780525432937"><em>Gnomon</em></a> by Nick Harkaway a few weeks ago but I haven't quite been able to figure out how to talk about it. As I was reading the book, G would ask me about it and I wasn't sure what to say. What is <em>Gnomon</em> about? How does one describe this book?</p>
<p>I'll start by saying that it's about a detective who's investigating the murder of a woman. Neith works with the Witness, the all seeing, all knowing AI that runs things, but as she investigates she taken into a number of different worlds. How did the Witness come about? What is reality, is it the investigation or some of the other stories we're introduced to? And how does all of this affect people?</p>
<p>As Neith investigates this death, of a woman who refused to live under the surveillance of the Witness, we're introduced to a web of things that are impossible to untangle and honestly I'm still not totally sure what is the true nature of the world Harkaway has created. I'll be pondering this book for a good long while and, even though I don't reread things very often, this may get reread in the years to come.</p>

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			<title>Artemis</title>
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			<updated>2019-08-11T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I really enjoyed <em>The Martian</em> so when I heard the the same author had another book out, I hopped on to the hold list at my library to read it. In <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780553448146"><em>Artemis</em></a> Andy Weir is again back in space, but this time he's set the book on a colony on the moon, with a main character who grew up there. Jasmine &quot;Jazz&quot; Bashara is a smuggler trying to find her lucky break in order to pay back a debt.</p>
<p>The moon colony is run by an organization out of Kenya, since they're right on the equator the time to travel to the moon is shortest and they control the cargo and the people that go up and come back down. But the colony on the moon is populated by people from all over Earth and different ethnic groups have different specialties and work in different aspects of the colony.</p>
<p>The story itself is a caper, where Jazz is trying to get rich quick by pulling off a dangerous deed for the richest colonist on the moon. It isn't a great book, not nearly as compelling a read as <em>The Martian</em> but it was entertaining and good TV reading. Nothing too surprising happens, the characters aren't super compelling, but the action is well done, mostly because of the inherent dangers of being on the moon; I'm a sucker for adventures where the life and death nature of the setting plays a large role in the drama.</p>

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			<title>Educated</title>
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			<updated>2019-07-14T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I finished this book a while ago and have been thinking on how to talk about it the entire time. <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780525589983"><em>Educated</em></a> isn't an easy book to read and it isn't easy to talk about either, Tara Westover's story is a difficult one. But it was so worth the read. Westover grows up in the mountains of Idaho, her parents say they are home schooling her, but most of her education comes whatever she does for herself growing up.</p>
<p>Westover's father hates the government and believes they are out to get people like him and he also fiercely believes that the end times are going to come and they need to be prepared. The kids are forced to work from a young age, either helping their father, or in some type of job to contribute to the family household. Westover works a variety of jobs from childhood through her teenage years. And through it all her home is filled with abuse: emotional, physical, verbal, you name it. The amount of manipulation and guilt that is piled on this girl from a young age is heartbreaking.</p>
<p>I was often angry while reading, angry at her parents, her older siblings, and the community. But to be honest by the end of the book I was amazed, amazed that Westover was able to do what she did, that she got out and found a life for herself away from her family. Westover kept a diary while growing up and this is what helped her write her story, her journals helped her remember the details. But more than anything Westover talks about what constitutes a true education; is it the act of learning in a school or is it about so much more, about figuring out who you are and how the world is and what is true and what isn't true? Westover takes on the latter while also doing the former, as she goes to college and gets graduate degrees.</p>
<p>I highly recommend this book, it's well worth the read, even if you're angry at times.</p>
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<p>But now I understood: the precious thing, that was the maze. That’s all that was left of the life I’d had here: a puzzle whose rules I would never understand, because they were not rules at all but a kind of cage meant to enclose me. (loc 4908)</p>
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<p>What is a person to do, I asked, when their obligations to their family conflict with other obligations—to friends, to society, to themselves? (loc 5022)</p>
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<p>It was only as I grew older that I wondered if how I had started is how I would end—if the first shape a person takes is their only true shape. (loc 5165)</p>
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<p>Guilt is the fear of one’s own wretchedness. It has nothing to do with other people. (loc 5173)</p>
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<p>I shed my guilt when I accepted my decision on its own terms, without endlessly prosecuting old grievances, without weighing his sins against mine. Without thinking of my father at all. I learned to accept my decision for my own sake, because of me, not because of him. Because I needed it, not because he deserved it. (loc 5174)</p>
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			<title>Fasting and Feasting</title>
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			<updated>2019-06-14T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Somewhere around the end of last year I saw <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781603588232"><em>Fast and Feasting: The Life of Visionary Food Writer Patience Gray</em></a> by Adam Federman listed in a best of books list and added it to my very long list of books to read that I keep in notes. And there it sat. But when I was in Powells in April on a trip I decided to look for it and they had it and I bought it. I'm so glad I read this book.</p>
<p>I knew nothing about Patience Gray prior to reading this book, but as I read and learned about her life I found her fascinating. I want to find a copy of <em>Honey from a Weed</em> and most of the other things she wrote, because I want to experience her own words. She lived a very counter cultural life from the very beginning, having children out of wedlock during World War II, raising them while working during the 1950s, and then leaving England to live abroad with her partner in the 1960s.</p>
<p>Gray wasn't an easy woman, she didn't always come off well, she spoke her mind, she could be incredibly selfish, but she strived for a simple life filled with writing, art, and good food. I found her story very compelling, working in tech I often hear people talk about their &quot;get away from it all&quot; dreams and here is a woman who did just that. She worked with editors on her books via a mail service that wasn't the quickest or the most reliable. She lived in a remote part of Italy and grew most of her own food. And somehow she made all of that work for her. That's what's amazing to me.</p>
<p>I'm in no way saying I want to be like Gray, I'm not sure I would live life the same way, but I do want to live with the same type of conviction about the type of life I want. This book was inspirational in that way, showing a person who didn't just follow along with what was expected but rather did what she wanted.</p>
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<p>&quot;Are you not aware that things that really matter to you are not relegated to the past?&quot; Patience continued, delivering one of her many object lessons. &quot;They belong to the present.&quot; (p 65)</p>
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			<title>The Sixth Extinction</title>
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			<updated>2019-05-27T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>If it weren't for the wonderful writing of Elizabeth Kolbert <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781250062185">The Sixth Extinction</a> would've been a much harder read. As it is it was difficult at times, but her sense of humor, ability to be a bit of a cynic, and overall style kept me reading more times than I can count. I wouldn't say that I enjoyed this book so much as that I'm very glad I read it and am still pondering much of what she wrote.</p>
<p>Kolbert devotes each chapter to a different eco system or animal and talks about how things are changing for them. She begins with things that are already extinct and then moves on to various species who're struggling to survive, going back to the species we've lost towards the end. And the through line of all of the species and their struggles is the arrival of humans. In addition she points out that our activity is now making it difficult if not impossible for animals to move to avoid the rising temperatures or the changes in their native habitat. We've built roads, we've cut down their forests, and more, so that they have fewer options than they did before we arrived and these events occurred.</p>
<p>History is long, but what's happening right now is moving incredibly quickly compared to past extinction events and after finishing the book I don't know that we'll ever be able to change or slow down the effects of our actions.</p>
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<p>One of the defining features of the Anthropocene is that the world is changing in ways that compel species to move, and another is that it’s changing in ways that create barriers—roads, clear-cuts, cities—that prevent them from doing so. (p 189)</p>
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<p>One of the many unintended consequences of the Anthropocene has been the pruning of our own family tree. Having cut down our sister species—the Neanderthals and the Denisovans—many generations ago, we’re now working on our first and second cousins. (p 254)</p>
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<p>Right now, in the amazing moment that to us counts as the present, we are deciding, without quite meaning to, which evolutionary pathways will remain open and which will forever be closed. No other creature has ever managed this, and it will, unfortunately, be our most enduring legacy. The Sixth Extinction will continue to determine the course of life long after everything people have written and painted and built has been ground into dust and giant rats have—or have not—inherited the earth. (p 268)</p>
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			<title>Some thoughts on components</title>
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			<updated>2019-05-22T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I just came off of the launch of my first big project at work and as I've been implementing the designs for a new customer I’ve been thinking <em>a lot</em> about systems and how they function. Maybe I should say how I’d like them to function.</p>
<p>I'm currently working in a system where the components I'm building have to work for many different designs and sites. They need to work for a site that is talking about gaming, one that talks about tech, a news and policy site, and so on and so forth. And I'm on the team that's bringing new customers on to the platform, this means that I'm in the weeds with these components making design updates and changes to ensure the accurate rendering of the designs.</p>
<p>On top of getting the designs implemented properly, I also strive to make things accessible for folks. This means that these components, which may be used in different ways by the various sites, also need to flex and flow into the document outline of the layouts in which they're used. I know, it's a lot, it's a lot to ask of a component, but it’s what we’re asking of our components.</p>
<p>This has led me to think <em>very</em> differently about large scale systems of components. I think most components in a large system that has to function for multiple networks/designs/sites should be minimally styled, the absolute bare minimum they need. And in some cases they should be without style and allow for the markup to change if at all possible.</p>
<p>I can hear you in my head right now, you're sitting there reading this and thinking, &quot;but wait, how can it be a design system if things aren't styled, where is the design part?&quot; And to be honest, a few months ago I would've said the same thing if I read what I just wrote above.</p>
<p>But if that component is going to do its job well, it needs to be as flexible as possible. And in the case of a component that may be used for a local news site, or a site about real estate, or a site about national news, it's fairly hard to make it flexible if it’s heavily styled right from the get go.</p>
<p>But then there’s also the question of if you aren’t doing that work, if the component isn’t styled, how does this make things more efficient for implementation? Here's another thing I'm thinking about: maybe it's the component's job to pull in the right data in a structured format. That's it. That's the whole job. So when we talk about the component we're talking about what data it's pulling in and then we add on the layer of styles for each site.</p>
<p>We do a lot of our styling with theming and variables, so the base styles for many things are taken care of when we set the theme settings. But beyond the theme settings, we also do things to change parts of a component all on their own, through overriding styles for specific sites. It works, but it can be tedious, and right now we’re spending too much time overriding the styles that are set in the base component.</p>
<p>Building on this, I’m starting to believe that the base components can then be set up to work within the design portion of each site’s system. Since each site is unique, it’s pulling in the data from the platform and we’re free to style each component in the best way for that site. Instead of styling things based on the component, we’re styling them based on the context in which the component is used.</p>
<p>All of this thinking is a radical departure for me and how I think about systems. But I’ve never worked on a system this large and complex before. I can’t work on something that needs to scale in the way it does and not be willing to take things back down to basics, so that they can be built back up into a better functioning system. And I’m still struggling with this, I’m spending a lot of time thinking about what a component truly is, what’s its core? Where I land on that definition is going to shape how I think the system should be built.</p>

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			<title>Spring book roundup</title>
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			<updated>2019-05-22T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been reading a lot of mysteries and one thriller lately so I thought I'd throw them all in one post. One was fantastic and the rest were entertaining.</p>
<h2>Messenger of Truth</h2>
<p>A Maisie Dobbs mystery, I've been slowly working my way through this series and have finished another two. This <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780312426859">one</a> and one I'll talk about further down. I really like Dobbs and I find the way in which the author finds interesting ways to take what happened in World War I and tie it into stories set in 1930s England, it's amazing. The scars of war can last for such a long time and these mysteries always highlight that. But as the series continues Dobbs herself is becoming a more complex and interesting character.</p>
<h2>An Incomplete Revenge</h2>
<p>Yup, the <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780312428181">second</a> Maisie Dobbs mystery I've finished in the last couple of months. This one tied together World War I, fear of immigrants, small town village crazy, and what can happen when emotions and mobs come together. But this story also pushed further along some of the stories of recurring characters in Dobbs' life as well as those around her. And we finally learned quite a bit more about her mother and her past.</p>
<h2>The Middleman</h2>
<p>I read all of Olen Steinhauer's books where Milo Weaver was the main character and was keenly interested to see he had a new book out and it was a new main character. I finished <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781250036179">this book</a> so quickly because I couldn't put it down, which is typical of Steinhauer's thrillers. It was a fascinating tale of the US in the very recent past (think 2016-2018) and our current political climate and how some are using positions of power to manipulate events. Extremely relevant and yet it managed to go in a few directions I wasn't expecting. I also really enjoyed the main character, Rachel, and I hope he writes more books with her in them.</p>
<h2>Telling Tales</h2>
<p>Another <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781250122773">Vera Stanhope mystery</a> where Vera is investigating a death that is almost a decade old, trying to find out if the wrong person went to prison. I'm gonna admit it, I didn't see the ending of this story coming at all. And I've found I like revisiting old cases as a story line, so much to do with the story and how you reveal the past and when. (As an aside, I've been watching <em>Unforgotten</em> on PBS and it's much the same as this book in that way.) I'm going to keep going with Vera, they are perfect books for hot summer afternoons on the patio after work.</p>

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			<title>Conversations with Friends</title>
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			<updated>2019-05-22T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm at a bit of a loss as to how to write this review, because I rarely finish books that I don't come to hate as I read them, but I finished this one. By the end I was hate reading <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780451499066"><em>Conversations with Friends</em></a> by Sally Rooney. You may be wondering why I finished, but it was honestly because it was such an easy read and I wanted to see how it would end.</p>
<p>But that's my first issue, it didn't really have an ending, it just ended. But more than that I came to really hate the characters by the end. And that's not usually something I enjoy in a book, I want at least one character I like and can root for as I read. But in the case of this book, I knew by the time I was a third in that wasn't going to happen.</p>
<p>I read the book because it's been talked about everywhere and her second novel just came out and so I figured I should give her book a try. And I managed to finish it, but I took her second novel off of my list because I'm no longer trusting all the hype, I'm not sure I can trust what other people are saying, so I'm done with her writing for now.</p>
<p>I will say one positive thing about this book, some of her writing is amazing and I loved some of the sentences, it's just too bad that I didn't like the story or the characters.</p>

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			<title>Binge reading</title>
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			<updated>2019-05-12T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Last weekend I read about <a href="https://www.nytimes.com/2019/05/04/opinion/sunday/why-you-should-start-binge-reading-right-now.html">binge reading</a> in the New York Times to see what someone else had to say about it. The piece got me thinking over the course of the week about how I read, when I read, and what I read. I realized that the way in which I read changes depending on the season. Right now the heat of summer is starting up in earnest which means I'm reading a lot more because I sit outside with a book after work in the late afternoon and evenings. Because I'm drawn outside it means less TV watching and more reading. I've finished quite a few things in the past week because it's been so wonderful to be on the patio with a book.</p>

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			<title>Circe</title>
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			<updated>2019-05-06T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I finished <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780316556347"><em>Circe</em></a> and I sat there wishing there was more to read. Confession: I've never read <em>The Odyssey</em>, it's sitting on my bedside table right now, the new translation by Emily Wilson. But even without that background, this book is amazing.</p>
<p>I also didn't know much about Circe, but that didn't matter either. Apparently she was a goddess known for her use of potions and herbs and in the book she's banished by Zeus to live alone on an island. Her courage, her spunk, and her way of always figuring out what was important in any given situation was amazing. But more than anything else I loved the way she cared for herself and in time, for those she loved. She didn't hesitate to throw all of herself into things once she decided to do it.</p>
<p>I know I've already said this once about a book I've finished this year, but this one is also in the running for my best read of 2019. I'm still thinking on this book and will be for quite some time, but here are a few highlights that I loved towards the end.</p>
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<p>I know how lucky I am, stupid with luck, crammed with it, stumbling drunk.</p>
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<p>I listen to his breath, warm upon the night air, and somehow I am comforted. He does not mean that it does not hurt. He does not mean that we are not frightened. Only that: we are here. This is what it means to swim in the tide, to walk the earth and feel it touch your feet. This is what it means to be alive.</p>
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			<title>Goals</title>
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			<updated>2019-05-01T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I did something unusual for me at the beginning of April, I made a list of goals for the month. Two of them were goals I really wanted to complete and the other three were stretch goals, things I wanted to try to do but wasn't sure I'd be able to make happen.</p>
<p>Let me backtrack for a moment here to say that goal making and I haven't always gotten along. In my career I have one over arching goal, but a lot of times my smaller goals were thrown off track by circumstances outside my controls (like being laid off or getting a new boss that made work life difficult). And in my personal life I made occasionally did a short run project, but didn't make goals a regular thing.</p>
<p>That being said, by the end of March I knew that I needed to figure out a way to find a bit of peace and balance in my life. After starting a job in January and buying a house in February, and moving into said house in March, things had gone off the rails a bit. I wasn't doing things that would help me feel better, healthier, and more content. So I made a list in my journal.</p>
<p>And now I'm at the end of the month, and I did pretty dang well with the goals. Some were related to exercise; I made the goal to run 50k, not a terribly long distance but enough to get me out regularly. I wanted to finish a sweater I'd been working on since January. As for my drawing, I decided to give something different a try, so I worked on things in a sketch book that centered on self data and data visualizations.</p>
<p>I made a few more that are for me alone. I didn't achieve all of them, but I did feel content and peace throughout the month. I kept to many of my goals as I traveled at both the beginning and end of the month as well, helping my sense of balance.</p>
<p>As I sit here writing this on April 30th, I'm making a list of goals for the month of May. Some may be very similar—I've started yet another crochet sweater!—but some may change a bit. And the overarching goal is about me finding ways to spend my time that feels worthwile and that brings me peace. I found that being gentle with myself while also setting up some things I want to accomplish is helping me deal with the world as it is these days.</p>

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			<title>Keep Going</title>
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			<updated>2019-04-30T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>If you haven't followed Austin Kleon, you may not be familiar with him as an artist and writer, but he's written several books on how to be an artist, and now he's added to that with a book on how to do work when you may not feel inspired or like you want to make anything. <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781523506644"><em>Keep Going</em></a> was just what I needed to read right now, so I whipped through the book quickly.</p>
<p>Kleon takes all the things he's read and thought about doing work and keeping going in difficult times and puts them all in one place. I was most struck by two different concepts that I've read about on his blog, but enjoyed the expanded version in the book. The first is Demons Hate Fresh Air and Planting Your Garden.</p>
<p>Just this past week I was feeling unsettled as I worked, not sure what I should be doing, and filled with doubt. I went out for a run, pounding down the greenway noticing all the green leaves coming out and listening to bad pop and the creeks rushing by. I came back refreshed and ready to hit it with my work. Getting out and away from the world and spending some time to look around and just be in the place you are changes my mood every time I do it. And Kleon talks about doing it no matter the weather or the what else is going on and I would agree.</p>
<p>But I also like the way he talks about reaching out to those who've gone before you. Reading, thinking, journaling, and more to see how those writers fit in with your work, how you can take inspiration from them, and by the end I was adding books to my list to look for at the library or in my local bookstore.</p>
<p>And I'm thinking more now about how I want to spend my time, what is worthwhile for me to do now, and how do I make the time and space to do it.</p>

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			<title>The Library Book</title>
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			<updated>2019-04-14T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I waited quite a while to get <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781476740188"><em>The Library Book</em></a> from my local library and it was completely worth the wait. The way in which Susan Orlean weaves together the history of the Los Angeles library, the fire that happened in 1986, the story of trying to figure out who did it, and the way in which libraries function in our culture was so well done. I'm a huge fan of libraries and have talked about them on this site before, I came back to the library as an adult and there is so much wonderful stuff happening in libraries.</p>
<p>Orlean's history of the LA Central Library, the various people who ran the library, and how the library came to be what it is today is so great. I loved learning about the women who ran the library in the late 1800s and early 1900s, of how the library became a central part of LA right from the get go, and more importantly, how much libraries do today for people. The 1986 fire was the reason that Orlean started the writing the book, but the book is about so much more than just that fire. She weaves the story of the fire in and out of the history of the library and a look at what the library is today.</p>
<p>It's still quite early in 2019, but this book is in the running for my favorite book of the year right now, I loved it and had a hard time putting it down.</p>
<p>My highlights below are from the kindle version I borrowed from my local libarary.</p>
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<p>...[T]he more time I spent at Central, the more I realized that a library is an intricate machine, a contraption of whirring gears. (p 60)</p>
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<p>People think that libraries are quiet, but they really aren’t. They rumble with voices and footsteps and a whole orchestral range of book-related noises—the snap of covers clapping shut; the breathy whisk of pages fanning open; the distinctive thunk of one book being stacked on another; the grumble of book carts in the corridors. (p 60)</p>
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<p>The publicness of the public library is an increasingly rare commodity. It becomes harder all the time to think of places that welcome everyone and don’t charge any money for that warm embrace. The commitment to inclusion is so powerful that many decisions about the library hinge on whether or not a particular choice would cause a subset of the public to feel uninvited. (p 67)</p>
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<p>I found myself wondering whether a shared memory can exist if one of the people sharing it no longer remembers it. (p 92)</p>
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<p>Writing a book, just like building a library, is an act of sheer defiance. It is a declaration that you believe in the persistence of memory. (p 94)</p>
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<p>Destroying a library is a kind of terrorism. People think of libraries as the safest and most open places in society. Setting them on fire is like announcing that nothing, and nowhere, is safe. (p 102)</p>
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<p>...[O]ne more piece of the bigger puzzle the library is always seeking to assemble—the looping, unending story of who we are. (p 164)</p>
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<p>...[L]ibrarians should “read as a drunkard drinks or as a bird sings or a cat sleeps or a dog responds to an invitation to go walking, not from conscience or training, but because they’d rather do it than anything else in the world.” (p 198)</p>
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<p>The communal nature of a library is the very essence of the library, in the shared desks and shared books and shared restrooms. (p 244)</p>
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<p>...[L]iked the idea that the library is more expansive and grand than one single mind, and that it requires many people together to form a complete index of its bounty. (p 266)</p>
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<p>Some of them are also discovering that libraries are society’s original coworking spaces and have the distinct advantage of being free. (p 289)</p>
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<p>A library is a good place to soften solitude; a place where you feel part of a conversation that has gone on for hundreds and hundreds of years even when you’re all alone. (p 309)</p>
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			<title>Wrecked</title>
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			<updated>2019-04-01T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>When I travel I often want a book that I can easily pick up and put down if there are interruptions and when I finally got my turn to read <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780316509510"><em>Wrecked</em></a> by Joe Ide, it came right as I was leaving on a quick weekend away. This is the third in the series about IQ, Ide's main character who lives in Long Beach, CA and it is the first book where the main story line running throughout the earlier two was mainly wrapped up.</p>
<p>I wasn't sure where Ide would take this, but he didn't disappoint. IQ is a fantastic main character who is smart, but also doubts himself and feels awkwardly socially. Finally in this book we see IQ in a relationship and we see what happens when he cares about someone deeply and needs to help them.</p>
<p>I enjoyed this book, it was a perfect travel read, and I have no idea if there'll be another one, but I'd love it if there were.</p>

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			<title>Echo</title>
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			<updated>2019-04-01T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been waiting for books on long hold lists at the library and needed something to read so I revisited my wish list and found <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780439874021"><em>Echo</em></a> by Pam Munoz Ryan and decided to give it a go. It's a children's book, so it was a very fast read and yet the story is fantastic and sucked me in from the very beginning.</p>
<p>It follows a harmonica through time and around the world as different children experience the magical effects of the instrument, but also of music. The longest story told is of a young girl, Ivy, who lives during World War II in California with her family. She's poor, hispanic, and extremely talented musically. The harmonica is the one thing she carries with her everywhere she goes.</p>
<p>Ryan takes the object and music and weaves a wonderful story that spans time and somehow in the end she ties it all back together again in one of the most satisfying endings of a book that I've read in a long time. If you have a weekend afternoon I recommend this one.</p>

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			<title>Girls of Paper &amp;amp; Fire</title>
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			<updated>2019-03-16T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been a slow reader this year, taking my time to work through books and I'm in the midst of quite a few very long books, so I decided to intersperse this one after I saw Marie had read it on Instagram. <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780316561365"><em>Girls of Paper &amp; Fire</em></a>by Natasha Ngan and James Patterson was a good escapist read and quick.</p>
<p>Lei is kidnapped and taken to the palace to become one of the concubines for the demon king. The world consists of three main castes and humans (papers) are on the bottom. She's also searching for her what happened to her mother when a group of demons raided her village 7 years before.</p>
<p>But the book blossoms into a lot more than I anticipated. It's a love story, a rollicking adventure, and it ends leaving you hanging as it's the first in what will be at least two books. Lei and her fellow Paper Girls are an interesting bunch and seeing how they all react to being &quot;chosen&quot; at young ages to serve a vindictive and abusive kings is fascinating. The wait the follow up is going to be long.</p>

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			<title>The Victorian Internet</title>
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			<updated>2019-02-18T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've seen <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781620405925"><em>The Victorian Internet</em></a> talked about by quite a few people and was eager to read it. What I didn't realize was just how much Tom Standage would make me think about Ursula Franklin as he told the story of the telegraph.</p>
<p>Standage wrote this book in 1997 and then updated it with an afterword in 2007. It's amazing how this book saw and understood about the internet at the time it was written. It's also amazing how much the rise of the telegraph was so similar to the rise of the internet. At one point at the end Standage say that for a person from the Victorian Era the internet wouldn't be nearly as jarring and new to them as air travel or other inventions of the 20th century, because the internet is so similar to the telegraph, and I think he's right.</p>
<p>Standage takes you through the story of the invention of the telegraph, how its popularity rose, and then how it eventually got taken over by other inventions, such as the telephone. And he doesn't shy away from pointing out the negative consequences of the telegraph and how the technology changed and shaped the end of the 19th century.</p>
<p>The book is fast paced and well written and I highly recommend it. Especially if you want to think about today's technology with a new perspective.</p>
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<p>Unfortunately, the social impact of the global telegraph network did not turn out to be so straightforward. Better communication does not necessarily lead to a wide understanding of other points of view; the potential of new technologies to change things for the better is invariably overstated, while the ways in ehich they will make things worse are usually unforeseen. (p 104)</p>
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<p>So much for universal peace and understanding. The telegraph was providing new ways to cheat, steal, live, and deceive. (p 126)</p>
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			<title>Confabulations</title>
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			<updated>2019-02-18T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I got <a href="https://www.amazon.com/Confabulations-JOHN-BERGER/dp/0141984953/"><em>Confabulations</em></a> because Warren Ellis recommended in his newsletter a while back. I've read John Berger's <em>Ways of Seeing</em> and liked it a lot, so I knew I wanted to read his final book. The book did not disappoint. It's a random collection of thoughts that took me through art, music, drawing, and the world. I really enjoyed it.</p>
<p>There were passages in this book that were like punches in the gut. His way with words, his no holds barred critique of our modern world, and his embrace of beauty all hit me sharply. But he also reflected back on his life by talking about various friendships. Berger died in 2017 at the age of 90 and so saw a lot of the world and, I imagine, outlived a lot of his friends and peers.</p>
<p>These essays were quick reads, but I often stopped to reread and think. And although I rarely reread books, I'll most likely be reading this one again in the near future.</p>
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<p>The activity of writing has been a vital one for me; it helps me to make sense of things and continue. Writing, however, is an off-shoot of something deeper and more general — our relationship with language as such. (p 3)</p>
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<p>Today the global tyranny of speculative financial capitalism, which uses national governments as its slave-masters, and the world media as its dope-distributor, this tyranny whose sole aim is profit and ceaseless accumulation, imposes on us a view and pattern of life which is hectic, merciless, inexplicable. And this view of life is even closer to the 10 year-old's proverbial view of the world than was life at the time the early Chaplin films were shot. (p 40-41)</p>
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			<title>A Death of No Importance</title>
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			<updated>2019-02-10T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I found another mystery series to try out and I think I'm hooked, the second book is due out this spring and I can't wait. <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781250152978"><em>A Death of No Importance</em></a> by Mariah Fredericks was a fun read. It takes place in 1910 and the main character is a ladies maid to a newly wealthy family, having worked in the New York upper classes for some time.</p>
<p>This book struck me because I recently watched a documentary on the Gilded Age and have been thinking a lot about how much that era in history has in common with the current era. Jane Prescott discovers a body at a fancy ball and from there she tries to find out who the real killer is. She's plucky, she understands how society works, and she isn't afraid to push for the truth. This was a great &quot;TV book&quot;, a light read, a break from the world, and completely entertaining.</p>

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			<title>Bloodchild and other stories</title>
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			<updated>2019-02-10T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm a <em>huge</em> fan of Octavia Butler and have had <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781583226988"><em>Bloodchild</em></a> sitting on my shelf for a while and finally read it last week. It's fantastic. The right mix of short stories with a few essays thrown in as well. And if you like her writing at all, you'll enjoy these stories.</p>
<p>I'll admit that two stories stuck me and I'm still thinking about them, &quot;Speech Sounds&quot; and &quot;The Book of Martha.&quot; In the former the main character is trying to survive in a world where no one can speak, or so it seems, due to a strange illness. Chaos has descended on the LA area, with no society completely breaking down. Rye is fighting to find her family and in the end she somehow finds a new family. In the latter a woman is trying to decide what would be best to make the world a better place, it's looking for utopia, which Butler admits isn't her favorite subject. Through the discussion between Martha and God I started to think about how I would try to make the world better and it made me think of the biblical story of Martha.</p>
<p>If you're a fan of her Xenogensis series, there are stories in here for you as well. Butler's way of imagining the relationship between humans and aliens fascinates me and &quot;Bloodchild&quot; is another example of that. These stories were quick reads and got me thinking, which is what her work always does; I'm grateful for it.</p>

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			<title>The Good Neighbor: The Life and Work of Fred Rogers</title>
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			<updated>2019-02-02T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I saw the documentary on Fred Rogers in the theater when it was out last year and I loved it, it was so wonderfully done and reminded me of many days spent watching the show as a child, I loved Make Believe Land. I picked up <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781419727726">this biography</a> by Maxwell King after G had read it and told me how good it was and he was right. Mr. Rogers was a fascinating man, he lived his life very much as you would think from watching the show. That's not to say he was perfect, because he wasn't, but he was authentic.</p>
<p>The most fascinating thing about his life that I didn't know was how absolutely wealthy his family was, he came from a lot of money and it was that background that made it possible for him to do the things he did in life. He took risks and tried things because he didn't need to earn money to pay the bills. That, along with the philanthropy of his parents, molded and shaped him into the person he became.</p>
<p>But the other part of his story that I really found interesting was how early he created the puppets that made up Make Believe Land. They were from his childhood and had been his friends comforting him during all the time he spent alone. And his children described them as his alter egos, he would use the voices during different situations and the kids knew what that meant, which is odd, but understandable given that they were so important to him during childhood.</p>
<p>Finally the high standards he held himself and his staff and crew to were amazing. It took hours and hours to write a script for one episode, consulting with a child education expert along the way, and it shows. Mr. Rogers understood children in a way most adults don't and the adoration those kids felt for him, the genuine reaction adults had to him if they met him after growing up with him, that's amazing. His legacy is a long one and I only hope that in some way kids today get to experience the magic of spending a half hour with him.</p>

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			<title>The Hat Trilogy</title>
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			<updated>2019-01-27T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been reading a lot of dystopian fiction and that, along with the news in general, has gotten me down, so I finally went to my list of books to read to look for something a bit more up lifting. I landed on this series by of picture books written by Jon Klassen. <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780763655983"><em>I Want My Hat Back</em></a>, <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780763655990"><em>This Is Not My Hat</em></a>, and <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780763656003"><em>We Found a Hat</em></a> are really delightful books and well worth the read.</p>
<p>This series does what so many great picture books do, Klassen uses the illustrations to great effect for the story, I'd even go so far as to say that illustrations are what make the books great. My favorite by far is <em>This Is Not My Hat</em> but really, all three are delightful. Also the endings of two of the books were subtle and hilarious and not having kids around I'm not sure how much they would fully get understand them, but both G and I loved them.</p>
<p>Thanks <a href="https://austinkleon.com">Austin Kleon</a>, for your books lists, because I'm almost certain that's where I found out about these books and added them to my list.</p>

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			<title>Digital minimalism</title>
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			<updated>2019-01-27T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've made a few changes in the last few weeks to how I'm using my devices. I'm a big iPad user, my iPad mini is usually by my side when I'm at home. The phone is more for when I'm out and about and it's used for taking photos and getting directions and that's about it. But now that I'm working full time and I don't feel the same pressures as I did when I was freelancing, I'm stepping back on the weekends. The iPad is put away more, I've taken all social media off of it, and it's been wonderful. I check email once a day and read the newsletters I love, but I'm alone with my thoughts more and more, taking walks without devices and even going out a lot without one as well. And today in Anne Helen Peterson's <a href="https://annehelen.substack.com">newsletter</a> she talks about &quot;hanging out in your own mind.&quot; I love that concept. A bit more from her that I found helpful to hear this morning:</p>
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<p>Which is why, as Newport points out, a digital “detox” doesn’t work — because you just re-enter into your old habits once you come back from it, immediately retoxifying yourself. You have to commit to a different sort of relationship with your phone — one that will feel awkward at first (what do I do with all this time!) until you start new habits....</p>
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<p>I’m saying you should find the things you <em>do</em> want to do. And sometimes it takes staring at a wall, and hanging out in your own mind, to figure out what they are.</p>
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<p>She's talking about <a href="http://calnewport.com/">Cal Newport</a>, if you're unfamiliar with his work I recommend taking a look. I'm still figuring out what works for me, but what I do know is the last few weeks I'm reading more, feeling more relaxed, and finding the things I want to do.</p>

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			<title>The Friend</title>
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			<updated>2019-01-21T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>After having spent so much time on Mars and thinking about the horrible fate of Earth and over population and climate change, <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780735219441">The Friend</a>, by Sigrid Nunez, was a nice change, a quick read that I finished in an afternoon. And it was about one of my favorite subjects, dogs. The main character's friend has committed suicide and she is asked to take in his Great Dane. What I didn't expect was how thoughtful and interesting the book would be. The character and her friend are both writers and she quotes extensively from a wide range of writers about various subjects.</p>
<p>But it is the dog, the silent character, who also intrigued me. How do animals mourn the loss of their owners, how do they cope with change, and how does a new person learn their habits and fill the void. Apollo is huge and the woman's apartment is small. She starts to want to be with him as much as possible, only leaving him alone when absolutely necessary. But Apollo also learns about her, comforts her, and helps her through the grief of losing her friend.</p>
<p>This book ended up being different than I expected in all the best ways and if you like reading, writing, and dogs, I highly recommend it.</p>
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<p>When you’re lying in bed full of night thoughts, such as why did your friend have to die and how much longer will it be before you lose the roof over your head, having a huge warm body pressed along the length of your spine is an amazing comfort. (loc 1521)</p>
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<p>It is curious how the act of writing leads to confession. Not that it doesn’t also lead to lying your head off. (loc 1680)</p>
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<p>What we miss—what we lose and what we mourn—isn’t it this that makes us who, deep down, we truly are. (loc 2513)</p>
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			<title>Blue Mars</title>
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			<updated>2019-01-20T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>The final book in the trilogy by Kim Stanley Robinson was a fitting end to the series. <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780553573350">Blue Mars</a> find the first one hundred settlers a smaller group, but they're still going even though they are all well over 200 years old. It also finds Mars continuing to change as the terraforming and changes humans bring change the planet's atmosphere and climate.</p>
<p>I wasn't sure how KSR would wrap this up, the other two books are about conflict, over terraforming, over what type of government they want, and over how to handle the relationship with Earth. But in this final book I was pleasantly surprised. The few that are still alive from the first one hundred are beginning to feel the effects of being so old, they're often called The Ancient Ones, and the rest of the people of Mars look to them for guidance, especially in times of strife. But they themselves are battling with memory problems, how does one keep all of one's life in their memory when you are so very old?</p>
<p>I really enjoyed the entire series, but I especially enjoyed the way in which KSR wrapped it up. The focus on characters I'd come to know well and who were changing as they were living these amazing long lives was fascinating. And the idea of memory and not being able to handle 200 years worth of them had me thinking, wondering, and talking about it with G.</p>

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			<title>A new adventure</title>
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			<updated>2019-01-07T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>2018 was a hard year for me. It wasn't bad hard, it was mostly good hard, but that doesn't take away that it was exhausting and full of uncertainty and worry. And a lot of that came from decisions we made, we chose to move and I'm so glad we did, but moving is hard and brings with it a lot of change.</p>
<p>But it was also hard on the work front. I've been freelancing for the last year and a half and my skill set is unique, which means it can be challenging to find projects. I worked with a <a href="https://www.donnalichaw.com">coach</a> for the last half of 2018 to help me figure out how to talk about what I do, how to land the types of projects I want to land, and how to be successful as an independent business person. And it was <em>fantastic</em>. I highly recommend working with someone, especially if you work for yourself, it was great to have a cheerleader, a person who held me accountable, and someone who helped me see things from a different angle.</p>
<p>And by the fall of last year, I was getting more project work, and it was right in the sweet spot of where I wanted to be; it was exciting. But the independent life also brings with it added stress of making sure I can keep that going. In November when talking with friends about some of my doubts and how I was going to be able to keep going, one of them linked me to a full time job that was dead center in my skill set area. This is a rarity, since front end development has really morphed into JavaScript development. But this job was about markup and CSS and accessibility and working with designers and it was remote! I got excited.</p>
<p>I talked with a lot of different people over the course of several weeks and as I did I got more excited. My future manager used Picard to describe his management style. One of the leaders of engineering talked about slow, measured growth and how they saw HTML and CSS as on equal footing with JavaScript. The designer talked about pairing to work on projects with engineering so everything is about being a team with good communication. And one of the developers talked about being trusted to do your work, whenever and however works best for you.</p>
<p>This was all music to my ears. And when the job offer came I felt more lucky than I can say. And I would also add that working with a coach gave me the confidence in the interviews I needed. I already spent a lot of time figuring out what it is I really like to do in my work and how to talk about it, so I was ready.</p>
<p>Today is my first day at <a href="https://product.voxmedia.com">Vox</a> and I couldn't be more excited. It's a wonderful team doing really interesting work. And I'll be honest, it's almost 5 years since Editorially announced it was shutting down and I feel like I've come full circle in so many ways that it feels appropriate that I'm going to be working on the gazillionth version of the app I loved back then.</p>

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			<title>Our Souls at Night</title>
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			<updated>2018-12-26T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've read most of Kent Haruf's books and I love them. His books remind me a lot of Wendell Berry and Marilyn Robinson, studies of people and the many foibles they contain. <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781101911921"><em>Our Souls at Night</em></a> is Haruf's final book, it was published after he died and it's about aging and loneliness and love.</p>
<p>It takes place in Holt, CO, the made up town where most of his books are set, and it's about two older people who are alone and one of them, Addie Moore, decides to do something about it. She asks her neighbor Louis to spend the night, for companionship, and from there a beautiful relationship grows.</p>
<p>I really enjoyed this story, it was a nice break from some of the more dystopian things I've been reading lately, but I also love the writing style, easy going and informal that then punches you in the gut with an insight that I often stopped and reread.</p>
<p>The book has been made into a movie, but I'm not sure I'm going to watch it, I like the Addie and Louis in my head and would rather not have it tainted.</p>

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			<title>Green Mars</title>
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			<updated>2018-12-26T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>At one point in <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780553572391"><em>Green Mars</em></a> as a group of people are going around to try and figure out what type of government mars should have, a character uses the phrase &quot;equality without conformity&quot; to describe what he'd like to see happen. That phrase has stuck with me and I've been thinking about it long after I finished the book.</p>
<p>This installment of the trilogy is about breaking free and becoming an independent Mars. But how do you do that? What type of government do you want to see on Mars? How do the disparate groups come together? It's a fascinating question, given that all the groups have a legacy of how Earth is governed even if they are native Martians and have never lived on Earth, they've felt the governing forces of the planet.</p>
<p>And as they discuss, think, and argue, it becomes clear that they do have quite a bit in common. But the big points are big and the groups argue about them throughout the book. I really loved this book, there was so much going on and so much to think about as the people on Mars contemplated how to revolt, what they wanted life on Mars to be like, and how they would move forward. The idea of starting from scratch and being able to create the society you want is intriguing and they way the Mars inhabitants went about it was fascinating to me.</p>
<p>I'll also say this: these books are hard in many ways, Mars isn't easy, Earth is falling apart, but as is normal for KSR, I always end feeling hope. The people on Mars can figure this out and they can eventually have an influence for good on the people of Earth.</p>

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			<title>The Creative Habit</title>
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			<updated>2018-12-17T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>For quite some time now I've been slowly reading through <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780743235273"><em>The Creative Habit</em></a> by Twyla Tharp.
It's been slow mostly because I think books have times to be read, the right time to really hit you, and apparently these past few weeks were the right time for me for this book because I flew through the last half of the it.</p>
<p>I didn't do all the exercises yet, I wanted to read, to see what she had to say about creativity. I've not seen very many dance performances in my life, it's an art form that I know very little about, but the way in which Tharp uses dance and choreography to discuss creativity is refreshing and wonderful. It's because I know so little about it that I had to hang on to the concepts and the ideas of how she talks about creativity rather than getting bogged down in the minutia of what she does.</p>
<p>But Tharp does something more in this book, she showed me a whole world of other artists who've written about creativity in their journals and other writings. I found a treasure trove of people that I now want to read more of and dive into some of the concepts they discuss as well. Tharp is well read and, because she's a dancer, she's also very well versed in music and those who create it. I loved learning more about that world.</p>
<p>I'll be thinking about how she discusses concepts of the spine, skill, ruts, and grooves for a long time to come. I underlined like mad in the used copy of this book I found at Powells a few years back, but here's one point that I've been thinking about a lot as I figure out where I want to go with my drawing next.</p>
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<p>You're only kidding yourself if you put creativity before craft. Craft is where our best efforts begin. You should never worry that rote exercises aimed at developing skills will suffocate creativity. At the same time, it's important to recognize that demonstrating great technique is not the same as being creative.</p>
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			<title>Red Mars</title>
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			<updated>2018-12-04T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>After I read Kim Stanley Robinson's <em>New York 2140</em> I knew I wanted to read more of his work and I finally got around to reading more. <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780553560732"><em>Red Mars</em></a> is the first in his Mars trilogy and I loved it. Humans have made it to Mars and are now ready to start colonizing it, so they send 100 people, all scientists, to be the first to live there and create a colony.</p>
<p>Of course the reason for going to Mars is that Earth is completely overpopulated and running out of the things we humans need to survive. Many see Mars as a way to get more minerals and make money to help Earth survive. The first 100 are all of various disciplines of science and we learn about them as we follow their journey to Mars and what they do there, especially after more people start to arrive. The United Nations is overseeing everything with treaties, but of course the old politics come into all the decisions made on Mars about how to move forward.</p>
<p>The first big battle is about terraforming or not and the battles only increase from there. As more and more people arrive life gets harder. Life on Mars is already incredibly difficult, you can't just walk outside, everything is quite fragile, so when people start to get upset and strike and such, it's fairly easy to really harm people quite easily.</p>
<p>The hope in the story comes from a group that leaves the first 100 and disappears to build their own life. Those folks are trying, in earnest, to find a new way to live without the old baggage and while you don't quite see where that's going at the end of the book, I have a feeling it will be important in the series overall.</p>
<p>The amazing thing about KSR's writing is how he always leaves me feeling hopeful, even when things aren't going well. I've already started reading the next installment in the series and am intrigued where this is going to go.</p>
<p>A few lines that jumped out to me as I read.</p>
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<p>Beauty was the promise of happiness, not happiness itself....</p>
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<p>...[B]ut being the consciousness of the universe does not mean turning it all into a mirror image of us. It means rather fitting into it as it is, and worshiping it with our attention.</p>
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			<title>Drawing my day</title>
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			<updated>2018-11-29T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Over the years I've been chronicling my foray back into drawing and trying to find a daily practice and a drawing style that works for me. This past month or so has found me going in a new direction and it seems to be sticking, so I thought I'd share more about it.</p>
<p>I read <a href="http://sdionbaker.com/book-launch/"><em>Draw Your Day</em></a> by Samantha Dion Baker about a month or so ago. It made me think back to the 100 day project I did a few years ago where I <a href="/writing/thoughts-100-day-project/">sketch journaled</a> something from my day. And it helped me remember that I have built in prompts for what to draw each day, what I did or where I was or what I saw, it's all right there.</p>
<p>I like prompts, it's one of the reasons I liked doing the <em>Draw Every Day Draw Every Way</em> book in 2017. A prompt is good for me and it can get me to draw things I wouldn't normally otherwise. In her book, Baker shows how to make a spread about your day, using words, lettering, drawing, and painting. I've loved doing it.</p>
<p>For more than a month I've been drawing my day, first using the sketchbook I had started, a smaller 8.5&quot; x 5.5&quot; one and then in a larger 8&quot; x 10&quot; book. I've been playing around with medium, but have settled on a kit that works really well for me and that I can also take with me when traveling. I'm using Stillman and Birn books, either the Alpha or Epsilon, and I love them both for different reasons, but I think Epsilon may be my favorite. The smoothness of the paper works really well with fountain pen, a micron pigma pen, and watercolor pencils.</p>
<p>But there is a big thing going on with these that is interesting to me, I usually don't want to share the finished product. Because it's my journal, I'm writing about my day, all of my day, which I don't feel as comfortable sharing most days. And I know I could figure out how to blur the words and such, but as I've thought about it, I don't know that I want to. We live in a share everything world and I guess maybe I don't want to do that quite so much anymore. But know that I'm drawing, occasionally I'll maybe share, but mostly it's for me.</p>

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			<title>Autumn</title>
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			<updated>2018-11-23T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Well, it's official now, after reading two of her books, I really love Ali Smith's writing. <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781101969946"><em>Autumn</em></a> is beautiful and sucked me in and kept me riveted. She writes like you're witnessing a dream and her words are incredibly beautiful. She makes me want to be a better writer myself.</p>
<p>But the story of this book is also particularly wonderful. The relationship between a girl and her neighbor who shows her the world in a different way. And it's only when he's old and in a care center that she is realizing how much he taught her. We see Elisabeth visiting Daniel and remembering various moments in their life together and how much they helped each other. Daniel was so unlike Elisabeth's mother, he shows her so many new things, and he loves to talk about books.</p>
<p>In addition, <em>Autumn</em> takes place just after the vote to leave the European Union by the British people and Smith captures the fear, the tumult, and the anger so well in just a few glimpses and dialogues. The way Elisabeth's mother is so tired (as quoted below) and how much she longs for change that isn't driven by fear and hate.</p>
<p>I have no idea if the second book in the seasonal series Smith is writing is anything like this one, but I can't wait to find out. I also want to read everything she's ever written, and will most likely do so, slowly, over the next several months.</p>
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<p>That's not what I mean, she says. I'm tired of the news. I'm tired of the way it makes things spectacular that aren't, and deals so simplistically with what's truly appalling. I'm tired of the vitriol. I'm tired of the anger. I'm tired of the meanness. I'm tired of the selfishness. I'm tired of how we're doing nothing to stop it. I'm tired of how we're encouraging it. I'm tired of the violence there is and the violence that's on its way, that's coming, that hasn't happened yet. I'm tired of the liars. I'm tired of sanctified liars. I'm tired of how those liars have let this happen. I'm tired of having to wonder whether they did it out of stupidity or did it on purpose. I'm tired of lying governments. I'm tired of people not caring whether they're being lied to any more. I'm tired of being made to feel this fearful. I'm tired of animosity. I'm tired of pusillanimosity. (pp 56-57)</p>
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<p>It is possible, he said, to be in love not with someone but with their eyes. I mean, with how eyes that aren't yours let you see where you are, who you are. (pp 159-160)</p>
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			<title>Writing for Designers</title>
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			<updated>2018-11-20T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>As I continue to catch up on the books I've bought and have let languish, I read <a href="https://abookapart.com/products/writing-for-designers"><em>Writing for Designers</em></a> by Scott Kubie last week. I really like the A Book Apart Briefs because I can sit down and in an hour or two finish a book. Plus there is almost always something for me to think about afterwards.</p>
<p>I don't do a ton of writing in my work, but I do a lot of writing here and for myself, so I found the way in which Kubie talked about a formal process really interesting. And, unbelievably, I somewhat follow that process when I write for myself. He takes you through initial drafts to the final version with a lot of helpful advice about how to go about writing and editing along the way. The most helpful I found was how to document changes and to make sure you document your process so you have detailed notes to back up the decisions made when sharing the final product.</p>
<p>But I also like the way in which Kubie talks about writing being difficult and a lot of the ideas he gives to help you figure it all out, to get started, to tackle editing, and for working in groups as you polish and work towards finished copy. I'll definitely recommend this one to folks who find themselves suddenly having to do more writing in their work, especially if it isn't their speciality.</p>
<p>A few highlights that struck me as I read.</p>
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<p>Writing is hard because it’s personal. Even if you’re writing about something you don’t feel strongly about, or even something you disagree with, it’s still your writing. The words you write carry a little echo of you. To get the writing done, you’re going to have to be a little vulnerable. Maybe a lot.</p>
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<p>...[W]riting is just thinking plus typing. You can think. You can type (or otherwise get text into a computer). So yes, you can write.</p>
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			<title>Reality meeting books</title>
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			<updated>2018-11-15T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've seen two things in the last two days that made me think of books I've read, dystopian future books, and welp, here we are with things from them happening in the real world. First up is the fact that rich people are hiring their own <a href="https://www.cbsnews.com/news/california-fires-camp-woolsey-malibu-firefighters/">private firefighters in California</a>, which is a lot like many of the things Octavia Butler talks about in <em>Parable of the Sower</em>. Next is the fact that we're looking at genetically <a href="https://www.nytimes.com/interactive/2018/11/14/magazine/tech-design-xenotransplantation.html">engineered pigs for organs</a> that people need, hello this is so like <em>Oryx and Crake</em> by Margaret Atwood.</p>

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			<title>Image Performance</title>
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			<updated>2018-11-14T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm in serious catch up mode as far as reading, so yesterday I finally made time to sit down and read Mat Marquis' <a href="https://abookapart.com/products/image-performance"><em>Image Performance</em></a> brief from A Book Apart. It's a quick read that is well worth your time.</p>
<p>Even if you think you know all the ins and outs of how to code images in the new responsive world we develop for now, this is a great refresher on how images work, what you can do, and how you can do it most efficiently and effectively. I know I'll refer back to this as I work in the future, because the examples were so well done. Bonus: all the photos are of dogs which made the book that much better.</p>
<p>A few highlights below from this short, wonderful book.</p>
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<p>Below the surface—that’s where the meaning is. To build a page that can be easily parsed by assistive technologies is to contribute to a more inclusive web; to render a page more performantly is to broaden the web’s reach. To think too shallowly about a project means nudging the larger web in the same direction: toward something meant not for all, but for some; toward something meant only for those who experience it the way we do.</p>
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<p>RWD felt—and still feels—like a logical and ongoing extension of the web’s strengths: resilience, flexibility, and unpredictability.</p>
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<p>And as these techniques propagate more and more, the web itself will feel faster, with no cost to the people using it—no drawbacks, no compromises, no hacks, and no grainy images.</p>
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			<title>The Female Persuasion</title>
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			<updated>2018-11-13T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I finished <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780525589358"><em>The Female Persuasion</em></a> by Meg Wolitzer a few weeks ago but I haven't been quite sure how I wanted to write about it, so this may be quite brief. To be honest I didn't love the book but I didn't hate it either. There were parts of it that I really enjoyed, but overall some of it annoyed the heck out of me. The one saving grace that kept me going to the end was that I wanted to see if I would hate the ending, which I didn't.</p>
<p>The main character of the book is Greer, we meet her in high school as she's about to go to college and follow her life through the next decade or so. In college she is assaulted, discovers feminism and a leader of the movement, and then goes on in her twenties to work in women's issues. Greer is by no means perfect and she makes mistakes and allows ambition to cloud her judgement at times. But I related to her, especially in the college years, as she was desperately trying to figure out who she was and wanted to be.</p>
<p>I started to lose interest when Greer was in her twenties, working, and essentially not understanding nor caring about the people around her and the ways in which her best friend and her boyfriend had very different post college experiences. Greer finds success and she mends fences, but something about it all was a bit too trite and easy for me in the end.</p>

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			<title>Design as Art</title>
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			<updated>2018-11-13T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p><a href="https://www.amazon.com/Design-As-Art-Bruno-Munari/dp/0141035811/"><em>Design as Art</em></a> is a slim volume by Bruno Munari, originally published in Italian in 1966 and translated and published in English in 1971. Someone at some point recommended it to me and I'm fairly sure a few years ago I used career development money to buy it but didn't get to it until this past fall. I finished this a few months ago and have been just looking at it and thinking about it quite a bit since then.</p>
<p>If you studied art or design from the 1960s nothing in this small book will be surprising or unusual, but it was fascinating to me how he laid out design versus art and how the two are more similar than often thought. And Munari takes you through all kinds of various objects and through simple illustrations shows how they may be art.</p>
<p>I enjoyed this dip into the 1960s way of thinking about both art and design and I recommend it. The chapters are short and it's an easy book to dip in and out of when you need a break from the craziness that is life in our current world.</p>
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<p>When the objects we use every day and the surroundings we live in have become in themselves a work of art, then we shall be able to say that we have achieved a balanced life. (p 27)</p>
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			<title>I&#39;m still here</title>
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			<updated>2018-11-12T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Hi, hello, you may have wondered why I've been so quite in you RSS reader, but don't worry, I'm still here. AND, I'm writing again and so there should be some good stuff coming soon (at least I hope you like it). In the meantime I'll be catching up on posting links, book reviews, and probably some shorter notes. I spent October thinking, working, and staying off line quite a bit and it was good for me and now I'm ready to share my thoughts.</p>

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			<title>Vote by mail</title>
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				<p>My ballot arrived in the mail yesterday. My state votes by mail, it's the only way one can vote. Last week my voter guide came, with information on all the various races in my city, county, and state. Yesterday after work I sat down with the voter guide, my ballot, and a black ball point pen and over the course of about a half hour to an hour I voted. I took my time. I looked things up on line when I wanted more information and I tried my best to be thoughtful and true to what I believe. The ballot arriving reminds everyone that there is an election and their voice matters; to be honest with spring elections it's sometimes the only way I've known something's happening (that's terrible, but true). This doesn't mean that turnout is 100% in my state, but it does mean it's higher than if you had to vote on a day at a polling place. Today my ballot went back via mail to my county election office to be counted come election day. Every state should vote by mail; voting should be easy.</p>

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			<title>Quick takes</title>
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				<h2>Righteous</h2>
<p>After reading <em>IQ</em> I knew I wanted to read the next book in the series, so put a hold on <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780316267748"><em>Righteous</em></a> because I enjoyed both the writing style of Joe Ide and the characters he created. And <em>Righteous</em> didn't disappoint.</p>
<p>We pick up with Isaiah not long after <em>IQ</em> ended, and he's still investigating the death of his brother, but also gets asked by his brother's old girlfriend to help her sister, who's a compulsive gambler. <em>Righteous</em> takes you from Long Beach, CA to Las Vegas and into an Asian run underworld of gambling and human trafficking. The action feels almost non stop and I honestly wasn't sure how Isaiah was going to get out of some of the jams he ended up in.</p>
<p>But more importantly, the story line of the death of his brother continues. And we learn more about what Isaiah wants from life and more about his past. I really enjoy these books, they are perfect for forgetting about what's going on in the world and lately that's just what I need.</p>
<h2>The Moth Catcher</h2>
<p>I've tried out a mystery book group in my new town and while I don't know that I really enjoy the group, I have enjoyed the couple of books I've read for the meetings. And <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781250144690"><em>The Moth Catcher</em></a> by Ann Cleeves is in the classic British mystery vein, a procedural with the inspector trying to figure out who murdered people in the British countryside.</p>
<p>Vera Stanhope, the main character of this series, is an interesting character, and like most of the procedurals I've read, completely obsessed with her job. But she also is brilliant at finding out the small details that will lead her to the killer.</p>
<p>The ending of this one wasn't great, it seemed a bit implausible that she suddenly got to the conclusions she did, but I enjoyed the writing quite a bit. And for those wondering, yes, this is the Vera of the TV British TV show.</p>
<h2>The Crow Trap</h2>
<p>I liked <em>The Moth Catcher</em> enough to try another Vera Stanhope mystery, so put the first one on hold at the library. <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781250122742"><em>The Crow Trap</em></a> is a better mystery, the title made more sense and the conclusion wasn't totally out of the blue, there were more crumbs to lead the reader along.</p>
<p>I'll probably read more of these. They are TV books for me, they take me away from the current world but aren't too taxing if I'm tired (because of said current world).</p>

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			<title>The Power</title>
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				<p>Yesterday I finished reading <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780316547611"><em>The Power</em></a> by Naomi Alderman. I went into the book cold, knowing very little about it except for the fact that many people loved it (including President Obama). And after I read a bit of it I figured it would be a book that I would be a bit lost for a while and then, boom, it would all come together.</p>
<p>And it did feel that way, and I'm used to that feeling; but this book also took a dramatic turn with just about 20 minutes left to read. And it's had me thinking about it ever since.</p>
<p>The book is speculative fiction, what would happen if something in women physically changed and they suddenly had more physical power over men. How would both men and women react? How would women use that power?</p>
<p>I came away with several questions that I don't know if I can ever answer but that I'll be thinking about for quite some time. Is the current imbalance of power between men and women solved by the balance flipping the other way? Would women just use that power for their own benefit? Or would the utopia come?</p>
<p>I don't want to say how the book portrays it, but it has me wondering if it's human nature that makes us crave and desire power if we can get it, or if there is something inherent in our genders. And as usual I went back to Star Trek's view again, where human nature gets away from the desire for power and instead desires balance, empathy, and knowledge.</p>
<p>I know, I fall back to Star Trek a lot, but, well, there is something so appealing about that world and about how people work together. And <em>The Power</em> made me wonder so much about what is truly related to one's gender and human nature versus what we tell ourselves those things mean.</p>
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<p>This is the trouble with history. You can’t see what’s not there. You can look at an empty space and see that something’s missing, but there’s no way to know what it was. (loc 4765)</p>
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<p class="small">This was first sent out in my newsletter on 24 September 2018. Yes, I <em>am</em> horribly behind on writing about what I've been reading here, apologies, I'm attempting to catch up this week.</p>
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			<title>Hilda</title>
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				<p>I've seen several people talking about the Hilda books, mostly because they've been made into a series on Netflix. I wanted to check out the books before watching the series and read <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781911171072"><em>Hilda and the Black Hound</em></a> and <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9781909263796"><em>Hilda and the Midnight Giant</em></a> this past week and have two more on hold at the library.</p>
<p>These are delightful. Hilda is a great character, the setting of the books is fun, and the drawing and tone of writing goes together so well. Hilda is a troublemaker and in many ways reminds me of other childhood stories I loved (Pippi comes to mind). Plus, Hilda has crazy Scandinavian friends like Nisse, trolls, giants, and her dog.</p>
<p>I can't wait to read more of these and then to watch the series on Netflix, they made me laugh and I spent a lot of time looking at the drawing style, it's wonderful.</p>

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			<title>A God in Ruins</title>
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				<p>I'm a bit of a sucker for World War II set books and I read, and really enjoyed, <em>Life After Life</em> by Kate Atkinson, so when I saw another book that was related to that one, I knew I had to read it. <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780316176507"><em>A God in Ruins</em></a> is about the brother of the main character in <em>Life After Life</em>, and the story goes back and forth in time sharing his life experiences with you, but also those of his family.</p>
<p>Teddy works in a bank, then he becomes a bomber pilot during the war, and then he marries, has a child, and well, I won't say too much more because then you wouldn't need to bother to read it. But Atkinson has a way with showing you all the points of view of the characters that I really enjoy. And Teddy is a wonderful character, so much going on with him and the window into his thoughts is very well done.</p>
<p>In particular, the way Ted describes the world, sees the world, and grows quite cynical of it during and after the war was something I could relate to. In our current world I've grown more and more cynical by the day and it probably isn't good for me or those around me. But it's hard to see how we get to the after of a world where the rich get richer and everyone else struggles along. It's hard to see how we get to the after of tech companies bringing hate, harassment, and death into the world under the guise of connecting us all. It's hard to see how we get to the after of the climate getting warmer and warmer bringing more and more catastrophes. In short, it's hard to see how we get to the after of most things right now. And Ted, he has a hard time seeing or thinking of the after while the war is going on and then of speaking about the war after it's over.</p>
<p>I needed a book like this in many ways, a book to get lost in the characters and to get lost in a story a bit, but also when I put it down to get on with life, to be reminded of how I can get to the after of the current world.</p>
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<p>The whole edifice of civilization turned out to be constructed from an unstable mix of quicksand and imagination. (loc 1553)</p>
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<p>It seemed to Teddy that to plant an oak was an act of faith in the future. (loc 3750)</p>
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<p>The dog had been dead for over forty years but he still felt a little stab of sadness to the heart when he thought of its absence from the world. (loc 4098)</p>
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			<title>Being &quot;green&quot;</title>
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			<updated>2018-10-14T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Yesterday I spent the day with a group going around and looking at green and solar houses in my small town. For the size of the town, there are a lot of folks thinking about how to save energy in homes and I saw some interesting things. But I couldn't help but think of one thing as we were in several of the homes: no one was talking about cost. And one of the homes, which was gorgeous and Leed certified, was most certainly extremely expensive to build. If we can't make being green and saving energy affordable how do we have any hope of getting more people to do it? And then I thought about <a href="/reading/butlers-parables/">Butler's Parables</a>, and I worry that her vision of our future is very well where we may end up.</p>

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			<title>The necessity of feedback</title>
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			<updated>2018-10-05T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Freelancing can be a lonely life, I work in a room upstairs in my house by myself. I talk with friends via Slack and social media, and yes, even email, but I rarely <em>see</em> people. And even when I have project work, I may have quick status calls and they may include video, but they're over quickly and I get stuck back into my work. It's easy for me to start to doubt myself and wonder if I'm really doing a good job as I update clients and commit code. That's why it's so important for me to get feedback in some form from clients, and this week I've gotten that feedback and it's made all the difference in the world. It's kept me excited about the project, and it's made me realize that I know more than I give myself credit for most days.</p>

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			<title>Journaling</title>
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			<updated>2018-09-28T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>About a week ago I read a book about drawing your day, it is, in fact called that. <a href="https://www.powells.com/book/-9780399581298">Samantha Dion Baker</a> takes you through how she uses her journal to draw and write about her day. Since I read it, I've been doing it, trying to take a half hour or so and draw a few things and jot a few things down about my day. I've <a href="https://www.instagram.com/susanjrobertson/">shared</a> some of them, but others are too personal. This week, in the midst of a lot of difficult news (isn't that every week now tho?) it's been <em>extremely</em> helpful. I try to find at least one good thing, and I'm noticing more of the beauty around me, along with funny things.</p>

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			<title>I&#39;m back</title>
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			<updated>2018-09-19T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm back! I've changed up the way I'm doing things behind the scenes for this site, which means that this section is coming back and I'm so excited about it. I'll be using RSS to cross post this at least one other place, but after trying a lot of different things, I'm excited about how I've landed with being able to have a website that I can more easily update, as well as being able to manage the development of it. YAY!</p>

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			<title>Content and sharing</title>
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			<updated>2018-09-15T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Jeremy put together a <a href="https://adactio.com/journal/14333">great post</a> with a whole bunch of people who talk about writing. And I agree with all of them, as I'm <em>trying</em> to put more of my thoughts here, use RSS more, and own my <a href="/notes">short thoughts</a> on this site, rather than using any type of different set up.</p>
<p>As I've experimented with Microblog and some other things, using different technologies to do so, I've come back around to realizing that this is my space. This is where I should be putting things. And I may use a way to cross post, but I may just put it here and leave it. Owning my content has been a journey and I'm realizing that some content I'm OK with not owning, I'm OK with some sense of ephemera, besides no matter where I post a photo I'll always have that photo in my own archives.</p>
<p>And I've been thinking about keeping a running log where I just jot something down and then, if it isn't too personal, it finds its way here. Much like <a href="http://alicebartlett.co.uk/blog/weaknotes-1">Alice</a> is doing. Will it work? Will people care? I'm not really sure about the answers to that, but this space, along with the newsletter, are becoming places I enjoy writing. It feels safer, it feels a bit cocooned (ironic since this is totally public and I can make my social media networks private). But it's all about the control, I have control and I can make it be what I want.</p>
<p>I'm going to be experimenting more with both the notes section of my own site, and possibly the journal as well, maybe some shorter things, a compendium of thoughts, we'll see how it goes, but I want to try it, I want to be able to look back at my site and see all the things, not just the longer form perfect things. And I want to be able to do it in a way that I feel comfortable and enjoy.</p>

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			<title>Flexible Typesetting</title>
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			<updated>2018-09-07T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>The other day I finished reading Tim Brown's <a href="https://abookapart.com/products/flexible-typesetting"><em>Flexible Typesetting</em></a> and I'm so glad I took the time to read through it. Even better, I'm really excited to find some time to take a look at this site and think about how I can improve the type.</p>
<p>Tim's writing style is so great and, much like the other books A Book Apart publishes, this small volume is jam packed with a lot of information. Things I want to learn more about (and have wanted to do for some time, but this book reminded me of): open type features and variable fonts. Right now my site it doing OK with the performance side of loading fonts (thanks to <a href="https://abookapart.com/products/webfont-handbook">Bram Stein's book</a>), but I want to learn more about the design of type and the other features available to me.</p>
<p>If I could geek out and not have to worry about making money, I think learning about type would be the thing I'd do. I find it fascinating and the process to create a type face is so crazy. I've read other books about type but maybe one day I'll have time to really think about it and figure out how it all works. It feels like an endless topic, one that I want to spend more time reading about and thinking about.</p>
<p>I'm so grateful to Tim and the team at ABA for making these books. This is a book I know I'll be returning to as I try and learn more about type and I'll also be looking into books he recommends for further reading.</p>

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			<title>Thinking in Systems: A Primer</title>
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			<updated>2018-08-28T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I read <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/-9781603580557"><em>Thinking in Systems: A Primer</em></a> by Donnella H. Meadows in a week. That's unusual for me with books that are a bit more academic oriented, but this book grabbed me. If I were younger and I'd found out that systems study was a thing, I'd probably consider doing it. But at this point in my life I'm content to let it open me up to thinking both about my work differently and about the world differently.</p>
<p>I bought the book because folks I admire in the industry were reading it and praising it, so I figured I'd give it a try. And I can't believe how much I found helpful in the book. I think about systems for making web sites and applications and such and how we do that. And this book will be something I'll be returning to again and again as I work with teams and build out systems.</p>
<p>Some of things I'm still thinking about after reading this book:</p>
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<li>How I can enter teams and take the time to observe and see what's happening, before I start getting information from those on the team.</li>
<li>How the levers work in a system and in teams I work with figuring out what those are and how I can be aware of what pushing on them will do.</li>
<li>What has the biggest impact on a system? How do I find it? How do I uncover the true inner workings of the system?</li>
<li>Can a system grow forever? (This especially made me think of capitalism and economies, is it realistic that we grow forever and is growth always good?)</li>
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<p>The final chapter of this book I think I underlined almost the entire thing. Meadows takes the study and the more research oriented things she's explained throughout the book and makes a series of recommendations for how to approach and work with systems. It's amazing. If you only read part of this book, honestly this chapter is the part to read.</p>
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<p>What was unique about our search was not our answers, or even our questions, but the fact that the tool of systems thinking, born out of engineering and mathematics, implemented in computers, drawn from a mechanistic mind-set and a quest for prediction and control, leads its practitioners, inexorably I believe, to confront the most deeply human mysteries. Systems thinking makes clear even to the most committed technocrat that getting along in this world of complex systems requires more than technocracy. (p 167)</p>
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			<title>Summerland</title>
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				<p>I find fiction books to read from a really wide variety of sources and my list is amazingly long, but I'm reading more than ever (thanks to staying off of social media more) and I'm trying new things a lot of the time. <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/-9781250178923"><em>Summerland</em></a> by Hannu Rajaniemi was recommended by Warren Ellis in his newsletter. (I fear people are going to get sick of me talking about Ellis, but his newsletter and book recommendations are always so great.)</p>
<p><em>Summerland</em> is a spy story with a twist. People don't die anymore, if they have a ticket, they go to Summerland where you can live forever. So fear of death isn't a motivating factor. The British control Summerland where Queen Victoria still rules. The book takes place in 1938 and we follow Rachel who works for the intelligence service trying to track down a mole.</p>
<p>I really enjoyed this book because it was constantly revealing new things to me. It took quite a while to figure out who all the players in the intelligence world were, who was Britain fighting against? Who was the mole working for? And it ended with a bang, which is always great in a spy story.</p>

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			<title>Social media change</title>
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			<updated>2018-08-24T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Last week it felt like the dam broke and people were finally well and truly fed up with Twitter and were going to look for an alternative. In essence people were taking their community and hitting the road. And over the past several weeks I've been dipping my toes into some other forms of online community to see what would work for me.</p>
<p>Twitter, for me, has meant community, leads to jobs, and so much more over the years. I'm friends with people who live all over the country and we've hung out in real life, all because of Twitter. But I too pulled back over the last year, using my account less and less and trying so hard to avoid the crap. I mute words, mute people, and still it seems difficult.</p>
<p>About a month ago I launched a <a href="/microblog/">microblog</a> on my site and started to see what that community was like. I really like the idea of owning my own content, but I will be the first to admit that it's been hard. It took a lot of work on my part to figure out a way to do a microblog on my site that could feed to the <a href="https://micro.blog/">community site</a>. Very few people, especially those who don't work on the web in any way, are going to try and make this happen.</p>
<p>But microblog also suffers from too little interaction for me. I've no idea who's following me, so I can't follow them back if I want to. I have no idea if someone has faved something I've said. I don't do it for the faves and follows, but those indicators are how I know I'm heard, how I know people are on the other side, they are what make a community. And I find I miss not having them on this service.</p>
<p>That leaves another service, <a href="https://joinmastodon.org/">Mastodon</a>. Quite a few from my web community are now using it more. It's been around for a while (2016, I think?) but it's set up to be a more federated space where administrators of each instance enforce the rules of that instance. It is clunky, you have to figure out how to join an instance along with which instance you <em>want</em> to join, and then you need to figure out how to follow people from that instance or possibly other instances. It definitely isn't a one click thing.</p>
<p><a href="http://orbitaloperations.com/">Warren Ellis</a> wrote about it in his newsletter over the weekend and his way of describing it is great:</p>
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<p>The novelty about Mastodon is that it's federated. You can create your own Mastodon &quot;instance,&quot; like a state, that then connected to the united states of Mastodon. But, of course, everybody joins an already existing instance, because who the fuck wants to spend time creating their own state?</p>
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<p>I'm on there, if you're so inclined, you can <a href="https://toot.cafe/@susanjrobertson">follow me</a>. I've moved instances since I started, but am on something smaller and only &quot;tooting&quot; to my followers. It could be a good place, I'm trying it out and seeing what I think.</p>
<p>But here's the thing that I'm looking for and may or may not find in either of these places. (To be honest I know I'm not gonna find it at microblog.) I'm looking for community; the good kind, the kind with no assholes, the kind where people support each other and you can vent and rage and celebrate. I'm not sure it exists anywhere, but I'm trying things out, so we'll see. I'm also coming to terms with the fact that this may only happen in private spaces, because there is just too much ugh in the public spaces now.</p>
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			<title>New York 2140 and Occupied</title>
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			<updated>2018-08-24T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I haven't been posting what I've been reading lately. I finished a book and got a bit stuck, I wasn't sure how to write about it because I keep thinking about it. <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/-9780316262316"><em>New York 2140</em></a> by Kim Stanley Robinson is the book. I've become a bit obsessed with reading near future dystopias that in some way include aspects of what will happen with climate change.</p>
<p>On the heels of finishing that book I started watching <a href="https://www.imdb.com/title/tt4192998/"><em>Occupied</em></a> on Netflix, a Norwegian series about climate change and fossil fuel usage. And both of these stories have me thinking.</p>
<p>In New York 2140 sea level has risen by 50 feet, lower Manhattan is under water, the streets are now canals, and bulidings are underwater for the first several floors. People are living in old office buildings and the capitalism on which everything rests is still going strong, even if some of the financial centers of the world have changed locations. We follow a band of people all connected by living in or near the Met Life building, which is now a coop. The characters, the descriptions, all of it is amazing.</p>
<p>In Occupied, Norway has experienced a hurricane due to the effects of climate change which then swept their green party into power because they promised to stop the use of fossil fuels. When the new PM turns off the gas and oil to the EU and Russia, things start to get interesting and that's where the series begins. It's a fast paced game of chess and pressure and military might. The first season is much better than the second, but the premise is what I've been thinking about quite a bit.</p>
<p>In both these stories I can see how we as a planet may react to climate change. There will be pockets of good and of course there will be those who try to take advantage. And for some reason this helps me, it helps me to be able to imagine that we will survive in some capacity. Much like Octavia Butlers's Parables series, survival is possible. I won't lie, climate change and its effects are what I think about a lot these days, and reading or watching stories that help me sort that out has been incredibly helpful.</p>
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			<title>Accessibility: Let&#39;s talk color</title>
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			<updated>2018-08-23T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Following on my post about <a href="/writing/get-started-with-accessibility/">my approach to accessibility</a>, I've written about the <a href="/writing/accessibility-foundations/">foundations of accessibility</a>, <a href="/writing/accessibility-keyboard/">keyboard navigation</a>, and today we're talking color. As it turns out, color is a more complex topic than it might seem. We'll start with a quick run-through of some thing designers and developers should be looking for as they create their sites.</p>
<p>First up is contrast. This is important for two reasons. One, many people have a hard time seeing contrast, if they have low vision or certain types of color blindness. Two, their screens may not show contrast as well as we’d like. This isn’t something we often think about because those of us in the industry tend to sit at really nice machines. We have retina displays and big shiny secondary monitors. This is all great for designing with plenty of screen real estate, but it also means we are looking at things on much better monitors and screens than many of our users.</p>
<p>Want to know straight off if you may have contrast issues? I recommend doing an <a href="https://chrome.google.com/webstore/detail/accessibility-developer-t/fpkknkljclfencbdbgkenhalefipecmb?hl=en">audit</a> in the Chrome developer tools. It provides warnings for contrast, so you can have an idea of where to begin. Then take your colors into Jonathan Snook's <a href="https://snook.ca/technical/colour_contrast/colour.html#fg=33FF33,bg=333333">Colour Contrast Checker</a>. Plug in your colors and use the sliders to play around to  find what will work in your design and is accessible. Plus, this checker will tell you when you pass and have a good contrast going on.</p>
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    <img aria-describedby="colour-contrast-checker-output" src="/images/build/posts/colour-contrast-checker-output.gif" alt="Screenshot of output from Colour Contrast Checker">
    <figcaption>A seemingly innocuous color combination that fails to have sufficient contrast when tested with Colour Contrast Checker.</figcaption>
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<p>One of my secrets for making sure that I check contrast is by having a cheap second monitor around. It keeps me honest. Just as we have devices for testing our sites, why not test on something that may not show colors as clearly? If I find myself dragging a design over to my laptop monitor in order see things better, the contrast needs to be punched up.</p>
<p>Next, let's talk color blindness. There are three different types of color blindness; deuteranopia, red color blindness, protanopia, a red-green color blindness, and tritanopia, blue-yellow color blindness. The latter are much more rare than the first, but you should check your designs for all three.</p>
<p>There's a great tool that I recommend using to check your implementations called <a href="http://colororacle.org">Color Oracle</a>. It changes your screen to show you what it looks like with various types of color blindness. When looking at your design as if you have one of the types of color blindness, you want to make sure you can still see the relevant information and use the site. If not, you may want to change some of your colors. In addition to Color Oracle, check out <a href="https://chrome.google.com/webstore/detail/spectrum/ofclemegkcmilinpcimpjkfhjfgmhieb">Spectrum</a> and for Data Visualizations and mapping, <a href="http://colorbrewer2.org/#type=sequential&amp;scheme=BuGn&amp;n=3">Color Brewer</a> is awesome.</p>
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    <img aria-describedby="odk-colorblindness-simulation-summary" src="/images/build/posts/odk-colorblindness-simulation.jpg" alt="Simulation of Open Design Kit header with different types of color blindness using Color Oracle">
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        a) Typical color perception of <a href="https://opendesignkit.org">Open Design Kit</a> header, b) with Deuteranopia, c) with Protanopia, d) with Tritanopia
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<p>Here are some other things to think about: Are you selling things that are different colors? Use words, and not just color swatches, to indicate the available choices. And it's best to make sure the descriptions are easy to understand. Think about using words that help a user with color blindness identify the color of the product so they know what they are buying.</p>
<p>Another thing to consider is errors. If you use color alone to signal an error, such as changing the <code>input</code> border color for a form error, people who don't see that color could miss the error altogether. Best to add an icon or some words to indicate the problem so that everyone can clearly see and understand it.</p>
<p>These are just a few things to think about when working with color, from design to implementation. And just like my earlier posts, thinking through these things helps you reach more people, and reaching more people is the goal, right?</p>
<p class="small">This article originally appeared on the <a href="https://bocoup.com/blog/accessibility-wins-lets-talk-color">Bocoup blog</a> and was edited by Brian Brennan.</p>
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			<title>Accessibility: Keyboard Navigation</title>
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			<updated>2018-08-14T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Last week, in the first of my follow ups to my <a href="/writing/get-started-with-accessibility/">Accessibility Primer</a>, we looked at setting up a <a href="/writing/accessibility-foundations/">good foundation</a> by using HTML and ARIA roles properly. Today we're going to dive into the world of making sure that people can navigate your site using their keyboard.</p>
<p>Many, many people use just their keyboards for navigation because it's easier on their wrists or hands, or they prefer it, or they don't have the fine motor control to work a mouse or touchpad effectively. Making sure they can get around your site is pretty important. This is another population that wants to get at your content—if you make it possible for them to do it—and the reality is that it doesn't take too much to make it possible.</p>
<p>First up is that keyboard navigators rely on link focus styling it's how they know where they are. If you eliminate a link’s <code>outline</code> styling, they've lost their indicator. If you want a different <code>focus</code> state for your links, that's fine. Just make sure you include that in your CSS. Perhaps you change the outline styling or you give it a border or an underline—I'm not telling you <em>what</em> to do for the focus state, I'm just reminding you to make sure you do <em>something</em> for it.</p>
<p>Another important factor to consider when testing to make sure users can navigate is the navigation order. Thankfully, links and buttons are already easy to tab to with the keyboard, so just by using proper HTML elements, you are well on your way. Links with empty <code>href</code> values won’t be accessible by tabbing, so make sure all your links have valid destinations. But that's part of our good foundation: using links as links and buttons as buttons.</p>
<p>There may also be scenarios in which changing the tab order makes sense, such as when an error message pops up that contains a link to more information. Testing and navigating the site with your keyboard only will help you see the way it flows. Then you can figure out when it may be appropriate to adjust <code>tabindex</code> values to ensure a usable flow in the link order. It’s fairly rare to need to adjust <code>tabindex</code> above 0, but test to make sure the flow works for you.</p>
<p>The final bit that needs to be factored into keyboard navigation is any custom widgets you may have happening on your page. I like JavaScript interactivity just as much as the next person, but sometimes adding things via JavaScript means things don’t get put into the tab order.</p>
<p>You'll want to test any interactive widgets heavily to make sure that you send focus to the right place at the right time—this assures that they’ll work well for the keyboard-only navigator. This doesn’t have to be terribly difficult, if the user opens a dialog box, send them back to where they were when it closes. But the coding and thinking through of this is important and I recommend reading more about it so you make sure you don't miss anything. <a href="http://a11yproject.com/patterns/">The A11Y Project</a> is a fantastic resource with examples of accessible things like modals and tooltips.</p>
<p>Testing is a lot easier than you think. Just set aside your mouse or trackpad and navigate your site. How does it feel? Do you have friends or colleagues that prefer to keyboard only navigate? Ask them to test your site and give you feedback.</p>
<p>If you make sure your users can navigate via keyboard, on top of using good HTML and ARIA roles, you're giving that many more people access to your content. That's a goal worth striving for: making sure everyone has access.</p>
<p class="small">This article originally appeared on the <a href="https://bocoup.com/blog/accessibility-wins-keyboard-navigation">Bocoup blog</a> and was edited by Brian Brennan.</p>
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			<title>Mysteries round-up</title>
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			<updated>2018-08-01T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've spent my time this summer reading a lot of mysteries. For some reason the page turning of trying to figure out who did it, usually in a different part of the world or era than I live in, takes me away from the reality of this world we live in.</p>
<p>I've enjoyed them all, and I'm planning on reading more, but I thought I'd do a quick post to share what I've been reading with y'all.</p>
<h2>Maisie Dobbs</h2>
<p>I went to a local mystery book club meeting in May and this author, Jacqueline Winspear, and in particular <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/-9780142004333">this series</a>, was recommended by several of the members. In addition, it made me remember that <a href="https://twitter.com/iamjessklein">Jess</a> had also told me about it. So I got the first one and dug in.</p>
<p>Maisie is a great character, and it's set in post World War I England, which makes it particularly unique for the lead to be a woman who is a private detective. This book took a lot of time to tell Maisie's back story, so you'll know where she's coming from, so I'm looking forward to getting the next one in the series to see where Maisie goes.</p>
<h2>The Red Pole of Macau</h2>
<p>I've read a couple of books from this series already. I'm gonna admit one thing right off the bat, these aren't the best written books. BUT I absolutely love the main character, Ava Lee. There is something about this woman moving amongst the underworld and traveling and kicking ass that keeps me coming back.</p>
<p>Maybe it's just me, but for some reason I enjoy traveling <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/-9781250032317">the world</a>, in a fairly fast paced read, and seeing what Ava gets up to.</p>
<h2>IQ</h2>
<p>I read about this new series in the New York Times book review quite a while ago, but finally read it last month. Plus my dad told me he loved it, making me want to read it even more. <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/-9780316267731"><em>IQ</em></a> is really entertaining. The main character lives in Long Beach, works to help people in his community with the small mysteries and problems in their lives and gets roped into helping a rapper for a pay check that will help him help another.</p>
<p>I think that's what I loved the most, so much of the main character's drive is about helping people and figuring out how to make his community better. This all comes because of mistakes he made when young, but his back story is great and the characters are so well written in this book. I'll definitely be reading the second one that's already out.</p>
<h2>The Dumb Witness</h2>
<p>Yes, I finally did it, I read a book by Agatha Christie. <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/-9780007120796"><em>The Dumb Witness</em></a> is one of my favorite Poirot episodes in the David Suchet series. I love that a dog plays a key role, but it's also a great mystery. The book is even better.</p>
<p>Poirot receives a letter, written months before, by a woman who's died. She's worried someone tried to kill her. He feels compelled to take up the case. Her dog Bob plays a key part in solving the crime and in the book he's a delightful character. Just as I do with dogs, Christie gives a voice to Bob and his thoughts in every scene he's in.</p>
<p>This was a great introduction to her writing and I can't wait to read more of the stories.</p>

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			<title>Accessibility: Start with the foundations</title>
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			<updated>2018-08-01T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Last week I wrote up a <a href="/writing/get-started-with-accessibility/">primer on how I think about accessibility</a> and in it I said I'd dig in deeper to the various pieces of the puzzle that make up an accessible site. Here's the first of my followups talking about the foundation on which it all rests: writing good HTML and adding in the proper ARIA roles.</p>
<p>I can already hear a few of you questioning the need for ARIA roles now that we live in the wonderful world of HTML5. And, like you, I'm super excited that we have elements like <code>&lt;nav&gt;</code>, <code>&lt;main&gt;</code>, and <code>&lt;footer&gt;</code> but that doesn't mean that all legacy browsers read and understand those elements. In fact, only Microsoft Edge is supporting all the new elements for <a href="http://www.html5accessibility.com">accessibility</a>. So if you want to provide good <a href="https://accessibility.blog.gov.uk/2016/05/27/using-navigation-landmarks/">backwards compatibility</a>, you still need to use them.</p>
<p>But first off, let's look at HTML. Confession time: I still really love HTML. Writing HTML was the first time I wrote anything resembling code and then was able to see it do a thing. And if I’m being honest, it’s still a bit magical that I type characters in a file and it can show up in a browser and be seen by people all over the world.</p>
<p>HTML is important because it's the foundation for the entire structure of your document. So using an <code>&lt;h1&gt;</code> on the page that is the main headline and then following that up by using paragraphs for text and lists when appropriate, you've already done a lot to make sure all users can easily get your content. Add in using <code>&lt;header&gt;</code> and <code>&lt;aside&gt;</code> at the right time, and you're already well on your way to a great base.</p>
<p>I encourage you to think about and make sure you are using the right elements at the right time. Sometimes I overthink this, but that's because it's that important to me - I want to make sure that the markup I use helps people understand the content, and doesn’t hinder them. And Mozilla's guide to <a href="https://developer.mozilla.org/en-US/docs/Web/HTML">HTML</a> and <a href="https://developer.mozilla.org/en-US/docs/Web/Guide/HTML/HTML5">HTML5</a> are both super helpful for making sure you understand all the elements.</p>
<p>All these elements provide us with the <a href="https://developer.mozilla.org/en-US/docs/Web/Guide/HTML/Using_HTML_sections_and_outlines">document outline</a>. This outline is used by the browser to give users the best experience. You can check it using a number of developer tools or this handy <a href="https://gsnedders.html5.org/outliner/">outliner</a> as you work, and it's a good idea to check occasionally to make sure the outline is as you think it should be for the best read of the content.</p>
<p>So now that you have a good base of HTML, what types of ARIA roles should you think about adding? Well, do you have a search form on your site? Use <code>role=&quot;search&quot;</code> in that <code>&lt;form&gt;</code> element. I realize it feels repetitive, but in order to be backwards compatible (IE 11 still doesn't use HTML5 elements for accessibility), I still do <code>&lt;nav role=&quot;navigation&quot;&gt;</code> on the sites I build. It feels weird, but hey, if it helps people who need it, it's worth the few extra characters. In addition I use the following roles quite often, <code>role=&quot;banner&quot;</code>, <code>role=&quot;complementary&quot;</code>, and <code>role=&quot;main&quot;</code>. To see a list of common HTML elements and the roles that go along with them most of the time, checkout the <a href="http://a11yproject.com/checklist.html">A11Y Project Checklist</a>, I still look there to double check things as I work.</p>
<p>Each site is unique, but reading up on and understanding <a href="http://www.w3.org/TR/wai-aria/roles#document_structure_roles">ARIA roles</a> for document and structure can help you give the little extra assistance some may need to get around and clearly understand your content. And when you put them on top of the right HTML elements for the right things, making use of <code>&lt;div&gt;</code> only when necessary for styling and not for content, you've widened the audience of your site that much more.</p>
<p class="small">This article originally appeared on the <a href="https://bocoup.com/blog/accessibility-wins-start-with-the-foundations">Bocoup blog</a> and was edited by Brian Brennan.</p>
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			<title>Get started with accessibility: A primer based on experience</title>
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			<updated>2018-07-26T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Accessibility is my passion (and increasingly my expertise). It has been since my time at the short-lived start up Editorially, where accessibility was a priority in the building of the application. Ethan Marcotte, co-founder, built the front end with it in mind, and everyone on the team cared about accessibility. Thanks to the entire team’s efforts, we received an email from a person who used assistive technology thanking us for making a product they could use. That email stayed with me.</p>
<p>From that moment, making the web usable for all people in all circumstances became a focus of my professional development. I’m still learning, and accessibility is a constantly evolving field. Still, I’ve developed some insights and methods along my journey and want to share them with you now. If you do even a little bit of the following, you’re doing more than most.</p>
<h2>What is accessibility?</h2>
<p>First, a definition: to me, accessibility is making it so anyone can access the content and information in your site or application no matter how they’re trying to get it and no matter who they are.</p>
<p>Accessibility is much bigger than screen readers, although they’re certainly a part of it. It’s also about all the other ways in which your content could be difficult for someone to see and consume. Color combinations and contrast are one part of it. Ability to use a keyboard is another. Can the user stop motion that bothers them or induces illness? Are animations at a speed that won't create problems for some users? How fast is the web connection, and does your site work when it's slow?</p>
<p>The Gov.uk team has a great <a href="https://accessibility.blog.gov.uk/2016/05/16/what-we-mean-when-we-talk-about-accessibility-2/">post that outlines</a> their take on accessibility, and I love how they talk about excluding no one. As you learn more about accessibility, you keep realizing that not everyone approaches the web the way you do. And that’s what’s at the heart of this work: the less you assume about your users, the better.</p>
<h2>Accessibility is a team effort</h2>
<p>Because different aspects of accessibility work fall under the purview of different team members, it helps to have everyone working toward that goal.</p>
<p>Last winter I worked on a team where accessibility was a top priority from management on down. That meant design was thinking about it. Developers were thinking about it. We had the application tested for accessibility. Every team member cared, and if they didn't know how to do something, they asked for help. The application may not have been perfect upon launch, but it was so much <em>better</em> than it would've been had the entire team not cared.</p>
<p>Other times I’ve worked with teams where I had to cajole others into caring about things like color or Javascript usage, sometimes with little success. On those projects, my nagging efforts made only a small dent, but even that dent was better than nothing.</p>
<p>If you are in a position to do so, you can start making dents, too. Slowly get your team on board by asking questions. Help them learn or become aware of the needs of others. This will only strengthen the team's work and skills over time, making accessibility a natural and normal part of their thought process.</p>
<h2>Questions to ask to get more accessible</h2>
<p>I have a bunch of questions that I ask to push myself—and team members—to think differently, to stop assumptions. I will never be able to use the web exactly the same way as someone with different abilities, but these questions at least help me start thinking about others’ contexts.</p>
<h3>What are the different ways in which people will be using the site or application?</h3>
<p>They may be on high-speed connections on a big desktop monitor, or maybe they're using Voice Over on their iOS device. Maybe they're on an older Android device with a slower connection. Maybe they have a large monitor, but a slower connection and the monitor is not the best quality, so color contrast matters. You get the idea.</p>
<p>There are many ways a person may be accessing your application, and I've found it helpful to make a list of different combinations I might incorporate into my testing.</p>
<h3>Are there limitations inherent in the tools the team is using, making it harder to make the site accessible?</h3>
<p>If you're using a framework, does that make it easier or harder to do the necessary accessibility work in the code? Is anyone actively working to make the framework more accessible? There are so many wonderful people in our community who have put hours and hours into making commonly used JavaScript frameworks—such as React or Angular—more accessible. The same goes for the CMS and its output, looking into how these things inherently work will help you understand the work that needs to be done.</p>
<h3>Has any user research been done that would be helpful as I work?</h3>
<p>Previous user research can be helpful, but I don't assume that every user is the same or that the research has sussed out all the possible ways a person may come to the application. What's most important to me as I work is not to assume.</p>
<h2>Accessibility considerations</h2>
<p>Whenever I’m starting something new or evaluating an existing project, I look for the following elements first:</p>
<ul>
<li>Semantic HTML. Is the final production code good clean HTML? No matter how you’re getting there, either via a CMS or using a framework, the output should be semantic and valid so you can ensure a good document outline.</li>
<li>ARIA. Is ARIA being used properly? This means using it for major landmarks but also not using it too much. I like the checklist at the <a href="http://a11yproject.com/checklist.html">A11Y Project</a> as a good starting point.</li>
<li>Keyboard navigation. Can the site be navigated with only the keyboard? People shouldn’t have to use a mouse to get around, and the order and flow should make sense.</li>
<li>Color. Is the color contrast good enough for all users, and can a person with color blindness still get all the information from the site?</li>
<li>Performance. While this isn’t always lumped into accessibility, I think it’s an accessibility issue because people on slow connections should also be able to get to your site and use it.</li>
</ul>
<p>I’ll go into each of these in more depth in upcoming posts, but this should give you something to think about.</p>
<h2>Test your work</h2>
<p>A lot of what I've learned has been through testing my work to see how it operates in various circumstances. Testing reveals a great deal about how others use the web, as well as how you can improve your work.</p>
<p>Just as there isn't infinite time to test in every browser, there probably isn't infinite time to test in every assistive tech/device combination. Pick a few to start. Get used to what it's like to use your site with, for example, <a href="https://bocoup.com/blog/getting-started-with-voiceover-accessibility">VoiceOver on your iOS device or on your Mac</a>. If you have a windows machine, <a href="https://bocoup.com/blog/using-nvda-screen-reader-on-windows">NVDA is free</a>. You can install that and test away. For keyboard users, try using your site without a mouse. Can you do it? Where are the hangups, and what could be improved? If you’re using a lot of color, be sure and test it in grayscale in addition to one of the screen reader tools.</p>
<p>If you want to learn more about how screen readers interact with browsers and pairings, <a href="http://www.hollier.info/browserpairing/">people write about that</a>.</p>
<h2>Resources</h2>
<p>Speaking of great resources, here are some places where I've learned <em>a lot</em> over the years.</p>
<p>First up is the <a href="https://webaim.org/community/">WebAIM email discussion list</a>. I know, email is so last decade, but it’s oh so good for following conversations about how to do tricky and hard things in the accessibility world. What I love about this list is that there are several users on it who use assistive technology when browsing the web, and their feedback and ideas are invaluable. What we assume when we do our work may not be true, and I've been set straight many a time when reading through responses on this list.</p>
<p>Next up, keep up with Heydon Pickering's site, <a href="https://inclusive-components.design">Inclusive Components</a>. His articles take one component and break it down with a lot of examples and ideas for how to make something accessible. What I really love about them is that they show many ways to do a thing, so you can decide what works best for your situation and your site. There may be a better way—or you may have limitations that Pickering doesn't—but there are lots of ideas here.</p>
<p>Then do some in-depth reading. These three books have helped me understand accessibility more deeply, and they’re all written by authors with deep knowledge on the subject:</p>
<p><a href="https://abookapart.com/products/accessibility-for-everyone"><em>Accessibility for Everyone</em></a> by Laura Kalbag is a quick read and wonderful introduction to the subject. Laura tackles both design and code and does so in a compact book that is packed with good information.</p>
<p><a href="https://shop.smashingmagazine.com/products/inclusive-design-patterns"><em>Inclusive Design Patterns</em></a> by Heydon Pickering is, much like his site, a look at various patterns and how to make them accessible, it's a great resource and complement to his site.</p>
<p><a href="https://rosenfeldmedia.com/books/a-web-for-everyone/"><em>A Web for Everyone</em></a> by Sarah Horton and  Whitney Queensbery takes you through design and UX to ensure that your flows work for everyone. This is focused more on design and usability, but the book includes interviews with users at the end of each chapter, which I loved. It also introduced me to a lot of people who are working in the accessibility world that I wasn't aware of.</p>
<p>That feels like a lot, but accessibility is important and is too often tacked on to the end of a project or, even worse, retrofitted after the threat of a lawsuit. Once accessibility becomes part of how you build for the web, it doesn't take you any longer. It merely changes your approach.</p>
<p>While changes to workflow can be difficult after years of always doing it one way, it's worth it. It's worth it when a user writes you an email to tell you you've done it. Maybe you didn’t do it perfectly, but they were able to use your application. This is why we do the work—because everyone deserves to be able to use the web and access it easily.</p>
<p><em>Do you want help thinking through accessibility more deeply? I'm available for continuing consultation or workshops with your team, <a href="/contact">get in touch</a>!</em></p>
<p class="small">Many thanks to Ethan Marcotte for tech editing this piece and to Meghan Seawell for helping my words shine with her editing skills.</p>

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			<title>Good Night, and Good Luck</title>
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			<updated>2018-07-21T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Last night we watched <em>Good Night, and Good Luck</em>. It wasn't the first time I'd seen the 2005 film, we went to it in the theaters, but it caught our eye on the shelf at the library and we decided to watch it again.</p>
<p>If you haven't seen it, it's the story of Edward R. Murrow reporting on Joseph McCarthy in the 1950s, when McCarthy was using his bully pulpit as the junior senator from Wisconsin to go after communists. Murrow pushes his bosses at CBS and directly confronts the hysteria on his news program. It's an extremely well done film, starring David Strathairn as Murrow and directed by George Clooney and the cast is filled with familiar faces, all great actors. And it is an extremely appropriate movie for the times we live in.</p>
<p>The movie opens and closes at an event honoring Murrow in 1958 where he's giving a speech which came to be known as the <a href="http://www.rtdna.org/content/edward_r_murrow_s_1958_wires_lights_in_a_box_speech">&quot;Wires and Lights in a Box&quot;</a> speech. And watching the end of the movie as Murrow is wrapping up the speech I was struck by this paragraph,</p>
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<p>This instrument can teach, it can illuminate; yes, and even it can inspire. But it can do so only to the extent that humans are determined to use it to those ends. Otherwise, it's nothing but wires and lights in a box. There is a great and perhaps decisive battle to be fought against ignorance, intolerance and indifference. This weapon of television could be useful.</p>
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<p>And ever since I've been thinking about it. About how that same statement could be applied to the internet, about how we could use the internet for good, but, as we've seen over the past several years, that's not how it's turning out. And I think about journalists today, many of whom are standing in Murrow's tradition, investigating the corruption and the horror of the current US administration to keep a spotlight on it. And in many ways I'm sad. I'm sad that we're still so caught up in greed and growth, which I would argue TV at Murrow's time was as well, people wanted entertainment so execs pushed that over news, that we can't see how much damage is being done by not using the &quot;instrument&quot; to teach, inspire, and fight the battles against &quot;ignorance, intolerance and indifference.&quot;</p>

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			<title>Public Libraries and other stories</title>
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			<updated>2018-06-11T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>In the last couple of years I'd go into the bookstore and I'd almost always see a book by Ali Smith on a display. And then her book, <em>Autumn</em> made several best of lists and I added it to my list. A few months ago I bought two of her books, including <em>Autumn</em> and a book of short stories. I decided to start with the short stories as I love libraries and just joined my new local library.</p>
<p>Smith wrote this book as austerity was being put into place in the UK and libraries were being closed down due to lack of funding. In between the short stories she includes vignettes of various people's thoughts on libraries. I'll admit it, I absolutely love these vignettes. I thought so much about how libraries influence people, how they are there for <em>all of us</em> to use, and how many people have been shaped by the books inside them.</p>
<p>That's not to say I disliked the stories, because I didn't, they are amazing as well. Smith's stories are all about relationships, books, life, death, and so much more. I absolutely loved the story about a couple where one of them is obsessed with a particular writer and how that affects the relationship. But all the characters are, in some way, influenced by books and it's fascinating how she draws stories out of those obsessions.</p>
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<p>I believe libraries are essential for informed and participatory democracy, and that there is therefore an idealogical war on them via cuts and closures, depriving individuals and communities of their right to knowledge and becoming on their own terms. (p. 76)</p>
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<p>I worry a lot about losing libraries. I live in a more rural county now and we have a vibrant library system because the people of the county voted to fund it. But funding feels fragile for libraries, especially in the areas where it's needed most, where people can't afford fast internet or to buy the latest devices to buy books digitally and read them immediately. And books can change lives and open up worlds and I love them along with the library.</p>

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			<title>Small steps to being faster</title>
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			<updated>2018-06-07T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been working on a lot of things related to my website lately, but one of them has been to run Lighthouse in Chrome Dev Tools and see where I'm at in the four things it audits. I'm doing great as a PWA, thanks to implementing a service worker. I've got good scores for accessibility and SEO as well, so I could leave those things as they are, but my performance score wasn't the greatest.</p>
<p>Confession time: I've read a lot about performance and I've dabbled in it quite a bit and I <em>care</em> about it, but a lot of it is in the realm of JavaScript and other things I don't understand as well as I'd like, so I often feel like I can't do much to improve how my site is doing. Well, according to Lighthouse, I was wrong. There were several little things that I could do easily that would improve that score.</p>
<p>First off, I added one line to my <code>@font-face</code> rules, <code>font-display: swap;</code>. (Thanks CSS Tricks for the <a href="https://css-tricks.com/almanac/properties/f/font-display/">great article</a> to remind me how that rule works!) I'd read about this in type books and I knew it existed, especially after reading Bram Stein's <em>Webfont Handbook</em> but had never done any updating to my fonts since I initially bought them and started using them. Well, that one small change gave me a huge bump in my Lighthouse performance score.</p>
<p>Then I started looking at the way I had caching set up in my <code>.htaccess</code> file. This is an area where I don't feel the <em>most</em> comfortable, but I've googled and usually am able to find people who've written articles that point out the exact code that I need. I edited the file and upped my caching by quite a bit and reran Lighthouse and BOOM! The score got better.</p>
<p>Those two things weren't hard, they didn't take me a lot of time, but they made a big difference. I still have things from the audits that I want to learn about and see how I can push my site further. HTTP/2 is on my radar now, but I need to read more about it so I can figure out the best solution for my site setup. And I'd like to put back CriticalCSS and get it working the way I want, but that'll all wait. I have time. And as I just said to a friend, a personal site is never truly done, is it?</p>

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			<title>Going Offline</title>
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			<updated>2018-05-29T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've made no secret of the fact that I'm not a lover of JavaScript. I admire those who can make it bend to their will, but I usually end up frustrated and annoyed whenever I try and write anything in JavaScript. That's why I was intrigued by Jeremy Keith's latest book <a href="https://abookapart.com/products/going-offline"><em>Going Offline</em></a> from A Book Apart. And seeing a few people I admire sing its praises on Twitter, I decided to give it a try.</p>
<p>Jeremy does a great job of taking you through how to build a service worker and take your site offline. The proof is in the pudding and well, this non JavaScript lover now has a service worker on her site. (Disclaimer: it isn't perfect, but it's working and I'm proud of that.) And what I really loved about the book is that he slowly goes through the process, having you do a little bit of code and a little bit more until you have a basic service worker. And then, if you want, you can make it better and better as you read through the final chapters.</p>
<p>If I have one complaint it's a minor one: I would've loved if at the end of each chapter there was the entire service worker you'd built, everything in the file, shown. In the later chapters I got quite confused and enlisted the help of a few friends to help me figure out what I was doing wrong and why I had some errors. I still have a few things I'd love to do to my service worker, but once my frustration level rose, I backed off a bit. I'll most likely go back and improve my offline page, but for now, it's simple and I'm OK with that.</p>
<p>Thanks Jeremy, for writing this, for giving me some confidence in writing a bit of JavaScript and for helping me make my site into a PWA! Also thank you for your strong and well worded defense of the web, the open web, and how service workers help promote it.</p>
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<p>Native apps rely on app stores for distribution. Progressive web apps use URLs. The World Wide Web becomes one big app store, but an app store where everyone is free to publish without asking for permission. (Chapter 9)</p>
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			<title>Gods and Beasts</title>
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			<updated>2018-05-29T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>In an attempt to meet people in our new town, I read <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/-9780316188531"><em>Gods and Beasts</em></a> for an upcoming mystery book club that happens at our local library. It was my first time reading a book by Denise Mina, but I'd read more of her work. I didn't <em>love</em> this book, but I did enjoy it overall.</p>
<p>The main character, Alex Morrow, is a detective in Glasgow and the book starts with a violent shooting in a post office which she then investigates with her partner. The book quickly takes you into the world of politics and the local gangs as well. And even though I did eventually get the whole story on who did it, the ending was abrupt. The author has written several books about this detective and world, so I'm guessing maybe another one is on the way.</p>
<p>I did like the main character and since I started with the third book in the series, I'll probably go back and read the first two to find out more about her. This book was what I like to a call a TV book, easy reading that can be done when tired in the evenings after a long day instead of zoning out in front of the TV. And right now, with summer here, and me hustling to do some new things for work, it's perfect.</p>
<p>Now to see what the other book club members think when I go to the meeting.</p>

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			<title>Middlemarch</title>
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			<updated>2018-05-22T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p><a href="http://www.powells.com/book/-9780143107729"><em>Middlemarch</em></a> is an epic book, it is a wonderful book, and it is one of the first books I've read in a long time where I'm fairly certain that I'll read it again. George Eliot is not only an amazing writer, but her insight into human nature is unbelievable.</p>
<p>It took me a long time to read this book, we moved and it is now the theme of the move for me in some ways, I'll forever associate leaving Portland for a new place with <em>Middlemarch</em>. The book is about a small village in nineteenth century England and the people that populate it. You see Dorothea Brooke, so young at the beginning and even though not many years pass as we follow her journey, she has aged and learned by the end. Her faith in people and the goodness of people is amazing and how harsh she is on herself is relatable.</p>
<p>As Miss Brooke marries, finds out what marriage is and strives to do her duty, we follow her and those around her on the journey. At the same time there is intrigue with jealousy and difficulty. Eliot nails so many emotions and human experiences and understands how they manifest themselves it's a profound look into the experience of two people, Miss Brooke and her opposite in so many ways, Rosamund Vincy.</p>
<p>And it is the every day life that is so telling about how these people relate to each other, the hierarchy in their village, and the way in which they work, or if they have enough money, don't work. The book becomes about marriage and that relationship, we see two marriages that are completely different in both the expectations of those in them and the way in which the fortunes of the couples works out.</p>
<p>At some point, I'll be making my way back to <em>Middlemarch</em>, to savor the writing, but also to find out what else I see in these women, these women that Eliot created and fascinate me.</p>
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<p>We cannot be sure that any natures, however inflexible or peculiar, will resist this effect from a more massive being than their own. They may be taken by storm and for the moment converted, becoming part of the soul which enwraps them in the ardour of its movement. (p. 713)</p>
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			<title>Building and maintaining a design system</title>
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			<updated>2018-05-16T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>My friend Ethan <a href="https://twitter.com/beep/status/959504209367400448">tweeted this</a> a while ago:</p>
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<p>Creating a pattern library is great. Getting an organization to actually adopt it? And to maintain it over time?<br>
That is the <em>work</em>, right there.</p>
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<p>And I've been thinking about it since. I've spent a lot of time over the past years thinking about design systems, pattern libraries, style guides, etc and I've started to see some trends in the problems that come up, especially in larger organizations, when trying to build and maintain something.</p>
<p>Last year I worked with a large company that was moving towards a system to base their digital work on and saw first hand how many different forces can make this hard. This is a bit of what I saw that made it hard to get a system up and running and then maintain it.</p>
<h2>Change is hard</h2>
<p>We all know this, but wow, it is so hard to change a process and the larger the organization the harder and slower the change is. I've found that getting a small prototype of a system up and running can help people in the various teams see it's potential to make their work easier and get them on board with the overall concept more quickly.</p>
<p>And, this probably should be the case, but having executives who are behind the work and believe in it is incredibly helpful. I like to word it more like an experiment that a small group can do and then once that group shows the speed at which they can create new features, etc, you slowly win people over. And that's what I saw last year, it was painstaking at times for the team doing the initial work, but slowly and surely they were winning over the rest of the organization.</p>
<h2>Organizational structure</h2>
<p>How the organization is set up can be a hindrance to getting a system up and running. If the developers and designers are on separate teams and reporting systems it makes it much harder to get the work done and maintain the work. There needs to be a unifying force and I would argue they should be on one team, working together and reporting up through the same branch of the organization. But this isn't always the case and battling through that can be difficult. If changing the structure isn't possible, then the people at the top of the two different reporting chains need to be on the same page and champions for the work, otherwise it has a higher likelihood of failure.</p>
<h2>Multiple teams</h2>
<p>In larger organizations it's fairly common to have several different teams that work on various products, sites, etc. I found when trying to get a design system in place some of those teams may feel like they're losing autonomy, they may no longer feel freedom to do their work as they see fit, but instead are working off of someone else's work, in this case the design system team's work.</p>
<p>These teams may be used to working off of brand guidelines, but design systems usually do some work dictating code, accessibility needs, and more, so problem solving may not feel as fun for the various business unit teams. I'm not exactly sure how to solve this one, but being aware of the conflict that may come up can be extremely helpful.</p>
<p>These are a few of the things I've seen in companies and, it turns out, so have others. Robin Rendle's <a href="https://robinrendle.com/notes/design-systems-at-gusto/">written about the things he's learned</a> in getting a system up and running and Sparkbox just came out with <a href="https://designsystemssurvey.seesparkbox.com">survey results</a> that point out many of the same things.</p>
<p>Change is hard. Communication and collaboration are absolutely necessary to make a system work. And the more people you can get involved from various disciplines the better chance you have of maintaining your system.</p>

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			<title>Truly not doing evil</title>
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			<updated>2018-05-03T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I spent a lot of time in the car in the past month going up and down the same stretch of freeway as we moved. One thing about driving long distances on relatively straight freeway is that it leads to a lot of thinking and process time. As I was doing all this driving there was a lot of talk about Google's AMP project going on.</p>
<p>Several people wrote posts on the topic, but <a href="https://ethanmarcotte.com/wrote/amplified/">Ethan's</a> resonated with me, he says:</p>
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<p>But as I read it, Franklin’s suggesting that decisions made by, with, and for technology are, generally, placed outside any kind of governance or regulation. And today, right now, I don’t think we need to look further than AMP to see an example of what Franklin’s talking about.</p>
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<p>If you haven't read anything by Ursula Franklin, I suggest you do so, because Ethan's taken some very wise words of hers and applied them to a very real problem we're facing in how the web moves forward right now.</p>
<p>At the same time there were hearings happening in Washington DC where Mark Zuckerberg testified about what Facebook actually does and its behavior over the past several years. This includes, but is not limited to, the use of the platform to <a href="http://money.cnn.com/2016/11/17/technology/facebook-election-influence/index.html">sway elections</a> in several countries and <a href="https://newrepublic.com/article/147486/facebook-genocide-problem">influence genocide</a>. (I realize these are harsh words, but, well, it happened and is awful.)</p>
<p>The two companies mentioned, Google and Facebook, have come to dominate how we use the web. And as they’ve risen into this place of prominence little has been done to ensure that they aren’t actively harming the world in which we live. Should any one company dominate the web in this way and have this much power? And those in charge of possibly doing something about it have very little understanding of what is happening, the Facebook testimony transcripts make that obvious. And at the root of all of this is how our society functions, making money and growth is what these companies care about most.</p>
<p>To get back to AMP, it exists to solve a very real problem, how to make websites load faster for users, but is it solving that problem or is it helping to ensure that people use Google for search and that sites get promoted in those very same products? As <a href="https://timkadlec.com/remembers/2018-03-19-how-fast-is-amp-really/">Tim points out in a post on performance and AMP</a>, you can get fast websites without AMP, but of course you don’t get the promotion in Google’s products without it.</p>
<p>The resulting bump in Google’s search therefore increases traffic and revenue. And I understand that all too well, we live in a society where capitalism is king and making money is, too many times, the only goal. It's why Facebook, on the whole, often disregards what's happening on their own platform, they're making money.</p>
<p>But I can't help but wonder what would happen if it weren't the only goal. It feels like a pipe dream, but what if we defined our industry’s success by how well our work cared about people, ethics, about truly not doing evil? What would that look like? How would we change how we treat the web and how we use the web? Because how the web's been used over the last several years by some of the largest and most influential companies is worrying, the impact is larger than anyone imagined.</p>

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			<title>5 women</title>
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			<updated>2018-04-16T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I was raised, in many ways, by five women. My mother, of course, but her three sisters and her mother were strong influences throughout my childhood and beyond. We all lived near each other and large, boisterous family events occurred regularly.</p>
<p>My mother's mother, Grandma, was a force of nature. She died 10 days into her 95th year when I was 18, but as I age, some of the things she taught me have become clearer and more relevant. She was a no nonsense woman who worked outside the home during a period of time when that was unusual for many (think 1950s). She taught me to take risks in cooking, as she never used a recipe, to be grateful for the little things, and how to make a simple quilt.</p>
<p>The other four women from my childhood are now aging. And the first of them has died. As I waited for the news that she is gone, I've been thinking a lot about her and her influence on my life. My Aunt Shirley was a travel agent when I was young and I have strong memories of visiting her at the office, where she complained about hearing the word cheap all day, as she said, &quot;all they want is cheap, cheap, cheap.&quot;</p>
<p>Shirley died her hair red most of her adult life and she loved to bowl and smoke. She made the smoothest mashed potatoes I had in my childhood, the key being using an electric beater. And she loved to laugh and have a good time. After she retired, and my uncle died, she traveled with friends and throughout my twenties I hung out with her and my mom a lot; we were all single.</p>
<p>But I'll admit, with all five of these women, my strongest memory is being at the Minnesota Landscape Arboretum in a shelter on a weekend morning as a young child. There were thermoses of coffee and jugs of orange juice, electric skillets are plugged in with scrambled eggs, hash browns, and bacon cooking. My grandma and my aunts are manning the food and putting out sweet rolls. My cousins and I are running all over the place and sneaking food when we can. And finally we all get plates, fill them full, and sit down at picnic tables to eat before walking amongst the gardens.</p>
<p>I'm traveling this week for her funeral, to see cousins, to see the remaining 3 women, to remember the boisterous times of food and play with my extended family from my childhood. And to honor one of the women who shaped who I am today.</p>

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			<title>A Wrinkle in Time Trilogy</title>
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			<updated>2018-03-31T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>With the movie coming out, it seemed that <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/-9780312367541"><em>A Wrinkle in Time</em></a> by Madeleine L'Engle was everywhere, so I decided to read it again and found a copy of the first three books, so read them all. And while the trilogy as a whole is quite good, the third book was by far my favorite, <em>A Swiftly Tilting Planet</em>.</p>
<p>L'Engle creates a cast of characters that I came to love. The Murrays and the people they surround themselves with are interesting, intelligent, and not your usual kids or parents. What I most enjoyed was the layers that L'Engle works into each character and the flaws you see in them. I loved following Meg as she aged and grew up, but Charles Wallace steals the show in the later books. And in the third book as we go back in time to learn of the history of the families that make up a fake country but also Meg's own family by marriage, Charles Wallace takes the risks and believes those who most would not.</p>
<p>These first three books are only the beginning and now I'm intrigued. Where do the characters continue to go? Do we continue to see Meg and her family as she ages in adulthood? Where do the adventures take them? There are two more books that make it into a quintet and I definitely want to read them to finish it off. And I love stories that show good prevailing over evil, it's so necessary right now with what's going on in the world.</p>

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			<title>Kindred</title>
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			<updated>2018-03-11T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm not quite sure how to write about <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/-9780807083697"><em>Kindred</em></a> by Octavia Butler and it's been over a week since I've finished it. It's a fascinating book about a woman who's living in 1976 but gets pulled back into the antebellum south in order to save her ancestor. And as she continues to get pulled back she stays for varying lengths of time and becomes more and more a part of life in the first half of the 1800s.</p>
<p>The structure of the book is amazing, with Dana never knowing when she'll go back in time but figuring out how to control things to get herself home. And as Dana spends more time in the pre Civil War south she makes friends, she gets to know how life is lived, and she herself changes in order to survive. And Dana's husband, who is white, goes back with her and experiences how much different life is for him as a white man and her as a black woman in that time.</p>
<p>This is a book that made me think, in good ways, but it was also uncomfortable and difficult to read at times. I do recommend it, Butler's writing is so fantastic and she builds her characters so well and the way in which Dana goes back and forth in time is fascinating. But, like Butler's Parable series, it isn't always easy to read.</p>

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			<title>Salt Fat Acid Heat</title>
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			<updated>2018-02-25T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>When I was in my mid twenties I started graduate school and at the same time I decided I wanted to learn how to cook. After deciding that, I happened upon a book called <em>How to Cook Without a Book</em>, a corny title, but that book taught me a lot about cooking and how to do it without a recipe for many of my go to standards now. The chicken soup I make today started with that book, the stir fry as well, along with the simplest preparations for a side of veggies for dinner. For years I recommended the book to people who told me they couldn't learn to cook, because I think anyone can, start simple, and you can figure it out. I still own the book, it's pages are ratty and crumpled from being spilled on and used so much, and while I don't refer to it much, I'm attached to it.</p>
<p><a href="http://www.powells.com/book/salt-fat-acid-heat-the-four-elements-of-good-cooking-9781476753836/62-0"><em>Salt Fat Acid Heat</em></a> by Samin Nosrat, with absolutely lovely illustrations by Wendy McNaughton, builds on <em>How to Cook Without a Book</em>. Nosrat's goal is to get you to understand how the four elements in the title work and how you can then learn to create great meals, possibly without using a recipe one day. And the last half of the book does have recipes in it, but often times she suggests and encourages variations upon the main recipe, pushing you to think about what you like, what you want to make, and how you prefer to cook.</p>
<p>In the first half of the book Nosrat dives into each element to help you understand how it works with food, some of the science behind it all, so you can better know how to use any of the four in your own cooking. And while doing this, she crushes some of the myths that I grew up with and that I still have a hard time letting go of as I cook our meals. Salt is not bad and I'll never, as a home cook, be in danger of increasing our sodium intake to dangerous levels, salt is bad in processed foods, but it's necessary in cooking to bring out the flavors. And I knew very little about acid, I often threw in the vinegar or lemon juice at the end of soups and other things as recipes directed, but I didn't really know what it was doing. Now I do.</p>
<p>When I finished reading through the entire book I realized that it would have a profound effect on the way I cook going forward. I want to make the recipes, but then also change them, play with them, taste as I go, and create things unique to what we prefer to eat. And if anyone says to me that they can't cook, this will be the book I recommend they pick up to learn how. Cooking takes time and practice to do well. Almost twenty years after I decided to learn, I'm still learning. But when I make a fantastic dinner and sit with a candle lit and savor every bite, it's worth all the effort.</p>

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			<title>True to Life</title>
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			<updated>2018-02-22T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Slowly, ever so slowly, over the past several months I've been making my way through a book of essays on David Hockney's life and art. And it's been wonderful. The book, <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/true-to-life-twenty-five-years-of-conversations-with-david-hockney-9780520258792/7-3"><em>True to Life: Twenty-five years of conversation with David Hockney</em></a> by Lawrence Weschler is a compilation of pieces written by Weschler over a long period of time. He's friends with Hockney and covers his work for years.</p>
<p>And that's what made this book so great. Hockney and Weschler's relationship is at the center of it, as Hockney moves into new phases of work, he regularly talks with Weschler about it, calls him and asks him to visit which means that we're taken into the studio and able to hear directly from Hockney about what he's thinking at the time. And because it spans such a long period of time, the work changes, Hockney changes, and it's fascinating to see how that comes out in his artwork and thinking process.</p>
<p>I love reading about artist's who've been working for most of their lives and had several distinct phases of their work. Hockney, unbeknownst to me, had an era of fascinating photo collages in the 1980s. They are amazing and I had no idea he did that work. And then, in the 1990s, Hockney becomes obsessed with the old masters and comes to believe that many of them used a camera obscura to do their work. It's an amazing theory—and one I find quite believable—but I had no clue about that part of his career.</p>
<p>The Hockney I knew before reading the book was the large landscapes that he did in the 2000s. They are quite wonderful and it was so great to read how he did them, painting the exact same place for well over a year. And, in the lead up, he works in watercolor and those pieces are fascinating, to see his style in that medium. I've spent the last month playing with and trying to learn watercolor and it was interesting to hear about a well known artist doing the very same thing late in his career.</p>
<p>This book was my way back into the art world and thinking about art in a more serious way than I have in many years, not since my fine arts studies in college. And now I'm on the hunt for the next one, because it fed my soul to leave the digital world and be immersed in the art world for a bit of time each week.</p>

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			<title>The Book of Dust: The Belle Sauvage</title>
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			<updated>2018-02-22T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I read the Philip Pullman series, His Dark Materials, during graduate school while studying theology. It was interesting because Pullman was so open about what he was doing in the book, but my friends and I enjoyed the stories and, frankly, thought you could see them disproving the existence of God or the exact opposite, depending on your inclination.</p>
<p>When I heard about a prequel series, I decided to give it a go, even though it's been a long time since I read his other work and I'll admit, I don't remember it completely. <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/the-book-of-dust-9780375815300/18-0"><em>The Book of Dust: The Belle Sauvage</em></a> brings us back to the time when the main character of His Dark Materials is a baby and we meet Malcolm, a young boy who meets Lyra and is fascinated by her.</p>
<p>As was the case in the first trilogy, it's the characters that made me love this book. Malcolm and Alice are endearing and wonderful characters who make it through a crazy and never ending adventure. And I do love so many bits of the world Pullman creates. The dæmon's and their relationship to their people is something I think about a lot. And the way in which it feels almost like a steampunk version of the world and the technology that exists.</p>
<p>Pullman doesn't waste too much time setting up in this one and pulls you right into the action as Malcolm and Alice try to protect and save Lyra from the many people who would want to use her for their own purposes. I enjoyed this book and read it for the surface level, choosing to go along for the ride and not think too deeply, and it ended with me wanting more, which I guess is the point when you're writing a trilogy.</p>

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			<title>Hawthorne on Painting</title>
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			<updated>2018-02-15T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm not terribly good about reading non fiction and I've got quite a backlog of books I've bought on art just waiting for me to pick them up, so I finally did with this slim volume. Charles Hawthorne isn't a painter that I'm super familiar with, but <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/hawthorne-on-painting-9780486206530/61-0">Hawthorne on Painting</a> was recommended by <a href="http://www.lizsteel.com">Liz Steel</a> and so I picked it up, hoping for some helpful thoughts.</p>
<p>I wasn't disappointed. The book is made up of advice he gave to students as he taught along with notes people must have taken as he spoke about painting. His wife and son put it together into sections based on subject matter. It's an easy read, but filled with a lot of profound things about use of color, how to see your subject matter, and how to think about approaching drawing and painting. His emphasis on color and spots of color also fits in perfectly with the watercolor class I've been taking by Liz Steel, so it was great to read it as I went through the class.</p>
<p>If you're interested in thinking more about making your own art, how you see the world while doing it, and some really practical advice on painting, I highly recommend it.</p>
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<p>You'll be surprised to see how little drawing you need if you <em>make</em> the spot of color and approximate the shape—then the drawing is more real and you won't need the kind you learn indoors. (p 29)</p>
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<p>Funny thing about painting, you don't know what makes it right but you know when it's wrong. (p 39)</p>
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			<title>Water Rat of Wenchai</title>
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			<updated>2018-02-10T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been a bit mystery crazy lately. We're currently watching the Poirot series and I've been watching some other British mysteries on Netflix but this past week I decided I wanted to read one and picked up the first Ava Lee novel by Ian Hamilton, <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/water-rat-of-wanchai-an-ava-lee-novel-9781250032270/18-0">Water Rate of Wenchai</a>.</p>
<p>Ava Lee is a forensic accountant who is also skilled in martial arts and goes after people to get money back they've stolen from her clients. She is a really interesting and great character and I can't wait to read more in the series. Lee lives in Toronto, but was born in Hong Kong, and she is adept at traveling the world and tracking money. She's also very adept at taking care of herself in dangerous situations.</p>
<p>I have no doubt that these books are somewhat formulaic, but to be honest, right now with the news of the world, escaping into that is what I need. A friend of mine used to call certain types of books, tv books, meaning it was what he read instead of watching TV for relaxation. Ava Lee fits that bill perfectly. In this first book she traveled from Toronto to Hong Kong to Thailand to Guyana to the British Virgin Islands and the last portion of the book was hard to put down.</p>
<p>I've already got the second book on hold at the library because I can't wait to read more about Ava's adventures.</p>

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			<title>Bridge to Terabithia</title>
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			<updated>2018-02-10T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been feeling a bit lost on what to read lately, nothing on my &quot;to read&quot; shelf is appealing, so I finally read this kids book that I never read when I was a kid. <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/bridge-to-terabithia-a-harper-classic-9780062658746/62-0">Bridge to Terabithia</a> is a classic and it's a great story, as I found. I loved the way the kids portrayed were so realistic and also so honest.</p>
<p>I grew up in a very small town when until I was 10 (population ~600 or so) and there was so much in this book I could relate to. I especially loved how the friends interacted, how, without realizing it, they were saving each other. It isn't easy being the odd one in a small town, as I can attest to, and this book portrays the ways in which two oddballs come to be friends.</p>
<p>This would be a super great book to read aloud with a kid, but also, if you want a good story that will occupy an afternoon, I recommend it.</p>

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			<title>The Stone Sky</title>
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			<updated>2018-01-24T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I finally finished NK Jemisin's Broken Earth trilogy, which wraps up with <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/stone-sky-broken-earth-03-9780316229241/62-0"><em>The Stone Sky</em></a>. I got a bit way laid by several library books becoming available, so this took me longer than I expected, but it's so good, particularly the ending of the series.</p>
<p>We see Essun and her daughter attempt to right things in the world. And I'll admit that I liked how the ending wasn't completely definitive. There is so much in this series that helped me think about our current times; how we treat the other, how we treat the Earth, and how we think about solving hard problems.</p>
<p>And yet Jemisin doesn't give definitive answers in the end, she hints at cooperation and hard times pushing people to find new solutions, but I'm not sure that the people left in this book will do that. She also recognizes the need to grieve, to collect yourself and care for yourself, before you move forward.</p>
<p>I never want to say too much in these reviews because I don't want to give anything away, but this series is worth your time. Jemisin builds a fascinating world, one which I'm so glad I got to look into for a while.</p>

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			<title>5-minute Sketching: Landscapes</title>
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			<updated>2018-01-24T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been slowly reading a lot of varied books on sketching, drawing, art, design, etc. I've been finding the way in which they force me to think differently and see differently really helpful in reframing a lot of the ways in which I think about life, work, and art. Last night I finished reading through Virginia Hein's <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/5-minute-sketching-landscapes-super-quick-techniques-for-amazing-drawings-9781770859180/62-0"><em>5-minute Sketching: Landsacpes</em></a>. I've skimmed through a few other books from this serious, but am now going back for more serious reads. The format is not perfect, but it's definitely interesting.</p>
<p>What I love about this book is how much sketching art work the author shows from different artists. And in the case of this book I've found a lot more artists whom I want to follow; I've already added several to my RSS feed.</p>
<p>But the ideas and thoughts throughout the book also made me think about how I work and what I do as I'm working. I've been having a running battle with my sketching for a while now, because most sketchers do their work in ink and watercolor. I don't dislike watercolor, I'm even taking an online course to try and get to know it better, but for my style of working, I'm not sure it's the best medium. This book had a decent amount of work in it that was using different mediums and the author herself uses a wide variety, it was great to see and be inspired by it.</p>
<p>As for the format: I get that the 5-minute series is for quick ways to do better sketches around a particular topic, but sometimes it gets old. I read it all, but I spent a lot of my time looking at the reproductions of the sketches, which were by far the most valuable part of the book for me.</p>

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			<title>People and tooling</title>
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			<updated>2018-01-16T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>In December I read the 24 Ways piece by Una Kravets <a href="https://24ways.org/2017/why-design-systems-fail/"><em>Why Design Systems Fail</em></a> and there is a bit at the end that came back to me this week.</p>
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<p>But if your design system is complicated and over-engineered, they may find it frustrating to use and go back to what they know, even if it’s not the best solution. If you’re a Sass expert, and base your system on complex mixins and functions, you better hope your user (the developer) is also a Sass expert, or wants to learn. This is often not the case, however. <strong>You need to talk to your audience.</strong> (emphasis mine)</p>
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<p>She goes on to talk about the solution they made for that at Digital Ocean, which is interesting. But I've thought again and again about her ideas around friction and how we can ease it for all of our team members.</p>
<p>This keeps coming back to me because tooling in front end development is getting increasingly complex. As this happens, I believe we're leaving people out who could be contributing in meaningful ways, but aren't comfortable with the tools, or as is often the case, the command line; such as designers and copy editors who feel comfortable working in HTML and CSS.</p>
<p>I’ve worked on a wide variety of teams over the years and very few of those included designers who felt comfortable enough in the front end tools to run a local development environment. That translated into the designer looking at the app running on a test server, making changes in the browser dev tools, and then passing them on to me, or another developer, to get them implemented in the code. This is just one example of a team member who feels comfortable in some front end code (HTML and CSS) but not comfortable enough with the tools for local development to implement their own requested changes. And I’ve been on the other side occasionally, with a designer who did make the changes and it made a world of difference to how efficiently we got work done.</p>
<p>The way we build for the web right now feels problematic in so many ways. Instead of welcoming everyone from our teams with their various skills, we create layers of complexity that shut many out. And I’ll be honest: I’m not sure what the answer is here, I’m not sure what tools can make this better, easier, or include everyone, but I’m increasingly wanting them.</p>
<p>While all of these build tools are solving problems for developers and back end infrastructure, I believe they are creating more barriers and work for others who help make our products and sites. Imagine being the designer who took up the challenge to learn to code but not being able to do the smallest tweaks to tighten up a design? And I can’t help but also wonder if we’re using tools to solve problems they weren’t meant to solve, like how to communicate with or manage a team.</p>

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			<title>Coming to My Senses: The Making of a Counterculture Cook</title>
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			<updated>2018-01-09T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I started the new year off with a memoir, seems fitting as I usually spend the beginning of January thinking about where I'm at in life. And it was good timing that my turn came up for Alice Waters' <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/coming-to-my-senses-the-making-of-a-counterculture-cook-9780307718280/62-0"><em>Coming to My Senses: The Making of a Counterculture Cook</em></a>. I've only read one other book by her, <em>My Pantry</em>, which I really enjoyed, so I was interested to see what her memoir would be like.</p>
<p>Her writing style is quite direct and very much the order of things that happened as she talks about her childhood, family, growing up, etc, but then she interrupts herself to go more in depth about an emotion, a person, an event, tying it more to her life now and how it affected things. It was those asides that I enjoyed the most. She certainly lived an interesting life, but like many cooks, a trip to France is what spurred her to learn to cook and then to open a restaurant.</p>
<p>But it was towards the end of the book where she outlines how Chez Panisse came to be that fascinated me. So much of it feels like good timing, support of friends, and just pushing on to get it open. And I absolutely love the way she decided on staff and chefs, based on people she wanted to be around and who she knew could do the job. It seems that most businesses wouldn't hire that way and I understand why, but it sure worked out for her in the beginning.</p>
<p>My highlights are from the kindle version and are for my future reference, so probably out of context unless you read the book yourself.</p>
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<p>And I can be alone—my favorite thing is puttering around the house by myself for three or four hours, following my inclination to take a book off the shelf, remember a recipe from it, put it back. It relaxes me. But I like knowing that I’m meeting someone for dinner at the end of it. (p 16)</p>
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<p>Aesthetically, a beautiful work space made me feel comfortable and inspired. It shouldn’t be an afterthought. The right environment around you can make whatever job you’re doing pleasurable, no matter how small the task. (p 49)</p>
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<p>It’s so great when someone you admire draws your attention to something, and suddenly you see it for the first time. Sometimes you need a friend who has great taste to help you to see that something has value and beauty. (p 163)</p>
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<p>I believe now that 90 percent of taste comes from an understanding of what seed should be planted in what place, how to care for the plant, when to pick it, and how quickly to eat it. (p 251)</p>
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<p>What’s endlessly fascinating to me about cooking and eating is the biodiversity of the planet. The depth of the abundance of the earth. I’ll never be able to comprehend it. Nobody can. And that’s the tragedy of fast food—everything in this country changed with fast food. We wanted shippability, we wanted year-round availability, we wanted food for cheap. And when you achieve all that, you take away everything—you lose touch with nature, and you exist in a hollow place, devoid of beauty and nourishment. (p 252)</p>
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<p>It’s such a simple thing to light a candle—it changes the whole tone of an experience at a table. (p 274)</p>
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<p>Because as it turned out, food is the most political thing in all our lives. Eating is an everyday experience, and the decisions we make about what we eat have daily consequences. And those daily consequences can change the world. (p 301)</p>
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<p>I’d always had strong opinions since I was little, and I’ve always relied on my intuition—a decision has to feel right. It’s something I’ve never worked out intellectually. Is that what people mean by a calling? My calling may have been to listen to my intuition. I’ve followed it my whole life. (p 304)</p>
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			<title>Sketch NOW Think Later</title>
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			<updated>2018-01-08T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Over the past year I've been sketching more and I've been playing around with Urban Sketching, a movement started by an illustrator in Seattle, all about sketching what you see around you. I took an online sketching course by a really great urban sketcher, <a href="http://www.lizsteel.com">Liz Steele</a>, and I've bought, but haven't read them all yet, several books on the topic of different aspects of sketching; such as people, buildings, landscapers.</p>
<p>Someone I follow on Instagram mentioned <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/sketch-now-think-later-jump-right-into-sketching-with-limited-time-tools-techniques-9781631593444/62-0">Sketch NOW Think Later</a> by Mike Yoshiaki Daikubara and I just got my turn off the hold list from the library. Over the past weekend I read through it and was impressed. Daikubara's sketches are quite amazing and he does them very quickly, which is the whole point of his book, showing you how to sketch quickly.</p>
<p>I don't really like the idea of &quot;you have to do it my way&quot; books, but I did take some things away from this book that may eventually make it into my own sketching work.</p>
<ul>
<li>I liked the idea of sepia for ink + one color sketches and may eventually add that to my palette.</li>
<li>I'm intrigued by a fude fountain pen, I use a Lamy Safari and love it, but could see how a fude would be interesting for more line variation.</li>
<li>I want to sketch more out and about, so I need to make that a priority this year, going out, at the very least to the tea shop, and taking some time to sketch.</li>
</ul>
<p>If you have any interest in the topic, I recommend Daikubara's book, if for nothing more than seeing all his amazing sketches for inspiration.</p>

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			<title>Aging out</title>
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			<updated>2018-01-03T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been thinking about tech and aging lately. It feels so much like a young person's place to be, with the emphasis on spending all of your time learning and working, be it paid work or side projects. I've been the oldest person, or one of the oldest, at most places I've worked the past few years. And recently a friend talked about aging out, specifically in regards to being a woman in tech, making plans for what to do next since she knows so few older women in tech. It got me thinking, <em>a lot</em>. I realized that I hardly know any women over 45 who are still working in tech. It’s less than the fingers on one hand. I'm aware with all that's gone on in the past year that there are very good reasons many women leave tech, but I've been thinking a lot about what this means for me. I'm rapidly closing in on that age, will I still be in tech in two or three years?</p>
<p>I still like what I do, for the most part. I've been lucky enough to find positions where I'm able to sit in an odd role between design and development, and work on accessibility and design systems. But after the lay off last summer <a href="/writing/against-the-grain/">it was harder to find work</a>. That experience, along with the fact that I'm aging, has got me thinking about where I'm heading.</p>
<p>I'll be frank: I have no idea what I'd do if I weren't writing HTML and CSS and trying to make things accessible. There are things that interest me; I investigated making lateral moves or transitioning into other parts of the tech world last summer (such as product management or project management) and I found it's not that easy unless your current job is willing to help make it happen. Given that I'm a contractor right now, that feels difficult.</p>
<p>And that's the other piece of this puzzle. I've loved being contract again. Aside from the headaches of the health insurance mess that is the US system, it's been great. Contracting allows me a bit of separation and independence while working on projects. In addition, I don’t have a false sense of security; I’m well aware that the job will end and when things do end I’m prepared. And, best of all, I get to work with a lot of different teams, see how they work, and what’s important to them; this makes me a better developer in the long run.</p>
<p>I don't have answers right now, just a lot of questions. It’s something I'll be thinking about a lot over the coming years, probably every time I'm looking for my next project. And being even more honest: I'm angry that this is something I'm thinking about, that this is the way it seems to be. I know a lot of women younger than me in tech and I wonder, will they all leave by their mid-forties? Or will they, and maybe myself as well, be a generation that pushes past that age so that it becomes normal to stay as you age? And maybe there are more older women in tech and I just don’t know them? If that’s you, I’d love to <a href="mailto:info@susanjeanrobertson.com">chat</a>.</p>

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			<title>Deliberate</title>
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			<updated>2018-01-01T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've chosen a word to be my theme for 2018; I want to be deliberate about the things I do and the choices I make. I've never done this before, but for some reason, this word kept coming back at me over the past week, so here we go. I've made a few intentions (I like that word better than resolutions) and we'll see where they go, but most of those lead back to being deliberate. 2017 was difficult world wise but, for me in my life, oddly good. And I want this year to be more of that and hopefully the world can figure out some of its shit too.</p>

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			<title>Manhattan Beach</title>
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			<updated>2017-12-31T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I thought I wasn't going to finish another book in 2017, but <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/manhattan-beach-9781476716732/18-0"><em>Manhattan Beach</em></a> sucked me in and I couldn't put it down, staying up late last night to finish. It's the story of a girl growing up in Brooklyn in the 1930s and then her story as she becomes a diver in the Brooklyn Naval Yard during World War II. Anna and her story are what sucked me in. She is stubborn, adventurous, and daring for the era in which she lives.</p>
<p>While Anna is the focus, her father's story is a huge part of the novel as well. And I really enjoyed the way Jennifer Egan wove the stories together; moving from Anna's story, to her father's, to the underworld in which her father worked. The look into the Brooklyn Naval Yard at that time is interesting as well, a look at what the war was like here in the US, far from the fighting. Men who were desperate to serve, but for one reason or another weren't able to be in the military. Women who worked in what were formerly men's roles and enjoyed it, flourished, found some purpose. And the way in which the nightclubs were a refuge of sorts for all of them.</p>
<p>It isn't a perfect picture of course, since people are far from perfect, and Anna has her flaws, but her daring to find out not only what happened in her family, but also to push herself to do something she loves that isn't traditionally a woman's job, drew me in. And I'll admit it, I'm a sucker for anything set in and around World War II, something about it intrigues me and makes me wonder.</p>

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			<title>Daily Drawing 2017: Fourth Quarter</title>
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			<updated>2017-12-31T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I did it! I finished the book and I drew pretty much every day in 2017. And I'm going to be honest, after so much daily drawing the last few years, I'm going to take a break. But I'm signed up for an online watercolor course, so I'll be doing art in 2018, just maybe not every day.</p>
<p>October was animals in watercolor or gouache. I ended up using watercolor pencils for all three of these months as the paper in the book didn't have as much tooth as I like to hold regular watercolor paint. And I've grown to <em>love</em> watercolor pencil so it worked.</p>
<p>I'm not great at animals or people so I used photo references for this month, but ended up enjoying it and having fun just trying. And that's the spirit in which I now draw, just try it and see what happens.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/2017-drawing/october-sm.jpg 800w, 
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    <figcaption>October was animals, and I struggled, but ended up enjoying it in the end.</figcaption>
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<p>November was by far one of my favorite months of the year. I love the ocean and learning about what lives there and so I really enjoyed drawing the theme of sea creatures. I used my colored pencils again and often used a photo reference, but had a lot of fun making them my own. And I felt like I really started to get how my pencils and this paper work together.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/2017-drawing/november-sm.jpg 800w, 
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                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="images/build/posts/2017-drawing/november-sm.jpg" alt="">
    <figcaption>November was sea creatures and I loved it so much.</figcaption>
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<p>December was free form, pick what you want for both theme and for material. I stuck with my trusty watercolor pencils and decided to draw something I could see around the house. This month was hard. I wasn't feeling as motivated and it was hard to remember to draw every day. But I persevered and did it. A lot of the drawings are of my tea mug or a plant we have, but that's OK with me. It wasn't really about the subject matter so much as doing it.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/2017-drawing/december-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/2017-drawing/december-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
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    <figcaption>December was a free form month and I struggled without prompts and because I was burning out on it a bit, but I made it through and drew things around the house.</figcaption>
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<p>Well, that's it. A whole year of drawing done. I'm grateful for these types of books, they help me stay focused and push myself into drawing things I would never do otherwise, as well as using mediums I wouldn't otherwise.</p>
<p>My other posts in this series:</p>
<ul>
<li><a href="/self/daily-drawing-quarter-in/">First Quarter</a></li>
<li><a href="/self/daily-drawing-halfway/">Second Quarter</a></li>
<li><a href="/self/daily-drawing-third-quarter/">Third Quarter</a></li>
</ul>
<p class="small">This post has scans, since I have a scanner and decided to try it out. I don't know that it's better than my horrible photos, but it's different.</p>

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			<title>Provenance</title>
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			<updated>2017-12-28T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I read Ann Leckie's trilogy and really enjoyed it, so I was excited to find she had a new book out. <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/provenance-9780316388672/18-0"><em>Provenance</em></a> takes place in the same world as the Radchaai trilogy but we have a new main character and a whole new set of planets and species to get to know.</p>
<p>Ingray is a young woman trying to find her way in the world and make her mother take notice of her and she goes on a daring and costly adventure to try and make it happen. When things start to go wrong, almost from the beginning, Ingray keeps moving forward. What I came to love about Ingray was that no matter what, she did what she felt was right and stuck to it, even when it meant danger for herself.</p>
<p><em>Provenance</em> is all about family relationships and how we deal with the expectations our family puts on us. Somehow, reading this book right before the holidays was perfect timing for me. Leckie creates worlds that are different than our own, but also so similar, and through the difference I'm always able to think more deeply about what's going on in this world.</p>

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			<title>Curation</title>
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			<updated>2017-12-28T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>My friend Snook recently <a href="https://snook.ca/archives/opinion/curation">wrote about curation</a> and I've been thinking about it for a while. So much of the tech world wants to decide what you will like and want to see, Twitter (if you use their site or apps) and Instagram. I think that's why I still love RSS so much. I decide who's feeds I subscribe to and I get their content as it publishes; no one is messing around with it but me. I'm the curator.</p>

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			<title>Clinging to hope</title>
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			<updated>2017-12-21T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>2017 has been a hard year and I'm just about to go into my end of the year retreat, where I stay offline, read, draw, and write. But I wanted to write one last quick note before I retreat and point out some reasons to be hopeful in the midst of what has been a lot of awful.</p>
<ul>
<li>The enrollment numbers for the Affordable Care Act for 2018 came out today and despite the administration's best efforts, the numbers are amazing. so far it looks like almost the same number of people enrolled as last year <em>despite</em> the fact that the open enrollment period was much shorter. These numbers can only go up as state marketplaces report in. This is activism at work, people reaching out to people to spread the word.</li>
<li>Several deep red states held special elections that were won by Democrats. There is no longer a Republican super majority in the Georgia state senate. Oklahoma had several state legislative seats go blue this year. And of course the amazing work in Alabama.</li>
<li>More people are getting involved in both local and state and national politics. Fantastic candidates are coming forward wanting to serve and help make change. 2018 could be an amazing year of correction and I'm feeling hopeful.</li>
</ul>
<p>This is all hope. And there is more, a lot more, you have to look harder but you can find it. Hang on to hope friends, it's what will keep us going and help us get out of bed after the hard days.</p>

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			<title>Current coping mechanisms</title>
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			<updated>2017-12-14T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>These days are rough times, the news is an avalanche of bad story after bad story, with a few notable exceptions; I thought I'd share some things that are helping me get through.</p>
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<li>Comedies. I've gone back to sit coms and am watching <em>The Good Place</em> and usually guffaw every episode.</li>
<li>Science fiction. Reading about another world, place, or time and how difficulties can be overcome is always good for my well being. (Current book is the latest Ann Leckie.)</li>
<li>Cutting back on alcohol. This may seem counter intuitive, but it means I sleep better and feel better and deal with my emotions as they come.</li>
<li>Crochet. My new meditation form, where it's me and counting stitches.</li>
<li>Leaving my house. Since I work from home it's easy to become a hermit in the winter months, but I'm trying to get out and see people or at least walk around every day.</li>
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			<title>Hope in the Dark</title>
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			<updated>2017-12-13T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been on a hold list for Rebecca Solnit's <a href="tk"><em>Hope in the Dark</em></a> for quite some time and I think the timing of when my turn came up was absolutely perfect. I read it this week and it is the perfect book for our current time, well, that is, if you are unhappy with many of the events in the world and the US right now.</p>
<p>Solnit goes on a journey to find stories of hope, and to better understand how movements and hope work. She looks back to movements from all over the world and how activists have made change in various situations. And as she travels through history, she points out how no one knew at the time what would happen or come of the events that were unfolding.</p>
<p>As I've gone back to history to see how movements have struggled and ultimately prevailed, Solnit showed me many smaller movements that I knew nothing about, which may not have seemed like a big deal at the time, but were crucial to starting the ball rolling towards change.</p>
<p>I'm particularly interested in her work with environmental movements, how so many groups who may be working towards very similar goals, from different perspectives, have come together to realize that they <em>can</em> work together and that maybe, just maybe they aren't so different after all. Our use of words like &quot;left&quot; and &quot;right&quot; have clouded our judgement and made it harder to bring people with common goals together.</p>
<p>Last night, I finished the book after seeing the election results from Alabama, where a Democrat won a senate seat. It was unexpected, and seemed somewhat miraculous, but then again, that's what hope is to me, and Solnit showed me ways in which I'd missed seeing the victories that were right there all along.</p>
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<p>An extraordinary imaginative power to reinvent ourselves is at large in the world, though it is hard to say how it will counteract the dead weight of neoliberalism, fundamentalisms, environmental destructions, and well-marketed mindlessness. But hope is not about what we expect. It is an embrace of the essential unknowability of the world, of the breaks with the present, the surprises. Or perhaps studying the record more carefully leads us to expect miracles—not when and where we expect them, but to expect to be astonished, to expect that we don’t know. And this is grounds to act. I believe in hope as an act of defiance, or rather as the foundation for an ongoing series of acts of defiance, those acts necessary to bring about some of what we hope for while we live by principle in the meantime. There is no alternative, except surrender. And surrender not only abandons the future, it abandons the soul. (p 109)</p>
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			<title>The Essex Serpent</title>
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			<updated>2017-12-05T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>There are books that I read, finish, and realize I'll need to read again several times in order to understand all the layers in them. <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/essex-serpent-a-novel-9780062666383/62-0"><em>The Essex Serpent</em></a> by Sarah Perry is one of those books. The book follows Cora Seaborne, a recent widow, who goes with her son and companion to Essex from London after the death of her husband.</p>
<p>As Cora meets people in Essex, particularly a reverend in a nearby village, she pursues her love of books and fossils and science. Over the top of all this, the villagers believe there is a serpent in their midst and are accounting for missing boats and animals by saying they've been taken by the serpent. So as Cora and the reverend's relationship progresses and becomes more complicated, the myth of the serpent is constantly in the background.</p>
<p>The secondary characters in the book are fascinating as well, a doctor in love with Cora, Cora's companion who is interested in affordable, safe housing and active politically to such ends, the rich friend of the doctor, who is also a doctor himself, and the wife of the reverend who is dying of consumption. The depth of the secondary characters is amazing, and a big part of what I'm still trying to figure out.</p>
<p>After finishing, I'm not sure I totally understand all that was happening, but I do know that I'd love to hang out with Cora and the reverend and talk with them.</p>

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			<title>The never ending argument</title>
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			<updated>2017-11-30T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>We recently finished watching  <em>The Roosevelts: An Intimate Portrait</em>, a Ken Burns documentary about Theodore, Eleanor, and Franklin Roosevelt. And I was struck, while watching the episode that covered FDR's first term in office, that the argument about the role of the federal government in the US is the never ending argument.</p>
<p>The past year has been difficult as I've watched our current administration essentially stop governing in many ways. As I watched the story of FDR passing legislation to care for the least of us, the largest being Social Security to care for the elderly, widows, and the disabled, I was struck that the arguments against it were the same as what we hear now against the Affordable Care Act.</p>
<p>And the wording the documentary used, that the Social Security legislation was about caring for the least of us, struck me. What does it say about a country when caring for the least of us is not a priority? This argument seems unique to the US; other western nations have decided that caring for those in need is part of living in society together, and they look upon the US as an outlier.</p>
<p>This tension is one of the recurring threads in our history. What should the role of the federal government be in ensuring that all its citizens have their basic needs met?</p>
<p>I've been going back to history a lot lately. It gives me hope, even if it's a small amount, that we do take steps forward. Social Security is still here today, it was never repealed. And the legislation signed by the Johnson administration in the 1960s is also here, Medicare and Medicaid. And, even through all the efforts to kill it this year, the Affordable Care Act is still alive and more popular than ever.</p>
<p>It may feel like we're taking steps backward at times, but I'm hopeful that the big steps forward survive and we build upon them. We <em>should</em> be caring for the least of us, that's what living in a society means.</p>

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			<title>Overwhelmed</title>
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			<updated>2017-11-28T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I took the long Thanksgiving weekend off from <em>most</em> of the internet. I didn't read much news, I didn't do any Twitter, and amazing things happened in my brain. It's taken me a long time to come to grips with how much events in both the wider world and in my personal life affect me emotionally. And now that I realize this, I'm beginning to see that I can't be plugged in, at least not now. By the end of the weekend I was thinking and writing, and it was like I'd come out of a fog. And when I opened up Twitter on my laptop on Monday I didn't want to go back. So I haven't. Maybe 2018 will be the year that I step way back from certain things so I can use the energy I have in better ways.</p>

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			<title>Where I Was From</title>
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			<updated>2017-11-25T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'd never read anything by Joan Didion until this book, probably not the way most people first read her work, but I tend to go for books available immediately at the library and this one was, so I checked it out. Her writing is amazing. This book is a mix of history, of digging deeply into economic trends, and of looking at the place where she grew up years after she left, California. <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/where-i-was-from-9780679752868/62-0"><em>Where I Was From</em></a> is filled with exactly the type of essays that I love reading.</p>
<p>Didion starts by talking about the history of her family arriving and living in California, near Sacramento. She dives into what brought her people there but also how people who've lived there for generations feel about people who've just arrived. And she focuses on how living in California has changed.</p>
<p>But it was the group of essays on the area around Long Beach that struck me most. Didion dives into the changes to defense contracting and airplane manufacturing that change the economic fortunes of those living there by examining several cases of sexual assault and harassment brought against a gang of high school boys. She's unflinching in slowly tearing away the mask of what the media or the community see as the root of the problems and showing how the way in which the changing fortunes of Mcdonnell Douglas effects the community profoundly, along with the surrounding LA area.</p>
<p>Didion doesn't shy away from difficult topics, but does so in a way that when she lands the punch she's been leading up to, I was usually gobsmacked. I'll be reading more of her work, especially the nonfiction.</p>
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<p>What does it cost to create and maintain an artificial ownership class? Who pays? Who benefits? What happens when that class stops being useful? What does it mean to drop back below the line? What does it cost to hang on above it, how do you behave, what do you say, what are the pitons you drive into the granite? (p 111)</p>
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			<title>My Name is Lucy Barton</title>
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				<p>I recently listened to a novel for the first time and I found the experience delightful. I've taken up crocheting and I can't really watch anything while doing it and need to be able to start and stop easily to count stitches, so I decided to give an audo book a whirl. I've read several of Elizabeth Strout's books, and figured they'd make good audio experiences, so I checked out <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/my-name-is-lucy-barton-9780812979527/17-11"><em>My Name is Lucy Barton</em></a> and it was indeed enjoyable to listen to.</p>
<p>Lucy Barton tells the story of being in an extended hospital stay and having her mother, who she is not close to, come to visit her. She also tells the story of her life, her marriage, her children, and her writing. But it was the story of her relationship with her mother that I could relate to. Her mother travels from rural Illinois to stay in the hospital with her for a visit. They tip toe around the real things Lucy would love to know about her mom and instead talk about the people Lucy knew growing up, and the community in which her mother still lives.</p>
<p>Strout's characters are always interesting, she has a way of creating people who I feel like I could meet walking down the street either where I live or where I grew up. And Lucy Barton and her mother are the same. But in this relationship I saw echos of my own relationship with my mother. I laughed out loud several times and paused to think as well. And I'll admit it, it was lovely to have a story read to me.</p>

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			<title>Finally listening</title>
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				<p>Recently I learned, yet again, that there are smart people in my life and I should listen to them. It sometimes takes me years to do that, because I'm stubborn and irrational (aren't we all at times?). I no longer have pain in my back from working on a computer because I listened to my massage therapist. Standing all day along with a few other things did the trick! I'm less anxious and stressed about the state of the world/my country/my city because I'm reading less news and social media. Many friends talk about taking breaks and I'm doing it regularly (along with isolating some accounts in a private list on Twitter so that I choose when to see things). And I'm more inspired and seeing more amazing art because I bit the bullet and went back to Instagram (I still don't love it, but well, it's where people are posting amazing things). Realizing the smart people in my life are right and listening to them and changing has been a good thing of late.</p>

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			<title>The Last Magician</title>
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			<updated>2017-11-10T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I read the New York Times book review section regularly and I love it when they have a section on children's and young adult books, there are usually some great reads in it and <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/last-magician-9781481432078/62-0"><em>The Last Magician</em></a> by Lisa Maxwell was one that I finished up last weekend. You know it's good when you stay up past your normal bed time to finish it.</p>
<p>The book moves between modern day and the early 1900s in a version of New York City where there are people who have magical affinities but they are discriminated against by The Order, even going so far as to put up a barrier around the city that will kill magicians if they try and leave. Esta, the main character, uses her affinity to stop and slow time along with moving back and forth in time. And she's trying to defeat the order by prevent The Magician from becoming powerful in the past.</p>
<p>Maxwell's descriptions of 1902 New York City were great, along with the various affinities she came up with for different characters. It's an enjoyable adventure as well as a bit of a mystery to figure out which characters were indeed trustworthy and which weren't. And, honestly, I loved the character of Esta and her great one liners and spunk. It was a fun escape from the awfulness of current world news.</p>

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			<title>Accessibility for Everyone</title>
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				<p>Over the past several years I've made accessibility and ensuring the things I build work for everyone a huge part of my work life. I've slowly read more, gotten more acquainted with it, and tried hard to ensure that the things I have a hand in building are accessible. So I was excited when A Book Apart released <a href="https://abookapart.com/products/accessibility-for-everyone"><em>Accessibility for Everyone</em></a> by Laura Kalbag.</p>
<p>If you are new to accessibility or thinking about how to design inclusively, this is the book for you. It's a great overview of the whys and the hows to getting started with accessibility. And to be quite honest, the resources section at the back is amazing and I know I'll be referring to it often.</p>
<p>I do wish there had been a few more citations for some of the information stated, in particular the section that talked about skip links was something I'd never read anywhere else and not having anything cited for more information was a bit disappointing. I do realize these are short books and introductions, but I think having some links to get more information on various reasons would've been helpful at times. (And I'm going to dig into the resources section more closely to see if I can find out more about the reasoning provided for skip links.)</p>
<p>But, as is typical and wonderful in ABA books, this is a short, wonderful read and worth it if you want to learn more about accessibility (which we all should) and incorporate into your day to day work on the web.</p>
<p>And I agree with Kalbag's final wish at the end of the book:</p>
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<p>My one wish for the web is that people consider accessibility in the same way they think about web performance. The performance implications of a new tool or technique are always mentioned in blog posts and articles. Wouldn’t it be great if the same were true for accessibility?</p>
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			<title>Whiteout</title>
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			<updated>2017-11-02T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Greg Ruck's <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/whiteout-01-the-definitive-edition-9781932664706/17-6"><em>Whiteout</em></a> was on the list of graphic novels NPR put out and I read through it in an afternoon. It's a great suspense filled story about murders in Antartica at research stations. With the weather, the remote nature of living there, and the fact that most people are leaving before true winter sets in, it's a fantastic setting for an investigation.</p>
<p>A US Marshall is put in charge of finding out who murdered someone after a body is found in the ice. Of course this leads to more bodies. Bad weather impedes the investigation and I honestly wasn't sure who was behind everything until the end. It's a well written and illustrated story—highly recommend.</p>

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			<title>Underground Railroad</title>
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				<p>Colson Whitehead's <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/underground-railroad-large-print-9781524736309/62-0"><em>Underground Railroad</em></a> was not always easy to read. The first several chapters were, in fact, very difficult and I almost put the book down. I'm so glad I kept going. Cora's journey is difficult, tragic, and amazing. The people she meets along the way will infuriate you.</p>
<p>Cora's story begins on a plantation in Georgia, and truth be told, doesn't ever end, even as the book does. The descriptions of the real railroad that Cora speeds along are so detailed, as is all the writing. I honestly felt like I was in the places and with the people. And at times, I wanted to punch people on Cora's behalf.</p>
<p>As Cora runs towards freedom she encounters many of the people you expect but also some you don't. Her story is a rollercoaster of finding safety and shelter only to have it all upended again. And it is the story of white people never truly allowing blacks to live as free people. And I have to wonder if many ever have been or will be. In this story the seeds of what is still ongoing today are laid bare. And I'm still processing and thinking about it.</p>

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			<title>The Obelisk Gate</title>
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				<p>I was really excited to dig into <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/the-obelisk-gate-9780316229265/18-1"><em>The Obelisk Gate</em></a> since I'd raced through and loved <em>The Fifth Season</em>. And it was a good follow up, but not quite as good to me. The story picks up almost immediately where the previous book left off but the pacing felt much slower. I enjoyed so much the back and forth and putting the pieces together in the previous book, but in this book it all slowed way down.</p>
<p>That isn't to say I won't read the third book, I definitely will. And I still love the characters and the world that Jemisin creates, but I'm taking a break and letting it sit for a bit before I jump in. I didn't end the second book feeling compelled to find out what happens to Nassun and Essun right away, as I did with the first.</p>
<p>In this book, Essun and Nassun, her daughter, separately begin to learn more about what is causing the seasons to occur and how they may be stopped. Nassun is battling with her father to survive and be accepted for who she is. While Essun is back hunkered down with a community, hoping to eventually find her daughter. We, along with them, learn more about the way in which the world is out of balance and how it can be righted, and we being to see how they may do that.</p>

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			<title>Design Systems</title>
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				<p>I read a lot about various front end things, I want to see what others are thinking and I hope when I start a book or article that I'll learn something or be pushed to think differently. That doesn't always happen, but I have a few books which have transformed the way I think about working on the web. Anna Debenham's <a href="http://www.maban.co.uk/projects/front-end-style-guides/"><em>Front End Style Guides</em></a> was the first. I went on to read as much as I possibly could about style guides and even wrote <a href="https://alistapart.com/article/creating-style-guides">an article about my own process</a>. Ethan Marcotte pushed me in the same way when he wrote his second book, <a href="https://abookapart.com/products/responsive-design-patterns-principles"><em>Responsive Design: Principles &amp; Patterns</em></a>, which I read, pouring over the patterns he used and how they worked. Are you sensing a pattern here (see what I did there?)? If so, you're right, it's all about patterns and systems for me. And Alla Kholmatova's book, <a href="http://designsystemsbook.com"><em>Design Systems</em></a> has got me thinking and wondering how I can best use her wise words in my current work.</p>
<p>I'd by lying if I said I hadn't grown weary of some of the writing surrounding design systems lately. So many people are writing about how they're doing things as if that is the only way to do them, making Kholmatova's voice a refreshing one. She makes it clear, over and over and over in the book, that there are many ways to do things. You can be strict with your design system, or extremely loose, it isn't that you have to do things a certain way, but rather that you figure out a way to make it work for your team and organization.</p>
<p>I firmly believe that when a team does the hard work to come up with their own naming conventions, their own process, and their own way of maintaining a design system, they will reap the rewards because the system will work well for them. It will make their work easier and be supported by everyone. With her book, Kholmatova shows us how to do that hard work with exercises and then she gives examples of teams and how they work with their system. And guess what? The teams do things differently and yet still have a functioning, workable system.</p>
<p>What Kholmatova does so well is stress how much design, content, and development need to work together to make a system successful. The underlying design principles support both the functional and perceptional patterns. And she ends with reminding us that we're making things for people, we have a duty to remember that people are at the end of all this and how we design and create products affects them.</p>
<p>If you're interested in or wanting to create a design system or improve the one you have or get buy in to take your side project at work and make it part of the normal work flow, read this book. And even better, get your colleagues to do the same, so you'll have a shared understanding before you begin the hard work to build your own system.</p>
<p>My highlights come from the ebook, so I've broken them up by chapter. Please remember, these are the things that struck me, you should read the book yourself to get the full context.</p>
<h2>Introduction</h2>
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<p>...by design system I mean a set of <em>connected patterns and shared practices</em>, coherently organized to serve the purposes of a digital product.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 1</h2>
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<p>The choice of design patterns is influenced by many factors. Some of them come from the <em>domain</em> the product belongs to, and from its core functionality: those are <em>functional patterns</em>.</p>
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<p>The <em>ethos</em> of a product (or the brand, depending on your definition of a brand) also forms patterns which together shape how a product is perceived; throughout this book I’ll refer to them as <em>perceptual patterns</em>.</p>
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<p>There are many kinds of patterns at play when it comes to creating a digital product. That’s why design is hard. Patterns need to interact, connect, yet still work seamlessly together.</p>
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<p>A pattern is a recurring, reusable solution that can be applied to solve a design problem.</p>
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<p>What makes a product distinct from its competitors is not the novelty of patterns it uses, but how those patterns are executed and applied, and how they interconnect to achieve a design purpose. A set of interconnected patterns forms the <em>design language</em> of your product’s interface.</p>
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<p>If you need to get a group of people to follow a creative direction consistently, reliably and coherently, patterns need to be <em>articulated and shared</em>.</p>
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<p>When the design language is shared knowledge, you can stop focusing on the patterns themselves and instead focus more on the user.</p>
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<p>Functional patterns are represented as concrete modules of the interface, such as a button, a header, a form element, a menu. Perceptual patterns are descriptive styles that express and communicate the personality of the product visually, such as color and typography, iconography, shapes and animations.</p>
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<p>Having a shared language would mean that we have the same approach to naming interface elements and defining design patterns, or that the same names are used in design files and front-end architecture.</p>
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<p>It’s not only about developing a shared language — we need also to develop a shared <em>use of language</em>. It’s not enough to have a shared understanding of the term <em>button</em>. People must also know why and how to use a button, in what contexts, and the purpose a button can serve.</p>
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<p>With all the automated tools and style guide generators available today, setting up a library of components can be done much quicker than in the past. But without a foundation of a coherent design system that integrates the patterns and practices, its impact will be limited. When a pattern library is used to support a solid design language foundation, it becomes a powerful design and collaboration tool. Until then, it’s a collection of modules on a web page.</p>
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<p>To make sure the purpose of the product is expressed clearly through everything we do, we would need to establish a few grounding principles and values. They might be discussed informally or written as a manifesto — what’s important is that the people involved in the creation of the product agree on those values and commit to them.</p>
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<p>Let’s say we come up with a warm, earthy color palette, hand-drawn icons, typography with a focus on readability, quality photography of healthy food, and a few simple interface elements and controls. These styles will become our <em>perceptual patterns</em>.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 2</h2>
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<p>How do we make sure that the purpose of the product is manifested through design? By establishing a few grounding values and principles.</p>
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<p>In the context of this book, design principles are <em>shared guidelines that capture the essence of what good design means for the team, and advice on how to achieve it</em>; in other words, agreed criteria for what constitutes good design in your organization and for your product.</p>
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<p>What would make them more helpful is knowing exactly what those words mean to your team and your product.</p>
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<p>Good principles don’t try to be everything for everyone. They have a voice and actively encourage a designer to take a perspective.</p>
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<p>The choice and execution of the patterns and their unique combination are influenced by a product’s purpose, ethos and design principles. You can view design principles as grammar rules for creating patterns and combining them in ways that make intrinsic sense. Equally, as the brand and functional patterns evolve and become more refined, they shape the design principles. Principles and patterns are refined and influenced by one another continuously.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 3</h2>
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<p>When a pattern is not defined and shared in the team, you start recreating it to accomplish similar goals: another promotional module, another news feed, another set of sharing links, another dropdown. Before you know it, you end up with 30 different product displays and pop-over menus.</p>
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<p>Being conscious of the purpose of your key patterns can help you understand how your system works and prevent it from fragmenting as it evolves.</p>
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<p>To see how your patterns fit into a bigger picture, try to map some of your core modules to the sections of a user journey.</p>
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<p>To understand the purpose of a pattern, try focusing on what it <em>does</em> rather than what you think it is. In other words, try to find an <em>action</em> that best describes the behavior a pattern is designed for. Describing a pattern with a verb rather than a noun can help you to broaden potential use cases for a pattern and define its purpose more accurately.</p>
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<p>To get a shared understanding of how a pattern works, draw its structure: the core types of content a module needs to be effective.</p>
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<p>Content structure is closely linked to the purpose of a pattern, as these examples have shown. Knowing how a module is structured helps us understand how it works.</p>
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<p>Placing patterns on a scale can help make sure they’re used appropriately and don’t compete for attention across the system. It also helps prevent modules being recreated needlessly, since you can see when you already have a module at the same “volume.”</p>
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<p>When we don’t start with the purpose and the structure, we can end up with modules that are too closely tied to their content.</p>
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<p>If functional patterns are objects in the interface, then perceptual patterns are more like styles — they describe what kind of objects they are and how they feel.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 4</h2>
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<p>Perceptual patterns express the brand through the interface and help to make it memorable.</p>
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<p>In modular systems, achieving visual coherence and seamlessness can be tricky. Modules are created by different people for different goals. Since perceptual patterns permeate through different parts in the system, they connect the parts. When the connections are effective, users perceive the unity that links the modules together.</p>
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<p>If functional modules reflect what users want and need, then perceptual patterns focus on what they feel or do intuitively. Rather than coming from user behaviors and actions, they are influenced by the <em>personality</em> or <em>ambience</em> a product strives to project.</p>
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<p>Just as introducing too many exceptions can weaken a brand, too much focus on consistency can also stifle it.</p>
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<p>In digital products, signature moments are not always seen as a requirement, and some teams struggle to prioritize them.13 But it’s the small details that can add an additional layer of depth and meaning to the experience. In our efforts to systemize and structure design it’s important to be conscious of the details that make something feel distinct. In a design system, there always needs to be space to nurture and evolve those moments.</p>
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<p>When exploring new styles, try them out on a small area of the site. Be aware of what you’re doing differently, the patterns that are outside of the system, and the reasons for trying them. If they work, gradually fold them into the system by applying them in other areas of the site. Be conscious of the role they play.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 5</h2>
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<p>The language can empower people to create products that feel whole, even when multiple contributors work on different parts. Naturally, some people will be steeped in it more deeply than others, but the idea is that everyone — designers, developers, researchers, product managers, content producers — should have some degree of fluency, and that the fluency improves over time, as the team continues to learn, use and evolve the language.</p>
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<p>A well-chosen name can become a powerful tool for shaping your design system, since names affect how patterns will be used. And, of course, it is not only about the names themselves, but a <em>shared approach to naming</em> within your team.</p>
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<p>The best names offer guidance or inspiration for where to use a specific pattern. It’s easy to remember there can be many minions (on a page) but only one boss. People enjoy using them and we don’t need to enforce guidelines because they come with the name. Even a few names like this can help make your vocabulary more compelling, and the team will be more likely to use it and contribute to it.</p>
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<p>Like with any language, you need to use it to keep it alive. It needs to be part of day-to-day conversations. That’s why it’s important to make a conscious effort to keep referring to the patterns by the names you agreed on — no matter how bizarre this might sound.</p>
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<p>In any team there will be people who are more fluent in your pattern language and more enthusiastic to work on the system, and they might naturally gravitate towards working with each other. But try to encourage them to work with everyone, so that they have an opportunity to share their knowledge and enthusiasm with people who are less immersed in the system. By spreading out the knowledge across an organization, a design system becomes more resilient.</p>
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<p>The value of a glossary is not only in the tool it provides: it is also in the language practices it cultivates. By establishing and keeping a glossary, you get into a habit of vetting, discussing and articulating your language decisions as a team — you acknowledge that words matter.</p>
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<h2>Part One Summary</h2>
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<p>A design system is not built overnight, but shaped gradually, through our daily practices. If you are working on a digital product, the foundations of your system probably already exist. One way or another, interfaces are designed and built, and end up in front of users. Unless this process is entirely random, you have a system. The question is, what kind of system is it? Is it flexible and adaptable, or is it designed for one specific purpose? Is it cohesive or fragmented? Is it easy to work with, or is it time-consuming? Does your system thrive on freedom and autonomy, or is it strictly hierarchical?</p>
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<p>Different design systems work in different ways. Your organization, team culture, design approach, the project, and even the physical space you’re in, will shape your system.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 6</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>A design system doesn’t start or end with building a pattern library. There are many factors that shape a system: the structure of your organization, your team culture, the type of product you’re working on, and your design approach, among other things.</p>
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<p>Their goal is to reuse around 90% of the existing modules, so creation of new patterns is relatively infrequent.</p>
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<p>The design language is documented on the internal website, DLS Guidelines, generated from the master Sketch file. Airbnb's tools team built an automated process that generates screenshots and metadata about the components, and publishes them to the guidelines site. Needless to say, documentation is fully in sync with the Sketch file and the code.</p>
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<p>There’s a lot of scope for creative experimentation with this kind of system. Because each page can be fine-tuned, it can adapt to specific contexts and use cases. The designs such a system generates can be coherent, but they’re not necessarily perfectly consistent.</p>
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<p>...they emphasize that even with a pattern library in place, patterns are not going to drive the design. “Design acumen and sensitivity to context will always come first, even if it means that in some cases patterns will be ignored or modified,” says Michael McWatters.</p>
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<p>It can seem that strictness is related to company size — younger smaller systems tend to be (and can get away with) being looser, to allow more freedom and experimentation. As a system grows, it becomes stricter. But maybe it’s not as simple as that. I once worked in a small team with a brilliant but authoritarian creative director, who closely monitored all design output. It was a small but very strict system. On the other hand, you can imagine a larger company having a loosely set up system, to encourage each team to experiment and make their own decisions. Perhaps it’s not so much to do with the size, but a team’s approach and their priorities.</p>
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<p>People need to understand the rules and be able to challenge them. If there’s no understanding, rules will be ignored or overridden.</p>
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<p>To have a simple, flexible system like TED’s, everyone on the team needs to be fully aligned on a product’s purpose and the design approach, which both need to be ingrained deeply into their culture. Even a loosely set up system needs a solid foundation.</p>
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<p>Our conversations about design systems on the web have been in favor of modularity and standardization of components. We talk about how patterns should be modular and reusable, how everything should be just like Lego. But the extent of modularity should depend on your team and your product.</p>
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<p>...more modular is not always better. The extent of modularity should depend on what you’re trying to achieve.</p>
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<p>With modular design the expectation is that you can mix and match the parts, and they should fit perfectly together. But sometimes people combine modules in ways that don’t work as a whole. And paradoxically, even though there is a lot of consistency across the modules, there is little coherence in the overall experience. To prevent that, we should focus not only on the modules, but also on the <em>connections</em> between them: the rules of how they relate to one another, their relative importance (such as visual loudness), their role in the overall user journey, their hierarchy in the overall composition.</p>
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<p>...it wasn’t only a change in direction — it was also a cultural shift.</p>
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<p>At the heart of every effective design system aren’t the tools, but the shared design knowledge about what makes good design and UX for your particular team and your particular product. If that knowledge is clear, everything else will follow.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 7</h2>
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<p>But to make a real difference, working on a design system as a side project is not enough. You need widespread support — not only from your peers but the senior stakeholders in the business.</p>
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<p>In the long run, modules should get better the more they are used. Different teams come up with different use cases and solutions to meet them. By improving individual components, the whole system becomes more robust and easier to maintain. And the less time a team spends fixing bugs and untangling messy code, the more time they have to work on things that bring value to their users and the business.</p>
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<p>Having clear goals and milestones also helps manage expectations in the rest of the company. A design system is a long-term investment — its value increases gradually over time. It’s important that people expect to see gradual and steady improvements rather than quick dramatic ones.</p>
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<p>Documenting your progress in an open and honest way is a powerful way to help your team learn and stay motivated.</p>
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<p>...we consider the big picture first, and then deconstruct the interface into smaller parts. Approaching it this way helps us think not only of individual modules but also how they work <em>together</em>, and how they help to achieve the <em>purpose of the product</em>.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 8</h2>
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<p>Even if a screen supports several behaviors, the most important actions should be clear and not in conflict with one another.</p>
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<p>Behaviors should be meaningful and work from the user’s perspective, as well as the business’s.</p>
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<p>With variants, you would normally have a <em>default</em> pattern with the core styles. Variants would have additional styles. It’s important to know which features are core to the pattern, and which are specific to the variants. Then you can predict how a change in one of them will affect the others.</p>
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<p>Sometimes modules are named in the front-end but naming is also a UX decision and should be made collaboratively at the design stage. Names need to take the content type into consideration but shouldn’t be based solely on the content. Effective names guide usage and reduce the chances of duplicate patterns.</p>
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<p>To avoid confusion and misuse of these essential elements, it’s important to agree on their definitions. What are the shared meanings of “button” and “link” in your team? What are the basic guidelines for their usage?</p>
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<p>In Marvel’s design system11, “flat” buttons are used to signify “necessary or mandatory actions”; “ghost” buttons are used to signify “optional, infrequent or subtle actions.” Flat buttons can be used alongside each other, when actions are equally important. I like this distinction because it’s simple, clear, and specific to the button’s purpose.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 9</h2>
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<p>A set of shared colors is not enough — you also need a shared <em>use of color</em> in the context of the product.</p>
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<p>Think not only about the properties but high-level principles, combinations of different elements, and the relationships between them. For instance, instead of simply listing the colors, describe the proportions between them...</p>
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<p>What matters is that you agree on the <em>use of color</em> across the interface.</p>
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<p>Considering purpose first means that you’re not only adjusting variations of the same color, but sometimes will change the way color is used.</p>
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<p>Sometimes you need to have more options, particularly if there are multiple themes, or if you’re dealing with data visualization. But it’s important to avoid including the colors just to add more variety to your palette. The more choices there are, the more complex the system is, then the harder it is to achieve consistent use of color. Start with only what you need and build on it.</p>
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<p>To make sure voice and tone are expressed consistently and purposefully, design, brand and marketing teams need to coordinate their efforts when defining patterns.</p>
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<p>Each style should be approached as a system in its own right — typography system, layout system, color system, and so on. They should be interconnected and directed towards achieving a larger purpose — to help shape how a product is perceived.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 10</h2>
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<p>In the experience of every team I spoke to, multidisciplinary pattern libraries are more resilient and enduring. They facilitate a shared language across the organization and bring value to everyone. Conversely, a pattern library built to serve the needs of one discipline is more fragile.</p>
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<p>Similarly, patterns designed without the content discipline’s perspective can fall apart in everyday use. We end up designing patterns that are too closely tied to specific content, such as a module where an extra line of copy would push an important call to action below the visible area. Or we force content into patterns that aren’t designed for it, compromising both content and design.</p>
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<p>Switching our focus to the content of the library made a big difference — both to our progress, and the team’s morale.</p>
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<p>The team was able to get down all the core patterns and their definitions quickly, instead of being held back by build and design constraints.</p>
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<p>The findability of modules is one of the greatest barriers to pattern library adoption. If team members don’t know that a pattern exists or can’t find what they need, they are likely to create a new one or go outside the pattern system.</p>
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<p>But it’s important to remember that atomic design (or any other methodology) might not be right for you right out of the box.</p>
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<p>Find a structure that’s right for your team. If it doesn’t work, if people struggle to find what they’re looking for, continue experimenting with different approaches. This can take time. The phrase I hear the most from all the teams with effective patterns libraries is that their “work is never done.</p>
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<p>Elements are added only when they’re reused. Some teams add modules only on the second, or even third use. The idea is that an element has to prove itself as a pattern before being added to the system, which helps to keep the pattern library lean. With this approach it’s important to have visibility of everything being created and effective communication across teams. A log of undocumented patterns should also be kept, so the team has full visibility of what’s available, even if it’s not in the pattern library.</p>
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<p>If there’s a dedicated design systems team, it’s important to agree on their role, as well as the process for managing contributions. A systems team can have the role of a curator or a producer, and many companies use a combination of both.</p>
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<p>In both cases it’s important that the systems team are seen as <em>partners</em>, rather than police.</p>
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<p>Code, design and the pattern library are facets of the same system. Treating it that way makes it more robust, because the system is supported from multiple angles. This doesn’t necessarily mean that the patterns must be fully synchronized. What’s important is that the team practises the same <em>approach</em> across the facets — to naming, structure and understanding of the purpose.</p>
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<h2>Conclusion</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Many aspects of our lives can now be managed online, from buying groceries and paying bills, to finding a date or completing a degree. As architects of design systems, we play an important part in shaping the digital world. Pattern language gave us a format for thinking about design — and it also gave us a challenge: do the patterns we create have a positive impact on human life? How do we know if they do? How do we continuously test that?</p>
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			<title>Over Easy</title>
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			<updated>2017-10-16T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>In times of horrible news (which is all the time right now), I need breaks from dystopian fiction every once in a while and I've been relying on the NPR's list of best graphic novels to provide me with great reads when I need a break. <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/over-easy-9781770461536/1-0"><em>Over Easy</em></a> by Mimi Pond comes from that list and I read it over the weekend, taking a long break from the world and its awfulness.</p>
<p>The story is a memoir of sorts, based on Pond's time as a waitress in a diner when she quits art school because she can't afford the tuition. Of course the diner is filled with characters who form, in a very real sense, an extended family for Margaret, who is immediately given a nick name by the guy who runs the diner.</p>
<p>Pond paints a vivid picture of the people, the place, and the time period (late 1970s). Her drawings are all done in the same green blue color, using tone to evoke the feel and I absolutely love it. I studied her way of drawing as I read the panels.</p>
<p>Things I didn't know: she worked on the very first Simpson's episode, and she's created a lot of cartoons. I knew nothing about her, but now I can't wait to read the follow up to this book, <em>The Customer is Always Wrong</em>.</p>

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			<title>Maker mythologizng</title>
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			<updated>2017-10-16T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I spent the past weekend at some local events that emphasized being a maker, I would argue, to the exclusion of most other things. In the midst of it, one person talked about being a facilitator when you aren't sure what to make next. It was amazingly refreshing. Not just to hear someone admit that we aren't all makers, but there <em>are</em> other roles. And I can think of several: educator, planner, organizer, helper, care giver, etc. Debbie Chachra wrote about this in her wonderful piece in The Atlantic, <a href="https://www.theatlantic.com/technology/archive/2015/01/why-i-am-not-a-maker/384767/"><em>Why I Am Not a Maker</em></a> which is a good reminder. I'm realizing as I age that I'm a facilitator, educator, and care giver much more than I am a maker, I'm really good at those things and I enjoy them. Also: if you are a maker, maybe take a few moments to acknowledge that you get help here and there, that you don't do it all alone, that you are supported, maybe even by some of these other roles people take on in life.</p>

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			<title>The New CSS Layout</title>
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			<updated>2017-10-11T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I spent time last winter working through the basics of Grid layout in CSS, since it was about to drop in several browsers, I wanted to finally figure out how it worked and how I could use it. And I've been using flexbox for quite some time, so I'll admit to some hesitation when Rachel Andrew's latest book on layout came out, <a href="https://abookapart.com/products/the-new-css-layout"><em>The New CSS Layout</em></a>.</p>
<p>But I'm glad, in the end, that I purchased the book and gave it a read. Chapters 4 and 5, on alignment and responsive respectively, made the book worth the money. Rachel's been working with the new layout specs for years and contributing to them, and in this book she shows so many great ways to make the most of them. We all know that flexbox solved centering for us, <em>finally</em>, but grid solves so many issues as well. And if you get to know the various ways in which you can lay things out, you'll be able to do better layouts with less markup and less CSS.</p>
<p>And don't worry, I can hear some of you wondering about older browsers, but Rachel's got you covered there as well, and the key is a combination of feature queries and overriding things. It works, and it works well. I'm currently working on a project where Grid is being implemented with flexbox as a fallback.</p>
<p>And, just as importantly, Rachel's concerned about accessibility and how using all of the new features can be quite disruptive for keyboard users. This book, as is the norm for A Book Apart, is a quick read, but full of information. And if you haven't had a go at playing around with grid, it's the perfect book to give you confidence and get you started on using the new layouts available in CSS right now.</p>

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			<title>The Fifth Season</title>
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			<updated>2017-10-09T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've come to be a lover of science fiction over the past several years. And I'm slow to come to a series of books, usually, and it was no different with NK Jemisin's <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/the-fifth-season-the-broken-earth-1-9780316229296/7-2"><em>The Fifth Season</em></a>. But the advantage of being late to read a series means there is no waiting when I finish one book, I can launch right into the next. And that's exactly what I did after finishing <em>The Fifth Season</em>.</p>
<p>The book is in another world that is somewhat like our world, but not quite the same. It's one continent dealing with earthquakes on a regular basis and using people with special skills to control them. And that is the crux of the book, we follow the characters as they move in the world as Orogenes, as the beings who can use their powers to control the Earth. I use the word beings deliberately, because even though they are people, in their world they aren't defined as such, so that they can be used and abused.</p>
<p>The main characters are fascinating, the world they live in being somewhat like our own but not quite means it was easy to escape and yet be reminded of what our world is doing. Jemisin weaves an incredible story that left me hanging and wanting for more. I started the next book in the series the same day I finished this one.</p>

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			<title>Daily Drawing 2017: Third Quarter</title>
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			<updated>2017-09-30T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>The third quarter of my daily drawing was a lot more difficult for me, either because I didn't love the themes for the prompts or the subject matter or medium. But I made it, I did it, and I'm proud for trying everything and working with things that I didn't love. I've also recently started a course online on urban sketching techniques and I think that I'm more energized by that then this drawing book, but I'm keeping going, hopefully the final quarter will be interesting and fun again.</p>
<p>July was by far the hardest month for me this year. The theme was characters and the medium was red, blue, and black pens. I'm not great at drawing people and characters, so my confidence level was very low with the prompts. I did my best and I kept going, but I ended up doing some pencil set up towards the end of the month to boost my confidence, even though it felt like cheating, but I realized it's my experience and it's supposed to be fun.</p>
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    <figcaption>July's example, doing my best to put an expression on a person.</figcaption>
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<p>August was much more fun, it was clothing, which I ended up enjoying more than I thought, and it brought in collage, which I don't do very often. Plus the addition of markers and black pen meant there was a lot of room to use the different mediums depending on what I felt that on the given day. I'm not a huge collage person, I'm not a saver and collage feels like you need to save a lot of scraps to have on hand, but it was fun to make do with what I had. I also started using G's old astronomy magazines, which have interesting patterns and images when they're cut up.</p>
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    <figcaption>August, collage, markers, and black pen, my idea for what Frida Kahlo should wear.</figcaption>
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<p>September was patterns. I LOVE making up patterns, so this was one of my favorite months of the year. The medium was markers and stamps, but I don't have stamps and didn't feel like buying ink for stamping and making them, so I just went with markers. Feeling free to modify the months a bit to suit my situation has been freeing. But making chevrons, stripes, animal patterns, etc is right up my alley and I had fun with it.</p>
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    <figcaption>September was patterns and I just used the markers since I don't have stamps and didn't want to buy them. But I loved making various patterns.</figcaption>
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<p class="small">These photos aren't the best because I'm not a great photographer, but I do like to have some images with these posts, to remind me of what the month's drawing was like.</p>

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			<title>Salvage the Bones</title>
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			<updated>2017-09-28T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I often pick up older works by authors who are being talked about a lot in the book press as a new book is released and that's how I came to read Jesmyn Ward's <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/salvage-the-bones-9781608196265/62-0"><em>Salvage the Bones</em></a>. I didn't know what to expect of her work, other than that I'd skimmed reviews of her new novel and everyone talked about her beautiful prose. And those folks aren't wrong, her writing is amazing and truly beautiful.</p>
<p>But I'm also still thinking a lot about this book and don't have much to say; it took me into a world and culture that I know very little about, the South in the US. I learned a lot, I was transported to a completely different place, and I was often unsettled. That isn't bad, it's probably very good for me.</p>
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<p>I scrub, wipe like I could wipe away the love of Manny, the hate of Manny, Manny away. And then I get up because it is the only thing I can do. I step out of the ditch and brush the ants off because it is the only thing I can do. I follow Randall around the house because it is the only thing I can do; if this is strength, if this is weakness, this is what I do. I hiccup, but tears still run down my face. After Mama died, Daddy said, <em>What are you crying for? Stop crying. Crying ain't going to change anything.</em> We hid it. I learned how to cry so that almost no tears leaked out of my eyes, so that I swallowed the hot salty water of them and felt them running down my throat. This was the only thing we could do. I swallow and squint through the tears, and I run. (p 206)</p>
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			<title>Fonts, performance, &amp;amp; learning</title>
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			<updated>2017-09-21T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've spent the week I have between projects learning more about web fonts. A while back I decided I wanted to self host my fonts and get to know the ins and outs of making that work and work well. On Twitter I asked for type recommendations and got a lot of really great ideas; I ended up going with a small foundry in New Zealand, <a href="https://klim.co.nz">Klim</a>. Some times too much choice is overwhelming for me so I limited myself to one foundry with limited options.</p>
<p>I like quirky fonts, especially for headings, but I really wanted to stick with just one font family, I didn't want to load too many fonts and was trying to be careful of that in my choice. Klim's Feijoa fit the bill. The display font is a quirky and fun serif and the body text has enough character for me, but is still easy to read. Step one of my self hosting process was complete, I purchased Feijoa.</p>
<p>Next up: read things on the latest techniques. Fortunately for me, Bram Stein wrote a <a href="https://abookapart.com/products/webfont-handbook">brilliant book</a> all about how to do things with web fonts and make them fast. I started reading the book and immediately made a new branch and got to work. Honestly, putting in some <code>@font-face</code> rules is the easy part. The hard part is making it fast and helping people see text no matter the speed of their connection.</p>
<p>I set about getting my font pulling onto my site and then read up on how Stein recommended you make it fast with an async load in JavaScript. I've implemented <a href="https://fontfaceobserver.com">Font Face Observer</a> to make it so text shows up right away with the back up font and once the Feijoa has loaded you see it. I've also tried hard to pick a decent stack and I feel lucky, Feijoa and Georgia aren't too far off, so it's working fairly well. I've tested things in throttling conditions to see what people experience, and text shows up quickly and then adjusts. Which is exactly what I want, if the font never loads, you can still read these words.</p>
<p>Since I was on the performance bandwagon I decided to also do a few other things. I'm lucky to have worked with Wilto who has cleaned up the performance of an open source project I still help out with, <a href="http://opendesignkit.org/">Open Design Kit</a>. So I started poking around that code to see how I could do more for performance. This site is now using Critical CSS and I'm using <code>preload</code>, with a polyfill, to help load CSS asynchronously without blocking any rendering.</p>
<p>I do have one performance issue on this site that I'm still not sure the best way to work around, but a few of my art images are quite large, even when using <code>srcset</code> the larger version is big. But it's art and I want it to be a good image, so I'm living with that for now while I think about what, if anything, I want to do.</p>
<p>I'm eagerly waiting for a few things to gain more support in CSS though, so that most of this JavaScript isn't necessary. I can't wait for both <code>preload</code> and <code>font-display</code> to be supported by browsers. <code>preload</code> is partially supported, but <code>font-display</code> is still in a draft specification, so it's farther away, but hopefully some day. In addition, <code>font-size-adjust</code> has some support right now, but it would make the loading of fonts not as jarring by helping to get fonts closer in x heights. The future is exciting, I like that more control will be in the CSS, giving more people who understand and use CSS easy ways to interact with web fonts.</p>
<p>This site has gotten faster, hopefully, and I've learned a lot of the ins and outs of some tried and true methods for performance that involve a bit of JavaScript. I know, I'm shocked too, I'm saying something good about JavaScript!</p>
<p>A huge thank you to this community, for all the work they do. It wasn't only Stein's book that helped me figure all this out, but Filament Group's Critical CSS for Grunt, Zach Leatherman's go to <a href="https://www.zachleat.com/web/critical-webfonts/">article on fonts</a> (so good!), <a href="https://twitter.com/wilto">Wilto</a> who answered questions as I was working on the various pieces of this, and general encouragement from friends. So many people freely give their knowledge in this community and it's always so amazing to be reminded of that and benefit from it.</p>

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			<title>My Favorite Thing is Monsters</title>
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			<updated>2017-09-19T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Last year, <em>Nimona</em> was my favorite book of 2016, which surprised me, but there you go. I just finished <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/my-favorite-thing-is-monsters-9781606999592/62-0"><em>My Favorite Thing is Monsters, Volume 1</em></a> by Emil Ferris and it's a very strong contender for my favorite book of 2017. It is funny, the drawing is amazing, and the story is intriguing.</p>
<p>Karen Reyes is a young girl growing up in Chicago in 1968 and she would rather be a monster than a little girl. She lives with her mother and older brother, making her way through a tumultuous time both in her own home and the national events of that year. The story went in some very unexpected directions, dipping into World War II history, the mob, and dynamics of grade school life, but it was so well done, it worked together perfectly.</p>
<p>But even more than the story itself, the drawing in this book is <em>amazing</em>. It looks like it was all done in ball point pen and it's on ruled notebook paper, we are in Karen's notebook and reading her story as she sees it. There were many spreads where I just stopped and looked and lingered and was caught off guard by how beautiful it was.</p>
<p>A side note: this is Ferris' first published graphic novel. She started drawing and writing in her 40s and is now in her 50s. Her personal story is inspiring, so do read about her as well. I can't wait for volume two to come out this fall.</p>

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			<title>Awaiting rain</title>
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			<updated>2017-09-12T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Portland's summers are a glorious thing. It's the secret that many people don't know; it's bone dry and sunny for around three months each year. Normally this time of year the rains are in the forecast, slowly coming back as we officially move into fall and I dread it.</p>
<p>But not this year. This year I'm eagerly awaiting the rain and the change, this year has been a different summer, a difficult summer. We dried up early this year, in mid June rather than around July Fourth. And we've been hot, so hot.</p>
<p>Along with the heat came smoke. We had one week with several days over 100 degrees, thankfully not over 110 as predicted due to the thick haze of smoke that covered the city and kept temperatures down a few degrees. The wild fire season in the west has been difficult and long and it's not over yet.</p>
<p>August was the hottest on record at PDX, our airport. And the heat has felt non stop. Instead of the warm afternoons with highs in the 80s, we've had days of highs over 90, even reaching over 100 several times, and the lows at night haven't always gotten low enough to cool off the city.</p>
<p>As I sit here in September and I see rain in the ten day forecast, I'm excited, I can't wait. I want it to rain, I want the rain to put out fires. I'm ready for fall.</p>

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			<title>Butler&#39;s parables</title>
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			<updated>2017-09-11T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I spent most of this past Saturday reading Octavia Butler and pushing through the difficult second book of her Parables. <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/parable-of-the-sower-9780446675505/2-10"><em>Parable of the Sower</em></a> and <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/parable-of-the-talents-9780446675789/62-0"><em>Parable of the Talents</em></a> are amazing books, and so utterly incredible to read right now with the current administration in power. If you do read my highlights, the highlights from <em>Talents</em> are difficult, I had to keep reminding myself that the book was written in 1998, not last year.</p>
<p>Both books are so well done, but they are also very different in some ways, with <em>Talents</em> being the harder of the two to read. So I'm separating them out, hopefully it keeps my thoughts a bit clearer.</p>
<h2>Parable of the Sower</h2>
<p>I read this book and finished it a few weeks ago, so I've had more time to think about it and to process it. Much like The Jackpot in William Gibson's <a href="/reading/the-peripheral/"><em>The Peripheral</em></a>, Butler sets up a near future affected by climate change that feels real. As I read about the world in which Olamina lives, I thought over and over how this could be how it happens, this could be how our future works out. The haves building walls and keeping the have nots out, the weather making life impossible or difficult to live in certain areas, and oil becoming scarce and expensive so very few can afford to drive.</p>
<p>As Olamina makes her way north along with many other climate refugees, we see all the ways in which scarcity has brought out the worst in people. People are desperate and doing whatever they can to survive, and then there are the ones who I assumed were letting the worst parts of themselves take over. Maybe that's being generous, maybe there truly are evil people, but as you read about an 18 year old trying to get north to a better life and doing so with kindness to those she senses she can trust, I could only see the bad actors in the story as desperate or truly evil.</p>
<p>But the amazing part of <em>Sower</em> for me was how in the midst of all the horrible things going on, Butler finds a way to end it with an optimistic note. I didn't walk away feeling rattled but rather feeling that bad things may happen in this horrible future, but some good can survive it.</p>
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<p>I mean, I love it. It’s home. These are my people. But I hate it. It’s like an island surrounded by sharks—except that sharks don’t bother you unless you go in the water. But our land sharks are on their way in. It’s just a matter of how long it takes for them to get hungry enough. (p 42)</p>
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<p>All struggles Are essentially power struggles. Who will rule, Who will lead, Who will define, refine, confine, design, Who will dominate. All struggles Are essentially power struggles, And most are no more intellectual than two rams knocking their heads together. (p 81)</p>
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<p>People are setting fires because they’re frustrated, angry, hopeless. They have no power to improve their lives, but they have the power to make others even more miserable. And the only way to prove to yourself that you have power is to use it. (p 126)</p>
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<p>God will shape us all every day of our lives. Best to understand that and return the effort: Shape God.” (p 195)</p>
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<p>We’re all sore and sick, in mourning and exhausted—yet triumphant. Odd to be triumphant. I think it’s because most of us are still alive. We are a harvest of survivors. (p 263)</p>
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<h2>Parable of the Talents</h2>
<p>The second book in this story is much harder, it was so hard to read at times, that I ended up pushing through it in one day. Several times I was reminding myself that Butler wrote this in 1998 and not 2016 because the things she talked about with the presidential election were so absolutely dead on for things that our current administration would say or do.</p>
<p>At this point Olamina has created her community in Northern California, she's created a new religion (not sure this is the right word, but it's the only one that works for me, as I don't think it's a cult), a new way of living and her little community has grown to more than 60 people. They live and work well together, people feel safe, they take the necessary precautions to keep their community safe, but the world has other plans.</p>
<p>As soon as the extreme Christian president is elected, many people feel free to do illegal and awful things to those not like them, and that is Olamina's story in the second book. Her community is imprisoned, their children are taken, and they are left to try and survive it, which they do. But throughout the book, I was reminded how those who have traditionally had power have a hard time when they no longer have complete power. Sound familiar?</p>
<p>America makes it through the horror and Butler does her best to end on an optimistic note, but I can't help but think about how many people died and didn't make it through. It's what I keep thinking about in our current times. And where I see the greatest parallel. How many people who are considered &quot;different&quot; or un American won't make it through now? I have hope, but I'm also sad that this cycle seems to keep going.</p>
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<p>Jarret insists on being a throwback to some earlier, “simpler” time. Now does not suit him. Religious tolerance does not suit him. The current state of the country does not suit him. He wants to take us all back to some magical time when everyone believed in the same God, worshipped him in the same way, and understood that their safety in the universe depended on completing the same religious rituals and stomping anyone who was different. There was never such a time in this country. But these days when more than half the people in the country can’t read at all, history is just one more vast unknown to them. (p 19)</p>
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<p>Jarret condemns the burnings, but does so in such mild language that his people are free to hear what they want to hear. (p 19)</p>
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<p>They have put our children’s feet on the pathway to good, useful American citizenship here on Earth, and to a place in heaven when they die. Now we, the adults and older kids, must be taught to walk that same path. We must be reeducated. We must accept Jesus Christ as our Savior, Jarret’s Crusaders as our teachers, Jarret as God’s chosen restorer of America’s greatness, and the Church of Christian America as our church. Only then will we be Christian patriots worthy to raise children. (p 208)</p>
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<p>People don’t realize how free poor vagrants are being treated, but he’s afraid that even if they did know, they wouldn’t care. The likelihood is that people with legal residences would be glad to see a church taking charge of the thieving, drug-taking, drug-selling, disease-spreading, homeless free poor. (p 231)</p>
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<p>How many people, I wonder, can be penned up and tormented—reeducated—before it begins to matter to the majority of Americans? How does this penning people up look to other countries? Do they know? Would they care? There are worse things happening here in the States and elsewhere, I know. There’s war, for instance. (p 231)</p>
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<p>It’s hard to believe that kind of thing happened here, in the United States in the twenty-first century, but it did. It shouldn’t have happened, in spite of all the chaos that had gone before. Things were healing. People like my mother were starting small businesses, living simply, becoming more prosperous. Crime was down in spite of the sad things that happened to the Noyer family and to Uncle Marc. Even my mother said that things were improving. Yet Andrew Steele Jarret was able to scare, divide, and bully people, first into electing him President, then into letting him fix the country for them. He didn’t get to do everything he wanted to do. He was capable of much greater fascism. So were his most avid followers. (p 243)</p>
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<p>In less than a year, Jarret went from being our savior, almost the Second Coming in some people’s minds, to being an incompetent son of a bitch who was wasting our substance on things that didn’t matter. (p 244)</p>
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<p>The human species is a kind of animal, of course. But we can do something no other animal species has ever had the option to do. We can choose: We can go on building and destroying until we either destroy ourselves or destroy the ability of our world to sustain us. Or we can make something more of ourselves. We can grow up. We can leave the nest. (p 358)</p>
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			<title>The Wanderers</title>
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			<updated>2017-09-08T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I have a lot of books in the digital app I use for library checkouts and <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/wanderers-9780399574634/1-2"><em>The Wanderers</em></a> by Meg Howrey made its way onto that list somehow; when I was looking for a book available to read right away, I chose it last weekend for long weekend trip. It wasn't at all what I expected, but maybe exactly what I needed.</p>
<p><em>The Wanderers</em> is about 3 astronauts and some of the people in their lives as they go into a simulation to prepare for a trip to Mars. It feels like the near future where travel to Mars is doable but to make sure the astronauts are prepared for the long journey and how Mars will be they simulate some work on Mars. Each chapter is told from the point of view of one person and it rotates around between the various characters.</p>
<p>I kept waiting for something to happen and then realized that the point isn't some big action event, but rather how the simulation changed almost everyone involved in it. They all dealt with the long travel time or being away from family differently. And in each case we get a glimpse into how it affects them and what they do to try and make it work. I ended up liking the book overall, the ending was worth it. But it wasn't a page turner, it was more quietly interesting.</p>

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			<title>Totality</title>
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			<updated>2017-08-22T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'll admit to being an eclipse totality skeptic. I'm married to an amateur astronomer, so it's been a topic of discussion for quite some time at my house. But as the media and the state braced itself for the onslaught of people who were expected to arrive to watch the eclipse, I began to wonder if it was worth the stress and work to see it. We live roughly an hour from the path of totality, but it was starting to feel like it was gonna be difficult to get there.</p>
<p>I'll cut to the chase right now and say it was <em>completely</em> worth all the effort and stress and planning to get down to Salem to experience one minute and fifty-five seconds of totality. And, to be quite honest, I'd travel much further to experience it again. There really are no words to describe it.</p>
<p>Our day started at 3am waking up and getting ready to catch a 5:05am train to Salem. Amtrak added an Eclipse Special to get people to our science museum's event, so it dropped us off, quite literally, at a railroad crossing. But we didn't have to worry about traffic, and we were in the path of totality—all that really mattered to us.</p>
<p>By 7:15am we were in a city park in Salem that was right along the river. There were people who'd camped overnight, as Salem allowed that in all city parks for the days leading up the eclipse. There were also others arriving all morning long. We chose our spot based on what we could walk to easily from where the train dropped us off and we wanted to ensure there were bathrooms and drinking water. Salem did a fantastic job of preparing for the eclipse and publishing information online, so we could easily find a park that met our requirements.</p>
<p>Then it was time to wait. I brought along a small Scout blank book and some pens and spent my time drawing my way through the event. Urban Sketching has intrigued me for quite some time, and it turned out to be a really fun way to spend my time.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/eclipse/camping-sketch-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/eclipse/camping-sketch-md.jpg 1415w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="images/build/posts/eclipse/camping-sketch-sm.jpg" alt="Line drawing of a tent from the day of the eclipse">
    <figcaption>A quick line drawing of a tent nestled among bushes in the park where we viewed the eclipse.</figcaption>
</figure>
<p>But once the eclipse started, I used my notebook for notes and drawing all the phases as well. It was a fun way for me to record the day, think about what I was seeing, and get my reactions in real time.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/eclipse/watching-the-phases-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/eclipse/watching-the-phases-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="images/build/posts/eclipse/watching-the-phases-sm.jpg" alt="taking a break with my glasses off during the phases of the eclipse">
    <figcaption>Taking a break while watching phases of the eclipse and jotting down thoughts and drawings.</figcaption>
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<p>During totality, I stood in awe, looking around, seeing Venus and Sirius pop out in the sky. We looked up at the corona, which is amazing. The park lights came on, and people cheered. In addition, we saw Baily's beads right as totality ended. Unfortunately, some in Salem decided fireworks were a good idea, so I didn't get a chance to see if animals were reacting differently, the startling loud booms made dogs bark and birds were startled. I wonder if the eclipse startled them as well, but I'll never know. On the bright side, some of the people playing really bad eclipse playlists stopped early on during the phases.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/eclipse/spot-the-crescents-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/eclipse/spot-the-crescents-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="images/build/posts/eclipse/spot-the-crescents-sm.jpg" alt="using our hands to make webs to see the crescents">
    <figcaption>Using our hands to make webs in which we could see the crescents.</figcaption>
</figure>
<p>During the back half of the eclipse, after totality as the moon moved off the sun, we played around a lot. G put his hands in a web to see the crescents in the open holes. We looked at the crescents coming through a nearby tree. G brought a compact mirror with, and he shined the reflection of the sun on a fence to see the crescent shape. We stayed in the park until the very end, when the eclipse was completed at 11:37am.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/eclipse/ready-to-go-home-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/eclipse/ready-to-go-home-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="images/build/posts/eclipse/ready-to-go-home-sm.jpg" alt="packed up and ready to catch a train home">
    <figcaption>Packed up and ready to walk back to catch the train home.</figcaption>
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<p>With that we made our way back to the strange railroad crossing to catch the train home. Unfortunately our train was delayed several hours due to mechanical issues, and since this wasn't a station, all of us just sat on the ground on sidewalks by industrial buildings. I took the opportunity to fill up my Scout book, sketching the people around me.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/eclipse/person-waiting-sm.jpg 800w, 
                 /images/build/posts/eclipse/person-waiting-md.jpg 1236w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="images/build/posts/eclipse/person-waiting-sm.jpg" alt="person waiting for the train, reading">
    <figcaption>Loose sketch of a person waiting for the train, looking down at something in their lap.</figcaption>
</figure>
<p>Two things about the day stand out to me. One is that totality is unlike anything I've ever experienced before and there really aren't words to describe it. The second is that sketching my way through an event like this makes it more fun. It cemented certain details about the place, people, and event into my brain in a way I never would've gotten in any other way. I still have a long way to go with my sketches, but doing it is a huge part of the enjoyment, no matter the outcome.</p>

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			<title>Castle Waiting</title>
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			<updated>2017-08-17T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Yet another book from the <a href="http://www.npr.org/2017/07/12/533862948/lets-get-graphic-100-favorite-comics-and-graphic-novels">NPR top 100 graphic novels list</a>, and this one was not anything I was expecting. I've been somewhat blindly getting books that intrigue me from the list, so I'm going in without knowing much of anything about them. <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/castle-waiting-9781606996027/1-4"><em>Castle Waiting Volume 1</em></a> by Linda Medley is a crazy children's fairy tale, about a safe place people can go to get away from the world.</p>
<p>The craziness, the strange characters, and the fairy tale like quality is exactly what I liked about this book. I honestly had no idea where it was going or what was going to happen from chapter to chapter. But as Jain makes her way to the castle and we meet the other people living there, you know they all have a story to tell. And since there's another volume of this book, I'm assuming more of their stories are waiting for me there.</p>
<p>But I will be honest and say that this book didn't grab me. I set it aside and came back to it several times, reading it in bits and pieces. The final chapters are a rather involved story that I found way more interesting than the first part of the book. And there are a few characters that I'm wondering about still, which is what will lead me to get volume 2, to find out if I can learn more about them.</p>

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			<title>Meditation</title>
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			<updated>2017-08-10T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm coming up on 40 consecutive days of meditating. I've meditated as part of yoga classes before, but this is the first time I've consistently done it for anxiety and dealing with the day to day of life. It's been pretty great and this week I turned a huge corner; I'm able to sit longer and feel even more relaxed after my time. This summer has been full of ups and downs—that's the way looking for work and trying to figure out next life steps tends to be, unfortunately. I've had moments of extreme anxiety with knots in my stomach for a few days at a time, meditation has been the most reliable way for me to let go of that anxiety and find moments of peace.</p>
<p class="small">For those wondering, I did use an app in the beginning for some guidance, but now I sit and do "simple" meditation, just trying as much as possible to be in the moment without a specific technique.</p>
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			<title>Blankets</title>
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			<updated>2017-08-10T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm continuing to work my way through the novels that peaked my interest on the <a href="http://www.npr.org/2017/07/12/533862948/lets-get-graphic-100-favorite-comics-and-graphic-novels">NPR top 100 graphic novels list</a>, which is how I found <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/blankets-9781770462182/2-0"><em>Blankets</em></a> by Craig Thompson.  It's an incredibly sweet story of coming of age and dealing with your first love.</p>
<p>The story follows Craig as he grows up in a small town in central Wisconsin. A central part of the book is his struggle with Christianity and the book follows as he works his way through that and falls in love for the first time. Thompson's description of small town life in the upper Midwest is so dead on, echoing much of my early childhood in a small town in Minnesota.</p>
<p>But it wasn't just location where the book echoed some of my childhood experiences, but also the struggle with faith. I grew up in a church and went through Sunday school, confirmation, and was very involved in my high school youth group; as I read about Craig struggling with what role faith would play in his life, I recalled several moments from my own childhood and adolescence.</p>
<p><em>Blankets</em> reminds me a bit of Alison Bechdel's work, an autobiography of growing up in a family and dealing with all that comes with the complications of how our families work. And in this book, as in Bechdel's, I was able to reflect on my own family and roots.</p>

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			<title>Privilege, tech, and connection</title>
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			<updated>2017-08-07T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Last week a <a href="https://twitter.com/beep/status/893118379212591105">friend tweeted</a> out a section of an <a href="http://www.gq.com/story/aziz-ansari-gq-style-cover-story">interview with Aziz Ansari</a> where Ansari talks about not having social media or the internet or email on his phone.</p>
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<p>Whenever you check for a new post on Instagram or whenever you go on The New York Times to see if there's a new thing, it's not even about the content. It's just about seeing a new thing. You get addicted to that feeling. You're not going to be able to control yourself. So the only way to fight that is to take yourself out of the equation and remove all these things. What happens is, eventually you forget about it. You don't care anymore. When I first took the browser off my phone, I'm like, <em>[gasp] How am I gonna look stuff up?</em> But most of the shit you look up, it's not stuff you need to know. All those websites you read while you're in a cab, you don't need to look at any of that stuff. It's better to just sit and be in your own head for a minute. I wanted to stop that thing where I get home and look at websites for an hour and a half, checking to see if there's a new thing. And read a book instead. I've been doing it for a couple months, and it's worked. I'm reading, like, three books right now. I'm putting something in my mind. It feels so much better than just reading the Internet and not remembering anything.</p>
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<p>The reactions to the tweet fell into two categories: people either talked about how hard it is to do that, to disconnect and let go, or they talked about how Ansari is privileged so of course he can do this. And I don't disagree with either of those things. It is hard to let go and miss things. And Ansari is incredibly privileged, which he acknowledges later in the interview, he doesn't have to work again in his life and he'd be fine.</p>
<p>But I take issue with the idea that we must always be connected and checking our devices in order to further our careers, which some replies implied. Some of this comes from my own personal experience and some of this from the fact that there is no way I can keep up with everything and the pressure to try is too much.</p>
<p>We don't all need to go as far as Ansari, but we can take breaks. We can realize when we are pulling out our device as we wait in a line that we may be checking for new content not because we want to read the content but because we want to see if new stuff is there. That's the part of Ansari's words that I relate to, that we look to look, not because we really want to read/digest/know what new things are posted.</p>
<p>We, as a culture, elevate being busy, being connected, being in the know. But often, ideas come from not being busy, from being bored, so your brain can process and put together disparate thoughts into something new (see Steven Johnson's books). If we never give ourselves that opportunity, how do we process and think and come up with the something new?</p>
<p>Personally, I agree with Ansari. I also acknowledge my privilege in being able to do some of what he's doing. I haven't taken my browser off my phone, but I don't have most social media or my work email on it. I make space for quiet and often leave my house <em>without</em> any device to go on walks or run errands. I'm not saying everyone <em>should</em> do these things, only that you may be able to, more than you're willing to admit.</p>
<p>It's easy to react to someone like Ansari talking about backing away from tech by instantly bringing up his privilege. But I think the deeper sentiment in what he says is not necessarily connected to privilege at all, but more to our relationship with tech and what is at the heart of it.</p>

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			<title>The Peripheral</title>
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			<updated>2017-07-31T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>William Gibson's <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/the-peripheral-9780425276235/2-4"><em>The Peripheral</em></a> has been on my list for a long time. And last week when I was looking through my library wish list, it was available and I grabbed it. Wow. I finished it Saturday night and I'm still thinking about it.</p>
<p>The story follows Flynne Fisher after she witnesses a murder and it opens up a power struggle between a near (to us) future and a farther future. People from the far future are opening up a way to go back in time to the near future and so the power struggle exists in both time periods. Flynne's character is strong, smart, and curious and her band of family and friends are loyal and struggling to survive in a world that is already feeling the effects of climate change and economic change.</p>
<p>Gibson opens up two worlds that both fascinate me and have me wondering. And (sorry, but there are spoilers here) the way he talks about The Jackpot, which is a long series of events that happen over time that slowly whittle away the population of the Earth by 80%, is what has obsessed me. I read a lot of dystopian fiction, but honestly this, along with <em>The Parable of the Sower</em> (review coming soon) are the most realistic as to where I think we may be heading as a planet. The Jackpot isn't one massive catastrophe, but rather a series of them. It happens over a long period of time, in human perception (my guess is 80 to 100 years, possibly a bit more), and it feels like, although this is my conjecture, that humans feel powerless to mitigate it or stop it.</p>
<p>This, if I'm being honest, is how I feel right now about climate change and the way many in the world are reacting to it. People won't inconvenience themselves to make changes that have real effects because it's too hard to perceive, the time line is too long. Or, as I often think about, many people are struggling to get by, so changing for something that isn't directly affecting them now feels like too much. This is how the people Gibson portrays in the near future feel to me, they can't mitigate The Jackpot because most of their energy is going towards survival. It's only when Flynne and her group of friends and family are given more financial security that they can then work towards mitigating what may come.</p>
<p>I highly recommend reading this, it's a fast moving story that you'll find hard to put down. And then we can talk about The Jackpot over a drink.</p>
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<p>Eras are conveniences, particularly for those who never experienced them. We carve history from totalities beyond our grasp. Bolt labels on the result. Handles. Then speak of the handles as though they were things in themselves. (loc 3535)</p>
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			<title>The Incal</title>
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			<updated>2017-07-28T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I recently came across an article on NPR with their <a href="http://www.npr.org/2017/07/12/533862948/lets-get-graphic-100-favorite-comics-and-graphic-novels">top 100 graphic novels and comics</a>. What a treasure trove. As someone who is relatively new to reading comics, having a list that isn't just the latest published work is so great. I immediately proceeded to put a bunch of things on my own list and some I put on hold from the library.</p>
<p><a href="http://www.powells.com/book/incal-9781594650932/62-0"><em>The Incal</em></a> was the first book to become available and I sped my way through it this week. Via twitter I learned that the artist, Moebius, is well known, but prior to this I didn't know the work of either Alexandro Jodorowsky or Moebius. <em>The Incal</em> is an insane, wonderful adventure that ends exactly as a comic of its nature should.</p>
<p>We meet John Difool as he's being hurled off a balcony and the action doesn't let up much until the end of the series. We meet rat queens, powerful warriors, and a talking cement bird. The story, like most great stories, is good and evil going up against each other. As the evil starts to assert itself a small band of warriors and misfits comes together to fight. I don't want to give away too much because you really should read it, but I loved the way in which a comic written in the 1980s was completely applicable to the world today.</p>
<p>And this week, with the absolutely tops turvy events in the US government, it was perfect to read something that took me away from it all.</p>

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			<title>Lila</title>
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			<updated>2017-07-21T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p><a href="http://www.powells.com/book/lila-9781250074843/2-3"><em>Lila</em></a> is Marilynne Robinson's companion novel to <a href="/reading/gilead/"><em>Gilead</em></a>. It's the other side of the story, the side of the woman who marries the old Reverend and has his baby. Lila is homeless, she roams the countryside with a small band of people who look out for one another in the loosest way possible. And she tells her story in between talking about getting to know Gilead, the town and its people.</p>
<p>And while Lila doesn't have much education, she is a thinker. And Robinson writes in a way in which her meandering thoughts are allowed to flow. No chapters, rarely a break in the story, and often entire pages with not even a paragraph break. For me this led to reading late into the night since I just kept going and going and found Lila's thoughts fascinating.</p>
<p>As Robinson brings Lila in contact with Christianity, Lila starts to turn over in her mind what that means to her and how it affects what she thinks of the people she's lived with in her life and the things she's done to survive. But, the element of grace is never far away from Lila, seen through the people who live in Gilead.</p>
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<p>But thinking about her life was another thing. Lying there in that room in that house in that quiet town she could choose what her life had been. The others were there. The world was there, evening and morning. No matter what anybody thought, no matter if she only tagged after them because they let her. That sweet nowhere. If the world had a soul, that was it. All of them wandering through it, never knowing anything different or wanting anything more. (p 242)</p>
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<p>The old man always said we should attend to the things we have some hope of understanding, and eternity isn’t one of them. Well, this world isn’t one either. (p 259)</p>
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<p>There was no way to abandon guilt, no decent way to disown it. All the tangles and knots of bitterness and desperation and fear had to be pitied. No, better, grace had to fall over them. (p 260)</p>
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			<title>Upstream</title>
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			<updated>2017-07-17T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>There are writers in my life that every time I read their work I'm changed. My viewpoint is shifted slightly or my world is opened up wider. Mary Oliver is one of those writers for me. I gulp down her words and then I think about them for hours afterwards. <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/upstream-9781594206702/18-0"><em>Upstream</em></a>, her latest book of essays, is amazing. As I read I was reminded, again and again, of how much this woman sees the world, <em>really</em> sees it.</p>
<p>In this collection Oliver is doing two different things that somehow work together perfectly. She's saying a long goodbye to Provincetown, the city she lived in for years. And she's reflecting on the writers that shaped her own writing, the people that helped her see the world, her &quot;greats,&quot; as she puts it.</p>
<p>Oliver's ability to talk about a dog, a snapping turtle, or an injured gull and help me see larger themes of the world in it never fails to startle and delight me. She sees in a way I can only hope to someday see, in a way I strive for as I move through a very different world than hers, one that is filled with the man made rather than the natural.</p>
<p>I left this book with thoughts of who my greats are, who has influenced me in my life, who do I go back to again and again to read their work or look at their art one more time. And on that list, probably near the top, is Mary Oliver.</p>
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<p>Attention is the beginning of devotion. (p. 8)</p>
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<p>The best use of literature bends not toward the narrow and the absolute but to the extravagant and the possible. (p. 68)</p>
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<p>I would say that there exist a thousand unbreakable links between each of us and everything else, and that our dignity and our chances are one. The farthest star and the mud at our feet are a family; and there is no decency or sense in honoring one thing, or a few things, and then closing the list. The pine tree, the leopard, the Platte River, and ourselves—we are at risk together, or we are on our way to a sustainable world together. We are each other's destiny. (p. 154)</p>
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			<title>Against the grain</title>
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			<updated>2017-07-10T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>As I've been looking for work, which means looking at a lot of job postings, I've been discovering that what I love about the web is not so much what a lot of other people love.</p>
<p>When I started working on the web almost 11 years ago, I fell in love with CSS. It felt magical to me, to be able to type something in a file, open up a browser and see the look of something change. And then after working for a while longer, I started to get overly nerdy about markup. When I coded a design for the first time I thought long and hard about what HTML to use for specific things, to make sure it was conveying the right meaning.</p>
<p>This led me to care deeply about accessibility and making sure that no matter how content was accessed, it made sense and worked. The last several years have seen me keeping up with the changes in CSS (Grid is exciting!!) but also deepening my knowledge of accessibility. I'm reading more, I'm on listservs to see what types of problems people are dealing with, and I'm generally trying to be even more aware.</p>
<p>This leads to my current situation. I'm looking for work. I'd prefer to work remotely with a product team and to work in the areas I love: accessibility, CSS, and HTML. But it turns out those three things are considered &quot;easy&quot; in the industry right now. Which is fascinating because if you talk to anyone who uses assistive technology to surf the web or who doesn't use a mouse, or who is accessing content in a different manner, you'll find out it isn’t so easy.</p>
<p>We value flash and we value tool chains and we value JavaScript frameworks, but I can't help but wonder if we value experience, if we value deep thinking, or if we <em>really</em> value ensuring everyone can access and use the things we make. Oh, I'm sure there are plenty of excuses out there for why this isn't important, we’ve all heard them before.</p>
<p>So as I feel like I'm going against the grain, I'm going to keep looking for a team that values the things I value. They're the foundation for making something great. Without them you're leaving people out, which is something I’m not willing to do. If your team cares about these things too, <a href="mailto:info@susanjeanrobertson.com">let’s chat</a>!</p>

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			<title>Daily Drawing 2017: Halfway!</title>
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			<updated>2017-07-06T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm a bit late on this post, but it's summer, it's warm, it was a holiday this week, and well, I'm a bit lazy right now (because I can be :) ). But I passed the halfway mark of my daily drawing and wanted to do a bit of a look back at the second quarter. I talked about the first quarter in a <a href="/self/daily-drawing-quarter-in/">post in April</a> (if you missed it).</p>
<p>April's theme for the prompts was &quot;Around Town&quot; and the materials were a #2 pencil and a black pen, basic and simple. I LOVE these materials. I love doing a sketchy layer first and then going back in with a pen to define, sharpen, and make it more bold. I also enjoyed these prompts, which weren't always things I see around my town, but were things I could easily conjure images of in my head to draw. Plus, if I'm ever gonna bring a bare bones sketching kit with me, it will definitely be these two things and a small Scout Book.</p>
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    <figcaption>A page from April, showing bird houses, a row of mailboxes, gumball machines, and drinking fountains.</figcaption>
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<p>May brought the theme of &quot;Around the House&quot; and it was a gold gel pen and a black pen for materials. The theme itself was fine, easy enough for me to find things that the prompts referred to around my house. But I'm not a huge fan of gold, I don't hate it, but I definitely tired of it by the end of the month. I made it through and I do admit, having a contrast with the black pen was nice, I just wanted it to be something other than gold by the end of the month.</p>
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    <figcaption>A page from May, showing washing drying on the line and jars and vases in a row.</figcaption>
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<p>June mixed it up a lot more, the paper was a brown craft paper and the materials were black and white pencil with black pen. The theme was also a lot more difficult for me, &quot;World Travel&quot;, and I ended up googling for images of things to draw quite a bit. BUT even with that being the case, I really enjoyed getting away from white paper (which based on the rest of the book, this will be the last month of using something other than white) and I loved the black and white pencils, many days I didn't even add in black pen at all. The biggest thing I've learned about myself in this first half of drawing in 2017 is that I love colored pencils and I'll be adding them into my drawing practice more.</p>
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    <figcaption>A page from June showing houses along a canal.</figcaption>
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<p class="small">These photos aren't the best because I'm not a great photographer, but I do like to have some images with these posts, to remind me of what the month's drawing was like.</p>

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			<title>Angle of Repose</title>
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			<updated>2017-07-06T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Lately I've been diving back into classics and especially focusing on novels that help me figure out more about people. People are messy, difficult, and strange, to be honest, but so many novelists help open up what it means to be human to me, in ways I often need to see. That's why I went back to Dickens (and I have more on my kindle to read by him) and it's why I picked up <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/angle-of-repose-9781101872765/62-0"><em>Angle of Repose</em></a> by Wallace Stegner.</p>
<p>Stegner won the Pulitzer for this book in 1971 when it was published and after finishing it, I understand why. At its heart, it's a novel about marriage and how disappointment, failure, and change are handled over the years. Susan and Oliver Ward marry in the 1870s and the book follows them closely through 1890, as their grandson is researching and writing a book about their lives. Susan, an artist, marries Oliver even though her family and closest friends don't believe it's a good match. And she follows him west as he tries over and over to make it as an engineer.</p>
<p>But the story hinges so much on the expectations of Susan, what she thinks <em>should</em> be done in life, how life <em>should</em> be lived, and how in the western US of the late 19th century, her east coast expectations may not be able to be met. And as the years wear on, as things don't go well, Susan is increasingly unhappy. I learned a timely lesson from her; that expectations can be dangerous and that how you react to failures and disappointments is so very important.</p>
<p>This is a story about people, about how humans are so messy, and about how we aren't able to let go of the past. It's quite beautiful and I'll be thinking about some aspects of the characters for a while yet.</p>

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			<title>Quiet risks</title>
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			<updated>2017-06-23T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>A few weeks ago a friend talked about worrying that she's not doing anything with her life that &quot;matters.&quot; And it struck me, so much that I've been thinking about it since, because she's someone who's influenced my life in profound ways over the past several years.</p>
<p>The way I think about work, the web industry, and diversity have all changed due to conversations with her, her writing, and her speaking. And I'm fairly confident that I'm not the only person who feels this way. She does amazing work and she does so quietly, without a lot of fanfare. Her work matters a lot to me.</p>
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<p>I'm job hunting which means I'm doing interviews and talking about myself a lot. Yesterday I spoke with someone for an hour for a &quot;life story&quot; interview. How did someone who studied art and spanish and then theology, end up doing code for the web?</p>
<p>As I was talking about the past ten years in particular, with all the various job transitions they've included, the interviewer asked me a question, &quot;Did you have a job when you left the insurance company or were you taking another risk?&quot;</p>
<p><em>Another</em> risk. That's been rattling around my brain. I've taken quite a few risks over the years and I don't often give myself credit that they <em>were</em> risks. I quietly do what is right for me, with support from my partner and close friends.</p>
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<p>As I sit in this moment, a moment where I'm figuring out what is next and what I want to do for work, I'm reminded that doing quiet work is a good thing, it matters to someone, even if you don't know it. And that risks, no matter how big or small, are usually worth it.</p>

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			<title>Little Dorrit</title>
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			<updated>2017-06-21T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Recently I heard an interview that talked about reading classics and I realized that I haven't read many of them. So I went on Amazon and found a bunch of free kindle versions of them and started reading <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/little-dorrit-9780375759147/61-0"><em>Little Dorrit</em></a>. I've read one other book by Dickens, and enjoyed it, but also learned that he likes to describe things in detail and that many of the lose threads won't come together until you are about two thirds of the way into the book.</p>
<p><em>Little Dorrit</em> was much the same as <em>A Tale of Two Cities</em> where characters were talked about and I had no idea why until I was towards the end and it all came together. But I enjoyed this story and the character of Amy Dorrit and the world that Dickens creates with his descriptions. The class situations that are such a large part of the Dickens world are also interesting, especially since I think we do much the same thing in the US right now, just in much more subtle ways.</p>
<p>All in all, <em>Little Dorrit</em> was a good pre sleep novel for me, especially since it was originally written as a serial, the chapter lengths are all so similar—perfect to read one or two before drifting off.</p>

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			<title>On the mat</title>
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			<updated>2017-06-11T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I step on the mat feeling anxious and angry. The week I'm leaving behind was difficult and uncertainty will fill my week ahead. I start my favorite playlist and begin to breathe deeply. As I start to move, in familiar ways that stretch and strengthen various parts of my body, I focus on my tension filled upper back. I throw in some balance poses to challenge me and make sure my focus is on right now. And by the time &quot;Here Comes the Sun&quot; by Nina Simone finishes, the anger and anxiety has melted away. I feel rested, relaxed, and confident. It may not last long, but it's the reason I keep getting on the mat.</p>

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			<title>What It Is</title>
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			<updated>2017-06-01T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>It's official, I really love the writing of Lynda Barry. When I read <a href="/reading/syllabus/"><em>Syllabus</em></a>, I soaked up her ideas, I started journalling differently, and I it changed my thinking about writing and drawing a lot. I just finished <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/what-it-is-9781897299357/62-0"><em>What It Is</em></a> last weekend and I'm still thinking about a lot of it.</p>
<p>The two books are dramatically different, in <em>What It Is</em> Barry talks about her journey towards drawing and writing, much of it is autobiographical. The last third or so of the book changes to be more about exercises you can do to get yourself writing, but it was the first section that I really enjoyed. Barry is asking a lot of questions and many times doesn't try to answer them, but that doesn't matter, because just asking them can get you thinking differently.</p>
<p>Ever since reading both of these books I've felt permission, which is odd because I don't know why I even needed that, to change my journal, be super messy, and just have more relaxed fun in there. I'm drawing crazy little pictures along side huge lettering and using it as a way to play. When I started drawing 2.5 years ago, I was looking at a lot of artists who post their sketchbook spreads on Instagram. They are all perfect spreads that look like finished pieces. So that's how I drew in my sketchbook and my journal was for words. Barry has shown me how to mix them all up and make them the same thing.</p>
<p>And this change has been pretty amazing for me to think through things with both words and images and not worry how they look or if they are perfect, it's just been about venting and thinking for me. And right now that's exactly what I need. But I'm also thinking deeply about how you write, how images can play a role in kickstarting that process, and what that means for me going forward. If you like crazy journal like books that are thought provoking, I highly recommend reading some Lynda Barry.</p>

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			<title>Thoughts on making</title>
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			<updated>2017-05-15T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been journaling a lot lately, and using some ideas from <a href="/reading/syllabus/">Lynda Barry’s book <em>Syllabus</em></a> about how drawing and doing a daily diary can make you a better writer. Which is a bit of an amazing way for me to think about both writing and drawing. Part of the goal is to wake me up to the world around me, get me noticing what's around me and happening, so that I can then use that to think about writing and what I want to write about.</p>
<p>The side effect of this has gotten me thinking about my life as a whole. I wouldn't say that I'm in a mid life crisis or anything, I don't want to make any drastic changes, but it has me evaluating what I <em>truly</em> care about right now. This fluctuates and changes over time, but it's always good for me to be aware of my motivations because they propel how I spend my time.</p>
<p>I should be clear here, I still love the web and many things about it. I'm not leaving it, I probably will always be here in some way. But I am thinking a lot about my life and how I'm living it these days. In some ways I think that's a direct result of what's going on in the world.</p>
<p>Lately, I'm super motivated to learn more about art and design not from the commercial angle, such as what I'm around most days in my work on the web, but I'm keenly interested in how people make things for themselves. Maybe that translates into a living for them and maybe it doesn't—that’s not something I’m focusing on. I'm tired of the idea of talking about manipulating emotions or gaining empathy with people to sell a thing, a thing that people may not even need, which is what I see so often in the commercial design world.</p>
<p>So in the last year I've spent time reading and I've spent time at conferences and events that speak to these topics. And these are the things rattling around in my head that I'm thinking about a lot these days.</p>
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<li>How does making a thing, whether it’s ever seen by someone else, change me? What does it do for me? And why do I feel, especially over the past two years, the need to do it every day?</li>
<li>If I didn't have to work a job to make money, what would I do with my time? Would I still work on the web?</li>
<li>Does making the thing digital change it? If so, how? Is my enjoyment of drawing right now tied to the fact that it's very low tech in contrast with how I earn my living?</li>
<li>Is it possible to stay true to yourself even when what you are passionate about isn't how you are able to spend the majority of your time?</li>
</ol>
<p>I don't have many answers yet. Truth be told, it's taken me a few months to articulate what it is I've been thinking about. I've spent a lot of time reading stories of people who make; I'm keenly interested in the process of others. And I’m continuing to read and think. Maybe I’ll get answers soon and maybe I won’t, but I’m enjoying my process and maybe that’s all that matters.</p>

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			<title>Maddaddam</title>
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			<updated>2017-05-14T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>A week ago or so I finished the final novel in the Maddaddam trilogy, <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/maddaddam-9780307455482/62-0"><em>Maddaddam</em></a> by Margaret Atwood. It was a good wrap up and a good ending in many ways, but for me the second book of the series is the one that shines the most. <em>Maddaddam</em> picks up right where <em>The Year of the Flood</em> ends and we follow our band of survivors, along with the genetically modified humans, as they continue to try and survive.</p>
<p>Atwood uses this book to look more carefully at how and if the humans and the genetically modified beings can live together. What does that look like? How can the humans teach them more about history and how they came to be where they are without tainting them in the same way the human race was tainted—which one could argue is how they ended up in the utter mess they are in now. And it's definitely an interesting question. The Crakers don't know anything about writing, about pain, about shame, about revenge or jealousy, they are completely innocent and how much <em>should</em> they learn those things? For a fresh start to be truly fresh maybe they are better off without those emotions. But could knowing about the history of the world also be helpful, to guard against mistakes that have already been made?</p>
<p>While contemplating those questions are worthwhile, the story itself didn't grab me as much. But I do like things to be a bit more tidy in novels and this book definitely wraps up the story in a way where I didn't feel I was left hanging.</p>

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			<title>Syllabus</title>
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			<updated>2017-05-14T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>A month or so ago one of my coworkers asked me if I had ever heard of Lynda Barry. I hadn't. She then linked me to a book she got that she loved, <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/syllabus-notes-from-an-accidental-professor-9781770461611/62-0"><em>Syllabus: Notes from an accidental professor</em></a>. I got it from the library. I loved it so much that I bought a copy this past week. Barry is a cartoonist who has worked with Matt Groening (the Simpsons guy) and others. She now teaches at the University of Wisconsin, focusing on a variety of topics and <em>Syllabus</em> is her hand drawn syllabus for her class The Unthinkable Mind.</p>
<p>First off, if there was a way I could go to Madison and take this course, I probably would, or really any of her courses. She uses drawing and keeping a diary to get people to think about how their minds work, how ideas are formed, and how you can be a better writer. I love it. And I bought it because I've been doing her exercises and finding them super helpful, not so much in terms of wanting to write a lot right now, but in terms of helping me step back and see what's happening around me. I've also found them helpful in sorting through the difficult times we live in, as the past months have been hard on a what the fuck is happening in my country level and on a personal level.</p>
<p>This book is amazing, it's interesting to look at, it's filled with ideas, and it's introduced me to Barry, who is someone I'll be reading and listening to more in the future.</p>

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			<title>The Year of the Flood</title>
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			<updated>2017-04-19T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>If you read my reviews regularly, you know that I didn't love the first book, <a href="/reading/oryx-and-crake/"><em>Oryx and Crake</em></a>, in the MaddAddam trilogy by Margaret Atwood. But I kept going and just last night finished the second book, <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/year-of-the-flood-9780307455475/2-10"><em>The Year of the Flood</em></a>.</p>
<p>Unbelievably, the second book made me like the first one way more and I am excited to read the third book. In many books I read there is a lot of back story and you read along and keep up and then the moment happens. You know the one, right? That moment where everything you've been reading clicks together and you realize what a great story it is. I never had that moment in <em>Oryx and Crake</em>, and I think that's because that book is part of the long read of back story to get to the moment. The clicking moment came for me in <em>The Year of the Flood</em> about a third of the way in and from then on I loved this story.</p>
<p>Atwood is telling the story of the world post massive pandemic, in which most humanity has died. The survivors are trying their best, and Atwood flashes between their current situations and their lives before the pandemic when the the two main characters lived with a counter culture movement that longed for the way the world was in an earlier time. The head of the counter culture movement talks about the moment in which the flood will come, often using imagery from the story of Noah and the Arc. Adam One, the leader, and his ideas are based loosely on Christianity, but also on environmental movements of today and the past, their saints are wide ranging and I find it fascinating.</p>
<p>I absolutely loved this mixing of things, the way in which we learned the philosophy of the Gardeners and how that time served both of the main characters after everything changes. It's a great story. And makes me think a lot about where the world is heading, how we handle climate change, and if something like the world Atwood portrays could ever be reality.</p>
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<p>Do we deserve this Love by which God maintains our Cosmos? Do we deserve it as a Species? We have taken the World given to us and carelessly destroyed its fabric and its Creatures. Other religions have taught that this World is to be rolled up like a scroll and burnt to nothingness, and that a new Heaven and a new Earth will then appear. But why would God give us another Earth when we have mistreated this one so badly? (p 424)</p>
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<p>No, my Friends. It is not this Earth that is to be demolished: it is the Human Species. Perhaps God will create another, more compassionate race to take our place. (p 424)</p>
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			<title>No Known Grave</title>
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			<updated>2017-04-19T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I finished the Tom Tyler series by Maureen Jennings about a week ago (forgive me, I've been redesigning, so posting has been slow). It's much better than the second book, but the first book is the real star of this series.</p>
<p><a href="http://www.powells.com/book/no-known-grave-9780771043291/62-0"><em>No Known Grave</em></a> sees Tom Tyler moving to a new village and attempting to start his life over. He is immediately embroiled in a double murder at a local hospital for those who've been terribly injured in the war. And this group of people at the hospital become the all encompassing focus of the story. Why were two murdered? What's really going on?</p>
<p>I won't say too much more, but the end isn't great again. For some reason Jennings rushes through the reveal and ends the book suddenly, not quite as suddenly as the second one, but close. I don't quite understand why she doesn't want to write much falling action there, but oh well.</p>

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			<title>Freshening up</title>
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			<updated>2017-04-18T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>You may notice something different around here today. Unless of course you are reading this in RSS, and if that's the case, good on ya', RSS 4 evah! I decided recently to do some design around here, change things up with a new look. This an iteration, some things haven't really changed, while others have quite a bit.</p>
<p>A few weeks ago as I was trying to fall asleep I got an idea for a redesign of this site. And I got excited about it. I promptly fell asleep and then woke up and was <em>still</em> excited. One of the reasons for my excitement was to leave floats behind and use a combination of flexbox and CSS Grid for layout. The other was the idea of being able to put my own art on the site.</p>
<p>The goal of this redesign became about putting more of me, the non-technical, non webbish me, in the design. I'm achieving that through some of the words, but moreso through the color choices and the art. Most of the people who know me through the web don't know that I studied art in college and, more specifically, I have a BFA in drawing and painting, in which I focused on color theory. My senior work was all about complements and working within the constraints of those colors.</p>
<p>Fast forward to today and I still love one complimentary set the most, blue and orange. It's on this site as a harkening back to my earliest days making, where that combination was an obsession. It felt time for a reappearance in my life.</p>
<p>In addition to a bit of a throwback to my earlier days via color, I wanted to highlight the way in which I've shifted how I spend much of my time over the past few years. I left art behind not long after art school and didn't do any making for a lot of years, until late 2015 when I began again. And now I <a href="/self/daily-drawing-quarter-in/">draw every day</a>.</p>
<p>I'm excited to show recent artwork on the top level pages, these may change occasionally, we'll see how much I feel like doing that as I continue to create. As for the other changes, I wanted to use more screen space, so the layout is doing that, especially on my photos main page. And I felt like a change of type, so I'm now using Mr. Eaves and Mrs. Eaves. I wasn't too sure about them at first, but they've grown on me as I've worked with them to finalize all the various type styles.</p>
<p>The final piece that I’m rather proud of with this redesign is that I learned a new skill to use going forward with my artwork. I scanned my drawn initials and made them into an SVG for the logo. A bit more of me in the mix and it’s feeling good.</p>
<p>The only issue I know of right now is that MS Edge doesn’t support <code>object-position</code> and I’m using it, along with CSS Grid (which MS Edge also doesn’t support) on my photos main page. I’m still not sure how to fall back for the <code>object-position</code> but I’ll be thinking on that. I took care of the layout in Edge by doing a simple float layout using <code>@supports not</code> and hopefully I’ll be able to delete that code soon. Come on Edge!</p>
<p>The rest of the base of my site stayed the same; this is still a Jekyll site, it's still pretty basic at it's core, and I'm still using Typekit for the fonts. I'm sure I'll continue to tweak things, I always feel woefully inadequate as a designer but also feel the need to own everything about my site, so I plod along and attempt to design.</p>

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			<title>Housekeeping</title>
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			<updated>2017-04-02T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've read one other book by Marilynne Robinson, so I knew going into <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/housekeeping-9780312424091/17-106"><em>Housekeeping</em></a> that it was most likely going to be a quiet book, a book about the characters. And I wasn't wrong. I picked it up used at Powells a few months ago and finally picked it up last week when I had nothing on deck to read. And, as was the case with <em>Gilead</em>, Robinson's writing blows me away.</p>
<p><em>Housekeeping</em> is a book about two sisters who have a somewhat traumatic early life and end up living with their aunt who is not the most stable person. Ruthie narrates the book and through her eyes we see how as they grow up, the sisters diverge in how they choose to deal with their strange home life.</p>
<p>Robinson describes the inner workings of what's going on with Ruthie so well and as she does, you see and feel the strangeness of what the girls are living. I won't say much more, but I find the way Ruthie thinks at the end of the book fascinating.</p>
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<p>We had never really had any use for friends or conventional amusements. We had spent our lives watching and listening with the constant sharp attention of children lost in the dark. It seemed we were bewilderingly lost in a landscape that, with any light at all, would be wholly familiar. What to make of sounds and shapes, and where to put our feet. So little fell upon our senses, and all of that was suspect. (p 130)</p>
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<p>It seemed to me that in all this there was the hush and solemnity of incipient transfiguration. Perhaps memory is the seat not only of prophecy but of miracle as well. For it seems to me that we were recalled again and again to a sense of her calm. It seems that her quiet startled us, though she was always quiet. (p 196)</p>
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			<title>Daily Drawing 2017: A quarter of the way in</title>
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			<updated>2017-04-01T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I bought a book last fall, a daily drawing book that would take you through a year, <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/draw-every-day-draw-every-way-guided-sketchbook-sketch-paint-doodle-through-one-creative-year-9781419720147/62-0"><em>Draw Every Day, Draw Every Way</em></a> by Jennifer Lewis Orkin. On January 1, 2017 I started the first month of prompts using the first set of materials, watercolor brush markers. Yesterday I finished the third month of daily prompts and materials, drawing with white, gold, and silver pens on black paper.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/2017-drawing/january-drawing-sm.jpg 480w, 
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    <figcaption>January drawing, the prompts were from nature and watercolor brush markers are one of my favorite materials.</figcaption>
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<p>What I've come to love about this book is that the prompts are useful and I can take as much time or as little as I want. If I'm tight on time, I draw for five minutes, if I have more time, I draw for 30. It works for both.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/2017-drawing/february-drawing-sm.jpg 480w, 
                 /images/build/posts/2017-drawing/february-drawing-md.jpg 1600w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="images/build/posts/2017-drawing/february-drawing-sm.jpg" alt="Day 4">
    <figcaption>February drawing, the prompts were all based on food and I was pushed to use a medium I have very little experience with, colored pencils. Turns out I really like them.</figcaption>
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<p>I also love being pushed to use materials I don't think to use all the time. I tend to fall back on the things I know and love, which is natural, and this book is pushing me in new directions. April is a number 2 pencil and black pen, which should be interesting. In February I used colored pencils and found out that I really love them. In March the black paper became tiresome and difficult, but I saw it through.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/2017-drawing/march-drawing-sm.jpg 480w, 
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                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="images/build/posts/2017-drawing/march-drawing-sm.jpg" alt="Day 4">
    <figcaption>March drawing, the prompts were all favorite things and used a very limited palette of gold, silver, and white pens on black paper. Turns out this got tiring and hard for me.</figcaption>
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<p>I'm starting today with April, the prompts are what you'd see around town and it's another new material, I don't tend to grab pencils to draw very often. But seeing progress with the materials each month is part of the fun as well.</p>
<p class="small">Sorry about the not great photos, but I'm focusing on documenting my thoughts about each month here more than on sharing great photos. Related: I'm not a great photographer.</p>

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			<title>Freeing</title>
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			<updated>2017-03-29T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>It's taken me a long time and it's been a gradual process, but slowly, ever so slowly, I'm caring less and less about doing what I think I should be doing and more and more about doing what's right for me. The results have been amazing. I've let go of guilt, of shoulds, and of thinking there is some magical they out there who are dictating how one live one's life. It's resulted in changes, less webbish life, more real life. Doing more to meet people who have nothing to do with tech has been hard, but so good. Leaving communities, especially online ones, that bring only negativity has been <em>fantastic</em>. And, especially now, it's been freeing to do what's best for me in the midst of a whole lot of awful.</p>

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			<title>Beware this boy</title>
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			<updated>2017-03-27T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I finished the second Tom Tyler mystery series over the weekend, <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/beware-this-boy-9780771043130/72-0"><em>Beware this boy</em></a> by Maureen Jennings. I really enjoyed the first book; the pacing and story were well done. But this second one is a bit of a mess.</p>
<p>Tyler goes to help investigate an explosion at a munitions factory in Birmingham and in the process we meet an entirely new group of people. Jennings takes a lot of time at the beginning to introduce us to these characters and get us invested in them, but she does nothing to wrap up their stories in the end. It's almost as if she wasn't quite sure what to do and we have a final 20 pages filled with action and then it's over.</p>
<p>So now I'm sitting here wondering about those characters. What happened with them? I know I can make something up in my head, but even just about 10 pages of falling action at the end of this story would've been helpful. A main character dies and there is <em>almost</em> no reaction. It's odd and I'm not quite sure why, but I guess I'll probably never know.</p>

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			<title>Yoga app</title>
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			<updated>2017-03-22T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm an avid yoga person. I really love it. I went to classes for around 5 years with some fantastic teachers but then a lot changed. I no longer had a studio in walking distance where I felt the same connection with a teacher and prices started to rise for the studios that were moving into my neighborhood. I also became dissatisfied with how a class doesn't allow you control over doing what you want that day. So I read a <a href="/reading/yoga-at-home/">book</a> all about people's home practice—it transformed my thinking about it. Then I found the <a href="http://www.yogastudioapp.com">Yoga Studio App</a> and it changed things even more. Now I create my own classes and set my own soundtrack and do what I need on any given day. The classes the app comes with are also great, but the ability to create custom classes where I can be prompted so I don't have to memorize them is <em>fantastic</em>. If you like yoga, I highly recommend it.</p>

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			<title>The Lonely City: Adventures in the Art of Being Alone</title>
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			<updated>2017-03-20T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I troll a lot of best of year lists at the end of each year and based on those add many books that sound interesting to my various lists. <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/the-lonely-city-9781250039576/18-1"><em>The Lonely City: Adventures in the Art of Being Alone</em></a> came from both the NPR book concierge and from Austin Kleon's list. When a book appears twice I take more notice and it moves up the list. Olivia Laing is a fascinating writer, mixing her own experience with that of artists and her reflections on the city to create a book that is hard to quantify and describe. At it's best it speaks through artists work to describe and reflect back on the experience and thoughts of being alone and lonely.</p>
<p>I'll admit that I'm not often lonely these days, more likely I'm overwhelmed by all that's around me and I forcefully shut myself away from the world to get time alone. Nonetheless I found this book fascinating. The art history I didn't know, the stories of how horrible my country was in the 80s to those suffering from AIDS, and the ideas of being in a densely populated city but feeling utterly alone.</p>
<p>Her thoughts and ideas on how technology is affecting loneliness were some of the best parts of the book, she talks of Josh Harris and his early work in streaming people living publicly, she talks about how that in many ways predicted much of where we are with social media today. And in coming back several times to Andy Warhol's life and David Wojnarowicz's life, we learn so many ways in which we try to clean up and gentrify not just our cities, but our emotions.</p>
<p>Amazing read, parts of which I'll be thinking about for a long time. My highlights are from the kindle version, graciously loaned to me by my public library.</p>
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<p>Cities can be lonely places, and in admitting this we see that loneliness doesn’t necessarily require physical solitude, but rather an absence or paucity of connection, closeness, kinship: an inability, for one reason or another, to find as much intimacy as is desired. (location 33)</p>
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<p>...a map of loneliness, built out of both need and interest, pieced together from my own experiences and those of others. I wanted to understand what it means to be lonely, and how it has functioned in people’s lives, to attempt to chart the complex relationship between loneliness and art. (location 88)</p>
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<p>...loneliness is by no means a wholly worthless experience, but rather one that cuts right to the heart of what we value and what we need. (location 96)</p>
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<p>What is it about Hopper? Every once in a while an artist comes along who articulates an experience, not necessarily consciously or willingly, but with such prescience and intensity that the association becomes indelible. (location 171)</p>
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<p>...what Hopper’s urban scenes also replicate is one of the central experiences of being lonely: the way a feeling of separation, of being walled off or penned in, combines with a sense of near-unbearable exposure. (location 183)</p>
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<p>There is no colour in existence that so powerfully communicates urban alienation, the atomisation of human beings inside the edifices they create, as this noxious pallid green, which only came into being with the advent of electricity, and which is inextricably associated with the nocturnal city, the city of glass towers, of empty illuminated offices and neon signs. (location 223)</p>
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<p>Reading his halting confession, one begins to see why his work is not just compelling but also consoling, especially when viewed en masse. It’s true that he painted, not once but many times, the loneliness of a large city, where the possibilities of connection are repeatedly defeated by the dehumanising apparatus of urban life. But didn’t he also paint loneliness as a large city, revealing it as a shared, democratic place, inhabited, whether willingly or not, by many souls? (location 520)</p>
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<p>And yet what Hopper captures is beautiful as well as frightening. They aren’t sentimental, his pictures, but there is an extraordinary attentiveness to them. As if what he saw was as interesting as he kept insisting he needed it to be: worth the labour, the miserable effort of setting it down. As if loneliness was something worth looking at. More than that, as if looking itself was an antidote, a way to defeat loneliness’s strange, estranging spell. (location 529)</p>
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<p>The loneliness of difference, the loneliness of undesirability, the loneliness of not being admitted into the magic circles of connection and acceptance – the social and professional groupings, the embracing arms. (location 659)</p>
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<p>But the questions Warhol was asking with his new work run far deeper than any crude attempt at shock or defiance. He was painting things to which he was sentimentally attached, even loved; objects whose value derives not because they’re rare or individual but because they are reliably the same. (location 681)</p>
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<p>...many of the books and articles written about him seem to shine more light on our cultural anxieties around the effects of loneliness on the psyche than they do on the artist as a real, breathing person. (location 1697)</p>
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<p>For me, this was the most disturbing aspect of Harlow’s work: the revelation that after an experience of loneliness both the damaged individual and the healthy society work in concert to maintain separation. (location 1846)</p>
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<p>Nothing is more declarative of someone’s priorities than how they spend their money, particularly when they don’t have much of it. (location 1958)</p>
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<p>Loneliness here is a longing not just for acceptance but also for integration. It arises out of an understanding, however deeply buried or defended against, that the self has been broken into fragments, some of which are missing, cast out into the world. But how do you put the broken pieces back together? Isn’t that where art comes in (yes, says Klein), and in particular the art of collage, the repetitive task, day by day and year by year, of soldering torn or sundered images together? (location 2133)</p>
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<p>The piece’s power derives from the way it scrapes away at the accretions of stigma, the poisonous mess civilisation has made out of sex. It returns to basics, to the first small flowering of adolescent desire, to what I am tempted to spell as innocence or purity, had those words not been so thoroughly co-opted by conservatives. All that isolation, all that violence and fear and pain: it was the consequence of wishing to make contact by way of the body. (location 2497)</p>
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<p>We haven’t just become alienated because we’ve subcontracted so many elements of our social and emotional lives to machines. It’s no doubt a self-perpetuating cycle, but part of the impetus for inventing as well as buying these things is that contact is difficult, frightening, sometimes intolerably dangerous. (location 2758)</p>
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<p>If there is a current animating Warhol’s work, it is not sexual desire, not eros as we generally understand it, but rather desire for attention: the driving force of the modern age. What Warhol was looking at, what he was reproducing in paintings and sculptures and films and photographs, was simply whatever everyone else was looking at.... (location 2961)</p>
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<p>Safer cities, cleaner cities, richer cities, cities that grow ever more alike: what lurks behind the rhetoric of the Quality of Life Task Force is a profound fear of difference, a fear of dirt and contamination, an unwillingness to let other life-forms coexist. And what this means is that cities shift from places of contact, places where diverse people interact, to places that resemble isolation wards, the like penned with the like. (location 3057)</p>
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<p>All the same, it does have some extraordinary functions, some odd negotiating ability between people, including people who never meet and yet who infiltrate and enrich each other’s lives. It does have a capacity to create intimacy; it does have a way of healing wounds, and better yet of making it apparent that not all wounds need healing and not all scars are ugly. (location 3406)</p>
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<p>There is a gentrification that is happening to cities, and there is a gentrification that is happening to the emotions too, with a similarly homogenising, whitening, deadening effect. Amidst the glossiness of late capitalism, we are fed the notion that all difficult feelings – depression, anxiety, loneliness, rage – are simply a consequence of unsettled chemistry, a problem to be fixed, rather than a response to structural injustice or, on the other hand, to the native texture of embodiment, of doing time, as David Wojnarowicz memorably put it, in a rented body, with all the attendant grief and frustration that entails. (location 3412)</p>
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<p>Loneliness is personal, and it is also political. Loneliness is collective; it is a city. As to how to inhabit it, there are no rules and nor is there any need to feel shame, only to remember that the pursuit of individual happiness does not trump or excuse our obligations to each another. (location 3419)</p>
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			<title>Alone time</title>
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				<p>I spent the weekend alone. With the exceptions of some people at shops and FaceTiming with G, I was alone for most of it. And I decided to spend it offline, with only a morning glance at email and my RSS feed. I listened to several episodes of On Being, I finished a great book, I watched Chef's Table, and I journaled for pages and pages. And right now, based on all that, I have several words that kept coming up and there may well be an essay rattling around in my head. Alone time, focused time, not multitasking, it was sooooooo good and it reminded me that I need to do it more.</p>

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			<title>Postal</title>
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			<updated>2017-03-14T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Another find from the library, <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Postal/comics-series/34792"><em>Postal</em></a> is a strange story, involving a small town where a sheriff and mayor rule the town completely and the mayor's son, who has Asperger's Syndrome, starts to wonder about some of the things happening. I read the first volume, found it intriguing, and will probably keep going.</p>
<p>This comic definitely falls into the category of me not being so sure I loved it, but the twist of the main character remembering details and trying to act for justice against his mother and the rest of the corrupt town in interesting. The second volume is already available, so I'll probably give it a go, but it's also quite dark and I'm having a hard time with reading too many dark things, so the second volume may sit for a while. (The world is enough right now, so I'm being careful about what I read right now.)</p>

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			<title>Daytripper</title>
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			<updated>2017-03-14T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I read a lot of comics and lately I've been reading them digitally through my library with the app Hoopla. What's been truly great about this is that I can scroll through the comics available and read about them and decide to try them out right then and there. I found <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Daytripper/digital-comic/48376"><em>Daytripper</em></a> that way and wow, I am so glad I did. I know last year when I read <em>Nimona</em> I said it was in the running for my favorite book of 2016 and honestly, it was the best book I read. <em>Daytripper</em> is in the running for my favorite comic of all time.</p>
<p>This is saying a lot because I've read a lot of comics I love (<em>Planetary</em>, <em>Nimona</em>, etc) but <em>Daytripper</em> is a loverly look at a life lived. Each issue in the volume, which is a slim ten issues, looks at a different age of the main character Brás, and shows a different death. Don't worry I haven't spoiled anything for you, this is revealed quite early on. But what's amazing is how the beauty in the small moments is found in each of the vignettes of this one life. As one of the authors says after the series is done:</p>
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<p>They succeeded and if you like to look at small, beautiful moments in a life lived, I highly recommend taking an afternoon to read <em>Daytripper</em>.</p>

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			<title>Season of Darkness</title>
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			<updated>2017-03-09T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>The other beach read from this vacation was a bit lighter, but also a good beach read, to be honest. <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/season-of-darkness-9780771043284/73-0"><em>Season of Darkness</em></a> by Maureen Jennings was quite good. We've been watching her other mystery series that is now a TV show, <em>Murdoch Mysteries</em>, so I had some familiarity with her work. <em>Season of Darkness</em> takes place in Britain in 1940, as World War II is raging, but of course that doesn't mean that murders stop occurring in the country.</p>
<p>Tom Tyler, the main character, is not happy in life, but doing the best he can. When a Land Army girl is murdered, he's sent headlong into learning about many of the things that are simmering under the surface of the small village. And with an internment camp of Germans near by, the war is very much present in the entire book.</p>
<p>Jennings weaves a good mystery and I've already put a hold on the second book in the series at the library. Tom Tyler's an interesting character and I've enjoyed series that take place with the backdrop of World War II, but aren't directly connected, such as <em>Foyle's War</em>, a great TV mystery. And right now, some lighter books are right up my alley, so I can escape a bit from the craziness that is the daily news.</p>

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			<title>Oryx and Crake</title>
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			<updated>2017-03-09T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Back from a vacation on the beach and I finished two books while away and started a comic. That's my mark of a good vacation, how much reading I can get done in amongst eating good food. I finished <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/oryx-crake-9780385721677/62-0"><em>Oryx and Crake</em></a> by Margaret Atwood first. Gonna admit that it was a bit dissonant to be on a beautiful beach while reading about the destruction of the world, but that's Atwood for you. And right now I find a bit of comfort in Atwood's writing.</p>
<p><em>Oryx and Crake</em> is the first in a triology, the MaddAddam Triology and I can't wait to read the next books. In what is usual topics for Atwood, it's a near future dystopia, we humans are responsible for destroying ourselves. And that's what makes it fascinating, in the human quest to splice genes to make them the best and everything perfect, we've managed to cock it all up. But I enjoyed the main character and his determination to live, to keep going, and those things are helpful for me to read about right now.</p>
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<p>Human society, they claimed, was a sort of monster, its main by-products being corpses and rubble. It never learned, it made the same cretinous mistakes over and over, trading short-term gain for long term pain. It was like a giant slug eating its way relentlessly through all the other bioforms on the planet, grinding up life on earth and shitting it out the backside in the form of pieces of manufactured and soon-to-be-obsolete plastic junk. (p 243)</p>
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<p>They understood about dreaming, he knew that: they dreamed themselves. Crake hadn't been able to eliminate dreams. <em>We're hard-wired for dreams</em>, he'd said. He couldn't get rid of the singing either. <em>We're hard-wired for singing.</em> Singing and dreams were entwined. (p 352)</p>
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			<title>Travels with Charley</title>
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			<updated>2017-02-24T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I read a lot of end of year best lists from various publishers as well as people who I follow on RSS who read a lot. Austin Kleon listed <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/travels-with-charley-in-search-of-america-9780142000700/2-7"><em>Travels with Charley in Search of America</em></a> By John Steinbeck in his list as one of his favorite books of 2016. I've read a lot of the classic Steinbeck novels, but never this book and I found it used at Powells, so figured why not.</p>
<p>I'm so glad I read this book. And it was really interesting reading this book at this moment in time. Steinbeck drives from New York, up to Main, across to Seattle, down through Monterey, CA, and then over to Texas and New Orleans, before heading back home. And throughout Steinbeck isn't trying to give the reader a blow by blow of his travels, but rather he highlights things he saw, people he met, and the things he thought about.</p>
<p>I also love dogs, so I loved Steinbeck's descriptions of Charley and how they traveled together. But, in all honesty, it was the descriptions throughout the book that made it so fantastic. I don't gush a lot over books, I read a lot and only finish what I like (I have up the feeling of obligation long ago), but this book was one that I looked forward to each day when I had time to pick it up. I chuckled in bed as I read, and I stayed up way too late reading a few nights. It was thought provoking and funny, and it made me think about the various road trips we've taken and the America I've seen.</p>
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<p>This monster of a land, this mightiest of nations, this spawn of the future, turns out to be the macrocosm of microcosm me. If an Englishman or a Frenchman or an Italian should travel my route, see what I saw, hear what I heard, their stored pictures would be not only different from mine but equally different from one another. If other Americans reading this account should feel it true, that agreement would only mean that we are alike in our Americanness. (p. 159)</p>
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			<title>Public transit</title>
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			<updated>2017-02-21T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've seen talk about how instead of promoting car services such as Uber or Lyft, we should be investing in public transit instead. And while I'm a huge fan of public transit and use it for probably 90% of my transit around Portland, I also realize that it doesn't service every area well. In our case Zip car is our supplement or taxis (such as for early morning airport rides). But I keep going back to a <a href="http://tinyletter.com/metafoundry/letters/metafoundry-42-shadow-botafogos">newsletter</a> Deb Chachra sent out and her ideas of how self driving cars could be the answer to those final hard to serve miles. I think of this often when people talk about how transit can't do it all, but maybe we just need to be more inventive with the ways in which we think of transit.</p>
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<p>I still haven’t figured out all the different routings that the podtrains take as they work their way out to the suburbs—there’s a finite number, presumably, but the exact route any train takes depends on what else is happening on the network, and the podtrain cars separate off at different points accordingly. But soon enough I recognize the spur that goes into Needham, and a few minutes later I disembark at Needham Center. I debate with myself about running an errand in one of the stores in town, but decide to do it later and instead head straight for the cluster of waiting pods. I open a door and sit down, and as the pod says, “Good morning, Professor Chachra. Is Olin College your destination today?”, I’m already reaching out to tap the ‘Yes’ button on the display, my attention back on the tablet by the time the pod pulls onto the main road and heads off towards the College. A few minutes later, it decelerates to a gentle stop in the turn-around circle by my building. It’s a beautiful fall day and, as I get out, I can see students and one of my colleagues testing little autonomous robots by running them up and down the tiered fields that used to be the massive multi-level parking lot.</p>
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			<title>Sunday night</title>
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			<updated>2017-02-19T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>It's the Sunday night of a long weekend, which is my favorite of all Sunday nights. A half chicken is in the oven, along with a huge pan of veggies, roasting away. I'm drinking a virgin Moscow mule, my current fave mocktail. Bobby Darin is crooning at me, the second of the cooking albums, I started with Olé Torme, so good. And I just read Warren Ellis' latest newsletter, so grateful for his continued writing of both Morning Computer and the newsletter. I know there is much crazy right now, but for this one moment, I'm ignoring it and focusing on the good stuff.</p>

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			<title>Things giving me comfort today</title>
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				<p>I've been quiet in many of the online spaces I occupy lately. I've been retreating into things that I find comfort in during all the tumult. And those things, in no particular order, are: a good walk in the sun when it happens to come out, drawing surreptitiously in tiny notebooks in ink as I'm out and about, watching videos about urban sketching, reading essays by funny people about travel and food, cooking food for my family, drawing daily whatever the prompts in the book tell me to draw, watching mystery shows while under a blanket, and realizing that even in the midst of it all, I'm more lucky than not.</p>

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			<title>More Home Cooking</title>
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			<updated>2017-02-17T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I often stumble on authors who write about food, read the book, love it, and then find out that the person is rather well known. This happened with M.F.K. Fisher last year and now it's happened again with Laurie Colwin. <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/more-home-cooking-a-writer-returns-to-the-kitchen-9780060955311/6-3"><em>More Home Cooking</em></a> was my first time reading her, but it was so delightful. I really love the food writing that is part essay, part recipes; it completely engages me and makes me long to spend a long day in the kitchen with friends.</p>
<p>In <em>More Home Cooking</em> Colwin talks about the major holidays, hits on cooking during all the different seasons, and generally made me want to try some new things. She has some odd cooking habits—what is up with celery salt on everything?—but all-in-all there was more good than bad. And apparently there is a bit of a cult following of Colwin right now and I can see why. She speaks about cooking as relaxed and fun and has a see what happens attitude. Her rules aren't steadfast and she's willing to try almost anything.</p>
<p>Unfortunately for all of us Colwin died way too young at age 48 in 1992, but I can't wait to find and read more of her writing soon.</p>
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<p>It is my opinion that you can make a decent dinner speedily and conveniently if you g in for what I call <em>la cuisine de la &quot;slobbe&quot; refinnée</em>, or &quot;the cooking of the refined slob.&quot;</p>
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			<title>The Real World of Technology</title>
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			<updated>2017-02-08T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Last spring I finished a book on economics and in my review here on my site I talked about how <em>Small is Beautiful</em> had changed my thinking. And it has, I'm stilling thinking about that book. And now I have another book to add to that list of life changing books. <a href="https://www.amazon.com/World-Technology-Massey-Lectures-Revised/dp/088784636X/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1486593719&amp;sr=8-1&amp;keywords=Real+World+of+Technology"><em>The Real World of Technology</em></a> by Ursula Franklin is an amazing book. And it's made all the more amazing because the first two thirds of the book are lectures that were given in 1989 and the last third was written in 1999.</p>
<p>Franklin is looking at how we live with technology and how technology affects us. There is a lot in this book, her ideas of holistic vs prescriptive technologies, how we get used to technology and it moves from being amazing to necessary, how we interact with the bitsphere vs the biosphere.</p>
<p>It was chapter five that, for me, is sticking with me and rolling around in my head these past several days. How we use technology and talk about technology and try to have technology stand in for human interaction and relationships. Franklin frames much of this conversation around the telephone, and then in her added on chapters at the end she relates back to this (at least it did for me) when she talks about the bitsphere, her word for the world of information exchange in the internet era. Her words about the telephone and using it as cure for loneliness could just as easily be used to talk about the internet.</p>
<p>The other theme I'm thinking deeply about is the bitsphere vs the biosphere and how we desperately need to be pulled back into the biosphere. For more thoughts on this book, I recommend <a href="http://aworkinglibrary.com/reading/real-world-of-technology/">A Working Library</a>, where Mandy delves into the holistic vs prescriptive technologies. But honestly, you should just read the book. I underlined like mad in my copy, this is but a fraction of my highlights since I had to type them out.</p>
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<p>What needs to be emphasized is that technologies are developed and used within a particular social, economic, and political context. They arise out of a social structure, they are grafted on to it, and they may reinforce it or destroy it, often in ways that are neither foreseen nor foreseeable. In this complex world neither the opiont that &quot;everything is possible&quot; nor the option that &quot;everything is preordained&quot; exists. (p 51)</p>
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<p>Carefully selected phrases used to describe new technical advances could generate an image of chummy communities and adventurous users. But once a given technology is widely accepted and standardized, the relationship between the products of the technology and the users changes. Users have less scope, they matter less, and their needs are no longer the main concern of the designers. (p 101)</p>
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<p>What does it say about our society, when human needs for fellowship and warmth are met by devices that provide illusion to the users and profits to the suppliers?  (p. 108)</p>
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<p>When human loneliness becomes a source of income for others through devices, we'd better stop and think a bit about the place of human needs in the real world of technology. (p 109)</p>
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<p>Yet if sane and healthy communities are to grow and prevail, much more weight has to be placed on maintaining the non-negotiable ties of all people to the biosphere. (p 180)</p>
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			<title>Silas Marner</title>
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			<updated>2017-02-06T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm a huge fan of the regular interview column in The New York Times, <a href="https://www.nytimes.com/column/by-the-book">By the Book</a>, I read it every week because I never know what books will be discussed that peak my interest and I add them to my list. I've long been meaning to read something by George Eliot, and a few weeks back the author interviewed in By the Book mentioned <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/silas-marner-the-weaver-of-raveloe-9780141439754/1-7"><em>Silas Marner</em></a> and I knew it was the book I should read to see if I would like George Eliot's writing or not.</p>
<p>I'm so glad I did, the word to describe it is lovely. It's beautifully written. A story of chance, loneliness, and finding love where you least expect it. As Silas weaves for money, he hoards it, and when he loses the money he finds something worth much more. And it's also a bit about class and village life in England; community that is small, but full of rights and wrongs.</p>
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<p>Our consciousness rarely registers the beginning of a growth within us any more than with out us: there have been many circulations of the sap before we detect the smallest sign of the bud. (p. 57)</p>
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<p>That quiet mutual gaze of a trusting husband and wife is like the first moment of rest or refuge from a great weariness or a great danger — not to be interfered with by speech or action which would distract the sensations from the fresh enjoyment of repose. (p 174)</p>
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			<title>Ghosts</title>
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				<p>I find comics to be the perfect way to see the world in a new way that I've not thought of before and <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/ghosts-9780545540629/18-0"><em>Ghosts</em></a> was no different for me. Lately I've especially been enjoying children's books and even if the reading is easy, it's usually profound. I found <em>Ghosts</em> with the <a href="http://apps.npr.org/best-books-2016/">NPR Book Concierge</a>, indeed it was on many of the best of 2016 lists that I read in December.</p>
<p>Ghosts is quite fun; a family moves to a new town for the health of one of the daughters, and in that town there are ghosts that everyone can see. Death is nothing to be frightened of, it's only a change in where you will be, where your spirit resides. But in this town they still see each other during the grand celebration of The Day of the Dead.</p>
<p>If you want a fun afternoon read, pick up <em>Ghosts</em> and think about life and death from a lovely perspective.</p>

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			<title>The Mushroom at the End of the World</title>
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				<p>There are certain people in my life that when they recommend a book, I usually just trust them and go for it and start reading it. <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/the-mushroom-at-the-end-of-the-world-9780691162751/73-2"><em>The Mushroom at the End of the World</em></a> by Anna Lowenhaupt Tsing is one such book for me. I had a bit of an idea that it was about supply chains but otherwise didn't really know what I was starting to read when I began the book.</p>
<p>The book uses a mushroom that is valued in Japan to talk about much, much, much more than just global supply chains; it talks about forests, care taking, what does work mean and look like, the concepts of salvage and latent commons. And it's those last two concepts that I'm still thinking about, still digesting, and still trying to understand fully.</p>
<p>As Tsing travels to three different areas where matsutake mushrooms are found or where they're trying to set up the right environment for them to grow, she uses the mushroom as the way to point out a lot about how we live together (or don't), how we think about forests, how we live with other species and how other species live with each other, how we notice what's around us, and how we deal with precarity. It's an unbelievably fascinating book, one that I'll be thinking about for a long time to come. And what I loved most of all is her final chapter, where Tsing doesn't come to any definitive conclusion, but rather leaves much of her ideas open to continue to change over time.</p>
<p>If you want another perspective on this book, I recoommend heading to the reading notes on <a href="http://aworkinglibrary.com/reading/mushroom-at-the-end-of-the-world/">A Working Library</a>.</p>
<p>My highlights are from the kindle version and, as you can see, they're extensive. I highlight and track them here for my own future use; I <em>really</em> recommend reading this entire book.</p>
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<p>Humans cannot survive by stomping on all the others. (loc 88)</p>
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<p>Unlike most scholarly books, what follows is a riot of short chapters. I wanted them to be like the flushes of mushrooms that come up after a rain: an over-the-top bounty; a temptation to explore; an always too many. The chapters build an open-ended assemblage, not a logical machine; they gesture to the so-much-more out there. They tangle with and interrupt each other—mimicking the patchiness of the world I am trying to describe. Adding another thread, the photographs tell a story alongside the text but do not illustrate it directly. I use images to present the spirit of my argument rather than the scenes I discuss. (loc 94)</p>
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<p>...[T]he uncontrolled lives of mushrooms are a gift—and a guide—when the controlled world we thought we had fails. (loc 202)</p>
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<p>To live with precarity requires more than railing at those who put us here (although that seems useful too, and I’m not against it). We might look around to notice this strange new world, and we might stretch our imaginations to grasp its contours. This is where mushrooms help. Matsutake’s willingness to emerge in blasted landscapes allows us to explore the ruin that has become our collective home. (loc 229)</p>
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<p>To follow matsutake guides us to possibilities of coexistence within environmental disturbance. (loc 235)</p>
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<p>Kao handed me the mushroom. That’s when I first experienced the smell. It’s not an easy smell. It’s not like a flower or a mouth-watering food. It’s disturbing. Many people never learn to love it. It’s hard to describe. Some people liken it to rotting things and some to clear beauty—the autumn aroma. At my first whiff, I was just … astonished. (loc 356)</p>
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<p>We are stuck with the problem of living despite economic and ecological ruination. Neither tales of progress nor of ruin tell us how to think about collaborative survival. (loc 401)</p>
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<p>The most convincing Anthropocene time line begins not with our species but rather with the advent of modern capitalism, which has directed long-distance destruction of landscapes and ecologies. (loc 408)</p>
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<p>Given the effectiveness of state and capitalist devastation of natural landscapes, we might ask why anything outside their plans is alive today. To address this, we will need to watch unruly edges. (loc 418)</p>
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<p>Thinking through precarity changes social analysis. (loc 428)</p>
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<p>Indeterminacy, the unplanned nature of time, is frightening, but thinking through precarity makes it evident that indeterminacy also makes life possible. (loc 429)</p>
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<p>...[A]gnostic about where we are going, we might look for what has been ignored because it never fit the time line of progress. (loc 446)</p>
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<p>Many preindustrial livelihoods, from foraging to stealing, persist today, and new ones (including commercial mushroom picking) emerge, but we neglect them because they are not a part of progress. These livelihoods make worlds too—and they show us how to look around rather than ahead. (loc 454)</p>
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<p>Assemblages don’t just gather lifeways; they make them. Thinking through assemblage urges us to ask: How do gatherings sometimes become “happenings,” that is, greater than the sum of their parts? (loc 477)</p>
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<p>The problem is that progress stopped making sense. More and more of us looked up one day and realized that the emperor had no clothes. It is in this dilemma that new tools for noticing seem so important. (loc 509)</p>
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<p>With the logging of ponderosa pines and fire exclusion, lodgepoles have spread, and despite their flammability, fire exclusion allows them a long maturity. Oregon matsutake fruit only after forty to fifty years of lodgepole growth, made possible by excluding fire.7 The abundance of matsutake is a recent historical creation: contaminated diversity. (loc 576)</p>
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<p>Transformation through collaboration, ugly and otherwise, is the human condition. (loc 584)</p>
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<p>One reason is that contaminated diversity is complicated, often ugly, and humbling. Contaminated diversity implicates survivors in histories of greed, violence, and environmental destruction. The tangled landscape grown up from corporate logging reminds us of the irreplaceable graceful giants that came before. The survivors of war remind us of the bodies they climbed over—or shot—to get to us. We don’t know whether to love or hate these survivors. Simple moral judgments don’t come to hand. (loc 635)</p>
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<p>Contaminated diversity is not only particular and historical, ever changing, but also relational. It has no self-contained units; its units are encounter-based collaborations. Without self-contained units, it is impossible to compute costs and benefits, or functionality, to any “one” involved. (loc 640)</p>
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<p>Yet assemblages are defined by the strength of what they gather as much as their always-possible dissipation. They make history. This combination of ineffability and presence is evident in smell: another gift of the mushroom. (loc 766)</p>
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<p>To understand capitalism (and not just its alternatives), then, we can’t stay inside the logics of capitalists; we need an ethnographic eye to see the economic diversity through which accumulation is possible. (loc 1038)</p>
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<p>Some kinds of power are there, but not there; this haunting is a place from which to begin to understand this multiply culturally layered enactment of freedom. (loc 1172)</p>
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<p>Matsutake picking is not the city, although haunted by it. Picking is also not labor—or even “work.” (loc 1184)</p>
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<p>Sai, a Lao picker, explained that “work” means obeying your boss, doing what he tells you to. In contrast, matsutake picking is “searching.” It is looking for your fortune, not doing your job. (loc 1185)</p>
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<p>Matsutake picking is not “labor,” but it is haunted by labor. So, too, property: Matsutake pickers act as if the forest was an extensive commons. (loc 1212)</p>
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<p>They are willing to brave the considerable dangers of the matsutake forest because it extends their living survival of war, a form of haunted freedom that goes everywhere with them. (loc 1320)</p>
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<p>Pickers navigate the freedom of the forest through a maze of differences. Freedom as they described it is both an axis of commonality and a point from which communally specific agendas divide. (loc 1326)</p>
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<p>To speak of Nike evokes the horrors of sweatshops, on the one hand, and the pleasures of designer brands, on the other. Nike has succeeded in making this contradiction seem particularly American. But Nike’s rise from a Japanese supply chain reminds us of the pervasive legacy of Japan. (loc 1848)</p>
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<p>As I have explained, no one in Oregon thinks of him- or herself as an employee of a Japanese business. The pickers, buyers, and field agents are there for freedom. But freedom has come to mobilize the poor only through the freeing of American livelihoods from expectations of employment—a result of the transpacific dialogue between U.S. and Japanese capital. (lco 1853)</p>
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<p>When humble commodities are allowed to illuminate big histories, the world economy is revealed as emerging within historical conjunctures: the indeterminacies of encounter. (loc 1859)</p>
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<p>To explore how capitalism draws from noncapitalist value systems—and how these fare within capitalism—a tool for noticing difference is worth trying out. The gift-versus-commodity distinction can stand in for the absence or presence of alienation, the quality necessary to turn things into capitalist assets. (loc 1897)</p>
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<p>Almost no one buys a fine matsutake just to eat. Matsutake build relationships, and as gifts they cannot be separated from these relationships. Matsutake become extensions of the person, the definitional feature of value in a gift economy. (loc 1902)</p>
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<p>How are gifts made from commodities? And might those commodities, in turn, have been made earlier along the chain from gifts? (loc 1908)</p>
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<p>The ability to properly assess the mushrooms is the necessary ingredient of this flavor; it allows sellers to extend personal advice—not just a generic commodity—to buyers. The advice is the gift that comes with the mushroom, stretching it beyond use or exchange value. (loc 1933)</p>
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<p>The value of matsutake then derives not just from use and commercial exchange; it is made in the act of giving. And this is possible because mediators all along the chain are already giving the quality of matsutake to their clients as a personal gift. (loc 1935)</p>
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<p>Neither middlemen nor consumers concern themselves with the relations through which their matsutake are procured. (loc 1959)</p>
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<p>Personal value and object value are made together in exchanges of freedom: Freedom as personal value is made through money and the search for mushrooms, just as the value of money and mushrooms is assessed by participants through the freedom gained by buyers and searchers. (loc 1972)</p>
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<p>Matsutake is then a capitalist commodity that begins and ends its life as a gift. (loc 1998)</p>
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<p>The economic system is presented to us as a set of abstractions requiring assumptions about participants (investors, workers, raw materials) that take us right into twentieth-century notions of scalability and expansion as progress. (loc 2025)</p>
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<p>Salvage accumulation reveals a world of difference, where oppositional politics does not fall easily into utopian plans for solidarity. (loc 2070)</p>
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<p>The business of progress depended on conquering an infinitely rich nature through alienation and scalability. If nature has turned finite, and even fragile, no wonder entrepreneurs have rushed to get what they can before the goods run out, while conservationists desperately contrive to save scraps. (loc 2076)</p>
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<p>Fungi are thus world builders, shaping environments for themselves and others. (loc 2099)</p>
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<p>By leaning on fungal companions, trees grow strong and numerous, making forests. (loc 2113)</p>
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<p>Mutualistic relations were interesting anomalies, but not really necessary to understand life. Life emerged from the self-replication of each species, which faced evolutionary and environmental challenges on its own. No species needed another for its continuing vitality; it organized itself. This self-creation marching band drowned out the stories of the underground city. To recover those underground stories, we might reconsider the species-by-species worldview, and the new evidence that has begun to transform it. (loc 2127)</p>
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<p>Self-replicating things are models of the kind of nature that technical prowess can control: they are modern things. They are interchangeable with each other, because their variability is contained by their self-creation. Thus, they are also scalable. (loc 2142)</p>
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<p>Biological scalability was given a mechanism, strengthening the story of thoroughly modern life—life ruled by gene expression and isolated from history. (loc 2155)</p>
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<p>This insight changes the unit of evolution. Some biologists have begun to speak of the “hologenome theory of evolution,” referring to the complex of organisms and their symbionts as an evolutionary unit: the “holobiont.” (loc 2176)</p>
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<p>Fungi have always been recalcitrant to the iron cage of self-replication. (loc 2201)</p>
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<p>I have been discussing fungal collaborations with plants, but fungi live with animals as well. For example, Macrotermes termites digest their food only through the help of fungi. (loc 2208)</p>
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<p>As in capitalist supply chains, these chains of engagement are not scalable. Their components cannot be reduced to self-replicating interchangeable objects, whether firms or species. Instead, they require attention to the histories of encounter that maintain the chain. Natural history description, rather than mathematical modeling, is the necessary first step—as in the economy. Radical curiosity beckons. Perhaps an anthropologist, trained in one of the few remaining sciences that values observation and description, might come in handy. (loc 2217)</p>
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<p>Working with forest managers in Japan changed how I thought about the role of disturbance in forests. Deliberate disturbance to revitalize forests surprised me. Kato-san was not planting a garden. The forest he hoped for would have to grow itself. But he wanted to help it along by creating a certain kind of mess: a mess that would advantage pine. (loc 2233)</p>
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<p>Restoration requires disturbance—but disturbance to enhance diversity and the healthy functioning of ecosystems. Some kinds of ecosystems, advocates argue, flourish with human activities. (loc 2240)</p>
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<p>...[L]andscapes are radical tools for decentering human hubris. Landscapes are not backdrops for historical action: they are themselves active. (loc 2250)</p>
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<p>...[W]e forget that collaborative survival requires cross-species coordinations. To enlarge what is possible, we need other kinds of stories—including adventures of landscapes. (loc 2270)</p>
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<p>If we are interested in livability, impermanence, and emergence, we should be watching the action of landscape assemblages. Assemblages coalesce, change, and dissolve: this is the story. (loc 2372)</p>
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<p>No single standard for assessing disturbance is possible; disturbance matters in relation to how we live. This means we need to pay attention to the assessments through which we know disturbance. Disturbance is never a matter of “yes” or “no”; disturbance refers to an open-ended range of unsettling phenomena. Where is the line that marks off too much? With disturbance, this is always a problem of perspective, based, in turn, on ways of life. (loc 2379)</p>
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<p>Precarious living is always an adventure. (loc 2416)</p>
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<p>Fossils have been found from 50 million years ago that show root associations between pines and fungi; pines have evolved with fungi.8 Where no organic soil is available, fungi mobilize nutrients from rocks and sand, making it possible for pines to grow. (loc 2476)</p>
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<p>By colonizing disturbed landscapes, matsutake and pine make history together—and they show us how history-making extends beyond what humans do. At the same time, humans create a great deal of forest disturbance. (loc 2504)</p>
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<p>Matsutake, pines, and humans together shape the trajectories of these landscapes. (loc 2506)</p>
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<p>...[A]s soon as the glaciers retreated, some nine thousand years ago, both humans and pines started coming.14 From a human point of view, that was a long time ago, hardly worth remembering. Thinking in terms of forests, however, the time line from the end of the Ice Age is still short. In this clash of perspectives, we see the contradictions of forest management: Finnish foresters have come to relate to forests as stable, cyclical, and renewable, yet the forests are open-ended and historically dynamic. (loc 2515)</p>
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<p>Resurgence is the force of the life of the forest, its ability to spread its seeds and roots and runners to reclaim places that have been deforested. (loc 2611)</p>
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<p>Satoyama projects reconstitute peasant disturbance to teach modern citizens to live within an active nature. This is not the only kind of forest I want to see on earth, but it is an important kind: a forest within which human household-scale livelihoods thrive. (loc 2623)</p>
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<p>The sustainability of nature, he said, never just falls into place; it must be brought out through that human work that also brings out our humanity. Peasant landscapes, he explained, are the proving grounds for remaking sustainable relations between humans and nature. (loc 2684)</p>
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<p>Despite all insults, resurgence has not yet ceased. (loc 2820)</p>
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<p>At least for a moment, matsutake had entered the Forest Service imagination, and its pact with lodgepole was noticed. To appreciate how strange this is, consider that no other nontimber forest product has attained the status of a management objective, at least in this part of the country. (loc 3007)</p>
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<p>Forests are shaped not only in local livelihood practices and state management policies but also by transnational opportunities for the concentration of wealth. (loc 3021)</p>
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<p>Matsutake forests in Oregon and central Japan are joined in their common dependence on the making of industrial forest ruin. (loc 3176)</p>
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<p>If all our forests are buffeted by such winds of destruction, whether capitalists find them desirable or throw them aside, we have the challenge of living in that ruin, ugly and impossible as it is. (loc 3171)</p>
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<p>In thinking about landscapes, spores guide us to in-population heterogeneity. In thinking about science, spores model open-ended communication and excess: the pleasures of speculation. (loc 3351)</p>
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<p>For now, it is just the pleasure of thinking: the spore-filled airy stratosphere of the mind. (loc 3368)</p>
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<p>In my discomfort, I understand that we are learning to listen—even if we don’t yet know how to have a discussion. (loc 3728)</p>
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<p>Brown brought pickers together through a practice of translation that, rather than resolving difference, allowed difference to disturb too-easy resolution, encouraging creative listening. Listening was Brown’s starting point for political work. (loc 3731)</p>
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<p>How, for example, shall we make common cause with other living beings? Listening is no longer enough; other forms of awareness will have to kick in. And what great differences yawn! Like Brown, I would acknowledge difference, refusing to paper it over with good intentions. (loc 3745)</p>
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<p>We need many kinds of alertness to spot potential allies. Worse yet, the hints of common agendas we detect are undeveloped, thin, spotty, and unstable. At best we are looking for a most ephemeral glimmer. But, living with indeterminacy, such glimmers are the political. (loc 3747)</p>
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<p>Latent commons are not exclusive human enclaves. Opening the commons to other beings shifts everything. Once we include pests and diseases, we can’t hope for harmony; the lion will not lie down with the lamb. And organisms don’t just eat each other; they also make divergent ecologies. Latent commons are those mutualist and nonantagonistic entanglements found within the play of this confusion. (loc 3754)</p>
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<p>The best we can do is to aim for “good-enough” worlds, where “good-enough” is always imperfect and under revision. (loc 3758)</p>
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<p>The latent commons moves in law’s interstices; it is catalyzed by infraction, infection, inattention—and poaching. (loc 3761)</p>
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<p>The mushrooms remind us of our dependence on more-than-human natural processes: we can’t fix anything, even what we have broken, by ourselves. (loc 3779)</p>
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<p>Muddling through with others is always in the middle of things; it does not properly conclude. (loc 4064)</p>
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<p>Precarity means not being able to plan. But it also stimulates noticing, as one works with what is available. To live well with others, we need to use all our senses, even if it means feeling around in the duff. (loc 4078)</p>
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<p>The study of neighborliness turns difference into a resource for collaboration. Imagining the interactions among roots, hyphae, charcoal, and bacteria—as well as among Chinese, Japanese, and Finnish scientists—is as good a way as any to refigure our understanding of survival as a collaborative project. (loc 4099)</p>
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<p>Without meaning to, most of us learn to ignore the multispecies worlds around us. Projects for rebuilding curiosity, like that of Tanaka-san, are essential work for living with others. (loc 4134)</p>
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<p>Without stories of progress, the world has become a terrifying place. The ruin glares at us with the horror of its abandonment. It’s not easy to know how to make a life, much less avert planetary destruction. Luckily there is still company, human and not human. We can still explore the overgrown verges of our blasted landscapes—the edges of capitalist discipline, scalability, and abandoned resource plantations. We can still catch the scent of the latent commons—and the elusive autumn aroma. (loc 4147)</p>
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<p>Work in common creates the possibilities of particular feats of individual scholarship. To encourage the unknown potential of scholarly advances—like the unexpected bounty of a nest of mushrooms—requires sustaining the common work of the intellectual woodland. (loc 4171)</p>
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<p>Instead, she proposes that storytelling might pick up diverse things of meaning and value and gather them together, like a forager rather than a hunter waiting for the big kill. In this kind of storytelling, stories should never end, but rather lead to further stories. In the intellectual woodlands I have been trying to encourage, adventures lead to more adventures, and treasures lead to further treasures. When gathering mushrooms, one is not enough; finding the first encourages me to find more. (loc 4198)</p>
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			<title>A quiet life in the fog</title>
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				<p>Warren Ellis is one of my favorite writers of all time. I've read a <em>lot</em> of his work and am eagerly awaiting a couple of his comics series to come out with the next volume. I also subscribe to his site, <a href="http://morning.computer">Morning, Computer</a>. He writes there sporadically, but it's always welcome when it hits my feed. And on Monday a <a href="http://morning.computer/2017/01/when-fogbound/">post</a> hit my feed and I read it and it's stuck with me since.</p>
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<p>I still get broadcast waves. I’m still engaged with the world and learning every day. But I’ve chosen a quiet life in the fog. I leave you to that other world. I like it better where I am.</p>
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<p>That encapsulates how I feel right now. I'm staying up-to-date on events of the world, I'm doing my best to continue to learn and think and write. But I'm also trying to live quietly while I do so. I may not be active on social media because I can't take it, and I may not post quite as much here either, but I'm quietly figuring out the things that matter to me, how to fight for them, and how to keep moving	.</p>
<p>A large part of this process involves my journal and my sketchbook. And much of it is going to be done quietly, as it's the only way I feel I can move forward right now. I'm fighting in the ways that matter to me, I'm doing my best to keep up with the issues that matter to me, but I'm not allowing myself to be inundated and overwhelmed.</p>
<p class="small">As an aside, if you haven't read <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Transmetropolitan/comics-series/"><em>Transmetropolitan</em></a> by Ellis, it's extremely fitting for the times we're living in right now.</p>
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			<title>The Guineveres</title>
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			<updated>2017-01-20T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been escaping into fiction lately. Comics and novels are where it's at when I'm not working, it's escapism at its best. But the times call for a bit of that and self care is important. <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/the-guineveres-9781250086617/62-0"><em>The Guinevers</em></a> by Sarah Domet was on some end of 2016 book list and I decided to give it a go, not totally knowing what I was in for when I started reading.</p>
<p>It's a lovely book about girls and growing up and faith and love. Four girls named Guinevere are all living in a girls school in a convent for various reasons, which you find out as you read. The timeline jumps between the present, each girl's life before the convent, and some hints at the future. And intermixed with it all are chapters on various women who are saints in the Catholic Church and their lives.</p>
<p>These four girls, all so different, deal with the difficulties of their lives by supporting each other. As we learn more about their stories we understand more and more why they are desperate to find a family unit of some kind, even if it's just the four of them, to support themselves. The time period of the novel is very murky, with a war going on, but the world outside the convent is a mystery. There are very few references and the story is consumed by life in this small space and the girls longing for more.</p>
<p>I really enjoyed this book, the aspects of faith spoke to me in a way I needed right now, and I could relate to many of the growing pains these girls had. I didn't experience the same type of childhood, but I definitely relate to trying to figure out what is going on in life at the that age.</p>
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<p>These stories found ways to tell themselves, even against our wishes. Stories are like that; they seek to unravel. (loc 755)</p>
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<p>We were young still, didn’t know that some questions should never be asked, that we wouldn’t have wanted to know the answers anyway. (loc 3205)</p>
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<p>You can’t rid yourself of that kind of pain completely, no matter how brave you are, or how good, no matter how far down you bury your memories. Memories are like that, like mustard seeds, tiny at first, but eventually the largest tree in all of the garden. (loc 3210)</p>
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<p>Her first marriage ended in divorce, and she always claimed the best part of that marriage was walking down the aisle toward her groom. In those few moments, she felt the possibility of happiness; her hopes had not yet winnowed into solitude, even if it was just a lie. (loc 3502)</p>
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<p>But frequency does not determine the depth of friendship. I’m glad for that. (loc 4540)</p>
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<p>We cling to the most painful reminders of our youth, our memories or our injuries, perhaps so we can look back to our former selves, console them, and say: Keep going. I know how the story ends. (loc 4554)</p>
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<p>Because if there’s anything I’d learned by then, by now, too, it’s that suffering doesn’t always have a point. Sometimes there’s nothing to learn from it. (loc 4663)</p>
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<p>I didn’t yet realize how useless worry is, how we cling to it in hopes of controlling the outcome, but we can never control the outcome. (loc 5161)</p>
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<p>That’s the beautiful power of absolution. It’s not so much about the ritual as it is about the need to unburden our stories onto someone who will carry the weight for us. (loc 5369)</p>
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			<title>Resting to be productive</title>
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				<p>When I think of productivity I think of all the usual things that many people do. And I love many of those things and use them regularly. I make lists and love crossing things off. Routines are my friend and help me make sense of my day. And I use tools to track what I've finished and what I haven't to make it towards goals.</p>
<p>But in the last several years it's been one thing, more than any other, that has increased my productivity and helped me get shit done. Rest. Probably not what you were expecting, was it? Many people are looking for the magic tool, the one silver bullet that will help them get things done faster. But it isn't a tool, it's just something I have to do: rest.</p>
<p>I think I can safely say that we've all been there, working on a problem of some type and you can't get it solved, the answer isn't coming. You walk away, take a break, or you stop for the day and go on to your evening and when you start work in the morning you solve the problem in a matter of minutes. That's the power of rest.</p>
<p>But rest does other things for me as well, when my brain is rested I tend to come up with ideas, writing ideas (such as for this piece) come to me in the early morning half awake hours. Or as I'm reading a book, usually for pleasure and not work, an idea for some piece of code or a fix for a work project may be triggered by something I've read.</p>
<p>This is fairly normal, Steven Johnson talks at great length in <em>Where Good Ideas Come From</em> about how disparate pieces of information come into our lives and we put them together to form new things. And that happens through rest and boredom.</p>
<p>Rest doesn't just mean getting enough sleep, although that is part of it and I do sleep a lot, but it also means taking time to do things that have nothing to do with my work. Since I stare at screens all day and think about web sites, for me that's meant finding activities I love to do that have nothing to do with the web. I read, I draw, and I do yoga. These breaks equal rest for me just as much as sleeping or napping does.</p>
<p>So try it out, instead of constantly looking for the right tool, slow down, take breaks, relax, and see if when you are working you're able to focus and get more done in less time. I've found it to be true.</p>
<p class="small">This piece originally appeared on <a href="https://superyesmore.com/resting-to-be-productive-05a873712901b4a8ac9490e7fba5a607">The Human Machine Project</a> on January 2, 2107.</p>
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			<title>Front End Style Guides</title>
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				<p>Anna Debenham started the new year off by releasing an updated version of her book, <a href="http://www.maban.co.uk/projects/front-end-style-guides/"><em>Front End Style Guides</em></a> and I spent some time reading it and highlighting and remembering what it is I love about style guides this week. Anna wasn't the first person to introduce me to style guides, but she was definitely the first to talk about them extensively and her work helped me wrap my head around how they could work in client projects and product work.</p>
<p>The updated version is really well done with lots of great information about the steps to take to create a guide, why you should bother with the guide, and examples of guides to get ideas of how different places are using them and maintaining them. One thing I love about how Anna talks about style guides is that it's about the guide being useful to the team that uses it; so guides can, and should, differ from team to team.</p>
<p>My highlights are below broken up by chapter, my highlights from her previous version are also on this <a href="https://www.susanjeanrobertson.com/reading/pocket-guide-to-front-end-style-guides/">site</a>. Please remember that these are out of context, so you may want to read the whole thing to understand the concepts.</p>
<h2>Chapter 1</h2>
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<p>Front-end style guides are still in their infancy, and a lot of terms exist. Just make sure the name you choose for your style guide makes sense based on what you’re building, and use the terminology you’ve chosen consistently.</p>
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<p>While I like the Atomic principles and I think about them when I’m writing front-end code, my preference is to stick with the word “component”. I find the Atomic terminology too rigid – it’s not always obvious whether one of these building blocks is an atom, molecule, or organism, and I don’t want to pass on this confusion to the client.</p>
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<p>Design systems are a particularly useful tool for creating a common design language for an organisation’s many different products, from websites to mobile apps.</p>
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<p>Your front-end style guide could contain a pattern library, but it could also have a section on tone of voice. It’s a useful all-encompassing term.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 2</h2>
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<p><em>Component libraries</em> are collections of all the components on a site, displayed in one place. They act as deliverables for other developers rather than as design conversation pieces.</p>
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<p>I’ve found component libraries most effective as deliverables after the site has been developed, particularly if there’s any additional work to be done. Component libraries have been especially useful to me when I’m writing markup and CSS but handing over my work to developers who will integrate it with their CMS. Having patterns alongside the corresponding markup makes life easier for these developers – it means they don’t have to pick through my code to find what they need.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 3</h2>
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<p>Rather than asking the designer to style every possible element, create something the designer can refer to and tweak. A basic stylesheet, complemented by a style guide showing how elements look, makes it easy to sit down with the designer and work through it.</p>
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<p>Just writing a style guide forces you to think about the semantics of the elements you’re using. My markup has become more thoughtful since I set out to make it publicly accessible and engaging: I want people to read it and use it!</p>
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<p>Reflect on the techniques you’ve adopted: are they still worth following, or are they merely how you’ve always done things?</p>
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<p>When you’re rapidly iterating, inconsistencies can creep in. Having all your modules in one place during code review helps keep track of what’s new, what’s a duplicate, and what’s not being used.</p>
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<p>Demonstrating how a design adapts on real devices rather than in static mock-ups makes responsive design discussions easier. Front-end style guides are also invaluable as a way of delivering work, especially in Agile projects where different parts of a website may be completed at different times. Rather than getting feedback on a whole system at once, you can deliver parts of it, and really focus that feedback on the individual components.</p>
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<p>The emphasis here lies on “collaborate”. People will resist adopting a process they don’t feel a part of. Get team members involved in planning and building the style guide right from the start so they are more likely to want to maintain it.</p>
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<p>That being said, you can still make a front-end style guide if the site already exists. It’s harder to do at this stage, but it can be a useful part of an audit into a site’s design and front-end code.</p>
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<p>A style guide that’s out of date is almost as useless as no style guide at all. The ongoing challenge is making style guides that are powered by the live site, using the same styles, the same content, and the same codebase.</p>
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<p>No matter how good your pattern library or documentation is, it’s not a replacement for talking to the client or the rest of your team. A style guide isn’t something to build, hand over, and forget about.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 4</h2>
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<p>Sometimes many different styles are justified, but they must all have a reason for existing, ideally with their intended purpose documented in the component’s usage notes. Be aware that for every additional style, you’re increasing your code footprint and maintenance needs.</p>
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<p>Very long headings or double-barrelled names can cause unexpected problems, so your content examples should respond well when text flows onto multiple lines or is bigger than its container. Use the style guide as a way to show these extremes and prove that you can deal with these situations.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 5</h2>
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<p>Your style guide doesn’t have to be a work of art. Sure, it helps if it looks nice because people will feel more proud of it, but a style guide is a tool. Start small and simple, and build on it as and when you can.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 6</h2>
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<p>A style guide isn’t a silver bullet – it needs good practices, care, and attention. Its success should be measured not by how good it is when it launches, but by whether it is kept up to date and referred to months, even years, later.</p>
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			<title>Passion</title>
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				<p>I see this word used a lot by people in my industry. According to the many that talk about it and use it, you should be passionate about your work, you should love it, you should want to do it non stop. I have a <em>problem</em> with this. I've <a href="/writing/work-and-life/">written</a> about it before, paid work doesn't have to be your passion. And there are a <em>lot</em> of reasons why this may be the case. Maybe the thing you are passionate about isn't something that will pay you enough to live on. Maybe the thing you are passionate about is more fun when it's done unpaid in your free time than when it becomes your paid work. Maybe you like your paid work and you need it to support your family and you are grateful for it, but you don't feel passion for it. And that's perfectly fine. Your <em>true</em> work in life may never be your paid work, but that doesn't mean your paid work is less than or not good enough, it means that you are doing what's best for you. And passion isn't the right word to describe any of this, instead we should find other words to talk about our work, whether it’s paid or not, because passion is hard to sustain.</p>

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			<title>Daily drawing 2017</title>
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			<updated>2017-01-14T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm a bit behind on my writing and posting on this site, but wow, what's going on in the policitical world has sapped the energy from me. But I did want to talk about what I'm doing for art this year, since I've started a year long challenge. I'm doing Jennifer Lewis Orkin's <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/draw-every-day-draw-every-way-guided-sketchbook-sketch-paint-doodle-through-one-creative-year-9781419720147/62-0"><em>Draw Every Day, Draw Every Way</em></a> throughout all of 2017.</p>
<p>I follow Orkin's work online (mostly via Twitter when I'm there) and I've also taken some of her classes on <a href="https://www.creativebug.com">Creative Bug</a>, and when this book came out last fall I bought it and saved it to do this year. So far I'm loving it.</p>
<p>I've never done a year long challenge before, just the <a href="tk">100 Day Project</a> <a href="tk">twice</a>, but after reading through this book I thought it would make the perfect year long challenge. Each month is broken up into different topics of prompts and different mediums. So instead of thinking of this as one year long thing, I'm thinking of it as twelve month long challenges.</p>
<p>The first month is my fave things: black pen and water color brush markers and the prompts are all about nature. Orkin starts each month talking about the medium and how you can use it, which is super helpful, since some months I know I'm going to use things that I've hardly or never used since starting regular drawing a bit over a year ago. But that's also what's exciting, to have the push to use new things.</p>
<p>Along with this, each month has a reflection space, to think about what was good and what was difficult about the month. I'm exited about that as well, it fits in with how I've started journaling regularly, reflecting is now part of my daily life.</p>
<p>I may post things to <a href="https://www.flickr.com/photos/susanjeanrobertson/">Flickr</a> or right here in the <a href="/photos">photos</a> section. But so far I've enjoyed just drawing for me; not feeling obligated to share it in any way.</p>

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			<title>A difficult week</title>
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				<p>It's been a hard week for me. I'm so glad it's Friday <em>and</em> that it's a long weekend. There is the general craziness of what is happening in American politics right now. I still can't quite believe that we will have a new and, in my opinion, utterly crazy president in a week. Then on Tuesday night snow started to fall in Portland. This is our fourth snow or ice storm in a month and I'm tired of being shut up in the house, since Portland has no idea how to deal with snow or ice, we just shut down. And, to top it off, the group for ladies drawing that I've been trying to get going was supposed to be Wednesday night and had to be cancelled for the second month in a row, so my plans for some self care went out the window. Here's hoping that something, somehow either gets better or I learn how to deal with it better.</p>

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			<title>Swing Time</title>
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				<p><a href="http://www.powells.com/book/swing-time-9781594203985/18-0"><em>Swing Time</em></a> by Zadie Smith is on almost every single best of 2016 book list I've seen. And I've been gravitating to reading fiction post US election, needing some escape that also may prompt me to think. <em>Swing Time</em> did just that. I've read one other book by Smith, <em>On Beauty</em>, which I enjoyed but didn't love. And I can say the same thing about <em>Swing Time</em>, it made me think, I enjoyed it, but it won't be the best book I've read this year.</p>
<p>Smith is great at setting up characters and then based on who they are and what they know, they go in various directions. The narrator, who we never learn the name of, and her friend growing up move in very different directions as they age, even though they start from very similar positions. But through these two characters, mostly the narrator, Smith got me thinking about class, race, celebrity, charitable work at a large scale, and more. It's a world that is quite different from my own and that's part of why I read it, because I was able to learn more.</p>
<p>I like Smith's style of writing, and I do like the way her characters evolve, I usually start to care about them in some way and want to know what happens, which is why I finish the books. But in both of Smith's books I've read I was left wanting a bit more at the end, and wondering about the characters. That may have been the point, but unsatisfying endings are hard for me.</p>

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			<title>Hacktivist</title>
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				<p><a href="https://www.comixology.com/Hacktivist/comics-series/12680"><em>Hacktivist</em></a> appeared on a list somewhere and I decided to give it a try. I read it through my library and while I'm glad I read it and I liked it enough to keep going to the next volume, I'm not sure I loved it.</p>
<p><em>Hacktivist</em> follows two cofounders of a large social media site YourLife (I'm sure you can guess what real world company this is modeled on) and while doing so, they hack for good, essentially. They'll have sessions together where they hack into government servers to help people around the world. And in doing this, they cause some trouble. So there are allusions of the Arab Spring as well in the book. I don't want to say much more, but the story line and the handling of the ethics involved in having the data that a company like YourLife would have, is interesting.</p>
<p>According to things I've read online, the books are a tribute to Anonymous in some way, but I'm not so sure that came across to me as I was reading. I was surprised by how the books did attempt to show how the data collected by any private company can be coopted by governments, even if the creators of those companies have the best of intentions.</p>

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			<title>Resilient Web Design</title>
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			<updated>2017-01-05T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Jeremy Keith's talks are some of my favorite I've seen over the course of my career when I've been lucky enough to be at a conference where he's speaking. He's taken a lot of the elements of those talks and put them into a wonderful online book, <a href="https://resilientwebdesign.com"><em>Resilient Web Design</em></a>. It's well worth the time to read it, think about what he's saying, and consider our past as we move forward.</p>
<p>I'm already a believer in progressive enhancement and much of what Keith covers in the final chapters of the book, but the first two chapters on the history of the web are a great summary of all that has happened to get us to where we are. Keith then goes into the languages and I love how much time he spends on my favorites, HTML and CSS may be declarative, but they are awesome in so many ways, one of which is the simplicity.</p>
<p>If, like me, you like history, you like the web, and you want to take a bit of time to read about them, you should.</p>
<p>In the spirit of the book, I read it in a browser, and I broke up my highlights by chapters. As usual, you should read the book yourself, these highlights are taken out of context and better when you've read the whole thing.</p>
<h2>Introduction</h2>
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<p>I didn’t do this purely out of historical interest (although I am fascinated by the already rich history of our young industry). In learning from the past, I believe we can better prepare for the future.</p>
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<p>Ideas are more resilient than code.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 1</h2>
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<p>Even the most dramatic bounds in technological advancement are only possible when there is some groundwork to build upon.</p>
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<p>The protocols underlying the transmission of data on the internet—TCP/IP—describe how packets of data should be moved around, but those protocols care not a whit for the contents of the packets. That allows the internet to be the transport mechanism for all sorts of applications: email, Telnet, FTP, and eventually the World Wide Web.</p>
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<p>As soon as there were two web browsers in the world, interoperability and backwards compatibility became important issues.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 2</h2>
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<p>This liberal attitude to errors allowed the vocabulary of HTML to grow over time from the original 21 elements to the 121 elements in HTML5. Whenever a new element is introduced to HTML, we know exactly how older browsers will treat it; they will ignore the tags and display the content.</p>
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<p>Most HTML elements exist for a reason. They have been created and agreed upon in order to account for specific situations that authors like you and I are likely to encounter.</p>
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<p>There are obviously special elements, like the A element, that come bundled with superpowers.</p>
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<p>Think for a moment of all the sites out there on the web. There’s a huge variation in visual style: colour schemes, typographic treatments, textures and layouts. All of that variety is made possible by one simple pattern that describes all the CSS ever written</p>
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<p>Just because a language is elegant and well‐designed doesn’t mean that people will use it. CSS arrived later than HTML. Designers didn’t spend the intervening years waiting patiently for a way to style their documents on the web. They used what was available to them.</p>
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<p>Seeing the same HTML document styled in a multitude of different ways drove home one of the beneficial effects of CSS: separation of concerns.</p>
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<p>Designing a loosely‐coupled system can take more work. The payoff is that the overall result is more resilient to failure. Individual parts of the system can be swapped out with a minimum of knock‐on effects.</p>
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<p>So HTML and CSS aren’t completely decoupled. They form a partnership but they also have an arrangement. The markup document might decide that it wants to try seeing other style sheets sometimes. Meanwhile, the style sheet could potentially be applied to other documents. They are loosely coupled.</p>
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<p>Using CSS for presentation is materially honest—that’s the intended use of CSS. It also allows HTML to be materially honest. Instead of trying to fulfil two roles—structure and presentation—HTML can return to fulfilling its true purpose, marking up the meaning of content.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 3</h2>
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<p>Designers had grown accustomed to knowing the dimensions of the rectangles they were designing within. The web removed that constraint.</p>
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<p>It was as though the web design community were participating in a shared consensual hallucination. Rather than acknowledge the flexible nature of the browser window, they chose to settle on one set width as the ideal …even if that meant changing the ideal every few years.</p>
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<p>The web is not print. The known constraints of paper—its width and height—simply don’t exist. The web isn’t bound by pre‐set dimensions. John Allsopp’s A Dao Of Web Design called on practitioners to acknowledge this</p>
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<p>There is another reason why web designers clung to the comfort of their fixed‐width layouts. The tools of the trade encouraged a paper‐like approach to designing for the web.</p>
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<p>If web designers wished to remain true to the spirit of One Web, they needed to provide the same core content at the same URL to everyone regardless of their device. At the same time, they needed to be able to create different layouts depending on the screen real‐estate available.</p>
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<p>If you can prioritise your content and make it work within the confined space of a small screen, then you will have created a robust, resilient design that you can build upon for larger screen sizes.</p>
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<p>Relinquishing control does not mean relinquishing quality. Quite the opposite. In acknowledging the many unknowns involved in designing for the web, designers can craft in a resilient flexible way that is true to the medium.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 4</h2>
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<p>HTML and CSS are both examples of declarative languages. An author writing in a declarative language describes a desired outcome without providing step‐by‐step instructions to the computer processing the file.</p>
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<p>That’s a pattern that repeats again and again: a solution is created in an imperative language and if it’s popular enough, it migrates to a declarative language over time. When a feature is available in a declarative language, not only is it easier to write, it’s also more robust.</p>
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<p>JavaScript gave web designers the power to create websites that were slicker, smoother, and more reactive. The same technology also gave web designers the power to create websites that were sluggish, unwieldy, and more difficult to use.</p>
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<p>Web designers would do well to remember what the advertising industry chose to ignore: on the web, the user has the final say.</p>
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<p>Whereas HTML can be rendered piece by piece as it is downloaded, a JavaScript file must be downloaded in its entirety before its contents can be parsed. While it’s tempting to think that only a small minority of visitors will miss out on a site’s JavaScript, the truth is that everybody is a non‐JavaScript user until the JavaScript has finished loading ...<em>if</em> the JavaScript finishes loading.</p>
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<p>It’s tempting to apply the knowledge and learnings from another medium to the web. But it is more structurally honest to uncover the web’s own unique strengths and weaknesses.</p>
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<p>Thinking of the web as a platform is a category error. A platform like Flash, iOS, or Android provides stability and certainty, but only under a very specific set of circumstances—your software must be accessed with the right platform‐specific runtime environment. The web provides no such certainty, but it also doesn’t restrict the possible runtime environments.</p>
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<p>Platforms are controlled and predictable. The World Wide Web is chaotic and unpredictable.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 5</h2>
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<p>Those layers can be loosely‐coupled, but they aren’t completely independent. Just as a building cannot have furniture without first having rooms and walls, a style sheet needs some markup to act upon. The coupling between structure and presentation is handled through selectors in CSS: element selectors, class selectors, and so on. With JavaScript, the coupling is handled through the vocabulary of the Document Object Model, or DOM.</p>
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<p>Each of the web’s shearing layers can be peeled back to reveal a layer below. Running that process in reverse—applying each layer in turn—is a key principle of resilient web design.</p>
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<p>This layered approach to the web allows the same content to be served up to a wide variety of people. But this doesn’t mean that everyone gets the same experience. Champeon realised that a strong separation of concerns would allow enhancements to be applied according to the capabilities of the end user’s device.</p>
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<p>Progressive enhancement asks that designers start from the lowest common denominator (a well marked‐up document), but there is no limit to where they can go from there.</p>
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<p>Progressive enhancement means providing core functionality to everyone. After that, it’s every browser for itself. Far from restricting what features you can use, progressive enhancement provides web designers with a way to safely use the latest and greatest features without worrying about older browsers.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 6</h2>
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<p>But very few people wake up in the morning looking forward to a day of scrolling and tapping. They’re more likely to think in terms of reading, writing, sharing, buying and selling. Web designers need to see past the surface‐level actions to find the more meaningful verbs beneath.</p>
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<p>These are modern browser features that we should be taking full advantage of …once we’ve made sure that we’re providing a basic experience for everyone.</p>
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<p>Instead the service, the URLs, and the components you are designing could be experienced in any number of ways. And that’s okay.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 7</h2>
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<p>It’s all‐too tempting to quickly declare that an approach is naïve, overly simplistic, and unrealistic. The idea that a website can simultaneously offer universal access to everyone while also providing a rich immersive experience for more capable devices …that also seems hopelessly naïve.</p>
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<p>The floodgates are ready to open. We just need you to create the poster child for resilient web design.</p>
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<p>If you’re not used to working this way, the first time you do it will take quite some time. But the second time won’t take quite so long. After a while, it will become normal.</p>
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<p>A tool is supposed to help people get their work done in a more efficient way. The tool should be subservient to the workflow. All too often, tools instead dictate a preferred way of working.</p>
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<p>When I’m confronted with a problem, and I have the choice of making it the user’s problem or my problem, I’ll make it my problem every time. That’s my job.</p>
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			<title>Implied shoulds</title>
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				<p>I've backed away from a lot of social media type things, but I'm on there enough to see a lot of implied shoulds lately. You know those, right? Someone is recommending something they do and the implication is you should do it too, based on wording and tone. I often think of them like the winky emoji that people put at the end of a condescending tweet to someone. It's a backhanded way of trying to make it seem like they aren't being condescending. But in this tense time, whatever you have to do to take care of yourself in the midst of what's going on in the world, the country you live in, your community, or your life; that's all OK. Self care is never wrong and we all do it differently.</p>

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			<title>The final Earthsea books</title>
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			<updated>2016-12-28T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Finishing a series is always bittersweet for me, especially a series that I've loved. On Christmas I finished the final book of the Earthsea series by Ursula K. Le Guin, and it was one of those series where I was wanting to keep reading more about the characters I've come to love. But alas, it was all that she wrote. The two final books, <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/tales-from-earthsea-9780547722047/62-0"><em>Tales from Earthsea</em></a> and <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/other-wind-earthsea-05-9781842552117/66-0"><em>The Other Wind</em></a> are very different but both very good.</p>
<p><em>Tales from Earthsea</em> are stories that range from the very early days of Earthsea before the school at Roke is founded and goes through to the bridge story that connects <em>Tehanu</em> and <em>The Other Wind</em>. The stories are all quite different, but I enjoyed them all the same, a chance to see some very different aspects of the world I'd already been immersed in.</p>
<p><em>The Other Wind</em> picks up after the final story in <em>Tales from Earthsea</em> and not long after <em>Tehanu</em>. It is a lively story with many of the same beloved characters and some new ones, but it is a good ending, seeing Tehanu's story continue and what, for me, was a satisfying ending. I love it when the end of a series continues the story well, but also doesn't leave a lot of loose ends and <em>The Other Wind</em> does that quite well.</p>

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			<title>Taking a break</title>
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			<updated>2016-12-20T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm moving into my end of the year break, where I try my hardest to leave behind computer screens and instead focus on things like drawing, eating, cooking, baking, and reading. A movie or two may also make its way into my time as well. 2016 has been rough with the election and the news in general. I'm hanging on to the things that are good in my life and planning for the ways in which I can do some good in 2017. You may still see me here a few more times, for a book review or links to things I've read, but I hope that you too are able to take a break.</p>

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			<title>Parking</title>
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			<updated>2016-12-14T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>In my neighborhood right now there is nothing that will set people off more than talking about parking. As the city approves more apartment buildings that don't provide parking for all residents and seeks to increase density, the residents are growing increasingly frustrated. And what never ceases to amaze me is that it's almost like these residents don't realize that they live in Portland, Oregon; a city that prioritizes transit, bikes, and walking over cars. It's one of the reasons we moved here ten years ago, and it's one of the things we love about living here.</p>

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			<title>Advent</title>
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			<updated>2016-12-11T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I grew up in a Lutheran household where we followed the church year quite closely. Advent and Lent were acknowledged with changes in our weekly routines as a family. I don't hold to those traditions nearly as closely now, but this year, in this season of Advent I've been thinking about it. Advent, much like Lent and the lead up to Easter, is a time for quiet and waiting. This year with all that's going on in my country, I'm quietly waiting; at times fearful, at times angry, and at times without feeling. The coming months will only make this worse. And as I wait, I'm reading, thinking, journaling, and talking with friends; it's my way of trying to beat back the horror.</p>

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			<title>Exposure</title>
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			<updated>2016-12-05T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been reading a lot of escapist books lately, things to take me out of my current world and into another. That led me to <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/exposure-9780802124937/1-3"><em>Exposure</em></a> by Helen Dunmore. It's a cold war era spy thriller, with a married couple at the center of it, caught up in something that they aren't quite aware of in the beginning. And it's wonderful.</p>
<p>I found this book through The Guardian's best books of 2016 list, it was recommended on the second list, where writers talk about what they're reading. And I'm so glad I found it. Simon and Lily Callington are a couple that at first seem quite average, London dwellers with three children and a nice house. But as the story unfolds you start to peel away the layers of who they are. And the layers are fascinating.</p>
<p>Of course, Simon being accused of treason is the catalyst for the layers being exposed to us, but there is so much more to this book than just the spy portion. The relationship between Simon and Lily, between Lily and her children, between the children themselves, and between Simon and his work. Dunsmore weaves all these relationships together and shows you deeper and deeper glimpses of the family and the people surrounding them.</p>
<p><em>Exposure</em> is a bit like <em>Tinker, Tailor, Soldier, Spy</em> with characters who are slowly showing us who they are and a story that is not quite what it seems at first.</p>

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			<title>Andy Warhol: Drawings and Illustrations of the 1950s</title>
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			<updated>2016-12-02T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Currently at the Portland Museum of Art there is an Andy Warhol show. I went down to see it because I only know some of his work and wanted to see if there was anything more I could learn about him as an artist. I'm not a fan of the screen printing era that includes the Campbells soup cans, but usually in a big show on an artist I'll find at least one era that I like. And this show had it, his very early work in advertising is <em>amazing</em> and I'd never seen it before.</p>
<p>After I saw the show, I started researching more on Warhol's early work, and found some books, most of which are out of print, but thankfully the library had one. <a href="https://www.amazon.com/Andy-Warhol-Drawings-Illustrations-1950s/dp/8881582775/"><em>Andy Warhol: Drawings and Illustrations of the 1950s</em></a> is so great. I <em>love</em> this era of his work. The line quality, the off registration of the color, the repetitive nature of the work, it's all really interesting.</p>
<p>So I've spent a week or so pouring over the book and am probably now going to look for a used copy that I can have on hand for inspiration. It's always great to go to the museum and discover something and get inspired. Art is taking a much larger role in my life these days, and it's been a welcome refuge to heal and think and dream.</p>

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			<title>Car free life</title>
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			<updated>2016-12-01T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>We've been car free for almost six months now and we're entering into the difficult season to be car free. It's not as fun to walk for necessities when it's raining and chilly. But in the time that we've not had a car, I've thought about car related things quite a bit (traffic, parking, etc). And this is where I talk about my thoughts, so here are some thoughts.</p>
<p>I've believed for a long time that people won't get rid of their cars until it's economically painful for them to have a car. I'm a privileged person and we can afford a car, but in the interest of doing our bit towards the climate and simplifying our life, we wanted to try the car free life. We live in a walkable city, we are in the perfect set up for it, and we have great transit close by.</p>
<p>But as I read about the policies the city is proposing in regards to parking and the apartment buildings popping up all over, I'm convinced that convenience trumps everything else when it comes to cars. We live in a walkable area, we have great frequent service bus lines near us, but most of the people on Next Door argue about the need for parking and the problems with traffic.</p>
<p>And yes, I get it, not everyone can go car free. But I'm convinced many more could than are willing and I think it all comes down to convenience. I know people who live near frequent service bus service to downtown and still drive to work daily. The bus is not as convenient, you may have to wait for it, you may have to be by people not like you, and it's looked down upon. That makes me sad, I love riding the bus, that's my community and it's good for me to be in the midst of it.</p>
<p>On a personal level the benefits of not having a car have been surprising. Yes, we're saving money not insuring a vehicle or maintaining one, but we're also saving money on food. I know, it was unexpected to me too. But when you carry most of your food home, it turns out you're not only more careful in what you buy and how much, but you are more likely to eat up the food in the fridge and cupboards. I'm planning meals more carefully, we're eating up everything we buy, and, in turn, our grocery bills are dropping. On top of those savings, I'm walking more and getting out of the house more, which has benefits for my physical and mental health.</p>
<p>I often wonder when the obsession with cars will end. And I'm not sure if driverless cars are the answer, they may be part of the answer, but not the entire answer to making <a href="http://tinyletter.com/metafoundry/letters/metafoundry-42-shadow-botafogos">transit and movement easier</a>. I wasn't sure how it'd be, not having a car, but it's been one of the best decisions we've made in a long while.</p>

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			<title>Savasana</title>
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			<updated>2016-11-30T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>When I started learning yoga 6 years ago, it was for the exercise and definitely not for the spiritual aspect of it. And at the end of each class when the teacher would lead us into savasana, corpse pose, I never really got why, but it was a nice rest before leaving class. Fast forward to today when I'm mostly doing yoga at home and alone. Savasana has become my favorite pose, the one I sometimes spend a long time in before I get up from the mat. Home practice has meant that I listen to my body each day, doing what I need at that moment. And these days, no matter what leads up to it, a long, meditative savasana is always needed to calm my mind and remind myself what is real and true.</p>

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			<title>Self care</title>
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			<updated>2016-11-29T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm in my kitchen with chicken soup cooking on the stove, the stock is made from the leftovers of my Thanksgiving turkey. And I'm thinking about self care. Since the election I've been keenly aware of how I take care of myself now that the news from both my country and the world is so difficult to take. The things I'm doing aren't innovative, but they're working for me. I'm cooking a lot, I mean, I've always cooked, but I'm putting more care in making sure we are well nourished and cared for through food I make. I'm also doing a few other things every day: yoga, even if only for a few minutes, some type of drawing, journaling, and listing three things for which I'm grateful. And it's working. It's helping to combat the depression I feel after I read a news site. And of course, the biggest thing for me, is staying away from social media and reactionary takes on the world. I hope you too are finding the ways in which you can care for yourself during these difficult days.</p>

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			<title>The City &amp;amp; The City</title>
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			<updated>2016-11-28T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I start a lot of books and for many of them, the books slowly draw me in, the first third is OK, the back story is building. The second third starts to get good and the final third is amazing. This was the case with <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/city-the-city-9780345497529/2-9"><em>The City &amp; The City</em></a> by China Miéville, I couldn't put it down for the final chapters.</p>
<p>There is so much in there, so many things, so much that spoke to me about what is happening in the world today. Two cities, located in the same geographic location, but separated by the citizens not seeing each other or the other city. And when a murder means crossing over to investigate in the other city, Borlú the investigator from Beszel goes and it's fascinating.</p>
<p>And the characters along with the entire worlds of Beszel and Ul Qoma are fascinating to me. How would this actually work? But then I started to think about contested cities in the world, could this solution ever come about? But I also got caught up in the story of the murder victim, her fascination with those two cities, and how it all came about. Read it, it's good.</p>
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<p>We are all philosophers here where I am, and we debate among many other things the question of where it is that we live. On that issue I am a liberal. I live in the interstice yes, but I live in both the city and the city. (loc 5027)</p>
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			<title>Notes</title>
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				<p>If you follow me on RSS, you may just think I'm writing smaller things. But the reality is that I've added a whole new section to my site. I'm not tweeting because twitter causes anxiety and stress, but I wanted to be able to get out thoughts that aren't very long. Notes was born. If I knew how to code it so these were sent to Twitter, I probably would, but well, I don't know how and I don't really want to spend my time on that right now. So here they are. A way for me to write short thoughts.</p>

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			<title>Real America</title>
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				<p>There is one thing that I've grown tired of and it's the idea that there is a &quot;Real America.&quot; No, one part of the US is not more &quot;real&quot; than another part. And as I've thought about this through this past year as the divisions have grown worse amongst people, I've wanted to ask people if the realize that the different parts of the US are all very different. I grew up in Minnesota and now live in Oregon. There are similarities, but the differences, are quite stark as well. I live in the west now and there is a wild west mentality to how the state government works and how people think of themselves. And if I were to move to Texas, I'm guessing things would be different there than what I know from Oregon or Minnesota. This has led me to believe that instead of saying we live in a melting pot, I prefer the Canadian idea of a quilt. All of these parts make up America, none is more American than any other.</p>

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			<title>Tehanu</title>
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				<p>I finished the fourth book in the Earthsea Cycle by Ursula K. Le Guin, <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/tehanu-earthsea-9781442459960/62-0"><em>Tehanu</em></a> yesterday afternoon. It is the best of the series so far. Tenar and Sparrowhawk are back, but time has passed from when we previously saw Tenar, 25 years. And there is a new character, a little girl that has been badly burned, Therru, who Tenar has adopted.</p>
<p>What is more notable is that 18 years passed between the publishing of <em>The Farthest Shore</em> and <em>Tehanu</em>. And in that time, the world changed a lot and Le Guin definitely feels more freedom to push some boundaries and ideas with her characters. In the afterwords she's written for these newly released books, Le Guin talked about being subversive by making the main character a character of color in <em>A Wizard of Earthsea</em>. When it comes to the character of Tenar in <em>Tehanu</em>, Le Guin is pushing at gender inequalities with so many interesting conversations between Tenar and Sparrowhawk. It's fitting with her character that she would be this way, now that she's raised a family and a widow, she now wants her tastes of freedom.</p>
<p>And the character of Therru is another push in that direction. The mages of Roke are looking for a woman (shocking!) that will help them understand who the next Archmage should be or what to do next. And, in their own ways, both Therru and Tenar contribute to helping us understand what is to happen next.</p>
<p>I can't wait to see where the final book goes, as it is written even more recently than <em>Tehanu</em>.</p>

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			<title>Comics: 4 volume twos</title>
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			<updated>2016-11-20T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I recently was back on a comics streak, plowing through several volume twos of various series I've started, so here are some quick thoughts.</p>
<h2>Trees Volume 2</h2>
<p>This is by far the comic I'm most interested in these days. I'm a huge Warren Ellis fan, but I'm also eager to see where this goes, now we have more clues as to what the Trees are, how they may or may not act, and how various people are trying to use them for their own advantage.</p>
<p>I'm sad because I get Ellis' newsletter and he's said he won't get to the next story arc until sometime next year. The waiting to see where this goes is gonna be hard.</p>
<h2>Injection Volume 2</h2>
<p>Yup, another Ellis book. I <em>like</em> Injection, but after the second volume I'm a bit more hesitant about it. I'm still trying to figure out what the injection is, where this is going, and why I should care. Caring is a big deal with me in stories, if I don't care about something or someone, I usually can't get into it. I'll read volume 3, but it may be a library checkout rather than buying it.</p>
<h2>Descender Volume 2</h2>
<p>I <strong>love</strong> this comic. I'm super intrigued by the use of robots and how those robots are becoming human like in some ways. I love that we've learned more about who Andy is and who are all the others in this fight against and for robots. Tim 21 is going on quite the adventure and I'm loving going along. The art work in this one is also great, I pause on spreads often, to soak it all in.</p>
<h2>Sex Criminals Volume 2</h2>
<p>I'm done with this comic. Which is amazing because the volume ended on a cliff hanger, but I just don't really care, I'm not finding the characters interesting and the whole hook of it just doesn't grab me. I'm not sad I gave it a go, since I love Matt Fraction so much, but I'm OK with not reading any more of it.</p>

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			<title>Voting</title>
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			<updated>2016-11-08T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>It's Election day in the US today. And I'm reading stories about people waiting in long lines and I've been reading them for weeks as people try to vote early.</p>
<p>Ten years ago when we moved to Portland I experienced voting by mail for the first time. A ballot arrived, a voting guide arrived, I filled out the ballot, and I mailed it back in. That was it, I'd voted.</p>
<p>It was <em>awesome</em>. I will admit that at times I miss the stickers and the excitment of voting on the day. But whenever I feel that way I remember that I get to vote on my couch. And I can research and read whatever I want <em>as I vote</em> to help me in my decisions.</p>
<p>Living on the west coast where ballot measures are <em>much</em> more prevalent than they ever were in Minnesota, I love having all the time in the world to decide and research. It's so easy and I don't have to go anywhere!</p>
<p>Voting by mail has other benefits. We don't have any possibility of voter intimidation. With motor voter now in place, it's easier than ever to register to vote. People are reminded to do it because the ballot arrives in the mail. Disenfranchisement is low because there is no having to get to certain locations during certain times and show a particular ID. And we have fairly high turnout.</p>
<p>Honestly, the entire country should vote this way. I got my ballot on October 19 and I voted on October 20 and we dropped our ballots in the mail on October 21. And I tracked my ballot every step of the way, so I know it was received.</p>
<p>I'm fully aware that there are forces in this country who don't want to make it easier for everyone to vote, but we gotta push for this, because it's important.</p>

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			<title>Yoga at Home</title>
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			<updated>2016-11-07T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>6 years ago this month I took my first yoga class. I'd been looking for a while for a way to get some exercise into my life and decided trying yoga was a good place to start. And my neighborhood had a studio close by, even better. Little did I know that this would transform my life and that yoga and practicing yoga would become a huge part of my self care.</p>
<p>Over the course of the past several months I've been trying to get a regular home practice going. The reasons are plentiful, but they boil down to my favorite teachers opening a studio that's difficult for me to get to and my desire to do what my body is feeling on any given day. I already Yoga Journal quite a bit and then I saw this book talked about in an issue, <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/yoga-at-home-inspiration-for-creating-your-own-home-practice-9780789329431/62-0"><em>Yoga at Home</em></a> by Linda Sparrowe. I've been slowly reading through it over the past month or so and finished it yesterday.</p>
<p>The book is composed of short &quot;chapters&quot; where a person talks about their home practice. Some of them are well known and others I'd never heard of, most are yoga teachers, and they are from all over the world. The great thing about the book is that no two people have an identical home practice.</p>
<p>As I think about and work on getting my home practice to work for me, I found a lot of the advice helpful, but most particularly, the advice to let go and be in the moment and listen to your body. Each time I step on my mat, it should be a time where I do what my body needs, and that's what's so great about home practice, it can be that every time.</p>

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			<title>The Farthest Shore</title>
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			<updated>2016-11-06T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Another Le Guin book, I know, I know. But she is just such a great writer and this series is just so fantastic. <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/farthest-shore-earthsea-3-9781442459939/1-4"><em>The Farthest Shore</em></a> brings back Sparrowhawk again, but this time with a new companion, the Prince of Havnor, Arren. Le Guin writes such fantastic young adults, I'm continually amazed. (Although by this time you'd think I wouldn't be, but I still am.)</p>
<p>Arren comes to Sparrowhawk with grave news, something dark is afoot in the lands he lives in and his father is worried. Sparrowhawk has felt it too and is worried as well. He asks Arren to accompany him as they set off to find the place where things can be put back to right. This is such a wonderful adventure as they sail through the various lands, to open sea where there is no more land. They meet fascinating people, and they eventually end up where they need to be.</p>
<p>Le Guin has a way with showing the growth and coming of age of young people that is so wonderful and teaches me so much about what it is to be human. And this book is about our true selves. In the world she creates very few people know your real name, you go by a different one publicly. And I've found that fascinating in the last two books, when Sparrowhawk choses to reveal that knowledge and what it means about truly knowing one another.</p>
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<p>So the first step out of childhood is made all at once, without looking before or behind, without caution, and nothing held in reserve. (loc 148)</p>
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<p>&quot;The word must be heard in silence; there must be darkness to see the stars. The dance is always danced above the hollow place, above the terrible abyss.” (loc 1720)</p>
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			<title>The Pursuit of Love</title>
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			<updated>2016-11-03T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I recently read a biography about the <a href="/reading/the-six/">Mitford Sisters</a>, an interesting read about six sisters and their lives in Britain during the interwar period. One of those sisters was an author, and I wanted to read one of her books to understand more about how she saw the world, I just finished <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/pursuit-of-love-love-in-a-cold-climate-two-novels-9780375718991/1-13"><em>The Pursuit of Love</em></a> by Nancy Mitford.</p>
<p>It was a great read, following the story of a young woman, Linda, who is the second daughter of a set of siblings. She is looking for love, as the story implies. The narrator is her cousin, who tells about their childhood in the country with the rest of the raucous Radletts of Alconleigh. As is often the case in these things, Linda makes her way through life, trying to figure out what she should be doing. If there is one critique of Linda it's that her character is quite shallow, so you wonder if she even understands what love is.</p>
<p>What was fascinating to me was the juxtaposition of Linda's life with that of her cousin, Fanny, who tells her story. I don't want to say too much because well, you should read the book. This was perfect bed time reading for me. I can't fall asleep until I've read for a bit and I prefer something a bit lighter and this fit the bill. But I also was sent off into my thoughts, wondering about how we all look for love, how we find it, and what it takes to sustain it.</p>

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			<title>Inclusive Design Patterns</title>
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			<updated>2016-11-03T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I preordered <a href="https://shop.smashingmagazine.com/products/inclusive-design-patterns"><em>Inclusive Design Patterns</em></a> by Heydon Pickering when it was announced last summer. And this past week I've been spending time reading through the patterns and learning more about accessibility. Pickering does a great job going through all the ins and outs of various patterns that you may use in your work and how to make sure they are accessible and work well for all users.</p>
<p>What stood out for me wasn't just all the little bits and pieces I picked about how to do my job better, but the way in which Pickering makes it easy to understand. This isn't hard, it's a matter of thinking about people who don't use the web the way you do, and then making sure your site works for all. I've read a few other books on accessibility, but this one walks step-by-step through common patterns and I found the approach really great. I recommend reading through this, even if you think you already have a good handle on accessibility, I picked up a lot of little things, it was well worth the time.</p>
<p>My highlights are below via chapters, since reading an epub makes page numbers irrelevant. Also, please remember, these are out of context, if you have questions or thoughts, you should read the book.</p>
<h2>Introduction</h2>
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<p>Web pages are not immutable artifacts. They should be tolerant of changing, dynamic content. This content should be managed in terms of discrete components which can be reused as agreed patterns.</p>
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<p>The potential audience of a website or app is anyone human. Inclusivity of ability, preference and circumstance is paramount. Where people differ — and they always do — inclusive interfaces are robust interfaces.</p>
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<p>...thinking about the structure of data and trying to arrive at an optimal solution is designing and there’s not an Adobe license or copy of Sketch in sight.</p>
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<p>The best part is that designing inclusive interfaces, like designing robust data schemas, doesn’t have to be any harder or more complex than making exclusive or otherwise obsolete ones. It’s just different. By looking at common web interface patterns through the lens of inclusivity, this book will help you quickly learn how to apply and reapply conventions that will earn you a broader and less frustrated audience.</p>
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<p>The inclusive designer anticipates these problems, because experience tells them that people differ, well, in lots of different ways. Far from being daunted or frustrated, they know that by exploiting standard conventions they can achieve more by doing less. In other words, they know when to design and when to employ what is <em>already designed</em> — a simple HTML button element, provided as standard by the HTML specification. Resizable, translatable, focusable, interoperable, stylable, restylable, maintainable, mutable, <em>simple</em>.</p>
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<h2>The Document</h2>
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<p>It is possible to switch languages within a page using the lang attribute on child elements within the <code>&lt;body&gt;</code>. For instance, I may want to quote some French within an English language page...</p>
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<p>By employing content breakpoints, you can ensure successful layouts for a range of devices far greater than you would ever be able to manually test with. Unless your superpower is prescience and you can anticipate the device setup of each and every one of your users, this is the only way to go.</p>
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<p>You may recall my remark earlier that the browser itself is an interface. To achieve inclusive design you should act as a facilitator, allowing users to configure the way they view and interact with the content you provide them. The fewer decisions you “make for them, the more they can make for themselves.</p>
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<p>The key to inclusive design isn’t to target specific groups, it’s to not exclude groups arbitrarily — there’s nothing to gain.</p>
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<p>Progressive enhancement is about building a strong foundation of content, logical and robust in form, which is resilient to a multitude of network and scripting failures. It’s not just about JavaScript or CSS being unavailable, but when and how they are unavailable, for how long, and when they should be made available, and in what order.</p>
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<p>Throughout this book you’ll hear a lot about accessible names. These are the assistive technology compatible labels for the various elements of your web pages. The accessible name for a document, <code>&lt;iframe&gt;</code> or embedded SVG element is provided by their <code>&lt;title&gt;</code>. It should describe the purpose of the contents of said element.</p>
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<h2>A paragraph</h2>
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<p>What’s less known is that very high contrast can actually <em>diminish</em> readability for some users. Sufferers of scotopic sensitivity syndrome14 (or Irlen syndrome) are sensitive to glare, and stark contrast can result in blurred text or text that appears to move around. It is advisable to slightly temper the contrast between your paragraph text and background color.</p>
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<p>...in a world of artifice and ornamentation, utility is radical.</p>
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<h2>A Blog Post</h2>
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<p>Inclusive design is about appreciating how people really use interfaces, not just fixing technical errors.</p>
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<h2>A Menu Button</h2>
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<p>First of all, though, it needs to be stated that — like drop-down menus — if you don’t need a menu button, don’t involve one. As a rule of thumb, if the menu has fewer than five items, just lay them out; make them available to the user at all times. In desktop viewports, there’s rarely <em>any</em> reason to hide a navigation menu away, regardless of the number of items it contains. Hiding functionality away from users and requiring them to perform an additional action to reveal that functionality is always a last resort.</p>
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<p>Communicating the state of functional elements within web interfaces is an important part of making those interfaces inclusive of anyone using assistive technology and who is therefore dependent on the accessibility tree22. Remember, the accessibility tree is a version of the DOM that exposes the role, property, value and state information the author provides to assistive technology software.</p>
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<p>...mindful of the need for accessible labels, potential problems with Windows’ high contrast mode and ease of touch operation....</p>
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<h2>Inclusive Prototyping</h2>
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<p>They’re here to help you practice thinking inclusively as you formulate your own patterns to solve your own design problems. It’s investing this thought in the early stages of the design process that leads to a robust product.</p>
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<p>Almost all of the successful projects I’ve worked on as a designer and developer have included interactive paper prototyping in the early stages of the design process.</p>
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<p>The trouble with high-fidelity mockups and prototypes is that they tend to look finished. People are polite and you won’t get honest feedback about something that looks like it’s had a lot of work put into it. That it’s made of paper at all means it’s clearly only an allegory of the real app, so feedback about aesthetic particulars is kept to a minimum. Focus remains on whether the idea solves the problem well.</p>
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<p>It’s easy for the user to feel tested, so make it clear that you are not testing them but the app itself. If they don’t know how to operate it, make it clear in advance that it’s not their fault, but yours as the designer.</p>
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<p>I’d recommend several individuals (or teams) work on the same component so there are different solutions to compare. Second, accessibility should be a prerequisite for consideration. If a solution isn’t keyboard-accessible, uses a poor structure or is not explicable by screen reader, it’s out.</p>
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<h2>A List of Products</h2>
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<p>...while second guessing who might want to use our products is a game we have to play, making assumptions about how folks use them can only alienate potential fans and customers.</p>
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<p>No matter what the content or the commercial offer, there is no reason to second-guess how the user might operate the interface. In fact, doing so can only reduce the quality of the product. To save money, you are going to want to make just the one interface, not a different one for each imagined user group. So, you make it inclusive. You make inclusivity a quality of the product — not an expensive additional feature.</p>
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<p>I have qualified the .call-to-action class with the element name a. You may have read elsewhere that this is redundant, but it serves an important purpose: it restricts the use of .call-to-action styles to the a element. By using .call-to-action on a <code>&lt;button&gt;</code>, or an inaccessibly interactive <code>&lt;div&gt;</code> element, the style will not be invoked. This effectively prevents a developer from using the wrong element for the job. In the excellent article “How Our CSS Framework Helps Enforce Accessibility14,” Ian McBurnie details a number of similar provisions.</p>
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<p>Another way that <code>&lt;button&gt;</code>s are differentiated from links is that they don’t have a pointer cursor style. In “Buttons shouldn’t have a hand cursor15,” Adam Silver explains why manually adding cursor: pointer to <code>&lt;button&gt;</code> elements is a usability mistake. It is not standard behavior to invoke this cursor style on <code>&lt;button&gt;</code>s, and it’s risky to break with long-held convention.</p>
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<p>Complaints toward online services are almost always from people unable to actually use an interface, but a 100%-compliant interface can still be entirely unusable. By the same token, an interface with the odd superficial error may be so simple, well structured and clear that it’s still a pleasure to use.</p>
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<p>Inclusive design has a different take. It acknowledges the importance of markup in making semantic, robust interfaces, but it is the user’s ability to <em>actually get things done</em> that it makes the object. The quality of the markup is measured by what it can offer in terms of UX.</p>
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<h2>A Filter Widget</h2>
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<p>Infinite scroll hijacks the user’s scrolling action to perform an unexpected behavior, commandeering user control and diminishing the user experience. The “Load more” button invites the user to take an explicit, labeled action at their convenience and therefore conforms to the second of Henny Swan’s UX principles, to <strong>give users control</strong>.</p>
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<h2>A Registration Form</h2>
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<p>The <code>placeholder</code> attribute is a relatively new addition to the HTML specification. It was created in response to developers wanting to give hints for the type of content the user should provide. The key word here is <em>hints</em>: the placeholder is not a labeling method by itself and should only be used to provide supplemental information.</p>
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<p>Structures of HTML, like the structures of natural language it annotates, should be judged in similarly nuanced terms: what helps or hinders; what’s too little or too much.</p>
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			<title>Writing my tweets</title>
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			<updated>2016-11-02T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I <a href="https://twitter.com/susanjrobertson/status/793531462666424321">tweeted</a> about this yesterday, but I figured since in my string of tweets I talked about putting my energy into this site, I should probably write about it here.</p>
<p>A few weeks ago I decided to back off Twitter. But I noticed quickly I was having an issue because I would have thoughts, would want to tweet them, and they wouldn't go away. So I grabbed a Field Notes that was just waiting to be used and wrote on the first page &quot;Tweets not tweeted.&quot;</p>
<p>I began writing most of tweets by hand. I carried that Field Notes with me everywhere I went and I filled it, then went on to the next one. I'm now on my third notebook. It worked. All those thoughts got written down, many with more ideas attached and without the need to worry about a 140 character limit.</p>
<p>Some of you reading this may think, &quot;that sounds a lot like journaling.&quot; And you'd be right, it pretty much is. But something about thinking of them as short little missives made it easier for me; it made it doable. I wasn’t blocked by thinking I needed to sit down and write pages of thoughts, I could write just a line or two.</p>
<p>This year has been difficult for many, the world news is pretty depressing, the US election is awful (thankfully it's almost over), and personally I've been going through a bit of a think about what I want in life and how I want to live my life. Jotting down quick thoughts and ideas in a space where no one else sees them, where no one judges them, and where I can be completely open and honest, has been transforming.</p>
<p>And it's removed me from the firehose of information on Twitter that I don't always know how to handle. I'm backing way off of social media. You'll find me online right here; linking to things I like, writing occasionally, reviewing things I've read, and posting images of things I've drawn or seen.</p>

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			<title>Dear Data</title>
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			<updated>2016-10-29T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I listen regularly to Debbie Millman's podcast, <a href="http://www.debbiemillman.com/designmatters/">Design Matters</a>. In fact, it's one of my favorite podcasts because she interviews such a wide variety of people and I often learn a lot about design that I didn't know or projects that are intriguing. That's how I discovered <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/dear-data-9781616895327/62-0"><em>Dear Data</em></a>, I heard one of the authors, Giorgia Lupi, <a href="http://www.debbiemillman.com/designmatters/giorgia-lupi/">interviewed by Millman</a>.</p>
<p>Lupi, along with her friend Stefanie Posavec, trade postcards every week for a year with a data visualization on it of something they tracked in their lives for a week. One week they tracked how many times they said &quot;I'm sorry&quot;, another week they tried to smile at strangers and tracked the reactions, and one week they tracked every time they used their phones. What made this book fascinating wasn't just the visualization that they both came up with week after week, but how they each interpreted the data.</p>
<p>For example, the week they tracked all the complaints they made Lupi also tracked who she complained to and what the complaint was about, while Posavec went for a more straightforward approach and just tracked the complaints and what what they were about, but both visualizations are stunning.</p>
<p>I did have a preference for one over the other's work, I just liked the style of one more, but that doesn't matter, because <em>all</em> the cards are amazing. And I'll admit, it made me want to figure out a way to track something about myself and attempt a visualization because it's something I've never done before and it would be a new way of drawing.</p>
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			<title>Performance and assumptions</title>
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			<updated>2016-10-25T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I gave a <a href="https://speakerdeck.com/susanjeanrobertson/auditing-for-performance">talk</a> recently on web performance, specifically on auditing sites to get a handle on where things are at so you can figure out what you need to do to make your site faster. In the first third of the talk I make the case for performance. This was a relatively short talk, twenty minutes, so I didn't linger too long. But I did say this:</p>
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<p>Performance is also about <strong>accessibility</strong>, getting people content they need to live in our culture.</p>
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<p>In the past several weeks there has been discussion online about JavaScript and progressive enhancement. It's not a new discussion, it's just the latest one that's come around again. And in light of the work I did to write the talk on performance and then reading and listening to the discussion on JavaScript, I've been reminded, yet again, that we <em>really</em> like to make assumptions.</p>
<p>Quite a while ago I wrote about the <a href="/geekery/assumptions/">assumptions</a> we make. This was in regards to responsive web design, it was in the lead up to the launch of the responsive Boston Globe site and I made the argument that the way I choose to do things isn't always the way others do.</p>
<p>Well, now the talk has turned from responsive to using JavaScript and performance topics and just about any day of the week, I can go on twitter and find people talking about both sides of this.  Just recently <a href="https://twitter.com/slightlylate/status/789407645027270656">Alex Russell said</a> this:</p>
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<p>These architectures harm users. They harm the web. They are not acceptable.
Less JS, loaded better, is what we need now.</p>
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<p>That was at the end of a thread discussing a product he was trying to use.</p>
<p>But here's the thing: many of us don't think this harms users because we believe that everyone who uses the web is just like us.</p>
<p>This argument can be made for all kinds of things, not just performance or how to use JavaScript, it's made about <a href="https://medium.com/@sodevious/the-internet-is-for-everyone-fca2a8fc8f92#.775uzeiqy">accessibility</a> as well.  Jeremy Keith talks about it well in his <a href="https://adactio.com/journal/11354">post</a> in response to the JavaScript/progressive enhancement discussion:</p>
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<p>Personally, I find progressive enhancement a sensible way to counteract any assumptions I might inadvertently make. Progressive enhancement increases the chances that the web site (or web app) I’m building is resilient to the kind of scenarios that I never would’ve predicted or anticipated.</p>
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<p>We all make assumptions, it's natural and normal. But we also need to be jolted out of those assumptions on a regular basis to help us see that not everyone uses the web the way we do. I've <a href="http://alistapart.com/blog/post/developing-empathy">talked</a> about loving doing support for that reason, but I also love it when I'm on a slow network, it shows me how some people experience the web all the time; that's good for me.</p>
<p>I'm privileged to have fast devices and fast, broadband internet, along with a lot of other privileges. Not remembering that privilege while I work and assuming that everyone is like me is, quite possibly, one of the biggest mistakes I can make.</p>

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			<title>The Crimson Skew</title>
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			<updated>2016-10-24T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I finished the final book in The Mapmakers Trilogy yesterday. It was with the typical sadness when you finish something you truly enjoyed and you just want to be able to dive back into the world of the characters you've come to love. <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/mapmakers-03-crimson-skew-9780670785049/1-3"><em>The Crimson Skew</em></a> by SE Grove is a fantastic ending to this series.</p>
<p>We're continuing on with Sophia as she searches for her parents and of course, her friend Theo and her Uncle Shadrack are back as well. The story brings back characters we've loved, but we're also introduced to the very heart of the worlds that Sophia has traveled through, The Old Ones, along with learning more about why and how the disruption is occurring.</p>
<p>I can't say much for this book is really about the final big reveals of the trilogy, but you should read them all. I've written about the others as well, <a href="/reading/the-glass-sentence/"><em>The Glass Sentence</em></a> and <a href="/reading/the-golden-specific/"><em>The Golden Specific</em></a> and if you know young people who love good adventures, give them the first one!</p>
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<p>...in every Age, storytelling is vital to comprehending, interpreting, and appreciating the world around us. (loc 4653)</p>
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			<title>Who Fears Death</title>
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			<updated>2016-10-16T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm not sure how <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/who-fears-death-9780756406691/2-16"><em>Who Fears Death</em></a> by Nnedi Okorafor made it onto my library wish list, most likely through a book review I read somewhere, but it was available and intriguing, so I checked it out a few weeks ago. Lately I prefer to read fiction before bed, I think because I want to be taken into another world after living another day in our world. And I wasn't really sure what to expect with this book, but it surprised and challenged me.</p>
<p>Onyesonwu, the main character of the book, is Ewu, she is half Okeke and half Nuru and was conceived in violence. As she grows, it becomes apparent that she has special powers. And throughout the book the power manifests itself in different ways and we see her grappling with how to handle it. Onye's journey is about her growing up and coming to terms with who her father is and the world in which she lives.</p>
<p>I enjoyed Okorafor's writing, her descriptions, the characters, and the pacing all worked quite well. And, as I'm finding is becoming normal for me, the last third of this book is amazing. I enjoy the stories so much once I really understand the characters.</p>
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<p>Oh, how our traditions limit and outcast those of us who aren’t normal. (loc 3551)</p>
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<p>To be something abnormal meant that you were to serve the normal. And if you refused, they hated you . . . and often the normal hated you even when you did serve them. (loc 3385)</p>
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			<title>Ambition</title>
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			<updated>2016-10-15T00:00:00Z</updated>
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<p>Feeling like one does not have “enough” of anything (money, status, fame, recognition, shoes, name it): that’s where every kind of terrible shit starts. And the benchmarks of success constantly shift. Ambition is a fool’s game, its rewards fool’s gold. Who is happy, asks the Talmud? She who is happy with what she has.</p>
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<p>I read <a href="http://hazlitt.net/longreads/snarling-girl">&quot;Snarling Girl&quot;</a> by Elise Albert the other day and it's still ricocheting in my head. I've had a hard time for most of my life because many women's experiences I read about and many of things women talk about I don't relate to very well. There are a wide variety of reasons for this and it isn't anyone's fault. It just is the way it is. When I clicked the link to this piece, I expected to have the same feelings. But, to my utter astonishment, it was the complete opposite feeling. As I read, I kept saying to myself, &quot;this is me, this is what I feel and think all the time.&quot;</p>
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<p>Our contexts are not the same, our struggles are not the same, and so our rebellions and complacencies and conformities and compromises cannot be compared. But the fact remains: whatever impresses you illuminates your ambition.</p>
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<p>I think this is what I've been struggling with so much. So many times, people have made assumptions about me based on my gender and that is infuriating and frustrating and exhausting. And when I say people, I don't just mean men, I mean everyone. Our experiences in our lives are all different and I find that in many of the situations I'm currently in, there isn't room for that wide range of experiences and so I've been shutting down and pulling back.</p>
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<p>Taking care of myself and my loved ones feels like meaningful work to me, see? I care about <em>care</em>. And I don’t care if I’m socialized to feel this way, because in point of fact I <em>do feel this way</em>. So! I am unavailable for striving today. I’m suuuuuper busy.</p>
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<p>She hits it again. The paragraph above this talks about being tired of the fight and not wanting to fight. I feel that so much. And I realize that I'm in a position where maybe I don't always have to fight and that is a privilege. Many days I want to live my life. I want to take care of my family, I want to do the things I love, many of which happen to be doing things that care for others.</p>
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<p>“Real” work is often invisible, and maybe sort of sacred as such. The hollering and clamoring and status anxiety and PR two inches from our collective eyeballs all day? Not so much. So tell the gatekeepers to shove it, don’t play by their rules, and get back to work on whatever it is you hold dear. Nothing’s ever been fair. Nothing will ever be fair. But there is ever so much work to be done. Pretty please can I go back to my silly sweet secret sacred novel now? Bye. Take care.</p>
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<p>I think about the concept of work often and this is gonna play into how I think of it in the future.</p>
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<p><em>Here’s</em> what bothers me about conventional ambition, the assumption that we all aspire to the top, the winner’s circle, the biggest brightest bestest, the blah blah blah, and that we will run around and around and around our little hamster wheels to get there: most of these goals are standardized. Cartoonish. Cliché.</p>
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<p>Albert goes on to talk more about a young writer looking for success, it reminded me of the letter in <em>Dear Sugar</em> that I've <a href="/writing/do-the-work/">quoted</a> before. Often, I think our work is quiet, it's just doing it day in and day out. As I've begun to draw again this year, I've been reading how some of my favorite illustrators and artists got to a place where they make money off their work. For many of them, it was doing their work day in and day out and not looking for anything more than the satisfaction of getting better, keeping going.</p>
<p>As I age, as I work more, both my work that pays the bills and the work I do because it's what I desire to do with my time, my ambition wanes. And, much like a quote that inspires Albert, where ambition changes to wanting to be happy and left alone, I feel much the same way. So I pull back and I do the work.</p>

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			<title>JavaScript for Web Designers</title>
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			<updated>2016-10-11T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm lucky enough to work with Mat Marquis and experience his smart thinking in so many different ways that it was really great to see his ideas on JavaScript all in one book. <a href="https://abookapart.com/products/javascript-for-web-designers"><em>JavaScript for Web Designers</em></a> is a really great introduction to the basics of JavaScript and written in an accessible way for those who aren't comfortable with coding.</p>
<p>As many who know me know, JavaScript is a struggle for me and I've finally made my peace that it isn't ever going to be my strong suit and I've got other skills and ideas to contribute to the web. But it was great to dip my toes back into the world of JavaScript and be reminded that it can do some really great things when it's used wisely.</p>
<p>I loved the discussion of progressive enhancement and the example of the Boston Globe staying up and usable during a crisis. While I love what JavaScript can do for our sites, I'm always making sure that the things I'm involved in building work well, no matter how the user experiences using the site; be that with a super fast connection and everything working, or on a slow connection with a script failing to load.</p>
<p>I read the epub version of the book and have divided my highlights up by chapter since page numbers don't work well for epubs. Please remember these are highlights, and don't make a lot of sense without the context of the book in most cases, so you should read the whole book if you have any questions.</p>
<h2>Introduction</h2>
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<p>The same kinds of web standards efforts that brought us semantically-meaningful markup and sane CSS support have also made JavaScript’s syntax more consistent from browser to browser, and set reasonable constraints around the parts of a browser’s behavior it can influence.</p>
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<p>The <em>entirety</em> of the document’s contents—every individual part of our document—is a “node” that JavaScript is able to access via the DOM.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 1</h2>
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<p>These two attributes handily solve all our problems with blocking requests and timing, save for one small catch: while <code>defer</code> has been around for a long time, it was only recently standardized, and <code>async</code> is brand new, so we can’t guarantee they’ll be available in all browsers.</p>
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<p>In its simplest form, the JavaScript console serves to show you any syntax errors in your scripts—if a typo should sneak into your script or part of the script references something that doesn’t exist, you’re no longer left wondering what’s keeping your script from running.</p>
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<p>We can use this to get information about the current state of elements on the page, check the output of scripts, or even add functionality to the page for the sake of testing. Right now, we can use it to try out new methods and get immediate feedback.</p>
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<p>It takes a while to get the hang of where semicolons are absolutely necessary and where ASI can fill in the blanks, so we’re better off erring on the side of caution.</p>
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<p>Well-commented code serves as a roadmap for other developers, and helps them understand what decisions you made and why.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 2</h2>
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<p>It’s not hard to see where JavaScript gets a reputation for being difficult to understand intuitively—the statements above read more like a riddle than the rules of a scripting language. There are methods to the madness, however, and getting the hang of JavaScript’s data types is how we start learning to think like JavaScript.</p>
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<p>Primitives are the simplest form of data in JavaScript: numbers, strings, <code>undefined</code>, <code>null</code>, and <code>true</code> and <code>false</code>.</p>
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<p>An object in JavaScript is the same idea: a named, mutable collection of properties and methods. Outside of the primitive types listed above, every bit of JavaScript we write is an “object,” from the strings and numbers we define, up to the entire document itself.</p>
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<p>The whole idea, after all, is that variables can represent any number of values in a predictable, easy-to-reference package.</p>
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<p>There are no catches, in this case. These two syntaxes work the exact same way, and choosing one over the other is entirely a matter of personal preference. This, of course, means that it is a <em>hotly contested</em> subject in JavaScript developer circles.</p>
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<p>...always adhere to the existing code conventions of a project, rather than mixing and matching. On a brand-new project, use whichever syntax you find the most comfortable, but keep an open mind—we have trickier problems to solve than fighting over personal preferences.</p>
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<p>It does make a good case for an editor with syntax highlighting, though, which can help you avoid mysterious-seeming errors when assigning an identifier to a variable.</p>
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<p>At the same time, we should avoid identifiers that describe their potential values in too much detail, since we may not always be able to immediately predict the values a variable will contain. A variable originally named <code>miles</code> may need to contain a value in kilometers one day—confusing for the developers who end up maintaining that code, ourselves included. <code>distance</code> works much better.</p>
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<p>There are two kinds of variable scope: <em>local</em> and <em>global</em>. A variable defined outside of a function is global. And because global variables are, well, <em>global</em>, they can be accessed anywhere in the entire application.</p>
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<p>A variable defined <em>inside</em> a function can be either local or global, depending on how we define it—which really comes down to whether we declare it by using the keyword <code>var</code>.</p>
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<p>...it’s a good idea to always define your variables using <code>var</code>. Always using <code>var</code> means local variables stay local and global variables stay global—which means we don’t spend hours of debugging time trying to track down the function that unexpectedly changed a global variable’s value.</p>
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<p>When we reference a position within an array using an index, it isn’t much different from working with variables: any reference to an array position takes on the data type of the data it contains—and just like a variable, we can reassign data to a given array position using a single equals sign.</p>
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<p>Likewise, we can use either the bracket syntax or the <code>new Array()</code> syntax to initialize an array with no defined items, just like we can initialize a variable but leave it undefined.</p>
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<p>Unless you need to get clever, though, dot notation is the simpler of the two syntaxes, and I find it much easier to read at a glance.</p>
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<p>...a function is an object that does something, rather than just holding a value.</p>
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<p>One of the more common—and powerful—uses of functions is to provide you with a packaged, reusable method of <em>calculating</em> something. I don’t mean that in a strictly mathematical sense, though you can certainly do that as well. By setting a function up to “return” a value, we allow a function to be treated the same way as we would treat a variable: as a container for data that behaves just like the data it contains.</p>
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<p><em>Control flow</em> statements are used to control what portions of our code are run at a given time, and whether they’re executed at all.</p>
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<p>For our purposes, control flow statements fit pretty neatly into two categories: conditional statements and loops.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 3</h2>
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<p>Conditional statements are a type of control flow concerned with logic: they determine when and where to execute code, based on conditions you specify.</p>
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<p>Considering that JavaScript objects can contain all manner of complex data that we’ll need to act on in different ways throughout a script—and remembering that objects are treated exactly the same as the data they contain—we can make some incredibly complex decisions about the flow of a script using simple <code>if</code> statements.</p>
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<p>For whoever ends up maintaining our code after us—and for our own sanity—it’s a good idea to keep your scripts as terse as possible. You’ll frequently see this concept referred to as DRY, which stands for <em>don’t repeat yourself</em>. If you have to change something in your code later, you’re better off only needing to do so in one place.</p>
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<p>One of the ways I keep the complexity of my own code in check is stepping through it in plain English.</p>
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<p>When we use the logical NOT operator (!) in front of another data type—like a number or a string—it reverses the truthy/falsy value of that data.</p>
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<p>That’s why I’m in the habit of using parentheses to <em>clarify</em> how JavaScript evaluates these complex statements as much as I use them to <em>alter</em> it.</p>
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<p>...we can walk away from this chapter knowing that there’s <em>some</em> way to express whatever conditional logic we might need—and if you can’t remember the exact syntax off the top of your head, well, this chapter isn’t going anywhere.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 4</h2>
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<p>The bigger problem is that <code>for</code>/<code>in</code> has a catch that a regular <code>for</code> loop doesn’t: since pretty much everything is an object—and you can add properties to any object—that means <code>for</code>/<code>in</code> can end up iterating over properties we never meant for it to know about.</p>
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<p>We can add methods and properties to <em>all</em> objects of a certain type by making changes to the <code>prototype</code> property of a constructor directly—we just can’t change the properties that have already been defined. This works the way you might expect: making additions to <code>String.prototype</code> works the way you’d add properties on an object you created yourself.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 5</h2>
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<p>The <code>window</code> object represents, predictably enough, the entire browser window. It contains the entire DOM, as well as—and this is the tricky part—the whole of JavaScript.</p>
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<p>But <code>window.document</code> isn't just a representation of the page; it also provides us with a smarter API for accessing that information.</p>
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<p>If we don't do it responsibly, though, we’ve done something far worse than simply presenting the user with a misaligned <code>div</code>—we’ve built something they might not be able to use at all. The web is an unpredictable medium, and we have to plan for that—when writing JavaScript more so than HTML or CSS, by a wide margin.</p>
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<p>A site that fully relies on JavaScript for critical functionality—a website built on the expectation that JavaScript will always run, no matter what—is a fragile one. Users’ browsing conditions can change minute to minute, and we can’t plan for—we can’t <em>know</em>—the ways that our scripts might break down.</p>
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<p>But visitors to BostonGlobe.com that afternoon could still navigate the site. They could still read the news. The website worked. If we’d relied on CSS to hide parts of the navigation and assumed JavaScript would always be there to reveal them again, some users wouldn’t have been able to navigate that day. If we’d relied on JavaScript to fetch and render critical parts of the page, that content might never have appeared. If we’d hard-coded controls that required JavaScript in order to do anything at all, they would have been useless—confusing and frustrating for the site’s users at the worst imaginable time.</p>
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<p>For those users, progressive enhancement meant the difference between finding the information they needed right away, or being forced to keep searching for it—between knowing and not knowing.</p>
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<h2>Conclusion</h2>
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<p>What makes a developer is a curiosity, a willingness to learn, and maybe the drive to solve a puzzle or two.</p>
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			<title>The Tombs of Atuan</title>
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			<updated>2016-10-05T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I recently read the first <a href="/reading/wizard-of-earthsea/">Earthsea</a> book in the series by Le Guin and I enjoyed it. So I put a hold on the second book at the library and just finished it up, <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/tombs-of-atuan-earthsea-2-9781442459915/2-4"><em>The Tombs of Atuan</em></a>. And I love these stories, but I also <em>really</em> love the afterwords by Le Guin, talking about how she came to write the books and looking back on them years later.</p>
<p><em>The Tombs of Atuan</em> focuses on a young girl who is to become the next Priestess of the Nameless Ones. At the young age of 5 she is taken from her family, brought to The Place, and raised to continue on in the profession. As the girl grows, she is becoming wise to the manipulations and ways of power. And when she discovers a wizard in the Tombs, she is able to work through what she is feeling about the world she lives in and the world she wants to live in.</p>
<p>I loved this book, and I love that Le Guin wrote it based on the landscape of Eastern Oregon and that I know that because she shares so much about how she came to write the book.</p>
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<p>What she had begun to learn was the weight of liberty. Freedom is a heavy load, a great and strange burden for the spirit to undertake. It is not easy. It is not a gift given, but a choice made, and the choice may be a hard one. The road goes upward toward the light; but the laden traveler may never reach the end of it. (loc 1889)</p>
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			<title>Berlin, Volume 2</title>
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			<updated>2016-10-05T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I read the second volume of <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/berlin-book-two-9781897299531/68-668"><em>Berlin</em></a> in just two days. Part of the reason is because I'm fascinated by history, especially the two World Wars and the interwar period of the twentieth century. I find it fascinating because so much of it changed not just those years of history, but the history of much of Europe and the US for years to come.</p>
<p>The second volume of <em>Berlin</em> picks up after the bloody day of May in 1929 when many Communist marchers are killed and takes you through to the elections of September 1930 where the National Socialists win so many seats. And it focuses on the same people as volume 1, but also adds in some new characters, namely a jazz band touring from America.</p>
<p>The character development is done so well in these books. But also the feeling of the change and the right snippets in time to show how things are changing in the culture, how the country is changing. Lutes also doesn't shy away from showing how normal people &quot;go along&quot; with the National Socialists in order to get along. The fear, the desire to not lose the home they own after the rubble of the first war, the apathy that takes hold.</p>
<p>Again, this time period of the twentieth century has been particularly interesting to me. Right now, with many events in the world, I think we've, and this a collective people of the world we, have forgotten this history. And in many ways, we are repeating it, with some different twists and turns, but repeating the overarching ideas.</p>

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			<title>The Six: The Lives of the Mitford Sisters</title>
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			<updated>2016-10-03T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>We've been on a bit of a World War history kick in our house. It all started when we discovered some documentaries on Netflix by David Reynolds, a Cambridge historian. I never knew much about World War I, but his series <em>The Long Shadow</em> is really interesting, because more than recounting the events of the war, he looks at how the war affected history for the next 50-60 years.</p>
<p>So when I came upon a review of <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/six-the-lives-of-the-mitford-sisters-9781250099532/62-0"><em>The Six: The Lives of the Mitford Sisters</em></a>, I was intrigued. These women came out to society during the interwar period and the six of them took dramatically different turns in their lives. Many of them met Hitler, one is a famous author, and several of them married either late or divorced early.</p>
<p>This is the type of history book I love to read, it reads almost like a novel at times and the picture painted of the various sisters is incredibly interesting. All six lived very different lives, but because they wrote letters to each other constantly throughout their lives, there is incredibly good documentation of what they all did.</p>
<p>Next on my list of reading is some of the novels by Nancy Mitford, because the glimpses I got of them through the author's quoting intrigued me, I haven't read much fiction from that time period, so want to give them a go. I also have on my list some more books on World War I, because I think that war and the decisions made after it, have haunted the world for years and right now we may be in the midst of repeating some of the nationalistic tendencies and mistakes of the 1920s.</p>
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<p>Indeed perhaps the most extraordinary aspect of the Mitfordian image is that it entrances and delights and at the same time contains so much that is not entrancing at all. Perhaps that is simply charm at work again, compelling people to overlook the lethal sympathies? (loc 320)</p>
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<p>This confidence of theirs – relaxed, diamond-hard – is fascinating. It particularly fascinates women. It is the confidence of the upper classes, embellished by femaleness: a kind of confidence that, for all their greater freedom, today’s women do not find it easy to possess. (loc 377)</p>
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<p>David was more liberal than most fathers; in no real way did he clamp down upon his daughters’ behaviour. This reactionary-cum-liberal attitude, this potent mixture of restraint and freedom, has been held responsible – in part at least – for the excesses of certain Mitford girls. And probably quite rightly. But it was more complicated than that: there were more factors at work. It was not David’s fault that he had so many daughters, that they were bright and mischievous and competitive, that they fought for the attention of a distant mother, that they came of age when the world went mad. (loc 1231)</p>
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<p>Nancy’s problem was her intelligence, of course, which at some point or another riled most of the men she knew (honourable exceptions included her brother and Evelyn Waugh). This would probably be true today – feminism notwithstanding, female cleverness is still most acceptable when it spouts orthodoxies, or in some way conforms to a type. Nancy, with her spry chic and lethal tongue, was a one-off. As such she was certainly never going to flower fully among the men of her youth. (loc 1632)</p>
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<p>Straightforward contentment was always going to be too easy for such a woman, who had been given every blessing without the obligation of payment. (loc 1891)</p>
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<p>Whether one likes it or not, a woman will always be blamed more than a man for the same transgression, unless she seeks forgiveness in appropriate self-abasing style. That is the way of the world. (loc 3864)</p>
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<p>Yet her spirit was unbowed: a very Mitford quality. They were brave women. They passed through calamitous events and remained themselves. Even Unity did, in so far as she was able. This was Sydney’s nature, although not David’s. Much of the fascination of the Mitford girls lies in this indestructible sense of One that they carried so lightly. (loc 3792)</p>
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<p>It was part of her gift to write the things that women think but do not bother, or dare, to express. And, as she would often do, Nancy used Sophia as a conduit for the easy worldly wisdom that she herself found so hard to achieve. (loc 3947)</p>
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<p>In telling her story, Nancy was also laying out her philosophy of life. Amid the furore that followed publication in December 1945 – in modern parlance, the book went viral – it took a John Betjeman (‘oh you clever old girl’) to perceive as much. Like all the best art it contained paradox at its heart, a slow-burn of elegiac melancholy set beside an abundant faith in joy. This was Nancy’s faith, the courageous belief that happiness was something that one could choose: it was lightly expressed, and most seriously meant. (loc 4865)</p>
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			<title>Stella by Starlight</title>
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			<updated>2016-09-14T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>This past weekend I was hunting through what has become a rather long wish list in my digital loan app from the library. I came across <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/stella-by-starlight-9781442494985/2-4"><em>Stella by Starlight</em></a> by Sharon M Draper and spent a few days reading. It's a book about segregation, the 1930s, men standing up for themselves, and a town that is not sure it wants to go as far as the KKK would want them to.</p>
<p>Stella is a delightful young girl who thinks a lot. I was drawn to her as I saw myself in her. She's trying to figure out how to write down all her ideas and finds going outside at night to think is the best way for her to practice writing and get better at it. But it quickly become apparent that being outside at night may not be safe for her, as the Klan has come to her small town of Bumblebee, North Carolina.</p>
<p>But what is so lovely about the book is the way in which so many of the white characters don't necessarily like the segregation and in their own ways are trying to fight against it. As the story continues and we see voting rights challenged and Stella's community come together during tragedy, that community includes whites. It is an uneasy relationship and one in which neither side quite knows how to navigate, but they are trying.</p>
<p>I think that's what I liked about this book. So many people were trying, be it Stella herself, the daughter of the rich white doctor in town, or the pastor of Stella's church.</p>

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			<title>Wizard of Earthsea</title>
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			<updated>2016-09-09T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I spent the past week reading a chapter or two a night before sleeping from Ursula Le Guin's <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/wizard-of-earthsea-9780547851396/62-0"><em>Wizard of Earthsea</em></a>. I spotted this book at our local Powells and didn't think I wanted to read it, but then happened on it again in the digital library app and decided to give it a try. I had no idea until I read the note from Le Guin at the end of the book that she wrote it upon request that she write something for young adults. I'm so glad she did.</p>
<p>If you've followed my reading here in the past year or so, then you know I love Le Guin and this book, while not exactly like the others I've read by her, was just as good. Ged is a young boy living in a world of islands when his local Mage realizes he has some natural abilities. Off he goes to the big city, so to speak, to learn how to be a wizard. He is arrogant, he is young, and I related to him quite a bit, which surprised me. But I saw my younger self in him in so many ways.</p>
<p>What I really enjoyed was how readable and easy it was to get into the story. I've been reading some things that are taking me longer and are darker in many ways and it was nice to take a break and just speed through a fun story. That's one reason I like to read young adult fiction, it's great stories and I learn things about the world, but I usually don't have to work quite as hard for it.</p>
<p>Also: if you read the book make sure you read Le Guin's note, because it is so amazing. She's amazing. And yes I still dream of running into her some time in Portland.</p>

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			<title>Urban Watercolor Sketching</title>
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				<p>Over the past 10 months I've been getting back into drawing and now, painting. It's been great for me, a way to do something that is completely away from the screen. And over that time I've picked up various books on both drawing and painting but none of them appealed once I started reading, so I never finished them. But this past week I sped through <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/urban-watercolor-sketching-a-guide-to-drawing-painting-storytelling-in-color-9780770435219/1-2"><em>Urban Watercolor Sketching</em></a> by Felix Scheinberger. I <em>really</em> enjoyed this book.</p>
<p>Scheinberger's style of writing is fantastic. He's relaxed and funny and the book is filled with information. He goes through color and color theory, he talks about the tools he carries to give you ideas on what you may want to use as well, and he goes through some specific techniques to finish it off. But what I liked more than anything was that he was suggesting most of the time. He didn't prescribe anything, but his wording was so great that it never felt like you <em>had</em> to do any of the things he suggested.</p>
<p>Many of his words were freeing for me, words I needed to hear. I'm doing this for my enjoyment, to get back into something I loved enough to study and work at for four years, paying to do so. Now, I want to learn, grow, enjoy, and find my way without all the shoulds that so often come into these things.</p>
<p>I also happen to love his sketching <a href="http://www.felixscheinberger.de/#hamburg">style</a> and the book is filled with his own illustrations that he uses to elaborate on various points. So, if you want to read about some art theory, some watercolor specific techniques, and get some thoughts from an experienced illustrator, give this a try.</p>
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<p>When you draw and conceive of something in paint, you are creating something new, something that until now was only ever inside your head. (p 87)</p>
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<p>So, if you want your picture to be meaningful, its subject should have meaning for you. If you have a personal or emotional relationship with your subject, this meaning will creep into your picture almost magically and will also reach its viewers. (p 88)</p>
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<p>Remember, great materials alone do not make a good painting. (p 92)</p>
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<p>If you plan to paint something, you should paint it for itself and not for the expectations of past generations. Seen in the light of day, a house in Provence may mean very little to you personally. It may look pretty, but is it just as important as your first love's house or the house you grew up in? (p 126)</p>
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<p>Some say, &quot;Art is synonymous with skill.&quot; I say, free yourself from that! In reality, skill comes from doing, and doing comes from trying. Good composition cannot be memorized. Try different things out as often as you can—your pictures will benefit from it! (p 129)</p>
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			<title>Berlin, Book One</title>
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				<p>I've been on a hold list to get a copy of <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/berlin-city-of-stones-book-1-9781896597294/2-9"><em>Berlin, Book One</em></a> by Jason Lutes for quite some time. For some reason whenever I'm on a long hold for a library book I assume that it will be good, because people want to read it. And I wasn't disappointed with this book. It tells the story of several people living in Berlin in the 1920s with many hints at the changes that were just starting to appear in German society.</p>
<p>First off, I love reading graphic novels about historic topics. There is something in the way that the artist can use the drawing and panels to convey so much more about the world they are creating. And the characters in this novel are quite interesting. It starts with a young girl moving to Berlin to take art classes and she meets a writer on the train as she arrives. We follow her as she acclimates to big city life. And then we also follow the story of a woman who leaves her husband to stand up for her Communist beliefs.</p>
<p>Even though the stories are told in vignettes that take place over a period of years, we start to get a sense of what is happening in the culture and why people are breaking into factions. And even though it is never explicitly talked about, you see the beginnings of the Nazi movement and it is fairly easy to see where it's all going.</p>
<p>Reading this during this particular political year was also interesting and gave me more than I was expecting to think about as I read. But then again, that's why I read, to learn more about this world by seeing different pieces of it.</p>

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			<title>Designing Interface Animation</title>
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				<p>I've been spending time with Val Head's new book <a href="http://rosenfeldmedia.com/books/designing-interface-animation/"><em>Designing Interface Animation: Meaningful Motion for User Experience</em></a> and it's so fantastic. I'm going to admit something here: I've never been all that intrigued by animations. I'm usually worrying about accessibility, performance and maintainable CSS so I haven't taken the time to learn and discover all the great things animation can do for a site.</p>
<p>Well, I'm intrigued now. Val starts at the very beginning with the classic principles of animation taken from the early work done at Disney and takes those and translates them into principles for animation on the web. I loved all the history and explanations of the various principles as it gave such a great foundation for the rest of the book. Val's tone when writing is so easy to read and it's like I'm chatting with her about this as I read, which I loved.</p>
<p>The real strength of this book are the examples. Val has mined the web to find good and bad examples of how to use animation in a site and it's great to see them all over the place in the book. And as I thought about animation and web sites as I was reading, I was also thinking about how the case is being made, very strongly, for how animation can increase the value of your site. Val argues for the business value of using animation, showing how it can help ease users through transactions and hopefully increase engagement.</p>
<p>And to wrap it up there is an entire chapter on accessibility and thinking about how motion may create difficulties for certain users and the ways in which you can account for that and help these users as you do your work. This is a great book. I learned a lot. Thank you so much for writing it Val!</p>
<p>Highlights below are from the epub version of the book broken up by chapter. NOTE: please remember that these are my highlights and that if you just read these, you've lost the context of the book, so I do recommend reading the book yourself.</p>
<h2>Introduction</h2>
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<p>Web animation is starting to come into its own, and every designer or developer who uses it in their work can influence what it will stand for in the future. You can have a hand in shaping what its new definition will be.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 1</h2>
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<p>Well-designed animation is becoming part of the definition of sophisticated, current, and trustworthy design.</p>
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<p>It feels easier because you, as the user, have to do less work to keep track of what’s happening on-screen—a huge advantage of well-designed animation.</p>
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<p>Physical things like gravity and friction don’t actually apply to animation on a screen, but you still evaluate the movement you see on-screen based on what you know of the real world.</p>
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<p>You can use animation as a way to connect these contexts and create a common feel across all mediums and contexts. In fact, it’s a very powerful one.</p>
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<p>When you have interface elements that animate in a similar manner on screens of all sizes or platforms, that’s one more thing that can remain constant, even while things like the layout may change.</p>
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<p>A key part of designing good UI animations is remembering that adding animation is an opportunity to communicate a little something more. Any motion you add is going to communicate something; it’s really more a question of whether it’s saying what you’d like it to say.</p>
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<p>Using it well, and with more positive intentions, gives you the ability to reinforce the hierarchy of content and to highlight what’s most important at a specific point in time.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 2</h2>
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<p>Users subconsciously pick up on cues about an object’s personality or the forces that might be acting on it, just by seeing it animate. Paying close attention to timing and spacing puts you in control of what your animations are saying, instead of leaving it up to chance.</p>
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<p>In the digital world, spacing is most often expressed by the easing or timing functions you use. You won’t be drawing individual frames yourself, but the browser or other rendering methods will be doing that for you under the hood.</p>
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<p>Paying attention to the timing and spacing of your animations will accelerate your animation skills exponentially. The mark of a good animator is a good sense of timing. That takes time to develop (no pun intended), but the more you animate, the better your sense of timing will become.</p>
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<p>Adding keyframes to the animation, in whatever language or tool you choose, gives you added control over the follow-through action, since you can manually adjust the easing used between each keyframe and explicitly spell out the change in position you want to see with the additional keyframe values. This approach will make it easier to add to the action by animating some child elements as well.</p>
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<p>Offsets create a subtle wave-like motion that is much more pleasing to the eye, while also reinforcing the independence of each item within the group.</p>
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<p>Very few movements in real life occur without some kind of anticipation hinting at what is about to happen next. That’s why using this principle in interfaces can help make movements seem more lifelike or relatable to your audience.</p>
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<p>...[H]any interface elements do have related elements, child elements, and elements that move together. Those are prime candidates for secondary action.</p>
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<p>Computers are very good at creating precise motion in straight lines. Nearly everything in real life, on the other hand, doesn’t move in precise straight lines at all. Most movements in real life follow a slightly curved path as opposed to a straight line, and that is the concept of arcs.</p>
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<p>...[E]mploying this principle even in small amounts injects a large amount of lifelike feeling to your work. Squash and stretch is one of the hardest principles to master and also an easy one to overdo.</p>
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<p>Slow in and slow out describes a specific variation of spacing that best reflects how things move organically in real life.</p>
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<p>When working in the digital space, you may never have to create slow in and slow out manually, but it’s important to be aware of when and how your tools are making these decisions for you.</p>
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<p>Exaggeration is a useful way to make just that little bit more effort to get a user’s attention when you really need it.</p>
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<p>Appeal is what makes a character or object in an animation interesting—what draws you to it and makes it appealing to watch or look at. The way you design the items you’ll be animating can add to their appeal.</p>
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<p>Storytelling isn’t always something that applies to interface animations, but the idea of making sure that the main action is clear certainly is.</p>
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<p>Look for styles of animation that resonate the most with you, or for the projects you’re working on, and identify which principles they use most often and how.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 3</h2>
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<p>The way your animations behave during an interaction affects how your users perceive them just as much as how they look.</p>
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<p>The very first rule of interface animation is that all interface animations must have a purpose for being there.</p>
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<p>The only purpose I’d say isn’t allowed is “delight” all on its own. Delight isn’t something that can be created by animation alone.</p>
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<p>Good interface animations need to be flexible and always feel responsive to a user’s input even if the animation is currently animating.</p>
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<p>The fact that the animation responds to their input, no matter when they give it, makes the interaction the kind of conversation that they want to continue. It builds trust by always appearing to be listening to them and by never making users feel like they’re being ignored.</p>
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<p>Good timing is more an art than a science. Thinking in terms of guidelines, as opposed to hard-and-fast rules, will serve you much better in your design work.</p>
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<p>Readability should be your standard for judging the timing of your interface animations, instead of one single duration that’s used for all animation.</p>
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<p>It’s often difficult to judge the timing of your own animation objectively, so an outside opinion can be very helpful.</p>
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<p>The more animation experience you gain, the better your timing instincts will become. You’ll start picking durations that feel right sooner and develop your own rules of thumb for animating. Timing is more of an art than a science. The more you do it, the better you’ll be at it.</p>
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<p>Try to match the complexity of the technology you choose to the complexity of your animation needs to avoid unnecessary performance strain.</p>
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<p>Perceived performance is harder to measure because it is less concrete than fps, but it is often the best benchmark to use, because the difference between 50fps and 60fps may not be perceivable to your audiences in the context of your project or the task at hand.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 4</h2>
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<p>The model of how the menu objects are related in space has been revealed to them in a way that requires no more effort than to observe the movement on-screen. Their brainpower is saved for more important tasks.</p>
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<p>Animated layer transitions use that metaphor to create a shared understanding of space. It’s a very effective technique to establish layers within an interface, even when the layering is more complex and more than two layers are used.</p>
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<p>Using animation to keep users on task, and to provide a hint to what comes next, can help users complete the task more easily.</p>
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<p>Using animation to visually smooth out and inform context changes can reduce the chances of disorienting users by making the context change play out in plain view and guiding the eye through the shift.</p>
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<p>Visual persistence is very useful for showing continuity.</p>
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<p>Good animation can never make up for poor design, but it can absolutely enhance good design decisions and make them even better.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 5</h2>
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<p>Nearly all of the web animation we’ve been exposed to until recently has been poorly executed and has exploited the power of animation to annoy and distract.</p>
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<p>Much like you might use a contrasting color in your color palette to denote important content, you can use contrasting easing to do the same.</p>
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<p>The key is creating a palette of easing for your project and using it to create contrast and hierarchy, much like you might do with a color palette. Creating a palette that includes both complementary and contrasting options and using them consistently throughout the design system adds an extra layer of polish and cohesiveness to your design.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 6</h2>
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<p>Showing causality is very much related to the concept of giving feedback, although they are separated in this book because the timing of the information and the kind of information shown for each differs slightly. Cause and effect shows the potential effects of what could happen or what has happened during an interaction. Feedback, on the other hand, lets users know that something has taken place behind the scenes based on their actions.</p>
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<p>The easiest way to remember it is to think of affordances as the possibility of an action that can be taken with an object.</p>
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<p>Using animation to reveal and offer options as they’re needed can work to cue users as to what the next step could be based on their recent actions.</p>
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<p>To be sure that your animations are demonstrating cause and effect well, prototype often and iterate on the animations and interactions until you’ve reached a combination that feels pleasurable to use and fits well with the other interactions in your app or site.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 7</h2>
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<p>Their small experiment found that participants were more willing to wait for custom loading animations than generic loading animations. And participants were even more willing to wait for loaders with novel and engaging animations.</p>
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<p>Both the research on loading animations and the potential perceived performance gains are very convincing evidence to consider designing a more creative loader solution when wait times must occur. A more creative solution that hints at the content to come, could mean the wait times are perceived as taking less time by focusing on the progress being made.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 9</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Each animation in an interface tells a micro story, and as a user encounters more and more animations throughout your site or product, these micro stories add up to reveal the personality and story of the brand or product behind them. The animations create an impression; they give your brand a certain personality. It’s up to us as designers to take control of the combined story that animations are telling about the brand we’re working on. Your animations will be much more effective if you intentionally design the additional messages they’re sending.</p>
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<p>...[H]aving a website is enough of a reason to need a motion style guide these days.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 10</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>The earlier in the process animation comes up, the greater the chances that it will be purposeful and make it to the final product.</p>
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<p>At some point in your career, you’ve probably fought for the importance of design in a project because you know that design is so much more than just decoration. Purposeful animation needs to be fought for in the same way.</p>
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<blockquote>
<p>Even a roughly drawn storyboard on a white board can save time in meetings by presenting a shared visual document of what’s being discussed for everyone to participate. The fast and messy nature of hand-drawn storyboards can show that the idea is still open for input and development.</p>
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<blockquote>
<p>When you’re creating prototypes, you take a deeper look at how animations can inform the interaction at hand and start getting into details, like what action triggers an animation, how the animation will be timed, how one object on-screen may influence another, and what each individual animation might look like.</p>
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<blockquote>
<p>Having your team’s animation design decisions documented and easy to access means there’s a greater chance of having a cohesive experience for your users.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Communication between those responsible for designing the animations and those responsible for building the animations is especially key. Storyboards, prototypes, and documentation are all meant to turn design ideas and decisions into tangible, visual artifacts to keep the conversation going along the way. But don’t forget that the conversation itself is the most important part.</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 11</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Smart prototyping means matching the prototype you make to the information you need.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 12</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Different people have different conditions and reactions, of course, but the potential triggers are more nuanced than just assuming any or all animation will be problematic. There are three factors in particular that play a big part: the relative size of the animation(s), the direction of movement, and the perceived distance an animated object covers.</p>
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<h2>Conclusion</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>No other medium but the web has the potential to create animation that is accessible, responsive, and progressively enhanced all at the same time.</p>
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			<title>Practical SVG</title>
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			<updated>2016-08-08T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>If you've ever seen Chris Coyier speak at a conference, you know how deep his knowledge of SVGs is and how entertaining he makes learning about them. His book, <a href="https://abookapart.com/products/practical-svg"><em>Practical SVG</em></a>, is no different in that respect. I could hear Chris' voice in my head as I was reading, I could feel his enthusiasm, and I got super excited to learn more about and play around with SVGs.</p>
<p>This book lives up to its title so well. It is extremely practical. Chris' nuts and bolts introduction to exactly how SVGs work, is so great. But it doesn't stop there, he goes on to talk about fallbacks, accessibility, and designing with them. I learned so much in this short book, which is not unexpected from an A Book Apart book, but it is so great how they come through every time. And now I want to get my hands on Illustrator, scan in some of my own drawings, and start playing around to see what I can do with SVG.</p>
<p>Well done Chris! And thank you for writing.</p>
<p>My highlights are below, broken up by chapter since I read the epub and page numbers are meaningless.</p>
<h2>Introduction</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>The only time this rationale breaks down is if a vector image becomes too complicated, and consequently the file size of the SVG becomes too big to be practical. Does the image consist of three combined circles? That’s about as simple as it gets. Is the image an oak tree with hundreds of detailed leaves? That means a lot of complexity and therefore a large file size.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 1</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>SVG and all of its descendant shapes are “in the DOM,” as they say. This means that you have the same access and control over them that you would over a <code>div</code> or <code>h3</code> or any other element. We could give our robot pretty red kneepads in CSS, have it talk when you click its mouth, dance when you hover over it, or just about anything else you can imagine. SVG used as <code>img</code> or <code>background-image</code> can’t be controlled in this way, nor can it link to any other outside assets, like a stylesheet.</p>
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<blockquote>
<p>...there’s always a way to handle a fallback. That’s all just part of the job, web buddies.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 2</h2>
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<p>But I think it’s really cool that the source code of SVG is intelligible. You <em>can</em> learn it and work with it, and there is some benefit to that.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 3</h2>
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<p>The <code>g</code> tag in SVG is like a <code>div</code> in HTML: it doesn’t do much by itself other than group the things inside it. It’s mostly useful for referencing and applying styles that can affect everything together.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>A defs tag essentially says, “SVG, don’t try to actually draw any of the stuff inside this tag; I’m just defining it to use later.” The SVG element itself will still try to render, though, so let’s make sure it doesn’t do that by shrinking it to nothing. Using <code>width=&quot;0&quot;</code> and <code>height=&quot;0&quot;</code> or <code>display=&quot;none&quot;</code> is better than using CSS to hide the SVG; CSS takes longer to process, and <code>style=&quot;display: none;&quot;</code> can have weird consequences, like failing to work at all on some iOS devices.</p>
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<blockquote>
<p>These values are a pretty cool little trick! Instead of explicitly styling the SVG, we make it size and color itself to match the font properties. If we drop that SVG into a <code>button</code>, it will absorb the styles already happening in that button and style itself accordingly.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>We also used a <code>title</code> attribute to make sure we had basic screen-reader accessibility covered. We can shift the responsibility for both <code>title</code> and <code>viewbox</code> to the <code>symbol</code> element. Plus, SVG already knows not to draw symbol elements; it knows you are just defining them to <code>use</code> (actually draw) later.</p>
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<p>This still might look like a lot of code just to draw an icon, but it’s comparable to any other icon-drawing technique, especially when you consider what you get from this method. Semantically, our markup says, “This is an image icon.” Screen readers can announce whatever we want them to (“@CoolCompany on Twitter,” for example), or nothing at all if that’s more appropriate. We also get resolution independence. We get the ability to style the icon through CSS, and every other advantage of inline SVG, because that’s exactly what we’re using. Imagine trying to get all that functionality from, say, icon fonts—it would be difficult for some features and impossible for others!</p>
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<h2>Chapter 4</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>One thing we can have a build tool do for us is create an SVG sprite—that chunk of SVG <code>symbols</code> I introduced in the last chapter—automatically from a folder of separate SVG images.</p>
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<p>You aren’t limited to the icons on the IcoMoon site; you can import your own. You can also create an account so that you can save your projects, making it easy to come back and add/remove/adjust icons and reexport them.</p>
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<blockquote>
<p>The SVG images are converted into a <em>data URL</em> and put directly into the stylesheet. We’ll cover data URLs momentarily, but in a nutshell: a data URL is literally the SVG itself, specially encoded and turned into a long string right inside the URL. All the drawing information is right there; no network request is required to go get anything else. In that sense, the stylesheet is your sprite, because all the icons are combined into one request and can be used on demand.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 5</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>A typical SVG workflow involves doing the design work in what you might think of as a master-editable version of an image, and then exporting and processing an optimized version to use on the web. Having a file-naming convention (icon-menu-master.svg and icon-menu.svg, say) or keeping the versions in separate folders is a good way to stay organized as you work.</p>
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<p>Here’s the deal with command-line tools like SVGO: I’m not afraid of them. None of us should be afraid of them. Designers often get accused of being afraid by people who feel more comfortable with the command line.</p>
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<blockquote>
<p>Listen. If an alternative interface does the same thing but is more comfortable for you and more in line with the rest of the work you’re doing, why not use it? It’s not a cop-out; it’s a responsible choice. If it works for you, do it.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 6</h2>
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<p>The <code>x</code> and <code>Y</code> parts of that value are followed by <code>Min</code>, <code>Mid</code>, or <code>Max</code>. The reason SVG normally centers in the viewport is because it has a default value of <code>xMidYMid</code>. If you change that to <code>xMaxYMax</code>, it tells the SVG: <em>Make sure you go horizontally as far to the right as you can, and vertically as far to the bottom as you can. Then be as big as you can be without cutting off</em>.</p>
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<p>The <code>background-size</code> property has two keywords it can take: <code>contain</code> and <code>cover</code>. The <code>contain</code> value means “make sure this entire image is viewable, even if you have to shrink it,” which makes it just like<code> meet</code>. The <code>cover</code> value means “make sure this covers the entire area, even if you have to cut parts off,” which makes it just like <code>slice</code>.</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 7</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>The fact that SVG goes so well with HTML, CSS, and JavaScript is a good reason for SVG to be in every front-end developer’s toolbox.</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 8</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Beyond drawing and animating shapes, SVG has several features that can alter how the image ends up looking.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>While CSS filters may be a bit easier to use, SVG filters can do anything that CSS filters can, and with deeper browser support.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>The <code>pattern</code> element provides the magic here. It’s an element designed to be used as a fill that will repeat over and over in a grid, like CSS <code>background-images</code> can. A <code>pattern</code> is essentially a <code>rect.</code> It takes the same attributes: <code>x</code>, <code>y</code>, <code>width</code>, and <code>height</code>. The difference is that it doesn’t render all by itself, just like the <code>symbol</code> element we used back in Chapter 3! You give it an ID so other elements can reference it.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>What is especially useful about working with patterns in Illustrator is that we aren’t limited to the repeating rectangles. You can define a pattern with offset rectangles (like a brick wall) or a grid of hexagons. This opens up some pretty cool pattern opportunities (read: almost any design set in repeating hexagons looks cool). SVG still only supports repeating rectangles through <code>pattern</code>, but that’s precisely what is wonderful about Illustrator: it does the hard work for you of converting that pattern to one that can be represented as a rectangular tile, such that it can be drawn with <code>pattern</code>.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>With SVG, design effects can be combined and recombined infinitely.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>What I’ve tried to do is introduce you to a bunch of possibilities, so that the next time you’re all, &quot;I wonder if I could make a graphic of Susan Kare skateboarding through the screen of an old Macintosh icon shooting a laser beam at a hamburger icon and it blows up into a big rainbow,” your brain will be like: “I got some ideas.”</p>
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<h2>Chapter 9</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Now, a string of text typically isn’t sufficient to explain a chart full of information. So perhaps you could use JavaScript to build an SVG chart from data in the form of a <code>table</code> that, though visually hidden, is still available for AT. That way, the user will experience it either as a perfectly useful table, or as an SVG chart from that same data. You can even use that same table of data to build different types of visualization as needed.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>An accessibility checklist like this can be valuable: it gets you thinking about accessibility, and sends you off and running in the right direction. I would warn against thinking of a checklist as a “just do these things and then wipe your hands of it” reflex, however.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>...I think it’s pretty dang rewarding knowing that our graphics are as helpful as they can be to anybody using our sites.</p>
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			<title>Lathe of Heaven</title>
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			<updated>2016-08-05T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>One of the reasons I love reading books by Ursula Le Guin is that her stories help me understand more about the world I live in. The way she frames things that may be completely different than Earth, help me understand more about myself as well. It's always amazing and I always set books down by her after finishing thinking, &quot;Dang, she did it again.&quot; <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/lathe-of-heaven-sf-masterworks-44-9781857989519/66-0"><em>Lathe of Heaven</em></a> was no different.</p>
<p>Originally published in 1971, this book is a near future dystopian look at the world by focusing on one city, Portland, Oregon. My city, I knew all the places and names to which Le Guin referred as she created this world. This made the book even more interesting. But the focus of the book is George Orr who has effective dreams, his dreams change reality and history. He is sent to a psychologist who believes him and starts to direct his dreams to change the world the way he thinks it should be. He believes he's making the world &quot;better&quot; for everyone.</p>
<p>It is a fascinating look at what is &quot;better&quot; and how flipping a switch to change things <em>may</em> not be the best option. This book was especially fantastic to read during the current election, because I so wish I could flip a switch and change so many things. I don't want to say more other than read it!</p>
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<p>There is a bird in a poem by T. S. Eliot who says that mankind cannot bear very much reality; but the bird is mistaken. A man can endure the entire weight of reality of the universe for eighty years. It is unreality that he cannot bear.</p>
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			<title>James Bond: VARGR</title>
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			<updated>2016-08-04T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm a massive James Bond fan. Some of this is due to the person I married, he's a massive fan and has won me over to the classic Sean Connery Bonds. But we still watch all the movies, we own the original novels, and now I've read a comic based on the character. When I saw that one of my favorite comic book writers had done a series on James Bond, I was there. <a href="https://www.comixology.com/James-Bond/comics-series/58295"><em>VARGR</em></a>, volume one of a James Bond 007 series by Warren Ellis, did not disappoint.</p>
<p>I raced through the volume over the past two nights and was somewhat surprised how much I liked it. I wasn't sure how the classic Bond would translate to comic form, but with Ellis at the helm it did just that. The tone, the lines, the writing, it all was perfectly Bond and it was fantastic brain candy. <em>Exactly</em> what I needed right now.</p>
<p>I'm not gonna lie, the news, the election, the world right now is a hard place to be. I've been escaping it all by not being around on social media as much (sorry Twitter friends) and by reading voraciously and drawing up a storm in my various sketchbooks. Thank you Warren Ellis and Jason Masters for helping me get away, laugh, and feel like I wasn't in this place for a while. This is why I read as much as I do, more so than even watching a movie, reading transports my mind wholesale away from where I am and in many cases helps me see the world differently when I'm done.</p>

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			<title>The flag</title>
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			<updated>2016-07-28T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>This past weekend my neighbor stopped over to talk to me about something as I was putting out our garbage. As he was walking away he said, &quot;Nice flags, you gonna put out a Trump sign now?&quot;</p>
<p>I've been thinking about that ever since it happened. The assumptions that were made by me having small US flags in the flower pots that are lining our walkway. I put them there in June, in honor of flag day.</p>
<p>In the web industry we talk a lot about not assuming, being careful about what you think people will and won't do when it comes to how they will use a site or application you are making. Heck, I've even <a href="https://www.susanjeanrobertson.com/geekery/assumptions/">written</a> about it.</p>
<p>I believe that those assumptions are all around us and we do it all day long. Many people call them biases that we have that we need to work hard to recognize. And I regularly catch myself doing it.</p>
<p>A month or so ago I was working in my front yard, not really paying a lot of attention to what was going on around me, until I heard a car stop quickly and looked up. An older man had fallen on the sidewalk down the block and a car of young men had stopped to help him. They helped him up, they were attentive to him, and they made sure he made it into his car OK (yes, I was frightened he was even driving).</p>
<p>But here's the thing about that entire episode, if I'd seen those three young men walking down the sidewalk I would <em>never</em> have assumed they would stop and be so kind to an older man in distress. I made assumptions about their character based on what they were wearing and their age. I'm not proud of this, but I'm trying to change. Recognizing that I did it is a big part of that.</p>
<p>So when I think about the assumptions we make about people who have an American flag in their yard, I get upset. It's a difficult year politically in the US and I don't think it's going to get any better any time soon. Change is hard, confronting years of difficulty and history that hasn't been the greatest for a lot of people is hard. But assuming we know what someone thinks or how they vote based on having a flag in their yard isn't helping us.</p>
<p>John Stewart, in his <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mNiqpBNE9ik">rebuttal to the RNC</a> last week when he appeared on Stephen Colbert's show, said this:</p>
<blockquote>
<p>This country isn’t yours. You don’t own it. It never was. There is no real America. You don’t own it. You don’t own patriotism. You don’t own Christianity. You sure as hell don’t own respect for the bravery and sacrifice of military, police and firefighters.</p>
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<p>I would argue that liberals don't own it either, we all own it. Patriotism and the way in which we choose to express it or not, is our own. Many people see difficult things when they look at the flag, they see years of oppression and difficult history and it being used as a weapon against them.</p>
<p>When I look at a small flag lining a walkway or in a flower pot I think of two things. First I think of my mom, she pulled out all the stops every year for flag day, flying a large American flag and lining our walkway with smaller versions.</p>
<p>Second, I think of being a little girl and learning the history of my family as I stood next to graves of men I barely knew or didn't know at all as we placed flowers and a small flag for Memorial Day. They had all served in World War I, my grandfather and his brothers, and I listened as my mom and aunts talked about the people who came before me, the people who are a part of who I am today.</p>
<p>And as I go forward through what is a depressing and difficult year, I’m trying hard to remember that I don’t really know what someone thinks or who they are based on outside visual cues. And that assuming I do usually leads to trouble.</p>

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			<title>Lumberjanes</title>
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			<updated>2016-07-28T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I spent some time on the porch this weekend, reading <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Lumberjanes-Vol-1/digital-comic/214066"><em>Lumberjanes</em></a> and am so glad I did. It's a great first volume of a comic, with funny lines, fantastic characters, and interesting unexpected events. One of the authors wrote <em>Nimona</em>, which is still in the running for the best book of 2016 for me.</p>
<p>Lumberjanes are a group of cabin mates at summer camp together, as it says, &quot;for hard core lady types.&quot; And through the adventures of these campers we learn of some secret evil doings. The &quot;adults&quot; in their lives are also wacky but lovable. And in the group of girls we see them taking care of each other, none of them fitting into any stereotype; they are smart, funny, interesting, and lovable.</p>
<p>Do you know a girl who needs something like this in her life? I highly recommend picking it up for her.</p>

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			<title>100 days of small self portraits</title>
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			<updated>2016-07-27T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Well, this is it, another <a href="https://www.flickr.com/photos/susanjeanrobertson/albums/72157667465829943">100 day project</a> is finished. And, to be quite honest, I'm so ready for it to be done. I started to tire of this one around day 50 or so, but then with my new <a href="https://www.flickr.com/photos/susanjeanrobertson/albums/72157669460496670">pattern drawing project</a> in July felt another surge of interest in self portraits. But the last 10 have been hard, extremely hard.</p>
<figure>
    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/100days-2016/4-sm.jpg 480w, 
                 /images/build/posts/100days-2016/4-md.jpg 800w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/100days-2016/4-sm.jpg" alt="Day 4">
    <figcaption>Day 4</figcaption>
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<p>Here's what I will say about this though, I learned A LOT. I learned a lot about pushing through. I learned a lot about how to keep a subject going even if it isn't exactly what you want to do, and I learned about how to figure out ways to make it fresh.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/100days-2016/49-sm.jpg 480w, 
                 /images/build/posts/100days-2016/49-md.jpg 800w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/100days-2016/49-sm.jpg" alt="Day 49">
    <figcaption>Day 49</figcaption>
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<p>I also became obsessed with certain mediums, and I came back to them again and again. Pencil, especially a jumbo 6B, became a favorite that I returned to again and again. I got a Kuretake pen from Art Snacks and that became a quick favorite as well, quick line drawings.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/100days-2016/51-sm.jpg 480w, 
                 /images/build/posts/100days-2016/51-md.jpg 800w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/100days-2016/51-sm.jpg" alt="Day 51">
    <figcaption>Day 51</figcaption>
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<p>I also tried out different styles and stopped worrying about if it was real &quot;art&quot; or not. I just drew, especially on the days where I didn't want to draw at all.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/100days-2016/58-sm.jpg 480w, 
                 /images/build/posts/100days-2016/58-md.jpg 800w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/100days-2016/58-sm.jpg" alt="Day 58">
    <figcaption>Day 58</figcaption>
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<p>And I experimented with more than just the face. I did some that included more body, even though I don't feel exactly comfortable drawing that right now.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/100days-2016/66-sm.jpg 480w, 
                 /images/build/posts/100days-2016/66-md.jpg 800w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/100days-2016/66-sm.jpg" alt="Day 66">
    <figcaption>Day 66</figcaption>
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<p>But, I went back, again and again, to simple ink or sketchy pencil. It is my favorite and it was how I enjoyed drawing these. The biggest take away from doing two 100 days projects now is that whatever I chose to do I have to be able to complete it in 5 minutes if necessary. Life can be busy, so to do something every day, I've learned it needs to be able to be done quickly to fit it into the busy days. I've seen this with my other daily drawing monthly projects as well.</p>
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                 /images/build/posts/100days-2016/92-md.jpg 800w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/100days-2016/92-sm.jpg" alt="Day926">
    <figcaption>Day 92</figcaption>
</figure>
<p>I already have a monthly drawing plan for August. I don't know if I'll do 100 days ever again. I enjoyed last year a lot, but this year, after doing monthly themes, 100 days got very long for me.</p>
<p>Side note: I used Instagram for this, but then also uploaded my images to Flickr as well. I'll be leaving Instagram behind now as during these 100 days they implemented their algorithm and it ruined the experience of the app. Interactions dropped off, which is the whole reason I joined Instagram in the first place. But more than anything else, I'm tired of companies thinking they know what I want to see rather than leaving it up to me.</p>

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			<title>H is for Hawk</title>
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			<updated>2016-07-25T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I can't remember who recommended <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/h-is-for-hawk-9781594139314/62-0"><em>H is for Hawk</em></a> first, but it finally felt like the right time to read it and it was indeed. Over the course of the past week or so I've been spending time with Helen MacDonald and her hawk Mabel as she works through the grief of losing her father and trains Mabel.</p>
<p>MacDonald interweaves her story with the story of <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/T._H._White">T.H. White</a> and his story of training a goshawk. She also delves into the history of falconry, which is something I knew nothing about but it was fascinating to read the bits and pieces she refers to throughout the memoir.</p>
<p>But the story is about Mabel, MacDonald's goshawk, and how through training her MacDonald works through her grief. In many ways through training Mabel, MacDonald dives into a wildness of her own and comes out the other side.</p>
<p>What made this book even better for me is that MacDonald is a beautiful writer. Her use of words stopped me reading to reread a passage or phrase. Maybe some day I will write half as well.</p>
<p>My highlights, from the kindle version of the book which I borrowed from my local library are below:</p>
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<p>‘Mabel.’ I say the word out loud to her and watch her watching me say it. My mouth shapes the word. ‘Mabel.’ And as I say it, it strikes me that all those people outside the window who shop and walk and cycle and go home and eat and love and sleep and dream – all of them have names. And so do I.‘Helen,’ I say. How strange it sounds. How very strange. I put another piece of meat on my glove and the hawk leans down and eats. (loc 1469)</p>
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<p>I’m standing there, my sorry human eyes overwhelmed by light and detail, while the hawk watches everything with the greedy intensity of a child filling in a colouring book, scribbling joyously, blocking in colour, making the pages its own. And all I can think is, I want to go back inside. (loc 1635)</p>
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<p>...because I am beginning to see that for some people a hawk on the hand of a stranger urges confession, urges confidences, lets you speak words about hope and home and heart. And I realise, too, that in all my days of walking with Mabel the only people who have come up and spoken to us have been outsiders:... (loc 1815)</p>
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<p>I had a fixed idea of what a goshawk was, just as those Victorian falconers had, and it was not big enough to hold what goshawks are. No one had ever told me goshawks played. It was not in the books. I had not imagined it was possible. I wondered if it was because no one had ever played with them. The thought made me terribly sad. (loc 1887)</p>
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<p>When I was small I’d loved falconry’s historical glamour. I treasured it in the same way children treasure the hope that they might be like the children in books: secretly magical, part of some deeper, mysterious world that makes them something out of the ordinary. But that was a long time ago. I did not feel like that any more. I was not training a hawk because I wished to feel special. I did not want the hawk to make me feel I was striding righteously across the lands of my long-lost ancestors. I had no use for history, no use for time at all. I was training the hawk to make it all disappear. (loc 1943)</p>
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<p>We carry the lives we’ve imagined as we carry the lives we have, and sometimes a reckoning comes of all of the lives we have lost. (loc 2143)</p>
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<p>...closed my eyes against the glare and remembered the spider silk. I had walked all over it and had not seen it. I had not known it was there. It struck me then that perhaps the bareness and wrongness of the world was an illusion; that things might still be real, and right, and beautiful, even if I could not see them – that if I stood in the right place, and was lucky, this might somehow be revealed to me. (loc 2476)</p>
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<p>The archaeology of grief is not ordered. It is more like earth under a spade, turning up things you had forgotten. Surprising things come to light: not simply memories, but states of mind, emotions, older ways of seeing the world. (loc 3200)</p>
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<p>I know now what those dreams in spring had meant, the ones of a hawk slipping through a rent in the air into another world. I’d wanted to fly with the hawk to find my father; find him and bring him home. (loc 3551)</p>
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<p>I don’t have both sides. I only have wildness. And I don’t need wildness any more. I’m not stifled by domesticity. I have none. There is no need, right now, to feel close to a fetch of dark northern woods, a creature with baleful eyes and death in her foot. Human hands are for holding other hands. Human arms are for holding other humans close. They’re not for breaking the necks of rabbits, pulling loops of viscera out onto leaf-litter while the hawk dips her head to drink blood from her quarry’s chest cavity. I watch all these things going on and my heart is salt. (loc 3567)</p>
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<p>What happened over the years of my expeditions as a child was a slow transformation of my landscape over time into what naturalists call a local patch, glowing with memory and meaning. Mabel is doing the same. She is making the hill her own. Mine. Ours. (loc 3904)</p>
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<p>Sitting by the window staring out at the sliding river, I begin to wonder if home can be anywhere, just as the wild can be at its fiercest in a run of suburban back-lots, and a hawk might find a lookout perch on a children’s play-frame more useful than one on the remotest pine. (loc 4085)</p>
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<p>We are very bad at scale. The things that live in the soil are too small to care about; climate change too large to imagine. We are bad at time, too. We cannot remember what lived here before we did; we cannot love what is not. Nor can we imagine what will be different when we are dead. (loc 4299)</p>
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<p>I’m in a contemplative mood. I’d brought the hawk into my world and then I pretended I lived in hers. Now it feels different: we share our lives happily in all their separation. I look down at my hands. There are scars on them now. Thin white lines. One is from her talons when she’d been fractious with hunger; it feels like a warning made flesh. Another is a blackthorn rip from the time I’d pushed through a hedge to find the hawk I’d thought I’d lost. And there were other scars, too, but they were not visible. They were the ones she’d helped mend, not make. (loc 4474)</p>
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			<title>The Xenogenesis Series</title>
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			<updated>2016-07-17T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I just finished reading the final book of The Xenogenesis Series by Octavia Butler, also known as <em>Lilith's Brood</em>. It is <em>amazing</em>. So much about how she talks about humans and their innate tendencies is appropriate for what is happening in the world right now, it was so helpful to read at this moment in time.</p>
<p>The first book, <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/dawn-9780446603775/61-1"><em>Dawn</em></a> begins with Lilith awakening in a strange place with a strange being. And the story moves on with <em>Adulthood Rites</em> and finishes in <em>Imago</em>. All three stories focus on different portions of the story of reinhabiting Earth after a horrible war with the help of an alien species.</p>
<p>But what I was drawn to was the fear of the &quot;other&quot; that Butler captures so well. The aliens see humans has having an conflict inside themselves between intelligence and hierarchy and I've been thinking about that now for weeks as I've read the books. Butler sees so much good in humanity but also so much bad and she shows the ways in which humans can go either direction.</p>
<p>I don't want to spoil the story for anyone, but it is fascinating to see how humans react to the aliens and how they attempt to recreate the Earth they knew, the Earth in which they destroyed themselves in war. And Lilith is the main character through which we see all of this. She makes choices, she helps the aliens, but then also feels horrible doing it. And humanity itself changes, it will never be the same, but it's fascinating and complex to see how that is worked out.</p>
<p>Butler has written a story that will have me thinking for a long time. And it was the perfect story to read during the tumult that continues to roil throughout this year.</p>

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			<title>Using WebPageTest</title>
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			<updated>2016-07-12T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>In my continuing quest to learn more about web performance, I just finished reading <a href="http://shop.oreilly.com/product/0636920033592.do"><em>Using WebPageTest</em></a> by Rick Viscomi, Andy Davies, and Marcel Duran. As I learned in a recent <a href="https://bocoup.com/weblog/criticalcss-in-action">project</a>, <a href="http://www.webpagetest.org">WebPageTest</a> is super useful and I was eager to learn more about it, especially since the book came recommended by a <a href="https://twitter.com/dirtystylus/status/730062022352642048">trusted source</a>.</p>
<p>I set about to go through the book and while reading I also played around with some tests and digging into the features. And this book goes in depth into all the things you can do with the tool, which I gotta say: it's impressive. All the ways in which you can test a site to get so much data about performance is great.</p>
<p>But the strength of the book is also helping you think about the best ways to test given specific user data. The authors go through how you can collect that data to make sure you are using WebPageTest in as much the same way your users use your website as possible. This book is worth the read. The final section gets extremely technical, so I will admit I skimmed through that as I don't know that I'll ever set up my own instance of WebPageTest, but the first two sections were so great. I feel much better equipped to use the tool and help clients see where problems are happening in their sites.</p>
<p>I read the epub version of the book and since page numbers change depending on your font settings and screen size, I have things broken up by chapter for my highlights. Since this is a more technical book I didn't highlight as much as usual, but this will definite be a reference I return to when on client projects.</p>
<h2>Chapter 1</h2>
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<p>Tools like WebPageTest are considered to be synthetic because of their artificial testing environments. Akin to a clean room in a laboratory, WebPageTest gives its testers granular control over many of the variables that contribute to performance changes, such as geographic location and type of network connection. By making these variables constant, the root causes of poor frontend performance can be more easily identified and measured.</p>
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<p>For attempting to determine the overall speed of a page, it’s clear that RUM is the appropriate solution because it accurately represents the performance of actual users. When starting out with WebPageTest, one pitfall is to assume that the synthetic results are like real-user metrics. The reality, however, is that synthetic tools are deliberately designed to focus on the performance of a web page under strict conditions that are otherwise highly volatile in real-user performance.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 2</h2>
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<p>As easy as it is to see network silence in a waterfall diagram, WebPageTest is not equipped to identify the underlying problem by default. As with the problem of a long first-byte time, the tool is great at showing that there is a problem but additional tools are necessary to determine what the problem actually is. In the case of network silence, a profiler is required.</p>
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<p>The WebPageTest grades, on the other hand, are a set of web performance must-haves to which most, if not all, pages should adhere.</p>
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<h2>Summary of Part 1</h2>
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<p>In the web performance testing version of “show and tell,” the filmstrip and video serve as the tangible parts of the performance story. They can’t do it alone, though, so we use these tools in addition to the cold hard metrics and waterfall charts to tell the complete story.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 5</h2>
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<p>By linking user data like IP address with page data, the services are able to interpolate patterns such as navigation flow through a website. RUM services are also capable of handling application-specific data.</p>
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<p>Adding a RUM service to your website gives you the ability to not only monitor performance but also capture valuable information about who your users are. And because RUM constantly ingests live data, you can see how users change the way they access your site over time.</p>
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<p>By leveraging software that aggregates real-user demographics, you’re able to determine the most accurate settings to represent your visitors.</p>
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<p>Optimizing the synthetic experience will more likely translate to an optimized real-user experience when you’re able to focus on the issues that actually affect them.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 6</h2>
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<p>This has become the universal truth of web development; users can and will access the web however they are able. In recent years, the freedom of accessibility has become less about “taking back the Web” by choice of browser and more about convenience of access with mobile devices.</p>
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<p>Despite these limitations, there is still something to be learned from emulation. Especially when mobile tests are compared against straightforward desktop tests, egregious “mobile-unfriendly” anti-patterns can be spotted.</p>
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<p>WebPageTest accommodates this discrepancy by changing the way the desktop test agent is able to communicate over the network. This technique, called traffic shaping, allows test agents to simulate slow connection speeds.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 8</h2>
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<p>It’s worth noting that when you run a SPOF test, nothing may actually go wrong. This is a good thing! This means that your page is adequately prepared to handle the sudden failure of a third-party resource.</p>
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			<title>The Burgess Boys</title>
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			<updated>2016-07-11T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm behind on writing up the books I've been reading, but over the 4th of July weekend I read Elizabeth Strout's <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/burgess-boys-9780812979510/1-10"><em>The Burgess Boys</em></a> and it was a lovely holiday weekend jaunt into a family's life that was both difficult but so much like so many us experience. The Burgess family were a golden family of a small town in Maine. When the children were young they suffered tragedy, which is what drives much of the story.</p>
<p>The two brothers who are the focus of the story reacted very differently to the tragedy. And their mother, and how she treated the boys versus the only daughter is also a factor. But it is when the next generation acts and does something out of character, that the brothers come together to help and the family finally faces the tragedy, 50 years or so after it happened.</p>
<p>I'd never read a book by Strout and as a first read I enjoyed this. I have <em>Oliver Kitteridge</em> on my list as well, and I now know that she writes fantastic stories that are about the characters. They are about us, essentially, humans, and how they react in situations they can't always control. I enjoyed spending time with the Burgess family, flawed as they are.</p>

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			<title>Time is Money</title>
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				<p>During a twitter conversation about web performance with some other developers a while back I was introduced to Tammy Everts and her book, <a href="http://shop.oreilly.com/product/0636920041450.do"><em>Time is Money</em></a>; when it was offered as a free PDF by Everts' employer, I grabbed it. I'm so glad that I did, it is jam packed with case studies and data about why this topic is important.</p>
<p>I've lately been learning a lot more about performance for my work, helping on some client projects, but also getting familiar with the biggest hurdles and how to make a site more performant. Everts takes all the things that I know about performance and gives me data to help back that up. In essence this is the book you want the bosses to read, so they understand why taking the time to do this work is worth it.</p>
<p>I recommend this book for anyone interested in performance though, as it collates together so much fantastic data, it's worth having on your shelf as a resource.</p>
<p>I read a PDF and below are my highlights:</p>
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<p>42% of men and 35% of women have decided not to use a company again as a result of experiencing a slow website. (p 2)</p>
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<p>It’s tempting to label ourselves picky and impatient, but we’re not. There’s a wealth of research into what happens to us at a neurological level when we’re forced to deal with slow or interrupted processes. It isn’t pretty. (p 3)</p>
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<p>The Internet may change, and web pages may grow and evolve, but user expectations are constant. <em>The numbers about human perception and response times have been consistent for more than 45 years.</em> These numbers are hard-wired. We have zero control over them. They’re consistent regardless of the type of device, application, or connection we’re using at any given moment. (p 6)</p>
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<p>So the goal in getting page load times down to 100 milliseconds is to keep information from falling through the cracks in our iconic memory, while also giving our short-term and working memory ample time to do all the parsing they need to do before they start losing information. (p 8)</p>
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<p>It’s also important to remind ourselves that application performance is just one part of the greater world. Our everyday lives are  filled with events—from sitting in traffc to standing in line at the grocery store—that challenge our need for flow. Poor web performance is just one problem, but for those of us who spend much of our work and personal time online, it’s extra friction in an already friction-filled world. Its effects are cumulative, as most of us aren’t capable of compartmentalizing our stress. (p 10)</p>
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<p>A great deal of attention is placed on retail performance because retail metrics are easy to capture: it’s relatively short work to draw a line between load times and revenue. But performance affects other verticals as well. Media, travel, finance... if there are real people using your service online, then those people’s behavior is susceptible to changes wrought by faster or slower web pages. I have yet to encounter a business that, after gathering enough user data and identifying the right metrics, didn’t find a correlation between performance and their business. (p 17)</p>
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<p>Revenue isn’t the only metric that is affected quite differently by outages versus slowdowns. In one of the only studies (if not, the only study) into the impact of outages versus slowdowns on abandonment rates, Akamai found that sites that went down experienced, on average, a permanent abandonment rate of 9%. Sites that suffered from slow performance experienced a 28% permanent abandonment rate—an increase of more than 200%. (p 19)</p>
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<p>But while Google’s treatment of performance as a search ranking factor has attracted a fair bit of tech media attention and discussion over the past several years, I’ve never met a site owner who suddenly decided to prioritize performance because of it. This could be due to the fact that the details have always been murky, with most people agreeing that speed is probably just one relatively minor part of Google’s search ranking algorithm. The “Slow” tag, however, may be too in your face to dismiss. It signals that Google is taking performance—and particularly mobile performance—increasingly seriously. Site owners would be wise to do the same. (p 42)</p>
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<p>Not only do small delays add up quickly, but users—both internal and external—must concentrate up to 50% harder when pages or applications are slow. And while most of us are fairly good at developing short-term strategies that let us deal with repeated interruptions, this often comes at the expense of our overall satisfaction and our willingness to take on new tasks. (p 51)</p>
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<p>Or put it this way: it doesn’t matter if you’re a hard-hearted Scrooge McDuck type who cares only about cutting infrastructure and bandwidth costs. If you tackle performance with those objectives in mind, you’re inevitably going to make your users measurably happier. (Sorry, Uncle Scrooge!) (p 59)</p>
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<p>In 2015, the Federal Communications Commission updated its definition of broadband from 4 Mbps to 25 Mbps. According to this new definition, roughly one out of five Internet users—approximately 50 million people—in the United States suddenly did not have broadband access. (p 66)</p>
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<p>Frontend optimization addresses performance at the browser level, and has emerged in recent years as an extremely effective way to supplement server build-out and CDN services. One way that FEO alleviates latency is by consolidating page objects into bundles. Fewer bundles means fewer trips to the server, so the total latency hit is greatly reduced. FEO also leverages the browser cache and allows it to do a better job of storing  files and serving them again where relevant, so that the browser doesn’t have to make repeat calls to the server. (p 72)</p>
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<p>Despite these constraints, user expectations continue to grow: a typical mobile user expects a site to load as fast—or faster!—on their tablet or smart-phone as it does on desktop. (p 74)</p>
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<p>Wirth’s law, which states that software is getting slower more rapidly than hardware is getting faster. (p 81)</p>
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<p>Not all web pages are created equal. When pages get slower, conversion rates suffer, but some types of pages suffer more than others. (p 86)</p>
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			<title>Patience</title>
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			<updated>2016-06-23T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I read a review of <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/patience-9781606999059/62-0"><em>Patience</em></a> and put it on my library list and started a hold on it. I had never read anything by Daniel Clowes, but the cover and the review intrigued me.</p>
<p>Over the past four days I read through it bit by bit after work. And while I enjoyed it, I'm glad I got it from the library rather than buy it myself. It's a story about time travel, regret, correcting wrongs, and love. The artwork is bright and wonderful, I enjoyed the panels quite a bit.</p>
<p>What I did enjoy was the imagination about how time travel could work, the different eras as they were portrayed through fashion, hair styles, and cars. I can relate to the feeling of regret, not on the level of the main character, but on some levels. But I also loved the character of Patience, she's not what I expected her to be and she isn't the main character either, but the character around which the story revolves.</p>

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			<title>Chew</title>
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			<updated>2016-06-21T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I read the first volume of <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Chew-Vol-1-Tasters-Choice/digital-comic/15624"><em>Chew</em></a> last night. It's another Colly recommendation. It is wacky, strange, weird, and any other synonym for those words you can think of. And I loved it.</p>
<p>Tony Chu is a police officer who when he eats things he gets a sense of where they've been, what they've done, or felt. He is recruited to work for the FDA to help track down illegal chicken distributors. Yup, chicken is banned due to bird flu, but that's also suspect, with many people not believing there was any bird flu.</p>
<p>Tony gets sucked into strange and weird mysteries where he ends up eating parts of people and animals to see where they've been and what they've done. I know, the premise sounds strange, but I really enjoyed it and already have the next volume from my library via a digital loan.</p>
<p>(Do you know about <a href="https://www.hoopladigital.com/home;jsessionid=94C27F81C1AC7FC740A7B8FC8D11CDDD">Hoopla</a>? I do a ton of library loans via <a href="https://www.overdrive.com">Overdrive</a>, but Hoopla is great for comics, movies, TV shows, and audible books. And the comics are basically the same as what Comixology sells, so great.)</p>

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			<title>Alias Grace</title>
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			<updated>2016-06-14T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been making my way through <a href="https://www.amazon.com/Alias-Grace-Novel-Margaret-Atwood/dp/0385490445/"><em>Alias Grace</em></a> by Margaret Atwood over the last week or so. It took a bit, as many books do I'm realizing, to really get into the story, but once I did I absolutely loved it. Grace, the main character of the book, is based on a real person who was an infamous murderess in 1840s Toronto. Atwood based her character on the real Grace Marks, but there wasn't a lot to go on so she invented much of the novel.</p>
<p>Grace is being interviewed and telling her story, many years after being put in prison, to a doctor, who is interested in lunacy, and trying to figure out if Grace truly murdered the people in question or not. I use the words of the time here, because to be quite honest they are the best words to describe what is happening, it is a novel of the Victorian era.</p>
<p>I came to really love the Grace character and to be intrigued by and never really figure out the character of the doctor, Simon Jordan. Grace is surrounded by women who usually are trying to eek out a life in situations that make that next to impossible. Many are abused, mistreated emotionally, and end up dead. But Grace keeps going through it all.</p>
<p>It is through the telling of Grace's story that we see how she views life, how she views victimhood. She cuts right through the Victorian politeness, often only in her thoughts we read, so that we read and learn what she actually thinks.</p>
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<p>It is remarkable, I have since thought, how once a man has a few coins, no matter how he came by them, he thinks right away that he is entitled to them, and to whatever they can buy, and fancies himself cock of the walk. (p. 337)</p>
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<p>The truth is that very few understand the truth about forgiveness. It is not the culprits who need to be forgiven; rather it is the victims, because they are the ones who cause all the trouble. If they were only less weak and careless, and more foresightful, and if they would keep from blundering into difficulties, think of all the sorrow in the world that would be spared. (p. 457)</p>
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			<title>Garbage</title>
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			<updated>2016-06-06T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>A few weeks ago I listend to a <a href="http://99percentinvisible.org/episode/separation-anxiety/">99% Invisible podcast</a> about how garbage is handled in Taiwan. I found it absolutely fascinating. And to be quite honest, I've been thinking about garbage ever since.</p>
<p>A few years ago, Portland changed its garbage pick-up system. To accomodate composting food scraps and to encourage recycling and composting, garbage service was dropped down from every week to every other week. Recycling and yard waste/compost continued to be picked up weekly.</p>
<p>This caused a bit of an uproar, but now it seems normal. In our house we decided to take things a step further and we only get our garbage picked up every four weeks. At first I thought this would be quite a challenge and I'll admit we have some months where it is. But we are two people and I really wanted to send less to landfills. I set out to learn all I could about ways to recycle even more and we are rigourous composters now.</p>
<p>I also think a lot more when I buy things about the packaging. Because all of that adds up and through these efforts we've done just fine.</p>
<p>But what has intrigued me is the reaction of people when you tell them you only get garbage picked up once every four weeks. We get asked about smell, but since food scraps go out weekly, that's not a problem, our actual garbage is quite dry (with the exception of meat wrapping). And most people act as if they couldn't possibly do this.</p>
<p>And then I listed to the above mentioned podcast. Wow. Each <em>night</em> people meet a garbage truck in the road and dispose of their own garbage. There aren't many public garbage cans, so if you buy a coffee, you take the cup home and throw it out with your garbage. The society changed, it is a cleaner place and people got on board.</p>
<p>In the US our garbage is something to be hidden; out of sight, out of mind. We put out our wheelie bins in the evening, a truck comes along early the next day and it's just gone. But maybe that's part of the problem? Maybe if we had to be home and meet a truck and take it out ourselves we would think differently.</p>
<p>This all reinforces my opinion that the only way to get people to do the right thing—when it comes to ecological and climate issues—is to make it difficult and/or expensive to do the wrong thing. Portland made it harder by only collecting garbage every two weeks; people were forced to think more about how much they throw away. And Taiwan took that even further.</p>

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			<title>Madness, Rack, and Honey</title>
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			<updated>2016-06-01T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Quite a while ago, probably over a year, I started <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/madness-rack-honey-9781933517575/62-0"><em>Madness, Rack, and Honey</em></a> by Mary Ruefle. This past weekend I picked it back up, sat out in the sun, and finished it. Often I start a book and it's just not resonating with me, so I set it aside and I never know when I'll come back to it. It's taken me a long time, but I now give myself permission to not finish things. But often, the timing is wrong, it isn't the right book for me to be reading.</p>
<p>This was definitely the case with this book and last weekend became the right time. I almost couldn't put it down. It, quite simply, is <em>amazing</em>. Ruefle is a poet and professor, teaching in an MFA program in Vermont. She was terrified at the idea of lecturing, so she writes out her lectures because &quot;I am a writer and writing is my natural act, more natural than speaking.&quot;</p>
<p>I'm so glad she did. Her lectures on single words are my favorites, <em>On Secrets: Eight Beginnings, Two Ends</em> and <em>On Fear</em> made me think and want to read more. She draws on her rich reading history to talk about the words and what they mean and how they're used. She does this often throughout the lectures, but these two stand out to me. I may even be doing some rereading soon.</p>
<p>I didn't do a lot of underlining or highlighting as I read, choosing instead to relish the words alone, but I did sit with my journal next to me and I wrote things and asked myself questions; I'm still thinking on the words I read. Below I leave you with one of my favorite passages on reading, but if you'd like another perspective on Ruefle's writing, I highly recommend <a href="http://aworkinglibrary.com/reading/madness-rack-and-honey/">Mandy's reading notes</a> (Mandy's note on wasting time is well worth your time).</p>
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<p>We are all one question, and the best answer seems to be love—a connection between things. This arcane bit of knowledge is respoken every day into the ears of readers of great books, and also appears to perpetually slip under a carpet, utterly forgotten. In one sense, reading is a great waste of time. In another sense it is a great extension of time, a way for one person to live a thousand and one lives in a single life span, to watch the great impersonal universe at work again and again, to watch the personal psyche spar with it, to suffer affliction and weakness and injury, to die and watch those you love die, until the very dizziness of it all becomes a source of compassion for ourselves, and for the language which we alone created, without which the letter that slipped under the door could never have been written, or, once in a thousand lives—is that too much to ask?—retrieved, and read. Did I mention supreme joy? That is why I read: I want everything to be okay. That's why I read when I was a lonely kid and that's why I read now that I'm a scared adult. (p. 197)</p>
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			<title>Ten years</title>
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			<updated>2016-05-31T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>On this day ten years ago G, Sally, and I arrived in an eastern suburb of Portland, we were here to stay. We drove that day from Missoula, Montana through to Spokane, down through the Tri Cities, finally making our way to I-84 and the absolutely gorgeous drive through the Columbia River Gorge to arrive in Portland.</p>
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                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/posts/sally-looking-sm.jpg" alt="Saly in the car">
    <figcaption>Our beloved Sally dog got a small space in the back and did amazingly well being in that space for 3 days</figcaption>
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<p>Our move here was life changing. It was one of the most adventurous things I've ever done. We had no jobs, we had no idea what we were really doing, we just had savings, our household items in storage, and we set up in an extended stay hotel to figure out where to live and what would come next.</p>
<p>And that summer, the summer of 2006 is a time we look back on fondly. It was just G and I against the world with a crazy dog along for the ride. We knew no one in Portland, but we found our house, we moved in, and we made a home. Truth be told, I love our house here, I've become very attached to it and I can't imagine living anywhere else.</p>
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                 /images/build/posts/gorge-approach-10-yrs-md.jpg 800w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/posts/gorge-approach-10-yrs-sm.jpg" alt="The Columbia River">
    <figcaption>The absolutely gorgeous final portion of the drive through the Gorge</figcaption>
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<p>Portland has been so good to us, our neighborhood is changing, gentrification is picking up, and we recently got yelled at because apparently 10 years isn't long enough to be &quot;from Portland.&quot; But with all the change, all the rain, and all the hipsters, Portland is home. I traveled a lot during the first few months of this year, and coming home was always the best feeling in the world. I love it here more than anywhere I've ever lived.</p>

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			<title>Style Guide, Pattern Library, Design System, oh my!</title>
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			<updated>2016-05-24T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>How do you define a Pattern Library? A Style Guide? A Design System? Are they the same thing or aspects of one another? I've been working hard to come up with what those terms mean. Part of that is seeing how are others defining them. I've seen quite a few posts come into my stream doing exactly that; defining how they use these terms.</p>
<p>In addition, I've been listening to talks from conferences, reading anything and everything I could find, and generally going in circles trying to come up with definitions that would work for everyone.</p>
<p>I've come to the conclusion that it's not possible to have a definition that everyone would agree on for these terms. And to push it even further, I think the only definition that matters for any of them is the one you and your team make for your use.</p>
<p>If y'all understand what you mean when you use these terms, that's really all that matters.</p>
<p>Of course, we need to know what the speaker or author, in talks and articles, means when they use the term, therefore it’s helpful to include a definition so that as we listen and read, <em>we are on the same page</em>. However, that doesn't mean that if the definition used in the talk or article differs from how you or your team uses it, that you should change. Or that the speaker or author is necessarily wrong.</p>
<p>I feel the same way about class naming, module naming, etc. What matters is that your team understands your conventions. Too often we see a cool new idea or framework, it gets talked about a lot, and then we try and shoehorn that idea into our process. This is bound to fail.</p>
<p>What serves one team may not serve another well. There is no way to avoid the hard work of naming things for yourself and creating a system, guide, or library that works for you.</p>
<p>I can't say it much better than Ethan did on the <a href="http://responsivewebdesign.com/podcast/modular-design/">Responsive Design Podcast</a>:</p>
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<p>So working with people to kind of break apart an interface in design review, cut it up with scissors and actually come up with a taxonomy for how these patterns need to be named in a way that’s going to make them meaningful to the people that are actually working with them. Yeah, that’s something that’s really exciting to me.</p>
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			<title>Sketchbooking</title>
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			<updated>2016-05-22T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've talked about this <a href="https://www.susanjeanrobertson.com/photos/how-i-spent-winter-break/">before</a>, but I've been drawing again since last December. And for the most part I've been doing all my drawing in sketchbooks. The exceptions have been cards I've made for people, but other than that, I stick to the sketchbooks even though I have some really nice stand alone paper.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/tea-sm.jpg 480w, 
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                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/posts/tea-sm.jpg" alt="Tea, prompt from January 2016 31 days of drawing">
    <figcaption>A full spread I did in January for the 31 days of drawing class I took on Creativebug</figcaption>
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<p>Lisa Congdon recently <a href="http://lisacongdon.com/blog/2016/05/sketchbook-roundup-sketchbook-classes/">wrote a post</a> talking about how she uses her sketchbook and something in it resonated for me:</p>
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<p>...[W]hat I make here is not for sale or for a client or for any one but me.</p>
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<p>I thought about that line after reading the post (if you haven't clicked the link, I recommend it, Lisa's sketchbooks are incredibly beautiful and inspring). Having an art degree and then not doing art for about 13 years post graduate school, I've been thinking about what it means to make art to me now. Why is sketchbooking and the way I'm working now so important to me? And why am I so quick to stay there even when I've watched several classes take the same techniques and apply them to a larger, stand alone piece?</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/meditative-pattern-sm.jpg 480w, 
                 /images/build/posts/meditative-pattern-md.jpg 800w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/posts/meditative-pattern-sm.jpg" alt="Circular pattern from the outside of the sketchbook">
    <figcaption>In progress pattern spread, I tend to do these when listening to podcasts or on airplanes and they are so relaxing.</figcaption>
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<p>The answer for me lies in the training I got oh so long ago in art school. The place where making money off art and being in the elite art community was the goal of most students. The place where professors rarely talked about experimenting, but you were constantly critiquing <em>finished</em> work. And that's the thing; I don't know that I want to think about <em>finished</em> work or selling work or being a part of the elite art community.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/photos/blues-and-gray-sm.jpg 480w, 
                 /images/build/photos/blues-and-gray-md.jpg 800w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/photos/blues-and-gray-sm.jpg" alt="Full page of flowers and vines in blue and gray">
    <figcaption>This is a theme over and over again in my sketchbooks, I return to flowers and pen work when I'm not sure what else to do.</figcaption>
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<p>One of the things I've found fun and inspiring this time around is that I'm not feeling <em>any</em> pressure about what I create or how I create it. My sketchbooks are for me. They are experiments. They are play. They are to relax. I don't make my living this way and to be quite honest, the thought of attempting to turn art into my living makes me cringe.</p>
<p>But I do love sharing my work on <a href="https://www.instagram.com/susan_doodles/">Instagram</a> and <a href="/photos/">here</a>. I love looking at other's work and getting inspired. <a href="https://www.creativebug.com/">Creativebug</a> has been a source of constant inspiration to me and I've been getting books from the library to expose myself to other ways of drawing, painting, seeing.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/responsive-drawing-sm.jpg 480w, 
                 /images/build/posts/responsive-drawing-md.jpg 800w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/posts/responsive-drawing-sm.jpg" alt="Watercolor background with found objects drawn on it">
    <figcaption>I just learned this technique of putting down a crazy background with watercolor or gouache and then drawing the objects you "find" in it, it's been super fun.</figcaption>
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<p>As you can see from the spreads I've sprinkled throughout the post, I'm morphing and changing what I do in my books. I started with smaller sketchbooks and now I have 5 sketchbooks going of varying sizes. I've enjoyed going large (at least large for me) recently with a <a href="http://www.dickblick.com/products/moleskine-watercolor-notebooks/">watercolor Moleskine</a> that is amazing and with a <a href="http://www.dickblick.com/products/strathmore-softcover-500-series-mixed-media-art-journal/">Strathmore Mixed Media</a> journal that takes <a href="http://www.dickblick.com/products/holbein-acryla-gouache/">gouache</a> and water quite well.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/painted-background-sm.jpg 480w, 
                 /images/build/posts/painted-background-md.jpg 800w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/posts/painted-background-sm.jpg" alt="Dark gouache background with light, bright pen work">
    <figcaption>Another stab at painting on a background and then trying something new, I used the Sakura Soufflé pens over the top and had a lot of fun.</figcaption>
</figure>
<p>So things aren't staying static and I'm pushing myself into new areas and into new things, while also going back to my favorite motifs and size of <a href="http://www.kunst-papier.com/#!product-page/c1iym/22dcdfaa-ee65-f15d-736c-9b3316d37cf0">sketchbook</a>, simple ink drawings of every day things will always be a favorite.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/wonky-bottles-sm.jpg 480w, 
                 /images/build/posts/wonky-bottles-md.jpg 800w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/posts/wonkey-bottles-sm.jpg" alt="Various sized bottles across the spread, done with shades of gray ink">
    <figcaption>This type of sketchbooking will never go away for me, it allows me to be wonky, to not care too much, and to relax.</figcaption>
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			<title>Palestine</title>
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			<updated>2016-05-19T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Along with <em>Local</em>, I finished <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/palestine-9781560974321/2-13"><em>Palestine</em></a> over the weekend. A really lovely and difficult read at times. Joe Sacco spent several months in Palestine in the early 1990s and he chronicles what he learned in the book.</p>
<p>Traveling to both the Gaza Strip and the West Bank and meeting many different people, Sacco digs into the conflict and difficulties and tells the stories of those he meets. It's difficult reading, but thankfully Sacco knows how to add some humor into it at just the right time to bring you a bit up out of the depths.</p>
<p>As I read <em>Palestine</em>, I wondered how much has even changed. The book was written 20 years ago and I question if things would be any different for the Palestinians were Sacco to visit again today. There seem no solutions as both sides are dug in, and that's the real tragedy.</p>

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			<title>Local</title>
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			<updated>2016-05-19T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Just recently <a href="http://colly.com">Simon</a> recommended a whole slew of comic books and I added a bunch of them onto my list and just this past week got started reading them. First up was <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Local/digital-comic/42309"><em>Local</em></a> and it is absolutely brilliant. It's about a girl who travels all over North America, so you see glimpses of her life in a variety of different cities.</p>
<p>And that's the beauty of this comic. In 12 issues that are now in one large volume, you only learn about Megan bit by bit. And to be quite honest, much of it doesn't make complete sense until the final issue. But that's why I loved it. I could relate to many of the various experiences that Megan goes through. But in addition, I like the mystery of trying to figure out who exactly she is. And, to be honest, by the final issue I still wasn't completely sure who she is or what would happen next in her life, but it was super fun to go along with her as she traveled across the continent.</p>
<p><em>Local</em> made for a really lovely rainy Sunday afternoon read and I'm so glad I found it.</p>

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			<title>Weight</title>
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			<updated>2016-05-08T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've read several articles lately that talk about our bodies and how they work when it comes to weight and weight loss. I've been fascinated by them, because each of them is taking the advice we've been given for decades on how to be healthy and turning it on its head. I decided to not just put these in the links section, because they aren't just links for me, they are about a change in thinking that I'm so happy to see.</p>
<p>I should back up for just one moment though. Part of why I've found these fascinating is because I grew up in a house where weight was a big issue. My mom struggled throughout my childhood to be thin and she was on Weight Watchers and other diets. And I can honestly say that I don't recall a time when she wasn't concerned or fretting about food, exercise, and overall health. Growing up in this environment meant that I too was often thinking about these thing. I've always been healthy, and I've never felt I was overweight, but when it is front and center in your life for so much of your childhood, you think about it.</p>
<p>And now, here I am at 42, happy with where I'm at and reading that all the things that were in front of me during my childhood are wrong. That the way our bodies work is how they work. And the conclusion I came to a while back about myself, that I have a weight my body seems to be happy with and that if I eat right it's about where I stay, is actually true.</p>
<p>A Vox article was the first one I read. And wow, talk about using science to say that killing ourselves with exercise in order to lose weight will never work. It's fascinating and I recommend reading it. I mean, exercise is still a good thing, just for other reasons than weight loss. <a href="http://www.vox.com/2016/4/28/11518804/weight-loss-exercise-myth-burn-calories"><em>Why you shouldn't exercise to lose weight, explained with 60+ studies</em></a> is well worth the time if you have any interest in the topic.</p>
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<p>How much we move is connected to how much we eat. As Hall put it, &quot;I don't think anybody believes calories in and calories out are independent of each other.&quot; And exercise, of course, has a way of making us hungry — so hungry that we might consume more calories than we just burned off.</p>
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<p>Next up, the New York Times published a really <a href="http://www.nytimes.com/2016/05/02/health/biggest-loser-weight-loss.html">fascinating article</a> following the participants of the TV show The Biggest Loser for six years after the show ended. And all of them gain back weight and it's not because they weren't trying to stay thin, for the most part many of them continued to try and maintain, but their bodies fought against them.</p>
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<p>What shocked the researchers was what happened next: As the years went by and the numbers on the scale climbed, the contestants’ metabolisms did not recover. They became even slower, and the pounds kept piling on. It was as if their bodies were intensifying their effort to pull the contestants back to their original weight.</p>
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<p>And finally, today I read in the Sunday Review in the New York Times another piece about how our bodies fight against us losing too much weight. <a href="http://www.nytimes.com/2016/05/08/opinion/sunday/why-you-cant-lose-weight-on-a-diet.html"><em>Why You Can’t Lose Weight on a Diet</em></a> is written by a neuroscientist and talks at length about the way our bodies are made to keep us at a weight they've determined. I'm fascinated to know how the determination is made, but that seems very complex and I haven't seen anything on that yet.</p>
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<p>If dieting doesn’t work, what should we do instead? I recommend mindful eating — paying attention to signals of hunger and fullness, without judgment, to relearn how to eat only as much as the brain’s weight-regulation system commands.</p>
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<p>My experience over the past several has been true to much of what these articles talk about. I exercise quite regularly, both running and yoga, but I do it because it actually has benefits to my mental health and to my body recovering from the hunched over a computer life I lead. I now try to eat healthy, I eat when I'm hungry, I stop when I'm full, and I've been maintaining a healthy weight. But the voices from my childhood about what weight we should be, the voices from the media about how a woman's body should look (just try buying jeans when you have muscular legs, ugh) are extremely hard to shut out. These articles helped me tamp them down and reminded me that we are all very different and that's a good thing.</p>

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			<title>Another 100 days</title>
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			<updated>2016-05-02T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>If you follow me on <a href="https://twitter.com/susanjrobertson">Twitter</a> or <a href="https://www.instagram.com/explore/tags/100daysofsmallselfportraits/">Instagram</a>, then you've probably seen my latest 100 day project. I started on April 19 and am going into July and each day I'm drawing a small self portrait, the sketchbook is only 3.5 inches by 5.5 inches. And unlike last year, this year has started out hard, and I've felt very vulnerable.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/100days-2016/4-sm.jpg 480w, 
                 /images/build/posts/100days-2016/4-md.jpg 800w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/100days-2016/4-sm.jpg" alt="the fourth self portrait I did, in pencil">
    <figcaption>I practiced a bunch after feeling quite down about how these were going, and this was the next one I did</figcaption>
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<p>But I've persevered, it helps that once I start something and I tell people publicly that I'm doing it, I feel like I have to keep going. So keep going I am. But drawing people and drawing faces is not a strong suit of mine. Since I started drawing daily at the end of last year, I've mostly been doing illustrative, wonky drawings of various things. Some are even just abstract patterns, which I love doing.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/100days-2016/10-sm.jpg 480w, 
                 /images/build/posts/100days-2016/10-md.jpg 800w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/100days-2016/10-sm.jpg" alt="the tenth self portrait I did, in pencil">
    <figcaption>I decided to have some fun with a bit of expression, to open up new possibilities</figcaption>
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<p>But I chose faces because it is uncomfortable for me. And I chose my face because it is right in front of me and I've drawn it before. Having attended art school, I learned that self portraits can be fun and you can challenge yourself. I prepped a bit before this started; I got a bunch of library books of artists collections of self portraits and artists who painted and drew a lot of people. If you haven't seen Ellsworth Kelly's self portraits I highly recommend them.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/100days-2016/13-sm.jpg 480w, 
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                 src="/100days-2016/13-sm.jpg" alt="the thirteenth self portrait I did, in pencil with colored pencil">
    <figcaption>I definitely feel the best about the ones I've done in pencil and in very sketchy, flowy marks</figcaption>
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<p>I've also kept going because I've received encouragement and feedback from people I know and don't know online. It's amazing, but sharing these drawings surprises me, I often feel awful about them, but then I get some love online and it's all OK. I'm grateful for the online world and all the support I've received and as I keep going, I hope it continues.</p>
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                 /images/build/posts/100days-2016/14-md.jpg 800w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/100days-2016/14-sm.jpg" alt="the fourteenth self portrait I did, in ink">
    <figcaption>I've also explored very sparse line drawings to see what happens</figcaption>
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			<title>Nimona</title>
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				<p>At the end of last year I used the <a href="http://apps.npr.org/best-books-2015/">NPR Book Concierge</a> to find some new ideas for books and added them to my list. I especially scoured the comics &amp; graphic novels section and in it I found <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/nimona-9780062278227/18-0"><em>Nimona</em></a> and I finally read it this week.</p>
<p>I know it's early to say this, but <em>Nimona</em> is in the running for the best book I've read in 2016. It is an absolutely amazing story of a girl who can shape shift and she wants to be the side kick of the evil villain in the kingdom. The writing and tone of the book had me laughing out loud while reading it on the bus (sorry fellow bus riders, I'm not crazy, really). And the characters are much more than what you think at first.</p>
<p>But the best part of the book was all the science. Science is cool. Science is funny and science is how the actual villains (who aren't who you think at first) are controlling the kingdom. But the relationship between Nimona and Lord Ballister Blackheart is the heart of the book and it is so wonderful.</p>
<p>I don't want to say much more, because you should read it. You should read it right now. Really. Are you reading it?</p>

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			<title>The Dispossessed</title>
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				<p>Yesterday I savored the end of <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/dispossessed-9780062421074/62-0"><em>The Dispossesed</em></a> by Ursula K Le Guin. Le Guin, after reading just two of her books, is quickly becoming one of my favorite authors. She critiques so much about our society so well through the building of her worlds and characters. And reading <em>The Dispossessed</em> with the backdrop of the US Election and growing tensions over growth in Portland has been amazing.</p>
<p>In the book, we follow Shevek as he goes from his home world, a desolate moon settled hundreds of years before from its neighboring planet, Urras. Urras gave the moon to the settlers years prior to appease them as they weren't content with the Urrasti form of governance. Le Guin definitely favors the communist society on Anarres, the moon, but she critiques both the Anarres' system as well as Urras', neither is perfect.</p>
<p>And as I read the book, moving along with Shevek back and forth through the time of his adulthood on Anarres and then his journey to Urras, I couldn't help but start to critique the current US election process or think about the tensions in Portland. I don't believe there is a perfect system, as we see Shevek is often frustrated by the communist system on Anarres. But Urras' with its capitalist society isn't any better as far as he can tell.</p>
<p>Le Guin favors the settlers on Anarres and I see why. They rise and fall together and throughout the book that is made evident. But there is still ego, still human imperfection. As I look at what is currently happening, not just in my country, but many western nations struggling with the way the world is now, I wonder if maybe a bit more of the rise and fall together wouldn't be a good thing. The book left me thinking about that a lot, which is a good thing. Lately it has been fiction that has me questioning and thinking the most about how my city, country, and the world work.</p>

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			<title>Small is Beautiful</title>
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				<p>There are a handful of books that I've read in my life that I can point to and say: &quot;This book changed my life.&quot; <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/small-is-beautiful-economics-as-if-people-mattered-9780061997761/18-0"><em>Small is Beautiful: Economics as if People Mattered</em></a> by E.F. Schumacher has entered into that small group. And, interestingly, it's the first nonfiction book to get in that group. My friend Mandy has a <a href="http://aworkinglibrary.com/collections/canon/">canon</a> on her site, and I have one as well, it's a special set of shelves in our house and this book will be joining the others.</p>
<p>It's hard for me to put into words how much this book hit me, how much it's changing the way I think, and how much I've continued to think about it after finishing it. But Schumacher, writing this book in the early 70s, says so many things that are still so applicable today. I would argue they are more applicable today as we need, now more than ever, to think about people as being significant.</p>
<p>I'm still completely unsure what changes in my life I will make because I read this book, but they are coming. They may be slow in coming, this may take me some time, but I'm thinking seriously about how to live my life as if people mattered rather than just earning a paycheck at a job. And this isn't easy to figure out, how can I, one person, make a difference in a society where earning money rules above all else? I'm not sure, but I'm starting to ask the questions.</p>
<p>And, ironically, while reading this book I experienced very much what can happen when people no longer matter, when the size of a company gets so large that decisions are made so far removed from the people who must implement them that there is no thought or concern for the impact they may have. As a developer, I often work on client work that is for large, international companies and it's these situations that often point out the absurdity of the way our economy and our global relationships work.</p>
<p>Schumacher touches on size, he touches on technology, and he talks in depth about ownership and privatization vs public ownership. The last section of the book talks about ownership in depth and it is a remarkable case study in how owning a business doesn't have to mean screwing people over. Often Schumacher goes back to Christianity or Buddhism as lenses to see the world through to act in a more compassionate way, but I don't know if that is actually necessary. As I've seen over and over again recently, those who profess religious beliefs the most often act in ways that are the direct opposite of what those religions espouse.</p>
<p>So it is with a mind full of questions that I finish this book and write this review. I <em>highly</em> recommend the book. It is the first economics book I've read and it's an amazing read. I read the released paper version that was published in 2010, but the book's original publish date is 1973. My highlights are below.</p>
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<p>Although even small communities are sometimes guilty of causing serious erosion, generally as a result of ignorance, this is trifling in comparison with the devastations caused by gigantic groups motivated by greed, envy, and the lust for power. It is, moreover, obvious that men organised in small units will take better care of <em>their</em> bit of land or other natural resources than anonymous companies or megalomanic governments which pretend to themselves that the whole universe is their legitimate quarry. (p. 37)</p>
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<p>The logical absurdity, however, is not the greatest fault of the undertaking; what is worse, and destructive of civilisation, is the pretense that everything has a price or, in other words, that money is the highest of all values. (p 48)</p>
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<p>Modern economics does not distinguish between renewable and non-renewable materials, as its very method is to equalise and quantify everything by means of a money price. Thus, taking various alternative fuels, like coal, oil, wood, or water-power: the only difference between them recognised by modern economics is relative cost per equivalent unit. (p. 64)</p>
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<p>For it is not a question of choosing between &quot;modern growth&quot; and &quot;traditional stagnation.&quot; It is a question of finding the right path of development, the Middle Way between materialist heedlessness and traditionalist immobility, in short, of finding &quot;Right Livelihood.&quot; (p. 66)</p>
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<p>In our time, the main danger to the solid and therewith not only to agriculture but to civilisatio as a whole, stems from the townsman's determination to apply to agriculture the principles of industry. (p. 116)</p>
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<p>All this is being done because man-as-producer cannot afford &quot;the luxury of not acting economically,&quot; and therefore cannot produce the very necessary &quot;luxuries&quot;—like health, beauty, and permanence—which mans-as-consumer desires more than anything else. It would cost too much; and the richer we become, the less we can &quot;afford.&quot; (p. 122)</p>
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<p>If that which has been shaped by technology, and continues to be so shaped, looks sick, it might be wise to have a look at technology itself. If technology is felt to becoming more and more inhuman, we might do well to consider whether it is possible to have something better—a technology with a human face. (p. 155)</p>
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<p>What is quite clear is that a way of life that bases itself on materialism, <em>i.e</em> on permanent, limitless expansionism in a finite environment, cannot last long, and that its life expectation is the shorter the more successfully it pursues its expansionist objectives. (p. 156)</p>
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<p>Virtually all real production has been turned into an inhuman chore which does not enriches a man but empties him. &quot;From the factory,&quot; it has been said, &quot;dead matter goes out improved, whereas men there are corrupted and degraded.&quot; (p. 160)</p>
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<p>We may say, therefore, that modern technology has deprived man of the kind of work that he enjoys most, creative, useful work with hands and brains, and given him plenty of work of a fragmented kind, most of which he does not enjoy at all. It has multiplied the number of people who are exceedingly busy doing kinds of work which, if it is productive at all, is so only in an indirect or &quot;round-about&quot; way, and much of which would not be necessary at all if technology were rather less modern. (p. 160)</p>
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<p>The system of <em>mass production</em>, based on sophisticated, highly capital-intensive, high energy-input dependent, and human labour-saving technology, presupposes that you are already rich, for a great deal of capital investment is needed to establish one single workplace. (p. 163)</p>
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<p>I have no doubt that it is possible to give a new direction to technological development, a direction that shall lead it back to the real needs of man, and that also means: <em>to the actual size of man</em>. Man is small, and therefore, small is beautiful. (p. 169)</p>
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<p>Therefore any organisation has to strive continuously for the orderliness of <em>order</em> and the disorderliness of creative <em>freedom</em>. And the specific danger inherent in the large-scale ogranisation is that its natural bias and tendency favour order, at the expense of creative freedom. (p. 259-260)</p>
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<p>Excellent! This is real life, full of antinomies, and bigger than logic. Without order, planning, predictability, central control, accountancy, instructions to the underlings, obedience, discipline—without these, nothing fruitful can happen, because everything disintegrates. And yet—without the magnanimity of disorder, the happy abandon, the <em>entrepreneurship</em> venturing into the unknown and incalculable, without the risk and the gamble, the creative imagination rushing in where bureaucratic angels fear to tread—without this, life is a mockery and a disgrace. (p. 267)</p>
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<p>What is at stake is not economics but culture: not the standards of living but the quality of life. Economics and the standard of living can just as well be looked after by a capitalist system, moderated by a bit of planning and redistributive taxation. But culture and, generally, the quality of life, can now only be debased by such a system. (p. 278)</p>
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<p>The answer is self-evident: greed and envy demand continuous and limitless economic growth of a material kind, without proper regard for conservation, and this type of growth cannot possibly it into a finite environment. (p. 280)</p>
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<p>No great private fortunes can be gained from small-scale enterprises, yet its social utility is enormous. (p. 281)</p>
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<p>&quot;More taxation for more public expenditure&quot; would not be a vote-catching slogan in an election campaign, no matter how glaring may be the discrepancy between private affluence and public squalor. (p. 291)</p>
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<p>The truth is that a large part of the costs of private enterprise has been borne by the public authorities—because <em>they</em> pay for the infrastructure—and that they profits of private enterprise therefore greatly overstate its achievement. (p. 292)</p>
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<p>In other words, everybody claims to achieve freedome by his own &quot;system&quot; and accuses every other &quot;system&quot; as inevitably entailing tyranny, totalitarianism, or anarchy leading to both. (p. 302)</p>
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<p>Everywhere people ask: &quot;What can I actaully <em>do</em>?&quot; The answer is as simple as it is disconcerting: we can, each of us, work to put our own inner house in order. The guideance we need for this work cannot be found in science or technology, the value of which utterly depends on the ends they serve; but it can still be found in the traditional wisdom of mankind. (p. 318)</p>
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			<title>Fatale</title>
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				<p>My former coworker Simon did a presentation on his favorite comics right before I left the job and I've been using his list to read some new (to me) comics. This past week I read the first volume of <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Fatale-Vol-1-Death-Chases-Me/digital-comic/26903"><em>Fatale</em></a> by Ed Brubaker and Sean Philips.</p>
<p><em>Fatale</em> is an old fashioned noir looking mystery with a bit of an occult twist. The first volume we meet several characters, two of whom have mysterious powers over other people and they never seem to age. I've started the second volume and the story continues with both of them. The feeling of the drawings and the settings are wonderfully done. I feel like I'm in an old murder mystery movie from the 1950s.</p>
<p>I'm enjoying <em>Fatale</em> quite a bit. I'm drawn to the mystery of the characters and I'm also enjoying the art work as well. If you like mysteries, twists, and a noir feel, you'll enjoy it too.</p>

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			<title>Ms. Marvel, volume 4</title>
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			<updated>2016-04-12T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I read the latest version of <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Ms-Marvel-Vol-4-Last-Days/digital-comic/308263"><em>Ms. Marvel</em></a> over the weekend. I absolutely love that entire series and was sad to see that based on the Comixology page, the series is over, or at least this incarnation of it. G. Willow Wilson has become one of my favorite comic writers and as I wrote when I first talked about <em>Ms. Marvel</em>, I love this comic.</p>
<p>The final volume includes two <em>Amazing Spiderman</em> crossover issues, which were equally good. But it was the final issues of the volume that really got me. Kamala is dealing with her first love going badly, the family dynamics are also quite beautiful, and she meets one of her heroes. It's action packed, but also poignant at many times. <em>Ms. Marvel</em> is probably my favorite comic series ever (at least right now).</p>

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			<title>Lazarus, volume 4</title>
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				<p>I've kept going with <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Lazarus-Vol-4-Poison/digital-comic/332120"><em>Lazarus</em></a> since I read the first volume. I still like it quite a bit and I'm enjoying where the story line is going. Not only are we getting to know the Lazarus better, the families better, but also some of the lesser people on the planet. There have been run ins with serfs and waste (what they call the lower classes in the dystopia).</p>
<p>The main family we've been following the entire time are now at war with another family. They are fighting in remote, desolate locations trying to expand their control. Forever, the Carlyle Lazarus, is leading the charge and I'm still intrigued by the part human, part robot beings that have been created. How does it all work? How do they regenerate? The fact that scientists play a large role in the comic is intriguing and refreshing.</p>

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			<title>Design for Real Life</title>
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				<p>Yesterday afternoon, on a rainy spring day here in Portland, I got under a blanket and read through <a href="https://abookapart.com/products/design-for-real-life"><em>Design for Real Life</em></a> by Eric Meyer and Sara Wachter-Boetcher. This is an important book, especially if you have never thought through how the design of the thing you are making can translate into many different situations and scenarios.</p>
<p>A few years ago, when I was working on a product and helped out with support, I found out how easy it is to slip into the thinking that everyone is like me. But, in doing support, I was snapped out of that thinking, realizing very quickly that most people <em>didn't</em> use the product the way I did. In many ways, <em>Design for Real Life</em> is a manual on how to jolt your self into the realization that many people use products in many different ways and situations.</p>
<p>Eric and Sara lay out the ways in which you can think through these things as you design and write and develop a new feature or product. They also show how different companies have successfully done this, maybe they made some big mistakes, but they also learned from them and worked to do better.</p>
<p>If you're involved in the web, no matter your role, reading this book is worth your time; it'll help you think about these things as your team works. Even though I'm often involved in the code of a site, when I'm in meetings about creating new features or sites, it's important for me to think about these things as well. The more people who are actively thinking about this as your team works together, the better.</p>
<p>My highlights from the epub, broken up by chapter, are below.</p>
<h2>Introduction</h2>
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<p>But making digital products friendly isn’t enough to make them feel human.</p>
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<p>That’s why we’ve chosen to look at these not as edge cases, but as stress cases: the moments that put our design and content choices to the test of real life.</p>
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<p>When we, the people who make digital products, don’t take stress cases into account, we miss out on designing for people who aren’t like us, people whose fears and challenges are different from our own.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 1</h2>
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<p>Engineers don’t have this skill naturally; they’ve been trained to consider worst-case scenarios. The same holds true for programmers. Most start out trying to write programs that will do cool stuff. Over time, they either see enough crashes and security exploits that they learn how to be careful, or they formally study computer engineering and are taught to be careful. Or both.</p>
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<p>It’s the ability to simultaneously work toward and <em>challenge</em> your vision—to ask yourself not only, How can I make this even better? but also, How can I keep this from inflicting pain?</p>
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<p>Moreover, whenever you tell yourself nobody would ever act a certain way or come to your site in certain situations, that moment should raise a huge red flag in your head.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 2</h2>
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<p>Designing for real people is also about making space: ensuring our interfaces and expectations don’t force users into narrow categories, prevent them from using a product in the way that best fits their lives, or make it difficult to complete tasks on their own terms.</p>
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<p>To make design and content decisions that include the most people, we need to train ourselves and adjust our processes to invoke System 2 thinking as often as possible: to slow down, step away from our shortcuts, and consider things with real people in mind.</p>
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<p>It might not be easy to convince your company to stop asking for unnecessary information, but as interface makers, we have a responsibility: to question the decisions and desires that cause harm to our users.</p>
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<p>Lyle Mullican argues that we can apply Postel’s law to user experience design. Humans and machines parse information in fundamentally different ways, he writes. But machines can, and should, be robust enough to accept human information, make sense of it, and make it conform to their more programmatic standards....</p>
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<p>...[W]e should be conservative in what we ask of them, only requesting the fields we actually need. But we should be liberal in what we accept from our users, rather than forcing them into our predefined categories.</p>
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<p>...[F]or each person, only one use case matters: <em>theirs</em>.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 3</h2>
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<p>The personas we create often don’t leave the door open for these imperfections—and so we never imagine them in crisis scenarios.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 4</h2>
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<p>What’s missing is <em>intention</em>: making a specific, purposeful choice about what we’re requesting and why. That lack of intention creates real damage for our users, because every bit of personal information we request....</p>
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<p>...[B]y being intentional about what we ask of our users in the first place, and communicating the context for every interaction as clearly and transparently as possible, we’ll greatly limit the ways we can harm or traumatize them, and also make it easier for them to forgive us when we do.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 5</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Compassion is more than being nice. It’s accepting people as they come—in all their pain, with all their challenges—and not just feeling empathy toward them, but doing something with that empathy. It’s recognizing that users facing stress and crisis need more than our sympathy. They need our help.</p>
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<p>But rather than simply helping designers get into the user’s shoes, like a persona might do, these principles go further. They empower the design team to <em>do something</em> to help, even when it limits PatientsLikeMe’s own options.</p>
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<p>It takes confidence in what you are, and what you do, to set aside your ego long enough to help your users succeed. It’s a confidence many organizations don’t have.</p>
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<p>When it did, it realized that funny mattered a lot less than <em>helpful</em>. It was time to change the way it communicated.</p>
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<p>The point of compassion isn’t to soften bad news or stressful situations with niceties. It’s to come from a place of kindness and understanding, rather than a place of judgment.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 6</h2>
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<p>Critically, you want your interview questions to lead to what Portigal calls the <em>tipping point</em>: the moment when the conversation changes from question-answer, question-answer to question-story, where the participant uses your question as a launching point.</p>
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<p>While asking people to describe the nonexistent product of their dreams won’t work, you can ask people to tell you about their vision for the future.</p>
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<p>That’s why “tell me more about that” is such a magical phrase. It doesn’t lead the interviewee in a specific direction, other than toward more depth, which leaves a door open for them to go wherever they’d like with their answer. It also shows that you’ve been listening, because you’re looping back to something they said earlier.</p>
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<p>What <em>does</em> make sense is to get beyond what your team first perceives as “ideal” or “average.”</p>
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<h2>Chapter 7</h2>
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<p>In many cases, the easiest way to stress-test any design decision is to ask, “WWAHD?”—“What would a human do?” When you’re designing a form, try reading every question out loud to an imagined stranger, listening to how it sounds and imagining the questions they might have in response.</p>
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<p>We call this the “Designated Dissenter”—assigning one person on every team the job of assessing every decision underlying the project, and asking how changes in context or assumptions might subvert those decisions. This becomes their primary role for the lifetime of the project. It is their duty to disagree, to point out unconsidered assumptions and possible failure states.</p>
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<h2>Chapter 8</h2>
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<p>That doesn’t mean business cases aren’t worth making, though. Sometimes, you’ll be surprised at the potential financial impact you uncover. Other times, you’ll find that telling the story of kindness in budgets and bottom lines simply makes the conversation go more smoothly.</p>
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<blockquote>
<p>If you’re in an organization where customer service or support costs are high, you might use GDS as an example of how user-centric, empathetic design can have a real—and even impressive—impact on the bottom line.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Most of us don’t have the power to change our company’s values or realign budgets overnight. We do have the opportunity to become advocates for the users who are easiest to ignore: those whose lives and identities don’t fit the unrealistic ideals our organizations tend to focus on. The more we help others see the world from those users’ eyes, the more difficult it will be for them to push those users to the edges of our work.</p>
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			<title>The Bunker</title>
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			<updated>2016-04-04T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I read my first title from Oni Press over the weekend, <a href="https://www.comixology.com/The-Bunker-Vol-1/digital-comic/109150"><em>The Bunker</em></a> by Joshua Hale Fialkov with art by Joe Infurnari. It's a great dystopia of the future going horribly, but the future is speaking with the present.</p>
<p>A group of friends go to bury a time capsule in the woods on their last day together, but they end up finding a bunker, a bunker filled with various information, but most importantly, letters to each of them from their future selves. From there we learn about a horrible dystopian future that they are all headed for, but their future selves are trying to help them make it better.</p>
<p>The reactions by each of the group are varied, and each of the group plays a very different role in the future and in the present. What's most interesting is how the letters are written, who in the group did what, and how they all react in very, very different ways. Some believe it and go for it and do what their letters say, while others are much more hesitant.</p>
<p>Along with all this are the varied relationships between the group and how those current relationships and the hints at the future relationships play out in the first volume. I really enjoyed <em>The Bunker</em>. I loved the sketchy pencil type of art work. I spent extra time looking at many of the panels; especially now that I'm drawing again, I look at the art work in comics much more closely. The back and forth between the future and present was also super interesting, trying to piece together what each of the group would become and how they could change that.</p>
<p>Now I can't wait to read more volumes, to catch up and see where <em>The Bunker</em> goes.</p>

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			<title>Southern Bastards</title>
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			<updated>2016-04-04T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Recently, my friend <a href="http://colly.com">Simon</a> shared a whole huge list of his favorite comics with me and my workmates and it is a great list for me to be able to pick out some new comics. I stopped by the comic book store last week and they had the first issue of <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Southern-Bastards-Vol-1-Here-Was-A-Man/digital-comic/149445"><em>Southern Bastards</em></a> on the shelf, so I decided to give it a try. I'm going to be honest and say that after reading the first volume, I'm still unsure about the comic. Comixology has the second volume for a pretty good price, so I'm considering reading it digitally or from the library if I do keep going.</p>
<p>The comic takes place in a small town in Alabama, where football is king and the football coach rules the town. What I enjoyed about the comic was the main character coming back and seeing the town and his past through his now much older eyes. What I'm still trying to figure out if I like was all the violence and stereotypes about the south.</p>
<p><em>Southern Bastards</em> has a bit of a feel of small town mafia to it, with control being kept by brute force. And of course, our main character isn't happy about these changes in the town, so he decides to do something about it. It was more about the evil guys being more evil than the good guy in some ways to me. But I <em>may</em> continue on, to see if the main character keeps me interested.</p>

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			<title>Market Day</title>
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			<updated>2016-04-02T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>A lot of comics make their way onto my list for reasons that I usually can't remember. And many of these then make it to my library &quot;For Later&quot; shelf, which is exactly what happened with <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/market-day-9781897299975/1-4"><em>Market Day</em></a> by James Sturm. It is an absolutely lovely story of a man in Eastern Europe in the early 20th century who's losing the way he earned a living, no one will buy his rugs.</p>
<p>But what was amazing and lovely about this story were how many frames were without any dialog, but such beautiful subtle drawings, all from the same palette of taupes and browns. I studied the drawing as I went and was inspired by it. This is one of the reasons I love comics so much; usually it's a great story along with super interesting drawings.</p>
<p>If you like more serious comics, I recommend this slim volume. It's lovely and beautiful.</p>

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			<title>A Web for Everyone</title>
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			<updated>2016-04-01T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>As I continue on the quest to catch up on all the webbish reading I have started or stacked up, I finished <a href="http://rosenfeldmedia.com/books/a-web-for-everyone/"><em>A Web for Everyone</em></a> by Sarah Horton and Whitney Quesenbery and it was a great refresher on accessibility. But the book did more than just refresh me on a bunch of accessibility techniques, it introduced me to so many different people working hard in this area of the web.</p>
<p>Each chapter ended with a spotlight interview on different people who are working towards a better, more accessible web and it opened my eyes to a lot of people I didn't know about but who are doing great work. In addition, the book lays out so many fantastic things to think about as you are designing and building to make sure that all people can access your content. I highly recommend this book if you are interesting in accessibility but just don't know where to start.</p>
<p>I read the epub version of the book and since page numbers are so problematic, I have my highlights broken up by chapter below.</p>
<h2>Chapter 1</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>When we have a web for everyone, <strong>people with diverse abilities and contexts can use the web successfully and enjoyably</strong>.</p>
</blockquote>
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<p>When we talk about design, we mean it in this larger sense: the umbrella over all the skills and disciplines that contribute to the user experience.</p>
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<p>When we talk about design, we mean it in this larger sense: the umbrella over all the skills and disciplines that contribute to the user experience.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>The question, then, is how to avoid creating barriers and thus maximize the accessibility of a product? The answer: by adopting a practice of accessibility.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>“Universal design is appealing because it provides an intentional, designed approach—aesthetic and elegant—while creating products that are often beneficial to everyone.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>And with design thinking, you can use your designer’s toolkit—exploration, prototyping, and testing—to integrate accessibility into elegant, accessible products.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>WCAG + Universal Design + Design Thinking = A Web for Everyone</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 2</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>When designing for differences, people are the first consideration, and sites are designed with the needs of everyone in the audience in mind.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>...[R]emember that people with disabilities are people first, with habits, context, emotions, and preferences—part of the audience for your work.</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 3</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>When considering the purpose and goals, focus on audience goals rather than business goals. In most cases, using a product isn’t a goal in itself, so dig deeper and see what needs it will meet</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>The best time to consider accessibility is at the start of a project when defining the product purpose. When accessibility is part of the purpose and built in from the beginning, the product works better for everyone.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>When good designers shift this around, thinking about accessibility first, they end up with a product that is stronger and more usable for everyone. Considering a diverse audience is just the same as working in many languages or across many devices and platforms. When you include accessibility in your thinking from the beginning, it is just one more aspect of the flexibility needed for today’s products.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>It’s not okay to create a separate design—one that delivers a separate and degraded experience—for people with disabilities.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>The danger of taking advantage of this “equivalent use” approach and relying on other programs for accessibility is that they all have to be kept up-to-date as features and the API change. Over time, the accessible versions can fall behind or even stop working entirely.</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 4</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Machine-readable data is what makes the web so powerful.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>A strong structure allows consistency and flexibility across devices and interaction modes so that everyone has an equitable experience.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>When the code includes all the markup and tags to communicate meaning accurately, the information on the page is <em>programmatically determinable</em>, and a browser or other device can read and act on it.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Web browsers generally—and screen readers, in particular—start reading at the top of a page and read through the code sequentially. The order of the source code makes a difference to search engines, too.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Headings are particularly important, because most screen readers provide a helpful list of headings on a page so that users can use them to navigate the hierarchy of information.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>As the design begins to take shape in the form of sketches, models, and wireframes, take the time to consider whether the emerging user experience concepts lend themselves to coding to standards, and thus to good accessibility for your users.</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 5</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Using known and well-established interactive controls goes a long way in designing for easy interaction.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>With WAI-ARIA, you can identify and describe interactive elements in a way that software can read, so it is accessible to users of assistive technology.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>But you should consider the ramifications carefully before moving away from standard technologies. Is the interaction necessary to the purpose and goals of the product? If so, can you accomplish what’s needed using standard coding? Exhaust the possibility of using standard web technologies before you make a commitment to a non-standard, and therefore less stable and accessible format.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Another common practice is opening links in a new window, usually with the rationale that it will help users return to the originating website because they can just close the window. Unfortunately, opening a new window starts a new browsing history. When users navigate in this new window and try to use the back button to return to the first website, they can’t do so because the first website is not in the history for the programmatically opened window. Indeed, this practice could end up having the exact opposite of the desired effect—in that, users will not be able to find their way back.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>When the design team understands what’s possible within the constraints of the medium, and the developers understand what’s required for universally usable interaction, the results are more likely to be accessible for everyone.</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 6</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Although a clear and consistent model is important for any user, it is especially important for people who use screen readers and other technologies that read the page linearly. For linear access, consistent placement of elements and use of consistent semantic markup, including headings, helps users form mental models.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>There can be too much consistency if it blurs important distinctions. People like predictability, so when the same words, images, or buttons do different things, it’s disorienting and breaks their mental models.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>It’s important to reiterate: there is no one way to provide accessibility. The solution instead is to provide alternatives. For helpful wayfinding, this means offering different navigational options.</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 7</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>People usually think of information design in visual terms, such as how elements are arranged in an information space: they use visual cues, such as alignment and white space, to guide the eye through information and interactive elements. But you cannot rely on just one sense—in this example, vision—to communicate meaning. Users may not have access to information conveyed visually, or they may have changed the display to meet their own needs, thereby changing the information design.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Recently, leading sites like the BBC (www.bbc.co.uk/accessibility) have taken a different approach. First, they build their sites to standards, so they work with all the built-in features of the browsers. Then, instead of building custom controls for flexibility, their accessibility Help pages teach users how to use those features to adjust the display for all sites.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>A quick way to check color contrast is by looking at the presentation in grayscale.</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 8</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Writing in plain language does not mean oversimplifying or dumbing down the content.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>You might also think that writing for the web is different than other writing, but research suggests that guidelines for print and web are very similar. The differences are based on the genre or the type of information being presented. The important consideration for deciding which guidelines to follow is the type of information, especially for information that appears both in print and online.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Writing for your audience means using terminology your audience understands. We’ve emphasized “your audience” because we are not suggesting that all content needs to be reduced to one-syllable words. Plain, accessible language is language that fits the context and the audience.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Readability formulas may seem like a way to define clear writing, but they are not a very good way of evaluating plain language. The reason is simple: these formulas work by counting syllables in words and words in sentences, and those counts have very little to do with whether the information is readable. They also ignore an important part of the definition of plain language: that the content is written for the readers.</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 9</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Making media accessible is critical for a simple reason: without alternatives, the information in images, audio, and video is completely hidden from some people. This creates an absolute barrier to understanding the content and a generally frustrating experience for people who can’t access the information.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>One of the first rules of accessibility that many people learn is “not by color alone.” This doesn’t mean not to use color at all—far from it. Color is an important part of design. It just means you must use redundant cues of shape, position, or text to reinforce the meaning.</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 11</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>When accessibility efforts focus on compliance with guidelines or regulations, it’s seen more as a matter of completing a checklist. The team assigned to evaluate accessibility is typically outside of the product team, and can be seen as the “accessibility cops.”</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Wherever accessibility starts in a company, the simple truth is, if you want to create accessible websites and web apps, concern for accessibility has to be integrated into all the other activities that go into creating a great user experience. Accessibility must be the practice of every person who makes decisions in the design process. It must be simply how you do business.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Whether the site content is created and maintained by a small group of authors or by people across the organization, a style guide can be a helpful way to ensure consistency by documenting decisions and examples of how design, content, and code elements are used.</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 12</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Web accessibility is all of our responsibility. It cannot be realized unless we all make a commitment and work toward a shared vision for the future. Other voices join ours in this look into the future, weighing in, sharing perspectives on what a web for everyone is and what we need to get there. In the end, we ask you to add your voice.</p>
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			<title>Red Sparrow</title>
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				<p>A friend in graduate school had a classification for certain books he read, they were &quot;TV books&quot;, meaning that they were easy, entertaining reads that he read instead of watching things on TV. I've thought of this often over the years since then, and this past week I was consumed by one such book, <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/red-sparrow-9781476706139/18-1"><em>Red Sparrow</em></a> by Jason Matthews.</p>
<p>I've no idea how I discovered <em>Red Sparrow</em>, but I did and over the last week I read through the spy thriller. But I know it made it on my list because one of the main characters was a woman. It's getting better, but finding spy thrillers with women in the lead is quite hard. And this character, Dominika, didn't disappoint. She is a <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Synesthesia">synesthete</a>, words form colors for her, making her incredibly good at reading a person's character and intentions.</p>
<p>As Dominika gets roped into working for the Russian spy service by her uncle, we find out that she is incredibly smart and quickly starts to use the agency to her own advantage since they are using her to theirs. And while she works with the CIA, she is thinking deeply about what the right thing to do is.</p>
<p><em>Red Sparrow</em> is an engaging thriller, with characters I found intriguing, and I can't wait to read the second book in the series, <em>Palace of Treason</em>; I've got a hold on the digital copy and am waiting as patiently as I can.</p>

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			<title>Git for Humans</title>
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			<updated>2016-04-01T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I first read a draft of <a href="https://abookapart.com/products/git-for-humans"><em>Git for Humans</em></a> before it was published, David Demaree asked me to read through and provide a quote for the site about the book. It's a fantastic book and I reread it yesterday to highlight and be able to do a review justice.</p>
<p>I've been muddling my way through Git for several years now. I switched to the command line interface for Git in 2013 when I started working for Editorially, forcing myself to get more comfortable with how Git works. It isn't easy to understand all the inner workings of Git, but Demaree makes it easier. After being in meetups and reading tutorials about how Git works and how branching works, I'll be honest and say Demaree's explanation is the first to make perfect sense to me. And Git itself, while difficult, <em>is</em> easiest to learn while using it.</p>
<p>I'm quite comfortable with Git now, branching, pushing, pulling, dealing with conflicts, but even so, I learned from this book. There are always little tricks that can be found in a book like this and Demaree does such a great job explaining them and helping you learn as you go. Even if you've worked with Git for a while, I still recommend this book, it was a great refresher for me. But if you are just starting to learn and use Git, then I <em>really</em> recommend this book. As with all the A Book Apart books, this is a great, quick read and packed with information.</p>
<p>My highlights are below broken up by chapter, since page numbers in an epub are so useless.</p>
<h2>Foreword</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Git is a kind of model for present-day collaboration—that is, collaboration among distributed teams, working asynchronously, on a shared body of work.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Knowing when and how to commit a change is more than just a means of updating code—it’s also a practice for communicating and sharing work. It’s a process, and a remarkably powerful one.</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Introduction</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Having spent most of the last decade using Git on almost every project, delving at times into some of the darkest, weirdest corners of Git behavior, I can safely say that <em>it’s not you, it’s Git</em>.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Believe it or not, Git’s challenging conceptual model is a feature, not a bug. Using Git feels like running with scissors because it’s a powerful tool that will let you bend time and space to your will, which sounds like—and is—a lot of responsibility to put in the hands of mere humans. But Git believes in your ability to handle such might, and so do I.</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 1</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>But there are at least two areas of our written culture where making incremental changes, and tracking those changes across multiple versions, is not just helpful but crucial: law and (more important for our story) software source code.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>(The computing words “bugs” and “debugging” are popularly attributed to Grace Hopper, who traced problems in the operation of the Harvard Mark II computer to moths that had nested among the data relays.)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Eventually, though, I came to appreciate the benefits of having every significant version of my projects stored, annotated, and neatly organized in a secure location. It also helped me to think of commits as significant changes, as opposed to the hundreds of little changes I might save in a given hour. The extra steps involved in committing—the brief pause from coding, having to write a descriptive message, occasionally having to stop and address conflicts between my version and someone else’s—have ultimately helped me develop a more thoughtful and judicious way of working.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Fortunately, all of these things—enforcing rules, keeping track of versions in a repository of past work, shuttling changes back and forth between the repository and your working copy, even merging together two directories and policing conflicts—are things that computers can do a lot faster and better than we can. By learning and adopting an automated version control system like Git, we can keep our work neatly organized and our changes safely coordinated with one another, all without a lot of effort—that is, once we adopt and learn how to use such a system.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>It’s more accurate to say that, rather than three different files, we’re talking about the <em>same file</em> in three different <em>states</em>. It’s the same file because even though its contents may change, its name stays the same; <em>logically</em>, therefore, it’s the same file.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>...[W]e’re expected to know that behind each logical copy of a file in our working tree, Git is safely storing all the old versions of the file, in each of its previous states.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Git suffers from what I like to call an excess of simplicity.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Git’s design assumes that you not only know how version control systems work, but specifically how <em>Git</em> works.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Git is also one of the most matter-of-fact programs around. It never does more than you tell it to do (though it can be easy to accidentally tell Git to do more than you wanted it to do).</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>If you <em>do</em> get into Git's version of trouble—like if Git can’t easily reconcile conflicting changes, or if it’s uncertain about where to commit your work—there is <em>always</em> a command that will get you out of it, often with whatever work you were trying to save still intact.</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 2</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Typing commands and seeing the responses Git gives back is a great way to learn about how Git actually works, which will pay off when you inevitably run into a confusing situation down the road.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Git is more concerned with managing your commits than with the files whose changes you’re using commits to track. It’s not exactly that Git is indifferent to the contents of your files; it’s just that its model for organizing and managing your work is oriented around commits.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Git is a system of accumulation. It accumulates every change you tell it about, so that you can go back and explore that history later on.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Every commit is self-contained: it doesn’t just reference the things that have changed; it references everything that makes up the state of your project at a given moment.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Frankly, most of the time it’s not only acceptable to use --all, but you’re also almost always better off doing so. Not only will it save you time, but fewer commands means fewer opportunities to accidentally give Git a wrong signal, leading to confusion and heartbreak. With this option, you’re telling Git to trust that the version of your project in the working copy is an accurate reflection of what you’d like to commit.</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 3</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Branches allow us to manage and work with <em>other</em> kinds of versions in Git—experiments, alternate takes, scratch pads—separately from the “official” copy of the work represented by the master branch.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>The best way to understand branches is on their own terms, as a way of organizing and describing work. And the best way to explain <em>that</em> is for us to dive in and start growing some branches.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>There’s no harm in treating branch names like folders in the metaphorical Trapper Keeper of your project.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Ultimately, a branch’s most important role is as a signpost or bookmark, pointing you back to a particular version of your work, distinguishing master from, say, another branch named <code>new-homepage</code>.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>...[B]ranching is quick and cheap, and you’re under no obligation to reconcile the version of your work in a branch with the one in <code>master</code>.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>...[W]hile merge conflicts are more annoying than truly scary, you’re better off avoiding them whenever possible by merging in master regularly.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>The goal of keeping master and topic branches up to date with each other isn’t to prevent conflicts, but rather to make conflicts easier to manage by keeping the differences between two branches small.</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 4</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>There’s an old saying (which, like the word “bug,” is popularly attributed to Grace Hopper): <em>A ship in port is safe, but that’s not what ships were built for</em>.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Remotes are one of Git’s most successful abstractions. Unlike branches, which are wholly virtual copies of your project, each remote corresponds to an actual, physical copy of your repository with which you can exchange data.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>In theory, Git doesn’t consider any one repository to be the canonical one for a given project, although in practice most teams have a single shared remote copy (often hosted on GitHub) that they consider the primary one—what Git conventionally calls the <em>origin</em>.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>The hub also serves as a reliable backup of the code....</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Although the hub is the most canonical backup copy of your repo, every copy contains the complete history of your project.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>With remotes, just as with branches, you’re still managing different versions. In fact, your interactions with remotes will almost always be in the context of a branch.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>The simplest way to set up a tracking relationship is to include the <code>--set-upstream</code> (or <code>-u</code>) option when invoking <code>git push</code>.</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 5</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>The information you put into a message, therefore, should be valuable and useful to the people who will read it.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Finding simpler ways to describe something doesn’t just make the changes you’ve made more comprehensible to your teammates; it’s also a great way to save space.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Each commit represents not only a snapshot of our whole project, but (except for the first one, of course) <em>also</em> a change from a previous commit. Eventually, once you start thinking and working in versions, you will want or need to compare the versions to see, specifically, what has changed. A commit message can give you a summary, but Git also offers a handy way to actually inspect the differences between two commits.</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>But I also find that looking at these things as systems misses Git’s most wonderful quality: people like you (and me, and our teammates) each making changes, evolving our projects one step at a time, crafting histories.</p>
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			<title>Designing for Touch</title>
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			<updated>2016-03-28T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm woefully behind on my webbish related reading, but I'm trying this week to change all that and it starts with finishing <a href="https://abookapart.com/products/designing-for-touch"><em>Designing for Touch</em></a> by Josh Clark. Clark's well known in the world of the web for his passion about interaction design and in particular all the new and varied ways we relate to, use, and design for the multi device world we live in. In <em>Designing for Touch</em>, he doesn't disappoint with a small volume absolutely packed with information.</p>
<p>This book has so much information in so few pages that at times it was a bit overwhelming, in a good way. There is <em>so</em> much to think about now when designing a site or application, and Clark does a fantastic job of pointing out the truly important aspects. I particularly enjoyed the way he spent so much time on gestures and coaching users to discover the gestures that are important in your app. But what strikes me the most about designing for touch, it is the small details. Ensuring your forms bring up the right keyboard, allowing users to discover your gestures, and thinking about making things efficient for the user are the ways in which your application succeeds. And in the end, these things matter for all screen sizes and whether the user is using their hands or a mouse.</p>
<p>And, as usual, the writing and tone of the book is spot on. I laughed out loud at times, and I underlined some passages just because I loved the turn of phrase. Thank you A Book Apart for your continued excellence and Josh Clark for sharing your wisdom.</p>
<p>I read the paper copy of the book and have my highlights broken up by chapter below:</p>
<h2>Chapter 1</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>In the same way real-world objects disappoint when they are physically awkward, your touchscreen interfaces will fail if they are uncomfortable in the hand. This interplay of digits with digital is the crux of designing for touch. (p. 5)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>When touch is introduced, cold pixels somehow take on the warmth and emotional investment of physical objects. (p. 15)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>...[T]he touchscreen isn't a complete mouse replacement, but rather a welcome addition to the mix.... (p. 15)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>And that's the most striking consistency across the form factors we've reviewed: <em>thumbs do the driving now matter how large the screen</em>. (p. 16)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Which actions should be inviting, and which should challenge ever so slightly? (p. 17)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Assume that people will lose sight of everything below the object when they touch it—and of the object itself. This affects how you label controls and confirm touches. (p. 19)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>We need to change the way we <em>think</em> about designing for larger screens. We need to change our thinking about screens, period. They deceive and distract us. What we think we know about screens often takes our designs in the wrong direction. (p. 18-19)</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 2</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>The new <code>pointer</code> media query targets gadgets with <em>fine</em> or <em>course</em> pointing tools—or even on pointer at all, like voice- or keyboard-only interfaces. (p. 45)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Because any device <em>might</em> be used for touch, we must assume it will be. In the face of this uncertainty, it's our job to ensure that the layout is accessible to both cursors and fingers. Every web design—and the same goes for native desktop apps—should be finger friendly. (0. 48)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>The forthcoming standard for CSS4 media queries will introduce a new hover media query that controls styles based on the device's hover ability. (p. 51)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>No matter how chunky or dainty a person's fingers may be, the surface area of fingertips against the screen is remarkably consistent. (p. 54)</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 3</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>You can treat these shortcuts as power-user options by spiriting them away behind hidden panels and revealing them with a gesture. (p. 65)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Tap quality is far more important than tap quantity. As long as each tap delivers <em>something</em>—new info, a completed task, or even a smile—that's a quality tap that maintains momentum. (p. 68)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>A tool intended to feature content shouldn't hide it or give you a thumb sprain to find it. (p. 72)</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 4</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Unfortunately while our hands have a robust vocabulary for speaking to people and objects, we're still in the grammar-school stages of a gestural language for touch-screens. (p. 93)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>When it's not convenient to interact with the primary object, adding a control to work it from a distance is ingenious. (p. 103)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p><em>Buttons are workarounds for moments direct interaction isn't possible.</em> (p. 103)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>When we create the illusion of direct interaction with information, we can finally say that the message is the medium. (p. 105)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>...[W]hen gestures hinge on simple interactions based on the physical world, you may not have to do much education. (p. 108)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Quick-to-discover gestures, combined with well-labeled traditional controls, should always form the foundation of your interface. Always make it easy to figure out your application's basic actions. But don't shy from deploying more abstract gesture shortcuts as <em>alternatives</em> alongside standard controls, like keyboard shortcuts on the desktop. (p. 114)</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 5</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Explicit help is okay by the way. I've heard designers say, &quot;If your interfaces needs explanation, you've failed.&quot; It isn't true. While basic features should be easy and obvious from the get-go, advanced features always need a little instruction, even in the most well-considered interface. (p. 146-147)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Walkthroughs beat tutorials. (p. 150)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>It's like training with wheels: you're moving on your own, but with a few supports to keep you from falling. (p. 150)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>The best teaching interfaces notice your activity, inactivity, and overall learning progress, and adapt their guidance accordingly. That's where leveling up comes in. (p. 152)</p>
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			<title>Ancillary Mercy</title>
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			<updated>2016-03-25T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>The final book of The Imperial Radch series by Ann Leckie, <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/ancillary-mercy-9781410486028/62-0"><em>Ancillary Mercy</em></a> is a great wrap up, tying together a lot of different threads well. But I will say, of the three books in the series, it is the weakest. That doesn't mean I didn't enjoy it, but the story didn't capture me quite as much as the previous books.</p>
<p>In this third installment, Breq continues to lead her small group of loyal followers, working to improve life for those on Athoek Station, while also avoiding the crazy half of the leader of the Radch. While at the same time another species comes more into play, The Presgar, along with the constant threat that they may attack and kill everyone. I found the Presgar interesting, but also a distraction, they didn't seem to flow into the story well for me.</p>
<p>But, as has been the case with the other books, Leckie's writing captures me at times and I highlighted some bits that really caught me, either in the words themselves, or the meaning behind them.</p>
<blockquote>
<p>“And it’s not that simple.” “No, it never is when you’re the one holding the gun.” (loc 3870)</p>
</blockquote>
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<p>&quot;... I’m willing to accept that person is a word that means something to you, certainly, and I think I might be able to sort of guess what you mean. But really, this business about being a person, that’s apparently so important to you, it means nothing to them. They wouldn’t understand it, no matter how much you tried to explain. They certainly don’t consider it necessary for Significance. So the main question appears to be, do these AIs function as Significant beings? And if so, are they human or not human? You yourself have declared them to be not human. The fleet captain apparently does not dispute that judgment. The question of their Significance will, I suspect, be contentious, but the question has been raised, and I judge it to be a valid one, to be answered at a conclave.” (loc 3881)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Entertainments nearly always end with triumph or disaster—happiness achieved, or total, tragic defeat precluding any hope of it. But there is always more after the ending—always the next morning and the next, always changes, losses and gains. Always one step after the other. Until the one true ending that none of us can escape. But even that ending is only a small one, large as it looms for us. There is still the next morning for everyone else. For the vast majority of the rest of the universe, that ending might as well not ever have happened. Every ending is an arbitrary one. Every ending is, from another angle, not really an ending. (loc 3895)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>&quot;... Always remember, Fleet Captain—internal organs belong inside your body. And blood belongs inside your veins.” (loc 3969)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>No real endings, no final perfect happiness, no irredeemable despair. (loc 4110)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>In the end it’s only ever been one step, and then the next. (loc 4117)</p>
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			<title>Ancillary Sword</title>
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			<updated>2016-03-16T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I finished <em>Ancillary Justice</em> and eagerly put a hold on the next volume, <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/ancillary-sword-imperial-radch-book-2-9780316246651/2-1"><em>Ancillary Sword</em></a> at the library to be able to get to it as soon as possible. <em>Ancillary Justice</em> ended on quite the cliff hanger and I could wait to keep going.</p>
<p>And, while in some waiting rooms and on some planes, I quickly read <em>Ancillary Sword</em>. The story line that was so compelling in the first book, a civil war in the empire, kept going at a fantastic pace. And as Breq moves from moving in the shadows to being a fleet commander on one side of the war, her diplomatic skills are tested and amazing.</p>
<p>This book confronts who is part of a society and who isn't. Who do we call Citizen and who is left at the bottom and not even considered a real person. Leckie delves deeper into this topic and she does it with such fantastic writing. Breq is the advocate for all, quietly pointing out the problems she sees, and fighting for those with no voice.</p>
<p>I can't wait to finish up the next book in the series, I've already started it.</p>
<blockquote>
<p>Strange, how equally important, just different always seemed to translate into some “equally important” roles being more worthy of respect and reward than others. (loc 3142)</p>
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			<title>Ancillary Justice</title>
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				<p>I started The Imperial Radch series based on the review on <a href="http://aworkinglibrary.com/reading/ancillary-justice/">Mandy's</a> site. And Ann Leckie is a great writer. In the first book, <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/ancillary-justice-uk-ed-9780356502403/2-1"><em>Ancillary Justice</em></a> we meet Breq, and it's quite unclear exactly who she is. But as you read, you are taken into a world of a large empire that slowly takes over various civilizations to expand its reach.</p>
<p>And Breq, who we aren't always sure who she is, slowly tells a story of her now and her past. As she travels, looking for a mystery item, we travel with her and see where she came from, along with how the empire functions. The last third of the book is so fantastic, the back story comes together, and I was cheering on Breq as not only revealed who she really is but as she helped others she encountered in her quest.</p>
<p>What is startling and amazing about the world Leckie creates is that everyone is referred to as she. It is rare, and only in certain languages and cultures, do we ever see anyone referred to by a male pronoun. This small detail, which isn't that small, sets up a world where the language is one that I could relate to and understand. It was both enlightening about how my mind works as much as what I expect and associate with the pronouns we use in English.</p>
<blockquote>
<p>Choose my aim, take one step and then the next. It had never been anything else. (loc 4690)</p>
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			<title>Another year</title>
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			<updated>2016-03-05T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>It's that time of year again for me, another year of my life is starting. This past year has been really good in several ways, but's ending on a difficult note. I can't go into much now, so I'll just leave you with a throwback photo. This is me with my dad, I'm around 3 years old, and it's one of my favorite childhood photos.</p>
<p>Here's to starting another year of life, to hoping for good things, to being grateful for the very wonderful things I have right now; friends, family, a great home town, and the most wonderful husband in the world.</p>
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			<title>Gilead</title>
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			<updated>2016-02-12T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I grew up in a Christian home. A good Scandinavian Lutheran home, to be exact. It wasn't a strict, conservative home by any stretch of the imagination. My mom sees many shades of gray, she believes there are a lot of explanations for things that happen in this world, but she finds comfort in the Church. And I, in my young adult life, fell very heavily into the more conservative, evangelical world and went on to get a Masters in Christian Studies.</p>
<p>But in the last decade, I've changed much of what I think in regards to religion and beliefs. But I still find comfort in Christian stories, in the things I grew up with, even if I don't fully believe it all and I'm not dogmatic about it at all. And there are certain writers that I've read over the past years that are writing from a Christian point of view, and they tell great stories. They aren't dogmatic, they aren't pushy, they talk lovingly of grace, hope, belief.</p>
<p>I just finished <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/gilead-uk-9781844081486/7-4"><em>Gilead</em></a> by Marilynne Robinson and it is one of those beautifully written books. Her writing reminds me of one of my all time favorite authors, Wendell Berry. As I read <em>Gilead</em> I was reminded of thoughtful, thinking faith. I was reminded of all the good things I find in many of the people I've known in my life. Not all Christians are what we see in the media, especially in an election year.</p>
<p>John Ames is writing to his young son, as he is dying. He married again as an older man and had a child very late in life. And as he writes about life, the town they live in, grace, hope, faith, and much more, you see a picture of a man who is pondering his life as it is ending.</p>
<p>I read the kindle version of the book, graciously loaned by my local public library, highlights below.</p>
<blockquote>
<p>There’s a lot under the surface of life, everyone knows that. A lot of malice and dread and guilt, and so much loneliness, where you wouldn’t really expect to find it, either. (loc 55)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Then I realized that what I saw was a full moon rising just as the sun was going down. Each of them was standing on its edge, with the most wonderful light between them. It seemed as if you could touch it, as if there were palpable currents of light passing back and forth, or as if there were great taut skeins of light suspended between them. (loc 168)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>There is a reality in blessing, which I take baptism to be, primarily. It doesn’t enhance sacredness, but it acknowledges it, and there is a power in that. (loc 286)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>I do try to write the way I think. But of course that all changes as soon as I put it into words. (loc 363)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>But I believe we knew also that his eccentricities were thwarted passion, that he was full of anger, at us not least, and that the tremors of his old age were in some part the tremors of pent grief. (loc 436)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>I get much more respect than I deserve. This seems harmless enough in most cases. People want to respect the pastor and I’m not going to interfere with that. But I’ve developed a great reputation for wisdom by ordering more books than I ever had time to read, and reading more books, by far, than I learned anything useful from, except, of course, that some very tedious gentlemen have written books. This is not a new insight, but the truth of it is something you have to experience to fully grasp. (loc 503)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>I was struck by the way the light felt that afternoon. I have paid a good deal of attention to light, but no one could begin to do it justice. There was the feeling of a weight of light—press—ing the damp out of the grass and pressing the smell of sour old sap out of the boards on the porch floor and burdening even the trees a little as a late snow would do. It was the kind of light that rests on your shoulders the way a cat lies on your lap. So familiar. (loc 669)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>I know this is all mere apparition compared to what awaits us, but it is only lovelier for that. There is a human beauty in it. And I can’t believe that, when we have all been changed and put on incorruptibility, we will forget our fantastic condition of mortality and impermanence, the great bright dream of procreating and perishing that meant the whole world to us. In eternity this world will be Troy, I believe, and all that has passed here will be the epic of the universe, the ballad they sing in the streets. Because I don’t imagine any reality putting this one in the shade entirely, and I think piety forbids me to try. (loc 741)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>So often I have known, right there in the pulpit, even as I read the words, how far they fell short of any hopes I had for them. And they were the major work of my life, from a certain point of view. I have to wonder how I have lived with that. (loc 907)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Transgression. That is legalism. There is never just one transgression. There is a wound in the flesh of human life that scars when it heals and often enough seems never to heal at all. (loc 1622)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>So that is the honoring of the child. You see how it is godlike to love the being of someone. Your existence is a delight to us. (loc 1815)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>...[A]t the root of real honor is always the sense of the sacredness of the person who is its object. (loc 1858)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>It is a strange thing, after all, to be able to return to a moment, when it can hardly be said to have any reality at all, even in its passing. A moment is such a slight thing, I mean, that its abiding is a most gracious reprieve. (loc 2172)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>...[H]ave thought about that very often—how the times change, and the same words that carry a good many people into the howling wilderness in one generation are irksome or meaningless in the next. (loc 2375)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>I have had a certain amount of experience with skepticism and the conversation it generates, and there is an inevitable futility in it. It is even destructive. (loc 2378)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>He just assumed that his side of the question was “the truth” and only cowardice could be preventing me from admitting as much. (loc 2392)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>I believe I am beginning to see where the grace is for me in this. I have prayed considerably, and I have slept awhile, too, and I feel I am reaching some clarity. (loc 2711)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>I might seem to be comparing something great and holy with a minor and ordinary thing, that is, love of God with mortal love. But I just don’t see them as separate things at all. (loc 2747)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>If we can be divinely fed with a morsel and divinely blessed with a touch, then the terrible pleasure we find in a particular face can certainly instruct us in the nature of the very grandest love. (loc 2749)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>In my experience of it, age has a tendency to make one’s sense of oneself harder to maintain, less robust in some ways. (loc 2827)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>On the other hand, he is a man about whom you may never hear one good word, and I just don’t know another way to let you see the beauty there is in him. (loc 3108)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>There is no justice in love, no proportion in it, and there need not be, because in any specific instance it is only a glimpse or parable of an embracing, incomprehensible reality. It makes no sense at all because it is the eternal breaking in on the temporal. (loc 3193)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>...[G]race is not so poor a thing that it cannot present itself in any number of ways. (loc 3213)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>There are a thousand thousand reasons to live this life, every one of them sufficient. (loc 3259)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>It has seemed to me sometimes as though the Lord breathes on this poor gray ember of Creation and it turns to radiance—for a moment or a year or the span of a life. And then it sinks back into itself again, and to look at it no one would know it had anything to do with fire, or light. (loc 3283)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>There are two occasions when the sacred beauty of Creation becomes dazzlingly apparent, and they occur together. One is when we feel our mortal insufficiency to the world, and the other is when we feel the world’s mortal insufficiency to us. (loc 3291)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>...[T]hink there must also be a prevenient courage that allows us to be brave—that is, to acknowledge that there is more beauty than our eyes can bear, that precious things have been put into our hands and to do nothing to honor them is to do great harm. (loc 3295)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>What have I to leave you but the ruins of old courage, and the lore of old gallantry and hope? Well, as I have said, it is all an ember now, and the good Lord will surely someday breathe it into flame again. (loc 3298)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>This whole town does look like whatever hope becomes after it begins to weary a little, then weary a little more. But hope deferred is still hope. (loc 3306)</p>
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			<title>The Golden Specific</title>
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			<updated>2016-01-30T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Last fall while on vacation I picked a book at random from my library list and read it, <a href="/reading/the-glass-sentence/"><em>The Glass Sentence</em></a>. And as I said then, I really enjoyed the characters and the story. Well, Sophia and friends are back in <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/the-golden-specific-map-makers-2-9780670785032/2-4"><em>The Golden Specific</em></a> and it's just as much fun. And this book ends with a huge cliff hanger, so I'm eagerly awaiting the next book out this summer.</p>
<p>In this edition, we find Sophia at home with her Uncle, but this time, she's received some clues as to her parents' whereabouts, so she is spending her time searching. Meanwhile, in their local politics a very bad man is rising to power. The tension is high and the cast of characters are searching for ways out. Sophia's Uncle is accused of murder and in prison and hardly seen for most of this book, so the focus is on Sophia, who travels across the Atlantic on her own, and Theo, who is trying to free the Uncle.</p>
<p>I really enjoy these books. And, because G asked me about the age group I looked that up, they are great for late elementary school kids. I highly recommend if you know a young reader, pass on these titles if they don't know about them already.</p>

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			<title>Star Wars (Comic)</title>
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			<updated>2016-01-30T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>In and amongst my reading this past month, comics have take a bit of a back seat. But I did read the first volume of <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Star-Wars-Vol-1-Skywalker-Strikes/digital-comic/288055"><em>Star Wars</em></a> and enjoyed it. It's a new series, still ongoing, and I'm going to keep going with it. I also am playing around with the Marvel app, which is where I bought and read this one, liking that so far. Plus, this was very difficult to find in my local bookshops, so I turned to digital for it.</p>
<p>We find the gang from the original Star Wars movie battling The Empire, just after the Death Star has been blown up, so this is in an interesting time line to me. I liked it, it was a good adventure, and I also enjoyed a different spin on the characters that are so well known. I have a whole slew of comics sitting on my &quot;to read&quot; shelf, but when I need to buy some new ones, I'll be getting back to this series.</p>

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			<title>A Tale of Two Cities</title>
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			<updated>2016-01-30T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I know, it's been a while since I've written about anything I've read. It's not that I haven't been reading, but more that I've been reading several things at once and just haven't finished much until this past week. In addition, the holiday break saw me reading slowly, chewing and digesting the words in a new way, and I've kept that up in some fashion as I've read this month. But, this week I did finish some things and wanted to record a few thoughts here.</p>
<p>First up is <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/a-tale-of-two-cities-9780812505061/62-0"><em>A Tale of Two Cities</em></a>, which has been sitting on the &quot;to read&quot; shelf for quite some time and I remember picking it up as an idea of something to read on a vacation and that never happened. So, during the holidays I began the book. Dickens writes in a wordy fashion, his books are dense, but thankfully the chapters are shorter as it was originally a series. So I slowly read bit by bit before bed most nights and this past week I finished.</p>
<p>If you don't like lots of back story and set up, then I'm afraid you shouldn't read this one. It takes quite a long time to get to the meat of the story and the conflict and we don't find out the big secret until just pages before the end of the book. But I enjoyed it. I enjoyed experiencing my first Dickens book, since I've never read him and only know his stories through plays and movies. I also enjoyed the view of the French Revolution, while I have no idea how completely accurate his portrayal is, it was interesting to see that piece of history from a different set of eyes, an aristocrat who had left France and returns trying to save someone.</p>
<p>The one funny thing about all this is that I saw the Mel Brooks movie <em>A History of the World, Part One</em> when I was quite young (possibly too young to see it, but such is life when you are the youngest), and, if you've seen the movie, you know there is a section on the French Revolution. In that section there is a character who constantly knits, even without yarn, and it's based on a character from <em>A Tale of Two Cities</em>. I will admit, I had a hard time not seeing that actor's face whenever the character of Madame Defarge came up in the book.</p>

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			<title>Taking a break</title>
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			<updated>2016-01-04T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I think by now most of use have read that balance and taking breaks are a good idea. But it still hits home when you actually do it and reap the benefits. And this past holiday season I was fortunate enough to get the time to take a break, as my company closes down for the two weeks surrounding Christmas and New Year's.</p>
<p>This is the first time I've had the winter break off since graduate school and, to be quite honest, it felt a bit strange at first. Two weeks off with no trip planned, nothing special going on, just able to <em>be</em> at home. But I knew I needed the break.</p>
<p>How did I know? I had absolutely no desire to do <em>anything</em> on a computer or related to the web at all as soon as I was done with work on December 18. I spent the first week of my break either baking cookies, cooking food for the holiday, or drawing with pen and paper.</p>
<p>I had put it on my list to watch some videos related to Sass, but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. I told myself I'd do it the following week, between Christmas and New Year's.</p>
<p>And I came into the time off feeling some pressure to come up with things to write about related to the web, but I had nothing. I couldn't think of a thing, and was actually contemplating not writing for a while.</p>
<p>By the time the second week rolled around, I <em>still</em> had no desire to do anything related to code, the web, or work. All I wanted to do was draw, watch crappy TV, listen to podcasts, do yoga, or go for long walks in the neighborhood.</p>
<p>So that's exactly what I did. And then a funny thing happened. A few days before New Years I was asked to contribute a little blurb to something about what I was excited about learning in 2016 (web related). I let the email sit, unsure if I was going to respond and went on with my day. But the question nagged at me and as I moved through my day I was thinking about it, in the back of my head. The next day I sat down and wrote the blurb quickly, it was already kinda there in my head.</p>
<p>That night, as I was going to sleep, my brain was churning with the idea for a new talk or article based on some things I read in mid December. I wanted to think about them, I was already doing so underneath the other stuff that was occupying my time, things were percolating. I had at least one, and possibly more, writing ideas.</p>
<p>And the only reason that was able to happen was because I took a break. I stepped away, fairly completely, from what I usually think about during my work week and allowed my brain rest and relaxation, even boredom at times. And as a reward, ideas came began to form.</p>
<p>If you want to see what I did with my winter break, you can read a bit <a href="/photos/how-i-spent-winter-break/">here</a>, or head over to <a href="https://www.flickr.com/photos/susanjeanrobertson/albums/72157662485038401">Flickr</a> and see some photos.</p>

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			<title>Goodbye Stranger</title>
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			<updated>2015-12-29T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been scouring the best of the year lists over the past few weeks and my library wish list has grown exponentially. And, in my quest to take a true break this holiday season, I've been reading a lot of fiction that I otherwise may not read. So a few days ago I downloaded  <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/goodbye-stranger-9780385743174/2-0"><em>Goodbye Stranger</em></a> by Rebecca Stead from my local library. I knew very little about the book other than that it made best of lists, but I dove in.</p>
<p>Recently I've found young adult books to be an awesome way to read something that I can read quickly, but usually punches me in the gut with some profound thoughts about life, learning, growing up (which I think I'm still doing), and who we are as people. I always go into the book thinking it will be an easy read, but then I get a sucker punch somewhere along the way. <em>Goodbye Stranger</em> was no exception to this.</p>
<p>It's a book about three friends, three friends who are making their way through middle school, that time of life fraught with so much self doubt. The twist is that one of them nearly died in a bad car accident about 3 or 4 years previously, so she feels an added burden to figure out why she (Bridge) is alive and there at all. The relationship between the girls brought me right back to middle school and made me think often of the friends I had then and all the stupid things I did.</p>
<p>But for me, it was the family relationships that intrigued me. Bridge has an older brother and in that relationship I saw so much of the way things were with my older brother when I was young. The antagonism, the bickering, but also, when you need it most, the absolute certainty that there is love and a bond between you. And it is Jamie, her older brother, that has the profound thoughts at the end of the book that were my sucker punch. It's worth a read if you don't mind a trip back to middle school.</p>
<p>As a complete side note: this is my most likely my last reading post of 2015. I've read more this past year than ever before, and documented it all (with one exception, I only write about the first comic volume in a series, but for the <em>most</em> part, I do continue to read more). It's been so wonderful to share these tidbits with whoever happens upon this site. And it's been a truly wonderful way for me to look back and remember my year through books.</p>

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			<title>Discipline</title>
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			<updated>2015-12-17T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been thinking a lot about the word discipline. What it means for my day-to-day life, what it means as far as how I want to live a better life, and how I discipline myself. Of course, when I say that word, I'm not thinking of punishment, but I'm thinking about small changes in my life that will eventually lead to a healthier me, being in a better place to deal with the ups and downs of life.</p>
<p>This all began when, at the end of October, I decided to cut way back on the amount of alcohol I consume. I read some articles about healthy consumption levels and then I thought about how much I, on average, drink in a given week. The levels were different. And not in a good way.</p>
<p>I'm not here to say what <em>you</em> should or shouldn't do. This was my decision; a decision based on several different things going on in my life that I felt needed to change. Alcoholism runs in my family, and I realized I was using alcohol as a coping mechanism rather than as an enjoyable thing I added to a meal or enjoyed when with friends.</p>
<p>Drinking was more of a habit, instead of being a conscious decision.</p>
<p>I'm down to 5 drinks a week. The number that's healthy for the average woman, according to the <a href="http://www.cdc.gov/alcohol/fact-sheets/alcohol-use.htm">CDC</a>, is 7. But I wanted alcohol-free days, and I wanted to get used to ways to cope/deal with the frustrations of life without making an Old Fashioned or pouring a glass of wine.</p>
<p>I deliberately did this during a time I normally drink more: the holidays. Add in speaking at a conference/mini-vacation abroad, and it was a good way to test if I could do it.</p>
<p>Here's what I found out about drinking: it's all about ritual for me. The ritual of making the drink and then enjoying it. On the days I didn't drink, I still wanted to make <em>something</em>, to have that moment of slowing down which leads to relaxation. So I started drinking bitters and soda with some type of citrus fruit most days. Putting together two things, mixing them, and adding in the garnish, it felt like a drink.</p>
<p>And then, just recently I watch an episode of <em>The West Wing</em>, “Bartlett for America”, and Leo talks about drinking, what it means for him.</p>
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<p>I said, I like the little things. The way a glass feels in your hand—a good glass, thick, with a heavy base. I love the sound an ice cube makes when you drop it from just the right height.</p>
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<p>I can <em>completely</em> relate to this entire speech. It's worth watching the whole <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ma3d-YdLjCs">scene</a>, in my opinion, it's really great television. And that’s what made me realize that what I'm doing—cutting back, being disciplined—has been the right thing for me.</p>
<p>The only footnote I'll add on to this is that, wow, people are annoying about this. I've had servers give me a bad time about not wanting alcohol, I've had friends look at me strangely, and I've felt like I have to explain myself way more than I should.</p>
<p>If someone isn't drinking, give them a break, it's not a bad thing. Remember, others’ actions aren't judging yours, I'm doing what's best for me, and that in no way is a judgement on what you are or aren't doing.</p>
<p>Then, on December 1st, I decided to add another piece to the mix. I started a 30-day challenge and chose doing yoga daily as my challenge.</p>
<p>Yoga, as I defined it for my 30-day challenge, means doing either <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Asana">Asana</a>, <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pranayama">Pranayama</a>, or meditation every day. Some days, I don't do what many think of as &quot;yoga&quot; but it's yoga for me.</p>
<p>I had one change of habit going well, drinking less, and then I added another. And it's been amazing. Drinking less means I'm sleeping better, feeling better, and as a bonus, I've lost some weight. Doing yoga daily means that I take time out to slow down, listen to my body, and get away from everything. And even though I'm just past the halfway mark, my back feels amazing.</p>
<p>I recently read this quote in <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/yoga-at-home-inspiration-for-creating-your-own-home-practice-9780789329431/1-0"><em>Yoga at Home</em></a> and it hit home.</p>
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<p>Cultivate discipline. Discipline breeds familiarity and brings you to a place where you can recognize yourself. ... Familiarize yourself with yourself.</p>
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<p class="small">Thanks to Matthew Oliphant and Kristin Valentine for editing and giving feedback on this post.</p>

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			<title>Ex Machina</title>
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			<updated>2015-12-15T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I made another foray into the comics of writer Brian K. Vaughan last week, reading the first volume of <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Ex-Machina-Book-One/digital-comic/64612"><em>Ex Machina</em></a>. It took me a few issues to really get into it, since there is so  much going back and forth in time to explain the story, but overall I really enjoyed it. It's nice to see a story about a person who gets super powers but still insists on trying to go a different route to make a difference.</p>
<p>I also found the powers of the main character intriguing in this comic. Power over machines feels very much like a necessary power in the future, as we mechanize more and more of our lives, it's interesting to think about how that could affect life now and into the future. As I read, I thought about all the machines I interact with daily and don't really think about at all, so it got me thinking, which is one thing I always like about a comic.</p>
<p>I enjoyed the drawing in this one, the green hue of most of the book is an interesting choice, but it went well with the vibe of the writing, I was skeptical of it before starting. I also found it interesting the tie in with real life history, changing historical events always interests me because the what ifs are endless. So, overall, it's a recommend for this one. I find I'm liking Vaughan's writing quite a bit, volume two is on the coffee table right now, waiting to be read.</p>

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			<title>American Terroir</title>
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			<updated>2015-12-15T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Over a year ago I started reading <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/american-terroir-9781596916487/1-11"><em>American Terrior: Savoring the Flavors of Our Woods, Waters, and Fields</em></a> by Rowan Jacobsen. It's the type of book where you can read a chapter, put it down, and come back to it weeks or months later and pick it right back up. Which is exactly how I read the book. Jacobsen researches various different foods and looks deeply at how the place they come from influences so much about them. Overall it's a fascinating, delightful read if you are interested in food and what makes one region able to produce something another cannot.</p>
<p>He explores foods all over North American, going to Montreal to look at a foraging restaurant there, he's in Vermont talking with a maple syrup producer. He talks about chocolate and avocados in Mexico. In each chapter he delves deeply into the subject, but he doesn't get so detailed that you get bored, it's just the right amount of information, and he ends each chapter with recipes and links to more information. I recommend it.</p>
<p>I read the kindle version, so highlights are associated with locations.</p>
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<p>There was something about Farmer Brown’s land—the soil, the water, the microclimate. He had the best spot, and he had the best corn. That’s terroir. (loc 80)</p>
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<p>Terroir almost invariably finds its roots in bedrock, in the workings of tectonic plates and glaciers, along with the realities of climate and geography. (loc 97)</p>
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<p>While the appellation system began as a guarantee of quality, it became part of the national soul—a map of the flavors of France. (loc 189)</p>
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<p>If our terroir is immature, it’s also youthful, with all the energy and exuberance that brings. If you want to tour the museum of old terroir masterpieces, go to France and Italy. If you want to visit the galleries where new artists are trying new things, look around America. (loc 201)</p>
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<p>Food has always helped to define our lives and anchor us to a particular time and place on this planet. To love food that is real and distinctive—that could not come from anywhere other than where it does—is to love the myriad and dazzling ways that life has adapted to the many landscapes of Earth. It is to rebel against the flat meaninglessness of sprawl. (loc 246)</p>
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<p>Because until the advent of the modern grocery, every food had a story. Anonymous food is not the norm; it’s the aberration. Whether we are buying it from the farmer at a market, or growing it ourselves, or, further back, gathering it ourselves, food comes heavy with history and meaning. (loc 259)</p>
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<p>Coffee drinkers have no time for contemplation. Whether it’s Turkish men arguing loudly around a table while sipping thimblefuls of black mud, Italians knocking back an espresso in a stand-up bar while dodging their mother and their mistress, or Silicon Valley entrepreneurs brewing another pot while burning through venture capital, coffee drinkers always seem to be on the verge of losing control of their lives. (loc 909)</p>
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<p>In so many organisms, a challenging environment seems to foster character. (loc 1233)</p>
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<p>It’s about the most stress-free life an organic apple tree could have, and it makes an important point about terroir: Mimicking nature is not always the goal (as Europe’s winemakers learned long ago). Sometimes, like William Faulkner, a thing achieves its best expression in its native landscape. Sometimes, like Cormac McCarthy, it has to head west to find itself. (loc 1408)</p>
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<p>We speak of “honey” as if it is one thing, but honey is really a category of foods made by bees using plants of all kinds. There are as many honeys as there are fruits, and they are just as diverse. (loc 1625)</p>
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<p>The handful of plants that comprise most American diets have not been chosen because they are particularly compelling, but because they are convenient and efficient. (loc 2394)</p>
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<p>Yet the memorable wines, the ones that stay with me, aren’t trying to be attractive. More girl-next-door than performer, they are quirky and sometimes even flawed from a conventional perspective. They just are what they are. These are the wines to engage. You won’t get a striptease out of them, but you may discover something genuinely lovely. You may even luck into a steady relationship. (loc 3523)</p>
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<p>The smell can be off-putting, but many of us, like Pavlov’s dogs, quickly learn to associate it with the deliciousness to follow. By digesting protein, the brevibacteria break it down into amino acids, also known as umami, the kind of savory, mouth-filling taste that makes many people howl in crazed joy. (loc 4216)</p>
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<p>That has been the trend all over the world: increasing industrialization, automation, and sameness. Which makes the recent outbreak of artisan cheesemaking in the United States—Nature asserting herself in a dazzling display of terroir-driven delights—all the more astonishing. (loc 4297)</p>
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<p>We do this because chocolate is our most complex food. More than six hundred different aromatic molecules have been identified in it. Chocolate is not one specific flavor so much as everything you can think of; it’s the brown taste you get when you mix together all the colors in the flavor box. (loc 4459)</p>
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			<title>Going Responsive</title>
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			<updated>2015-12-08T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Last night I finished up Karen McGrane's latest book, <a href="http://abookapart.com/products/going-responsive"><em>Going Responsive</em></a> and if you know people, especially bosses or CEOs who aren't sure if going all in with responsive web design is for them, this is the book to give them. Karen brings together her years of working with companies helping them go responsive, along with the podcast interviews, and research she's done, to make the definitive argument on why responsive web design is the right choice.</p>
<p>The first chapter hits you over the head (in a good way) again and again with research and testimonies to show why going responsive is the best solution and then she goes on to outline how to approach the project, talk about performance, content, collaboration, and finally how to test and measure if your site is meeting the goals you set.</p>
<p>As someone who is already fully on board with the benefits of going responsive, Karen's book is a good reminder of all the reasons why. It's also fantastic to have a resource with all the research brought together succinctly in one place. I particularly enjoyed the chapter on performance, it's early on in the book, as it should be in the process of a redesign. <em>Everyone</em> needs to be on board with thinking about performance early on, not just developers, and Karen points that out and gives a lot of helpful ways to think about it for those not in charge of the code base.</p>
<p>If you are in a situation where you are desperately trying to convince people that responsive is a good idea, this is the book to give people to read and think about. When you read about how going responsive has helped companies such as Vox, Capital One, Fidelity, and Marriott, how can you not see its benefit for your organization, no matter the size.</p>
<p>I read the epub version of the book in iBooks on my trusty iPad mini, I've got page numbers here, but that's so dependent on font sizing, etc that I'm not sure it helps, so I've broken things down by chapter as well.</p>
<h2>Foreword</h2>
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<p>Yet again, a complexity offers us a new opportunity: by making things for others, we get to learn how to better work with each other. (p 6)</p>
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<h2>Introduction</h2>
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<p>Going responsive requires everyone—everyone!—to approach the design and development process with a new perspective. (p 8)</p>
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<p>Responsive design can’t be implemented by hardworking designers and developers without support and buy-in from the rest of the organization. (p 10)</p>
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<h2>Chapter 1</h2>
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<p>The sheer diversity of new devices—with their endless variety of operating systems, form factors, input mechanisms, and functionality—means that we must let go of device-specific design decisions and take a more holistic view. (p 21)</p>
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<p>The amount of time we spend on desktop or laptop computers (roughly two and a half hours per day) has remained consistent, even as mobile use has skyrocketed (p 22)</p>
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<p>In fact, the only thing we can reliably know is the size of the browser window. That’s it! (p 32)</p>
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<p>Rather than basing our decision-making and design processes on fragile or inaccurate assumptions about device types, responsive design ensures that the site will work on every screen size. (p 33)</p>
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<p>Companies waste a lot of time trying to imagine how what a smartphone user wants differs from what a desktop user wants. Responsive design makes that decision a snap—just serve the same website to everyone. (p 34)</p>
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<p>Industry-wide trends are one thing, but what if your company is different? It might be—but it probably isn’t. When companies across every industry look at their data, they find that people look for the same information and complete the same tasks on every size of device. (p 38)</p>
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<p>Rather than wasting time debating how the needs of mobile and desktop users were different, Microsoft decided it would be faster and easier to deliver the same experience to everyone using responsive design. (p 39)</p>
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<p>Given that budgets are tight, valuable resources should be spent on editorial processes and infrastructure upgrades that provide more value than device-specific targeting. (p 40)</p>
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<blockquote>
<p>Responsive design provides a foundation that allows anyone—anywhere, on any device—to do research and complete transactions. (p 42)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Users want and need the same information on every device they own. Responsive design is the simplest way to deliver the best experience. (p 45)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>By shifting to a responsive design, a single unified team can work together to build a single website that serves everyone equally. (p 48)</p>
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<blockquote>
<p>This triad of arguments—dealing with device diversity, supporting user behavior across devices, and implementing unified development processes—can be summed up as a larger philosophical perspective: there is only One Web. The essence of the web is its fluidity and flexibility, and responsive design extends that core concept across different screen sizes and device types. (p 49)</p>
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<p>Google recognizes that a responsive site can make link sharing easier for users and improve load time over the alternatives. Responsive also makes Google’s job easier, because they only need to crawl and index a single website. (p 53)</p>
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<p>News flash: users have always spent most of their time on desktop computers using apps. And yet, no one ever found that cause for alarm—or an indication that the web is dead. (p 60)</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 2</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Along with designing and building a responsive website, many companies are tackling a wider set of problems that get bundled into a redesign (p 100)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Like any new methodology, there will be an initial cost associated with getting everyone up to speed—but over the long term, it won’t cost more or take more time. It will just be the way teams work. (p 101)</p>
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<p>Doing a retrofit forced them to focus on the responsive aspects of the project without getting sidetracked by larger questions of redesigning the site, editing the content, or replatforming the CMS. For many websites, a retrofit also helps mitigate political concerns around changing or damaging the desktop experience, since it doesn’t change much. (p 106)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Trei Brundrett, Chief Product Officer at Vox Media, said, “A responsive design approach really wasn’t a design approach, it was an organizational approach to thinking and aligning everything else about how we worked and how we built things together.” (p 118)</p>
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<p>Teams now must be encouraged—and incentivized—to build products that work across all devices. (p 120)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Many organizations privately report they had a tricky political situation to navigate, where responsive, app, and m-dot approaches stood as proxies for the professional future of leaders within the team. (p 120)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Collaboration and iteration—always a good idea—are at the very heart of a successful responsive redesign. (p 121)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>...[T]he long-term success of responsive projects requires that your design and development teams all pull in the same direction. (p 121)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Teams report that going responsive makes them more collaborative, and the benefits of that last beyond this one initiative. (p 127)</p>
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<h2>Chapter 3</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>What happens after even a short delay? Users abandon the site outright, or they muddle onward, but conversion rates are low. (p 141)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>But HTML, CSS, and scripts make up a small fraction of the total page weight. The real problem occurs when imperfectly implemented responsive design forces less-capable devices to download content that doesn’t get shown to the user. (p 152)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Rather than downloading and shrinking large images, optimize your image files or implement responsive images. Rather than downloading and hiding content, make sure less capable devices only download what they need. (p 154)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>The biggest culprits behind bloated, heavy pages aren’t necessarily under your developers’ control. Performance suffers because stakeholders insist they must have everything but the kitchen sink on the website. Full-bleed images, giant carousels, web fonts, social widgets—each of these comes at a cost, and the user pays for it in download speed. (p 155)</p>
</blockquote>
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<p>Be honest: are you keeping everything on your website because you know it’s providing value? Or because you don’t want to have all the conversations you know you’d need to have with stakeholders to remove it? (p 157)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>While developers have all sorts of techniques to optimize images, the first line of defense should be to ask yourself: do we need this image at all? Images are often merely decorative, advocated by designers or marketers who like the layout but haven’t considered the performance tradeoffs. (p 158)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Even though many third-party services promise fantastic conversion rate increases with “only one line of JavaScript!” the reality is that they slow your site down. If the increased conversion rate sounds too good to be true, it just might be. (p 168)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>But the goal of setting a performance budget isn’t to mirror the exact performance metrics for the website—it’s to give stakeholders a way to focus on the aspects of performance that are within their control. (p 170)</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 4</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Remember, every website redesign must include at least one brainstorming exercise where you move some Post-it notes around on the wall. (p 190)</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 5</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Responsive is your best opportunity to fix the way people work together. You may never get a better chance to change your team dynamics. In fact, responsive will force you to work in new ways—whether you want to or not. (p 210)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Breakpoints are defined by the content—when line lengths get too long or whitespace becomes too big, designers decide to insert a breakpoint. (p 217)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Let the team use whatever tools and methods it needs to get to a functioning prototype. But stakeholders should be expected to provide feedback on the prototype, gently guided away from expecting static comps for every breakpoint. (p 223)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Some companies find that implementing a design system before going responsive means the responsive design process goes more quickly. (p 234)</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 6</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Responsive means adopting a new definition of support, one that aims to make sure the widest possible audience can use the website, without expecting every user will see the exact same thing. This new definition of support changes how teams think about testing, because rather than looking for pixel-perfect layouts on every platform and screen size, they’re focused on making sure users can complete their tasks—even if the presentation is different on different devices. (p 247)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Well-implemented responsive design should function on all devices.... (p 248)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Rather than wasting time on ensuring pixel-perfect layouts across devices—an activity that never resulted in much tangible business value—teams focus on building a site that works on every device. (p 250)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Basing your device lab on older devices gives a more accurate picture of real-world speed and battery life—and it means you can build your device lab inexpensively. (p 256)</p>
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			<title>The Signature of All Things</title>
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				<p>I recently finished reading <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/signature-of-all-things-9780143125846/7-9"><em>The Signature of All Things</em></a> by Elizabeth Gilbert, it was an unexpected read, as it seems all my novels of late have been. Somehow this found its way onto my list, I decided to check it out from the library and started reading and then couldn't put it down. It's only the second book I've read by Gilbert (having read <em>Eat, Pray, Love</em>) and it was a pleasant surprise.</p>
<p>The book follows the life of Alma Whittaker, born in 1800 just outside Philadelphia to a rather eccentric family for the time. Her father is a great botanist and her mother is also well educated. Alma grows up learning, exploring the forests around her, and she is quite adept at languages. The novel follows her life throughout the century, as she grows up, as she becomes famous for her knowledge of moss, and as she eventually travels.</p>
<p>The entire character of Alma was fascinating. Would a woman be allowed to live a life like hers in that time period? She writes, studies, and helps run her father's business. I couldn't help but wonder if she was the exception to what a woman born in 1800 could expect her life to be like, I admit, I think she was. But even though that is the case, she was still incredibly interesting. Brilliant in so many ways, but also completely naive in others. I enjoyed getting to know her, even if some parts of the story were rushed through, the parts of Alma's life I got to see inside were worth the read.</p>
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<p>All she had ever wanted was to know things, yet still and now—even after all these years of tireless questioning—all she did was ponder and wonder and guess. (loc 6374)</p>
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			<title>Latest Comics</title>
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				<p>I just spent quite a bit of time reading some new comics and I'm not sure I've mentioned all of them on this site, so here we go with the latest and some thoughts.</p>
<h2>She-Hulk</h2>
<p>I'm continuing my foray into superhero comics with <a href="https://www.comixology.com/She-Hulk-2014-2015/comics-series/13888"><em>She-Hulk</em></a>, which I will openly admit, after reading the first volume, I'm not quite sure what I think of it. I like her, I like the surrounding characters, but the story arc didn't grab me much. I can't decide if I'm going to read the next volume or not.</p>
<h2>Avengers</h2>
<p>I've read the first two volumes of <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Avengers-2012-2015/comics-series/9007"><em>Avengers</em></a>, the 2012-2015 series and I like it. I like superheroes with humor and with a mission (see <em>Ms. Marvel</em> or <em>Captain Marvel</em>) and the entire Avengers crew fits in with that ethos. I like the writing and the art work, so I'll probably keep going here, especially since there are only 6 volumes total. Related: I'm turning to comics for my entertainment now, much more so than TV or movies and this comic fits into that space really nicely for me.</p>
<h2>Moon Knight</h2>
<p>I've made it known that I'm a huge Warren Ellis fan, so I've been going back and reading a lot of his older work. I read the first volume of <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Moon-Knight-2014/comics-series/15006"><em>Moon Knight</em></a> and I'm intrigued at this point. The hero is the flawed do gooder and there is some humor here, but I wanted a bit more backstory. That may come as I keep going, so we'll see.</p>
<h2>Ocean</h2>
<p>Yup, more Ellis here. <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Ocean/comics-series/18605"><em>Ocean</em></a> is really good. I love these one volume short series he does (much like <em>Ministry of Space</em>). The are fast moving, usually some crazy intriguing story, and the art work in this is really great. I loved it. And I love the breadth of Ellis' work. I don't always love his comics, but I always at least find them worthwhile and thought provoking about how we interact with each other, space, and what the future may bring.</p>

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			<title>Responsive Design: Patterns &amp; Principles</title>
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				<p>I spent my Sunday afternoon reading Ethan Marcotte's new book <a href="http://abookapart.com/products/responsive-design-patterns-principles"><em>Responsive Design: Patterns &amp; Principles</em></a>, much of it in front of a fire, under a blanket, gobbling up the words as fast as I could. It was a great way to spend a Sunday. And I'm grateful to Ethan for sharing his wisdom with us yet again.</p>
<p>I've read <a href="/reading/responsive-web-design-2e/"><em>Responsive Web Design</em></a>, twice in fact. It opened up an entire new world for me as a person interested in design, but making her living doing implementations of designs done by others. And now, with this new book, Ethan is at it again.</p>
<p>I devoured the chapter on navigation, I've worked on numerous projects where navigation, complex navigation in particular, was tough to figure out as we worked across screen sizes. I also particularly loved the discussion of advertising and how that fits into the complex systems we are creating. This is hard, <em>really</em> hard. Especially when it comes to advertising, there is a lot of discussion going on, a lot of people working on it, and I for one am interested to see where this all goes.</p>
<p>But it is in the final chapter that I think Ethan's ideas really shine. Because it's there that we get to the really hard part, making sure that all these modules and pieces fit together well in a screen. That we don't get too caught up in the modules that we forget they live alongside each other. The chapter references so many people's ideas here and it brings them together in a seamless and easy to understand way.</p>
<p>I'm still thinking and contemplating a lot of this, because as a style guide lover I love the lego pieces, but I know they must work together well. And this chapter brought up a lot of interesting ideas from other fields, such as animation, as a way to think through these issues. Which is yet another strength of Ethan's writing: using things he's read from other fields to apply them to the world of the web in ways that are unique and helpful.</p>
<p>There is no right or wrong way to do this work, but Ethan gives us fantastic ideas for what to think about as we are working through our designs, both at the modular level and along the seams of those modules as they come together to form what we see on our screens.</p>
<p>This book ties so much of the wonderful research Ethan's done regarding how teams are working as well as the podcast interviews he does with Karen McGrane, that it's a valuable resource for anyone working on the web.</p>
<p>On a completely personal note: lately I've felt a bit disconnected from the web, and I haven't been as interested in it as in the past. The ebb and flow of life I suppose. But reading Ethan's book this past weekend got me excited again. That doesn't mean that I didn't still wake up to a slew of Github issues of the mundane fixes that aren't always fun on Monday morning, but it reminds me there are larger discussions occurring that I find fascinating and want to participate in. Thank you Ethan for all you share with our community. And thank you A Book Apart for all you do to facilitate that, as usual you've knocked it out of the park.</p>
<p>I read the epub version of the book in iBooks (love those mini movies!), I've got page numbers here, but that's so dependent on font sizing, etc that I'm not sure it helps, so I've broken things down by chapter as well.</p>
<h2>Chapter 1</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>“I’d argue that we’re no longer building pages at all—instead, we need to think of our responsive designs as a network of small layout systems (FIG 1.6). Little pockets of design that can, as Trent says, “be rearranged at any screen size to best convey a message.” (p 14)</p>
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<p>...[O]ur interfaces are composed of small layout systems, each with its own rules for how it should change, shift, and grow according to the needs of the content inside it. (p 16)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Designing a responsive grid is wonderful, but how do we ensure our images are as recognizable on the smallest screens as they are on the widest ones? How can we possibly fit dense, complex navigation menus into fluid layouts? Can we incorporate advertising into our responsive grids without sobbing heavily? (p. 17)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>...[T]hey’re [style guides] inventories of all the “blocks” used to build more complex interfaces. (p. 21)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>...[F]ields as diverse as architecture, automotive manufacturing, and shipbuilding long ago shifted their focus to becoming assemblers of finished components: of building larger, more complex machines out of smaller, more specialized parts. (p 22)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>...[I]t seems that whenever we start to figure the web out—even a little bit—the landscape shifts.. (p 26)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Almost each month, hardware and software vendors introduce new interaction models for us to support in our designs. (p 26)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>And the network we use to browse the web, publish our work, and connect with our audiences is more widely accessed today than at any other point in the web’s short history. But with sub-3G connections comprising the overwhelming majority of mobile data subscriptions, that network is also far slower, more volatile, and less reliable than we might like to think. (p 27)</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 2</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Because if we’ve done our job right, a website’s navigation should act as a kind of compass: it helps new users orient themselves within a site hierarchy, and guides them to their destination. (p 34)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>The responsive design of a site’s navigation poses an almost entirely different challenge than a page’s top-level grid. In dealing with challenges of layout, interaction, and visual density, we’re forced to ask ourselves: how can we design navigation that’s as usable as it is responsive? (p 34)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>But more broadly, there’s a considerable drawback to using CSS to hide information on smaller screens: namely, that the browser will still download all the HTML for a hidden element, even if the styles hide it from view. (p 53)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>It’s worth noting that conditional loading isn’t about providing “desktop” users with more content, or “mobile” users with less. Rather, conditional loading can help us address problems of density in your design, ensuring that the information shown to our readers never overwhelms them. (p 60)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Adopting this “mobile first” mindset won’t necessarily change the implementation, but it will inform the way you plan the design of your conditionally loaded content. It’ll help avoid the trap of thinking of smaller screens as somehow deserving of “less” content—especially when our audiences are becoming increasingly (if not exclusively) mobile-oriented. (p 61)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>In the face of some seemingly incompatible results, I think this demonstrates that the hamburger icon, like all design patterns, is worth testing on your site. (p 73)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>There’s nothing inherently wrong with the hamburger icon itself—but assuming it’s a safe default for every responsive navigation system can be problematic. After all, what works for one site may not work for yours. So by all means, hamburger your sites! Just be sure to test those hamburgers before serving them up to your audience. (p 73)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>On smaller and midsize breakpoints, tapping on the hamburger reveals their site navigation which, if you’ll count, contains every link ever created on the World Wide Web. (p 74)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>...[T]heir design illustrates a larger problem with concealing navigation: that, given the option to hide them, our menus can easily become filled with an overwhelming (and perhaps unhelpful) number of links. (p 89)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>...[I]f we’re hiding or removing an element because it doesn’t have value on smaller screens, can we simplify the design and content of that element until it works on smaller screens? Or, alternately, maybe it doesn’t have value for any screen? (p 91)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>If we’re truly designing mobile-first, we shouldn’t use show/hide toggles to sidestep the potentially difficult discussions about the real value of our content. (p 92)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>As you may have guessed, this is a JavaScript-driven solution. When the page loads, resizes, or gets reoriented in a handheld browser, the BBC measures the width of the browser’s viewport and then, based on its width, shows or hides certain links in each menu. The panels that expand when you tap or click on “More” or “Sections” are JavaScript-generated too, populated with any links that happen to be hidden in the parent menu at that breakpoint. (p 98)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>...[H]e credits their menu design to three factors: a close analysis of their design goals; rapid iteration of a number of possible solutions; and—perhaps most important—involving their users as early as possible in the design process... (p 103)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>But if you happen to work more quickly in a traditional design application, there’s no reason to abandon a tried and trusted app for your nearest code editor. Instead, it’s more important to acknowledge that each tool has strengths and weaknesses, and whichever path gets you to a responsive design first is the one you should take. (p 106)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>I think we’re seeing the lessening importance of comps as an end point: as a client-facing design document or the definitive deliverable. Digital agencies and design teams still use Photoshop or Illustrator mockups to discuss aesthetics or composition options—but our industry still lacks a design tool that reflects the instability of the networks we design for, the various interaction modes available on our users’ devices, and the flexibility of the web’s canvas. (p 107)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>...[R]ather than taking a complex approach, maybe we should look for opportunities to do less. (p 110)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>...[P]atterns don’t have to be universally applied throughout a site. Instead, we can be selective and nuanced in deciding how, where, and why we use those patterns in our work. (p 112)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>... [W]ith all the challenges we face on the web, we should constantly search for opportunities to simplify our interfaces. (p 115)</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 3</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Now, to be clear: “small screen” does not imply “slow connection.” Far from it. In fact, there is no correlation between the width of a screen and the amount of bandwidth available to it. (p 148)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>...[W]hile some things in our responsive images toolkit allow us a higher degree of control, determining the best resolution for our image is best left to the browser. It’ll keep our markup lighter, and our users happier. (p 157)</p>
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<blockquote>
<p>The problem with CSS-based resizing is that it’s content-blind: it focuses on the shape of the container that holds the image, not the image itself. And sometimes, if we’re not paying attention, those images can be resized past the point of usefulness. (p 167)</p>
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<p>...[T]hat feels like the biggest challenge: to reframe the discussion to focus not on a specific technology, but on relinquishing perfect control over the experience. (p 181)</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 4</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>Responsive advertising is still very much a work in progress, but there are a number of emerging patterns we can use. (p 189)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>But Boulton gets to the root of some deeper, business-related issues—namely, the advertising industry operates independently from the rest of the web, and still considers the sale of digital ads in print-centric, position-specific terms. (p 220)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Like our responsive layouts, our ads need to become not just more fluid in shape, but also in delivery. And while the advertising industry has yet to modernize their layout standards or business practices, many organizations have opted to try and fix responsive advertising internally, by designing and developing custom-built, more flexible ad formats in-house. (p 222)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>Rather than seeing digital advertising as somehow incompatible with an elegant, reader-friendly design, publishers are suggesting that flexible, responsive-friendly ads result in happier advertisers and readers. (p 224)</p>
</blockquote>
<h2>Chapter 5</h2>
<blockquote>
<p>As responsive designers, we need to focus not just on the individual bits of a design, but also the relationship between those elements within a larger layout system. (p 227)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>CSS frameworks are conceptually heavy. The layouts they provide are bound to an ideal grid, usually with twelve or sixteen columns of uniform widths. From there, the classes in the markup describe how that grid should adapt at specific breakpoints. (p 235)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>These principles were a kind of a shared vocabulary, one that allowed the studio’s animators to discuss how their work measured up to Disney’s famously high standards. Rather than dictating the use of certain animation techniques or emphasizing steps in their production workflow, the principles allowed the studio to discuss and evaluate the quality of its work. (p 250)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>In other words, how do we move beyond thinking in terms of columns and rows, and start talking about the quality of our responsive designs? And what would frameworks to support that look like? (p 252)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>By understanding the shape of our content, we can create flexible layouts that support connectedness—not just between related pieces of information, but between our layouts and the device. We can make responsive grid systems that don’t just fit on an ever-increasing number of screens—they’ll feel at home, wherever they’re viewed. (p 256)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>But first, we need a method of finding an element’s seams, and understanding how it loses its shape. For me, that process begins by looking at four characteristics: width, hierarchy, interaction, and density. (p 257)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>...[R]egardless of how you choose to find the seams in your layout, moving beyond simple markup classes will give you considerably more flexibility. (p 271)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>As we move away from device-
specific breakpoints, and adapt our layout systems according to the location of their seams, we’ll be creating more robust, more future-friendly layouts. In other words, we’ll be better prepared for the devices and browsers we haven’t even imagined yet. (p 285)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>We’ve moved far beyond the desktop, but we’re still trying to find the right words to encompass the scope of what we’re designing and where it’ll appear. (p 287)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>I find it helpful to talk about features, not device classes. For example, I’ll often talk with clients about how a responsive design performs across a few broad categories, usually focusing on input method, screen size, network speed, and network condition. (p 291)</p>
</blockquote>
<blockquote>
<p>As our layouts become more flexible and device-agnostic, the words we use to talk about our responsive designs should follow suit. (p 292)</p>
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			<title>Captain Marvel</title>
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				<p>Many months ago, I asked for more super hero comic recommendations. I've loved <em>Ms. Marvel</em> and, if I'm being completely honest, I've come to love Marvel overall. That's right, in the battle of Marvel vs DC, I've ended up on the Marvel side. BUT I actually read a lot of non super hero comics, so even though I prefer Marvel, I'm reading a lot of Image and Vertigo as well. But I digress, back to super heroes. So, a few weeks ago, I went to the comic shop and I picked up <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Captain-Marvel-Vol-1-Higher-Further-Faster-More/digital-comic/149220"><em>Captain Marvel</em></a> by Kelly Sue DeConnick. The author, in particular, came highly recommended.</p>
<p>I wasn't disappointed. What I've grown to love about comics and especially the Marvel super hero comics is the humor that is in the midst of the situations. Captain Marvel is unhappy with live, so off she goes to space and tries to do good. And I've already bought the next two volumes to continue on with the series. I can't wait.</p>
<p>Also: thanks to all the comics people who have recommended things to me, it's been awesome!</p>

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			<title>Burial Rites</title>
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			<updated>2015-11-20T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Last week, the day before getting on a 10 hour flight from Portland to Amsterdam, I quickly bought comics to read and then also, at the last minute, decided to check a book out from the library as well. I went to my wish list and chose <a href="http://www.powells.com/book/burial-rites-9780316243926/18-1"><em>Burial Rites</em></a> by Hannah Kent without really thinking about it.</p>
<p>And, on the plane the next day, I started reading. It wasn't at all what I was expecting and I can't remember how it got on my digital library wish list, but well, it did somehow. It takes place in Iceland in the 1820s, when Iceland was still a part of Denmark (which I did already know since I work with a Dane), and is about a woman who is sentenced to die for killing two men. While she awaits the confirmation of her sentence by the King in Copenhagen, she has to live somewhere, so a family is commanded to take her in and treat her like a servant.</p>
<p>So much about this book was intriguing and fascinating to me. The landscape as it was described (I've not been to Iceland), the way they lived in small dirt homes all sleeping it the same room, the names, just everything really. But I also loved the main character, Agnes. She had a hard life, things didn't go well for her, yet she was a survivor and as a single woman, surviving in the best way she could.</p>
<p>What made the book even more fascinating, was that this whole book was written by an Australian who was an exchange student in Iceland, she heard the story of Agnes, who was a real person, and she based her novel on that real person. I won't say much more because I don't want to give away the end, other than to say this wasn't the most uplifting book, but it was a fascinating character study. How Agnes changes when the family gets to know her and care about her and how the family changes with her in their midst.</p>

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			<title>Overcoming self doubt</title>
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			<updated>2015-11-09T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>This past summer, a friend took a course to learn HTML and CSS. It was her first venture into the world of code, the web, and building something digital herself.</p>
<p>We are in a Slack together with other friends, so we set up a #codehelp channel to be able to answer questions. It brought up some interesting thoughts, as on many occasions as my friend was working through things, she would have moments of self doubt.</p>
<p>I still have moments of self doubt, over and over again, ten years into building things on the web. Every time I talk with a designer and get a new design that needs to be coded, my first thought is, &quot;How am I ever going to build this?&quot; And, honestly, that feeling is pretty normal for me now.</p>
<p>Sometimes it comes because the designer is challenging me in a good way, sometimes because I'm not feeling confident, and many times because the blank text editor screen in front of me is just as challenging as the blank screen or piece of paper can be for a writer or artist.</p>
<p>But here's the thing that also came out of helping my friend last summer, it reminded me that I do know things. I successfully explained several different HTML elements and how to best use them. When it came to CSS concepts, I could talk about those as well. It reminded me of how much the web has changed in ten years, how much building things for the web has changed, and how much I take for granted as I sit down to write code; how many things are just there, in my head, that I know.</p>
<p>And the best way out of my moments of self doubt? Sit down and write the code. Open up the editor, start with the things I know, write the basic markup, start adding styles. Every time, by just digging in and not avoiding it, I remind myself of the basics, and I push myself to learn the things I need to know.</p>
<p>No matter how long you've been doing what you've been doing, especially if you are in the web world, there will always be something to learn. But it's been good for me to be reminded that I know some things, I have experience, and I can do this, no matter how my self doubt tries to deter me.</p>
<p class="small">This piece originally appeared on <a href="https://the-pastry-box-project.net/susan-robertson/2015-october-31">The Pastry Box</a> on October 31, 2015.</p>

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			<title>Hope</title>
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<p>Remember, Red. Hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things, and no good thing ever dies. I will be hoping that this letter finds you, and finds you well.</p>
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<p>We rewatched <em>The Shawshank Redemption</em> and the above quote has stuck with me ever since; for over two months now. Most people quote the “get busy living or get busy dying” quote when they think of Shawshank, but it was this quote that hit me full-on in the chest.</p>
<p>2015, for many reasons, has been really a tough year for me. I've had a hard time having hope. I can list off reasons why I'm not hopeful. News about climate change and how we are screwing our planet for the future, all the repeated articles and stories on women in tech, the continued &quot;hot drama&quot; that pops up everywhere based on whatever the Twittersphere decides to react without thinking.</p>
<p>When we rewatched Shawshank, as we were on the verge of going on vacation, I wasn't feeling very hopeful. In fact, I was feeling quite hopeless. In the face of these large issues, where I'm trying to do my part—yes, I recycle, I compost, we don't drive much, we are cutting back on flying, what more can I do?—I feel like it doesn't matter what I do because I have so little power to cause change.</p>
<p>So that quote above, that hit me like a ton of bricks. Then I went on vacation, a road trip for over 2 weeks along the coast of California, and I unplugged. I stayed offline, for the most part, away from the drama, away from bad news, and just enjoyed being with the dinosaurs (the Redwoods).</p>
<p>During the trip, I was able to get back the feeling of hope. I'm not sure if it's because I see the good now as well as the bad, but it's back. I think it <em>may</em> have something to do with the fact that I’m pickier about what I choose to read online and I see so many good people I know doing good things in the world.</p>
<p>I'm trying my hardest to focus on the good rather than the bad, to keep my sense of hope intact.</p>

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			<title>Injection</title>
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			<updated>2015-11-03T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I finally picked up the first volume of <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Injection-Vol-1/digital-comic/294354"><em>Injection</em></a> by Warren Ellis. I am a <em>huge</em> Ellis fan, as I've been working my way through all the comics he's written and I'd heard good things on the Twitters about this latest series so I was excited to read it.</p>
<p>A friend of mine asked me what I thought after I'd read the first three issues and I said, &quot;It's OK, not great, but I don't dislike it.&quot; Not a very resounding review. Then a few hours later I sat down and read the final two issues in the volume and OH MY GOD! They changed everything for me. The backstory came together, things started to sort out and yeah, I'm hooked.</p>
<p>Injection is set in a futuristic time period and something has been created and the team who created it are all handling their guilt over that in different ways. I don't want to say too much more, but I do recommend checking it out. I also really enjoyed the art work and style of this book, I lingered over many of the full page panels, they are amazing.</p>

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			<title>My Pantry</title>
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			<updated>2015-10-26T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I don't know about you, but I like food, and I <em>really</em> like cooking good food. So I often spend weekend afternoons reading cookbooks. I'm usually getting ideas, planning what I want to cook in my head, and daydreaming about the perfect pantry and kitchen set up. Yesterday was one of those days. After spending a lot of the weekend working on a webbish talk, I put it aside and dug into Alice Water's latest book, <a href="http://www.powells.com/biblio/1-9780804185288-0"><em>My Pantry</em></a>.</p>
<p>The highest praise I can give this book is that today for lunch I made a quick and easy pasta lunch from my pantry and inspired by Alice's pantry recipes. I love a lot of her ideas, I'm not sure I'll follow through and do the same things, but what I loved about this book was that it got me thinking about my pantry. What do I have to have in order to cook? What do I love to add for flavor to dishes I make? What would I like to add to my pantry to give things a bit of a boost?</p>
<p>This isn't a huge cookbook and it was a great read for a rainy Sunday afternoon with football on in the background. If you love cooking or you want to think more about the basics that could make cooking more appealing to you, I recommend it.</p>

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			<title>Hild</title>
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			<updated>2015-10-25T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>It took me a while, I came back to it after leaving it, but I finished <a href="http://www.powells.com/biblio/1-9780374280871-19"><em>Hild</em></a> yesterday morning. And, to my surprise, Hild was a real person, I somehow missed that in my lead up to reading the book. Nicola Griffith did a fantastic job with creating the Medieval world in which Hild lived and although much of the story she wrote is fiction, Hild was a real person upon which she based the story.</p>
<p>Much can be said of writing a book that takes place in a time period where we know little of who the women who lived were, but I just loved the story. Hild lives a life that is difficult, but also amazing. She rises to become the seer to a king, she travels with the court, and she has influence in the decisions made. In addition, she is a fascinating character, mature beyond her years (maybe because she had to be) and she cares for the people who often don't matter to kings as they maneuver for more power.</p>
<p>I read the kindle version loaned by my library and only have one highlight, but it says it all to me about the way Hild thinks and what her life is like.</p>
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<p>Happy, she thought again, though it was more than that. They weren’t afraid. No drunken fighting and boasting. No gesiths pulling wealh onto their laps or persuading the dogs to fight. No thundering horses or sudden deadly silence as the king smiled that smile at someone. No Woden priests with their omens or Christ priests frowning and chastising. She’d even seen her mother deigning to talk to Gwladus. Was this what it was to live an ordinary life? Orderly, peaceful, calm. Work, yes, endless as rain, but also warmth and plenty and safety. (loc 7387)</p>
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			<title>Dogs Songs</title>
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			<updated>2015-10-25T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I am a dog lover, through and through. And a few weeks ago when standing in the Powell's on Hawthorne, I saw Mary Oliver's <a href="http://www.powells.com/biblio/18-9780143125839-0"><em>Dog Songs</em></a> and had to have it. It's a slim volume, mostly made up of poems, but there are a few short essays as well. And it is lovely.</p>
<p>I read through it in one sitting, laughing, feeling nostalgic, and missing my dog. She captures, so perfectly, what it is to live with dogs. So, if like me, you are a dog lover, I would pick this up. It's also my first foray into poetry since I took literature classes in college and it was lovely to read it again. So, if you like poetry and you have recommendations, let me know, I want to read more poems.</p>
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<p>Be prepared. A dog is adorable and noble. A dog is a true and loving friends. A dog is also a hedonist. (p. 85)</p>
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<p>But I want to extol not the sweetness nor the placidity of the dog, but the wilderness out of which he cannot step entirely, and from which we benefit. For wilderness is our first home too, and in our wild ride into modernity with all its concerns and problems we need also all the good attachments to that origin that we can keep or restore. Dog is one of the messengers of that rich and still magical first world. The dog would remind us of the pleasures of the body with its grateful physicality, and the acuity and rapture of the sense, and the beauty of forest and ocean and rain and our own breath. There is not a dog that romps and runs but we learn from him.</p>
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			<title>Success defined</title>
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			<updated>2015-10-14T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>My friend Jonathan Snook recently wrote and asked <a href="http://snook.ca/archives/personal/what-does-success-look-like">what does success look like</a>. He's also been tweeting quite a bit about it as well and it got me to thinking.</p>
<p>I want to preface anything I say here with the fact that I am a privileged and lucky person. The family I was born into has made a huge difference to my life and where I'm at now and how I can define success.  Because of that, I'm lucky to be able to define success in a different way than many people living on this planet or even in my country.</p>
<p>After mulling this over for quite some time, I now define success as having control over my own time and how I use it. For me that means that I'm successful when I have more time that is under my control. What this looks like in my life right now is not working more than one job and that job is mostly just the run-of-the-mill 40 hours a week.</p>
<p>What I would love that to look like in the future, to be honest, is working a job less than 40 hours a week, being able to work part time and use my other time for things that I enjoy doing that I don't have time for when I work full time. Don't get me wrong, I like my job, I like what I do, but there are a lot of other things I would love to do with my time that may not earn me any money or may earn me a lot less in the same amount of time as what I do now.</p>
<p>And time is one of the reasons I love to work remotely. By working from home, I have no commute and more time. This has translated in past years to being healthier by being able to fit in running and cooking healthier for us. So I can still work full time, but I'm definitely getting a benefit of more time in my life in other ways.</p>
<p>When I think of what success looks like to me, it means that down the road, I can have even more time that's mine. Jonathan asked me what I would do with that time, and I have to admit that I have vague ideas, involving art, reading, writing, and volunteering, but the luxury is to be able to have the time to also figure that out.</p>
<p class="small">Jonathan wrote another piece about overnight success which I also love, you should <a href="http://snook.ca/archives/opinion/overnight-success">read</a> it. TL;DR: no one is really an overnight success.</p>

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			<title>The Glass Sentence</title>
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			<updated>2015-10-06T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>The second book read on vacation was a kid's book. I'm found of reading through the New York Times bestseller lists to see what's popular for middle schoolers and high schoolers and this book wasn't a disappointment. <a href="http://www.powells.com/biblio/1-9780142423660-3"><em>The Glass Sentence</em></a> by S.E. Grove is a great rollicking adventure featuring the story of Sophia, the niece of one of the renowned cartologers of her age. The world has gone through a great disruption and it has thrown all the various places on Earth into different time periods.</p>
<p>Sophia lives in 1891 in Boston, but other places in the world may be centuries ahead or behind that time. Her parents, great explorers, were never heard from again when they went to find a missing age. And Sophia, after her uncle is kidnapped, is forced to flee to protect herself and find her uncle.</p>
<p>I thoroughly enjoyed this adventure. Throwing the world into different ages was a fascinating way to bring about a lot of tension and interest. And Sophia is a great character; she is smart, inquisitive, and willing to risk it all to save her uncle and figure out what is going on. In the process she shows a real talent for reading maps of all kinds, which I'm sure will be used in the second book in the series.</p>
<p>I'm excited to read the next book in the series to see where Sophia and her friends and uncle go next.</p>

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			<title>Etta and Otto and Russell and James</title>
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			<updated>2015-10-06T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm terribly behind on my reading updates, mostly because I was on vacation and that meant a lot of reading and no computer, so here we are. But I read some lovely things over the course of the two weeks and I want to make sure I note them, for myself if no one else. The first was <a href="http://www.powells.com/biblio/1-9781476755670-4"><em>Etta and Otto and Russell and James</em></a> by Emma Hooper, a lovely novel about both coming of age and the end of life.</p>
<p>Set in the prairies of Canada, Etta, when she is an old woman, decides to walk to the ocean. She takes the long way, preferring to walk towards the Atlantic rather than the Pacific, which would be closer. She sets out early, leaving her husband recipes to their favorite things so he can take care of himself. She walks across fields, then gets into forests, then into the lake country and walks on.</p>
<p>But the book is about more than that journey because interspersed with the story of Etta's walk is the story of Etta and Otto and Russell growing up in the Prairies and dealing with World War II and the drastic changes it brings to their lives. Much like the review I heard of this book, I won't talk about who James is, because I think that's best left discovered by the reader.</p>
<p>Hooper tells a lovely story of life, of looking back on the life one lived, but also of starting out in life and how the choices made can change everything. She describes the land and the Prairies lovingly and it made me think of my upbringing in the upper Midwest, as they aren't too different. This was not an earth shattering book, but it was a really great story to get lost in as we began our vacation.</p>
<p>I only have a few highlights, I read the kindle version of the book, generously loaned to me by my local library.</p>
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<p>We’re all scared, most of the time. Life would be lifeless if we weren’t. Be scared, and then jump into that fear. Again and again. Just remember to hold on to yourself while you do it. (loc 1787)</p>
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<p>If we’re doing we’re living and if we’re living we’re winning, right? (loc 2929)</p>
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<p>We have good days and bad days. You told me, once, to just remember to breathe. As long as you can do that, you’re doing something Good, you said. Getting rid of the old, and letting in the new. And, therefore, moving forward. Making progress. That’s all you have to do to move forward, sometimes, you said, just breathe. (loc 3309)</p>
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			<title>Paper by FiftyThree</title>
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			<updated>2015-09-29T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been a long time user of <a href="http://www.fiftythree.com">Paper</a> by FiftyThree. I'm a huge fan of the company and the application. (Full disclosure: when I freelanced I worked with them a lot too, and they were a great client.) But just before I went on an extended road trip vacation a few weeks ago, they released an entirely new version of Paper, a universal app for the first time, bringing Paper to iPhone.</p>
<p>In the process of making Paper work for the iPhone, FiftyThree was actually quite daring, they <a href="http://www.fastcompany.com/3051197/the-making-of-fiftythrees-beloved-paper-app-for-the-iphone">rethought the entire app</a> and so with the new version there were quite a few changes on the iPad version as well. Because I was going on vacation, it was the perfect time to try it out, to see what I thought of the changes and how it would work for me. I'll be honest, my initial reactions weren't good ones, but after using the app, I've come away with only a few things I wish would change, and to be honest, they are small things.</p>
<p>FiftyThree got rid of the journal concept, so the books with covers are gone and in their place are spaces, stacks of your ideas below a circular cover image. I've seen a lot of bad reactions to this change, but I came to like it with only one downside. If you do a custom image for the circular &quot;cover&quot; it can get lost in the stack it sits on top of. For example, my space for my 100 Day Project has my favorite sketch from that project on top, but it blends into the entire stack a bit too much. This isn't a huge thing and I could change my covers to be symbols, which they've added to the mix helpfully, but it was a bit disappointing.</p>
<p>In addition to the covers being a bit lost in the shuffle of the spaces, you can't move spaces around and if you create a new space, you are all the way to one edge of the app, but to see your stream of who you follow on what was Mix and is now just Paper, you have to go all the way to the right. So I spend a lot of time zooming between the two sides of the app spaces to see various things. Again, it's minor, but being able to organize and arrange the spaces how I want would be great.</p>
<p>Finally, I have to say I <em>love</em> the new features they added. Being able to import photos and then draw on them or just write a caption or just share them is great. The addition of a word processor like feature is also really great. The swipe to style text works great and it's nice to be able to have some headings or some lists if you want, it makes the app that much more versatile. Over the course of my trip I did a few moments from each day and I shared them, I loved being able to type up a small caption for each of them as well. I also had fun with being able to do some hand writing on photos and I've been seeing a lot of really creative things in my stream on Paper from other people, so I'm excited to try out more things. Someone took a photo of a plain white t-shirt and the <a href="https://paper.fiftythree.com/251509-Manuel/6381605/remixes">remixes</a> of it are fantastic to see.</p>
<p>If you want to see the types of things I've been playing with on Paper, I <a href="https://paper.fiftythree.com/43559-Susan-Robertson">shared</a> quite a bit as I traveled.</p>

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			<title>Embassytown</title>
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			<updated>2015-09-10T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I finished China Miéville's <a href="http://www.powells.com/biblio/1-9780345524508-2"><em>Embassytown</em></a> the other night just before going to sleep. This was yet another book where for the first part I wasn't too sure what I was reading, but wow, the end grabbed me and I couldn't put it down.</p>
<p>Avice grows up on a planet shared with a non human life form, Ariekei or known to her her whole life as The Hosts. The Hosts help provide them with everything they need to live. And the planet is at the outer reaches of known space and a colony of one particular ruling people or planet (wasn't ever sure exactly on that one). But the intriguing part is that the Hosts speak a very strange language and everything they say must be true. So to have a metaphor, they have to make it happen. Avice is chosen as a child to become a simile by having something happen to her that they can then use in language.</p>
<p>And that is really what this entire book is about, language and how it's used and understood. I don't want to say too much, but the revelations about language, thinking about how we speak, how we describe things, how we are able to lie, it was a fascinating ending. And much of it could be used to think about how language is used today, by people in power and not in power. Avice is a hero, the way she, in the time of crisis, figures out a way forward is quite amazing. I wish I could know her.</p>
<p>I read the kindle version, graciously loaned by my library. My highlights are below, but you may not want to read them for fear of spoilers.</p>
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<p>I was born in a place that I thought for thousands of hours was enough of a universe. Then I knew quite suddenly that it was not, but that I wouldn’t be able to leave; and then I could leave. (loc 282)</p>
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<p>All Embassytown had had was its monopoly on Language, and with EzRa, Bremen had tried to break that. (loc 3516)</p>
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<p>Counterrevolution through language pedagogy and bureaucracy. (loc 3518)</p>
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<p>Perhaps there was no sense of truth left for them, or thought. Those rebels must be a fractured community, without speech, if they were a community at all. Language, for the Ariekei, was truth: without it, what were they? An unsociety of psychopaths. (loc 4114)</p>
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<p>Each word of Language meant just what it meant. Polysemy or ambiguity were impossible and with them most tropes that made other languages languages at all. But thatness faces every way: it’s flexible because it’s empty, a universal equivalent. That always means and not that other, too. In their lonely silent way, the Absurd had made a semiotic revolution, and a new language. (loc 4486)</p>
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<p>“Similes start … transgressions. Because we can refer to anything. Even though in Language, everything’s literal. Everything is what it is, but still, I can be like the dead and the living and the stars and a desk and fish and anything. Surl Tesh-echer knew that was Language straining to … bust out of itself. To signify.” (loc 4497)</p>
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<p>Not paradoxes, I wanted to say; these weren’t paradoxes, they weren’t nonsense. “I don’t want to be a simile anymore,” I said. “I want to be a metaphor.” (loc 4505)</p>
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<p>Something in the new language. New thinking. They were signifying now—there, elision, slippage between word and referent, with which they could play. They had room to think new conceptions. (loc 4704)</p>
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<p>If language, thought and word were separated, as they just had been, there was no succulence, no titillating impossible. (loc 4708)</p>
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			<title>Low</title>
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				<p>Last weekend I finally read the first volume of <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Low/comics-series/21323"><em>Low</em></a>, an interesting series that is set far into the future where the sun is actually burning up the surface of the earth, so all the people have moved into the depths of the Ocean. Unfortunately, they are also running out of air and none of the probes that were sent to find another inhabitable planet have come back.</p>
<p>The main character of the story is Stel Caine, the ever optimist no matter what happens. I can't say too much as I don't want to spoil the story, but I like Stel, she's an interesting character. The art work is amazing in this book, utterly amazing. But for this story there were some parts of it that I didn't really like or understand why they were necessary. Every woman is wearing close to nothing and for being the strong characters, especially Stel, that didn't work for me.</p>
<p>I'm unsure if I'll read more of this one. The writing was fairly good and the author uses the word low itself in a lot of interesting ways. But the story wasn't quite compelling enough and the physical portrayal of the women bothers me. If I do keep going it will be for the artwork because it is so great.</p>

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			<title>Old school</title>
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			<updated>2015-08-12T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Lately I've been putting what energy I have to give into some old school ideas on the web. Instead of jumping on the latest and greatest social media community, I'm reverting back to some things that have been around for a long time.</p>
<p>So, other than the time I invest into this site (which is growing it seems, keeping up with all the various categories), I'm putting my energy in two other places.</p>
<p>One is RSS, yup, that's right, RSS. I saw a tweet from <a href="https://twitter.com/chriscoyier/status/626588646733299712">Chris Coyier</a> the other day that summed it up perfectly for me:</p>
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<p>tombstone<br>
they pried rss out of his cold dead hands</p>
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<p>I feel much the same way. I'm tired, so tired, of the trite quick response in 140 characters. Just recently Jeremy wrote a <a href="https://adactio.com/journal/9312">thoughtful post</a> about performance in response to an article written about <em>The Verge</em>. I read it in RSS. Then the next day, Jeffrey <a href="http://www.zeldman.com/2015/07/29/publishing-versus-performance-our-struggle-for-the-soul-of-the-web/">wrote a response post</a>. Again, the response was considered, thoughtful, and most of all, respectful. I prefer this type of dialogue. Because when you take the time to blog about something, you think it through, it <em>usually</em> isn't a knee jerk reaction.</p>
<p>The thing that makes me sad when I go into my feed reader? How many blogs have been silent for a very long time. Yes, it takes some time to write, but I do it because it helps me think. And as Jeremy has said, my blog is my drafts folder. I wish more of the people who used to write, would write again.</p>
<p>The other place I've put energy lately, and it feels old school to say this, is <a href="https://www.flickr.com/photos/susanjeanrobertson/">Flickr</a>. Yup, I've take the time, along with help from <a href="https://twitter.com/beep/status/623145614768013312">friends</a>, to find interesting and beautiful photos on there. That community is very much alive and well—there is some absolutely fantastic stuff going on there. So I troll the explore tab, I look into friend's faves to see what they are finding interesting, and what I'm finding is gorgeous, funny, and inspiring.</p>
<p>(Did you know there are all kinds of accounts that do <a href="https://www.flickr.com/photos/nasacommons">photos</a> of <a href="https://www.flickr.com/photos/europeanspaceagency">space</a>? There are and they are <em>wonderful</em>.)</p>
<p>The iOS apps and the web site are evolving. Is Flickr perfect? Absolutely not. But is anything? Not really. I find that I use the app on my iPad the most, it is gorgeous and relatively easy to use. They've made changes to it that I don't love, but guess what? That doesn't dimish the community or quality of the photos that I'm looking at. It also means there is a team of people working through things and figuring things out and iterating and that is what I care about. Because I see changes, updates, and work being done, I believe Flickr is getting better overall.</p>
<p>And because of this, I've actually deleted a lot of my other accounts across various sites. I'm loathe to start new accounts now when a new thing is released. I often wait a long while, to figure out if it could be right for me and more often than not, I decide it's not.</p>
<p>This site, it's my home base and it's what gets most of my attention as far as sharing my thoughts and ideas, but going through my feeds daily, looking at beautiful images, that's where I find I'm spending most of my time these days on the web.</p>

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			<title>Hawkeye</title>
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			<updated>2015-08-11T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I read the first volume of <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Hawkeye-2012-2015/comics-series/8445"><em>Hawkeye</em></a> last night. I'd been on the hold list for quite some time at the library trying to get it. And now, I'm  in love. I have that feeling I had when I read the first volume of Planetary, the &quot;this is really good and I want to read it all right now&quot; feeling.</p>
<p>I've read very little of Marvel, other than Ms. Marvel, but this ranks right up there and it also got me interested in trying out some Avengers and Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. even though I have no idea where to start with either of those (suggestions welcome!). In addition I'll be reading more by this author, because his writing style is right up my alley.</p>
<p>But in Hawkeye I found a main character that made me laugh out loud throughout. I found the small details in the panels that I adore (seriously, the newspaper headline in issue 2?). And I found a female character that I loved just as much, with wit, snark, and smarts.</p>
<p>I will be reading the next volume as soon as I can. And I'm contemplating purchasing this as it is that good, it'll be a rereader for sure.</p>

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			<title>Several short sentences about writing</title>
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			<updated>2015-08-10T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>In recent years I've been writing, probably writing and sharing said writing more than I ever have in my life. I've gone to graduate school, but I'm writing more now than even during that 2.5 year period of time. It's been amazing, wonderful, unexpected, and fun.</p>
<p>Because I'm working with editors on a regular basis, they are pushing me to think more about the words I use, the way I write, the way a piece fits an audience, etc. Over the past few months, I started to feel like I wanted to learn more about writing; I wanted to take some time to think about <em>how</em> I write and try to improve.</p>
<p>So, a month or so ago I made a big order of books on writing. Many of the books I ordered were recommended by my friend <a href="http://nicolefenton.com/resources/">Nicole</a> and I'm always grateful for friends who put lists like this online. Just over a week ago I started reading <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Several-Short-Sentences-About-Writing-ebook/dp/B0078XCQMW/"><em>Several short sentences about writing</em></a> by Verlyn Klinkenborg. This book is already changing the way I write, the way I think about writing—it made me want to learn sentence diagramming. Strangely surprising.</p>
<p>But the biggest thing this book did for me that was so important and I didn't even realize it would be important: it freed me from the way I learned to write starting in high school. I was a good student in high school and beyond, I did well, but admittedly writing was always tough for me. I don't feel like I know grammar well, I don't really get how to diagram a sentence, and I felt like I had to have everything figured out before I sat down to write. This book told me that isn't the case, to focus on the sentence, make it great. Then move on to the next one, make it great, and eventually it will come together to form a piece that is great.</p>
<p>Last week I sat down to write a draft, and as one of the editors who I've worked with can attest, it's usually just a long brain dump and then I get feedback. But this time, I did things differently. I had an idea, but instead of focusing on the whole, I focused on the sentences. Each sentence got a new line (just as the book is written) and I looked at them hard as I wrote them. When I went back for my first pass at revision, I looked at each sentence again. I focused, I thought more about the words, and I think I came away with a better draft to send to my editor (at least I really hope so).</p>
<p>I highlighted so much in this book. I read a paper copy and I don't think there is hardly a page where I didn't underline, right in the margin, or just star away. Because of that, I'm not going to transfer them all here, but a few select quotes are below that really struck me in the gut.</p>
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<p>Whenever you get a glimpse of your ignorance.<br>
Don't fear it or be embarrassed by it.<br>
Acknowledge it.<br>
What you don't know and why you don't know it are information too. (p 7)</p>
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<p>You can only become a better writer by becoming a better reader. (p. 17)</p>
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<p>Being a writer is an act of perpetual self-authorization.<br>
No matter who you are.<br>
Only you can authorize yourself. (p 37)</p>
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<p>Flow is something the reader experiences, not the writer. (p 67)</p>
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<p>Your labor isn't a sign of defeat.<br>
It's a sign of engagement. (p 68)</p>
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<p>Style is an expression of the interest you take in the making of every sentence.<br>
It emerges, almost without intent, from your engagement with each sentence.<br>
It's the discoveries you make in the making of the prose itself. (p 84)</p>
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<p>What makes the first sentence interesting?<br>
Its exact shape and what it says<br>
And the possibility it creates for another sentence. (p 101)</p>
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<p>What if allowing us to see what's accurate and true is among the best work writing can do? (p 132)</p>
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			<title>The Paper Magician</title>
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			<updated>2015-08-09T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>In the midst of reading about depressing climate change this past week I decided I need to read something lighter and more for entertainment value. I also had a credit with Amazon to use on books due to the class action lawsuit settlement. I ended up reading <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Paper-Magician-Book-ebook/dp/B00HVF7OL0/"><em>The Paper Magician</em></a> by Charlie N. Holmberg, a young adult novel that looked appealing. If fit the bill perfectly, it isn't a great book, but it was delightful in many ways.</p>
<p>A young girl in 1901 in London has just finished her coursework to become a magician. And in this society, unlike Harry Potter's world, magician's are a normal part of life. Ceony Twill had hopes to become a smelter and make enchanted jewelry, but instead, due to a lack of paper magicians, she is assigned paper. The story begins with her entering into her apprenticeship and then progresses from there.</p>
<p>The book does turn out to have a touch of a love story, but I found the descriptions and ideas for how to use paper as a magical device really interesting. I also enjoyed the main character, she was witty, stuck up for herself, and didn't always do as she was supposed to.
The other reason I picked this book is I really loved the author's biography, it made me laugh.</p>
<p>This the first book in a series and I'm fairly sure I will continue on, it sucked me in and these are what a friend of mine who never watches TV calls TV novels: light, entertaining, fun.</p>

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			<title>The Girl in the Road</title>
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			<updated>2015-08-09T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Yesterday I finished reading Monica Byrne's <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Girl-Road-Novel-Monica-Byrne/dp/0804138869/"><em>The Girl in the Road</em></a> and, to be quite honest, I'm still sorting through what the book was about and if I liked it. It is set in the future, a future where climate change has made life quite different, and for the first half of the book I wasn't ever really sure what the date was or what the full effects of the climate changes were on the planet. As I was reading it, I <a href="https://twitter.com/susanjrobertson/status/628006552322969600">tweeted</a> to someone that I wasn't sure I was liking the book, but liked it enough to finish it. And that still holds true, I don't know that I can say I liked the book.</p>
<p>Part of my difficulty with the book very well could be that I'm not sure this genre is for me right now. I read some very depressing articles on climate change this week and was reading this book as well, which wasn't a great combination. I started to get rather depressed over all about the state of where we are heading on climate and the seemingly powerlessness I feel to really make any change.</p>
<p>But there were other parts of the book that I also struggled with. The bare bones plot of the book is the journey of two different people, one a woman traveling along a hydropower trail across the Indian Ocean that is collecting energy from the waves, the other a young girl traveling across Africa in a truck convoy on her way to Ethiopia. In both story lines, at least in some portions of the book, sex was very present. It wasn't graphic, but I'm not sure I understood the point of its presence so much and therefore it detracted, rather than added to the book overall.</p>
<p>I will say this, I'm glad I finished it, because the ending brings together a lot of various story lines, making some of the beginning parts of the book make more sense. But this is a book I'll be wondering about and pondering for a while, it's a book that needs a book group for me to discuss it with and sadly, I don't really have that, so it'll just be me and my thoughts.</p>
<p>I read a digital version of this book on my kindle, courtesy of my local library, highlights below.</p>
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<p>It’s clear that life continues after trauma. What’s not clear is whether it’s worth continuing to live. (loc 137)</p>
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<p>There’s something about dressing my own wounds and fixing my own hair that makes me feel invincible. Look on my works, ye Mighty: I both heal and adorn my own body. In fact I could go for a drink, now. (loc 272)</p>
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<p>I didn’t make eye contact because eye contact is too intense for daily use and I didn’t speak because nothing would ever fucking come out of my mouth right. Sex was how I said what I wanted to say. (loc 341)</p>
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<p>...[H]ow the source of a society’s energy must necessarily shape their language, art, and culture. In the case of Djibouti, their people will be wavelike. Should I call it the sociopsychology of energy?—that then infuses its culture, even its individuals. (loc 439)</p>
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<p>Now that I know more of the world, and how terrible it is, and how terrible people can be, especially to little girls, I am amazed that I had the good luck to find them. I was handed from angel to angel! I think you were with me, even then, guiding my steps. (loc 1086)</p>
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<p>The woman is in every place, I repeated to myself. I looked out the window and tried to see every woman’s face as my own. (loc 1145)</p>
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<p>But I, too, was struck dumb by the beauty of this woman. How she was clothed in sunset colors, blue and tangerine. I was afraid of her, and very shy at first. (loc 1193)</p>
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<p>The divine is energy itself, pouring from one vessel to the next. Energy is holy. You’ll know when you feel it. (loc 1987)</p>
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<p>Beauty is precious. I need beauty in my life. (loc 2019)</p>
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<p>No, your whole sexuality is an ongoing performance. It’s just that only a few are invited backstage. (loc 2015)</p>
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<p>The imagined reality of walking the Trail and the lived reality of walking the Trail are themselves companions on the Trail, keeping one eye on each other at all times. (loc 2142)</p>
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			<title>Copperhead</title>
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				<p>I read some more comics over the weekend. A while back I bought the first volume of <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Copperhead/comics-series/25120"><em>Copperhead</em></a> and Saturday turned out to be the day to read it. I'd heard mixed things about the comic itself, but the fact that my comic shop was always sold out of volume one seemed a good sign to me.</p>
<p>I'm still not sure what I think of Copperhead. It's the story of a woman and her son who move to a far outlying, dry and dusty planet, where she will be the Sheriff in a small town. The world is populated by many different types of species as well as artificial humans, leftover from a war they were created to fight. The tension in this first volume is just from her very existence, her getting the job of Sheriff over the already on the job Deputy.</p>
<p>I was intrigued by one character, sadly not the main character, so I can't decide if I'm going to keep going or not. The main character has a past, which is hinted at, but not fully revealed quite yet. I'm also still not too sure what the world and time period is all about, one volume hasn't been enough to figure that all out. I <em>think</em> I'll read one more volume, when it's released, to get more of a sense of the story. And I'm excited because my library is carrying it, so I'll check it out and see what I think.</p>

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			<title>The Martian</title>
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			<updated>2015-07-31T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I finished <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Martian-Andy-Weir/dp/0553418025/"><em>The Martian</em></a> last night. I'm a fairly fast reader, but I usually read several things at once, so it takes a while to finish things. Not this time. I started the book last Sunday, read two thirds that day, another 75 pages on Monday night, and because of schedule issues, finished it last night. In short, I really love this book. I <a href="https://twitter.com/susanjrobertson/status/626959827265126401">tweeted</a> after finished it, &quot;Holy fucking shit is that a good book and I <em>may</em> have teared up a bit at the end.&quot;</p>
<p>Right from the very first line, the book drew me in. I'm going to admit a few things that probably make me predisposed to like it though. I am a space geek, I go star gazing and wonder about what's beyond this planet a lot. And space travel, I find it fascinating. So the idea of someone being stuck on Mars, well, it intrigues me.</p>
<p>But, that being said, I loved this book more for the main character and tone of writing than anything else. It is hilarious. The character of Mark Watney is one that I grew to love and cheer on as he tries to survive. And that's what made the book so great to me. I don't want to spoil anything, but the ending got me emotional, which is honestly rare for a book these days.</p>
<p>And, if the book weren't great enough, the story of how Andy Weir <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Martian_(Weir_novel)">wrote it</a> is also fantastic. He released it for free as a serial on his website first, then did a Kindle book since it was in demand, but sold it for the cheapest price, and then in one week sold the movie rights and print rights. I'm a bit dubious about the movie, but I will admit, the <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ue4PCI0NamI">first trailer</a> makes it look good, we'll see what happens.</p>
<p>My one and only quote (and if you watch the trailer, it's in that as well):</p>
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<p>Part of it might be what I represent: progress, science, and the interplanetary future we've dreamed of for centuries. But really, they did it because every human being has a basic instinct to help each other out. It might not seem that way sometimes, but it's true.<br>
If a hiker gets lost in the mountains, people will coordinate a search. If a train crashes, people will line up to give blood. If an earthquake levels a city, people all over the world will send emergency supplies. This is so fundamentally human that it's found in ever culture without exception. Yes, there are assholes who just don't care, but they're massively outnumbered by the people who do. And because of that, I had billions of people on my side.</p>
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			<title>Bringing up the Bodies</title>
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			<updated>2015-07-21T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I just recently finished the second book in the series that Hilary Mantel has written on Thomas Cromwell, <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Bring-Up-Bodies-Novel-Wolf-ebook/dp/B00779MU6O/"><em>Bringing up the Bodies</em></a>. It was a good read, taking the reader through the marriage of Henry VIII to Anne Boleyn. Similar to the first book, <a href="/reading/wolf-hall/"><em>Wolf Hall</em></a>, the inner thoughts and ideas of Thomas Cromwell and the maneuvering he does inside the court are what keep the action going.</p>
<p>It's apparent that Henry VIII isn't quite right and that his ego knows no bounds, but Cromwell seems to know how to duck and weave his way through the various problems that may arise. At the same time, I find Cromwell, as Mantel portrays him, a really interesting figure. I have no way of knowing what he was truly like in the day-to-day, but Mantel's character is intriguing and oftentimes wise.</p>
<p>I didn't highlight very much, but I read the kindle copy, courtesy of my library's digital lending program.</p>
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<p>Certain images will be all that remain from his ride into middle England. The holly berries burning in their bushes. The startled flight of a woodcock, flushed from almost beneath their hooves. The feeling of venturing into a watery place, where soil and marsh are the same colour and nothing is solid under your feet. (loc 1247)</p>
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<p>He is not a man wedded to action, Boleyn, but rather a man who stands by, smirking and stroking his beard; he thinks he looks enigmatic, but instead he looks as if he’s pleasuring himself. (loc 2859)</p>
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<p>George Rochford will be tried apart, as a peer; the commoners will be tried first. The order goes to the Tower, ‘Bring up the bodies.’ Deliver, that is, the accused men, .... (loc 5358)</p>
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<p>Men have been tried for treason, these last few years, and walked free, but these men know they will not escape. They have to think of their families left behind; they want the king to be good to them and that alone should still any protest, prevent any strident pleas of innocence. The court must be allowed to work unimpeded. (loc 5370)</p>
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<p>‘The truth is so rare and precious that sometimes it must be kept under lock and key.’ (loc 5754)</p>
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<p>Once you have chosen a course, you should not apologise for it. God knows, I mean nothing but good to our master the king. I am bound to obey and serve. And if you watch me closely you will see me do it.’ (loc 5894)</p>
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<p>[T]his is what death does to you, it takes and takes, so that all that is left of your memories is a faint tracing of spilled ash. (loc 5932)</p>
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<p>There are no endings. If you think so you are deceived as to their nature. They are all beginnings. Here is one. (loc 5962)</p>
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			<title>Thoughts on the 100 day project</title>
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			<updated>2015-07-15T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I did it, I completed The 100 Day Project. For 100 days, I've had a recurring <a href="https://teuxdeux.com/">TeuxDeux</a> on my list: 100 day project. It's gone, it's over, it's been 100 days. And I thought I would share some thoughts about going through this process, along with some of my favorites from the last 100 days.</p>
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    <figcaption>One of my favorites, home alone for a few days, off to our local for dinner at the bar, pizza, old fashioned, and the NY Times crossword.</figcaption>
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<p>I started out the project with my idea: 100 Days of Sketch Journal. I wanted something that would get me drawing again, but I'm very attached to words, so I wanted them to be involved as well. Plus, in using my day-to-day life, I was hoping to have more than enough material for the duration of the project. I also started with some limitations, I was only going to use the pencil tool in <a href="http://www.fiftythree.com/paper">Paper</a> and nothing else. But that quickly went out the window as I wanted the ability to be able to do more, so I started using other tools within a few weeks.</p>
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    <figcaption>This one makes me laugh when I think of it. Me in bed, staring at Venus through the skylight, yelling to G downstairs that I can see Venus from my bed, and then making up a song about it (making up songs is something I do quite often).</figcaption>
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<p>I collected all of them in both <a href="https://www.flickr.com/photos/susanjeanrobertson/sets/72157651737693536">Flickr</a> and a journal in Paper, so I have them to look back on and shared them with the world. I also started off doing several small sketches of various things on one day, but quickly moved into a more doable, and frankly fun, format of doing one sketch of something and writing a bit about it. I traveled a lot during this time period, so using Paper on my iPad mini was the perfect choice. In addition to being able to take it easily everywhere with me, I learned a lot about the product, the tools, how to use them, and they came out with new tools to play with during the 100 days, which added more variety.</p>
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    <figcaption>One fantastic benefit, the project got me to start looking around during the day a lot more, as shown here, I noticed a lot of small things. This can be seen in 26, 28, 60, 72, and more.</figcaption>
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<p>Some days, I squeaked in just under the wire, right before midnight. And I did miss one day. I traveled to Montreal in June, on a red eye, which I never do well with, ended up going to bed extremely early feeling ill, and I didn't realize until the next day that I had forgotten to do my sketch journal entry. I was upset, but I did two that morning to catch up. No one's perfect, but I did have a good run for 78 days and caught right back up.</p>
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    <figcaption>I traveled more than I normally do during this time period, so this is a bit of a journal for me of those travels as well.</figcaption>
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<p>I have favorites in the project, ones that I took extra time on, or are linked to good memories. I can look back on the 100 days and see lots of bits of my life in there and it triggers more than just what I wrote about for that particular day. This is the unexpected, but very much appreciated, aspect of the project. When I look at the full album of the images, I see my life and remember some of the small, but fantastic things that happened. G is encouraging me to take the journal from Paper and <a href="http://www.fiftythree.com/book">make a book</a> out of it, which is doable and I'm seriously considering. Just for me, just to have something tangible. These 100 drawings and the words that go along with them mean more than I thought they would when I started on this journey.</p>
<p>If there was one thing that I had a hard time with in the project overall, it was that some days I wanted to sketch about something personal, something I didn't want to share with the world. I'm excited for the future though, because now I have the habit of drawing daily, and I'm going to try doing that on actual paper, in a <a href="https://www.flickr.com/photos/susanjeanrobertson/15845772804/in/album-72157650163208167/">journal I made</a> and if I want to take a picture and share it, I can, or it can just be for me.</p>
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    <figcaption>Recording the amazing and rare, such as a hummingbird flying a few feet from my face.</figcaption>
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<p>As a side note: thank you so much <a href="http://elleluna.com/">Elle Luna</a> for the encouragement. I'm finally drawing again after a very long dry spell and it's been great. Your <a href="/reading/the-crossroads-of-should-and-must/">book about choosing must</a> and this project have helped me see more of my must and I'm starting to plan how to keep moving in that direction.</p>
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    <figcaption>Ending with one of my favorites, about my favorite stars in the sky, Myzar and Alcor.</figcaption>
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			<title>Communication is key</title>
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				<p>I've been working remotely for several years now, either full-time for a company, or as a freelancer. I've worked remotely where there was an office, offices full of people, and fully distributed teams.</p>
<p>But, especially in the last few years, there have been arguments about remote work. Are remote workers as productive? Can teams produce great things when they are all scattered in their own homes and co-working spaces? It isn’t really about being in an office or not being in an office, it’s about finding the way you can produce great work, and communicating with your team, in order to make things together.</p>
<p>I like to think I've learned a few things about successful teams, not just successful remote work. Because as I’ve learned, the two go hand-in-hand. Remote work just brings to the surface things that are especially important, but I would argue these things are just as important for teams that are sitting in the same physical space.</p>
<p>Many articles have been written on this topic. One of <a href="http://stet.editorially.com/articles/making-remote-teams-work/">my favorites</a> is by Mandy Brown. She talked with a lot of people who were working remotely at the time. Each team and person worked <em>very</em> differently, so there is no right answer when it comes to how to make remote work work.</p>
<p>The tools we talk about a lot, Slack, Hipchat, Basecamp, Github, Trello, etc, are just that, tools. What matters more than the tools is that the team is functioning well, people are trusted to get their job done, and they are all committed to doing good work together.</p>
<p>There are three things that have become important to me in order to make remote work successful, but remember, this is what works for me and everyone is different. I have teammates who work very differently and do fantastic work.</p>
<p>First, I do what I can to make sure that when I'm working I can focus and get things done efficiently. This means working in a dedicated space in my house that is comfortable and ergonomic. Coffee shops tend to distract me and I usually get annoyed with people, so I tend to avoid them for work that needs a lot of focus.</p>
<p>Second, I take regular breaks and make sure I’m working a  <em>normal</em> work day schedule. I've said this before other <a href="http://alistapart.com/blog/post/routines-arent-the-enemy">places</a>, but I find the idea of you can work whenever actually just leads to me working a lot. Too much in fact. And since my partner works a 9 to 5 job, I tend to work a fairly standard work day. I also communicate when I step away for mini breaks, and for longer breaks, usually quit the chat program so my team has an easy signal that I’m not available.</p>
<p>Third, I communicate, <em>a lot</em>.  If you think you are communicating too much then you are probably communicating the right amount. For me, this means that I send an email at the end of my day to my co-worker in England with an update on where things are. When he gets up, he has a ready reference. I’m also really involved in chat, I like the social aspect of it, and it’s a great way for me to feel part of the team. On my current team, Hangouts are done when needed for talking through things that work better with voices rather than typing.</p>
<p>But here’s the thing with all three of these: I think they make anyone a better team member whether you are in an office, working from a home office, or working in a coffee shop. Even if your team is usually in a physical space together, communicating is just as important.</p>
<p>I like the idea of companies taking the stance of remote by default. Especially for companies with multiple offices, with some remote workers, or people who may be partially remote. It is the <em>most</em> important thing that can be done. Because when you place value on asynchronous communication and documentation, everyone benefits.</p>
<p>By remembering that not everyone can always be “in the room” I believe a team becomes a better team. Trusting people to do their work well, instead of counting the number of hours they are in the office, is how we can do our best.</p>
<p class="small">This post originally appeared on The Pastry Box on <a href="https://the-pastry-box-project.net/susan-robertson/2015-june-24">24 June 2015</a>.</p>

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			<title>The Left Hand of Darkness</title>
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			<updated>2015-07-03T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I don't know why, but one day last month I wandered into the science fiction section at the main Powells. And while there, happened upon a copy of <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Left-Hand-Darkness-Science-Fiction/dp/0441007317/"><em>The Left Hand of Darkness</em></a> by Ursula K. Le Guin. In that moment, I remembered that <a href="http://aworkinglibrary.com">Mandy</a> had read this and I was intrigued by the book, so I picked it up and brought it home.</p>
<p>I finally started it a couple of weeks ago, was interrupted in the reading by a work trip where I didn't read much at all. But finished it last night. I ended up loving this book, but it started out slow, the amount of back story in the first half makes sense when you get to the second half and I absolutely loved the final 150 pages of this book.</p>
<p>Genly Ai arrives on the planet of Winter as an envoy from a collection of planets to start building a relationship with the inhabitants of Winter. Winter is made up of several different countries that co exist for the most part peaceably, in a tough planet that is mostly ice and glacier. The inhabitants are neither male nor female, but asexual except when they go through the process to procreate and then turn into one gender in order to mate.</p>
<p>The book is a story of not just Genly trying to find his way in the society, but also he is trying to find people who will welcome others like him, who want to form a relationship with the cooperative of planets. In so doing, he forms an interesting and intriguing relationship with one particular person, Estraven. And through this relationship, we learn much about the people of Winter, Genly, and what being welcoming to another truly is.</p>
<p>I read the paper version of this book and highlights are below:</p>
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<p>No, I don't mean love when I say patriotism. I mean fear. The fear of the other. And it's expressions are political, not poetical: hate, rivalry, aggression. It grows in us, that fear. It grows in us year by year. We've followed our road too far.&quot; (p. 18)</p>
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<p>&quot;But I do fear you, Envoy. I fear those who sent you. I fear liars, and I fear tricksters, and worst I fear the bitter truth. And so I rule my country well. Because only fear rules men. Nothing else works. Nothing else lasts long enough.&quot; (p. 39)</p>
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<p>&quot;Yes. There's really only one question that can be answered, Genry, and we already know the answer.... The only thing that makes life possible is permanent, intolerable uncertainty: not knowing what comes next.&quot; (p. 70)</p>
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<p>How does one hate a country, or love one? Tibe talks about it; I lack the trick of it. I know people, I know towns, farms, hills and rivers and rocks, I know how the sun at sunset in autumn falls on the side of a certain plowland in the hills; but what is the sense of giving a boundary to all that, of giving it a name and ceasing to love where the name ceases to apply? What is love of one's country; is it hate of one's uncountry? Then it's not a good thing. Is it simply self-love? That's a good thing, but one mustn't make a virtue of it, or a profession.... Insofar as I love life, I love the hills of the Domain of Estre, but that sort of love does not have a boundary line of hate. And beyond that, I am ignorant, I hope. (p. 212)</p>
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<p>I felt as he did. It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters, in the end. (p. 220)</p>
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<p>And I wondered, not for the first time, what patriotism is, what the love of country truly consists of, how that yearning loyalty that had shaken my friend's voice arises, and how so real a love can become, too often, so foolish and vile a bigotry. Where does it go wrong? (p 279)</p>
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			<title>Y: The Last Man</title>
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			<updated>2015-07-01T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>On the heels of reading <em>Ministry of Space</em>, I picked up a volume that's been on the shelf for quite some time after I found a cheap used copy at Powells, <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Y-The-Last-Man/comics-series/475"><em>Y: The Last Man</em></a>. I had no idea what this was about, but several people on the Twitters recommended it, so I decided to go for it.</p>
<p>Essentially, within the first issue, every man on the planet dies, except for one, and it is done in a very rapture like way. They just suddenly die, so planes crash, cars crash, and there is general chaos. The one man who does live, is a bit eccentric and manages to find his way to his mother in another city, who is an official in the US government.</p>
<p>What I found really interesting about this comic is the mystery. What the heck happened to all the men? Why did Yorick survive? In addition, the very different reactions of different women is fascinating. Some mourn, some say good riddance, and many fall in between. I've only read the first volume, so the first five issues, of this one. But I have the second one on hold at the library already.</p>
<p>In addition to the interest that the plot and story have sparked in me, I really enjoyed the writing. And of course, when I realized that the same writer is doing <em>Saga</em> and <em>Copperhead</em>, one of which I love and the other I want to read, it all made sense. This is what I'm loving about comics, so many times I can follow either a writer or an artist and it opens up a whole new world of fantastic comics.</p>

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			<title>Ministry of Space</title>
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				<p>I got back into some new comics I've had on my shelf for a while now this past weekend. I've been finding reading comics is my way of just unwinding and usually I love to read things that may have depth, but you can also gloss over that if you want. But I just read <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Ministry-of-Space/comics-series/8374"><em>Ministry of Space</em></a> written by Warren Ellis. Yes, my Warren Ellis kick continues.</p>
<p><em>Ministry of Space</em> was a very brief series, just 3 issues, so only one trade volume. I also didn't really know what to think of it, even when I finished it. I read the note at the end of the volume by Ellis and then much of what I read clicked in for me. I will be reading it again with the new knowledge.</p>
<p>That isn't to say that I didn't enjoy it, because I did. It's about space, WWII and beyond, and crazy adventures in our world but things are quite the same. That combination is a winner for me. But I also had a lot of questions when I finished so I was glad that Ellis said more at the end of the volume to explain some of the things he wrote about.</p>
<p>I don't want to give away the story, but I do recommend it, if you are inclined to read a quick comic about space and the British Empire.</p>

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			<title>What I Talk About When I Talk About Running</title>
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			<updated>2015-06-12T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Many moons ago, my friend <a href="https://twitter.com/sldistin">Sara</a> recommended this book to me. I was doing Couch to 5k and I was also writing more, so it seemed a good fit. I finally picked up <a href="http://www.amazon.com/What-About-Running-Vintage-International-ebook/dp/B0015DWJ8W/"><em>What I Talk About When I Talk About Running</em></a> by Haruki Murakami a few months ago and I finally started reading it a few weeks ago. It is fantastic. Not only is the writing fantastic, but the way he merges talking about long distance running with writing is really interesting. I don't run long distance, but just running at all gives me an appreciation for how he speaks of marathons, and the one ultra marathon he did.</p>
<p>I've also found that I really enjoy memoirs that are based on an activity. So one of my all time favorite books is <a href="http://www.amazon.com/My-Life-France-Julia-Child/dp/0307277690/"><em>My Life in France</em></a> by Julia Child. She uses the lens of food to talk about her life, which is fantastic. And this book, using running to talk about writing, it's equally as captivating to me.</p>
<p>I highlighted a lot of passages as I read the paper version of this book, so page numbers are included.</p>
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<p>But the river has remained unaltered. The wwater still flows swiftly, and silently, twoard Boston Harbor. The water soaks the shoreline, making the summer grasses grow thick, which help feed the waterflow, and it flow languidly, ceaselessly, under the old bridges, reflecting clouds in summer and bobboing with floes in winter—and silently heads toward the ocean. (p. 13)</p>
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<p>As I run I tell  myself to think of a river. And clouds. But essentially I'm not thinking of a thing. All I do is keep on running in my own cozy, homemade void, my own nostalgic silence. And htis is a pretty wonderful thing. No matter what anybody else says. (p. 23)</p>
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<p>I'm struck by how, except when you're young, you really need to prioritize in life, figuring out in what order you should divide up your time and energy. If you don't get that sort of system set up by a certain age, you'll lack focus and your life will be out of balance. I placed the highest priority on the sort of life that lets me focus on writing, not associating with all the people around me. I felt that the indispensable relationship I should build in my life was not with a specific person, but with an unspecified number of readers. (p. 37)</p>
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<p>In other words, let's face it: Life is basically unfair. But even in a situation that's unfair, I think it's possible to seek out a kind of fairness. Of course that might take time and effort. And maybe it won't seem to be worth all that. It's up to each individual to decide whether or not it is. (p. 43)</p>
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<p>The most important thing we ever learn at school is the fact that the most important things can't be learned at school. (p. 45)</p>
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<p>If I used being busy as an excuse not to run, I'd never run again. I have only a few reasons to keep on running, and a truckload of them to quit. All I can do is keep those <em>few reasons</em> nicely polished. (p. 73)</p>
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<p>Writing itself is mental labor, but finishing an entire book is closer to manual labor. It doesn't involve heavy lifting, running fast, or leaping high. Most people, though, only see the surface reality of writing and think of writers as involved in quiet, intellectual work done in their study. If you have the strength to lift a cup of coffee, they figure, you can write a novel. But once you try your hand at it, you soon find that it isn't as peaceful a job as it seems. (p. 79)</p>
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<p>On the other hand, writers who aren't blessed with much talent—those who barely make the grade—need to build up their strength at their own expense. They have to train themselves to improve their focus, to increase their endurance. To a certain extent they're forced to make these qualities stand in for talent. And while they're getting by on these, they may actually discover real, hidden talent within them. They're sweating, digging out a hole at their feet with a shovel, when they run across a deep secret water vein. It's a lucky thing, but what made this good fortune possible was lal the training they did that gave them the strength to keep on digging. I imagine that late-blooming writers have all gone through a similar process. (p. 80-81)</p>
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<p>Most of what I know about writing I've learned through running every day. These are practical, physical lessons. How much can I push myself? How mus rest is appropriate—and how mush is too much? How far can I take something and still keep it decent and consistent? When does it become narrow-minded adn inflexible? How much should I be awaer of the world outside, and how much should I focus on my inner world? To what extent should I be confident in my abilities, and when should I start doubting myself? I know that if I hadn't become a long-distance runner when I became a novelist, my work would have been vastly different. How different? Hard to say. But something would have definitely been different.  (p. 81-82)</p>
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<p>No matter where you go, the expressions on the faces of long-distance runners are all the same. They all look like they're thinking about something as they run. They might not be thinking at all, but they look like they're intently thinking. (p. 86)</p>
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<p>What I mean is, I didn't start running because somebody asked me to become a runner. Just like I didn't become a novelist because someone asked me to. One day, out of the blue, I wanted to write a novel. And one day, out of the blue, I started to run—simply because I wanted to. I've always done whatever I felt like doing in life. People may tryp to stop me, and convince me I'm wrong, but I won't change. (p. 150)</p>
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<p>For me, the main goal of exercising is to maintain, and improve, my physical condition in order to keep on writing novels, so if races and training cut into the time I need to write, this would be putting the cart before the horse. Which is why I've tried to maintain a decent balance. (p. 177-178)</p>
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			<title>The Cairo Affair</title>
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			<updated>2015-06-11T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>It is summer, it is hot in our TV room (which is in a converted attic), which means that I'm reading up a storm. Long lazy evenings on the porch, sometimes with a glass of wine, and a book. It's my favorite thing in summer (other than star gazing). This past weekend I read what I like to call brain candy. An easy going, entertaining book, that won't make me think too hard. Many times these are spy thrillers and this was no different, I hung out in Cairo with <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Cairo-Affair-Olen-Steinhauer/dp/1250036151/"><em>The Cairo Affair</em></a> by Olen Steinhauer.</p>
<p>My only requirement for brain candy reading is that it provide entertainment and I also hope for some twists and turns that surprise me. <em>The Cairo Affair</em> did just that. I found the main character interesting, I didn't necessarily like her, but she was intriguing. I also enjoyed a lot of the surrounding characters, they moved in and out of her life and you often only learned a bit at a time about any one character, keeping me interested.</p>
<p>I read a digital loan from my library on the kindle, so the few highlights I have are tied to the kindle location.</p>
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<p>She’d lived in the diplomatic corps long enough to know that just because people act as if they understand the world, it doesn’t mean they know it any better than you do. (loc 603)</p>
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<p>Later, once they had returned to Boston and gained some perspective, she would see that this was part and parcel of extremist thought the world over: the heaping on of selective trivia that only a computer could fact-check in real time, the raw accumulation of unverifiable anecdote that could create a new reality. (loc 3805)</p>
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			<title>The Gastronomical Me</title>
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			<updated>2015-05-31T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Over the past few months I've been reading <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Gastronomical-Me-M-F-Fisher/dp/0865473927/"><em>The Gastronomical Me</em></a> by MFK Fisher off and on. It's a great memoir about food, travel, and life in Europe in the lead up to World War II, but I also had to be in the right mood for it, so I slowly made my way through the book. It was originally published in 1943 and Mary, the woman who's life we are experiencing, lived quite the life during the 1920s and 1930s. She traveled, she bucked trends, she fell in love twice, and she ate a lot of amazing food.</p>
<p>But what I really loved about this book was the way in which she described the food and all that was happening in and around the meals, which so often influence how we remember the things we eat. Some of my favorite food memories involve people I love and laughter and conversation, which makes the memory of the food being fantastic even stronger. It is no different in this book.</p>
<p>I read a paper version, so there are only a few highlights below.</p>
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<p>We ate well, too. It was the first real day-to-day meal-after-meal cooking I'd ever done, and was only a little less complicated than performing an appendectomy on a life-raft, but after I got used to hauling water and putting together three courses on a table the size of a bandana and lighting the portable oven without blowing myself clear into the living room in stead of only halfway, it was fun. (p. 100)</p>
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<p>That early spring I met a young servant in northern Burgundy who was almost fanatical about food, like a medieval woman possessed by the devil. Her obsession engulfed even my appreciation of the dishes she served, until I grew uncomfortable. (p. 139)</p>
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<p>Several times during the evening he took Chexbres or me aside and asked who our cook was. He refused, quite candidly and politely, to believe that I had made the stew, just as he refused to accept my recipe for it; he was convinced that in our pride we were hiding a famous chef somewhere in the cellars. It was a little embarrassing, but funny, to think of our being able to afford a hidden cook at all, and then to be accused of guarding him so jealously that we even faked recipes for him.</p>
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			<title>Alex + Ada</title>
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			<updated>2015-05-31T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I spent much of yesterday, in the backyard, munching on snacks, drinking beverages of various sorts, and reading. It was glorious. After I finished a memoir I'd been reading for the past several weeks, I decided to read a comic. And I chose <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Alex-Ada-Vol-1/digital-comic/125115"><em>Alex + Ada</em></a>. It was the perfect choice given some of the things I've been <a href="/writing/robots-work-and-money/">thinking</a> about this past week.</p>
<p>It is set in the future, but the date is never explicitly said, unless I missed something. But we rely on robots for all types of things, to make breakfast and clean up the kitchen, to wake us up, our cars are self-driving, and androids are a common part of life. Alex is turning older and alone and his grandmother decides to buy him an android to keep him company. There is so much going on here about androids, sentient life of non humans, how do you define a relationship between a human and an android, etc.</p>
<p>Needless to say, I found the entire things super interesting and now want to rush out and buy volume 2 to read as quickly as possible. I like the areas of gray that are involved in thinking about all this and the authors do a great job of showing those areas through Alex's friends and their thoughts and ideas about androids.</p>
<p>In addition, the clean drawing style of this comic was super interesting. I love the large color blocks and the almost flatter style of shading and showing depth. Was a nice change from some of the things I've been reading recently.</p>

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			<title>Robots, work, and money</title>
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			<updated>2015-05-29T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I recently listened to the <a href="http://www.npr.org/sections/money/">Planet Money</a> podcast series on robots. It was <em>really</em> interesting to me, especially in that it pointed out some ways robots could be used that I never would have imagined they would work (like for psychological therapy? wut?).</p>
<p>The final episode of the <a href="http://www.npr.org/sections/money/2015/05/22/408834372/episode-626-this-is-the-end">series</a> talks about the future. Will robots take over all the jobs, so that we won't have any work to do anymore? They talk with two different experts who have two very different takes, but one of them says yes. We will not have the things we call jobs anymore in the future. And it sparked my interest.</p>
<p>No jobs? What will we do? How will the economy work?</p>
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<p>I happened upon the idea of <a href="http://www.theatlantic.com/business/archive/2015/05/what-if-everybody-didnt-have-to-work-to-get-paid/393428/">everyone getting paid</a>; the idea of a base pay from the government and it isn't tied in any way to work. I had honestly never heard of this idea before, but apparently, there is a whole movement about this.</p>
<p>And, in some ways, I'm not quite sure what I think of it. My upbringing as a good Scandinavian Lutheran American taught me that work is good, we should all work. And yet, I'm not so sure I agree with our system all the time. Is all work good work and is structuring the economy such that some people barely make it the way we should be going?</p>
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<p>These two things then led me to the way economies work in Star Trek. I know, that was a utopia of sorts, but there is no money. People work at things they like and enjoy to further society, but they never need to worry about having the necessities of life because that is just there.</p>
<p>My friend <a href="http://aworkinglibrary.com">Mandy</a> points out, in a fantastic <a href="http://aworkinglibrary.com/writing/ferengi/">essay</a>, that in Star Trek the race that is greedy, the Ferengi, are looked down upon and shunned. And I just can't help but wonder, if the robots take our jobs, will we ever be able to get to a place of not needing to have money? Will our economies be driven by something else? Will we even talk about economies and if so, how?</p>

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			<title>Wolf Hall</title>
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			<updated>2015-05-28T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'd heard a lot of good things about <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Wolf-Hall-Hilary-Mantel/dp/0312429983/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1432828993&amp;sr=8-2&amp;keywords=wolf+hall"><em>Wolf Hall</em></a>, the novel by Hilary Mantel about Thomas Cromwell. So I finally got my turn to read the digital copy from the library and spent most of last weekend devouring it. I really enjoyed it. The era of Henry VIII is fascinating to me because of all that is happening with the Catholic Church and Luther and then Henry's desire to circumvent the church in order to remarry (what ended up several times).</p>
<p>One thing to note is that while reading this I had a discussion with colleagues about the fact that the novel is based on real people, but it is most definitely fiction. I like that type of fiction, but you do need to remember the entire time that it is fiction and that what you are reading may not have <em>actually</em> happened, in other words, it isn't a biography.</p>
<p>What I loved about this book is the descriptions. The highlights I made were driven by being struck at the words used to describe both inner thoughts and the situation at hand. Mantel does a great job with this and it is probably the reason I read it so quickly and enjoyed it so much. And now I'm patiently waiting on the hold list for <em>Bringing Up the Bodies</em>.</p>
<p>I read the kindle version, graciously loaned by my local library, so highlights are noted by their kindle location.</p>
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<p>That was the way of the world: a knife in the dark, a movement on the edge of vision, a series of warnings which have worked themselves into flesh. (loc 1189)</p>
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<p>Under his clothes, it is well known, More wears a jerkin of horsehair. He beats himself with a small scourge, of the type used by some religious orders. What lodges in his mind, Thomas Cromwell’s, is that somebody makes these instruments of daily torture. Someone combs the horsehair into coarse tufts, knots them and chops the blunt ends, knowing that their purpose is to snap off under the skin and irritate it into weeping sores. Is it monks who make them, knotting and snipping in a fury of righteousness, chuckling at the thought of the pain they will cause to persons unknown? Are simple villagers paid—how, by the dozen?—for making flails with waxed knots? Does it keep farmworkers busy during the slow winter months? When the money for their honest labor is put into their hands, do the makers think of the hands that will pick up the product? We don’t have to invite pain in, he thinks. It’s waiting for us: sooner rather than later. (loc 1352)</p>
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<p>Men, it is supposed, want to pass their wisdom to their sons; he would give a great deal to protect his own son from a quarter of what he knows. (loc 1434)</p>
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<p>As he walks away he thinks, that’s a conversation I shouldn’t have had. (loc 2564)</p>
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<p>Why are we so attached to the severities of the past? Why are we so proud of ourselves for having endured our fathers and our mothers, the fireless days and the meatless days, the cold winters and the sharp tongues? It’s not as if we had a choice. (loc 4562)</p>
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<p>But it is no use to justify yourself. It is no good to explain. It is weak to be anecdotal. It is wise to conceal the past even if there is nothing to conceal. A man’s power is in the half-light, in the half-seen movements of his hand and the unguessed-at expression of his face. It is the absence of facts that frightens people: the gap you open, into which they pour their fears, fantasies, desires. (loc 5271)</p>
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<p>The page of an accounts book is there for your use, like a love poem. It’s not there for you to nod and then dismiss it; it’s there to open your heart to possibility. It’s like the scriptures: it’s there for you to think about, and initiate action. Love your neighbor. Study the market. Increase the spread of benevolence. Bring in better figures next year. (loc 5356)</p>
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<p>If Henry does not fully trust him, is it surprising? A prince is alone: in his council chamber, in his bedchamber, and finally in Hell’s antechamber, stripped—as Harry Percy said—for Judgment. (loc 6045)</p>
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<p>I am always translating, he thinks: if not language to language, then person to person. Anne to Henry. Henry to Anne. Those days when he wants soothing, and she is as prickly as a holly bush. Those times—they do occur—when his gaze strays after another woman, and she follows it, and storms off to her own apartments. He, Cromwell, goes about like some public poet, carrying assurances of desire, each to each. (loc 6157)</p>
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<p>Beyond the gate, cries and shouts, London never still or quiet; so many in the graveyards, but the living parading in the streets, drunken fighters pitching from London Bridge, sanctuary men stealing out to thieve, Southwark whores bawling out their prices like butchers selling dead flesh. (loc 7282)</p>
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<p>You can have a silence full of words. A lute retains, in its bowl, the notes it has played. The viol, in its strings, holds a concord. A shriveled petal can hold its scent, a prayer can rattle with curses; an empty house, when the owners have gone out, can still be loud with ghosts. (loc 9379)</p>
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			<title>Rocket Girl</title>
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			<updated>2015-05-27T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm a bit behind on getting my reading stuff up here. But while I was on the plane to Boston and back earlier this month, I read <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Rocket-Girl-Vol-1-Times-Squared/digital-comic/123085?ref=c2VyaWVzL3ZpZXcvZGVza3RvcC9ncmlkTGlzdC9Db2xsZWN0ZWRFZGl0aW9ucw"><em>Rocket Girl</em></a> and it is fan-freaking-tastic. Seriously, if you like comics, you should give this one a try. It came out as a limited run, but was so popular they started it back up again (yay!).</p>
<p>It's about a girl from the future (2013) traveling back to 1986 to stop a major invention from working so that the future won't be dominated by one crazy corporation. She's a New York City Teen Police Officer because only young people can be trusted in the future. The character is great, the way NYC of 1986 is drawn and portrayed is really interesting, and the whole story grabbed me. I'm more excited than I can say that they are continuing on with the series.</p>

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			<title>Changing culture</title>
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			<updated>2015-05-20T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been <a href="https://adactio.com/journal/8956">reading</a> a lot of <a href="http://timkadlec.com/2015/05/choosing-performance/">things</a> lately about <a href="http://flickerfusion.com/lessons-from-instant-articles.html">performance</a> on the web. Much of the writing being done has been spurred by the release of Facebook Instant, and while I agree with what is being said by many smart people, I can't help but wonder something.</p>
<p>I agree that we need a cultural shift in how we build for the web, but how does that happen? Companies need to earn money, this is a basic reality, and they do that by advertising and other means. While I too hate the way you have to dismiss modals and other things to read an article, I don't understand how the cultural change occurs, who has the power to make that happen?</p>
<p>I think what I'm asking is, who will be the game changer in this conversation? Who will be the large, bulky site that will work towards performance and make it happen and then we will all point to them and say, see they did it. It seems to me that that is what it takes. Much like we pointed to ESPN and being able to use CSS for layout or The Boston Globe and being able to do responsive at a large scale, who will we point to for the performance overhaul?</p>
<p>I ask, because, in my mind, it is going to take a large site, one that decides to do this and <em>still</em> generates revenue, or is considered successful in whatever measure is appropriate, that will get our attention and wake people up.</p>
<p>There are <em>a lot</em> of people doing fantastic work in this area, but it doesn't seem to be penetrating the large multinational or national company that this is important. Therefore they've gone to other means, such as Facebook Instant, to solve the problem. And I say this as someone who's done a lot of client work and worked in large bureaucratic companies, it's hard work to get people interested in dropping things, such as tracking scripts or a modal to try and get your email address, for the sake of performance.</p>
<p>So while I agree with all that is being written, that performance must be a part of the culture at <em>all</em> levels, with the folks who never touch a line of code caring about it as much as those designing and writing the code, I wonder how it gets to that point. Do we force people to use only 3G for a week? Do we throttle the company internet so that all the employees feel the slowness and the effect of their bulky pages? I'm not sure, but maybe something like that is in order.</p>
<p>Because right now, I feel like we are all talking in a bit of an echo chamber, and the people who need to hear this aren't hearing it. But I'd love to be proven wrong.</p>

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			<title>Experiences as ideas</title>
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			<updated>2015-05-19T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Two months ago on this site I wrote a bit about the way I think about work and life. This has been an ongoing evolution for me, pushed by a lot of what I've read on the subject of work life balance. There are two main sides to this debate: one says there is no work/life balance, it is all just life and the other insists the balance exists.</p>
<p>As I stated in my <a href="https://the-pastry-box-project.net/susan-robertson/2015-march-7">previous piece</a>, I disagree with the &quot;it's all just life&quot; contingent. I believe there is a balance to be found. I say this, because I need time completely away from all obligations and if I mix it all up together and make it all life, well those obligations that I associate with work are always hanging over me.</p>
<p>But, just about the time that piece was published, I realized something else. Many of the people who advocate that it is all life don't have traditional jobs with a boss. By which I mean that many of them are running their own businesses, they are consultants, or maybe a partner in a small company. When you are in a position where you decide your schedule, you get to decide your hours, etc, it is easy to say it is all life.</p>
<p>But I've worked in many-a-job where I didn't have that freedom. I've had jobs where being able to be home to meet a plumber or furnace repair person was extremely difficult. There are others who have demanding bosses and don't get the breaks they need and desire from work. And sometimes, we can't make changes to those jobs when we'd like due to life circumstances.</p>
<p>We all desire to have a job where we are trusted, valued, and appreciated by the team we work with and the people we work for, but unfortunately that isn't always the case. And when someone who is lucky enough to have all that tells the person who doesn't that it is all just life, well, that may look fairly grim.</p>
<p>So I’m trying to be more careful and sensitive to the situations of others. Rather than being prescriptive with my advice, I’m trying very hard to state what works for me, thinking of them as ideas for others rather than the only way to do things.</p>
<p>Much as <a href="https://the-pastry-box-project.net/eileen-webb/2015-february-9">Eileen Webb said</a> in a piece earlier this year,</p>
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<p>Our experiences and lessons still have great value and are worth sharing, but we have to stop presenting them as law.</p>
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<p>So many who wade into the work/life balance debate seem to present their perspective as law; as if their experience is everyone’s. And since each of our situations are different, maybe remembering to take them as the ideas they are is the best thing I can share.</p>
<p class="small">This post originally appeared on <a href="https://the-pastry-box-project.net/susan-robertson/2015-may-7">The Pastry Box</a> on May 7, 2015.</p>

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			<title>All the Old Knives</title>
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				<p>Over the weekend I needed a bit of a get away from it all read, and, as it worked out, my turn came up at the library to read the latest Olen Steinhauer spy novel, <a href="http://www.amazon.com/All-Old-Knives-Olen-Steinhauer-ebook/dp/B00MSYOCC8/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1432047806&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=olen+steinhauer"><em>All the Old Knives</em></a>. Several years ago I tore through his Milo Weaver series of novels and loved them. Spy novels have become my brain candy reading when I just need a break from things.</p>
<p><em>All the Old Knives</em> is a bit of a different read in that all the current action takes place on one day and most of that is in one place, over dinner in a restaurant. Two old CIA colleagues meet up and of course, being a spy novel, you are led to believe it's for one reason and yet there is so much more going on. It's a good, quick read, and I admit, the twist got me at the end.</p>
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<p>Maybe love is the wrong way to live. Maybe anything that infects good sense is to be shunned. It’s a possibility I’ll examine closer, when there’s time. (loc. 2597)</p>
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			<title>Hello Fictive Kin</title>
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			<updated>2015-05-05T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Today I'm happy to announce that I'm leaving the freelancing life for full time work with <a href="http://fictivekin.com">Fictive Kin</a>. There is a lot that has gone into this decision, but let me say that I have been looking at and thinking about full time work for most of this year. It's been rocky to keep my pipeline full, I missed being on a team, and there are some personal reasons as well—steadiness became more important to me.</p>
<p>But nothing quite right had presented itself, so I kept sticking with freelancing. Then, a few months ago, <a href="https://twitter.com/fictivecameron">Cameron</a> approached me about working with Fictive Kin. To say I was hesitant is a bit of an understatement. I'd been to a Brooklyn Beta, but only knew of 3 of the people on the team. Add to that, it is a group of guys who'd been working together for quite some time, well, I just wasn't sure. And it’s a group of guys.</p>
<p>Cameron and I made a deal: 3 months and if it went well, I'd go full-time. We are coming up on the end of the second month and it's going well, so I'm making the transition earlier than planned.</p>
<p>I should also say, another woman was hired on just before I started the contract, so I'm not the only woman on the team, which is nice, but I would probably have stuck with them even if I was the only woman.</p>
<p>As you may be wondering what swayed me, I thought I'd give some examples, because they are what illustrate how cool this team really is.</p>
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<li>It is a remote team, so all the flexibility and ability to work from my little home office still exists. I've grown to love that and, as an introvert, it suits me well.</li>
<li>In my first few weeks, when setting up a <abbr title="Virtual Machine">VM</abbr> to jump in on a client project, I was asked what my comfort level with the command line was in the perfect way in the chat room. My teammate stated that it wasn't a judgement, but he needed to know in order to know exactly how to best help me get this thing up and running. These are not dudebros in any way, shape, or form.</li>
<li>FK does a mix of product work and client work. I like the variety. I've missed being on a product team since <a href="http://stet.editorially.com">Editorially</a> shut down.</li>
<li>In my first week, I started coding a new thing, from scratch, and was told, &quot;We want good solid HTML and accessibility.&quot; Yeah, you read that right, the word accessibility was used and it got me excited. Since then, I've been given the time to research accessibility even more in relation to the project, &quot;We all would say we care about it, but we don't know much about it, so take your time and read as much as you need.&quot; That's a dream come true.</li>
<li>They want to invest in me in more than just learning about accessibility. I'm hopefully going to be mentored in other areas, such as JavaScript (my long time nemesis) and maybe even more backend things.</li>
<li>I've felt extremely comfortable in chat asking questions about process, tools, etc. In addition we just had a rousing discussion on how to name color variables and it was awesome. Ideas and thoughts flowed freely and together we came up with a solution that made sense to everyone. Being able to have good, open back and forth like that is great.</li>
<li>They aren't interested in work being your whole life. They all have varied and interesting outside work interests. Which is exactly the kind of team that I want to be a part of.</li>
</ul>
<p>Those are just some of the things that have happened over the past two months. And, to be honest, not much in my day-to-day life is changing, except that I'll be working with the same team for much longer and getting to know them better.</p>
<p>And in June, it's off to a retreat to meet them in person and, as Cameron would say, &quot;I am excite!&quot;</p>

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			<title>The Crossroads of Should and Must</title>
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			<updated>2015-04-25T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Several weeks ago I picked up Elle Luna's new book, <a href="http://www.amazon.com/The-Crossroads-Should-Must-Passion/dp/0761184880"><em>The Crossroads of Should and Must: Find and Follow Your Passion</em></a>, and I started it and then set it aside for a while. I'm participating in <a href="/self/100-day-project/">The 100 Day Project</a> and have been using my time to keep that going and some travel, but today I picked it back up and finished the book.</p>
<p>As I've said before, Elle's <a href="https://medium.com/@elleluna/the-crossroads-of-should-and-must-90c75eb7c5b0">original article</a> on this topic didn't appeal to me, it seemed to fall into the same category as so many that came before, telling me to find the thing that I <em>must</em> do, but not talking about the realities of the world we live in. I then listened to her speak about it and was glad to hear her talk about the responsibilities that we all have, we need to earn money and take care of our obligations. But the book goes much further in discussing the realities and practicalities of how to follow your passion and still meet those obligations.</p>
<p>Her section on money is the absolute best I've ever read in relation to the topic of finding what you love and doing it, it was so great to read. Plus the language she uses in terms of money needed to live resonated with me: Must Have and Nice to Have. And she's right when she says in relation to Must Have, &quot;This number is often smaller than you might assume. At it's most basic, it includes food and shelter.&quot; Even better, she gives a lot of examples of people who worked day jobs and did their passion in their off time, which I found really inspiring.</p>
<p>I also enjoyed her discussion of time, which I already agree with wholeheartedly. We aren't <a href="/self/busy-is-a-decision/">busy</a>, we are choosing how to spend our time and what we choose reflects what is important to us.</p>
<p>A few highlights below:</p>
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<p>The author T. S. Eliot was also a banker. Another writer, Kurt Vonnegut, sold cars. One of the greatest composers of our time, Philip Glass, didn't earn a living from his calling making music until he was forty-two. Even as his work was premiering at the Met, he worked as a plumber and renewed his taxi license, just in case. (p. 87)</p>
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<p>Just because you have a job to pay the bills does not make it dirty. And just because you want to find your calling does not mean you need to quit your job. You get to play with these three types of work and decide what's right for you and your life. (p. 87)</p>
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<p>But what you don't want is to take a job that was intended to pay the bills and suddenly, you don't have time to explore your passion, you're too tired to step into that which you were put on this earth to do. (p. 89)</p>
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<p>Beyond the absolutes, money is a game, and you play it any way you want. (p. 92)</p>
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<p>You make time for what you want. (p. 97)</p>
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<p>If you're not prioritizing the things you say you care about, consider the possibility that you don't actually care about those things. (p. 97)</p>
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<p>It turns out that the more intimate we are with what we want, the  more self-aware we will be about how we spend our time. (p. 97)</p>
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<p>The most effective way to find your Must is to find ten minutes. (p. 101)</p>
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<p>You need a physical space—private, safe, and just for you. When you are in this space, you are not available. I repeat, <em>you are not available</em>. This is your sacred space to be by and with yourself. We all need safe containers. (p. 107)</p>
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<p>When you play with new tools and methods, you will literally activate parts of your mind that have become hard to reach over time. (p. 108)</p>
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			<title>FreakAngels</title>
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			<updated>2015-04-14T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I know, I know, I know! More Warren Ellis, but I did say in the last post that I'm on a bit of kick with his comics, so I'm reading all I can get my hands on. I got <a href="http://www.amazon.com/FreakAngels-Vol-1-Warren-Ellis/dp/1592910564/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1429024651&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=freakangels"><em>FreakAngels</em></a> out of the library last week and spent the weekend reading it in between cooking Italian food.</p>
<p>It's a good read, an interesting scenario, with a group of children who are all connected through mind powers and who were born all at the same time and then 6 years before the first volume, the world ends and the people left are scavenging to live. The FreakAngels rule a section of London where they provide food and protection to a group against marauding gangs.</p>
<p>What I enjoyed most was the relationships between the various FreakAngels themselves. They definitely have varied personalities and some grew up with each other and are quite close. There is also quite a bit of tension between how the various angels think things should be run, and with their various skills they definitely all run different parts of their small community.</p>
<p>I'll be going on to the next volume and reading more, it's not my favorite Warren Ellis, but it is entertaining.</p>

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			<title>Global Frequency</title>
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			<updated>2015-04-11T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Last night was a rainy spring evening in Portland, so I settled in with a glass of wine and <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Global-Frequency/digital-comic/101833?ref=c2VhcmNoL2luZGV4L2Rlc2t0b3Avc2xpZGVyTGlzdC9pdGVtU2xpZGVy"><em>Global Frequency</em></a> by Warren Ellis. I will admit that I've been on quite the Warren Ellis kick lately and I have more of his work waiting for me. I so loved Planetary and Trees that I'm willing to give anything he's written a go.</p>
<p>Global Frequency wasn't my favorite of his, but I did enjoy most of it. The issues were a bit hit or miss for me, but I discovered some artists that I really enjoyed, so I took time to really look at some of the issues's art work. <u>Big Sky</u> illustrated by Jon J Muth, <u>The Run</u> illustrated by David Lloyd, and <u>Detonation</u> illustrated by Simon Bisley were all superbly done. I also really loved seeing different artists interpret the same characters, added more interest to me while reading.</p>
<p>And I love the character of Miranda Zero, super awesome heroine. Are you on the Global Frequency?</p>

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			<title>Amy and Isabelle</title>
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			<updated>2015-04-10T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I finished up a novel the other night by an author I'd never read before, Elizabeth Strout. A different novel of hers made its way onto my wish list for library loans some time ago and when I looked into it more deeply, I decided to read her first novel first. <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Amy-Isabelle-Novel-Vintage-Contemporaries-ebook/dp/B000FBJF8M/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1428703524&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=amy+and+isabelle"><em>Amy and Isabelle</em></a> is very a thought driven book, meaning that much of the book is their individual thoughts and the action is secondary. It took a while, but it drew me in.</p>
<p>Isabelle, the mother, and Amy live in a small Massachusetts town (about an hour or so from Boston) in the 1960s, approximately. I had to gauge the time period by lots of little clues as it wasn't explicit. But that made it even better to me, because the two characters and the way they interacted with each other, could have taken place at any time. It was the relationship between mother and daughter that drew me in.</p>
<p>In ways that I'm not even sure I can completely put into words, I related to both characters. At different moments, I can see myself in their actions and thoughts. And the classic push and pull of parent and child is one that I think is relatable to most since we have all been on at least one side of that relationship. So, if you like deeply thought driven novels, with rich character development, this could be a book for you.</p>

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			<title>The Sculptor</title>
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			<updated>2015-04-09T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Last weekend my turn finally came up on the library hold list to check out <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Sculptor-Scott-McCloud-ebook/dp/B00SSJFO10/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1428613056&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=the+sculptor"><em>The Sculptor</em></a> by Scott McCloud. I was excited as I really love his non fiction work, such as <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Understanding-Comics-Invisible-Scott-McCloud/dp/006097625X/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1428613090&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=understanding+comics"><em>Understanding Comics</em></a>, so I wanted to see what I thought of his fiction as well. Unfortunately, I didn't love it as much as <em>Understanding Comics</em>, but I did finish it.</p>
<p>The story is the classic make a deal with the devil to get one thing while giving up another. But unfortunately the characters just didn't grab me, and it was some of the more minor characters that made me keep reading and that I found most memorable. I came away from the book almost wondering if I missed something, but I don't think I did, I just don't think it was for me.</p>
<p>The only really memorable quote for me from the book is in the following panel:</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/sculptor-sm.png 480w, 
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                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/posts/posts/sculptor-sm.png" alt="Oh, but it can. Dear boy, art CAN change the world. Just very, very, slowly.">
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			<title>Trees</title>
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			<updated>2015-04-03T00:00:00Z</updated>
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<p>I finished the first volume of <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Trees-1-Warren-Ellis/dp/1632152703/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1428074685&sr=8-1&keywords=trees"><em>Trees</em></a> last weekend and it is now one of my favorite comics. I can't wait until the next volume comes out. It ended with so many story lines up in the air, so many things I'm still wondering about and asking questions about, that I think this will be a must buy on release day. I guess this cements me as a Warren Ellis groupie as I've loved everything I've read by him.</p>
<p>But the other reason I really love <em>Trees</em> is the art work. Jason Howard's style is amazing. I started reading comics over a year ago, but <em>Trees</em> was one of the first times I was stopping to really examine and look at the images as they captivated me. That's the other reason I can't wait for the next volume, hopefully it's just as amazing.</p>
<p class="small">I know that this image is for the single issue cover, but I like it better so I'm using it.</p>

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			<title>The 100 Day Project</title>
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			<updated>2015-04-02T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I first watched to Elle Luna's talk on The Crossroads of Should and Must a while ago (side note: I couldn't find the video I watched easily, sorry there's no link). I'll admit that reading the original piece on <a href="https://medium.com/@elleluna/the-crossroads-of-should-and-must-90c75eb7c5b0">Medium</a> didn't really spark much in me, but hearing her talk about it, I was captured by the idea. The talk is now a <a href="http://www.amazon.com/The-Crossroads-Should-Must-Passion/dp/0761184880">book</a> as well.</p>
<p>Then, as a regular reader of <a href="http://thegreatdiscontent.com">The Great Discontent</a>, I saw that they were doing the <a href="http://thegreatdiscontent.com/100days">100 day project</a>. This year has been about adding in some things to my days that create better habits and help me slow down a bit. I started with the <a href="/self/daily-jottings/">Daily Jottings</a>, which I've kept up with, for the most part, since the beginning of the year. Even more exciting, I'm now writing them in a <a href="https://www.flickr.com/photos/susanjeanrobertson/15845772804/in/set-72157650163208167">book that I made</a>, squeeee!</p>
<p>So now I'm going to add in another thing to my days to help me slow down and also get back in the habit of regular sketching. For my 100 Day Project I'm going to do a daily sketch journal. My medium will be <a href="http://www.fiftythree.com/paper">Paper by FiftyThree</a> along with their <a href="http://www.fiftythree.com/pencil">pencil stylus</a> because I've come to love it so much. Also, I'm traveling more than usual during this time period and I always have both with me when going to conferences and such for sketchnoting. The big thing with these is that they should be fast, so I'm limiting myself to the pencil tool in Paper and doing a quick sketch (which is my favorite way to sketch) and then a quick note about the day and why I drew that.</p>
<p>In fact, as I've been playing around with the idea, I've already done a few and <a href="https://twitter.com/susanjrobertson/status/583468586200535040">tweeted them out</a>. Depending on my day and my mood we'll see how much I do or don't do, but the important part will be doing it every day.</p>
<p>My only disappointment with the way that The Great Discontent is doing the project is that they are focusing on Instagram for the way to share your work. I'm not an Instagram user and don't really want to start using it just for this, so I'll be posting to <a href="https://www.flickr.com/photos/susanjeanrobertson/">Flickr</a>, in an album, to <a href="https://twitter.com/susanjrobertson">Twitter</a>, and to <a href="https://mix.fiftythree.com">Mix</a> (FiftyThree's collaborative drawing app). I'm also choosing not to use Instagram as I don't want to be limited to a square for sharing because my sketches most likely won't be squares. And I'll be hashtagging them where they go so they can be found by others doing the project.</p>
<p>I'm excited to get sketch journalling and sharing!</p>

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			<title>Work and life</title>
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			<updated>2015-03-20T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I’ve spent the last several years thinking about work. It all began when I read <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Working-Life-Promise-Betrayal-Modern-ebook/dp/B004KABC6W/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1420741723&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=the+working+life"><em>The Working Life: The Promise and Betrayal of Modern Work</em></a> by Joanne B. Ciulla. A book that still has me thinking about what it means to work in the current US culture, along with how work has changed over history. Since Ciulla traces work from hundreds of years ago to modern times, it’s a look at many different ways of thinking about work.</p>
<p>What I think about a lot is the relationship between employer and employee, especially how that has changed over the past 60 years. I’ve thought about the idea of loyalty and how that factors into a job. Fifty years ago many people started working for an employer out of high school, or college if they went, and they stayed with that employer their entire twenty- to thirty-year career.</p>
<p>Since moving into web development about 10 years ago, I’ve worked more as a contractor or freelancer than I have a full-time employee. There are a lot of reasons for this, the main one being that most of my full-time employers haven’t been able to keep me busy, but wanted me in the office for the full 40-hour work week. There was one exception to this, and it was, by far, my best full-time job ever. The one case where it was about getting the work done, not about the time you put in.</p>
<p>I still see employers who desire loyalty from their employees while they don’t offer it in return. It’s hard not to be cynical. At the same time, since I’ve tasted what it is to work a full-time job that is fantastic and fulfilling, I’ve thought a lot about what makes a job a good one.</p>
<p>This has led me to believe the following about paid work:</p>
<ul>
<li>Do what you like. It may not be your passion, but hopefully you like it enough to enjoy the time you spend doing it. As Mandy Brown said <a href="https://the-pastry-box-project.net/mandy-brown/2014-april-23">on this very site</a>, “Seek out the roles and skills that both suit you and are sufficiently rewarding in compensation to make your life work.” Because we all have obligations, bills, and need money. So, if it’s possible for you, find something you like that pays you, that’s the goal for me, not finding my passion.</li>
<li>Be realistic about the way companies work, especially those of us who work in Start-up Land. Things don’t always work out, or the company may change directions, so the job doesn’t last forever. Be prepared to be honest and make a change if you need to or be ready for the forced change that may come.</li>
<li>Sometimes what I think of as work, especially the joy of thinking and discovering, may have nothing to do with the thing I get paid to do every day and that’s ok (see the first point).</li>
<li>I’m so much more than what I get paid to do. When I meet people, I’m trying very hard to not have my first question be, “So, what do you do for a living?” Because that may have nothing to do with what the person loves. A great example of this? My partner discovered astronomy last summer. He’s become passionate about it. It’s not what he gets paid to do, but he’d rather talk about astronomy than his paid work.</li>
</ul>
<p>What has stayed with me from <em>The Working Life</em> is the following quote and it’s my goal for work in my life (emphasis mine):</p>
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<p>Is the life we have now worth what we are giving up for it? Meaningful work is rare, but is out there to be found either in a paid job or in our free time, if we really want it. Not everyone wants it, finds it, or considers the same things meaningful. A work-dominated life is fine if it is a conscious choice and makes one happy. But if it doesn’t, then <em>we should start thinking of how to fit work into our lives instead of fitting our lives into our work</em>.</p>
</blockquote>
<p>I’m always on the hunt to make sure I have time for meaningful work, even if that means the non-paid variety, which means that I often want to fit work into my life and not the other way around.</p>
<p>This leads to my final point. I think work/life balance is a real thing—it isn’t all just life. There have to be times when I don’t feel obligated to a job, where I don’t have to check email, where I can forget about what day of the week, what the date is, or even what time of day it is. This is what recharges me and if work and life are all one, I find I don’t do that. I find I never truly disconnect or unplug. So while I like what I do for paid work, I also like taking a break from it to do other things.</p>
<p class="small">This piece originally appeared on The Pastry Box Project on March 7, 2015.</p>
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			<title>Anatomy of a Misfit</title>
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			<updated>2015-03-12T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I keep a rather long list of books in both my library wish list as well as Amazon's wish list. They get on the list through a variety of means, maybe I read about them in the New York Times book section, maybe someone tweeted about them, maybe I saw them mentioned in an article I read—but no matter how they get there, I usually don't get to them until I've long forgotten how or the source. This is definitely true for <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Anatomy-Misfit-Andrea-Portes-ebook/dp/B00H7LYMWM/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1426183234&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=anatomy+of+a+misfit"><em>Anatomy of a Misfit</em></a> by Andrea Portes. It was on the list and available for digital loan at the library, so I read it over the past two days. It's great.</p>
<p>A few notes first: it is a young adult novel, but I've been finding a lot of good reads in the young adult section lately and this one didn't disappoint. In addition, this book, more than any I've read recently, took me right back to high school and all the good and bad of that era of my life.</p>
<p>What was a really pleasant surprise for me about this book was the tone and writing. A lot of the time when I'm reading, I get caught up in the story, but this book did that and I got caught up in the words. As I've said before, I'm reading a lot to learn about writing just as much as I am for entertainment or to spark ideas and thoughts.</p>
<p>I read the kindle version through my library digital loan program, so the highlights below are tied to the kindle location.</p>
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<p>You try going to a school of Jennys and Sherris and Julies with a name like Anika Dragomir. (loc 109)</p>
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<p>It started in first period, just a whisper, and now, just before lunch, it’s a crescendo where it seems like any second the principal is going to announce it over the loudspeaker. (loc 388)</p>
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<p>We just keep our eyes on our Trapper Keepers and shuffle off to class. After the last bell, we slink away for our long and cruel walk home. (loc 406)</p>
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<p>She’s putting the rump roast in the oven now, those funny little grandma-mittens with burn stains all over the place covering her hands. The print is mice on a farm. Whose idea was that? (loc 490)</p>
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<p>Even though I am made of spider stew, there is a part of me that doesn’t mind feeling like this. Like maybe, maybe it’s possible I did something kinda sorta good. (loc 595)</p>
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<p>We should probably lay off the cookies but don’t forget it’s getting cold out, so that makes it impossible, really. (loc 651)</p>
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<p>And I may be just fifteen and don’t know very much, like maybe it’s kind of like I don’t know anything, but I know this—I am in serious trouble. (loc 715)</p>
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<p>My parents are under the distinct impression that it is impossible to sneak out of my room. Wrong! I can understand why they think this. If it were anybody else, and not a criminal mastermind like myself living in this fortress, it would, indeed, be impossible. Here’s the thing: I specifically chose this room because it appeared to be impossible. That was my second move. My first move was to figure out that it was, actually, possible. (loc 794)</p>
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<p>But I have seen a lot of movies and I think I get the general idea. Also, and I may be wrong about this, I think there’s a direct correlation between how much you like someone and how much you like kissing them. (loc 849)</p>
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<p>Did you know there’s something called marijuana? Yeah, you smoke it and all of a sudden you grow long hair, eat Cheetos, and listen to Pink Floyd till your mother knocks on the door to tell you to clean your room, or at least wash your hair, or possibly consider doing something with your life. (loc 1077)</p>
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<p>Whenever old people tell you “you had to be there” and the “sixties were groovy” or whatever, just listen to the words of my mother: “Oh, honey, most of those people were just idiots. Sheep, following along. Remember that. Whenever you see everybody clamoring in one direction, do yourself a favor, go the other.” (loc 1085)</p>
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<p>We tried what? To have dinner with a black person? To pretend we weren’t just a household of generally crappy people? We tried to be less self-involved. We tried to look up from our dumb obsessions and notice other people. We tried to be open, for once. We tried not to be just another vaguely racist family. We tried to be enlightened. We tried to be good. We tried to be all of the things . . . we are not. (loc 1741)</p>
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<p>Let’s just call it like it is, no need to pretty it up. I care what other people think of me. I’m not Jesus Christ. I’m just a girl in the world. (loc 2819)</p>
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<p>Maybe all this time I was not the only freak in the family. Maybe the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree. And maybe that tree is sitting right next to me in giant sunglasses and a trench coat. (loc 3304)</p>
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<p>And if I could, I would do every second of every moment over again if I knew the secret. You get one chance. (loc 3667)</p>
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			<title>Daily jottings</title>
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				<p>I started a new intention back in January, and since I'm still doing it fairly regularly, I guess you could say it's a habit now. I began what I've called my Daily Jottings.</p>
<p>I've consistently been horrible at journaling. I've started so many, tried so many times, but it just never stuck with me. I think a big part of that is because my expectations were very high as to what the journal was supposed to be, what I <em>had</em> to do in the journal to make it a <em>real journal</em>.</p>
<p>Well, at the beginning of this year, I changed my attitude and started the jottings with the intention of making it a gratitude journal. I got the idea from Chris Coyier,</p>
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<p>If you’re digging the ‘thankful’ vibe today, I recommend rolling that into practicing gratitude. (<a href="https://twitter.com/chriscoyier/status/538167803824857088">Tweeted 27 Nov 2014</a>)</p>
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<p>This was just one of the instances Chris has tweeted about being grateful and I mulled it over and decided to give it a whirl. But I did a few things to set myself up for more success this time around.</p>
<p>First up, I'm using very small notebooks, specifically I decided to rip into the field notes I have piled up from conference swag in my office closet. By using a small journal and making it so I didn't have to write on more than one page a day (I actually now try and keep it to one page), I gave myself permission to write almost nothing if I wanted to.</p>
<p>Second, I decided to include something about my day, for a bit of context. This could be one sentence that says, &quot;It was sunny today.&quot; Some days I have more to say, others I have less.</p>
<p>Third, I decided to go for three things I'm grateful for each day. Because my life is honestly a pretty good one, so coming up with three really shouldn't be a hardship.</p>
<p>Fourth, I bought the book <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Daily-Rituals-How-Artists-Work/dp/0307273601/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1425917819&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=daily+rituals"><em>Daily Rituals</em></a> and I read one of those each day and make a note of which one. Many of these are extremely short, so it's just a jolt of someone else's life into the midst of mine to get me thinking. I may make notes about what I read, but I may not.</p>
<p>Finally, I am gentle with myself. If I miss a day, life goes on. Some days are busier than others, some days I'm tired and forget, some days I just don't feel like it—and that's OK. This is meant to be a fun/interesting thing to do, not a chore and not another in the long list of <em>have tos</em> that I already have in my head way too often.</p>
<p>I'm sharing not to make you feel like you should do this either, just to share, as it may spark something in your life. Don't read this and think it's a prescription for what you should do, merely as something I'm doing that has been interesting and fun for me. Think of this as descriptive and take from it what you will.</p>

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			<title>Fun home</title>
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				<p>I read Alison Bechdel's <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Fun-Home-Tragicomic-Alison-Bechdel-ebook/dp/B00DYEC8MC/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1425657139&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=fun+home"><em>Fun Home</em></a> based on several recommendations. It was my first graphic novel with serious subject matter since I read <em>Maus</em> many years ago. I love <em>Fun Home</em>. It's not an easy read, but it is a great read.</p>
<p>The thing about reading a memoir about someone else's family is that it gets you thinking about your own family, at least that's what happens with me. Of course, my family didn't go through the same things as Bechdel's, but every family has some hidden issues, things that are hard to understand and mine is no different.</p>
<p>So I finished the book thinking a lot about the house I grew up in, and the way my family is now. Someone asked me to report back if the book is good or really depressing. I wouldn't use the word depressing to describe <em>Fun Home</em>, instead, I would say it is beautifully tragic in its honesty about very difficult topics.</p>
<p>In my favorite panel, Bechdel talks about how all of the family was creative, but also pursuing their creative endeavors alone. As she says:</p>
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<p>Our home was like an artists colony, we ate together, but otherwise were absorbed in our separate pursuits.<br>
And in this isolation our creativity took on an aspect of compulsion.</p>
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			<title>Little Susie</title>
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				<p>I know a lot of people who reflect on their lives at the turn of the year, but I always find I do that when I turn a year older. Maybe it's because no one is talking about it, or maybe it's just the time I like to think about where I've been and ponder where I may be headed.</p>
<p>This past year was one of change, in many ways. But it was a good year and one in which I pushed myself to try and do a lot of new things. I spoke at my first conference and didn't faint or say anything too stupid, which was my bar for success. I was also profitable for the first time ever in my business, a huge change from other times I've tried to freelance. G and I became amateur astronomers, so we spent a lot of time looking up and getting out of the city.</p>
<p>But it wasn't all perfect, and the worry about where the next project will come from is with me pretty much constantly—I'm learning to cope with that. Also, I learned a great deal about working with clients and how to make sure I'm a good fit for a project.</p>
<p>But there are some things during the year that didn't change. Our little house and neighborhood is still my favorite place on Earth to be. G is still the person who can make me laugh the hardest no matter what is going on in our lives. And I'm grateful, in the past year more than ever, for friends near and far who support me in it all; some of whom I've never even met in person.</p>
<p>It's good to remember that I have a lot to be grateful for and this year, that's exactly what I'm doing. As a bonus, here's me as a little one, with my bestest friend growing up. A poodle who was incredibly dumb, but always gave me loving when I needed it, listened to all my secrets, and didn't have a mean bone in her body.</p>
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			<title>Recent comics read</title>
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				<p>Here's the most recent comics I've been reading. It's been so fantastic to get so many wonderful recommendations from fellow comic readers. Thank you all so much!</p>
<p>##Wonder Woman
I've just started reading some super hero comics and I've been pleasantly surprised by them. <em>Ms. Marvel</em> is fantastic and I really wanted to try <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Wonder-Woman-2011/comics-series/6628?ref=c2VhcmNoL2luZGV4L2Rlc2t0b3Avc2xpZGVyTGlzdC9zZXJpZXNTbGlkZXI"><em>Wonder Woman</em></a> since I loved the TV show when I was a kid. I love the New 52, great story, great art, and lots of suspense to keep me flying through the volumes.</p>
<p>##Cinderella: Fables are Forever
I read most of <em>Fables</em> last year and now am finishing up the series as it ends. So I decided to keep going with the other tales that were done in the same vein and first read <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Cinderella-Fables-are-Forever/digital-comic/64547?ref=c2VyaWVzL3ZpZXcvZGVza3RvcC9ncmlkTGlzdC9HcmFwaGljTm92ZWxz"><em>Cinderella: Fables are Forever</em></a>. A fun back and forth through time and a new Fable character made this a great read.</p>
<p>##Fairest
I've made it through the first two volumes of <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Fairest/comics-series/7568?ref=c2VhcmNoL2luZGV4L2Rlc2t0b3Avc2xpZGVyTGlzdC9zZXJpZXNTbGlkZXI"><em>Fairest</em></a> and I'm really liking them. I love the way each volume focuses on a different female Fable and takes you on an adventure. It's been great to read about these characters again. I have the last two volumes on my shelf and will get to them soon.</p>
<p>##Lazarus
I found <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Lazarus/comics-series/10378?ref=c2VhcmNoL2luZGV4L2Rlc2t0b3Avc2xpZGVyTGlzdC9zZXJpZXNTbGlkZXI"><em>Lazarus</em></a> through a post on <a href="http://www.subtraction.com">Khoi Vinh's site</a> and am I glad I picked up the first volume on a whim. The dystopian future of warring families with cyborgs or robots or whatever they are exactly is fascinating. I finished the second volume last weekend, it was just as good as the first—highly recommend the series.</p>

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			<title>Success</title>
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<p>It doesn’t take long before we understand the limitations of that career arc. The closer you get to the top, the more crowded things become. The road to success isn’t even a road — it’s a bottleneck of toll booths, weeding out people as the pack moves forward. (<a href="https://the-pastry-box-project.net/corey-vilhauer/2015-february-5">Asphalt vs Dirt by Corey Vilhauer</a>)</p>
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<p>I got off the paved road a while ago, it just didn’t seem worth it. Because things other than what my culture dictates as success is what makes me feel successful. But it isn't always easy.</p>
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<p>We have a tendency to view disagreement as judgment: if she doesn’t follow my lead in switching to value-based pricing, or building a Yeoman-dependent development process, she’s saying that my choice to do so was foolish and dumb and I should go live in a cave. Well, no. She’s not saying that. It’s not a zero-sum game. (<a href="https://the-pastry-box-project.net/eileen-webb/2015-february-9">Pastry Box, February 9, by Eileen Webb</a>)</p>
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<p>This whole piece is fantastic. We need to be gentler, not just with ourselves, but with others when we describe the things we value in life and in our work.</p>
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<p>“The idea that working longer equals working smarter or creating more value is completely false,” he said. “The most forward thinking and successful companies are realizing that giving employees more time to be creative and connected to other things besides their job creates a better and more productive employee. Ryan just had the courage to go and do that.” (<a href="http://www.washingtonpost.com/local/at-some-start-ups-fridays-are-so-casual-everyone-can-stay-home/2015/02/06/31e8407e-9d1c-11e4-96cc-e858eba91ced_story.html">At some start-ups, Friday is so casual that it’s not even a workday</a>)</p>
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<p>These companies are attempting to define business success as something other than how its been defined previously, especially in Silicon Valley and Start Up Land. This article strikes a chord because it points out to me just how different those two definitions of success are and just how rare it is to see a company trying to define it differently.</p>
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<p>Success. That word just keeps coming back at me in the last few months, how it's defined, and how people use it. These three pieces are just from the last few weeks, but this topic has been in my head for months.</p>
<p>And here's the thing: we all define success differently. That word, what it means for us to be successful in our lives, it varies based on all the experiences we've had in life so far. And I just wish, when someone else is talking about what success looks like <em>for them</em>, we could remember that last part, even if it's unspoken.</p>
<p>Because, to be honest, I'm so tired of swimming up stream and pushing against the notions of success that I don't relate to, but the culture around me is pushing down my throat. And I'm tired of people questioning how I define it because they don't relate to my definition. Because, really, it's <em>my</em> definition and you relating to it shouldn't really matter.</p>

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			<title>Reputation not brand</title>
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				<p>I only knew David Carr by reading his column almost every week. Since he died last week, I've read a lot of the various remembrances of him because, now that I'm learning more, he was a fascinating person.</p>
<p>But one of those pieces in particular got me thinking quite a bit about reputations vs brand. It all started with a line <a href="http://www.newyorker.com/news/news-desk/postscript-david-carr">Jelani Cobb wrote in the <em>New Yorker</em></a> about David Carr</p>
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<p>Yet he never stopped being a newsman in the old mold: he didn’t develop a brand; he built a reputation.</p>
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<p>This line struck me and I've been thinking about it ever since I read it last Friday. I'm coming up on my one year anniversary of freelancing. And freelancing is running a business, many would say that it's also building a brand.</p>
<p>Many of the articles I read about running your business talk quite a bit about brand building, but I've never related to this. I know that I'm a small business, but since it's just me, I tend to think of the business as me. And I'm not a brand, I'm a person.</p>
<p>So instead of building a brand, I'm trying to build a reputation. That resonates with me, that makes sense to me. And that will help me in whatever I do, business or not, in the future.</p>
<p>(Huge thanks to <a href="https://twitter.com/tealtan">Allen Tan</a> for pointing me towards the New Yorker piece.)</p>

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			<title>Ms. Marvel</title>
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			<updated>2015-02-09T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I know, I just wrote about comics last week, but I'm writing about them again. Because I read my first super hero comic over the weekend, actually I devoured it. I wasn't sure I would like them, but <a href="http://marvel.com/comics/series/18468/ms_marvel_2014_-_present"><em>Ms. Marvel</em></a> is fantastic and I highly recommend it. My favorite line from the first volume is below.</p>
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<p>Maybe putting on a costume doesn't make you brave. Maybe it's something else.</p>
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<p>As a quick update to last week, thank you all for your recommendations. I've finished <em>Planetary</em> (so, so, so good) and I have on my list <em>Trees</em>, <em>Y The Last Man</em>, <em>Fun Home</em>, and <em>The Sculptor</em>. I've also been reading <em>Lazarus</em> along with what I talked about last week. You all are so fantastic, I'm so grateful for all the wonderful new comics I've discovered through you.</p>

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			<title>Responsive Web Design, Second Edition</title>
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			<updated>2015-02-06T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I read the first edition of Ethan Marcotte's <a href="http://www.abookapart.com/products/responsive-web-design"><em>Responsive Web Design</em></a> when it came out and just today finished reading the second edition. Ethan is a wonderful writer, making me laugh and keeping my attention, even when the division sign is used a lot.</p>
<p>I love this book. As I've said before, the A Book Apart crew are fantastic at working with an author so the books always seem like I'm hanging out with a friend. This new edition of RWD is no different. Ethan, as I've come to know him over the past few years, is super smart and one of the most humble people I've ever met. Those qualities shine through, along with his sense of humor.</p>
<p>I highlighted away in this book, but some of what I highlighted were sentences I particularly enjoyed. Yes, the techniques and approach of RWD are fantastically explained, but I also read this book as a writer trying to learn more about how to write well, and I wasn't let down on that score.</p>
<p>If you aren't quite sure if you should read this book, I believe the second edition is worth your time. It reinforced many of the things I do every day as I work with clients, while at the same time reminding me of other concepts that I may not use as often, but maybe I should.</p>
<p>Well done Ethan and thank you for the update.</p>
<p>I read the epub version and my highlights are below.</p>
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<p>Because let’s face it: once they’re published online, our designs are immediately at the mercy of the people who view them—to their font settings, to the color of their displays, to the shape and size of their browser windows. (p 17)</p>
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<p>The long and short of it is that we’re designing for more devices, more input types, more resolutions than ever before. The web has moved beyond the desktop, and it’s not turning back. (p 23)</p>
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<p>But I do think fragmenting our content across different “device-optimized” experiences is a losing proposition, or at least an unsustainable one. As the past few years have shown us, we simply can’t compete with the pace of technology. Are we really going to create a custom experience for every new browser or device that appears? (p 24)</p>
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<p>Rather than creating disconnected designs, each tailored to a particular device or browser, we should instead treat them as facets of the same experience. In other words, we can craft sites that are not only more flexible, but that can adapt to the media that renders them. (p 29)</p>
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<p>If you’re already a front-end developer, well, pretend you’re also wearing a pirate hat. (p 48)</p>
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<p>Quick aside: If you’re at all like me, the word “math” causes immediate and serious panic. But speaking as someone who took a philosophy course for his college math credit, don’t run screaming into the hills quite yet. I rely on my computer’s calculator program heavily, and simply paste the result into my CSS. That keeps me from really having to, you know, do the math. (p 54)</p>
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<p>...[B]rowsers are perfectly adept at rounding off those excess decimal places as they internally convert the values to pixels. So giving them more information, not less, will net you a better result in the end. (p 58)</p>
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<p>But the first time I had to build on a flexible grid, I had no idea where to begin. So I did what I do every time I’m faced with a problem I don’t know how to solve: I avoided it entirely, and started working on something else. (p 60)</p>
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<p>In other words, every aspect of our grid—the rows and columns, and the modules draped over them—can be expressed as proportions of their containing element, rather than in unchanging, inflexible pixels. (p 60)</p>
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<p>But building a flexible grid isn’t entirely about the math. The <code>target ÷ context = result</code> formula makes it easy to articulate those proportions into stylesheet-ready percentages, sure—but ultimately, we need to break our habit of translating pixels from Photoshop directly into our CSS, and focus our attention on the proportions behind our designs. It’s about becoming <em>context-aware</em>: better understanding the ratio-based relationships between element and container. (p 98)</p>
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<p>(Sharp-eyed readers will note that I’m using a b element for a non-semantic hook. Now, some designers might use a span element instead. Me, I like the terseness of shorter tags like b or i for non-semantic markup.) (p 101)</p>
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<p>Now, as you can see, this isn’t really a workable solution. In fact, I’ve found that in the overwhelming majority of cases, overflow is generally less useful than scaling the image via max-width. But still, it’s an option to consider, and one you might find some use for. (p 142)</p>
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<p>Flexible or completely fluid, it didn’t matter: I felt that building some measure of fluidity into our designs better prepared them for the changes inherent to the web: changes in the user’s browser window size, in display or device resolution. What’s more, I’d often use words like “future-proof” and “device-agnostic” when describing the need for this flexibility. Often while standing alone at parties. (p 150)</p>
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<p>This isn’t a problem unique to flexible layouts, however. No design, fixed or fluid, scales well beyond the context for which it was originally designed. (p 165)</p>
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<p>The moral of this story? Research your target devices and browsers thoroughly for the query features they do support, and test accordingly. (p 181)</p>
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<p>By conditionally loading style rules that target these ranges, media queries allow us to create pages that are more sensitive to the needs of the devices that render them. (p 182)</p>
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<p>...[T]hat only highlights the need to build your responsive design atop a flexible foundation, ensuring your design has some measure of device and resolution independence. (p 226)</p>
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<p>A truly responsive design begins with a flexible layout, with media queries layered upon that non-fixed foundation. There are a number of arguments for this, most notably that a flexible layout provides a rich fallback for JavaScript- and <code>@media</code>-blind devices and browsers. (p 227)</p>
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<p>...[S]tarting from a flexible foundation means <em>we have less code to produce</em>. When working with media queries, fixed-width layouts often need to be re-coded at every resolution breakpoint, whereas a design built with percentages, not pixels, maintains its proportions from one resolution to the next. As we’ve seen in this chapter, we can selectively remove or change the properties at each breakpoint, optimizing our layout with a few quick edits. (p 228)</p>
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<p>But this is the challenge facing us: we simply can’t keep up with the different resolutions and form factors entering the marketplace. The web is, after all, meant to be viewed everywhere. A flexible layout provides us with a foundation for the future: it allows us to step back from targeting individual resolutions, and better prepare our designs for devices that haven’t even been imagined yet. (p 229)</p>
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<p>...[T]he flexibility of a design doesn’t have to be a liability. Instead, it can be another opportunity to practice our craft, to better communicate with a certain class of users, or to solve another set of problems affecting a particular type of device. (p 238)</p>
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<p>It’s absolutely fair to assume a user’s context from their device, but it’s just that: an assumption. (p 245)</p>
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<p>And it’s not just the “mobile context” that’s fuzzy, either: what does a “desktop” user look like, anyway? Sure, they might be seated at a desk, with a high-speed connection available to them—or they might be tethered to a phone, or connected to a spotty hotel network. “Mobile” and “desktop” are useful shorthand terms, but they’re just that—shorthand terms that can, if we’re not careful, mask a lot of complexity. (p 245)</p>
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<p>...[R]elying upon all-too-convenient terms like “mobile” and “desktop” is no substitute for conducting the proper research into how your audience accesses your site: not only the devices and browsers they use, but how, where, and why they use them. (246)</p>
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<p>So while I agree with mobile web designers who say that certain users of certain sites deserve different content, I think the reverse is also true: many sites can <em>benefit</em> from serving one document up to multiple contexts or devices. And those are the perfect candidates for a responsive approach. (p 248)</p>
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<p>But just because desktop users <em>can</em> sift through more content, does that mean they need to? In other words, why is easy access to key tasks only the domain of mobile users? Why can’t all users of our sites enjoy the same level of focused, curated content? (p 253)</p>
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<p>In other words, designing for mobile devices first can enrich the experience for all users, by providing the element often missing from modern web design: focus. (p 257)</p>
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<p>“Prototyping before the designs are final, you say?” Absolutely, I say. Our goal is to get beyond the pixel limitations of Photoshop, and begin building a design that can flex and grow inside a changing browser window, that can scale to different devices. (p 262)</p>
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<p>If you want to test how your page is going to perform on a given device, there’s no substitute for viewing it on the actual device. (p 265)</p>
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<p>During this development process, a prototype begins to take shape. It’s based on the initial mockup supplied by the design team, of course, but as the development team codes they begin making recommendations about how the design should respond to different devices. In other words, during this collaboration the developers act as designers, too; they’re just designing in a different medium. They’re making design recommendations within the browser, rather than in Photoshop—recommendations that will be shared, tested, and vetted by the entire team. (p 266)</p>
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<p>The key is to make this design/development cycle as iterative as it needs to be, with both groups constantly refining their work, and then sharing it with the group for review. (p 275)</p>
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<p>If a browser without media query support accesses the Globe, they’re given an attractive, single-column layout if our JavaScript patch isn’t available to them (p 290)</p>
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<p>...[P]rogressive enhancement has been the cornerstone for most modern responsive designs. (p 299)</p>
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<p>...[T]hey’re designing for experience tiers: a basic design served to every device; and a more enhanced version, conditionally served to more capable browsers. The result is a responsive design that loads quickly in every HTML-capable device, but then upgrades to a more robust interface—but only if the browser is deemed capable of handling the more enhanced experience (p 302)</p>
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<p>...[W]eb design is about asking the right questions. And really, that’s what responsive web design is: a possible solution, a way to more fully design for the web’s inherent flexibility. (p 321)</p>
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			<title>Designing for Performance: Weighing Aesthetics and Speed</title>
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			<updated>2015-02-05T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I finally read Lara Hogan's fantastic <a href="http://shop.oreilly.com/product/0636920033578.do"><em>Designing for Performance: Weighing Aesthetics and Speed</em></a> over the past couple days. It's a fantastic read, along with Scott Jehl's book <a href="http://www.abookapart.com/products/responsible-responsive-design"><em>Responsible Responsive Design</em></a> should be read by pretty much everyone working on the design and front end of sites today since performance is such a crucial element of our work.</p>
<p>Lara's style of writing is wonderful. From the moment you start it doesn't feel like there are any wasted words, no faffing about in this book, just right into the meat of the content. I also particularly enjoyed the way the content was broken up into such small bite sized sections. It made it easy to see where she was going and it will make this a great reference in the future when I'm trying to remember exactly what she said about a particular tool or technique.</p>
<p>So, if you work on the web, get on it, read this one. It's full of advice, tools, and techniques that I know I'll be going back to again and again as I work on client projects. I read the epub version of the book and my highlights are below.</p>
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<p>Culture change is perhaps the hardest part of improving a site’s performance. (p. 18)</p>
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<p>A thorough cleanup effort is incredibly important for both your HTML and CSS, followed by optimization of any web fonts used on your site. (p. 20)</p>
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<p>Focusing on creating clean, repurposable markup and documenting any design patterns. (p. 20)</p>
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<p>The impact of page load time lasts even beyond the initial poor experience; users instinctively remember how it felt to browse that site and make choices about how often to return or use it afterward based on their experience. (p. 30)</p>
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<p>This means you really need to prioritize performance as you optimize your site’s design for mobile devices, as page load time has a significant impact on mobile users’ experience and how they choose to use your site. (p. 39)</p>
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<p>One of the great parts about focusing on performance benefits for mobile users is that these optimizations will also benefit your users who visit your site on any kind of device. (p. 40)</p>
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<p>Many of the optimizations that improve page load time also improve device energy consumption, further improving the user experience. (p. 43)</p>
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<p>...[R]esponsive web design is a huge opportunity to insert performance considerations into the design workflow. (p. 45)</p>
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<p>The decisions made by designers are what typically drive the rest of how a website is built. (p. 46)</p>
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<p>On one site, I was able to cut page load time in half by cleaning CSS and optimizing images, normalizing site colors, and carefully reorganizing assets in an existing site template. Rather than redesigning the site, I simply focused on killing bloated HTML and CSS, which resulted in smaller HTML, CSS, and stylesheet image file sizes. (p. 51)</p>
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<p>Performance is a shared responsibility, and everyone on your team impacts it. (p. 52)</p>
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<p>The sooner you can begin to get visible content on the page, the quicker the page will feel to your user. (p. 71)</p>
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<p>It’s good to focus on how quickly your users begin to see and be able to interact with content rather than focus how long it takes for the browser to completely finish loading your page’s content. (p. 74)</p>
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<p>It’s important to share this knowledge with others. (p. 163)</p>
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<p>...[W]ho contribute to the site so that you are not a sole “performance cop” or “performance janitor.” Helping others understand their impact on page load time will be as beneficial to your image directory as it will be to your stress level. (p. 163)</p>
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<p>The important part is to be deliberate with your image creation and make choices about performance as you go. (p. 165)</p>
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<p>Though older sites tend to suffer from multiple designers or developers editing and adding to markup, even newer sites can benefit from a clean sweep—looking for embedded or inline styles, unused or unnecessary elements, and poorly named classes and IDs. (p. 168)</p>
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<p>Be ruthless when eliminating any superfluous or outdated HTML. There’s rarely a good “just in case” reason for keeping unnecessary or convoluted markup; it’s often better to kill it and know that, if you really need to, you can reference it in the future using version control. (p. 169)</p>
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<p>...[Y]ou’ll be able to accomplish a lot with a solid, lightweight HTML hierarchy. (p. 172)</p>
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<p>However, grids and frameworks come at a cost. Because they are designed to cover a large number of generic use cases, they will include plenty of things that you don’t need on your site. This extraneous content can be a hindrance to your page load time rather than an aid to your development time; if you’re not careful about how much is included as you start implementing a grid or framework, you could have a lot of unnecessary assets, markup, or styles loaded on your site. (p. 180)</p>
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<p>Look for these kinds of opportunities to normalize and create patterns. Presumably these elements share the same look and feel intentionally; as one element’s design changes in the future, you’ll probably want the other one to change in the same way. Combining them to define their shared styles will help save you development time in the future, and the shorter CSS file will help you with page load time now. (p. 190)</p>
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<p>Focus on keeping any mixins (reusable style blocks that are defined once) as efficient as possible, and be sure to watch the output of your stylesheets over time. Bloated files can sneak up on you, and it’s good to routinely and continually check on your CSS efficiency. (p. 198)</p>
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<p>Be thorough in your documentation while keeping it intuitive. (p. 221)</p>
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<p>Repurposable patterns save page load time as well as design and development time. As your site’s design changes in the future, it will be even easier to update all the instances of a particular pattern, because they will share the same assets and styles. The more patterns are repurposed, the higher the chances are that the styles and other assets will already be cached, the shorter your stylesheets will be, and the faster the site will load. (p. 221)</p>
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<p>Try to eliminate as many third-party scripts as possible. The fewer requests you have, the better your page performance can be. Attempt to combine and condense scripts; you can often do so by replicating, optimizing, and then hosting a third party’s script on your own site. (p. 227)</p>
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<p>Many creators of responsive sites are already going above and beyond in their decision-making process: reflowing content, choosing to hide or show various elements, making smart decisions about hierarachy, and more. We need to build an additional step into this responsive web design workflow: ensuring that we are delivering only the necessary content in terms of page weight and requests, not just information architecture. (p. 236)</p>
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<p>By being intentional in your approach to designing a responsive site and deliberate with what kinds of assets you require your users to download, you can build an excellent user experience that performs well regardless of screen size. (p. 237)</p>
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<p>...[I]f you want to hide an image from displaying with CSS in a responsive design, you can try hiding the parent element of the element with a background-image.... (p. 246)</p>
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<p><code>sizes</code> is smart because it will look through each media query to see which applies before figuring out the correct image to download. (p. 253)</p>
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<p>With this list of images in srcset and list of display widths in sizes, browsers can pick the best image to fetch and display to your user based on media query and viewport size. (p. 254)</p>
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<p>One additional consideration you can make in your responsive design is to load your custom font file only on larger screens. This is something we do at Etsy, as we would rather save our users from downloading the extra font file overhead if they’re on a mobile device. (p. 255)</p>
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<p>Building performance into project documentation, taking the time to look at your site from a mobile-first perspective, and figuring out how you’re going to measure the performance of your site across media queries will help you to create a speedy, responsively designed site. (p. 257)</p>
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<p>The mobile experience shouldn’t be bare-bones. It should be a deliberate experience; designers and developers should use the benefits of, and be cognizant of the limitations for, each platform their site will be rendered on. Mobile isn’t just an add-on to desktop, and desktop isn’t just an add-on to mobile. Content parity doesn’t mean that each platform’s experience should be identical. We should be designing and developing with our users’ needs in mind. (p. 261)</p>
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<p>You can also test this manually. Emulate a device using Chrome DevTools and use the Resources panel to see which image size is being downloaded for that device. (p. 264)</p>
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<p>As you design your responsive site, be deliberate about which assets are downloaded by your users. Develop a performance budget at each breakpoint and use a mobile-first approach when designing and developing the site. (p. 271)</p>
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<p>Be sure to routinely audit your major pages and find those performance surprises. (p.298)</p>
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<p>Keeping an eye on performance can be a meticulous task, so you should try to automate this data gathering and create alerts when major changes happen. (p. 302)</p>
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<p>...[C]elebrate with an alert when there’s a huge improvement in performance and thank those responsible. (p. 303)</p>
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<p>Sometimes you’ll make choices that favor performance; other times, you’ll make choices that favor aesthetics. The key is using all the information available to you to make the right decision for you and your site. (p. 307)</p>
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<p>However, limiting the responsibility of performance to a small group of people will make it nearly impossible to keep the site’s speed under control, particularly as the site ages, changes, and is worked on by new people. (p. 327)</p>
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<p>Everyone who works on the site should buy in to the importance of performance and understand what they can do to improve it. (p. 329)</p>
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<p>Very Important People who care about performance will help you dramatically shape your organization’s culture. (p. 334)</p>
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			<title>Comics, comics, comics</title>
			<link href="https://susanjeanrobertson.com/journal/comics-comics-comics/"/>
			<updated>2015-02-04T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Almost one year ago I read my first comic. I know, I'm a late bloomer here. But since that first trade of <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Fables/comics-series/248?ref=c2VhcmNoL2luZGV4L2Rlc2t0b3Avc2xpZGVyTGlzdC9zZXJpZXNTbGlkZXI"><em>Fables</em></a> I've become a comic lover. Since I'm trying to record what I've read on this site, comics are no different, but since I don't really highlight from them, I'm just going to do a roundup here of the latest series I've started reading in the last month. Right now I'm <em>really</em> enjoying comics. My reading for pleasure has become almost exclusively comics in the last month.</p>
<p>One reason for this is that I'm enjoying the slow down and looking at the art that goes along with the story. I love the different styles, the different ways in which comics convey other languages being spoken and other changes that may occur in the story line. Plus, holy cow, there are some great stories in these volumes. I'm sucked in and can't wait to get the next issue or volume.</p>
<p>So, on to the latest comics that I've been reading.</p>
<h2>Planetary</h2>
<p>I put out a call on Twitter for recommendations at some point last year and then saved the list in a <a href="https://www.comixology.com">ComiXology</a> wish list to slowly work my way through. (Although I should note: I'm either buying my comics at a wonderful local store, I like supporting a local business, or I'm checking them out from the library.)</p>
<p><a href="http://unstoppablerobotninja.com">Ethan</a> recommended <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Planetary/comics-series/334?ref=c2VhcmNoL2luZGV4L2Rlc2t0b3Avc2xpZGVyTGlzdC9zZXJpZXNTbGlkZXI"><em>Planetary</em></a> and wow, I love it. The art work, the story, the everything. As you'll see with my next comic, I'm becoming a bit of a fan of Warren Ellis. One of the things I've found in comics is that I enjoy ones that take place in our world, or a world I can relate to somewhat, but there are twists within it. That's basically a running theme in most of what I'm reading right now.</p>
<p>I'm in the middle of volume 3 of Planetary right now, enjoying it quite a bit.</p>
<h2>Transmetropolitan</h2>
<p>I discovered <a href="https://www.comixology.com/Transmetropolitan/comics-series/2725?ref=c2VhcmNoL2luZGV4L2Rlc2t0b3Avc2xpZGVyTGlzdC9zZXJpZXNTbGlkZXI"><em>Transmetropolitan</em></a> by lurking on Twitter. I find myself reading conversations between people I follow that include comic recommendations, since I'm keen to find more interesting ones to read.</p>
<p>I've only read the first volume of this series, but it ended with a bang. The take down of religion had me rereading it several times. I'm enjoying the strange city in the future where it is set, and really enjoying the commentary on the media that is woven throughout.</p>
<h2>The Invisibles</h2>
<p><a href="https://www.comixology.com/The-Invisibles/comics-series/3493?ref=c2VhcmNoL2luZGV4L2Rlc2t0b3Avc2xpZGVyTGlzdC9zZXJpZXNTbGlkZXI"><em>The Invisibles</em></a> came through more Twitter lurking, I'm discovering people who talk about comics and listening in. Like <em>Transmetropolitan</em>, I'm only through the first volume of this one and it took me a while to get into it, there was a bit more back story and set up, but because I was reading the volume, I kept going to the end and I'm glad I did.</p>
<p>The main characters in <em>The Invisibles</em> are saving the world from evil, which is a theme of many of the comics I enjoy I'm noticing. There is a world that is part of our world that we can't see, don't know what is going on, and good and evil are duking it out. I feel like I'm still getting into <em>The Invisibles</em>, but am enjoying the band of characters that are training a new member. I'm excited to see where they go next.</p>
<p>Do you have anymore recommendations? Anything else I should check out? I have most of Warren Ellis' work on my list, so I'll be getting to that. <a href="https://twitter.com/susanjrobertson">Tweet at me</a>, I'm always looking for more recommendations.</p>

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			<title>Making a journal</title>
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			<updated>2015-02-02T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Last Saturday I got up and had an easy morning and then packed up a tote with supplies and headed to the southeast campus of Portland Community College to take a class on book binding, specifically learning to make journals. There are several reasons why I started poking around to find a way to take some type of art class, one of them being inspired by my friends <a href="http://valhead.com/2014/10/24/afternoons-away-from-the-web/">Val Head</a> and <a href="https://twitter.com/samanthatoy/status/559172875404328960">Samantha Warren</a>, but also as a way to do something different. Something away from the screen with actual things.</p>
<p>I studied art in school, but have drifted away from actually creating things since I've been on the web. But lately, in my quest to restore some sanity to my life, I want to take dedicated time away from the web. What I've found has been great. Portland Community College has a great community education program full of different classes, many of them meeting only 2 or 3 times, along with full quarter classes that meeting weekly for the entire term.</p>
<p>I decided to try something completely new and not anywhere in my arts background and go with book binding to learn how to make a journal. The teacher is a local book binder and she was so great. Really good at explaining the whys of what we were doing as well as the how. So I sat at a desk, she started on explanations, and away we went on the road to making a journal.</p>
<p>Being the nerd I am, I wanted to document the process for myself so that I could remember the steps we went through to get to the finished product. So I brought our camera and took photos as we went along of the entire thing. You can see them all on <a href="https://www.flickr.com/photos/susanjeanrobertson/sets/72157650163208167/">Flickr</a>, at the bottom of this post is my finished journal.</p>
<p>Next week I go back for the final class to make another journal to help cement in the process. This is definitely something I could keep doing on my own at home and read about to learn  more, so I'm excited about it. Meanwhile this week I'll be going to a leather store and I've already drooled over papers to pick out something for my next journal.</p>
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			<title>Part time</title>
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			<updated>2015-01-26T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Part-time work doesn't seem to exist in the tech industry and I find that intriguing and perplexing. Why? Why are companies not filling gaps with part-time employees?</p>
<p>I've discussed this with friends and all the arguments that are presented to me actually don't fit in my eyes. Many say employees are more expensive than, say, hiring a freelancer. But are they?</p>
<p>An employer hiring an employee who works 25 hours a week isn't required to provide health insurance for the part time employee (the <abbr title="Affordable Care Act">ACA</abbr> requires that at 30 hours). Along with that, you <em>may</em> have to provide some paid time off, say for sick time (this is required in the city of Portland), but other than that, the only extra cost is payroll taxes.</p>
<p>There is the argument about getting <em>only</em> 25 hours out of the employee when they are going through the same ramp-up time as a full-time employee. And, since they are part-time, you don't get to push them over the hourly limit they are hired for, unlike full-time which can morph from 40 hours per week to 50 or 60 or whatever is necessary should management push for that.</p>
<p>Freelancers are brought on to fill needs, still have ramp-up time, and they will walk away after the contract or project ends. Is this a better use of the time and money? A part-time employee can gain and retain organizational knowledge that can help move projects faster. A freelancer will take that out the door when they leave.</p>
<p>Part-time employees could do great work in that 25 hours a week, because time is limited, they will be more efficient and get more done than imagined. I know when I time-box myself for my freelance work, I get a lot done in a short amount of focused time.</p>
<p>I think there are a lot of people who would love part-time work. Many people want flexibility, can't do the full-time hours, but still want to work in our industry. People with young children, or people who are nearing retirement but don't want to fully retire, or people who just want to live a different lifestyle and only want to do tech work some of the time.</p>
<p>I freelance for a variety of reasons, but one of them? I want to work part-time hours some of the year. Full-time jobs have never been able to keep me busy, so being able to set my own hours is a better situation for me.</p>
<p>If a great company that I really love offered part-time, I would seriously consider it, but it doesn't seem to exist. Why is that? Is it because companies don't know how to do it? They don't have a process in place for it? Is it truly cheaper? And couldn't companies benefit from filling the gaps with a part-time employee? Maybe I'm missing something.</p>
<p>These are all just questions I’m still pondering. And it isn't the tech industry alone that I see this problem. We see part-time work as being something for less-skilled labor, but I don't understand why this barrier exists.</p>
<p class="small"><em>Thank you to <a href="https://twitter.com/matto">Matthew Oliphant</a> for both editing and spurring on my thinking through discussion. Also thanks to <a href="https://twitter.com/sara_ann_marie">Sara Wachter-Boettcher</a>, <a href="https://twitter.com/vlh">Val Head</a>, <a href="https://twitter.com/samanthatoy">Samantha Warren</a>, <a href="https://twitter.com/heywren">Wren Lanier</a>, and <a href="https://twitter.com/steph_hay">Steph Hay</a> for their thoughts on part-time work.</em></p>

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			<title>Boredom</title>
			<link href="https://susanjeanrobertson.com/journal/boredom/"/>
			<updated>2015-01-16T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>The other day I was making dinner and, as is my routine, I was listening to <em>All Things Considered</em> on NPR while moving about the kitchen. A story about <a href="http://www.npr.org/blogs/alltechconsidered/2015/01/12/376717870/bored-and-brilliant-a-challenge-to-disconnect-from-your-phone">boredom</a> came on. If you haven't listened to it, the crux of it is that there is a lack of creativity because we are never bored anymore, thanks to our smart phones.</p>
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<p>Studies suggest that we get our most original ideas when we stop the constant stimulation and let ourselves get bored....</p>
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<p>Steven Johnson talks about how letting the disparate ideas that you read, hear, see, etc, come together in his book <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Where-Good-Ideas-Steven-Johnson/dp/1594485380/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1421428569&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=where+good+ideas+come+from"><em>Where Great Ideas Come From</em></a>.</p>
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<p>But encouragement does not necessarily lead to creativity. Collisions do—the collisions that happen when different fields of expertise converge in some shared physical or intellectual space.</p>
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<p>I wonder if, in order for the collisions to occur, do you need some space, some time, to allow it all to collide?</p>
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<p>I spend a lot of time walking around my neighborhood. <em>Most</em> days, I go out at lunch and run errands, walking to the grocery store, the library, or wherever it is that I need to go. Over the past several years, I've left the house for these errands with my wallet, a key to the house, and a bag for my purchases (I'm a good Portlander after all)—nothing more.</p>
<p>The choice to leave the house with nothing digital was very deliberate in the beginning. But once I started leaving my house without a phone or iPad, I started to relish it. I take in the sights and sounds of my neighborhood and I let my mind wander. I may solve a problem that I was working on in code, or I may come up with an idea to write about. Truth be told, these walks have become where the vast majority of my writing ideas start.</p>
<p>So when I hear people, like one person in the story on NPR, scoff at the need for boredom, for space to just let your mind do its thing, I find it surprising. Because times of quiet is what keeps me sane, especially lately.</p>

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			<title>2014 year end review</title>
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			<updated>2015-01-16T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>2014 was a tumultuous year for me. What I was doing at the end of the year was nothing like what I expected when the year began.</p>
<p>At the beginning of the year, I was working for a <a href="http://www.editorially.com/">small start up</a> that I loved. I anticipated coding-away on the product and with that fantastic team for the foreseeable future.</p>
<p>Just one month into the year, I found out it was not to be. The company announced its shutdown by the second month of the year. I cried. I got angry. I immediately began missing my team. Most of all, I was sad to be losing a product I truly loved using, and working on, every day.</p>
<p>The third month of the year, I decided to go freelance. I was lucky to work on great projects with fantastic clients right out of the gate, but I also had to figure out the business side of it too. What should I charge? Estimated taxes, whoa! What types of projects do I really like and want to go after? How do I find that work?</p>
<p>Through the middle of the year, I continued to be busy. I figured out a rate that works. I hired a great accountant and a lawyer to help with all the details that I don't really understand, like estimated taxes and contracts.</p>
<p>In May, I was asked to speak at a conference set for December. My first experience with speaking in front of such a large crowd.  Nervously I wrote, made slides, practiced, asked trusted colleagues for advice and feedback, and generally made sure I knew my talk backwards and forwards. And it went great.</p>
<p>I tell you this simply to say that sometimes, life is going to change. Change in ways you don't expect, nor ways you may want.</p>
<p>2014 started with some incredibly difficult changes (right on the heels of a very difficult ending to 2013). I’ve learned that freelancing is just one big roller-coaster ride as well, with days of working on an awesome project and other days of wondering if work will come in or not.</p>
<p>In addition, I’ve found support in places I didn’t expect. Referrals for projects, people giving me a push to try something new, the odd email from a colleague letting me know they’ve enjoyed something I’ve written or said. I’m grateful for this support as it has made the low points on the coaster more bearable and it’s always more fun to celebrate with friends.</p>
<p>The lesson for me in 2014 was to get much better at rolling with the coaster. In 2015, I have no idea where this coaster is going to take me. If you had told me then where I would be today, I would have laughed. Hopefully the same holds true a year from now because I've found the ride to be a fairly interesting adventure.</p>
<p class="small">This post originally appeared on <a href="https://the-pastry-box-project.net/susan-robertson/2015-january-7">The Pastry Box on January 7, 2015</a>.</p>

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			<title>The Manual, Issue 4</title>
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			<updated>2015-01-09T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p><a href="https://themanual.org/read/issues/4"><em>The Manual: Issue 4</em></a> lives up to the high bar set by the first three issues of the publication. Once again, the variety of essays and the lessons that go along with them had me thinking in new ways and exploring different perspectives. That's exactly why I read <em>The Manual</em>. If you haven't read any of the issues, I can't recommend them highly enough, they are all fantastic.</p>
<p>I highlighted away on this one, but I'll share them via each author so you have a better sense of where they came from.</p>
<h2>Craig Mod</h2>
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<p>Looking at Dylan’s rule makes me think about how rare it is—if you’re operating in our networked world—to maintain outside rules, to experiment, willy-nilly, no matter what. How can you have permission to be no one from everywhere if everyone is watching?</p>
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<p>And then I think about the algorithm itself. I wonder if it’s sad. If she is sad. It’s been nearly twenty hours since she last saw me. Since my last visit. Suddenly, with my new rules, I wonder if her feelings have been hurt, even though I know this algorithm has no feelings, or certainly none for me.</p>
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<p>So I augment my lack of infovision with biking down small back lanes observing faded typography. I notice that the old man selling tobacco lives above his shop, and has probably done so since before I was born—and that he really needs to tighten the space between the ‘A’ and the ‘C’.</p>
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<p>There is no good network or bad network. No right disconnectivity or wrong connectivity. The best we can do—the most important thing we can do—is to cultivate awareness of the rules we inhabit. To understand the language they produce, and with that, the permissions granted.</p>
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<h2>Wilson Miner</h2>
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<p>When we start with the assumption that optimizing for rapid, unbounded growth is a goal, we immediately narrow the possibility space. There are only so many choices we can make that will get us there. The same choices that made annual monoculture and the shopping mall the most efficient engines for short-term growth and profit are the same qualities that made them unsustainable in the long term.</p>
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<p>There are more ways to scale than growth. There are more ways to deepen our impact than just reaching more people. What if we put just as much effort into scaling the impact of our work over time? Can we build digital products around sustainable systems that survive long enough to outlive us, that are purpose-built to thrive without our constant cultivation?</p>
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<p>There are no dream jobs. There is work that is worth your time, and work that isn’t. You’ll never be sure which is which, so there are only two ways to do the work in front of you: the right way or not at all.</p>
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<h2>Diana Kimball</h2>
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<p>Not every mentor arrives at a willingness to help out of a desire to mend. Just as often, the ease and joy of mattering carries the day. Sometimes, the urge to be inspired by someone else’s aspirational energy comes into play. There are countless needs that mentoring can meet. The important thing is to make sure at least one need is alive in you, and to at least try to give it a name.</p>
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<p>When we’re comfortable enough to shift between high and low at will, laughter and epiphanies erupt. Freed from the expectations of knowing everything or knowing nothing, we can get closer to the truth together</p>
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<h2>Jennifer Brook</h2>
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<p>In becoming a maker, both of physical books and of digital forms, I’ve learned that content and form are not two strangers that come together with ease and obviousness. They are more like quarrelsome lovers engaged in a hot sweaty dialogue.</p>
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<h2>David Cole</h2>
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<p>This means you’re designing for reality, which is often quite distinct from the ideal.</p>
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<p>Really, that’s what all of this is about: designing for reality. The way we design today is unlike anything done in the past. Our work is beginning to reach billions of people simultaneously. We’re building products that need to facilitate relationships across the globe. The scale, scope, and complexity of our work demands a nuanced understanding of our systems and the people within them.</p>
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<p>Designers too often see data as a threat, when in fact it’s an opportunity. Our collective fears are unfounded, based on a misconception of what’s possible. Embracing data affords us deeper understanding, faster learning, and more nuanced reasoning.</p>
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<h2>Paul Ford</h2>
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<p>Because when you work with words, at the practical, everyday level, the ability to look under the hood is essential. Words are not simple</p>
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<p>If you were to identify the single characteristic of a web person, it would be that their thumb and index finger have certain calluses where they press the command/control and “R” keys. Just thinking of reloading, my fingers instinctually go into a sort of crab-claw formation. I’m always ready to refresh.</p>
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<p>A good web designer is ultimately a taxonomist. They dare never simply sketch in a line without knowing where it belongs—to the page at hand, to some imaginary template, as a divider between banner ads. Layers are the grammar of web design.</p>
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<p>It’s not a bad place to end up. It means that there is no single framework, no set of easy rules to learn, no overarching principles that, once learned, can make the web appear like a golden statue atop a mountain. There are just components: HTML to get the words on the page, forms to get people to write in, videos and images to put up pictures, moving or otherwise, and JavaScript to make everything dance.</p>
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<p>But the dramas of my life are over the smallest things, the things I do control....</p>
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			<title>Lucifer</title>
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				<p>2014 will always be associated with comics for me. It was the year I started reading them, diving into <em>Fables</em> and catching up with current issues, then the entire <em>Sandman</em> series, <em>Saga</em>, and making a start on <em>Lucifer</em>. I just finished volume 2 of <em>Lucifer</em> and am enjoying seeing where the series goes.</p>
<p>I will admit, it isn't my favorite comic series, but it is a good read. I enjoy the art work for the most part and there are several side characters that I am intrigued by. Some of the characters from Sandman make a reappearance as well, which has been welcome.</p>
<p>If there are other series I should know about, let me know via <a href="https://twitter.com/susanjrobertson">Twitter</a>.</p>

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			<title>CSS Animation&amp;#58; An Interactive Guide</title>
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				<p>I am woefully behind in reading a lot of tech books that I have purchased in the last 6 months. Between client work, getting ready to speak, and just plain old not wanting to always think about CSS, I've let things sit for a bit. But it's a new year and I'm back at it! Vicki Murley's book <a href="http://cssanimationbook.com"><em>CSS Animation: An Interactive Guide</em></a> is fantastic.</p>
<p>I loved her first book, <em>CSS Transforms: An Interactive Guide</em>, so I was an excited backer when she did the Kickstarter for her animations book. These books are iPad only, but in many ways that makes them better. The interactive demos embedded throughout the book are fun to play with and helped me understand the concepts in a deeper way.</p>
<p>In addition, they are short and to the point, something I appreciate. With this book, Vicki did a <a href="http://codepen.io/collection/nHdbx/">Codepen Collection</a>, which I'm looking forward to digging into and playing with to get an even better handle on animations and how I might use them in projects.</p>
<p>This wasn't my first introduction to animations, I've seen both <a href="http://www.valhead.com">Val Head</a> and <a href="http://rachelnabors.com">Rachel Nabors</a> speak, but this book will become my go-to reference guide when I'm working on projects.</p>

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			<title>Angelmaker</title>
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			<updated>2015-01-05T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p><a href="http://www.powells.com/biblio/1-9780307743626-5"><em>Angelmaker</em></a> by Nick Harkaway is a great novel. The writing is magnificent, the characters are interesting, and I absolutely loved the mix of real history with some science fiction and differences. Harakaway is a great writer, so many fantastic sentences and descriptions that made me stop and reread them.</p>
<p>I truly enjoyed all the characters, interesting, lively, but to be honest, it was the group of makers that most intrigued me. An order of monks, people who just care about making things, researching, pushing boundaries to be innovative in ways that I would never think of. It's a great book, one which I could see myself rereading at some point in the future, which I don't do often.</p>
<p>I didn't highlight much because I would have highlighted the entire book, so much great writing. But this passage below made me laugh out loud, a fantastic description. (I even read it out loud to G.)</p>
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<p>Arvin could not imagine wanting help. This daily ceremony was his chance to appreciate himself in fullest glory. Each roped handful was a memory of some vast, sumptuous, indulgent feast; every pound was earned in delight, represented physical excesses and lust. He treasured the stories beneath his skin almost as much as he enjoyed having this fabulous body. Arvin Cummerbund was more than fat, and far more than obese, which was a nay-sayers’ term, a sad little epithet born of puritans and fear-mongering, and probably of jealousy. He was gigantic, and as he stood in his special wash-box, with its concrete floor and mirrored walls, and the many jets of water scoured and exfoliated him, he fancied he resembled Poseidon himself. He made a mental note to secure a trident and a fishy costume. Magnificent Arvin the water god. (location 7860)</p>
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			<title>Consistency</title>
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				<p>My friend Kitt kicked off the new year of Pastry Box bakers with a great piece on <a href="https://the-pastry-box-project.net/kitt-hodsden/2015-january-1">consistency</a>. I like the idea of consistency, it goes along with the idea of <a href="http://alistapart.com/blog/post/routines-arent-the-enemy">routine</a> that I've written about before.</p>
<p>Kitt says:</p>
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<p>Consistency is the small effort that happens every day, that only in looking back do we see the effort that created something big, something great, something meaningful.</p>
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<p>Having a routine to my day, it helps me be consistent with the intentions I've  made for things I want to get done. I love the way Kitt illustrates this:</p>
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<p>Consistency is putting on your running shoes and walking outside. And, really, once you’re out there, might as well go for a run, too.</p>
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<p>That is exactly how I became a runner in 2014. It's also how I became a cook, making most of our meals from scratch, most nights of the week. I showed up to the kitchen consistently.</p>
<p>So I've been thinking, on this New Year's day, about the things I want to do to be consistent for 2015 to create new habits, learn new things, and generally make the small changes in my life that will continue to move me towards how I want to live.</p>
<p>As I think about this, I've pondered a lot of the various things I've seen about what people accomplished in 2014. I've also thought about the way I spend my time currently. I'm coming off of being off Twitter, mostly, for the past two plus weeks. How did I use the &quot;extra&quot; time? I read more, I drew more, I watched more shows, and I generally stopped obsessing over things I can't change.</p>
<p>So I'm making some new intentions for 2015, not resolutions, but the intention to try and do some new small things consistently in my routine. The main intention is more time for reading, but a few others may sneak in too. Hopefully by the end of 2015 I'll be able to say that I'm better at a few things because I was consistent throughout the year.</p>

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			<title>One year</title>
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			<updated>2014-12-22T00:00:00Z</updated>
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<p>I can't quite believe that one year ago we were starting our last day together. It was a good Sunday, snuggling and watching football for much of it. You tolerated me dressing you up in your Christmas outfit for a photo, but then we just had a quiet day, all three of us together.</p>
<p>I still think of you and miss you every day Sally. Don't worry, even when we get another dog, you will still be the the tops and I will still miss you.</p>

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			<title>Speaking</title>
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			<updated>2014-12-15T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Last week I traveled up to Whistler, BC to speak at SmashingConf, giving my very first conference talk. It was a great experience, I learned a great deal, I met so many wonderful people, and I <em>think</em> my talk was a success.</p>
<p>I have to admit, I was quite anxious as I traveled up to Whistler. Traveling by tiny plane (aka prop plane) with weather in December in the Pacific Northwest can be dicey, meaning tiny planes can be bumpy. But the whole speaking thing made the nervousness go to a whole new level.</p>
<p>Because I was so nervous, I practiced my talk <em>a lot</em>, when I say a lot, I mean A LOT. The week before I practiced almost every day, doing the whole talk for myself in my office to make sure I felt comfortable.</p>
<p>In addition to practicing, I got feedback on my talk outline several months ago when I was first asked to speak. I put an outline together, added it to a private repo on Github and asked friends who speak often to take a look. That helped me feel confident that I was going down a good road with the main points of the talk. I can't recommend enough getting eyes on things from people you trust, it greatly helps ease the nerves.</p>
<p>In addition, I read everything I could find as far as speaking advice and listened to all the <a href="http://ladiesintech.com">Ladies in Tech podcasts</a>. For reading, I found Scott Berkun's book, <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Confessions-Public-Speaker-Scott-Berkun-ebook/dp/B002VL1CGM/ref=sr_1_4?ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1418492591&amp;sr=8-4&amp;keywords=scott+berkun">Confessions of a Public Speaker</a>, really helpful. I laughed my way through much of it, but the advice was just fantastic. I packed a bag for speaking as Ethan <a href="http://unstoppablerobotninja.com/entry/speaking-pack-a-plan/">advised</a>. The day before the conference, I got comfortable, standing on the stage at the venue and checking my slides, thanks to the <a href="http://danielmall.com/articles/get-comfortable/">advice</a> of Dan Mall.</p>
<p>A few things I learned about myself: I don't really use speaker's notes, I use the slides and the words on them for my cues as to what I want to say. So having a confidence monitor that I could see reflecting the slides back at me was really helpful. In addition, I did get better at pausing, slowing down, and speaking clearly. It is definitely true that you should feel like you are talking slow in your head. Designing slides scares me, so simple and straightforward worked (at least I think it did). But I know that everyone is different, therefore what works for me won't necessarily work for you.</p>
<p>I am so grateful that I took this risk and pushed myself. I ended up enjoying it once I was a few minutes into the talk. It was fun to share ideas and thoughts that I'm really excited about with other people.  Also, if anyone wants me to do a talk on style guides, I have a pretty good one ready to go, let me know.</p>

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			<title>The Book Theif</title>
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			<updated>2014-12-08T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Over the weekend I needed to disconnect and get away, so I dove into a novel. I've long had a fascination with World War II, so I gravitate to novels that take place in that era of history. I just find the entire thing interesting, but I'm most fascinated with how one man was able to do so much harm, to sway so many people. <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Book-Thief-Markus-Zusak-ebook/dp/B000XUBFE2/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1418057231&amp;sr=8-1&amp;keywords=the+book+thief"><em>The Book Theif</em></a> by Markus Zusak delves into that world from a new perspective for me, a girl who is trying to survive and doesn't even always understand what is going on outside of her street in a suburb of Munich.</p>
<p>The book is narrated by Death, which was quite amazing, he leads us through the destruction of so much with care for the girl and her street. But really, the book is about a young girl's discovery of the power of words. Because as we've seen in the events of recent weeks, words have power. They can be violent, they can be soothing, they can lead to a war.</p>
<p>The book is beautiful, haunting, and wonderful. All the things I needed this weekend, including a good cry at the end.</p>
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<p>I have hated the words and I have loved them, and I hope I have made them right. (p 528)</p>
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			<title>Responsible Responsive Design</title>
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			<updated>2014-12-02T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Last week, just before the holiday, I finished Scott Jehl's book, <a href="http://www.abookapart.com/products/responsible-responsive-design"><em>Responsible Responsive Design</em></a> and it is a great book. I was blown away from the very first chapter. I love smaller books because all the information that makes it into them is usually the most useful and this book came through in that department. In addition to what Scott writes himself, he links to so much more on the web that you could get lost for days in reading about performance and techniques for making your RWD site faster.</p>
<p>But in addition to this, the thing I realized as I read this book, is that I really love the way the A Book Apart editors are so fantastic at bringing out the personalities of the writers in their series. Each book feels so much like I am sitting over beers talking with the author. This is the true genius of both this book and the entire series. Well done ABA.</p>
<p>I read the epub version of the book and my highlights are below:</p>
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<p>We’d been building an app for users like us. But we were the exception, not the rule. (p. 13)</p>
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<p>We web developers tend to be an exceptional bunch. Our work demands fast, reliable networks to stream enormous amounts of data, and we have access to the latest, most capable devices. But while many of us work in relatively ideal conditions, we can’t just build for users like us; we can’t forget that for most of the world, the web doesn’t function like this. (p. 13)</p>
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<p>Accessing the web reliably and efficiently isn’t a given for many of our neighbors, our users, our customers. As web designers, we’re well poised to improve this situation. I mention customers to emphasize that pushing for better access is not only an appeal for empathy, but also an opportunity to expand the reach of our services, making them more resilient for everyone (p. 14)</p>
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<p>This book is about accessibility: broadening access to the services we make without compromising features that push the web ahead. Diversity is a defining feature of the web, not a bug. We should strive to make our content and services accessible to all capable devices. If that sounds hard, well, sometimes it is. I intend to convince you that it’s possible, and that it’s worth it. (p. 14)</p>
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<p>The goal is to move into the browser as quickly as we can to make design and interaction decisions in context, which translates to more informed recommendations for our clients. (p 43)</p>
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<p>... [W]e shouldn’t choose breakpoints at all. Instead, we should find them, using our content as a guide. (p 45)</p>
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<p>... [W]e should build and document our components from the inside out, as standalone pieces that play nicely
with others. (p. 50)</p>
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<p>This doesn’t mean we should avoid building custom gestures, but it highlights the importance of developing for many input modes. If one fails for any reason, we’ll have alternate ways to access our content. (p 72)</p>
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<p>As we continue to push HTML toward new interactivity, it’s critical that we think of access as something we constantly risk losing, as something we must retain throughout our development process. (p. 80)</p>
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<p>Any time you venture beyond standard browser rendering of HTML into building your own presentation and interactivity, you’re responsible for accessibility.... (p. 81)</p>
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<p>It’s a fine line between an enhancement and a hindrance, one that we as responsible developers must carefully walk. (p. 103)</p>
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<p>... [S]o a browser may receive a bells-and-whistles A-grade experience for one component and a less-enhanced B-grade experience for another. (p. 106)</p>
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<p>Designing for features and constraints allows us to see how patterns that may otherwise seem distinct are shared across devices, and to build in a modular manner to create unique experiences that feel appropriate to each device. (p. 124)</p>
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<p>Thinking mobile-first also pairs nicely with the mindset of progressive enhancement, aka starting small and layering in more complex layout as space permits. (p. 125)</p>
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<p>... [S]upports is pretty handy: it offloads feature detection work to the browser, removing the need for us to write custom—and often slow, unreliable—tests to produce similar results.... (p. 156)</p>
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<p>... [O]ur sites are too heavy, and they’re often assembled and delivered in ways that don’t take advantage of how browsers work.... (p. 199)</p>
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<p>Responsive design’s very nature involves delivering code that’s ready to respond to conditions that may or may not occur, and delivering code only when and where it’s needed poses some tricky obstacles given our current tool set. (p. 200)</p>
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<p>So blocking page rendering until the CSS is ready is certainly desirable as long as the CSS loads in a short period of time—which isn’t always an easy goal to meet. (p. 209)</p>
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<p>Good performance is good design, and performance should be a priority from the start rather than an afterthought saved for developers to handle. (p. 221)</p>
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<p>Every blocking HTTP request is a barrier between our users and the content they seek. (p. 224)</p>
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<p>It’s helpful to identify what portions of the content are absolutely necessary and load the rest later on, after the essentials have been served. This practice is known as deferred or lazy loading. (p. 224)</p>
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			<title>Americanah</title>
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			<updated>2014-11-11T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I sat down to read <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Americanah-Chimamanda-Ngozi-Adichie/dp/0307455920/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1415725836&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=americanah"><em>Americanah</em></a> by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie because <a href="http://aworkinglibrary.com">Mandy</a> recommended it and well, Mandy's recommendation are usually always good. What happened while reading was that I got lost in the world of Ifemelu, who is one of the best characters I've met in a book in a long while. She is strong, smart, obstinate, opinionated, and courageous. I highly recommend the book and if you want more insight into it, Mandy a <a href="http://aworkinglibrary.com/writing/you-are-black-baby/">great post</a> about it that I recommend.</p>
<p>For me, I just read, there are only a few places where I even thought about wanting to highlight or remember a passage. I learned as well, being a white woman who grew up in a mostly white area who now lives in a very white city, it snapped me out of my world and into another that I need to learn more about.</p>
<p>I have no highlights, but there were plenty of things I could have done. It is a wonderful book, just read it, discover Ifemelu for yourself.</p>

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			<title>Enough</title>
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			<updated>2014-11-06T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Lately I've been thinking about the word enough quite a bit. Mostly because I look around at a culture of excess and many aren't satisfied that they have enough, so I've been thinking about what that means. What is enough?</p>
<p>One of the largest reasons this has come up is that I think there is a dichotomy between having enough money and enough time, usually to get one, you sacrifice the other and I'm starting to wonder if that is necessary or if, maybe, what is enough money is actually less than what you initially think it is?</p>
<p>The reason I ask is that G and I are thinking a lot about time lately. You can't get more time in life and it is the one thing that I think if you use it unwisely, it could lead to regrets. As is said so often, not many people on their death bed wish they had been at work more. But many wish they had spent time differently.</p>
<p>All of this is to say, when it comes to having enough, I've been slowly changing my attitude towards what is enough money so that I can have enough time. Doing this has been hard in some respects, but it means that G and I can spend more time doing what <em>we</em> want. Time is irreplaceable, so trying to live more simply, to have more time; I'm thinking it's worth it.</p>

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			<title>Pulling back</title>
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			<updated>2014-10-14T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Over the past couple of months the internet has been a hard place to be, in some ways. Twitter is a part of it, but for me, the whole thing has been difficult. Erin <a href="http://incisive.nu/2014/ditching-twitter/">wrote up</a> her reaction to Twitter changing and what she's doing. There have been a lot of other discussions going on as well. In addition, more people are starting <a href="http://tinyletter.com">Tiny Letters</a>, as a way to put thoughts out there in a different way.</p>
<p>For me, Twitter hasn't been an awful place, but I have always done a lot to make it easier for me, such as using a third party client and mute the heck out of certain words and phrases and whatever else I just can't handle seeing more of on a particular day. BUT, the internet as a whole has been really hard for me, I'm the type of person that gets sucked into things and boy, has there been a lot to get sucked into lately. I can find myself going down rabbit holes that aren't helpful or good for me to go down. This isn't to say that what's happening isn't awful or to dimish it, it's just to say that it's difficult for me, emotionally, to be so caught up.</p>
<p>So, I've pulled back a bit. I have decided that this site is where I want my energy to go, so I'll keep posting my thoughts here, links to things I find interesting, and the occasional photo that I take. I've gone back to RSS as a way to see what's going on with various folks and I'm enjoying the newsletters people are doing, such as <a href="http://tinyletter.com/aworkinglibrary">Mandy's Tiny Letter</a>.</p>
<p>In addition, I don't have Twitter on my iPad now, so I may check for DMs or ats on there, but I have to do it through Safari (which Twitter runs terribly on, btw, so you don't really want to stay on there). So I don't check or use Twitter a lot on evenings and weekends, because I'm not on my computer. And when I wake up in the morning, I scroll to the top. No reading it all anymore. Beyond that, I'm participating in smaller, some private, communities. I'm drawing in <a href="https://mix.fiftythree.com">Mix</a>, and I have a Slack room with friends, where I can chat/vent/get feedback and it's been great.</p>
<p>What's been hard for me about all this is that Twitter has been one of the ways in which I've met and made some awesome friends (some of which I still have yet to meet in person). I know I wouldn't be where I am with my work were it not for Twitter. It's sad that so many people are pulling back, leaving altogether, or taking breaks, but I understand. To be honest, I want to create a Slack room for all my favorite Twitter people I miss (because they aren't around or I'm not around at the right times) so I can still get their thoughts into my world, because their thoughts have changed how I think and work in ways I can't even describe.</p>

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			<title>The newspaper</title>
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			<updated>2014-10-10T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>We get a newspaper delivered to our house every day. I know, an actual physical newspaper. After we get it off the porch, we make breakfast and sit down to eat and read. Yes, we are the fifties couple of yesterday, but living in 2014.</p>
<p>Lately, I've come to question this and rethink why we get it. We don't get our <a href="http://www.oregonlive.com/#/0">local paper</a> because it has gone dramatically downhill and doesn't offer daily delivery, so instead we get a paper that is written and published <a href="http://www.nytimes.com">3,000 miles away</a>. And much of what I see in the print edition are headlines I saw the night before online. So why bother? Why get the paper?</p>
<p>This week it hit me why I like a physical paper. On Tuesday I sat down to eat and grabbed the science section. It had an article on giraffes, so I started reading all about giraffes. I also usually page through the business section and end up reading interesting, smaller articles. To be honest, I would never have sat and found those articles online, even though I'm sure they are there. By paging through the sections, I find and read things I don't think I normally would otherwise.</p>
<p>I must admit that G loves getting a paper, so we will probably only stop when we can't get one anymore. But I too have come to love it. I love opening the pages and seeing what I find as I scan headlines and read articles and hopefully learn something new. Like did you know that female giraffes form friendships? I learned that on Tuesday.</p>

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			<title>John Adams</title>
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			<updated>2014-10-08T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I am a bit of a founding fathers history nut, I really enjoy reading about that period of our history because there is such drama and personalities all battling it out to figure out where this new country will go. And my favorite founding father by far is John Adams, one of the reasons for this is because he married an equally interesting woman who we know so much about because they wrote to each constantly.</p>
<p>I just finished reading <a href="http://www.amazon.com/John-Adams-David-McCullough-ebook/dp/B000FC0QHA/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1412781869&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=john+adams">David McCullough's biography</a> of John Adams an easy read, more like a novel than a history book. Using all the letters they wrote to all the various people in their lives, McCullough helped me see into their lives in a new way. This was my second book on the Adams, having read <a href="http://www.amazon.com/First-Family-Abigail-John-Adams-ebook/dp/B003F3PLLW/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1412781970&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=first+family+ellis">First Family by Joseph Ellis</a>, but it was more indepth about their whole lives, although if you are into it, I recommend both books.</p>
<p>The bigggest thing I took away from this book is that our government, the fighting in congress, it hasn't changed all that much. It has always occurred. What has changed is how much we, the common citizens, hear about the squabbles and how quickly we hear about them. McCullough even talks of a fist fight breaking out on the floor of Congress. My only highlight is how Adams saw this as problematic, which is interesting to read with the way our government and parties function, or really don't function, today.</p>
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<p>Like Washington and many others, Adamas had become increasingly distraught over the rise of political divisiveness, the forming of parties or factions. That political parties were an evil that could bring the ruination of republican government was doctrine he, with others, had long accepted and espoused. &quot;There is nothing I dread so much as a division of the Repulic into two great parties, each arranged under its leader and converting measures in opposition to each other,&quot; Adams had observed to a correspondent while at Amsterdam, before the Revolution ended. Yet this was exactly what had happened. The &quot;turbulent maneuvers&quot; of factions, he now wrote privately, could &quot;tie the hands and destroy the influence&quot; of every honest man with a desire to serve the public good. There was &quot;division of sentiments over everything,&quot; he told his son-in-law William Smith. &quot;How few aim at the good of the whole, without aiming too much at the prosperity of the parts!&quot; (p 422)</p>
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			<title>Star gazing</title>
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			<updated>2014-09-23T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>The summer of 2014 will go down as the summer of star gazing in our house. Not that we won't continue on with it, but because this was the beginning. When we went to our first star party I had no idea what to expect, but it turned out to be a great experience.</p>
<p>G wanted a new hobby and he settled on astronomy, dragging me along to our first star party on the summer solstice in June. It was a great time, many local astronomers set up their scopes, found cool objects, and all I had to do was look. I saw Saturn, Mars, Jupiter, the ISS fly by, M11, and M13 (the last two are an open star cluster and a globular cluster respectively). My interest was definitely peaked, and not long after G got a telescope. Soon after that, he also got some binoculars, because you can see a LOT with just a good pair.</p>
<p>Now's where I admit that G does most of the work in this hobby. He sets up the telescope and usually finds planets and such and then I look at the coolness. But my goal this summer was to learn some of the constellations, which I've done. Last Saturday was clear and warm, a final weekend of summer. We went out to the star party at <a href="http://www.oregonstateparks.org/index.cfm?do=parkPage.dsp_parkPage&amp;parkId=75">L.L.&quot;Stub&quot; Stewart State Park</a> and saw an incredible amount of stars along with the Milky Way. It was amazing. And I was finally able to see all of <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hercules_(constellation)">Hercules</a>, a constellation I have been a bit obsessed with this summer.</p>
<p>I have really enjoyed this for a few reasons. One is that, the way we do it, it is a low tech endeavor. Last Saturday we just took binoculars with us to the star party along with a red flashlight and a star chart. It was more than enough to see double stars and some globular clusters. It also forces us to learn the sky. We don't use all the fancy apps, but have been working on learning things ourselves.</p>
<p>Even better, we get away from screens, out of the city a bit to get away from light pollution, and just look at what is around us. We are even discussing vacation ideas to go to really dark places to be able to see the Milky Way better and even more with the naked eye.</p>
<p>And finally, we are meeting a new group of people in our city. One that has nothing to do with the web or internets. It is pulling us out of our usual world, into a new one, which is something I needed quite a bit. While I love the web, this community gets a bit insular at times, so getting out of it is good for me.</p>
<p>G has taken some great photos through the telescope with our little point and shoot Canon. You can see the <a href="/photos/super-moon/">super moon</a> from July (taken through a much larger telescope than we have at a public star party) and the <a href="/photos/sun/">sun</a> from just this past week. And if you have the chance to be somewhere with low light pollution, I recommend you take a look up, it's incredible.</p>

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			<title>XOXO</title>
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			<updated>2014-09-17T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>This past weekend I was in a large warehouse in inner SE Portland with several hundred other people, listening to brilliant talks, seeing old friends, and making new friends. This was my second <a href="http://2014.xoxofest.com">XOXO</a> and it definitely lived up to my expectations after attending the first one in 2012.</p>
<p>The talks are what I really value in XOXO, so I must admit, I don't attend a lot of the festival events, but listen attentively to each and every talk. One of the things I love about the speaker line up is that I am unfamiliar with so many of them. I learn about new creative endeavors and about people who are doing interesting things. I always walk away with a list of things I want to read, listen to, look at, and possibly buy after the weekend.</p>
<p>I didn't take many notes this year, but I did write a few things down on the second day. These are the ideas I took away from the talks:</p>
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<p><strong>Do the work.</strong> I've <a href="http://susanjeanrobertson.com/writing/do-the-work/">written</a> about this before, it has become a theme for me this year in many ways, but I heard it again from several people. <a href="https://twitter.com/songadaymann">Jonathon Mann</a> who wrote songs even when violently ill. <a href="http://rachelbinx.com">Rachel Binx</a> who keeps going with freelance even though, some months, not much money comes in.  <a href="https://twitter.com/leighalexander">Leigh Alexander</a>, who started writing every day in the hopes it would lead to a job.</p>
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<p><strong>Success as a result of luck.</strong> <a href="http://tinysubversions.com">Darius Kazemi</a> and Jonathon Mann both touched on how many projects or songs they've created and how few have become &quot;successful&quot; in the sense that they got attention or led to something more.  Joseph Fink touched on this theme as well in relation to the success of <em>Welcome to Night Vale</em>.</p>
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<p><strong>Successs as a result of privilege.</strong> Two speakers touched on this, both Darius Kazemi and Joseph Fink, and I am still unraveling this one. I understand where they are coming from, but if success is not just about luck and doing the work, but also about privilege, what does that mean for the segment of the population that isn't privilged? Is success, however you are defining that, harder for them?</p>
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<p><strong>Leaving the old behind.</strong> This was just one speaker, but wow, if you watch one video from this year's XOXO, I would watch <a href="https://twitter.com/hankgreen">Hank Green</a>. His talk is funny, amazing, and hits at the heart of how we think about dreams and what we should be when we grow up. One quote from his talk really sums it all up well,</p>
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<p>You have no obligation to your former self.</p>
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<p>Thank you Andy McMillan and Andy Baio for putting on such an amazing event. As a complete aside, I missed Chloe this weekend, it was the first time I would have expected to see her and I looked for her on Saturday before catching myself. I raised a glass of bourbon in her honor Sunday night after getting home from the conference and seeing Andy and Andy toast her. (Although eating ramen, Salt &amp; Straw, or Blue Star may have been more appropriate.)</p>

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			<title>Writing and learning</title>
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			<updated>2014-09-16T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>A few months ago I wrote a post on <a href="/code/css-audits/">CSS Audits</a>. It was definitely one of those things where I figured no one else would really care, but a <a href="http://aworkinglibrary.com">wise person</a> told me to write about the things you enjoy doing so people know. So I dashed it off, put it up, tweeted about it, and went on with my day.</p>
<p>That post got some attention and the next thing I new <a href="http://maban.co.uk">Anna</a> was DMing me asking if I would write about it for <a href="http://alistapart.com">A List Apart</a>. I wrote an expanded draft, then wrote more, sent it off to the ALA editors, they said yes, and after all the edits, today it went <a href="http://alistapart.com/article/css-audits-taking-stock-of-your-code">live</a>.</p>
<p>Why do I tell you this story? Because it is another example of doing the work without expectation that it will lead to something, and, frankly, being surprised when it does. This is why writing is important to me, and although I am partial to having much of my writing here on this site, I encourage you to write however you want, to get your ideas online for people to read. Also, by writing for a publication, you get to experience what <a href="https://medium.com/message/this-is-how-we-publish-b050172dcb05">Craig Mod says so well</a>:</p>
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<p>To work with new people, to connect to new audiences. To broaden the scale and breadth of your voice. To stand upon the soapboxes that publications offer. To collect dissenting opinions. To see what couldn’t be seen without the help of an editor or gang of skeptics willing to look over your shoulder, pointing you in directions you considered but were too meek to explore. Mainly, to write better and with greater empathy.</p>
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<p>ALA is always looking for people to write, <a href="http://alistapart.com/about/contribute">send them your idea</a>, they are such a great team.</p>
<p>While writing this article for ALA, I learned so much. I am so grateful for a great editor, <a href="http://twitter.com/tinochop">Tina</a> pushes me and makes me think—both good things. Anna helped with some technical details that I was stumbling over in words, shedding new light when I really needed it. <a href="http://csswizardry.com">Harry</a> was so generous with emails and information about his work, it was great to meet him &quot;virtually.&quot;</p>
<p>During the final edits for this piece I told a friend, &quot;Editors are brilliant, unsung heroes.&quot; He responded and said, &quot;Great writers aren't born, they're edited.&quot; So true, so very true. I am grateful for all I've been learning lately through the process of writing. It is an honor to have the opportunity to work with such great people.</p>

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			<title>The phone</title>
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			<updated>2014-09-10T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>In the midst of <em>the</em> announcement this week I went for a run. While running I began to think about how much longer we will actually need phones. When I say phones I'm talking about the dialing a number, hearing a ring, and someone answering so you can talk. The least used feature on a smart phone these days.</p>
<p>Right now, in my house, we have one prepay cell phone for our phone use. And other than some business calls I can only do via phone, we use it less than an hour a month. Don't get me wrong, we talk to people, but now it's all via FaceTime or Skype. Texting happens via Messages and we use email a lot to be able to communicate across platforms.</p>
<p>The phone, paying for cell minutes, seems the toll to have a pocket sized data enabled device. And it's a toll I won't pay anymore. And I don't believe that I'm alone in that. Cell carriers are quickly becoming data carriers, but due to the desire for more profit, they just aren't ready to admit that quite yet. (Ask anyone how much they use their smart phone as a phone and most admit to hardly ever.)</p>
<p>So instead, I carry an iPad mini with data for when I need it outside a wifi area. I almost <em>never</em> carry a phone anymore. Maybe I'm old fashioned, but there were times people couldn't get ahold of you in the not so distant past and I'm OK with that being the same now.</p>
<p>But the question I have is, when I'm 80 (if I live that long) will it be gone, will dialing a number, hearing a ring, and talking be done? G and I were wondering if people thought about this in the early 1900s when phones came out, were they wondering how long the telegraph would stick around? If history is an indication, the phone will be leaving us, just as the telegraph did.</p>
<p class="small">Note: I do realize that the most important reason for having a phone is the ability to call emergency services, so that is the big thing that will need to change for phones to truly be unnecessary. But eventually, I think that will change.</p>

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			<title>Submergence</title>
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				<p>I often go to <a href="http://aworkinglibrary.com">Mandy's</a> site to find good books to read and the latest on her recommendation that I finished is <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Submergence-J-M-Ledgard-ebook/dp/B00BHOSVB8/ref=sr_1_1_ha?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1410119083&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=submergence"><em>Submergence</em></a> by J.M. Ledgard. If you read <a href="http://aworkinglibrary.com/writing/undisturbed-time/">either</a> of the <a href="http://aworkinglibrary.com/reading/submergence/">posts</a> that Mandy wrote about the book, you can get a flavor of what it's about, but I would add that the writing is absolutely amazing. Ledgard writes amazing descriptions and it is dense, I often reread paragraphs simple because the words were so amazing. Another learning experience about writing while reading something that took me into two very different worlds than my own.</p>
<p>I highlighted passages I found both beautifully written, but also things that made me think. If you have an interest in reading the book, you <em>may</em> not want to read below as there could be spoilers.</p>
<p>(Note: I read the digital kindle version, generously loaned by my local library, so the highlights are tied to the kindle location.)</p>
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<p>The essence of it is that there is another world in our world, but we have to live in this one until the latter fire heats the deep.(loc 81)</p>
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<p>He became his own multimedia player, although there was nothing automated about it; it was biological, twitchings in red mud, with stanzas missing; moving pictures were fragile, they flickered, and then were gone. (loc 125)</p>
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<p>It was the week before Christmas, the time of hard Gothic frosts and the first snow that stayed. The leaves were all blown off the trees, the streams and rills covered in thin ice, and the ditch water beside the tracks frozen thick with air pockets on the underside, as though beaten out by the paws and mittens of panicked animals within. (loc 151)</p>
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<p>There was something obscure about Danny, they said, something hard, something striated. There was some truth in this assessment, not least the fact that, arresting as she was, she enjoyed sex on her own terms, and was inclined to regard her sexual partners as to some degree disposable, like squash partners. (loc 160)</p>
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<p>She was broadly scientific, in the Enlightenment sense of requiring the humanities to touch upon her thinking. Her detractors must never have seen her at work, for what she lacked in rootedness she made up for in vocation. (loc 170)</p>
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<p>The United States talked about individuality, but delivered the unvaried and replicated. (loc 311)</p>
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<p>It surprised him how quickly he had been won over to electronic ink. Words were shapes. You entered them, they entered you. (loc 331)</p>
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<p>She cooked for herself in her large kitchen and enjoyed concertos or comedy quizzes on the radio while she ate. She worked until late. She sipped a glass of Australian wine while she worked, always Australian, to please her father. She smoked cigarettes, which she held away from her in the French way, as if they were leaden. The ceilings in her flat were high, the doors were original, heavy, and exact. This was her life, there was solidity to it, although with a window open to the garden and all of South Ken going softly, softly into the night, it was possible to imagine Peter Pan alighting there. (loc 467)</p>
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<p>Winter was the time to be with men. Summer days were floaty, but men were engorged, blown up with themselves and oiled. A man was more engaging in the winter, more manly and available, even if he was reduced and melancholy. (loc 574)</p>
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<p>They played billiards. The cues were stacked against a stone sink, where in days past billiard players would have washed their hands and faces. The emptiness of the room and the echo of their footsteps on the wooden floorboards gave the game a slightly eerie feel. Neither of them knew the rules. They made them up. She bent over the table. (loc 1507)</p>
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<p>He moved in behind, wrapped her up, and it began again. She was a flower about to open. He touched her arms and hands. They pulled back the cue, together they struck the white ball, it clicked the red, and for her his kiss was more than the balls striking; he touched her life, she touched his, their lives so independent and far apart from each other. (loc 1512)</p>
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<p>The longest golf drive recorded was hit on the moon. Man has yet to return to the Challenger Deep. The lesson from this is that it is easier for human beings to push outward than it is for them to explore inward. The wind that carries you away like a kite will blow you on your back if you turn to face it. Consider how the surface area of a balloon grows when air is blown into it. When we push out, we create new frontiers we might populate. When we take the air out of a balloon, it deflates, and becomes shriveled. (loc 1586)</p>
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<p>To push inward is hard, to descend even more so; it challenges our sense of who we are and where we came from. This is why, even though we are inundated with seawater, the advances of our oceanographic agencies do not match those of our space agencies. (loc 1624)</p>
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<p>There was a mirror in the room and he stood looking at himself; or rather, because he was not vain in that way, he regarded his other self caught inside the mirror. (loc 1723)</p>
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<p>When the rain eased and they were back under the lorry and they could hear the lion feeding he had a strange feeling, which was something like the speed of his passing through the world, hardly stopping, and his understanding that lions had for so many generations taken hoofed animals in the cover of rain in the desert, and that the sound of them in the dark would outlast him and all of his kind, just as even the mud under the lorry would outlast him. (loc 1775)</p>
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<p>Heaven was like being tuned out. You entered in and were suffused in an equal light, without sun or storms, never atmospheric, and were met also by one equal sound. (loc 1996)</p>
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<p>She was a snob. She detested what was vulgar; vulgarity was something else. Thumbs had it best when he said she was two cats in one: a Persian and an alley cat. For inasmuch as she dressed carefully and stylishly on the boat, and expended her mind in the lab, she had drunk, punched, and screwed her way through science cruises over the years with a dirtiness beyond the suspicions of her detractors. (loc 2102)</p>
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<p>He looked at her once more. Took her in. She was different. The space between places had collapsed, people were propelled through the sky in pressurized cabins, but she was opening up another world in the world. (loc 2220)</p>
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<p>There is another world in our world, but we have to live in this one. Jellies we are, washed up on the shore. (loc 2245)</p>
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<p>It made her think of the changes that had occurred in the Greenland Sea in its lifetime. When it was birthed there were hardly any ships. There were no submarines. There were no engines, klaxons; no man-made noises. There were many seals and fish then, whereas now there was such a competition the killer whale was forced to trail geese in the hope that one might fall from sky. (loc 2498)</p>
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<p>It was not submission—she would work—it was a Buddhist sense of resignation and a feeling of responsibility to her own living form. To Danny Flinders. The very precariousness of her condition and more generally the condition of mankind made her body and choices more precious to herself. It was incumbent upon her to live fully; to give and to receive. (loc 2540)</p>
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<p>She might have fallen for someone in a moment like that; in the Arctic, so capacious, so soothing. But she felt herself to be half of a whole and was no longer interested. (loc 2749)</p>
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<p>If he had to die at the hands of fanatics, he wished to remain familiar and coherent to those whom he loved and who loved him. (loc 2777)</p>
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<p>One characteristic of sea creatures is their constant movement. Not grief, not anything can stop them. A tuna tagged off Martinique recently was caught fifty days later in Breisundet in Norway, near the fishing town of Ålesund. (loc 2879)</p>
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<p>The Cuvier’s beaked whale dives, touches the ligament of the sea’s throat, and rises again. It breaks for breath in the light, then returns to the deep. Whereas Christ, after his Crucifixion, continued up from hell through all the visible and invisible heavens to the highest dwelling place of God. (loc 2882)</p>
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<p>The Latin term for the feast of ascension is ascencio, which describes how Christ was supposed to have lifted off from the earth under his own power, leaving the mark of his foot in the rock. (loc 2884)</p>
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<p>You will be in Hades, the staying place of the spirits of the dead. You will be drowned in oblivion, the River Lethe, swallowing water to erase all memory. It will not be the nourishing womb you began your life in. It will be a submergence. You will take your place in the boiling-hot fissures, among the teeming hordes of nameless microorganisms that mimic no forms, because they are the foundation of all forms. In your reanimation you will be aware only that you are a fragment of what once was, and are no longer dead. Sometimes this will be an electric feeling, sometimes a sensation of the acid you eat, or the furnace under you. You will burgle and rape other cells in the dark for a seeming eternity, but nothing will come of it. (loc 2967)</p>
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<p>Hades is evolved to the highest state of simplicity. It is stable. Whereas you are a tottering tower, so young in evolutionary terms, and addicted to consciousness. (loc 2981)</p>
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<p>God, enough. He wished he was with her. That was all. It didn’t matter where. It had been his training to push away thoughts of what might be but now he was in the place of martyrs and he was slipping away and there was no more space for death, there was only space for life, for her. (loc 3010)</p>
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<p>But death is remorseless. Death is the tide that sweeps away consciousness. It is the absolute zero that stops any acceleration. Poetry speaks of the ocean as a tomb, whereas science reckons it to be a womb. If you must waste away or perish violently in the morning light then a burial at sea might resolve this conflicted view. Lash me in a hammock and drop me deep . . . Would you wish to be sunk to a great depth, or to be dropped a fathom down, on a reef, gently rocked, until your bones are of corals made and you suffer a sea change into something rich and strange? (loc 3018)</p>
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<p>All living creatures were at some point disassembled. It was only a question of where the parts ended up and were made into something new. (loc 3089)</p>
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<p>Human beings were between worlds, they were inbetweeners, who did not know where light dwelt or where darkness had its place. (loc 3094)</p>
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			<title>Designer or me?</title>
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			<updated>2014-09-02T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>A few months ago I asked some friends for recommendations for a designer. I was feeling like my site needed a little help. it needed a fresh set of eyes to maybe spruce it up. I still wanted it to center on type and words, but I wasn't sure what else. I asked for and received some names. But then I just sat on them.</p>
<p>So what was going on? Why didn't I talk to anyone about helping me? This weekend I thought about it again as I redid the layout for my index page. (A new layout for the <a href="/">index page</a> exists, exciting!) Last week I tweaked the type on the site, and many times when I go to post something, I tweak a style here or there. I feel completely comfortable doing this, because it's just my crappy design (this is what I think in my head, at least).</p>
<p>That was it. If I hired a designer, what would happen then? Would I still feel like I could tweak and make changes? Would it become precious? But, most importantly, would it still feel like mine? I'm coming to the conclusion that maybe it wouldn't.</p>
<p>I lack a lot of confidence when it comes to my ability to design. But I read a lot on the subject and am learning as I go. So maybe this site, this little corner of the web, it's OK that the design isn't perfect, but rather that it's mine. And as I learn more, make adjustments and live with them, hopefully it gets better.</p>

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			<title>Every Day is for the Thief</title>
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			<updated>2014-08-30T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>In the last month or so I've read both of Teju Cole's books. They are both wonderful. His writing style is incredibly descriptive, taking me fully into the world his characters inhabit. In addition, they open up my world with the new places and ideas that he introduces me to. I learn not only how to write, but about a new perspective of the world. I highly recommend <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Every-Day-Thief-Teju-Cole-ebook/dp/B00FIN2IUY/ref=sr_1_1_ha?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1409419067&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=every+day+is+for+the+thief+by+teju+cole">Every Day is for the Thief</a>.</p>
<p>Below are some passages I especially enjoyed:</p>
<p>(Note: I read the digital kindle version of this book borrowed from my library, so the highlights are connected back to the kindle location rather than a page number.)</p>
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<p>But corruption, in the form of piracy or of graft, also means that most people remain on the margins. The systems that could lift the majority out of poverty are undercut at every turn. Precisely because everyone takes a shortcut, nothing works and, for this reason, the only way to get anything done is to take another shortcut. The advantage in these situations goes to the highest bidders, those individuals most willing to pay money or to test the limits of the law. (loc 198)</p>
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<p>The doorframe is wide and high enough for a family of acrobats to walk through in formation. And there they suddenly are, in my presence, standing on each other’s shoulders, their limbs in astral shape. They negotiate the opening, thread it. (loc 220)</p>
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<p>Lagos is a city of Scheherazades. The stories unfold in ever more fanciful iterations and, as in the myth, those who tell the best stories are richly rewarded. (loc 269)</p>
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<p>I know what this is about. It is about keeping the lines of privilege taut. (loc 310)</p>
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<p>The trick is to present an outward attitude of alertness, while keeping a calm and observant mood within. And there also has to be the will to be violent, a will that has to be available when it is called for. (loc 351)</p>
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<p>That woman, evanescent as an image made with the lens wide open. (loc 386)</p>
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<p>As with all things that concern the world, being in the market requires caution. The market—as the essence of the city—is always alive with possibility and danger. (loc 476)</p>
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<p>It is an appalling way to conduct a society, yes, but I suddenly feel a vague pity for all those writers who have to ply their trade from sleepy American suburbs, writing divorce scenes symbolized by the very slow washing of dishes. Had John Updike been African, he would have won the Nobel Prize twenty years ago. (loc 549)</p>
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<p>The fan resumes its spinning like a broken conversation continued in mid-sentence. Lightbulbs hiss back to brightness in the hallway and living room. (loc 560)</p>
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<p>Combined with traffic congestion, which is a serious problem in Lagos, and considering the thousand natural shocks to which the average Nigerian is subject—the police, the armed robbers, the public officials, the government, the total absence of social services, the poor distribution of amenities—the environment is anything but tranquil. I have newfound respect for anyone who accomplishes any kind of creative work in the country. Like the Nigerian photographers I met at an event at the Goethe-Institut: people who, against all odds, keep an artistic struggle alive. I admire them anew. (loc 571)</p>
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<p>People are so exhausted after all the hassle of a normal Lagos day that, for the vast majority, mindless entertainment is preferable to any other kind. (loc 579)</p>
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<p>It is important for a people to have something that is theirs, something to be proud of, and for such institutions to have a host of supporters. And it is vital, at the same time, to have a meaningful forum for interacting with the world. So that Molière’s work can appear onstage in Lagos, as Soyinka’s appears in London. So that what people in one part of the world think of as uniquely theirs takes its rightful place as a part of universal culture. (loc 757)</p>
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<p>I escape family and go out into the city on my own to observe its many moods: the lethargy of the early mornings, the raucous early evenings, the silent, lightless nights cut through with the sounds of generators. It is in this aimless wandering that I find myself truly in the city. The days go by. I do not delve, as I had thought I would, into my childhood, do not visit my former schools or look up other old friends. (loc 1121)</p>
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<p>And there is really only one word for what I feel about these new contributions to the Lagosian scene: gratitude. They are emerging, these creatives, in spite of everything; and they are essential because they are the signs of hope in a place that, like all other places on the limited earth, needs hope. (loc 1155)</p>
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<p>A phrase I hear often in Nigeria is idea l’a need. It means “all we need is the general idea or concept.” People say this in different situations. It is a way of saying: that’s good enough, there’s no need to get bogged down in details. I hear it time and again. (loc 1210)</p>
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<p>Nigerians do not always have the philosophical equipment to deal with the material goods they are so eager to consume. We fly planes but we do not manufacture aircraft, much less engage in aeronautical research. We use cellphones but we do not make them. But, more important, we do not foster the ways of thinking that lead to the development of telephones or jet engines. Part of that philosophical equipment is an attention to details: a rejection of only the broad outlines of a system, a commitment to precision, an engagement with the creative and scientific spirit behind what one uses. (loc 1233)</p>
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<p>But it is as yet a borrowed progress and it is happening in the absence of the ideological commitments that can make it real. (loc 1245)</p>
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<p>Religion, corruption, happiness. Why, if so religious, so little concern for the ethical life or human rights? Why, if so happy, such weariness and stifled suffering? (loc 1266)</p>
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<p>...[I]n Nigeria, there is tremendous cultural pressure to claim that one is happy, even when one is not. Especially when one is not. Unhappy people, such as grieving mothers at a protest march, are swept aside. It is wrong to be unhappy. But it is not necessary to get bogged down in details when all we need is the general idea. (loc 1269)</p>
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<p>In Nigeria we experience all the good things that texture a life, but always with a sense of foreboding, a sense of the fragility of things. (loc 1310)</p>
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<p>The idea that saying makes it so, that the laws of the imagination matter more than all others. (loc 1408)</p>
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<p>Not knowing where I am exposes me to various dangers, and there is always a possibility that I will be accosted by a hostile party. On the other hand, letting go of my moorings makes me connect to the city as pure place, through which I move without prejudging what I will see when I come around a corner. (loc 1433)</p>
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			<title>Twitter and me</title>
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			<updated>2014-08-27T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Frank Chimero wrote about the way <a href="http://frankchimero.com/blog/from-the-porch-to-the-street/">Twitter has been changing lately</a>, it's a good piece and if you haven't read it, I recommend you do that before you continue on here. Ever since I read it yesterday morning I've been thinking about it. Not just the changes that are happening currently at Twitter, but also the role Twitter plays for me.</p>
<p>I was a reluctant user of Twitter. I actually started using it to win a t-shirt at the first An Event Apart I went to in Seattle. I slowly started using it after that, lurking and following, not sure what it was going to be for me. I didn't know a lot of people on it, I didn't have a &quot;community&quot; in any sense of the word as I wasn't interacting with very many people.</p>
<p>But in the last two years or so, Twitter has changed for me, and I definitely feel a sense of community when I open it up. Working from home and being alone much of the time, there are days where Twitter makes up the bulk of my interaction with other people (I know, I should get out more). To piggy back on Frank's metaphor, Twitter is still a porch for me much of the time, but I work hard to do that. I've ventured out into the street and met new people who have become a part of the party on my porch, so it's a balance for me that sometimes may not always work completely, but it's better than a firehose of noise.</p>
<p>How do I maintain the porch? I use Tweetbot and I mute, a <em>lot</em>.  Meaning, if there is a hashtag or news story that is getting a lot of talk and it's becoming too much for me, I mute words and hashtags so I stop seeing it. This may sound like avoidance, but honestly, sometimes stories need time to sort themselves out and I can't handle being a part of the sorting process all the time. And most important of all, I leave for periods of time, I scroll to the top when I open it in the morning, and I don't worry about what I may have missed.</p>
<p>Twitter has introduced me to many great people, people who are friends now and I am grateful. But I also think that change is inevitable. While I don't love everything Twitter does as a company, I do love the people who I meet through it and the way they've opened up my world in countless ways.</p>
<p>As an aside: I've been using <a href="https://slack.com">Slack</a> with a some friends and have found it to be a fantastic place to have the kinds of discussions that I don't want the street to weigh in on.</p>

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			<title>Summer&#39;s end</title>
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			<updated>2014-08-26T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>This week was always bittersweet for me as a kid. In Minnesota, public school began the day after Labor Day, so this week was all about squeezing the last of summer freedom for everything you could. But it was also about the nerves starting over what the new school year would bring.</p>
<p>Then I went on to University, where it was a quarter system and school didn't start until right around the equinox and beginning of fall. So the summer stretched into September and I experienced the quiet, calm joy of everyone else being back in school while I got to relax a few more weeks.</p>
<p>Ever since finishing school and just being a part of the workaday world, summer doesn't end this week. Especially living in Portland, where September is one of the best months weatherwise, summer just keeps going.</p>
<p>The forces of the school year schedule are strong, but I relish breaking out as an adult and living life by the seasons as they truly present themselves. Portland's weather is much closer to the starting of seasons than anywhere I've ever lived, with summer starting in late June, fall in late September, the cold weather coming in December and our glorious long spring begins in March.</p>
<p>For all of you like me, with nothing dictating that this is the end of summer, celebrate that we actually have a few more weeks to go!</p>

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			<title>On Web Typography</title>
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			<updated>2014-08-26T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I finished Jason Santa Maria's book <a href="http://www.abookapart.com/products/on-web-typography">On Web Typography</a> today. Having worked with Jason, I heard his voice as I read, knowing much of what he was saying were things he has said to me before, but I am so grateful to have them on paper to refer to again and again. In addition, his way with words taught me a lot about writing. In several instances I laughed out loud, with the funny metaphors and phrasing. Well done Jason! And of course, I have tweaked the type on this site a bit today, along with thinking about possible other changes.</p>
<p>Below are the highlights I particularly enjoyed.</p>
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<p>...[T]ypography is the craft of setting type to give language a visual form. Typographys is a designer's <em>voice</em>. (p 1)</p>
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<p>...[D]eveloping a feel for typography trumps an encyclopedic knoweldge of its history. (p 2)</p>
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<p>Being good at typography makes you a more adept thinker, communicator, and designer. When you immerse yourself in the fine details of text, you not only make yourself aware of those details and how they affect communication, but you also put yourself in your readers' shoes. (p 3)</p>
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<p>This is the most interesting things about typography: it's a chain reaction of time and place with you as the catalyst. The intention of a text depends on its presentation, but it needs you to give meaning through reading. (p 5)</p>
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<p>Slapping words on a page won't ensure good communication, just as mashing your hands across a piano won't make for a pleasant composition. (p 12)</p>
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<p>Learning about typography is about figuring out what choices work best for each situation. (p 13)</p>
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<p>...[G]ood typography is hard. And the sheer number of options we have can feel overwhelming. (p 14)</p>
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<p>...[O]ur typography needs to put its best foot forward. That means setting our type to avoid getting in our readers' way, and nudging them to give us a moment of their busy day. (p 15)</p>
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<p>We call these <em>psuedo</em> or <em>faux</em> italics and bolds, and they're the typographic equivalent of mistakenly tucking your shirt into your underwear. (p 34)</p>
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<p>When considering text faces, a high x-height is sually ideal; more space for the letterform means more information to help the reader. This is true of typefaces for print or web, but is of utmost importance where interfaces or wayfinding are a concern. (p 35)</p>
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<p>The easiest way to see if a typeface has the right mixture of attributes is to set some text and give it a read. (p 36)</p>
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<p>The rewards of typographic knowledge are cumulative. If you already know a typeface well, you can build on that knowledge to find other typefaces. (p 49)</p>
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<p>Helvetica is a technically beautiful face, but it's also so overused that I have trouble feeling any response when I see it. To me Helvetica has become a generic default. People use it as a safe choice rather than face the fear of making a bad choice. They'd rather say nothing than risk saying the wrong thing. (p 50)</p>
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<p>Choosing typefaces relies on weighing the context of what you're designing against your technical requirements, typographic knowledge, and gut instinct. Just as the best coffee machine won't necessarily make you the best cup of coffee, good typography depends on the ingredients you choose, the particular combination of those ingredients, and the ways you combine them. Your typeface choices must fit the circumstances you need them for and so must your design. (p 58-59)</p>
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<p>...[R]eading large swaths of text in all caps or in a decorative face is like yelling at a reader when you really mean to talk in an even tone. (p 62)</p>
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<p>...[A] reader shouldn't notice the type. They shouldn't stop or stumble over the text, or wonder why something looks the way it does. Because when a reader notices the type, they're taken out of the act of reading and are instead trying to decode why something else is calling attention to itself. (p 62)</p>
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<p>...[D]on't get attached. While you may have your list of the usual suspects, each project carries its own needs and goals. Be ready to abandon your favorite typeface. It doesn't matter if it's the loveliest hairline or the most elegant serif. If it doesn't server your design, it doesn't serve the reader. (p 66)</p>
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<p>Some typefaces look beautiful when you see them in printed specimens or in the context of their marketing pages on type foundry websites. However, when you work with them in the frame of your own project, you may experience different results. (p 69)</p>
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<p>...[T]here are no right answers, just different degrees of appropriateness. (p 73)</p>
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<blockquote>
<p>Good fonts cost money because they take a lot of work to become good fonts. They can stretch your budget, but consider this: a type designer's work provides tools for us to use to make money, and our money gives them the means to keep making tools. We get paid for our work, and they get paid for their work. It's that simple. (p 75-76)</p>
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<p>When it comes to choosing and pairing typefaces, I keep two things in mind: <em>distinction</em> and <em>harmony</em>. (p 78)</p>
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<p>Finding the kind of typographic design that speaks to you helps you spot your own influences and develop your own cannon of design classics. To be an informed student of typography, you need to train your brain to look for good typography everywhere. This is actually easier than it sounds. Once you're aware of type, you can't help but notice the good and (unfortunately) the aweful. But this is one of the parts of typography that I enjoy most: we always have new methods and tools to discover at every turn, because typography is a living craft. We're still standing on each other's shoulders, pushing this rich tradition forward. (p 85)</p>
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<p>Contrast is, in my humble opinion, the most crucial tenet of graphic design. It instantly forges connections and distinctions between elements and, when used in concert with other tools like a grid, it helps our viewers discern what's vital, what's related, and what's not. (p 87)</p>
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<p>Hop along that scale as you need—and think of the numbers as pant sizes. They all do the same thing (dress your legs); you just need to choose the one that suits your situation (your waist and height) the best. (p 126)</p>
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			<title>Odd person out</title>
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			<updated>2014-08-05T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Lately, whenever I am in a conversation with a team regarding mobile, namely native app or responsive web, I usually end up feeling like the odd person out. Yes, I have a device, but the most used &quot;app&quot; on my device is actually a good old browser.</p>
<p>I don't really use native apps all that much. I find the hassle of downloading one annoying, especially if I will only be using it very occasionally. Also, I want the space on my device reserved for music and photos, something I use a lot more offline since I am stingy with my data plan.</p>
<p>But whenever I am in these conversations, I usually feel like I am the only person like this. That I am strange because I don't use apps more.</p>
<p>In addition, if you use your browser a lot you get to see things like this:</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/zappos-interstitial-sm.jpg 480w, 
                 /images/build/posts/zappos-interstitial-md.jpg 800w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/posts/posts/zappos-interstitial-sm.jpg" alt="Zappos pushing their app">
</figure>
<p>Which is, frankly, just silly to me. Why if I am choosing to shop at your website, are you pushing an app on me? Is the money I spend any different be it through an app rather than on your site?</p>
<p>Plus, I have to admit it, I like URLs. I just like them. I like sharing them, bookmarking them (wow, maybe I am old fashioned), and sometimes they are <a href="http://www.nytimes.com/interactive/2014/06/19/sports/worldcup/goooooooooooooal.html">funny</a>, which is just plain cool. And we are already losing too much of the URL for my liking, I don't want to lose it all.</p>
<p>So, I guess I'll continue to be the odd person out, while also continuing to fight for the web.</p>

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			<title>My summer vacation</title>
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			<updated>2014-08-04T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Last week I was on vacataion and in true grade school form, here are a few photos from my week. I spent part of it in Sunriver, OR and the rest at home, staying off line about 90% of the time, reading lots of Fables, some novels, and drawing. All-in-all, a good week.</p>
<h2>Driving into the rain shadow</h2>
<p>One of the things about Oregon that surprises a lot of people is that much of the state is dry, really dry. When you drive over the Cascades into the rain shadow, it is the high desert. I love it, such a different type of beauty than what makes up the valley we live in. Plus, plateaus, you know, the cool things I learned about in grade school science.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/plateaus-sm.jpg 480w, 
                 /images/build/posts/plateaus-md.jpg 800w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/posts/posts/plateaus-sm.jpg" alt="Plataeus of central Oregon">
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<h2>Stargazing thwarted</h2>
<p>We went to central Oregon to star gaze. Unfortunately, the weather had different ideas and it wasn't clear enough either night. Instead, we got to see some spectacular lightening, some wild fires started and being doused, and some unbelievable clouds during sunset.</p>
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    <img srcset="/images/build/posts/sunset-07-30-2014-sm.jpg 480w, 
                 /images/build/posts/sunset-07-30-2014-md.jpg 800w"
                 sizes="100vw" 
                 src="/images/build/posts/posts/sunset-07-30-2014-sm.jpg" alt="Sunset clouds over the mountains">
</figure>
<p>The star gazing occurred, just at home instead. G used his telescope for some awesome moon viewing one night, we saw Saturn another, and we are generally getting more familiar with the sky at night over our house. So it worked out.</p>
<p>And vacation, well, summer lazy days are the best!</p>

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			<title>Open City: A Novel</title>
			<link href="https://susanjeanrobertson.com/journal/open-city-a-novel/"/>
			<updated>2014-07-28T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Highlights from my reading of <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Open-City-Teju-Cole-ebook/dp/B004C43GF6/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1406567301&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=open+city"><em>Open City: A Novel</em></a>, by Teju Cole. Since I read this as a kindle book, I am noting the locations rather than page numbers.</p>
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<p>But a book suggests conversation: one person is speaking to another, and audible sound is, or should be, natural to that exchange. (location 78)</p>
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<p>The streets served as a welcome opposite to all that. Every decision—where to turn left, how long to remain lost in thought in front of an abandoned building, whether to watch the sun set over New Jersey, or to lope in the shadows on the East Side looking across to Queens—was inconsequential, and was for that reason a reminder of freedom. (location 102)</p>
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<p>The sight of large masses of people hurrying down into underground chambers was perpetually strange to me, and I felt that all of the human race were rushing, pushed by a counterinstinctive death drive, into movable catacombs. Above-ground I was with thousands of others in their solitude, but in the subway, standing close to strangers, jostling them and being jostled by them for space and breathing room, all of us reenacting unacknowledged traumas, the solitude intensified. (location 105)</p>
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<p>On an afternoon of heavy rain when ginkgo leaves were piled ankle-deep across the sidewalk looking like thousands of little yellow creatures freshly fallen from the sky, I went out walking. (location 481)</p>
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<p>it was a picture that had nothing to do with my oma, and everything to do with my mother’s resentment of her. (location 495)</p>
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<p>A laden brush, in depositing paint on the panel or canvas, hardly registers a sound, and how great is the peace palpable in those great artists of stillness: Vermeer, Chardin, Hammershøi. The silence was even more profound, I thought, as I stood alone in that gallery, when the private world of the artist was total in its quietness. (location 559)</p>
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<p>From where I stood, the Statue of Liberty was a fluorescent green fleck against the sky, and beyond her sat Ellis Island, the focus of so many myths; but it had been built too late for those early Africans—who weren’t immigrants in any case—and it had been closed too soon to mean anything to the later Africans like Kenneth, or the cabdriver, or me. (location 792)</p>
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<p>Here we all were, ignoring that water, paying as little attention as possible to the pair of black eternities between which our little light intervened. Our debt, though, to that light: what of it? We owe ourselves our lives. This, about which we physicians say so much to our patients, about which so little can reasonably be said, folds back and also asks us questions. (location 817)</p>
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<p>But atrocity is nothing new, not to humans, not to animals. The difference is that in our time it is uniquely well-organized, carried out with pens, train carriages, ledgers, barbed wire, work camps, gas. And this late contribution, the absence of bodies. (location 852)</p>
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<p>Generations rushed through the eye of the needle, and I, one of the still legible crowd, entered the subway. I wanted to find the line that connected me to my own part in these stories. Somewhere close to the water, holding tight to what he knew of life, the boy had, with a sharp clack, again gone aloft. (location 864)</p>
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<p>We were all boys, but some boys were men; they had natural authority, were athletic, or intelligent, or from rich families. No one thing was enough, but it became clear that we were not all equal. It was a strange new life. (location 1120)</p>
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<p>The afternoon was time taken out of time. After it, silence enfolded us once more, an easier silence, which allowed us to each experience our particular grief. (location 1168)</p>
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<p>WE EXPERIENCE LIFE AS A CONTINUITY, AND ONLY AFTER IT FALLS away, after it becomes the past, do we see its discontinuities. The past, if there is such a thing, is mostly empty space, great expanses of nothing, in which significant persons and events float. (location 2234)</p>
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<p>There were sparrows flitting about in the distance, attempting to find a place to rest for the night, darting in and out of the network of coves formed by the bare trees and the interlocking arches of the university’s buildings. As I reflected on the fact that in each of these creatures was a tiny red heart, an engine that without fail provided the means for its exhilarating midair maneuvers, I was reminded of how often people took comfort, whether consciously or not, in the idea that God himself attended to these homeless travelers with something like personal care; that, contrary to the evidence of natural history, he protected each one of them from hunger and hazard and the elements. For many, the birds in flight were proof that we, too, were under heaven’s protection, that there is indeed a special providence in the fall of a sparrow. (location 2586)</p>
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<p>In winter I retreat. In the long and sunny days following, in March, April, and May, I am much more likely to seek out the company of others, more likely to feel myself alert to sights and sounds, to colors, patterns, moving bodies, smells other than the ones in my office or at the apartment. The cold months make me feel dull, and spring feels like a gentle sharpening of the senses. (location 2762)</p>
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<p>a wisteria’s boughs hung low, the petals on its purple blooms reticulated and busy with resurrection. There were some tulips, Sultans of Spring, I supposed, with large silken petals that were like ears. Bees collided again and again with the flowers, tracing flight paths all around us. (location 2823)</p>
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			<title>The Gift</title>
			<link href="https://susanjeanrobertson.com/journal/the-gift/"/>
			<updated>2014-07-15T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>These are my highlights from <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Gift-Creativity-Artist-Modern-Vintage-ebook/dp/B002GKGB00/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1405379371&amp;sr=8-1&amp;keywords=the+gift"><em>The Gift</em></a> by Lewis Hyde, (this is in progress as I'm still reading it).</p>
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<p>Even if a work of art contains the spirit of the artist's gift, it does not follow that the work itself is a gift. It is what we make of it. (p.xvii)</p>
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<p>The &quot;social code ... lays down that to possess is to be great, and that wealth is the indispensable appanage of social rank and attribute of personal virtue. But the important point is that with them <em>to posses is to give</em>—and here the natives differ from us notably. A man who owns a thing is natrually expected to share it, to distrubute it, to be its trustee and dispenser.&quot; (p.18)</p>
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<p>If, when we work, we can look once a day upon the face of mystery, then our labor satisfies. We are lightened when our fights rise from pools we cannot fathom. Then we know they are not a solitary eogtism and they are inexhaustible. Anything contained within a boundary must contain as well its own exhaustion. (p. 25)</p>
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<p>[W]here true, organic increase is at issue, gift exchange preserves that increase; the gift grows because living things grow. (p.35)</p>
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<p>The mere passage of the gift, the act of donation, contains the feeling, and therefore the passage alone is the investment. In folk tales the gift is often something seemingly worthless ... but when the puzzled recipient carries it to his doorstep, he finds it has turned to gold. Such tales declare that the motion of the gift from the world of the donor to the doorsill of the recipient is sufficient to transmute it from dross to gold. (p.43-44)</p>
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<p>[T]he increase comes to a gift as it moves from second to third party, not in the simpler passage from first to second. This increase begins when the gift has passed <em>through</em> someone, when the circle appears. (p.47)</p>
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<p>...[I]n a group that derives its cohesion from a circulation of gifts the conversion of gifts to commodities will have the effect of fragmenting the group, or even destroying it. (p.97)</p>
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			<title>Do the work</title>
			<link href="https://susanjeanrobertson.com/journal/do-the-work/"/>
			<updated>2014-07-14T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>It all started with the Mad Men episode this past spring where Don is upset at having to work under Peggy, his protégé. He is walking out of the office in the middle of the day to go to baseball games, drinking in excess, and generally not working at all. He expected things to be different when he was allowed back at Sterling Cooper Draper Price, but it isn't working out how he thought it would.</p>
<p>In the episode, Freddie looks at Don after another drunken day and says:</p>
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<p>Do the work Don.</p>
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<hr>
<p>I read <em>Dear Sugar</em> by Cheryl Strayed a month or so ago. There is a letter in the book from a young writer who expects to be more successful than she is in her mid twenties. She has so many doubts about herself that she is frozen, unable to write. Sugar's response is amazing and this is just one piece of it:</p>
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<p>We get the work done on the ground level. And the kindest thing I can do for you is to tell you to get your ass on the floor. I know it's hard to write, darling. But it's harder not to. The only way you'll find out if you &quot;have it in you&quot; is to get to work and see if you do. The only way to orverride your &quot;limitations, insecurities, jealousies, and ineptitude&quot; is to produce. You have limitations. You are in some ways inept. This is true of every writer, and it's especially true of writers who are twenty-six. You will feel insecure and jealous. How much power you give those feelings is entirely up to you. (p. 58)</p>
</blockquote>
<hr>
<p>This has addeded up to me having a new way of thinking about my work. My theme, especially since Editorially shut down, has been a bit modified:</p>
<blockquote>
<p>Do the work with no expectation.</p>
</blockquote>
<p>Meaning, I need to just do the work. If it is client work, do it well and deliver. If it is writing, just sit down and write. If it is helping out a person entering the industry, be generous with my knowlege and time. But the key for me has become the second part, I should expect nothing. I shouldn't expect me doing good work should get me anything in particular.</p>
<p>I mean, in the case of client work, I hope I get paid. But what I'm really saying is that I am trying to drop the expectation that I should be somewhere I'm not in life. I am where I am, which is a pretty good place to be most days.</p>

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			<title>Chloe</title>
			<link href="https://susanjeanrobertson.com/journal/chloe/"/>
			<updated>2014-07-12T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Many <a href="http://adactio.com/links/tags/chloeweil">people</a> have written about <a href="http://chloeweil.com">Chloe</a> and as I've read them I've learned so many different things about her personality. They are all wonderful tributes to her.</p>
<p>I don't want to say much except that the last time I saw Chloe was for dinner when I was in Brooklyn last May. We shared a salad and pizza and talked about our lives, her move back to New York, the webbish community, tech, and more. Her parting words to me that night as I was about to walk into the Nu Hotel are words that I have thought about deeply in the past few months. They only make sense in the context of the entire evening's conversation, but the impact of her words, probably an offhand remark to her, still stay with me.</p>
<p>And that was Chloe in so many ways. Unassuming, loathe to have anyone make a fuss over her many wonderful talents, but always ready to compliment you in some way. This past week I had been thinking about her as next week is the CSS Summit and she and <a href="http://petragregorova.com">Petra</a> and I always sat together at ISITE to watch the broadcast. I realized she wouldn't be there and thought about how odd it would be. Then I opened twitter.</p>
<p>Even though we didn't spend loads of time together, I will miss you Chloe; your quirky tweets, your fantastic photos of FACE, and the wonderful things you made both online and in real life.</p>

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			<title>Retaining value</title>
			<link href="https://susanjeanrobertson.com/journal/retaining-value/"/>
			<updated>2014-07-07T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Yesterday on The Pastry Box, Ed Finkler wrote a piece called <a href="https://the-pastry-box-project.net/ed-finkler/2014-july-6"><em>The Developer's Dystopian Future</em></a>. I read it while eating my brekkie and it struck a chord with me. I tweeted out the following:</p>
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<p>I relate to this a lot, https://the-pastry-box-project.net/ed-finkler/2014-july-6 …</p>
</blockquote>
<p>I got response to it, which isn't too surprising to me. But what was suprising was Scott Kellum bringing up <a href="https://twitter.com/ScottKellum/status/485812546365300736">imposter syndrome</a>, which of course, like anyone else, I feel at times. But the piece by Ed didn't really bring that up for me. Instead, I resonated with:</p>
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<p>My tolerance for learning curves grows smaller every day. New technologies, once exciting for the sake of newness, now seem like hassles. I’m less and less tolerant of hokey marketing filled with superlatives. I value stability and clarity.</p>
</blockquote>
<p>That is completely true for me. I love what I do on a day-to-day basis. And I also love this community and industry. But when I read about yet another CSS framework, or some new JS hotness, I cringe a bit inside. I don't want to spend all my free time, on top of my client work, to learn that new hotness. As Ed said so well:</p>
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<p>There are other, more important needs in my life that are not related to programming languages.</p>
</blockquote>
<p>I usually shut down my computer on Friday after I'm done working for the week, starting it again on Monday morning. I use my iPad to keep track of anything that may come up over the weekend, but if I can, I try and stay off the computer for those two days and out of my home office. In addition, because I live with a person who works a regular 9 to 5 schedule, I try very hard to be done working when he gets home.</p>
<p>All of this leads me to wonder how I'm going to keep up, how I'm going to learn the new things and be able to retain my value in the marketplace when I just don't have the drive to spend all my free time on the computer learning new things like I used to. It doesn't help that people regularly <a href="http://jeffcroft.com/blog/2014/jan/03/web-standards-killed-the-html-star/">write about what I do and say it is a dying breed of job as well</a>.</p>
<p>But I do think I still bring value, I think that experience and having been &quot;around the block,&quot; so to speak, means something. I know that I am fighting for things that get forgotten, like accessibility and progressive enhancment. But it's very hard to remember that when every time you open up Twitter there is yet another new thing you feel like you need to learn. But I agree with Ed when he concludes his piece in reference to what type of job he'll be doing in ten years:</p>
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<p>I hope I still have something to offer. I don’t know what it will be, though.</p>
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			<title>tiny beautiful things</title>
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			<updated>2014-06-19T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Tiny-Beautiful-Things-Advice-Sugar/dp/0307949338/ref=tmm_pap_title_0?ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1403192682&amp;sr=1-1">tiny beautiful things by Cheryl Strayed</a></p>
<p>I am reading this book after <a href="https://twitter.com/marazepeda">Mara Zepeda</a>, who spoke Refresh Portland in January, recommended it.</p>
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<p>There is a middle path, but it goes in only one direction: toward the light. Your light. The one that goes <em>blink, blink, blink</em> inside your chest when you know that what you're doing is right. Listen to it. Trust it. Let it make you stronger than you are. (p. 33)</p>
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<p>We get the work done on the ground level. And the kindest thing I can do for you is to tell you to get your ass on the floor. I know it's hard to write, darling. But it's harder not to. The only way you'll find out if you &quot;have it in you&quot; is to get to work and see if you do. The only way to orverride your &quot;limitations, insecurities, jealousies, and ineptitude&quot; is to produce. You have limitations. You are in some ways inept. This is true of every writer, and it's especially true of writers who are twenty-six. You will feel insecure and jealous. How much power you give those feelings is entirely up to you. (p. 58)</p>
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<p>Doing what one wants to do because one wants to do it is hard for a lot of people, but I think it's particularly hard for women. We are, after all, the gender onto which a giant <em>Here to Serve</em> button has been eternally pinned. We're expected to nuture and give by the very virtue of our femaleness, to consider other people's feelings and needs before our own. I'm not opposed to those traits. The people I most admire are in fact nuturing and generous and considerate. Certainly, an ethical and evolved life entails a whole lot of doing things one doesn't particularly want to do and not doing things one very much does, regardless of gender. (p.171)</p>
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<p>And if there's one thing I believe more than I believe anything else, it's that you can't fake the core. The truth that lives there will eventually win out. It's a god we must obey, a force that brings us all inevitably to our knees. (p. 174)</p>
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<p>Real change hapens on the level of the gesture. It's one person doing one thing differenty than he or she did before. It's the man who opts not to invite his abusive mother to his wedding; the woman who decides to spend her Saturday morning in drawing class instead of scrubbing the toilets at home; the writer who won't allow himself to be devoured by his envy; the parent who takes a deep breath instead of throwing a plate. It's you and me standing naked before our lovers, even if it makes us feel kind of squirmy in a bad way when we do. The work is there. It's our task. Doing it will give us strength and clarity. It will bring us closer to who we hope to be. (p. 181)</p>
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<p><em>No</em> is golden. <em>No</em> is the kind of power the good witch wields. It's the way whole, healthy, emotionally evolved people manage to have relationships with jackasses while limiting the amount of jackass in their lives. (p.190)</p>
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<p>The oblieterated place is equal parts destruction and creation. The obliterated place is pitch black and bright light. It is water and parched earth. It is mud and it is manna. The real work of deep grief is making a home there. (p.283)</p>
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<p>A good place to start would be to let fall your notions about &quot;perfect couples.&quot; It's really such an impossible thing to either perceive honestly in others or live up to when others believe it about us. It does nothing but box some people in and shut other people out, and it ultimately makes just about everyone feel like shit. A perfect couple is a wholly private thing. No one but the two people in the perfect relationship know for certain whether they're in one. Its only defining quality is that it's composed of two people who feel perfectly right about sharing their lives with each other, even during the hard times. (p. 295)</p>
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<p>It's our work, our <em>job</em>, the most important gig of all: to make a place that belongs to us, a structure composed of our own moral code. (p. 302)</p>
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<p>I suppose this is what I mean when I say we cannot possibly know what will manifest in our lives. We live and have experiences and leave people we love and get left by them. People we thought would be with us forever aren't and people we didn't know would come into our live do. Our work here is to keep faith with that, to put it in a box and wait. To trust that someday we will know what it means, so that when the ordinary miraculous is revealed to us we will be there.... (p. 323)</p>
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<p>Most things will be okay eventually, but not everything wll be. Sometimes you'll put up a good fight and lose. Sometimes you'll hold on really hard and realize there is no choice bu to let go. Acceptance is a small, quiet room. (p. 351-352)</p>
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			<title>Busy is a decision</title>
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			<updated>2014-06-19T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I have written about my dislike of the word <a href="/books/reading-books/busyness-revisited/">busy</a> and especially how it is used in our <a href="/self/cult-of-busy/">culture</a>. The cult of busy and the need for people to out busy each other, along with it being a rote answer to the question &quot;How are you?&quot; is something that continues to bother me. But it came back up recently after listening to <a href="http://debbiemillman.com">Debbie Millman</a> on <a href="http://www.howtoholdapencil.com/episode/023/">How to Hold a Pencil</a>.</p>
<p>Debbie, speaking on the podcast, said the following that I have been thinking about ever since (at about 6:05, emphasis mine):</p>
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<p><em>Busy is a decision.</em> I say this a lot because people use busy as a badge and the number one excuse as to why they can't do something. If we use busy as an excuse for not doing something what we are really, really saying is that it's not a priority. Because we do whatever it is we want to do and if we want it badly enough we either stay up late, or get up early, or we don't bathe, or we don't watch Game of Thrones. Whatever it is we make the time to do.  ... You don't find the time, you make the time. If you want to do something, you do it.</p>
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<p>This quote, with its reference to busy as a decision jolted me. It's not just the idea of it as a badge, which I see way more often than I care to, but also the idea of busy as an excuse. I've slowly made changes in my life over the past several years, mostly in order to be able to do the things that are a priority for me. This means that I say no to things sometimes; it also means I am woefully behind on watching the latest shows or movies. It means I've been making space for reading and quiet, which I need more than I realized  in the past. In addition, when people ask me how I'm doing, I am trying to not say &quot;busy&quot; in response. Because in reality, I am not busy. And I realize that not being busy is a privilege.</p>

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			<title>New section: Reading</title>
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			<updated>2014-06-16T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>This past weekend, I finished reading <em>Bird by Bird</em> by Anne Lamott. It was a great read with lots of tidbits I immediately wanted to record somewhere. And then the problem came up, where to record them? I was an avid user of Readmill, so that would have been the logical choice, but they are sadly shutting down. Then it came to me, my own site (duh, right?).</p>
<p>So today I debut a new section, Reading. Right now it is a list of all the highlights that I had in Readmill. They did a fantastic job with the export, so all my highlights were already in a text document and really easy to break up into separate markdown files and add in the appropriate <a href="http://www.yaml.org">YAML</a>, since I'm a jekyll user. I didn't add this into my RSS feed right now, because I'm not totally sure what will become of this section quite yet. This is the beginning and I am fairly sure it will evolve and change as time goes on.</p>
<p>Slowly, ever so slowly, as I realize how things come and go on the web, I realize that this is my home. Because this is my home, I want all the things that matter to me to reside here. I want to be in charge of how they are presented and I want to be able to get access to them easily. And better yet, most of what is here now was read digitally, but now, I'll be able to add in highlights and notes from all the things I read. I'm excited about this.</p>
<p>In addition, because my navigation was getting a bit wide and awkward for smaller screen sizes, I'm playing with a new small screen navigation format. Let me know what you think! As usual, things are always changing and evolving around here, so this is part of the life of the site.</p>
<p>So, here it is, my new <a href="/reading/">reading section</a>.</p>

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			<title>Bird by Bird</title>
			<link href="https://susanjeanrobertson.com/journal/bird-by-bird/"/>
			<updated>2014-06-14T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Bird-Some-Instructions-Writing-Life/dp/0385480016/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1403021303&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=bird+by+bird">Bird by Bird by Anne Lamott</a></p>
<p>I don't actually have a lot to quote from this book, but there were a few places that struck me and I have continued to ponder them after finishing the book, so in order to remember them, here they are.</p>
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<p>A moral position is not a slogan, or wishful thinking. It doesn't come from outside or above. It begins inside the heart of a character and grows from there. Tell the truth and write about freedom and fight for it, hover you can, and you will be richly rewarded. (p. 109)</p>
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<p>So you may have gotten in the habit of doubting the voice that was telling you quite clearly what was really going on. It is essential that you get it back. (p.111)</p>
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<p>Writing is about hypnotizing yourself into believing in yourself, getting some work done, then unhypnotizing yourself and going over the material coldly. (p. 114)</p>
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<p>I wrote for an audience of two whom I loved and respected, who loved and respected me. So I wrote for them as carefully and soulfully as I could—which is, needless to say, how I wish I could write all the time. (p. 194)</p>
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<p>But you can't get to any of these truths by sitting in a field smilig beatifically, avoiding your anger and damage and grief. Your anger and damage and grief are the way to the truth. We don't have much truth to express unless we have gone into those rooms and closets and woods and abysses that we were told not to go in to. When we have gone in and looked around for a good long while, just breathing and finally taking it in—then we will be able to speak in our own voice and to stay in the present moment. And that moment is home. (p.201)</p>
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<p>You have to give from the deepest part of yourself, and you are going to have to go on giving, and the givig is going to have to be its own rewards. There is no cosmic importance to your getting something published, but there is in learning to be a giver. (p. 203)</p>
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<p>If something inside you is real, we will probably find it interesting, and it will probably be universal. So you must risk placing real emotion at the center of your work. Write straight into the emotional center of things. (p. 226)</p>
</blockquote>
<p>In addition to the above, the entire chapters <em>Radio Station KFKD</em> and <em>Jealousy</em> are so fantastic. Being in an industry where people are writing and speaking a LOT, I can relate so well to all the things she talks about in there. So yeah, this is a great book.</p>

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			<title>In honor of Rebecca</title>
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			<updated>2014-06-11T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>My site is a little different today and will be for about a week or so. This site has gone purple, in honor of a little girl who fought bravely against cancer. It is also in honor of her father, who taught me so much of what I know about CSS and doing good work.</p>
<p><a href="http://meyerweb.com/eric/thoughts/2014/06/09/in-memoriam-2/">Rest in peace Rebecca Alison Meyer.</a> May your family know that the internets is sending their strength towards them as they continue to grieve you and celebrate your life.</p>
<p>Also, if you haven't read <a href="http://meyerweb.com">Eric's posts</a> over the past several months, they are some of the most eloquent, transparent, painful, yet beautiful pieces of writing I've read in a long time. Thank you for sharing it with us Eric. Also, thank you for all you have done for this community, I am so grateful to know you, fellow chocoloate hater.</p>

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			<title>Reading</title>
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			<updated>2014-06-03T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>The last month or so has seen me reading voraciously. I've been spending most, if not all sometimes, of my weekends reading books. It is starting to be normal that I finish at least one book a weekend, if not two. I've always been a reader, most of it happening at night as I go to bed, reading a bit. So I slowly worked my way through various books. But lately, I've stopped watching TV and movies, opting for books instead.</p>
<p>Just yesterday, when I finished a book on the porch, I realized how quickly I was reading and how much. G and I often spend our weekends quietly, taking the time to recharge from the busy week, but much of that time used to be spent streaming something. Now, I grab a book after brekkie, settle in, and hours fly by.</p>
<p>It finally dawned on me last night why, what was happening. As I write more, trying to get better at it, I want to read more. Learn more about great writing by reading really good writing. So my reading is a mixture for sure, books on design, writing, novels, nonfiction, and more.  But the thing that I hope all the books have in common is that they are teaching me how to write myself. Along with trying to write regularly, I'm reading voraciously, to improve my writing. It's a shift in how I am spending my time, but a welcome one.</p>
<p>I'm also grateful that lately so many wonderful people in my life have been pushing different books at me. All of them have opened up new worlds to me along with getting me to think a bit differently about life.</p>

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			<title>CSS audits</title>
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			<updated>2014-05-30T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been fortunate in the last few months to work on quite a few different projects and each one has had unique needs. I've refactored and cleaned up code, I've added on to an existing application, I've created a layout system and taken care of front ends needs for an application, and I've done a CSS audit.</p>
<p>I've enjoyed the variety and the very nature of doing different types of work, and as I recently wrote, <a href="/code/refactor/">refactoring</a> has been more fun than I anticipated, but the CSS audit was also surprisingly fun. I realize it is something I'd love to do more in the future.  I chatted with the client about expecations, gained access to the code, and went to work.</p>
<p>What is becoming standard for me when evaluating styles on a site is to start by running <a href="https://github.com/stubbornella/type-o-matic">Type-o-matic</a>. Type styles can give a great indication of areas where things can be made modular for more resuse as either mixins or just classes depending on how the client is architecting their CSS. Then I just start reading through the CSS files and inspecting away. It's so much fun to dig into how other people have written their CSS, I love that part. I learn as much going through things and thinking about how to make them better as I do reading articles and watching tutorials.</p>
<p>Being forced to write out recomendations makes me think through what my process is, if it makes sense, how much work it would be to implement, and more. I've started to cement a lot of what I've been doing in the past when writing CSS and making that into a process that others could follow as well. Extra eyes can be helpful when you get mired in the weeds, and I enjoy providing those eyes to projects.</p>
<p>All of this is to say, do you want some feedback on your CSS and how things are? Do you feel like extra eyes may be helpful for your team? Let me know because I love doing it and would happily jump into your code and take a look.</p>

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			<title>Flexbox: porting a float layout</title>
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			<updated>2014-05-22T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Recently I tweeted a lot about flexbox, both asking for resources and then later, professing my love for it. Before my most recent project, I had dabbled in flexbox just a bit, mostly using it for any side by side layout I needed on this site. On a recent project, I dove in head first after realizing it could solve one major layout problem and I am so glad I did.</p>
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  <img src="/images/build/projects/imprint-home.png" alt="Imprint" />
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    Imprint's home page.
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<p>I've been working with the folks at <a href="http://imprint.us">Imprint</a> to get their application front end up and running in time for the private beta and continuing on beyond that. When talking over a crucial part of the layout of one of the main pages, it became apparent that being able to control the order of content based on something other than source order in the code was necessary. Using <code>order</code> in flexbox solved this problem. The first item in the markup could remain the last item seen in a long list of boxes as content was added by the user. The only rub? The design wouldn't quite work with flexbox, so I was stuck. That's when the Product Design lead, the designer, and I met to discuss options. They agreed to a tweak in the design and I was off to the races redoing the main grid layout with flexbox.</p>
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  <img src="/images/build/projects/imprint-create.png" alt="Imprint create" />
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    Imprint's create page upon intitial log in.
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<p>For my situation, I took what was an existing grid layout using floats, since I had already created that, and modified it to use flexbox, retaining the float version for an IE CSS file (although you could also do a Modernizr type test for these styles). So I still have the <code>.grid</code> class for float clearing or <code>display: flex</code> and the <code>.grid-col</code> is still in my markup, to do the floating for older IE. Although I'm hoping to make some changes to clean up the markup in the future. I still have all my columns by width but in the flexbox version they are using <code>flex: 0, 0, [percentage width]</code>. The final piece in the flexbox version was to decide on spacing, so I put in <code>justify-content: space-between</code>. And guess what? IT JUST WORKED. And when I tested in IE 9? It worked fine with the float fall back.</p>
<p>Even better? I made my way down to the <a href="http://mobileportland.com/device-lab">Mobile Portland device lab</a> and tested my layout in Android 2.3, Android 4.3, Blackberry Z10 (Blackberry OS 10), Windows phone running Windows 8 and the only device to give me a problem on layout? The Windows phone, but it isn't a gigantic problem, that too was amazing to me. In testing on iOS 6 and 7 at home, they both worked as well. Testing on VMs for IE 9-11; ALL GOOD (with the fallback for IE9 and below). It is truly awesome to have the layout fall into place so well and work across so many devices.</p>
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  <img src="/images/build/projects/mindblown.jpg" alt="Mind blown" />
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<p>In addition? The content ordering is working well. The developers and I set up a way to do it easily with classes and in older browsers and IE9 and below, it doesn't matter that it isn't in the right order as the application is still usable. Good old progressive enhancement FTW!</p>
<p>There are parts of flexbox that I am still struggling with, I admit. <code>flex-grow</code> and <code>flex-shrink</code> aren't completely clear to me yet. But to be honest, most designers I know are using some type of grid, so they want to have a layout that is proportional, which for me means putting a width on my flex items. But the transition for me was so smooth and so easy that I am really excited to use this on future projects. At this point I'm questioning if I would use floats again for main layout, because the new layout systems are supported so well and so much easier to use.</p>
<p>The real advantages? Using space-between to figure out gutters and order; being able to choose content order based on something other than source order. I'll be honest, this all still feels so futury to me, so unexpected, yet so lovely.</p>
<p class="small">Many thanks to <a href="https://twitter.com/maxfenton">Max Fenton</a> and <a href="https://twitter.com/grigs/">Jason Grigsby</a> for giving me feedback on this post.</p>
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			<title>Refactor</title>
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			<updated>2014-05-14T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>In my first months of freelancing I've been juggling two very different types of projects. One is working with a startup and creating their front end layout system and all that goes along with that. The other is refactoring an existing site. While both types of projects have been enjoyable, I gotta say, I am starting to love the refactor.</p>
<p>That seems strange, right? Who knew this is how I would feel. Not many people want to walk into what may be called <em>a mess</em> and fix it up. But oddly, I am getting really into it. There are several of reasons for this:</p>
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<li>Everyone is so happy when the refactor is done and things are fixed up. Usually the client has been wanting to do this for a while, but they haven't found the time, so the work is greeted with enthusiasm.</li>
<li>I can see clearly how I've made things better. Either things are more accessible because the semantics are cleaner, or the code base has shrunk or some other tangible.</li>
<li>I enjoy the sleuthing; running tools and digging through code to figure out how the site works.</li>
<li>I am not paralyzed by wondering if I am making the right choices. When cleaning up, I feel less worried about making a mistake than when starting from scratch.</li>
</ul>
<p>The last one, that's a big one for me, and I know it goes back to my own insecurities. As I write a layout system for a client that is going to live on for who knows how long, I often worry about it. Am I being future friendly? Is this going to work on all the thousands, nay millions, of devices that will come in the future? Will another dev come along in a year and scoff at my work?</p>
<p>But in a refactor, I am making something better. Hopefully I get feedback from the client and validation that my choices are good ones. I also don't agonize over the choices, because usually, anything is an improvment. I don't worry about perfection as much.</p>
<p>Most of this comes down to me, how I see myself as a front end dev, but it also tells me not to judge potential projects too quickly. It doesn't mean I am going to do only refactors in the future, but it does mean that I will look at them differently. Coming in to help a fantastic team make their site or application better, that's a project that will always interest me.</p>

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			<title>Style guide links</title>
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			<updated>2014-04-10T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>As a follow up to my article on <a href="http://alistapart.com/article/creating-style-guides"><em>A List Apart</em></a> I thought I would put together a list of links that have been extremely helpful to me as I've thought about style guides. So here we go:</p>
<ul>
<li><a href="http://www.starbucks.com/static/reference/styleguide/">Starbucks's guide</a></li>
<li><a href="http://www.yelp.com/styleguide">Yelp's guide</a></li>
<li><a href="http://southtees.nhs.uk/style-guide/">South Tees Hospital</a></li>
<li><a href="http://24ways.org/2011/front-end-style-guides/">Anna Debenham's 24 Ways article</a></li>
<li><a href="http://maban.co.uk/66/">Anna Debenham's post on style guides</a></li>
<li><a href="https://gimmebar.com/collection/4ecd439c2f0aaad734000022/front-end-styleguides-and-pattern-libraries">Anna Debenham's Gimmebar collection</a></li>
<li><a href="http://codeforamerica.clearleft.com">Code for America Guide</a></li>
<li><a href="http://alistapart.com/blog/post/getting-started-with-pattern-libraries"><em>A List Apart</em> blog post on their pattern library</a></li>
<li><a href="http://patternlab.io">Pattern Lab</a></li>
<li><a href="http://adactio.com/links/tags/styleguide">All the links that Jeremy Keith has on his site tagged with style guide</a></li>
<li><a href="https://speakerdeck.com/susanjrobertson/style-guides-why-i-love-them">The deck from the talk I gave last September</a></li>
<li><a href="https://developer.android.com/design/index.html">Android guide, includes content standards too!</a></li>
<li><a href="https://github.com/davidhund/styleguide-generators">Round up of style guide generators, if that's your thing</a></li>
<li><a href="http://vinspee.me/style-guide-guide/">Round up of style guide generators by workflows</a></li>
<li><a href="http://www.stubbornella.org/content/2014/04/09/style-guide-driven-development/">Style guide driven development talk from Pivotal Labs</a></li>
<li><a href="http://pushpull.me/project/episode-7-style-guides-or-a-thousand-special-cases/">Me, yammering on a podcast about style guides</a></li>
<li><a href="http://ianfeather.co.uk/a-maintainable-style-guide/">Lonely Planets way to maintain a style guide</a></li>
<li><a href="http://www.guyroutledge.co.uk/blog/style-guide-colours-with-sass/">Using Sass to generate your color palette</a></li>
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<p>The real treasure in that list is the collection on Gimmebar that Anna maintains. There is a <em>lot</em> in there and I recommend taking a careful look through to see what is helpful for you. <s>I wish I could link up to Anna's Front-end Style Guides book, but with the closing of Five Simple Steps it isn't currently available. It is a great read and I am hopeful that Anna is working on a way to sell it herself.</s> Anna has got her <a href="http://maban.co.uk/projects/front-end-style-guides/">book</a> up on her site! Yay! I highly recommend it.</p>

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			<title>Writing with an editor</title>
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			<updated>2014-04-09T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I was just <a href="http://alistapart.com/article/creating-style-guides">published</a> for the first time; it was also the first time I worked with a professional editor to get an article in tip top shape. The entire experience was fantastic and I learned a lot about writing, word choice, and how to shape a piece.</p>
<p>The article came out of a very rough draft that was done last fall. I just started writing about the process I took to create a style guide when starting my job. It's a topic I love thinking about, I did a talk on it last fall, and it felt right to expand it into an article or at least a blog post for this site. That little draft  got pushed, pulled, prodded, thought about, revised, read by several people, and finally edited by a <a href="https://twitter.com/tinochop">brilliant editor</a> to become the article it is today.</p>
<p>I will admit, working with an editor was hard at times. She pushed me to think about things in a new way; to get out of my own head so that I could explain things in a way someone who isn't as familiar with these concepts would understand them. Technical topics are hard to write about, but I feel so lucky that I worked with someone who was patient and helped me see the holes that needed to be filled in and where I may have prattled on a bit too much. With every round of revisions, I learned more than I can say and I am so thankful for the opportunity. I encourage folks who have ideas to go for it, <a href="http://alistapart.com/about/contribute"><em>A List Apart</em></a> is always looking for new voices and I can verify that they are a lovely bunch.</p>
<p>Having worked on an app for writers, and therefore interacting more with people who write, has made me appreciative of how hard it is. But it's also motivated me to write more; even the small blog posts that go up here, it is fun to think through things with words. There is nothing like finishing a piece, feeling good about it, and then letting it see the light of day. Sometimes, hard is so worth it, and writing is one of those times.</p>

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			<title>Flexbox, hello</title>
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			<updated>2014-04-05T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>This past week I delved deeply into the world of flexbox for the very first time for a client project. Finally letting go of floats for layout is the biggest change to the way I'm writing CSS since I started this whole thing.</p>
<p>Flexbox turned out to be perfect for this project because being able to put a specific order on blocks of content is very important, especially when the screen is resized. With flexbox and using order, it makes that a breeze. I dove into the project once a lot of the little bits were figured out, but there was a slight problem with the design and getting things to flow properly. I took that back to the client, they agreed to a design tweak, and we were back on the road to using flexbox. It is so fun to be learning and using something new, but also the interaction on twitter about it all was a blast as well.</p>
<p>There have been a lot of various articles and tutorials written about flexbox, and I got asked many times what I was using. Well, here are the links I found most helpful as I was working through laying out this project.</p>
<ul>
<li>Chris Coyier, as usual, comes to the rescue with a <a href="http://css-tricks.com/snippets/css/a-guide-to-flexbox/">fantastic post</a> that sums everything up really well. I used this post the most as I loved the clear summary of all the various possibilities for layout.</li>
<li>I also really enjoyed <a href="http://philipwalton.github.io/solved-by-flexbox/">Solved by Flexbox</a> that lays out a lot of the possibilities and shows some common patterns using flexbox too (yay for the media object!).</li>
<li>The <a href="https://github.com/mastastealth/sass-flex-mixin">sass-flex-mixin</a> repo came to my rescue for some good mixins to use to make sure all the various prefixes and syntax were being covered.</li>
<li>The series that Dudley Storey is doing is really great; here's the first <a href="http://demosthenes.info/blog/780/A-Designers-Guide-To-Flexbox">post</a>. But I also love that he is showing some cool affects you can get, such as a <a href="http://demosthenes.info/blog/844/Easy-Masonry-Layout-With-Flexbox">masonry effect</a> with only CSS. Ultimately that didn't solve my issues, but wow, is it ever a cool way to lay out the right design.</li>
<li>I watched the series by <a href="http://www.sketchingwithcss.com/flexbox-tutorial/">Sean Floritto</a> because sometimes, seeing it in action is really helpful. They are quick videos and really well done, so I recommend them.</li>
<li>And lastly, if you need to support older browsers (as I do), this <a href="http://www.planningforaliens.com/blog/2014/03/11/real-world-flexbox/">post</a> by Sean is also helpful, guiding you through float fallbacks. I did that for IE9 and below and it is working perfectly.</li>
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<p>There are way more articles out there and I am so thankful that so many in this community share their knowledge. The above got me up-to-speed quickly on how to do a more complex layout. I'm still wrestling with some of the responsive changes that need to be made, but overall, flexbox is great and I am so excited to be using it on something other than my personal site.</p>

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			<title>Settling into freelance</title>
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			<updated>2014-03-31T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>If you follow me on twitter, than you know I've gone freelance. I haven't written about it in this space yet, because I've been busy — which is a good thing. But not sharing this news in this space doesn't feel right, so here I am talking about it.</p>
<p>I decided to go freelance after Editorially for one reason: I just didn't think I could replicate the great team and work culture that was Editorially. Instead of trying to do that with a full time job, I'm going it alone. This has its disadvantages, I miss chatting with people in Slack on a regular basis. I miss the regular hangouts, especially the laughter and joking that occurred in them, but I am adjusting. I am working to find new community as I work and it is different, but not bad. Change is always a bit hard for me, but this time around it has been even more difficult because it was a change I didn't choose.</p>
<p>I've opened my doors, revived the dead Susan Jean Robertson Development, LLC, and I am already working on projects. In what seems to be typical for many freelancers, I am overbooked a bit, so these next few weeks will be a bit busy. But I'm learning my capacity and slowly I am hoping to even things out. I am also grateful that I have work right out of the gate: I am lucky and I know it.</p>
<p>I'm currently booked through April, but if you have front end needs, particularly responsivey CSS types of projects, then let me know. I'd love to talk.</p>

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			<title>RWD and design and frameworks</title>
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			<updated>2014-03-21T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>In response to the tweets and posts about RWD and design issues, Stephen Hay has written a really great <a href="http://www.the-haystack.com/2014/03/21/responsive-design-sameness/">post</a>. I agree with him. Here's just one quote in regards to frameworks, but you should, as usual, read the whole thing:</p>
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<p>But why hide the web from them behind an abstraction layer? Would designers come up with more appropriate visual patterns if they knew more about what was possible outside the confines of a framework?</p>
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<p>I realize now that one thing I forgot to mention in my <a href="/geekery/rwd-and-design/">post</a>, when I discussed designers and developers working together, is that I also am not using a framework. And most recently I worked with a <a href="http://jasonsantamaria.com">kick ass designer</a> who understands quite a bit about the web and graphic design, so that was helpful. When we worked together, framework free, and he pushed at me try new things, we weren't constrained. This is how being pushed by the designer led me to rethink some of the habits I fall back on to code responsive design, leading me to better end results and ultimately, we made work that I hope was interesting.</p>
<p>In the past several days, I've gotten asked several times what frameworks I use to &quot;make things responsive.&quot; I've found this question interesting mostly because I don't use a framework. Each project is unique, each design unique, and therefore the responsive problems for me to solve in the code are unique. Frameworks don't really think of things as being unique, they are in the business of doing things the same way all the time. In order to do a design justice, but also in order for me to push myself to learn new things, I prefer to start with no constraints.</p>
<p>As an aside, having these conversations, thinking about these things, that's what makes me love this community. I am grateful to all who are sharing their thoughts.</p>

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			<title>RWD and design</title>
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			<updated>2014-03-19T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>A few days ago, Mark Boulton <a href="https://twitter.com/markboulton/status/445943150247702528">tweeted</a> out this:</p>
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<p>I wonder if #RWD looks the way it does because so many projects aren’t being run by designers, but by front-end dev teams.</p>
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<p>And then, Tim Kadlec, responded with a <a href="http://timkadlec.com/2014/03/why-rwd-looks-like-rwd/">blog post</a> that said many, many smart things, you should go read it, but here is one of them:</p>
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<p>Transitioning from the traditional waterfall/siloed approach to a fluid process where designers and developers are working more closely together can be a very difficult adjustment. Not only do you have to battle the internal politics involved in such a move, but you have to experiment to find the right comfort level.</p>
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<p>After reading Tim's piece I've been thinking for a bit about what he said. Coming from the front end dev world, where I am taking the design and making the responsivey good things happen, I've experienced both good and bad in this process. And the above quote from Tim's piece perfectly summarizes why it is either a fun process or a painful process.</p>
<p>Whenever I've had access to the designer and we've worked closely together, it goes swimmingly. We can chat about what is happening, I can explain why something may not work, and the designer can push and prod at me to get me to try new things. That is the key to make RWD designs look different and do different things; having the designer push me and push me hard. I want the designer to ask me to rethink things when I say something can't be done, to see where it leads us in the work. When it happens and you trust each other, it makes the work that much better.</p>
<p>But when there are layers between me and the designer, communication never goes well, it breaks down. The designer and I can't push each other to make better work, to push the boundaries, and the work suffers as a result. Once communication breaks down, everyone involved is frustrated, annoyed, and just wants the project to finish.</p>
<p>At some of the places I've worked, transitioning to the developers and designers working this closely together was a hard proposition to make. Departmental differences play a role, but if you work for a consultancy, you may not even work for the same company as the designer. It's hard, really hard, to make changes to work flows in large organizations but let us not forget, as Tim said, &quot;Responsive design is still relatively young.&quot; As the process, techniques, and more grow with age and wisdom, some of these things will be overcome. And if we, as designers and developers, push to work <em>together</em>, the work will get better.</p>

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			<title>Yoga and me</title>
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			<updated>2014-03-18T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Many times in our lives we make a decision, and at the time we make it, we don't even really think about it; it is just another in a long string of decisions we may make in any given day.  But years later, you look back, and you realize that decision was a big deal. It was life changing. This is exactly what my decision to learn yoga turned out to be.</p>
<p>In November of 2010 I decided to take a beginners yoga series at a studio that was just a few blocks from my house. I had been wanting to do something that would get me moving for a year or so, but for many reasons I just hadn't done it. Gyms were places I didn't enjoy and there wasn't one conveniently located; so that was out. I already walked a lot, but I wanted something that was a bit more intentional, something that felt like I was doing it for me.</p>
<p>I prepaid for the month of twice weekly classes and then dutifully attended each one. When they were over I started to go to regular classes. I found a teacher I liked, a style I liked, and it was convenient. So I just kept going. My studio shut down and I felt a bit bereft without it; I needed to find a new teacher and studio. Yoga had become that important to me. It became so much more than just exercise. It has evolved into the place where I learn the most about myself in ways I never expected.</p>
<p>I'm a person who wants to be able to do everything perfectly the first time around, and with yoga I couldn't. I wasn't able to just flip into some crazy arm balance. I needed to use props to properly hold poses. And sometimes I got tired and just had to check myself out of the vinyasa flow for a moment. This was hard for me, it was hard to not be perfect right off the bat, it was hard not to compare myself to the other students, especially the ones that are incredibly flexible. It was hard not to desire to be able to do the poses &quot;perfectly.&quot; But the thing is, in yoga, perfect doesn't really exist. And every day you are on the mat, your body is different, so what you are capable of is different.</p>
<p>Yoga has changed my body, in surprising ways to be honest, but it has also changed my mind and the way I view life. I have learned it's best to keep my eyes on my mat and looking inward. When I focus on my body and my mind, the whole experience is so much better. It means that I can do what is right for me each time I step onto the mat.</p>
<p>This lesson has spilled over into the rest of my life. Instead of focusing on what is happening to other people in the industry or what I assume is happening, I am focusing on my world and where I'm going. Instead of spending my time thinking about the things I don't have, I am focusing on our home and what we do have. I am working towards being content with what is in front of me, because the reality is, it is enough.</p>
<p>Yoga continues to change me; every time I step on the mat, chant a mantra, or read a bit of yogic philosophy, I am changed. But what is wonderful about it, is that the journey is what is important in yoga, not reaching a specific goal. As I continue to try to focus on the journey and the now (and it is a struggle many days), I am inching towards becoming more content with exactly where I am at.</p>
<p class="small">Thanks to the book <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Poser-Life-Twenty-three-Yoga-Poses/dp/B005M48808"><em>Poser: My life in twenty-three yoga poses</em></a> for introducing me to the concept of keeping my eyes on my mat.</p>
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			<title>The long game</title>
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			<updated>2014-02-28T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I read <a href="http://unstoppablerobotninja.com/entry/platformed/">Ethan's piece</a> two days ago where he mentioned being in the long game when creating for the web. That phrase &quot;long game&quot; then proceeded to follow me around in my head.</p>
<p>The long game is the difficult game. It requires patience, it requires waiting, it <em>may</em> require more work. If you are looking at the long game, you may take longer to code that site, ensuring accessibility, ensuring it works on a wide variety of devices, ensuring everyone, no matter how they choose to access it, can consume your content. But often times, we don't have the patience required. Or we are lazy and we make excuses as to why we shouldn't bother with it.</p>
<p>I am just as guilty as anyone else of this, in work, I often forget about the long game; it is so easy to do when you have been in this industry for a while and the things you've made are no longer on the web anymore. Sites, applications, ideas, they come and go with ease in this medium. Then again, other things I worked on still linger on, usually the things that I am embarassed about because I didn't think of the long game when coding them.</p>
<p>As an industry, we don't seem to like the long game. We prefer quickness, we want the new shiny. So we push businesses to be successful quickly, we push to get the site out whether or not it is ready, we push to show off our new hotness as quickly as we can. But this just means that we push and I can't help but wonder if in all that we lose something. When we lose sight of the long game, what else do we lose?</p>

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			<title>Making stew</title>
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			<updated>2014-02-24T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I have been cooking a lot of stew this winter. I am finally getting comfortable enough in the kitchen to go without recipes for some things, and stew is one of them. Brown some stew meat, remove it, add the onion and garlic and from there it is anyone's guess. If I have carrot and celery, they usually make their way in. For the liquid it's whatever I happen to have on hand — leftover red wine, some broth that needs to be used up, a bit of tomato sauce or paste, sure, why not? Herbs are the same, I just throw in whatever seems like a good idea. And usually my gut is pretty good these days, we end up with a nice meal after some time in the oven.</p>
<p>The past week my life has felt like I am making stew with it. Being unemployed and having my days quite wide open; I've been grabbing onto whatever is available at the moment. At times it's talking with people about potential jobs, at others it's reading and catching up on articles that I've tucked away, and at others, I choose to tune out with Adventure Time. I let myself wallow a bit in the last week, letting my emotions dictate my actions on the day. Also, I ate way too many cinnamon jelly candy hearts.</p>
<p>But now that I have wallowed a bit and mourned the loss of <a href="http://editorially.com">something great</a>; I am feeling ready: Ready to get my body back in shape after several stressful weeks where I ate and drank the wrong things, ready to start digging in to see what I actually want to do next, ready to continue to iterate on my site, ready for new things. But having a week that felt like making stew was important, it was necessary, without it, I fear I wouldn't be ready to make the choices I need to make going forward.</p>

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			<title>Goodbye Editorially</title>
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			<updated>2014-02-13T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>These past few weeks have been difficult ones, working on words and code to say goodbye to <a href="http://editorially.com">Editorially</a>. All the while realizing that I was also saying goodbye to a team and a product that I have grown to love.</p>
<p>There are so many things I have learned working with this team of people. They are all smarty pants who have diverse interests in life; the meeting at the end of each week to look back was a highlight of <em>my</em> week. Every day, sometimes several times a day, I laughed out loud as we chatted away in Slack. A small taste of the things I’ve learned:</p>
<ul>
<li>Crazy new ways to make a web app work responsively</li>
<li>Small screenfuls of code are a good thing</li>
<li>There are better cheeseburger ordering experiences than others</li>
<li>Customer support is hard but watching someone who does it well is amazing</li>
<li>Being able to work from anywhere is a wonderful thing</li>
<li>You can use cheeseburger ordering to explain a technical problem and solution</li>
<li>Being trusted, respected, and appreciated are more valuable than I can possibly say in a team environment</li>
<li>Choosing the right animated gif for your response on twitter and in chat rooms is a learned skill</li>
<li>Comics are awesome and you can learn about design from them</li>
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<p>I could keep going with that list, but then I’ll just get sappy and who needs that? I will miss my coworkers and I will miss Editorially as a product as well; it has helped me write more than I ever have in my life. I’m not sure what will replace it yet, but I suppose now I have to start trying things out.</p>
<p>As for me and what is next? I’m still not sure, but I’ll let you know when I know. First up is celebrating entering a new decade of life with sun, sand, ocean, fruity beverages, and G.</p>

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			<title>How buildings learn</title>
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			<updated>2014-02-10T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Just recently I was scouting around Powells and found a book that <a href="http://unstoppablerobotninja.com">Ethan</a> has recommended, so I picked it up. <a href="http://www.amazon.com/How-Buildings-Learn-Happens-Theyre/dp/0140139966/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1392055041&amp;sr=8-1&amp;keywords=how+buildings+learn"><em>How Buildings Learn: What Happens After They’re Built</em></a> by Stewart Brand is a fascinating read. When I tweeted about buying it, I was amazed by how many people responded that they loved this book.</p>
<p>After finishing the book, I completely understand the zeal people have for it. It is fascinating on many levels and the parallels that you can draw to the web are amazing.</p>
<p>One of my favorite chapters in the book discusses how architects design for the beautiful photo that will be taken when the building is finished, rather than for the people who will be using the building throughout its lifetime. Does that sound like anything that happens when designing and building for the web? At the end of the chapter, Brand poses the following:</p>
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<p>If you think about what a building actually does as it is used through time—how it matures, how it takes the knocks, how it develops, and you realize the beauty resides in that process—then you have a different kind of architecture. What would an aesthetic based on the inevitability of transience actually look like?</p>
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<p>And he goes on to talk of a conversion from image architecture to process architecture, which I relate to iterating on a site or application as you receive user feedback. In the last year I have found that iterating on an application based on user feedback is so satisfying. Obviously with a building, this is a lot harder, but if the building is set up to be able to change and evolve, then hopefully it can happen even then.</p>
<p>I could keep going with quotes from the book that I loved, but instead I’ll just say that you should give it a read. Its relation to the work of making for the web is enlightening, but it is also just a really interesting read about how we build, use, preserve, and think about buildings. While I drew connections to the world in which I work, I also enjoyed moving out of that world for a bit as well.</p>
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<p>What makes a building learn is its physical connection to the people within.</p>
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			<title>Breaking systems</title>
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			<updated>2014-01-22T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Before I started at <a href="https://editorially.com/">Editorially</a>, I was a big believer in <a href="http://oocss.org">Object Oriented CSS</a>. It was my preferred method for building out a site. I have to say that I still really like a lot of the components, but now I also see that there are valid reasons for coding things a bit differently as well.</p>
<p>Last fall we launched <a href="http://stet.editorially.com">STET</a>, an online journal that relies heavily on custom art and custom page designs for each post. It also is the place where we post news and information about Editorially. Keeping all of this in mind, I needed to build out a template system that would have support for base styles in place for regular posts and also give enough hooks in the markup for custom CSS for the articles.</p>
<p>With all of this in mind, I built out the basic designs as flat files and then translated them into the templates in <a href="http://www.siteleaf.com">Siteleaf</a>, our CMS. After the initial phase, it was really about working with <a href="http://jasonsantamaria.com">Jason</a> to make sure we had all the hooks needed for him to be able to move around the header information appropriately based on the artwork used in each piece.</p>
<p>In working through the designs and figuring out what would work, I will admit, I started to let go of complete modularity. The more I work on a site such as STET, where design may need to trump code, the more I am OK with letting go of completely modularizing everything. Not <em>every</em> site is about getting the CSS to be as small and modular as possible. Yes, it is important to be performant, but sometimes, the site is about pushing boundaries and being beautiful. With STET I learned a lot about how to support a great designer with a set of templates that some may see the markup and scoff; but it allows completely interesting designs to launch on an almost weekly basis without changing the markup at all.</p>
<p>So while systems are a good thing, sometimes systems should be broken. And if you are breaking out of one, knowing why is the key. With STET it is about flexibility with design from post to post. But sometimes it may be for other reasons and that’s OK. As a colleague and friend once told me, “as long as you are thinking about the code you are writing, that’s what matters.”</p>
<p class="small">Thanks to <a href="http://jasonsantamaria.com">Jason Santa Maria</a> for giving feedback on this piece.</p>

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			<title>Space to wander</title>
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			<updated>2014-01-14T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I live my life surrounded by tech. It is all around me all the time. Usually I have at least one techy gadget around me, be it the iPad, iPhone, a laptop, or when watching movies the mac mini that we use to stream. But lately, I have felt a need to walk away from all that tech. I want to be alone with my thoughts.</p>
<p>I am still working through this, but when I take a walk, when I go out to eat, when I want to focus on a book, I leave the connected devices behind. More and more I am leaving my home without my iPhone. For many in my industry that last sentence is probably sacrireligious. How could I not want a computer in my pocket at all times? But lately, I just don’t.</p>
<p>As I begin to work through what is driving this in me, I realize a lot of it is that when I am forced to just wait quietly, patiently in a line without something to distract me, that is when an idea hits me. When I give my brain the time and space to wander, ideas percolate. Sometimes they are very vague and I can’t even put my finger on what they are, but other times I am pulling out a pen and paper (yes, old school, I know) to write down a tidbit of thought that I may or may not come back to later.</p>
<p>The other part of this drive is me wondering what it is like to not be connected all the time. Why are we in an age where connection is considered the end-all and be-all? What happens when we allow ourselves space. Do we stumble on things? Do we put together two ideas that we have seen to form something new?</p>
<p>When I was in art school, I did a lot of sketching, a lot of experimenting, a lot of just looking at the work of other artists and letting it sink in. Then I tried to make something of my own. I combined all those thoughts into my own thing, my own piece. Do we do that any more? Do we take the space?</p>
<p>I ask this because I think that coding is creative at its core. It is trying to solve a problem in a new way, a creative way, a way that is elegant and gets the job done. I realize that this can’t always be the case, but I also realize that for this to happen at all, space needs to happen. When that crazy, knotty problem comes up, I often walk. I walk with no devices and just my thoughts. Or I make pizza dough (true story) and while I knead the dough, I am able to think in a different way. Or I just write, sketch, think. It all helps to connect dots in new ways.</p>
<p>Quite a while ago I read Steven Johnson’s book, <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Where-Good-Ideas-Come-From/dp/1594485380/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1378919494&amp;sr=8-1&amp;keywords=steven+johnson+where+good+ideas+come+from"><em>Where Good Ideas Come From</em></a>. It is a great look at how disparate pieces of information are often what comes together to help someone create something new. It often means that you take time away from the pursuit of the idea and then it will hit you. I highly recommend reading it, as the look at how things like Evolution were discovered is fascinating. But above all, for me, it points out that having quiet time, which so many great thinkers of the past had, is a big factor in the puzzle of coming up with something new.</p>
<p>So with that book in the back of my mind, and my mind longing to wander away from the tech world of so many inputs, I have begun a journey to figure out the right balance <em>for me</em> between input and space. So lately, it seems I crave the space. This has come up over the past years as I take up new hobbies that are radically different than my day job. I am now a yogi, I am baking, which requires simple ingredients and my hands, I find more reasons to be in the garden, getting dirty. All of this is so my mind can do other things. So when I wander, the inputs are different and possibly new ideas can be formed. Or maybe just old ones improved.</p>

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			<title>Marketable skills?</title>
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			<updated>2014-01-07T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Some blog posts over the past few days have been going around talking about marketable skills and what it takes to be a front end developer these days.</p>
<p>First, <a href="http://jeffcroft.com/blog/2014/jan/03/web-standards-killed-the-html-star/">Jeff Croft</a>:</p>
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<p>In some ways, the Web Standards Movement killed the Web Standards Guru. We all should have seen this coming. The goal of the Web Standards Movement was for it to not have to exist — for the browsers to be good enough that there wasn’t a need for such a movement.</p>
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<p>Then Jeffrey Zeldman <a href="http://www.zeldman.com/2014/01/06/its-2014-is-web-design-dead/">responded</a>:</p>
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<p>This doesn’t mean “go be an HTML guru.” It does mean cherish the lessons of the recent past, and share them with those who missed them (or missed the point). Wisdom is not a job, but it is always an asset.</p>
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<p>And <a href="http://stuffandnonsense.co.uk/blog/about/its-2014.-web-design-isnt-dead">Andy Clark got into it too</a>:</p>
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<p>If you feel disheartened, I’m with you, but remember, making something that’s beautiful takes a great deal of knowledge and experience.</p>
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<p>Just to give a bit of my two cents, I have heard some of this before and I think in this industry you should always be learning and growing. So HTML and CSS to me mean a lot more than just actually writing markup and CSS. They include Sass (or some other preprocessor), using Compass, understanding how to do layouts for different size viewports, accessibility, etc. That is way more than just writing markup and CSS from a PSD to me. There will always be organizations who don't care about that stuff as much as others, therefore the jobs have always been limited. But over time, everyone needs to keep theirs skills growing to keep up in this market.</p>
<p>As for me? I am following what I love, just as Zeldman advises:</p>
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<p>But “follow the path you love” will always be good advice.</p>
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			<title>Doubling down</title>
			<link href="https://susanjeanrobertson.com/journal/doubling-down/"/>
			<updated>2013-12-31T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Recently I read a <a href="http://frankchimero.com/blog/2013/12/homesteading-2014/">post</a> by Frank Chimero and I felt the same way. I would like my one home on the internet to have all the things I am doing on it. As a start towards this, I have redone my site again and I too am doubling down on my personal site. This is the beginning of that effort.</p>
<p>As you can see, the design got stripped way down. I am more interested in words and writing than I am in the design of the site. I guess working on a <a href="http://editorially.com">writing tool</a> and with writers is rubbing off on me. Also, since I’m not a designer, I decided to just use some great fonts and leave it at that. Working with a <a href="http://jasonsantamaria.com">type nut</a> helps a lot in pointing me in the direction of good fonts.</p>
<p>With the design being so simple, I had very little need for floats, so I decided to use flexbox for the few cases where I needed side-by-side layout. I realize this means that on some browsers, the layout isn’t perfect (Opera and iOS6 are the main offenders), but the reality is that most people come directly to a post, read it, and leave; so I’m OK with the index page and the portfolio page looking a little off for some. I also wanted to dig deeper into flexbox and actually use it in a real site, so this was a perfect opportunity.</p>
<p>In addition to using a new layout system, I also added a category of links. This is my place to track things I’ve read that I really like and not have to rely on another service for it. It’s still a small category, but it is started and I’m excited about having all this in my own site from now on.</p>
<p>What’s next? Well, the design will probably evolve a bit here and there, but the main thing I would like to do is figure out how to do my own photo galleries on this site. I currently use <a href="http://flickr.com/susanjeanrobertson">Flickr</a> and I love a lot of things about the site, but it is changing a lot lately and I am not sure all of the changes are good for users. In order to make sure that my photos remain available the way I would like to share them, I want them on this site. I’ve found a <a href="https://github.com/ggreer/jekyll-gallery-generator">plugin</a> for Jekyll (what I use for this site) to do galleries and I will most likely also do photo posts. But that is still to come.</p>

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			<title>Community</title>
			<link href="https://susanjeanrobertson.com/journal/community/"/>
			<updated>2013-12-30T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Last week, in spite of the holiday, was an <a href="http://susanjeanrobertson.com/self/goodbye-my-girl/">extremely difficult week around my house</a>. But it was also a week that taught me so much about community; the community I am a part of both online and in person. The biggest thing I learned? It doesn’t matter if I have ever spent time in person with some folks, the bond of friendship and community is there.</p>
<p>But what has surprised me? What has caught me off guard and made me more grateful than I can say? The number of people who responded to my news with something personal—an email, a card, a phone call, flowers, and even a quick stop by with cookies. Even in this day of easy tech solutions the outpouring has amazed G and me. We have felt completely cared for in the midst of our craziness and grief.</p>
<p>This, this is the positive side of the internet. The one that I am not so sure we hear about all the time. The one that I think should outweigh the rest of the crappy stuff. And for this side of the internet, I am so grateful.</p>
<p>So thank you community, thank you for all you do for me, even when I forget to tell you.</p>

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			<title>Goodbye my girl</title>
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			<updated>2013-12-23T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I grew up with dogs, but the reality is they were my mom’s dogs. She was the pack leader, rightfully so as she took care of them and did everything for them. When they died I had already moved out, so I didn’t experience the day-to-day loss of their presence.</p>
<p>But then Sally came into my life. And now I was the pack leader. Even after G came into our lives, I was the one she looked to. As G would say, we were “two peas in a pod.” And for the past two years, she and I have spent almost every day together as I worked from home. We were so in tune with each other and just a look from her could tell me so much.</p>
<p>But in the last year she started having significant health problems. Visits to the vet became more frequent and she slowed down considerably. We knew what was coming, but were trying to get through the holidays. Alas, last night Sally just couldn’t do it. She woke me up and I knew something was wrong; within two hours we had said our final goodbyes.</p>
<p>I am feeling this loss acutely. Even just hours later the house feels a bit empty. But I am also grateful that I was able to journey for over 12 years with her, for she was amazing. If you want to see just how amazing, check out some <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/susanjeanrobertson/sets/72157632314861680/">photos</a>, the most recent taken just yesterday morning, in her Christmas outfit.</p>
<p>Goodbye my girl. We miss you and love you.</p>

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			<title>Thankful</title>
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			<updated>2013-11-27T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>It is that time of year, at least in the US, where people are thankful. At least, I hope, in the midst of the crushing craziness that is the start of the holidays there are at least a few moments of peace and quiet. This year has me thinking about my life, the good things, the things for which I am immensely grateful, and the way in which I am trying to continue to simplify life.</p>
<p>So in honor of Thanksgiving, and in honor of bringing some positivity to the web, my little list of thanks:</p>
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<li>A wonderful little family with whom I get to spend each day. G who makes me laugh and Sally dog who is still with us (yay!), even though she is aging fast. I am grateful for them.</li>
<li>I work in an industry that is so generous and wonderful. Every day I read various things on the internets that challenge my thinking and help me in my day-to-day work.</li>
<li>Every day I sit down at a computer, connect with people around the US, and get to work on a team that challenges me. I learn so much from all of them and my coding, my thinking about usability, and my understanding of how to do support well has grown immensely in these last 4 months.</li>
<li>I live in a city that is filled with great food, great wine, great bourbon, and lovely neighborhoods to walk through. In addition, there are lovely people, some of whom I am lucky to call my friends.</li>
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<p>So some of that is hokey, but it is true. And this time of year, it’s OK to be a bit hokey, right? Happy Thanksgiving friends.</p>

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			<title>Sass for Web Designers</title>
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			<updated>2013-11-16T00:00:00Z</updated>
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<p>When using Sass, it’s easy to forget what the compiled stylesheet will ultimately look like—make sure to keep tabs on how Sass outputs your work.</p>
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<p>Sass can move at a quicker pace, implementing features that don’t yet exist in the CSS spec. If these prove successful enough, they could be folded into the standard.</p>
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<p>In Sass, you can nest media queries inside the original declaration, and they will “bubble up” into their own separate declarations when the stylesheet is compiled. It’s wonderful.
Susan Robertson: Hmmm, I like this idea, but worry about extra bloat with repeating the media query over and over again for just one selector.</p>
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<p>Shared styles can be abstracted into mixins, and you’ll still have the ability to override or augment those styles with additional rules. Powerful stuff!</p>
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<p>Instead of littering the markup with extra classes to handle those small exceptions, we can use Sass’s @extend function to “chain together” styles that are shared amongst multiple selectors. Additionally, we can then add extra overriding rules to make a new unique style without duplicating the shared styles.</p>
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<p>Rather than typing the same rules over and over again in various declarations, you can use mixins to define a group of styles just once and refer to it anytime those styles are needed.</p>
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<p>For a large stylesheet that uses responsive design with frequent media queries for multiple viewports, this would reduce the compiled CSS file quite a bit. Unfortunately, Sass doesn’t (yet?) support this “aggregated media query bubbling,”</p>
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<p>Placeholder selectors are especially helpful in creating blocks of styles for design patterns that may or may not be used</p>
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<p>Where a mixin will write the same rules in each declaration it’s called from, @extend will create multiple, comma-separated selectors for shared styles. It’s good to keep that difference in mind when you’re debating which to use.</p>
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<p>Specify arguments with variables inside parentheses when defining the mixin:</p>
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<p>You can start to see how flexible mixins can be. Through arguments, consistently-shared rules can sit alongside those that differ slightly.</p>
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<p><a href="http://www.abookapart.com/products/sass-for-web-designers">Sass for Web Designers by Dan Cederholm</a></p>

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			<title>A Pocket Guide to Front-end Style Guides</title>
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			<updated>2013-11-15T00:00:00Z</updated>
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<p>Use the style guide as a way to show these extremes, and prove that you’ve tested and know how to appropriately deal with these situations.</p>
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<p>A style guide explains how things are going to look, whereas a pattern library tends to focus on how they work. Style guides are a fantastic tool for designers, and pattern libraries are generally more useful for developers, but there will be some overlap.</p>
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<p>If you’re creating a new style guide for an existing site, a nice side effect is that it’s often an opportunity to standardise the design, and check with the designer that they didn’t unintentionally create two styles for the same thing (like they’ve left in a layer that is part of an old version of the design).</p>
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<p>It may help to have a version number on the document, especially if several people are working on it. If you’re using version control, you could pull the last commit ID onto the page. It’s also handy to indicate the last modified date so you can check how up-to-date the style guide is.</p>
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<p>Style prototypes help demonstrate how different styles will feel once they’re in the browser. They capture things like button hover states and interactions on a very detailed and granular scale.</p>
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<p>A style guide can show clients that websites are systems rather than collections of pages.</p>
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<p>check that your modules degrade gracefully when JavaScript is disabled, when they’re viewed in older browsers, and when images or SVGs don’t load.</p>
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<p>The process of building a style guide acts as a design audit of the site, and you can often find ways of merging two (or more) very similar styles for the same thing into one.</p>
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<p>Grabbing a style and reusing it on the site should be as simple as copying and pasting the relevant markup.</p>
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<p>If it’s comprehensive enough, a style guide reduces the likelihood of naked (unstyled) elements. Elements that often get missed out of design mock-ups include styles for definition lists; tabular data; form fields; block quotes; hover, active and focus styles on links; and even bullet points.</p>
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<p>I believe producing a style guide encourages more meaningful code. Just writing it forces you to think about the semantics of the elements you’re using.</p>
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<p>It can even serve as a spec for developers – they’ll be able to see an overview of what modules need to be built and roughly how they’ll work.</p>
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<p>The modules sit within the page wrapper (the header and footer) as though it were a single template, but with a lot of different types of content in it.</p>
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<p>Where front-end style guides excel is in encouraging collaboration between designers and developers.</p>
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<p>They should remain as comfortable to live in over time as they were when first built.</p>
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<p>device and browser testing should run throughout the build rather than be a source of stress right before a deadline.</p>
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<p>When a CMS requires editors to write in Textile or Markdown, I add a cheatsheet to the style guide</p>
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<p>Style guides should be unassuming. The reader may not have been present when the site was built, so I find it helps to imagine the reader as a developer who writes sloppy markup, or an editor who loves using headings for styling random bits of text, or a designer who gets a little overexcited when using a colour palette.</p>
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<p>keep your boilerplate styles as neutral as possible to make them easy to override and work in as many situations as possible.</p>
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<p><a href="http://maban.co.uk/projects/front-end-style-guides/">A Pocket Guide to Front-end Style Guides by Anna Debenham</a></p>

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			<title>Just Enough Research</title>
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			<updated>2013-11-08T00:00:00Z</updated>
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<p>As long as you’re clear about your questions and your expectations, don’t fret too much about the classification of the research you want to undertake. Remain open to learning at every stage of the process.</p>
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<p>Optimistic people talk as though there is some sort of obvious, objective standard, but once you start thinking about what is truly optimal, you will find that it’s always subjective and you’ll always have to make trade-offs. This is why designers will never be replaced by machines.</p>
</blockquote>
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<p>The hardest competitor to beat is the one your potential customers are using right now. If they have to stop using that one to start using yours, they may incur a switching cost. People are lazy, forgetful creatures of habit. Your target customers have to love you more than they hate change.</p>
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<p>If you’re constantly on the lookout for threats and potential points of failure, you and your products will be stronger.</p>
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<p>Every internal design review is an opportunity for a mini heuristic evaluation.</p>
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<p>If you don’t have enough information, or what you’re finding doesn’t quite hold together, the pieces will rattle around in your head. Ask a few more questions or talk to a few more people. Talk through the results. The pieces will fall into place. Learn to listen for that click.</p>
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<p>At the very least, it’s up to everyone participating in the research to hold the line and not let interpersonal dynamics influence your findings. Watch out for those who would use information gathering for political purposes or as a popularity contest.</p>
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<p>Your challenge as a researcher is to figure out how to get the information you need by asking the right questions and observing the right details.</p>
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<p>Unlike heinous, contrived team-building activities—rope courses and trust falls—doing research together actually did make our team more collaborative.</p>
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<p>Attention is the rarest resource and the one you need to survive.</p>
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<p>Research is not antithetical to moving fast and shipping constantly. You’ll need to do some upfront work for background and strategy and the overall framework. Then, as the work progresses, do continual research.</p>
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<p>try to identify your highest-priority questions—your assumptions that carry the biggest risk.</p>
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<p>“Like” is not a part of the critical thinker’s vocabulary. On some level, we all want the things we do to be liked (particularly on Facebook), so it’s easy to treat likability as a leading success indicator. But the concept of “liking” is as subjective as it is empty.</p>
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<p><a href="http://www.abookapart.com/products/just-enough-research">Just Enough Research by Erika Hall</a></p>

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			<title>RWD, connectivity, thoughts</title>
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			<updated>2013-11-06T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>This week has been a great week for reading on the web. There have been good old fashioned blogging back and forths going on between <a href="http://unstoppablerobotninja.com/entry/responsive-web-design-screens-and-shearing-layers/">Ethan</a> and Luke (who posted <a href="http://www.lukew.com/ff/entry.asp?1816">here</a> and <a href="http://www.lukew.com/ff/entry.asp?1817">here</a>), with <a href="http://www.quirksmode.org/blog/archives/2013/11/of_viewports_an.html">Peter-Paul</a> chiming in as well. It has also been a week where the idea of <a href="http://blog.hood.ie/2013/11/say-hello-to-offline-first/">Offline First</a> came out and received quite a bit of attention.</p>
<p>All of this interests me as I am in the world of responsive every day now. Working on <a href="http://editorially.com">Editorially</a> means that not only am I testing regularly on different devices, but it also means I am thinking a lot about experience and what that experience looks like in various types of situations. In addition to this, we just launched <a href="http://stet.editorially.com">STET</a>, another responsive experience for users. We quickly got feedback after launch about issues with FOUT happening on the site. This happened in the lead up to Ethan and Luke talking about screen sizes and <a href="https://plus.google.com/u/0/+PaulIrish/posts/MeoUmZxNRZB">Paul Irish</a> doing a survey on how to best handle FOUT on slow connections.</p>
<p>With all of this, I realize that my thoughts on how to handle all the challenges of the various devices along with connectivity speed is changing. I am no longer bothered by FOUT, because for a slow connection, getting the content is better than seeing nothing for a varied period of time. I also understand that in many situations, the user may have lagging connectivity or disrupted connectivity, but the job of our application is to let them know when there may be problems, so that the work is not lost and we are communicating well. That is the job of any application that relies on a good connection to work: to make sure users know when something may not work because connectivity is a bit up in the air.</p>
<p>Much of the talk this week reminds me of the <a href="http://susanjeanrobertson.com/geekery/assumptions/">assumptions</a> we sometimes make about our users. Now that I work on something where I see feedback continually from the people using the application, I realize that many of my assumptions are just plain wrong. And yet, while we discuss features or changes to the application, I often fall back on those assumptions and have to be jolted out by something said by someone else in the discussion or just remind myself that I’m assuming again (and we all know what that does). It is hard to put yourself in a different frame of mind, but with all the talk about these things, that is a must. It is something I am still working on, remembering that, for the most part, not everyone is like me or wants to do what I do how I do it.</p>
<p>This week has been a great one on the web for thinking, for debating, for talking, for reading, and I, for one, am so glad. I love to see the smart people in the industry letting us all in on their thoughts. It makes me think more as I am writing code about what I am doing, what am I assuming, and how can I make sure I serve the people using the application well.</p>
<p class="small">Many thanks to <a href="http://twitter.com/aworkinglibrary">Mandy Brown</a> for taking a look at this as a draft.</p>

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			<title>Brooklyn</title>
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			<updated>2013-10-17T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I spent last week in Brooklyn. It was my first time being there, and as a Portlander, I had heard how similar the two are time and again. I went for work meetings, finally met my coworkers (hooray!), and attended Brooklyn Beta with the horde of webbish people in a large hangar on Friday.</p>
<p>What did I enjoy most about the week? By far it was being in the same room as my coworkers and having time to laugh, eat, drink, and just shoot the shit together. Lest you think that’s all we did, we did work and work hard for the two days we had together. Having started this job by just turning on a computer, joining Campfire, and then joining a Google Hangout, it was great to see faces clearly as we did planning and talking about various topics.</p>
<p>But what about Brooklyn? It truly is a lot like Portland. After walking around for a week there are differences, but there are many similarities. I heard more foreign languages as I rode the subway, the place is denser, it has a lot more restaurants, but the people walking around would have fit right in to my neighborhood. So I felt at home in many ways. Also, if you ever get to Brooklyn, the everything croissant at <a href="http://seersuckerbrooklyn.com/smith-canteen/">Smith Canteen</a> and the lobster roll at <a href="http://littleneckbrooklyn.com">Littleneck</a> are must stops.</p>
<p>As for <a href="http://brooklynbeta.org">Brooklyn Beta</a>, for me that conference was all about the people. If you have ever been, you know that it is quite different from a lot of other conferences out there, which is what I loved about it. No wifi, so I was really present in the room. No schedule, so I just sat and waited to see who would be speaking, and I enjoyed the surprises and the talks. The three days at Beta were all about meeting people. So many folks that I admire from afar were there and I got to chat with them during the long breaks. This webbish community is truly great and I feel really lucky to be a part of it.</p>
<p>I also feel really lucky to work with the team at <a href="http://editorially.com">Editorially</a>. Last week only made me more grateful and more excited about this job and seeing where we go together as we iterate on the app.</p>

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			<title>No internets</title>
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			<updated>2013-10-01T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I recently got back from a beach vacation. What made this unusual is that I went on vacation and took zero internet capable devices. Yes, I even left my phone at home. This was the first time in a long time that I’d done anything like this. And I noticed a few things.</p>
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<li>When I was at home, the tempation was much greater, I turned off all devices before we ate dinner the night before we left. Being in my normal environment made me want to be online more.</li>
<li>I observed a lot more of what was going on around me as we were in airports and laying on the beach. Much of this was because if I didn’t feel like reading, I just looked around.</li>
<li>I only really missed it when I wanted to know the time, since I don’t wear a watch, my phone has become my watch.</li>
<li>We did a lot of wondering out loud about things, asking each other quesitons and then just letting go when we didn’t know the answers, it was OK to not know. It was also OK to just imagine and wonder.</li>
<li>I was completely focused on my husband and my surroundings, this was a very good thing.</li>
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<p>Honestly, when I switched everything back on the first morning I was home in order to start my work day, I started fresh, not looking back in any feeds. I really wasn’t missing anything, was I? If I was, it would find its way to me, isn’t that what email is for? The break was fantastic, I have already noticed a difference in how I am using things now day-to-day. I was reminded of what is truly important to me which is people and experiences, not sharing it all online or reading about others’ experiences online.</p>

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			<title>Style Guides&amp;#58; Why I love them</title>
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			<updated>2013-09-18T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I gave a talk at <a href="http://rfrshpdx.org">RefreshPDX</a> on Style Guides, which have quickly become something I'm fairly passionate about and so I love talking about them. I really enjoyed showing folks all the wonderful reasons you would want to make a style guide and it was a great crowd that turned out as well. Plus, it included a few animated gifs and a real life example of a style guide that I am still working on.</p>
<p>You can find the slides on <a href="https://speakerdeck.com/susanjrobertson/style-guides-why-i-love-them">Speakerdeck</a> if you want to take a look, although they may not makes sense to you without the words, but there are good resources.</p>

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			<title>How to Tell When You&#39;re Tired</title>
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			<updated>2013-09-11T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I’ve recently been really interested in the ideas of work. It all started when I read <a href="http://susanjeanrobertson.com/books/the-working-life/"><em>The Working Life</em></a> a few years ago and it has continued to be something I am drawn to. How we think about work and its role in our lives has changed dramatically over the past century. Being in the tech industry, where people are talking about jobs, start ups, ideas, and working a lot of hours, it makes it even more appropriate to think on what it all means.</p>
<p>Recently I read <a href="http://www.amazon.com/How-Tell-When-Youre-Tired/dp/0393315576/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1378313018&amp;sr=8-1&amp;keywords=how+to+tell+when+you%27re+tired"><em>How to Tell When You’re Tired: A Brief Examination of Work</em></a>, and it sparked even more thoughts about how we think about these days we spend working. I highly recommend the book, not just because it is well written, but it is a completely different perspective on working than anything I’ve ever read. The author was a longshoreman for 30 years in San Francisco, he worked hard, he labored in a way that I find very foreign to me as I sit at a desk and write code. But through all that his thoughts on work are quite similar to other ideas I have read on the topic.</p>
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<p>Shorter hours notwithstanding, the workday is the dominat fact of a worker’s existence, and more and more he sees it not as a part of the life he is living, but rather as a large hole in the time he spends on earth, the price he pays for the bits and pieces of life he has left.</p>
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<p>If this is how we are living life, if work is something to just get us to retirement, what happens if it all goes wrong and we can’t retire at the appointed time? What happens if an accident or illness occurs and we don’t make it to retirement? Should we not be enjoying life now? How can you do that? Even if you are in a situation where change is hard, can it happen in some small way? All of these things are brought up by this book. I believe that working just to get the “big” payoff in retirement is not the way to live life. As you can see from what he says yet again in reference to retirement.</p>
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<p>If retirement is what you are mainly working toward, then you are living a mistake, serving out a jail term, so to speak, waiting for release. The work you are now putting in is dead time.</p>
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<p>But interestingly, he goes on at the end of the book to talk about how the problems that work brings up in life haven’t changed, even though work has change so much in the past century.</p>
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<p>...[T]he problems surrounding work, how we do it and what it does to us as we do it, its rewards and lack of the same—its agony—remain little better resolved then they were 150 years ago. They remain, in fact, unaddressed.</p>
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<p>This is what struck me as the saddest thought—how we think about work has not changed. We are still trying to resolve the same things that were plaguing us years ago, just the circumstances may have changed slightly.</p>
<p>There is so much in this book, so much that I didn’t even mention. It is a short read (less than 200 pages) and a perspective worth taking into account if you too are interested in work and its place in our lives.</p>

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			<title>The Library at Night</title>
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			<updated>2013-08-03T00:00:00Z</updated>
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<p>Saint John's sentence describes the reader's experience. As anyone reading in a library knows, the words on the page call out for light. Darkness, words and light form a virtuous circle. Words bring light into being, and then mourn its passing. In the light we read, in the dark we talk.</p>
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<p>The existence of any library, even mine, allows readers a sense of what their craft is truly about, a craft that struggles against the stringencies of time by bringing fragments of the past into their present. It grants them a glimpse, however secret or distant, into the minds of other human beings, and allows them a certain knowledge of their own condition through the stories stored here for their perusal.</p>
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<p>The past is the cosmopolitan's mother country, the universal fatherland, an endless library. In it (so thought Sir Thomas Browne) lies our hope for an endurable future.</p>
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<p>And yet the new sense of infinity created by the Web has not diminished the old sense of infinity inspired by the ancient libraries; it has merely lent it a sort of tangible intangibility.</p>
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<p>If reading is a craft that allows us to remember the common experience of humankind, it follows that totalitarian governments will try to suppress the memory held by the page. Under such circumstances, the reader's struggle is against oblivion.</p>
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<p>During the day, the concentration and system tempt me; at night I can read with a lightheartedness verging on insouciance.</p>
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<p>On the Web, where all texts are equal and alike in form, they become nothing but phantom text and photographic image.</p>
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<p>Together, electronic storage and the physical preservation of printed matter grant a library the fulfillment of at least one of its ambitions: comprehensiveness.</p>
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<p>In the next few years, in all probability, millions of pages will be waiting for their on-line readers. As in the cautionary tale of Babel, &quot;nothing will be restrained from them, which they have imagined to do,&quot;84 and we shall soon be able to summon up the whole of the ghostly stock of all manner of Alexandrias past or future, with the mere tap of a finger.</p>
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<p>My books hold between their covers every story I've ever known and still remember, or have now forgotten, or may one day read; they fill the space around me with ancient and new voices. No doubt these stories exist on the page equally during the day but, perhaps because of nighttime's acquaintance with phantom appearances and telltale dreams, they become more vividly present after the sun has set.</p>
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<p>As those remote Colombian readers know, our existence flows, like an impossible river, in two directions: from the endless mass of names, places, creatures, stars, books, rituals, memories, illuminations and stones we call the world to the face that stares at us every morning from the depth of a mirror; and from that face, from that body which surrounds a centre we cannot see, from that which names us when we say &quot;I,&quot; to everything that is Other, outside, beyond. A sense of who we are individually, coupled with a sense of being citizens, collectively, of an inconceivable universe, lends something like meaning to our life-a meaning put into words by the books in our libraries.</p>
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<p>The world encyclopedia, the universal library, exists, and is the world itself.</p>
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<p>Alexandria modestly saw itself as the centre of a circle bound by the knowable world; the Web, like the definition of God first imagined in the twelfth century,,&quot; sees itself as a circle whose centre is everywhere and whose circumference is nowhere.</p>
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<p>my small library is a reminder of both impossible yearnings-the desire to contain all the tongues of Babel and the longing to possess all the volumes of Alexandria.</p>
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<p>Perhaps every library is ultimately inconceivable, because, like the mind, it reflects upon itself, multiplying geometrically with each new reflection.</p>
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<p>However appealing we may find the dream of a knowable universe made of paper and a meaningful cosmos made of words, a library, even one colossal in its proportions or ambitious and infinite in its scope, can never offer us a &quot;real&quot; world, in the sense in which the daily world of suffering and happiness is real. It offers us instead a negotiable image of that real world which (in the words of the French critic jean Roudaut) &quot;kindly allows us to conceive it,&quot; 114 as well as the possibility of experience, knowledge and memory of something intuited through a tale or guessed at through a poetic or philosophical reflection.</p>
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<p>Our society accepts the book as a given, but the act of reading-once considered useful and important, as well as potentially dangerous and subversive-is now condescendingly accepted as a pastime, a slow pastime that lacks efficiency and does not contribute to the common good.</p>
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<p>In the dark, with the windows lit and the rows of books glittering, the library is a closed space, a universe of self-serving rules that pretend to replace or translate those of the shapeless universe beyond.</p>
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<p>I imagined shelves that began at my waist and went up only as high as the fingertips of my stretched-out arm, since, in my experience, the books condemned to heights that require ladders, or to depths that force the reader to crawl on his stomach on the floor, receive far less attention than their middle-ground fellows, no matter their subject or merit.</p>
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<p>Libraries, whether my own or shared with a greater reading public, have always seemed to me pleasantly mad places, and for as long as I can remember I've been seduced by their labyrinthine logic, which suggests that reason (if not art) rules over a cacophonous arrangement of books. I feel an adventurous pleasure in losing myself among the crowded stacks, superstitiously confident that any established hierarchy of letters or numbers will lead me one day to a promised destination.</p>
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<p>The past (the tradition that leads to our electronic present) is, for the Web user, irrelevant, since all that counts is what is currently displayed. Compared to a book that betrays its age in its physical aspect, a text called up on the screen has no history.</p>
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<p>During the day, the library is a realm of order.</p>
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<p>In the light, we read the inventions of others; in the darkness, we invent our own stories.</p>
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<p>The libraries that have vanished or have never been allowed to exist greatly surpass in number those we can visit, and form the links of a circular chain that accuses and condemns us all.</p>
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<p>Human imagination is not monogamous nor does it need to be, and new instruments will soon sit next to the PowerBooks that now sit next to our books in the multimedia library. If the Library of Alexandria was the emblem of our ambition of omniscience, the Web is the emblem of our ambition of omnipresence; the library that contained everything has become the library that contains anything.</p>
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<p>Some nights I dream of an entirely anonymous library in which books have no title and boast no author, forming a continuous narrative stream in which all genres, all styles, all stories converge, and all protagonists and all locations are unidentified, a stream into which I can dip at any point of its course.</p>
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<p>Libraries, in their very being, not only assert but also question the authority of power. As repositories of history or sources for the future, as guides or manuals for difficult times, as symbols of authority past or present, the books in a library stand for more than their collective contents, and have, since the beginning of writing, been considered a threat.</p>
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<p>the space in which we keep our books changes our relationship to them. We don't read books in the same way sitting inside a circle or inside a square, in a room with a low ceiling or in one with high rafters. And the mental atmosphere we create in the act of reading, the imaginary space we construct when we lose ourselves in the pages of a book, is confirmed or refuted by the physical space of the library, and is affected by the distance of the shelves, the crowding or paucity of books, by qualities of scent and touch and by the varying degrees of light and shade.</p>
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<p>The petroglyphs of our common past are fading not because of the arrival of a new technology but because we are no longer moved to read them. We are losing our common vocabulary, built over thousands and thousands of years to help and delight and instruct us, for the sake of what we take to be the new technology's virtues.</p>
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<p>It may be that, because of its kaleidoscopic quality, any library, however personal, offers to whoever explores it a reflection of what he or she seeks, a tantalizing wisp of intuition of who we are as readers, a glimpse into the secret aspects of the self.</p>
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<p>To hold and transmit memory, to learn through the experience of others, to share knowledge of the world and of ourselves, are some of the powers (and dangers) that books confer upon us, and the reasons why we both treasure and fear them.</p>
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<p>In such a library there would be one single book divided into a few thousand volumes and, pace Callimachus and Dewey, no catalogue.</p>
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<p>In comparing the virtual library to the traditional one of paper and ink, we need to remember several things: that reading often requires slowness, depth and context; that our electronic technology is still fragile and that, since it keeps changing, it prevents us many times from retrieving what was once stored in now superseded containers; that leafing through a book or roaming through shelves is an intimate part of the craft of reading and cannot be entirely replaced by scrolling down a screen, any more than real travel can be replaced by travelogues and 3-D gadgets.</p>
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<p>If the library in the morning suggests an echo of the severe and reasonably wishful order of the world, the library at night seems to rejoice in the world's essential, joyful muddle.</p>
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<p>What makes a library a reflection of its owner is not merely the choice of the titles themselves, but the mesh of associations implied in the choice. Our experience builds on experience, our memory on other memories. Our books build on other books that change or enrich them, that grant them a chronology apart from that of literary dictionaries.</p>
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<p>Throughout history, those confronted with the unbearable account of the horrors they have committed-torturers, murderers, merciless wielders of power, shamelessly obedient bureaucrats-seldom answer the question &quot;why?&quot; Their impassive faces reject any admission of guilt, reflect nothing but a refusal to move from the past of their deeds into the consequences. Yet the books on my shelves can help me imagine their future.</p>
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<p>In our time, bereft of epic dreams-which we've replaced with dreams of pillage-the illusion of immortality is created by technology. The Web, and its promise of a voice and a site for all, is our equivalent of the mare incognitum, the unknown sea that lured ancient travellers with the temptation of discovery.</p>
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<p>And while it is true that acidity and brittleness, fire and the legendary bookworms threaten ancient codexes and scrolls, not everything written or printed on parchment or paper is condemned to an early grave.</p>
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<p>To quote is to make use of the Library of Babel; to quote is to reflect on what has been said before, and unless we do that, we speak in a vacuum where no human voice can make a sound.</p>
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<p>The notorious millionaires who, in the nineteenth and twentieth centuries, made their fortunes in the factories, mills and banks of the United States assiduously used their money to establish schools, museums and, above all, libraries which, beyond their importance as cultural centres, became monuments to their founders.</p>
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<p>Every library is autobiographical.</p>
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<p>For the cosmopolitan reader a homeland is not in space, fractured by political frontiers, but in time, which has no borders.</p>
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<p>Neither the solid library on my shelves nor the shifting one of memory holds absolute power for long. Over time, the labyrinths of my two libraries mysteriously intermingle.</p>
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<p>Histories, chronologies and almanacs offer us the illusion of progress, even though, over and over again, we are given proof that there is no such thing. There is transformation and there is passage, but whether for better or for worse merely depends on the context and the observer.</p>
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<p>If my library chronicles my life story, my study holds my identity.</p>
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<p><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Library-at-Night-Alberto-Manguel-ebook/dp/B001A1AW8S/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1402956768&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=the+library+at+night">The Library at Night by Alberto Manguel</a></p>

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			<title>Remote Work</title>
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			<updated>2013-07-29T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I’ve been thinking a lot about remote work lately. Mostly because I have been a remote worker since the end of last November with two different companies. In that time I have started to form some thoughts on what makes having remote teams successful and what doesn’t.</p>
<p>I want to preface this by saying that the two companies I have experience working with could not be more different, in both what they do and general culture and philosophy. That being said, I do think that even with these differences, there are some things about remote work that supersede the differences.</p>
<p>In addition, as someone who has been doing remote work, I also did read up on the brouhaha of Yahoo discontinuing their program. Honestly, I think I better understand why they did it after my experiences. But each company is different, so I don’t want to go into that here either.</p>
<p>To make remote work successful, you need to ensure that the entire company is committed to acting as if they are all remote. That means the people who are collocated need to make sure their communication is transparent and engages the workers who are not in the same place. This is hard to do well. Especially if the company has always had offices and a majority of workers are in the same place. When you bring on those first remote workers, the entire office needs to be on board with communicating easily with them. If this doesn’t happen the remote workers will have a very hard time feeling a part of the team.</p>
<p>Personally I went from working for a large consultancy that has a main office where the majority of employees are, two smaller offices, and then less than a dozen remote workers to working for a very small company half of whose workers were not in the same location. One of the biggest differences is how communication is handled. In my current team—even the people who are in the same office—use Campfire to communicate. When I start work for the day, they have been in there for hours (since they are on the east coast). To ensure we all know what’s happening, they try and communicate through it as much as possible. This has definitely been the key to making me feel very much a part of the team right from the start. The “office banter” is happening online and everyone participates.</p>
<p>I realize that for companies with more people, this can be trickier. But it is exactly this type of communication that is the most important. When the remote worker doesn’t get to talk just about whatever with coworkers, it seems she never really gets to know them. This is the piece that is hard to do, but it is crucial. Office visits every so often just do not do enough to help form that bond that makes for a great team. It is the day-in and day-out communication that makes it work.</p>
<p>My experience is limited, and I am sure there are many other remote teams or remote workers that have much to say on this subject. But in the first few weeks of being with a new remote team, this is what jumped out at me as being the significant difference between feeling completely a part of the company and being just a cog who was outside the main office.</p>

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			<title>Transition</title>
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				<p>A few weeks ago I got an email from a local friend introducing me to someone I have long admired in the web community. Then I got an email from that same person asking me if I wanted to work with his start up. After spending a moment hyperventilating, I knew instantly that I had to move forward and apply for the job. Honestly, everything he said about it  made it sound like a fantastic opportunity.</p>
<p>I moved forward through the process, talked with all four co-founders of the company and thoroughly enjoyed the conversations. They are such smart people. Plus when I got into the beta of the app, I found it to be an interesting product; one that I am definitely excited about.</p>
<p>So I’m excited to say that next week I start working with the team at <a href="http://editorially.com">Editorially</a>. To get the chance to work with people I have followed online and heard speak at conferences over the years is a bit scary, humbling, and exciting. I cannot wait to get started and to learn and grow with this team.</p>
<p>Over the past several weeks as this process played out, a few things became clear to me. All of the ways I have pushed myself to be involved in the web community, both locally and online, has been worth it. I made choices to go to conferences even if I had to pay for myself and take vacation time, I pushed myself to go out on the rainy evenings and meet people at local meet ups, and I continued to write on my blog and interact online with people to keep up with all the change that is constantly happening on the web. All these actions led to having a <a href="https://twitter.com/grigs">local friend</a> recommend me for the job at Editorially when Ethan reached out to him. Plus, being involved in the community has kept me sharp, as well as reminding me how fantastic our community really is.</p>

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			<title>Writing</title>
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			<updated>2013-06-22T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Several years ago, I either read or heard a story that <a href="http://www.zeldman.com">Jeffrey Zeldman</a> told. He was looking for a designer on short notice to step in and finish a project. The person he found had a blog and that was a key factor in Jeffrey hiring him. The point of the story was that everyone should write, it’s important.</p>
<p>I remember reading or hearing that and it stuck with me. I started a blog and started to write short pieces on things I was thinking about related to the web. At first I honestly didn’t have any idea if people were reading it. I finally did add analytics, so I knew at least a few people were going to my site, but I didn’t get preoccupied with that and just kept writing. I also realize that I can improve at this. My grammar isn’t great, it never has been, but when I write I am trying to convey some thoughts and hopefully I succeed at that.</p>
<p>I have had a couple of crazy weeks, which I’ll talk about more in another post, but one of the things that was brought home to me over these past few weeks is that Jeffrey was right. Writing is important. It is a way for people to get to know a bit about you, as well as a way for you to work out your own thoughts. In addition, it is a great way for an introvert like me to participate in my web community.</p>
<p>Jeffrey isn’t the only one who thinks this either based on a tweet from <a href="https://twitter.com/chriscoyier/status/348189402729701377">Chris Coyier</a> yesterday. So go ahead and write things, share them. Writing has led to lots of good things for me; getting to know others in the webbish community, working through some tough topics in a more organized way, and just generally boosted my confidence in ways I never would have imagined.</p>

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			<title>The Design of Everyday Things</title>
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			<updated>2013-06-16T00:00:00Z</updated>
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<p>In other words, make sure that (1) the user can figure out what to do, and (2) the user can tell what is going on.</p>
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<p>If people keep buying poorly designed products, manufacturers and designers will think they are doing the right thing and continue as usual.</p>
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<p>Complexity of appearance seems to be determined by the number of controls, whereas difficulty of use is jointly determined by the difficulty of finding the relevant controls (which increases with the number of controls) and difficulty of executing the functions (which may decrease with the number of controls).</p>
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<p>The computer has vast potential, more than enough to overcome all its problems. Because it has unlimited power, because it can accept almost any kind of control, and because it can create almost any kind of picture or sound, it has the potential to bridge the gulfs, to make life easier.</p>
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<p>Much good design evolves: the design is tested, problem areas are discovered and modified, and then it is continually retested and remodified until time, energy, and resources run out.</p>
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<p>real, natural sound is as essential as visual information because sound tells us about things we can’t see, and it does so while our eyes are occupied elsewhere.</p>
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<p>When things are visible, they tend to be easier than when they are not. In addition, there must be a close, natural relationship between the control and its function: a natural mapping.</p>
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<p>In general, I welcome any technological advance that reduces my need for mental work but still gives me the control and enjoyment of the task. That wayl can exert my mental efforts on the core of the task, the thing to be remembered, the purpose of the arithmetic or the music. I want to use my mental powers for the important things, not fritter them away on the mechanics.</p>
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<p>The differences between slips and mistakes are readily apparent in the analysis of the seven stages of action. Form an appropriate goal but mess up in the performance, and you’ve made a slip. Slips are almost always small things: a misplaced action, the wrong thing moved, a desired action undone. Moreover, they are relatively easy to discover by simple observation and monitoring. Form the wrong goal, and you’ve made a mistake. Mistakes can be major events, and they are difficult or even impossible to detect—after all, the action performed is appropriate for the goal.</p>
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<p>Because you know that the infor-mation is available in the environment, the information you internally code in memory need be precise enough only to sustain the quality of behavior you desire. This is one reason people can function well in their environment and still be unable to describe what they do.</p>
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<p>Many systems are vastly improved by the act of making visible what was invisible before.</p>
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<p>The principles that guide a quality, human-centered design are not relevant just to a more pleasurable life—they can save lives.</p>
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<p>All the folklore of design has been lost with the brash new engineers who can’t wait to add yet the latest electronic gimmickry to the telephone, whether needed or not.</p>
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<p>Design should make use of the natural properties of people and of the world: it should exploit natural relationships and natural constraints. As much as possible, it should operate without instructions or labels. Any necessary instruction or training should be needed only once; with each explanation the person should be able to say, “Of course,” or “Yes, I see.” A simple explanation will suffice if there is reason to the design, if everything has its place and its function, and if the outcomes of actions are visible. If the explanation leads the person to think or say, “How am I going to remember that?” the design has failed.</p>
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<p>As each new technology emerges, the companies forget the lessons of the past and let engineers build their fanciful creations, driven by marketing insistence on a proliferation of features. As a result, confusion and distractions increase.</p>
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<p>All this brings up an important lesson in design. Once a satisfactory product has been achieved, further change may be counterproductive, especially if the product is successful. You have to know when to stop.</p>
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<p>You have to be very careful with sound, however. It easily becomes cute rather than useful. It can annoy and distract as easily as it can aid.</p>
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<p>But designers of computer systems seem particularly oblivious to the needs of users, particularly susceptible to all the pitfalls of design. The professional design community is seldom called in to help with computer products. Instead, design is left in the hands of engineers and programmers, people who usually have no experience, and no expertise in designing for people.</p>
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<p>Declarative knowledge is easy to write down and to teach. Knowledge how—what psychologists call procedural knowledge—is</p>
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<p>mental models, the models people have of themselves, others, the environment, and the things with which they interact. People form mental models through experience, training, and instruction.</p>
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<p>We found that to make something easy to use, match the number of controls to the number of functions and organize the panels according to function. To make something look like it is easy, minimize the number of controls. How can these conflicting requirements be met simultaneously? Hide the controls not being used at the moment. By using a panel on which only the relevant controls are visible, you minimize the appearance of complexity. By having a separate control for each function, you minimize complexity of use. It is possible to eat your cake and have it, too.</p>
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<p>The example of shoelaces may seem trivial, but it isn’t; like many everyday activities, it is difficult for a large segment of the population and its difficulties can be overcome through the restructuring provided by a simple technology.</p>
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<p>Modern designers are subject to many forces that do not allow for the slow, careful crafting of an object over decades and generations.</p>
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<p>This short lesson on conceptual models points out that good design is also an act of communication between the designer and the user, except that all the communication has to come about by the appearance of the device itself. The device must explain itself.</p>
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<p>We have now encountered the fundamental principles of designing for people: (1) provide a good conceptual model and (2) make things visible.</p>
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<p>I call the use of natural signals natural design and elaborate on the approach throughout this book.</p>
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<p>Procedural knowledge is largely subconscious.</p>
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<p>Procedural knowledge is difficult or impossible to write down and difficult to teach. It is best taught by demonstration and best learned through practice.</p>
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<p>Everyday tasks are not difficult because of their inherent complexity. They are difficult only because they require learning arbitrary relationships and arbitrary mappings, and because they sometimes require precision in their execution. The difficulties can be avoided through design that makes obvious what operations are necessary. Good design exploits constraints so that the user feels as if there is only one possible thing to do—the right thing, of course. The designer has to understand and exploit natural constraints of all kinds.</p>
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<p>Rule of thumb: when instructions have to be pasted on something (push here, insert this way turn off before doing this), it is badly designed.</p>
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<p>The next time you can’t immediately figure out the shower control in a motel or work an unfamiliar television set or stove, remember that the problem is in the design. And the next time you pick up an unfamiliar object and use it smoothly and effortlessly on the first try, stop and examine it: the ease of use did not come about by accident. Someone designed the object carefully and well.</p>
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<p>And enjoy yourself. Walk around the world examining the details of design. Take pride in the little things that help; think kindly of the person who so thoughtfully put them in. Realize that even details matter, that the designer may have had to fight to include something helpful. Give mental prizes to those who practice good design: send flowers. Jeer those who don’t: send weeds.</p>
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<p><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Design-Everyday-Things-Donald-Norman/dp/0465067107/ref=sr_1_3?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1402961303&amp;sr=1-3&amp;keywords=the+design+of+everyday+things">The Design of Everyday Things by Don Norman</a></p>

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			<title>An Everlasting Meal: Cooking with Economy and Grace</title>
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<p>Those are the fundamentals: cook your meat until it’s done, not a minute longer. If your broth tastes too thin, let it go on cooking; if it’s too salty, water it down.</p>
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<p>If you have store-bought mayonnaise, spruce it up with chopped herbs, an extra drizzle of olive oil, and a squeeze of lemon, and serve it with good eggs.</p>
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<p>believe what I serve must look beautiful, but only according to my tastes and priorities.</p>
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<p>Almost all tail ends meet up neatly with the emblematic beginning: the egg.</p>
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<p>Minestrone is the perfect food. I advise eating it for as many meals as you can bear or that number plus one.</p>
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<p>Once parsley, or its fellow soft herbs—basil, chives, tarragon, dill, and cilantro—have been quickly chopped, throw a generous handful directly over your rice or potatoes or pasta, and watch the meal begin to prickle with feeling.</p>
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<p>cooking a mixture of finely chopped onion, carrot, and celery, called mirepoix, in olive oil, browning a small, garlicky fresh sausage per person, spooning beans and mirepoix into a baking dish big enough to fit them happily, and nestling the sausages among the beans. Add bean broth to come up just halfway and put it in a 300-degree oven.</p>
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<p>an egg is not an egg is not an egg.</p>
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<p>the only way to make anything you’re cooking taste good, whether it’s water or something more substantial, is to make sure all its parts taste good along the way.</p>
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<p>Meals’ ingredients must be allowed to topple into one another like dominos.</p>
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<p>I make risotto by chopping half an onion medium fine and cooking it in butter. I add a cup of rice, stir it a few times, add a quarter cup of white wine, let the alcohol burn off for a minute, then add hot chicken, beef, or fish stock by the ladleful, keeping the rice at a low bubble the whole time. If a dry spot in the risotto pan doesn’t get immediately refilled with starchy liquid when I push the rice away, I add more stock. I keep it going for about twenty-five minutes, then turn it off, add a big squeeze of lemon, a lot of grated Parmesan, and freshly cracked black pepper. You can certainly use more specific recipes, but none should be much more complicated than that.</p>
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<p>But an egg can turn anything into a meal and is never so pleased as when it is allowed to.</p>
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<p>Once greens are cooked as they should be, though: hot and lustily, with garlic, in a good amount of olive oil, they lose their moral urgency and become one of the most likable ingredients in your kitchen.</p>
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<p>Even if the wizardry of flour and water frightens you, as it does me, it is undeniable that once you have a crust, any filling becomes a meal.</p>
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<p>we don’t need to be professionals to cook well, any more than we need to be doctors to treat bruises and scrapes: we don’t need to shop like chefs or cook like chefs; we need to shop and cook like people learning to cook, like what we are—people who are hungry.</p>
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<p>Hot vegetables is a doctrine every bit as encumbering to good vegetable eating as pressure to leave them raw until right before dinner. Room temperature is thetemperature at which most vegetables taste best. When we eat antipasti at Italian restaurants, they are gloriously oiled and vinegared and perfectly tepid. So, often, are Spanish tapas.</p>
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<p>cooking can be advantageous, something that helps eating well make sense.</p>
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<p>If cheese is milk’s leap toward immortality, aioli is garlic and egg’s collective shot at the firmament.</p>
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<p>Herb butters stay good in the refrigerator for a month, or in the freezer for four.</p>
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<p>Cool and store your beans in their broth. The exchange of goodness between bean and broth will continue as long as the two are left together, and the broth helps the beans stay tender through chilling, freezing, and warming up again.</p>
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<p>A good egg, cooked deliberately, gives us a glimpse of the greater forces at play.</p>
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<p>Beets love to be roasted, are better cold than hot, and wait, without losing their pluck, to be turned into different dishes all week long.</p>
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<p>But cooking is best approached from wherever you find yourself when you are hungry, and should extend long past the end of the page.</p>
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<p>Only remember what is plainly and always true: the act of serving fulfills itself. It doesn’t matter what you serve.</p>
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<p>The amount of food you have left from a meal is always the perfect amount for something.</p>
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<p>Only by tasting can you learn to connect the decisions you make with their outcomes.</p>
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<p>The way to keep bean soaking from getting in the way of your cooking beans is to detach the process from today’s hunger and expectations and pour dried beans into a pot and cover them with cold water whenever you think of it. Their needing to stay where they are until being cooked tomorrow won’t be a problem, and you’ll have soaked your beans.</p>
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<p>You’re more likely to look seriously, and eagerly, at a small amount of something that’s well fit into its container than something deserted in the last, sad corner of a big bowl out of which everything else has been scraped.</p>
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<p>Good meat only seems so expensive because we eat meat like children taking bites out of the middles of sandwiches and throwing the rest away.</p>
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<p>It would be better, he said, if we left lunch with the tastes of the next meal already in our mouths.</p>
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<p>Each week I buy whole bunches of the leafiest, stemmiest vegetables I can find. Then I scrub off their dirt, trim off their leaves, cut off their stems, peel what needs peeling, and cook them all at once.</p>
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<p>When we leave our tails trailing behind us we lose what is left of the thought we put into eating well today. Then we slither along, straight, linear things that we can be, wondering what we will make for dinner tomorrow. So we must spot our tails when we can, and gather them up, so that when we get hungry next, and our minds turn to the question of what to eat, the answer will be there waiting.</p>
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<p>Mediterranean food especially likes basil and mint. South American and Asian food like both of those plus cilantro. Gallic food loves licoricey tarragon and sweet chives. Everything likes parsley as much as everything needs it, which is the reason it is the herb I keep most regularly on hand.</p>
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<p>If you are to start down this path, you must feel charged with using your senses, imagining them as hands that nudge you forward and hold you up when you get unsteady, and even when you fall.</p>
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<p>I usually save eggs for when I’m awake enough to put thought into them, but if you like yours with your coffee, boil or poach, or gently fry or nudge and save omelets for later in the day.</p>
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<p>Whether things were ever simpler than they are now, or better if they were, we can’t know. We do know that people have always found ways to eat and live well, whether on boiling water or bread or beans, and that some of our best eating hasn’t been our most foreign or expensive or elaborate, but quite plain and quite familiar. And knowing that is probably the best way to cook, and certainly the best way to live.</p>
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<p>This is not a cookbook or a memoir or a story about one person or one thing. It is a book about eating affordably, responsibly, and well, and because doing so relies on cooking, it is mostly about that.</p>
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<p>As long as you taste curiously, and watch and feel and listen, and prick your way toward food you like, you will find that you become someone about whom people will say that cooking seems to come naturally, like walking. They will say it and it will be true.</p>
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<p>To make the most of your work, consider, at least once, dipping your toes into the pleasures of room-temperature food.</p>
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<p>As a rule, I try not to shock anything. I also don’t think keeping a vegetable from looking cooked when it is cooked is worth the fuss.</p>
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<p>No matter how well a cookbook is written, the cooking times it gives will be wrong. Ingredients don’t take three or five or ten minutes to be done; it depends on the day and the stove. So you must simply pay attention, trust yourself, and decide.</p>
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<p>a cooked bean is so tender that the mere flutter of your breath should disturb its skin right off.</p>
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<p>Fry eggs for pasta as I learned to in Spain. Cook them slowly in a half inch of just warm olive oil, constantly spooning the oil over the top of the eggs, to lightly poach each part of them in oil.</p>
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<p>Though it’s easy to forget, leaves and stalks are parts of a vegetable, not obstacles to it. The same is true for the fat and bones of animals, but I’m happy to leave that for now. You can cook them all.</p>
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<p>If you want to have your poached egg on toast, and at a meal other than breakfast, cut your bread especially thick, toast it, rub it with raw garlic, then top it with an egg, salt it, drizzle it with oil, and grate it with cheese and freshly cracked black pepper.</p>
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<p>Boiling has a bad name and steaming a good one, but I categorically prefer boiling.</p>
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<p>They are not all universally loved, but few powerful things are. The key to making them as useful as they can be is knowing how to exercise their power well.</p>
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<p>An omelet is an egg’s comeuppance. There shouldn’t be anything plain or predictable about omelet fillings. The person who understands this best is a beautiful bulldog named Gabrielle Hamilton, chef of the restaurant Prune, in New York City’s East Village, who cooks omelets like she’s there on the eggs’ behalf, to make sure their comeuppance is paid on time and in full.</p>
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<p>If you can’t get to it immediately, though, put everything but the greens in a big bowl on your kitchen table instead of refrigerating it. In plain sight, your vegetables will chide you to cook them, and it feels pleasantly frivolous to spend a few moments fussing cauliflower, beets, and squash into a tableau.</p>
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<p>A good tartar sauce should be piquant and powerful. It is much better made at home—where you can guarantee its potency—than purchased.</p>
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<p>Tuscans believe that frugality is next to godliness and give the humblest ingredients their finest treatment. Tuscan cooks are extravagant with good olive oil, pressed from dark trees, and with vegetable scraps and Parmesan rinds, which, along with salt and more of that fine oil, make transcendent pots of beans.</p>
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<p>A deeply comforting supper for one or two is beans and egg. Warm cooked beans in a little pan. Add sautéed kale, or roasted squash, or a little bit of roasted tomato, or add nothing at all. Crack an egg or two onto the beans, cover the pan, and cook. If you have stale bread, put a toasted piece, rubbed with garlic, in each bowl. Spoon the beans and egg over the toast, salt each egg, grind it with fresh black pepper, drizzle the beans and egg copiously with olive oil, grate them thickly with Parmesan, and dine like a Roman plebeian, or a Tuscan pauper, prince, or pope.</p>
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<p>Mayonnaise is a food best made at home and almost never made at home. This has robbed us of something that is both healthy and an absolute joy to eat with gusto.</p>
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<p>This salad is a good defense to pitch against the armies of salad stores that surround workplaces like attacking ants, all effective at supplying office workers with bad, expensive salads.</p>
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<p>If our meal will be ongoing, then our only task is to begin.</p>
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<p>Avoid olives that come already seasoned with herbs and garlic. The olives may be good, but the herbs or garlic may not, and they will ruin things.</p>
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<p>Heat is a vital broker between separate things: warm ingredients added to warm ingredients are already in a process of transforming.</p>
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<p><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Everlasting-Meal-Cooking-Economy-Grace/dp/1439181888/ref=sr_1_1_title_1_pap?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1402956152&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=an+everlasting+meal">An Everlasting Meal: Cooking with Economy and Grace by Tamar Adler</a></p>

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			<title>CSS Frameworks</title>
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			<updated>2013-06-06T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Last week while at CSS Conf, there were two frameworks announced and discussed during two of the talks. The first was <a href="http://topcoat.io">Topcoat</a>, which is spearheaded by the folks at Adobe and the second is <a href="http://purecss.io">Pure</a>, developed by Yahoo. Both these frameworks are doing different things, but I have to say, I started to ask my self how many CSS frameworks do we need? Why are new ones coming out all the time?</p>
<p>The reason I ask this is because I believe pattern libraries are much more helpful than frameworks. Instead of loading an entire framework and then adding in your styles or modifications on top of that, why not just pick and choose the patterns you want to use, saving yourself some KB of CSS? This is the way I have begun to work in the past 7 months. At my work we share patterns and when you start a project you add in the patterns you need as you build out the style guide (or you could call that a pattern library). This way, the CSS you are loading for the site is exactly what you need. I realize that some of these libararies are now claiming to be small, Pure is one of those, but if the code isn't needed, why bother loading it at all?</p>
<p>I want to say that I think the work being done in CSS lately is amazing. I saw a lot of it at CSS Conf, but I also think that we need to be careful. Convenience comes at a cost and is that a cost that we are willing to pay or not?</p>

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			<title>CSS Conf</title>
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			<updated>2013-06-03T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Just over a week ago G and I made the trek from Portland down to Amelia Island, FL. We went for a few days of sun on the beach, but also because I attended the inaugural <a href="http://cssconf.com">CSS Conf</a>. The beach and sun were amazing and we thoroughly enjoyed the resort as well. But the conference was just as amazing. It was so great to finally have CSS be front and center for a day and to hear such a wide variety of talks that all revolved around what I think is a fun and amazing thing, CSS.</p>
<p>I won't go into the details of all the talks because they recorded them and videos should be coming out in due time, but I will say that what I enjoyed the most was the fact that it was a day devoted to CSS. I saw amazing code, was pushed to think differently about my own work flow and the work flow of where I currently work, and I got to hang out with friends and make new friends - all of us CSS nerds. Lately I've been having a hard time with feeling that CSS isn't valued enough in the world of Front End Development. I am constantly reading about JavaScript and seeing job postings that, to my point of view, are actually looking for JavaScript people who happen to be able to do markup and CSS as well. It pains me because if CSS is done wrong, the implications can be fairly huge for a site; making performance suffer and also making the CSS bloat to unimaginable size.</p>
<p>That's why when the CSS Conf was announced I knew I had to be there and I snagged an early bird ticket. It was great to have a day dedicated to the part of Front End Development that I truly love and value. My mind was filled up with wonderful ideas and I am so thankful to the organizers. Also, what's even more exciting, they decided to add a CSS Conf on to JS Conf EU. I recommend trying to get to the one in Berlin this fall, and hopefully, the organizers of the one last week will continue to make it a part of JS Conf here in the States as well.</p>
<p>Thank you organizers and speakers, I am excited about work again and it is in large part to thinking about all the things I heard last week.</p>

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			<title>Progress</title>
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			<updated>2013-05-06T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Well, it's happening, I am making progress on a goal that I have had for several years. I am really learning JavaScript. I have written about this in the past on this site, how much I want to learn or how I've bought a new book to help me learn, or how I just don't like the language. Well, all that is changing and it is due to one thing. I have a mentor. Yup, a real, live person. Granted, he lives in another state and we've only met in person a few times, but with the wonders of the internets we chat each week via a Google Hangout, share code via <a href="https://c9.io">c9.io</a> and in between I am reading about topics that are relevant to what we are talking about the next week or brushing up on the previous week's topic.</p>
<p>So, how has this been helping me? It's been amazing. I realize now how I truly learn and for me that means some face time, talking with someone and being tutored. I feel really lucky that a colleague is taking the time from his busy schedule to do this for an hour each week with me, well, he probably spends more time as I know he does prep work as well. I also realize that talking about code, working out the concepts in English is extremely helpful for me. So, for example, I read a great article on hoisting the day before our last hangout and the next day when we talked, the concept sunk in even more for me. Being forced to reiterate what I read is making it sink in. Also, getting pop quizes on bits of code and being asked to explain what is happening in the code has done wonders for me. I love the tenor of our sessions, they are fun, we laugh a lot, and most of all I have someone cheering me on when I get it right and helping me out when I am completely unsure. A side effect has been that it has done amazing things for my confidence with JavaScript, which I think has been one of my big blockers, I just didn't feel confident in myself.</p>
<p>In addition to all this, we are building a little app that I have wanted to do for quite some time and using the code of that to help me understand how to do Object Oriented Programming with JavaScript. I am learning about crazy things like call and apply, Object.create and scope and hoisting. And you know what? I am actually starting to like JavaScript. Now that I get what is going on, I think it's pretty cool. I can't wait to finish the first phase of my app, something that I will use weekly, and then keep adding on to it as I learn more. It's great to have a project that I want to do to be a motivating factor.</p>
<p>Recently I've gotten some questions from people about my journey with JavaScript, which has suprised me, but I've been fairly vocal on the twitters about how I'm working on this skill, so I guess maybe I shouldn't be surprised. The mentoring is for sure what is pushing me over the edge, but I also have to say that I love <a href="https://twitter.com/codylindley">Cody Lindley's</a> book <a href="http://www.javascriptenlightenment.com">JavaScript Enlightenment</a>. It a great book with lots of example JSFiddles to allow you to play with the code. Plus, it is short and not overly verbose, so easy to read. In addition to this, the site <a href="http://javascriptissexy.com">javascriptissexy.com</a> has a lot of great posts on the basics and a plan to help you learn, which may be helpful (please don't judege the site by its name, it is really great). I still have a long way to go, but I am grateful for the help I am getting, because for the first time in a long time I truly feel like I will accomplish something with this language.</p>

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			<title>More on Style Guides</title>
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			<updated>2013-03-28T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Last week I journeyed back to the frozen tundra that Minnesota can be at this time of year (and yes, it delivered on the cold) to do a Primer at my work headquarters on Style Guides. This all came about because of the <a href="http://susanjeanrobertson.com/code/style-guides/">blog post</a> I did in early February on the same topic. That post found its way to the right people at the office and next thing I knew I was being asked to speak about them. I have to say that I said yes, but it made me quite nervous even thinking about it.</p>
<p>I've never spoken on the topic of code and in reality I've never really done a lot of speaking at all. I typically don't do well in front of people, but because the Primer was a webinar, there was only going to be one person in the room with me, which calmed my nerves a bit. In the past when I've done any type of speaking it has been because I was required to for a high school or college course. I always dreaded it, my voice always got the nervous waver in it while I was speaking, and I couldn't wait to be done so I spoke way too fast.</p>
<p>Last week, all my ideas of speaking changed. I had done quite a bit of preparation for the talk and the marketing folks cleaned up and made the slides look good, which was incredibly helpful. All I had to worry about was the content. We also did a dry run with internal people, which was helpful for me, it meant I got to practice it in front of some people without the worry of having to be perfect. When it came time to do the first one live (we repeated it two days later), I was ready and relaxed and enjoyed myself a lot. It helped quite a bit to have such a fantastic partner in it all.</p>
<p>What I found out is that I love talking about the web and talking about the bits and pieces of it that I work on. That makes a huge difference to how I feel speaking about it. I had a ball, I loved being challenged by the audience questions, I enjoyed joking with my partner in crime, and I really loved talking about a topic that is becoming a passion for me.</p>
<p>So, if you missed it and want to learn more about what I think about style guides, the second version did get <a href="http://vimeo.com/62359925">recorded and you can watch it</a>. I know I have things to learn about speaking, but I also know that I am ready to do it again (maybe even with an in person audience) and will be slowly putting out feelers for places that are appropriate for me to share my knowledge.</p>

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			<title>Thirties</title>
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			<updated>2013-03-05T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Today I enter the final year of my thirties. I am optimistic about this last year of this decade of my life as my thirties have been incredibly good to me. In many ways they allowed me to focus, figure out what was important and not be afraid to implement changes to make the important stuff rise to the top. In my thirties I married G, I started out on a completely new career path, I moved to a new city and together we made a new home, and I learned to slow down and enjoy it all a lot more.</p>
<p>Finally at this age I am comfortable with the fact that I am an introvert, that I enjoy an evening at home with G and Sally more often than I want to go out. I guard my time. I realize that striving for as much freedom to choose in life is important.  That means not just having the ability to say no, but also, the ability to choose what is best based on more than just financial pressures. This is translating to simplfying life. We have been on a massive clean out of our house, going through and getting rid of things we don't really need or want anymore. As the process has evolved over the past months I feel so much better in our home, I feel less clutter in my head as the clutter and stuff leaves the house. In addition, we are translating that simplicity into the rest of our lives.</p>
<p>So the goals are to spend money on experiences and not things, to strive for financial freedom so that working can be on my terms and not someone else's (this one will take a while), and all of this is made possible by the simple life. So as I wind down my thirties I am grateful. Grateful for the clarity and for the focus. Grateful for good friends who don't think I'm crazy when I talk about these things. Grateful for a husband who agrees and makes me laugh every day and puts up with my silliness.</p>

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			<title>Learning</title>
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			<updated>2013-02-05T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Lately I have been thinking a lot about learning. A lot of that is because I'm currently trying to expand my skill set into programming, so I'm around other people who are learning as I go to user groups and at work, training and developing as a developer has been a hot topic on the internal forum.</p>
<p>In the midst of mulling this over I watched an episode of The West Wing from season five. G and I are currently working our way through the series for a second time, and in this particular episode some right wing congress people are going after National Institutes of Health funded research projects, one of which happens to employ Ellie Bartlet as a research fellow. If you watch the show, then you probably know what I am talking about, but even if you haven't seen the show, you'll get where I'm going with this, don't worry. At least twice in the episode a character points out that doing scientific research is for the research's sake because you won't always know where it is going to lead. For example, Einstien didn't know where he was going, nor did Fleming when he invented penicillin, nor did Darwin when he came up with the theory of evolution. In many of these situations it was the coming together of disparate pieces of information that led to the discovery, as Steven Johnson points out in <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Where-Good-Ideas-Come-From/dp/1594485380/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1359678404&amp;sr=8-1&amp;keywords=steven+johnson"><em>Where Good Ideas Come From</em></a> (one of my favorite books).</p>
<p>By now you are asking, what does this have to do with learning to program or learning in general? Well, this week what came to me is that many times I am reading things about new CSS techniques or how to do something in JavaScript and I realize that I have no idea if I'll use that in a project any time soon. But I still read it. It still goes into my head and I want to learn it for the sake of learning it because in the end I have no idea what I will need to put together to make the next project great. Neither will I be able to forecast what is coming down the pipe at work, so knowing the new things, learning, lets me get ready (hopefully). I have always been a believer in learning for learnings sake, one need only look at my educational background to realize that, but I just now realized that it's just as important for programming as well. Just as in anything else, it is the disparate ideas coming together that can make something really great.</p>

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			<title>Help, Thanks, Wow: The Three Essential Prayers</title>
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			<updated>2013-02-01T00:00:00Z</updated>
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<p>when we cry out Help, or whisper it into our chests, we enter the paradox of not going limp and not feeling so hopeless that we can barely walk, and we release ourselves from the absolute craziness of trying to be our own—or other people’s—higher powers.</p>
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<p>Without revelation and reframing, life can seem like an endless desert of danger with scratchy sand in your shoes, and yet if we remember or are reminded to pay attention, we find so many sources of hidden water, so many bits and chips and washes of color, in a weed or the gravel or a sunrise. There are so many ways to sweep the sand off our feet. So we say, “Oh my God. Thanks.”</p>
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<p>Most good, honest prayers remind me that I am not in charge, that I cannot fix anything, and that I open myself to being helped by something, some force, some friends, some something.</p>
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<p>So as Samuel Beckett admonished us to fail again, and fail better, we try to pray again, and pray better, for slightly longer and with slightly more honesty, breathing more, deeper, and with more attention.</p>
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<p>Art makes it hard to ignore truth, that Life explodes and blooms, consumes, rots and radiates and slithers; that eternity really is in a blade of grass.</p>
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<p>It is easy to thank God for life when things are going well. But life is much bigger than we give it credit for, and much of the time it’s harder than we would like.</p>
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<p>Awe is why we are here. And this state is the prayer: “Wow.”</p>
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<p>And imagination is from God. It is part of the way we understand the world. I think it’s okay to imagine God and grace the best you can. Some of the stuff we imagine engages and connects and calls for the very best in us to come out.</p>
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<p>This is a hard planet, and we’re a vulnerable species. And all I can do is pray: Help.</p>
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<p>As a tiny little control freak, I want to understand the power of Wow, so I can organize and control it, and up its rate and frequency. But I can’t. I can only feel it, and acknowledge that it is here once again. Wow.</p>
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<p>The movement of grace toward gratitude brings us from the package of self-obsessed madness to a spiritual awakening. Gratitude is peace. Maybe you won’t always get from being a brat to noticing that it is an e. e. cummings morning out the window. But some days you will.</p>
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<p>A sober friend from Texas said once that the three things I cannot change are the past, the truth, and you. I hate this insight so much.</p>
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<p>My personal belief is that God looks through Her Rolodex when She has a certain kind of desperate person in Her care, and assigns that person to some screwed-up soul like you or me, and makes it hard for us to ignore that person’s suffering, so we show up even when it is extremely inconvenient or just awful to be there.</p>
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<p>Quiet, deep breath after any prayer is another form of Amen.</p>
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<p>You say “Thank you” that in the revelation, whether it’s ordinary or difficult, this person you love has found a way to the balm of gratitude. What a relief.</p>
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<p>Some etymologists think “wow” is a contraction of “I vow,” the short form of “Holy Glasgow. I’vow!” This theory sounds right to me.</p>
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<p>When we are stunned to the place beyond words, when an aspect of life takes us away from being able to chip away at something until it’s down to a manageable size and then to file it nicely away, when all we can say in response is “Wow,” that’s a prayer.</p>
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<p>“Wow” is about having one’s mind blown by the mesmerizing or the miraculous: the veins in a leaf, birdsong, volcanoes.</p>
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<p>Matisse actually said the most useful thing I’ve ever heard about praying: “I don’t know whether I believe in God or not. I think, really, I’m some sort of Buddhist. But the essential thing is to put oneself in a frame of mind which is close to that of prayer.”</p>
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<p>So I pray constantly between bouts of trying to live life on life’s terms. Help. Thanks. Wow. I end most prayers with Amen, before my inevitable reentry into regular old so-called real life, because for thousands of years believers and prophets have said to.</p>
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<p>The Amen is only as good as the attitude.</p>
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<p>Help. Help us walk through this. Help us come through. It is the first great prayer.</p>
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<p>“Wow” means we are not dulled to wonder. We click into being fully present when we’re stunned into that gasp,</p>
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<p><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Help-First-Essential-Prayer-Thanks-ebook/dp/B008EKMBDM/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1402956505&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=help%2C+thanks%2C+wow">Help, Thanks, Wow: The Three Essential Prayers by Anne Lamott</a></p>

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			<title>Style guides</title>
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			<updated>2013-01-30T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>When I started my job about 2 months ago I went through their standard Front End Developer training and in it we talked a whole bunch about modular CSS and reusable patterns, it was super awesome. But in the course of it we also talked about style guides. At the beginning of each project, they've been trying to get started on a style guide first, just building out resusable patterns so that it is all in one place when it comes time to do builds of pages, etc.</p>
<p>So on my first project I started doing this as well. And now, with a few projects under my belt I can safely say that it is the only way I would start a project in the future. It is amazing how much easier it makes life once you've abstracted out all the patterns and modules from a design. Then you do the grid or layout styles and when you actually build out pages they fall right into place. The reason I think so many people don't do this is because it takes time up front. For at least a day, or longer if it is a large project, you are just building out one page of code filled with components. For project managers or bosses, they don't see a lot of progress towards the finished project. But the beauty in this process is that you find all the gotchas in the designs and code before you already have 50% of the project built out. This is extrememly helpful and it gives the developer a lot of time to ask the pertinent questions of the designers to make sure that all the things in the comps are truly what was intended. In addition it allows for some baselines to be set, allowing for fewer classes instead of realizing part way through a build that you now have 10 different classes for copy font sizes. Getting all this discussed early on makes the rest of the process extremely smooth. Because to be honest, designers don't always do things exactly the same in every layer comp and a lot of times it is oversight on their part, not intentional. Best to figure that out early and save a lot of time and code up front.</p>
<p>I'm sure most of you have seen examples of public style guides that are out there, if you haven't <a href="http://maban.co.uk/66">Anna Debenham has a great collection going</a>, but what you build doesn't have to look really good, it just has to be enough for the team to know what is happening in the code. I can't imagine starting any project, no matter how big or small, any other way. Plus, I now just think they are fun. I enjoy creating the legos that will go together to make the site or app really shine.</p>

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			<title>On Creativity</title>
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			<updated>2013-01-18T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Quite a while ago I put a video that my friend <a href="http://twitter.com/rainypixels">Nishant</a> recommended on his blog into my Pocket queue. It's a lecture given by John Cleese and it is wonderful, I highly recommend taking the time to watch it, it is worth the 30 minutes or so. And I think what he is talking about, creativity, is applicable to so many different areas of work, not just what we typically think of as creative such as artists, actors, writers, etc.</p>
<p>A few quotes that really grabbed me:</p>
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<p>Creativity is not a talent, is a way of operating.</p>
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<p>Give your mind as long as possible to come up with something original.</p>
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<p>The essence of playfulness is an openness to whatever happens.</p>
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<p>[Update: this video was taken down so I've removed the link, sorry!]</p>

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			<title>Contributing</title>
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			<updated>2013-01-16T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>For a while now I've wanted to contribute to something open source, but I really didn't know where to begin or what would be a good fit for me. So I joined Github and just kind of hung around, watching some projects that interested me, but other than that not doing too much. Well all of that changed last week.</p>
<p>First, since I've been working on learning Python I have joined the local Pyladies group here in Portland. I've gone to several meetups this month and through that group I'm now helping out with one project and in talking with and becoming friends with some of the other ladies, I think other projects may come from this as well. Right now I'm contributing my front end skills to fix bugs and just help things look better, but hopefully in the future I'll also be able to contribute something in Python as well.</p>
<p>The second project is a site based on trying to help developers get better at Accessibility, <a href="http://a11yproject.com">a11yproject.com</a>. This site was put together in a weekend, spearheaded by <a href="http://twitter.com/davatron5000">Dave Rupert</a>. I wasn't able to do much towards the development of the site, but I've been trying to put write up some quick tips to add to the site's content. So far that is working for me and since I'm currently reading Joshue O Connor's book, <a href="">Pro HTML5 Accessibility</a> it is a perfect time since I am somewhat immersed in the topic. Now I need to clean up this site to reflect all the cool accessibility stuff I've been learning.</p>
<p>It feels good to be contributing to a community that has done so much to help me learn and grow in my field. I am really excited to see how I can give back in the future and how I may be able to start something open source of my own.</p>

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			<title>Learning Programming</title>
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			<updated>2013-01-14T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>As many folks who know me or follow me on Twitter or what I write here know, JavaScript and I have long had a combative relationship. I've sought advice from so many different people on the subject that many folks are probably sick of me talking to them about it. I've also tried many different tutorials and books and other things. But this week something changed. It started to click and I started being able to figure things out and for work I even wrote a few little things on my own.</p>
<p>So what changed for me? How did I start to get it working and how did my brain finally start to absorb the way the code works? I now firmly believe it is because I did A <a href="http://mechanicalmooc.wordpress.com">Gentle Introduction to Python</a>. Instead of trying to figure out JavaScript I took a course that was really about programming and thinking like a programmer. Granted the course is about learning Python, which I've since discovered many different Intro to Computer Science courses use, but for me it didn't mattter the language I was learning, it mattered that I was learning the broader concepts of programming. In addition to this one part of the course was watching lectures from MIT through iTunes U. The lectures were really key for me to get this stuff, watching a professor walk and talk and use the board to explain the concepts that I then went on to work through in both written and coding exercises was a huge part of my leap forward.</p>
<p>So this week when confronted with a JavaScript issue in a work project, I pulled out a pen and paper and wrote out in plain English what it was that I wanted to do. I learned to do this from the course. I then proceeded to write the bits and pieces of jQuery (yes, we were already using it, so I used it here, but my goal is to get away from it when possible). I wrote the code and it worked! Since I work from home and am all alone, I woke up the dog to tell her and then proclaimed my success in the project chat room. It felt great because for the first time things were working and I was able to figure it out.</p>
<p>This all came back to me yesterday when I read <a href="http://twitter.com/crowchick">Rachel Nabors</a> post, <a href="http://www.rachelnabors.com/2013/01/javascript-study-for-designers/">JavaScript Study for Designers</a> and she recommends using the <a href="http://pine.fm/LearnToProgram/"><em>Learn to Program</em></a> book as a way to get into JavaScript and really learn it. For me that is the heart of the issue. Once you've learned programming concepts and how to think like a programmer, the use of JavaScript will become easier and I'm seeing that myself. Rachel really puts down the classic books that many people recommend, especially <a href="http://www.amazon.com/JavaScript-Good-Parts-Douglas-Crockford/dp/0596517742/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1358107008&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=javascript+the+good+parts"><em>JavaScript: The Good Parts</em></a> as being for programmers and difficult for designers. But I found this week, when I picked up that book again, I was understanding it a whole lot more than when I first read it over a year ago. I owe that all to the course I took this fall.</p>
<p>So now I'm still working through JavaScript to get better at it and I'm becoming more involved with a local Python group to get better at Python because I think both will help me be a better developer overall.</p>

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			<title>Disconnect</title>
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			<updated>2013-01-08T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Now that I've been working from home for a bit over a month at a full-time job, I've gotten into a new habit each work day that has become one of my favorite times of day. Each day after I finish work, I log off, close the computer, get Sally and we go for a walk. When I used to commute by bus, the bus ride was my in between time and now the walk with Sally has become my in between time. I break from work and get my thoughts into what is next or I just space out if that is the way I feel that day. But there is one thing I do with this time that makes it so key. I don't take my phone. I take no devices with me. It is me, the dog and a key to the house. That's it. I used to take my phone and take pictures, but then one day I decided not to and I discovered the joys of 20-30 minutes of complete disconnection. It is wonderful.</p>
<p>Now I want to say that I don't dislike technology, obviously I am far from that with what I do for a living, but I do love to get away from it. I also realize that I have choices and I do not have to answer the phone, check my email and twitter; I can just leave the devices alone, but that is harder for me to do. When I leave the house without the device, it happens much more naturally. I also don't listen to music on these walks. It is just me and the sounds of the neighborhood. Perhaps kids are playing or dogs barking, bycicles wiz by us on the bike route and cars park as people get home from work. There is the distant sound of the higher speed traffic, but it is a slight drone. For the most part our walks are quiet and calm, given that the weather isn't insane. It is this quiet disconnection that I love so much.</p>
<p>In fact, I've extended it to when I go to my yoga classes at my neighborhood studio, I don't take my phone then either. It is close to 2 hours of quiet and in many ways I feel that's what yoga is all about, taking time to focus on the moment and be with myself. I've simply extended it for my 10 minute walk to the studio and back to give myself even more space.</p>
<p>All of this has made me think of when I was a little girl and we only had a phone and no answering machine or call waiting. Life went on in those days and the news still got to people who needed to hear something, maybe it was slower, maybe it was delayed, but being unreachable didn't ruin life. I think in many ways, I am trying to recreate a bit of that for myself. Take away the need to keep up, to gobble up information as fast as possible, knowing that if something really crucial happens it will make its way to me. And I admit that I worry when a <a href="http://thenextweb.com/shareables/2012/12/31/mom-presents-18-point-contract-with-rules-of-use-to-teenage-son-would-you-be-tempted/">mother gives her son rules for his iPhone usage</a> and it becomes an internet sensation. Many of the rules are common sense, which we all should follow. Do people really not know how to use technology to their advantage and not be rude anymore? I think that's why I walk away from the devices and technology for at least a portion of my day, every day.</p>

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			<title>New Job</title>
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			<updated>2012-12-27T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>It has been one month since I started my current job. Many folks have been curious as to why after freelancing for such a short period of time I decided to go back to a full time position. I have to say, it was not at all my plans, but there were several factors that led me to this position.</p>
<p>I realized several things about myself in the last year or so and the most important one is that I am a CSS freak. I love CSS, figuring out how to make it more compact, more reusable, more better to be honest. It is what I read about the most in my free time and I've spent a lot of my own money on workshops and books on the subject. But as a freelancer, what is in demand, is a much more generalized set of skills. And as I continued to market myself, what I was really finding was that people wanted a JavaScript guru, the markup and CSS are side lines that are easy and everyone should just know how to do. But I definitely think CSS is harder to do well than most people think it is. I've been in the situation where the CSS was not well thought out and you walk into a 13,000 line stylesheet - that's ridiculous, but it takes a lot of forethought before you even write your first line of code to avoid it.</p>
<p>So if CSS was what I really wanted to do, selling myself and my skills became very difficult. I had ideas and had several friends help me out with ideas, but it just wasn't going very well for me and I was a bit frustrated.</p>
<p>Then along came an email from my current company and when I read their job description, I knew I had to apply. It was the first time where knowing OOCSS concepts was listed as a desired qualification, as well as experience with responsive techniques. Wait a second, you mean CSS was important to them? As I went through the interview process and talked more with the various folks, I realized that CSS was important and my knowledge of it would be pushed and pulled if they offered a job and I decided to work with them.</p>
<p>After 1 month I can honestly say that so far, I have not been disappointed. I have my first project done and I have learned a ton more about interesting patterns and objects they are using in their projects. I have started working on a project that has been going on for several months and I haven't had to write a lot of CSS because it was written so well to begin with and the patterns and objects are already set up so well as to be extremely reusable. This is why I took the job - to be in an environment that cares this much about CSS and it is why I am so excited to continue working there on various projects. I am actually building things on a regular basis and each new project is a chance to learn and hopefully to learn a better way to do things than I did last time.</p>

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			<title>Mindfire</title>
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			<updated>2012-11-24T00:00:00Z</updated>
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<p>to be an Artist requires a specific intent. An intent that nearly everyone with a full time job does not have while doing that job. You might be an artist in your spare time, but that’s something else entirely.</p>
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<p>The kind of mistakes you make define you. The more interesting the mistakes, the more interesting the life.</p>
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<p>Good criticism serves one purpose: to give the creator of the work more perspective to help them make their next set of choices. Bad criticism uses someone else’s work to make the critic feel smart, superior or better about themselves:</p>
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<p>Good leaders involve everyone in leadership,</p>
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<p>Each of us responds to environmental conditions differently. Half the challenge is experimenting to find out which ones work best; the other half is honoring them despite how inconvenient or unexpected they might be.</p>
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<p>It might be that the dedicated policeman, the passionate history teacher, the devoted great mom/dad, the wonderful uncle, are the people who are truly great, because they add value to the world for its own reason.</p>
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<p>time is the singular measure of life. It’s one of the few things you cannot get more of. Knowing how to spend it well is the most important skill you can have.</p>
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<p>They want to be great only through being useful to those they care about most, regardless of how little acclaim they get from the whole wide world for it.</p>
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<p>Take a moment to list your beliefs. If you’re careful, you’ll discover wants lurking inside. It’s good to want things and fight for them, but misplaced belief is not the way to wisdom.</p>
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<p>Now I’m not saying that finding fault isn’t useful. On the contrary, it’s very important. It’s just that of equal importance in understanding the value of a design, algorithm, script, or film is to know what isn’t broken, or god forbid, what’s actually been done brilliantly. What you want to do when you offer criticism is to live up to the second definition listed above: careful evaluation and judgment.</p>
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<p>The phrase “I don’t have time for” should never be said. We all get the same amount of time every day. If you can’t do something, it’s not about the quantity of time. It’s really about how important the task is to you.</p>
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<p>If you find yourself frustrated by the limits of your role, don’t take the passive-aggressive route (e.g., turning meetings into battlefields). Instead, be a leader and find a mature way to handle the situation.</p>
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<p>ideas are lazy. They don’t do anything on their own. If you aren’t willing to do the ordinary work to make the idea real, the problem isn’t about creativity at all.</p>
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<p>They might seem to idle, or relax more often than the rest, but that just might be a sign of their mastery, not their incompetence.</p>
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<p>People who are good to one another and good to themselves are very hard to find, regardless of what scripture they recite or the symbol that hangs from their neck. Above all, I have faith in judging people by their behavior, rather than what they claim to believe, as it’s surprising how far apart they often are.</p>
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<p>if you want to be a creator instead of a consumer, you must view existing ideas as fuel for your mind. You must stop seeing them as objects or functional things—they are combinations of ingredients waiting to be reused.</p>
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<p>There is so much shared between religions, but this rarely fits the dogmatic story you hear from within any particular religion.</p>
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<p>We are information insecure. The compulsion for more is driven by lack of confidence in what we already have. Out of a secret kind of fear we are convinced that the next e-mail or link is better than the one we’re reading now. The result is a private rat race: what does it mean to stay on top of information that doesn’t satisfy?</p>
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<p>Your desires will change as you age, and to assume you can do one thing your whole life and be satisfied is foolish. Developing self-knowledge will help you make the next choice, and the next, leading to a passionate life.</p>
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<p>we’re never told that success often demands indifference to the wonders of the real, or the magic of the ridiculous.</p>
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<p>an idea is a combination of other ideas.</p>
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<p>But the fact that faith is useful doesn’t, on its own, mean the thing you have faith in is real.</p>
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<p>Perhaps true greatness, or a truly great person, is someone who does the right things for the right reasons without expecting grand rewards.</p>
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<p>Within any culture, team, family, or country, where you find more authentic listening and reading, people will be happier, more connected and more successful at achieving things that matter.</p>
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<p>I think to call someone an Artist means that they have a sense of higher purpose beyond commerce. Not that they don’t profit from their work, or promote themselves, but that the work itself has spiritual, philosophical, emotional or experiential attributes as central goals. An Artist’s work is about an idea, a feeling, or an exploration of a form, framed more by their own intuitions, than the checklists and protocols of bureaucracies and corporations.</p>
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<p>People who truly have control over time always have some in their pocket to give to someone in need. A sense of priorities drives their use of time and it can shift away from the ordinary work that’s easy to justify, in favor of the more ethereal, deeper things that are harder to justify. They protect their time from trivia and idiocy; these people are time rich.</p>
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<p>The danger of misguided attention is this: how we spend our attention changes the value of what we spend it on.</p>
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<p>There are many things in life that generate fear, but how many of them, after the thing we feared has passed, were worthy of that fear?</p>
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<p>an intimate experience can only grow to the depth and quality of the time given to it.</p>
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<p>No matter how right you are, if you care about effecting change, never open your mouth without knowing who will agree with you and who won’t.</p>
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<p>Believing in something larger than yourself, whether it’s a person, a team, a nation, or a god, is empowering. It makes you feel part of something and that you’re not alone.</p>
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<p>This raises a bigger question: are the truly great people the ones whose names we’ll never know?</p>
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<p>If you can’t separate your personal preferences from more abstract analysis, then you will rarely provide much useful feedback. Criticism is not about you. It’s about the work you are viewing and the person who made it.</p>
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<p>Having an idea changes nothing unless someone with sufficient power does something about it. The idea alone is never enough, nor is saying it out loud. No matter how loud you yell, talking and doing are not the same thing.</p>
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<p><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Mindfire-Big-Ideas-Curious-Minds-ebook/dp/B0062F5QO2/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1402959193&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=mindfire">Mindfire by Scott Berkun</a></p>

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			<title>Quiet</title>
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			<updated>2012-11-22T00:00:00Z</updated>
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<p>Even the Christianity of early American religious revivals, dating back to the First Great Awakening of the eighteenth century, depended on the showmanship of ministers who were considered successful if they caused crowds of normally reserved people to weep and shout and generally lose their decorum.</p>
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<p>But what do “sharp skills” look like? Should we become so proficient at self-presentation that we can dissemble without anyone suspecting? Must we learn to stage-manage our voices, gestures, and body language until we can tell—sell—any story we want?</p>
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<p>not everyone aspires to be a leader in the conventional sense of the word—that some people wish to fit harmoniously into the group, and others to be independent of it. Often the most highly creative people are in the latter category.</p>
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<p>According to Free Trait Theory, we are born and culturally endowed with certain personality traits—introversion, for example—but we can and do act out of character in the service of “core personal projects.”</p>
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<p>blushing is an authentic sign of embarrassment. And embarrassment, according to Keltner, is a moral emotion. It shows humility, modesty, and a desire to avoid aggression and make peace. It’s not about isolating the person who feels ashamed (which is how it sometimes feels to easy blushers), but about bringing people together.</p>
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<p>the more creative people tended to be socially poised introverts. They were interpersonally skilled but “not of an especially sociable or participative temperament.” They described themselves as independent and individualistic. As teens, many had been shy and solitary.</p>
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<p>introverts are capable of acting like extroverts for the sake of work they consider important, people they love, or anything they value highly.</p>
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<p>The most recent version of the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual (DSM-IV), the psychiatrist’s bible of mental disorders, considers the fear of public speaking to be a pathology—not an annoyance, not a disadvantage, but a disease—if it interferes with the sufferer’s job performance.</p>
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<p>Love is essential; gregariousness is optional. Cherish your nearest and dearest. Work with colleagues you like and respect. Scan new acquaintances for those who might fall into the former categories or whose company you enjoy for its own sake. And don’t worry about socializing with everyone else. Relationships make everyone happier, introverts included, but think quality over quantity.</p>
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<p>Restraint, Gandhi believed, was one of his greatest assets. And it was born of his shyness:</p>
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<p>“I think people who are shy remain shy always, but they learn how to overcome it,” she said. But it was perhaps this sensitivity that made it easy for her to relate to the disenfranchised, and conscientious enough to act on their behalf. FDR, elected at the start of the Depression, is remembered for his compassion. But it was Eleanor who made sure he knew how suffering Americans felt.</p>
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<p>Another study, of 38,000 knowledge workers across different sectors, found that the simple act of being interrupted is one of the biggest barriers to productivity.</p>
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<p>Still, there’s a limit to how much we can control our self-presentation. This is partly because of a phenomenon called behavioral leakage, in which our true selves seep out via unconscious body language: a subtle look away at a moment when an extrovert would have made eye contact, or a skillful turn of the conversation by a lecturer that places the burden of talking on the audience when an extroverted speaker would have held the floor a little longer.</p>
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<p>We tend to think of coolness as a pose that you strike with a pair of sunglasses, a nonchalant attitude, and drink in hand. But maybe we didn’t choose these social accessories at random. Maybe we’ve adopted dark glasses, relaxed body language, and alcohol as signifiers precisely because they camouflage signs of a nervous system on overdrive.</p>
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<p>When you read his account of his work process on that first PC, the most striking thing is that he was always by himself.</p>
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<p>We fail to realize that participating in an online working group is a form of solitude all its own. Instead we assume that the success of online collaborations will be replicated in the face-to-face world.</p>
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<p>the best way to act out of character is to stay as true to yourself as you possibly can—starting by creating as many “restorative niches” as possible in your daily life.</p>
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<p>“In Asian cultures,” Ni said, “there’s often a subtle way to get what you want. It’s not always aggressive, but it can be very determined and very skillful. In the end, much is achieved because of it. Aggressive power beats you up; soft power wins you over.”</p>
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<p>Anyone can be a great negotiator, I told them, and in fact it often pays to be quiet and gracious, to listen more than talk, and to have an instinct for harmony rather than conflict. With this style, you can take aggressive positions without inflaming your counterpart’s ego. And by listening, you can learn what’s truly motivating the person you’re negotiating with and come up with creative solutions that satisfy both parties.</p>
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<p>Contrary to the Harvard Business School model of vocal leadership, the ranks of effective CEOs turn out to be filled with introverts, including Charles Schwab; Bill Gates; Brenda Barnes, CEO of Sara Lee; and James Copeland, former CEO of Deloitte Touche Tohmatsu. “Among the most effective leaders I have encountered and worked with in half a century,” the management guru Peter Drucker has written, “some locked themselves into their office and others were ultra-gregarious. Some were quick and impulsive, while others studied the situation and took forever to come to a decision.… The one and only personality trait the effective ones I have encountered did have in common was something they did not have: they had little or no ‘charisma’ and little use either for the term or what it signifies.”</p>
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<p>But exceptional performance depends not only on the groundwork we lay through Deliberate Practice; it also requires the right working conditions. And in contemporary workplaces, these are surprisingly hard to come by.</p>
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<p>It can be hard for extroverts to understand how badly introverts need to recharge at the end of a busy day. We all empathize with a sleep-deprived mate who comes home from work too tired to talk, but it’s harder to grasp that social overstimulation can be just as exhausting. It’s also hard for introverts to understand just how hurtful their silence can be.</p>
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<p>we tend to overvalue buzz and discount the risks of reward-sensitivity: we need to find a balance between action and reflection.</p>
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<p>the new guides celebrated qualities that were—no matter how easy Dale Carnegie made it sound—trickier to acquire.</p>
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<p>how did we go from Character to Personality without realizing that we had sacrificed something meaningful along the way?</p>
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<p>A Free Trait Agreement acknowledges that we’ll each act out of character some of the time—in exchange for being ourselves the rest of the time.</p>
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<p>In the Culture of Character, the ideal self was serious, disciplined, and honorable. What counted was not so much the impression one made in public as how one behaved in private.</p>
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<p>“Restorative niche” is Professor Little’s term for the place you go when you want to return to your true self.</p>
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<p>extroverts are sociable because their brains are good at handling competing demands on their attention—which is just what dinner-party conversation involves. In contrast, introverts often feel repelled by social events that force them to attend to many people at once.</p>
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<p>Scientists now know that the brain is incapable of paying attention to two things at the same time. What looks like multitasking is really switching back and forth between multiple tasks, which reduces productivity and increases mistakes by up to 50 percent.</p>
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<p>Here’s one answer: social media has made new forms of leadership possible for scores of people who don’t fit the Harvard Business School mold.</p>
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<p>We like to think that we value individuality, but all too often we admire one type of individual—the kind who’s comfortable “putting himself out there.”</p>
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<p>many of us work for organizations that insist we work in teams, in offices without walls, for supervisors who value “people skills” above all.</p>
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<p>Gandhi himself ultimately rejected the phrase “passive resistance,” which he associated with weakness, preferring satyagraha, the term he coined to mean “firmness in pursuit of truth.”</p>
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<p>If you’re not an introvert yourself, you are surely raising, managing, married to, or coupled with one.</p>
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<p>Many of the characteristics of sensitive people that she’d identified—such as empathy and responsiveness to beauty—were believed by psychologists to be characteristic of other personality traits like “agreeableness” and “openness to experience.” But Aron saw that they were also a fundamental part of sensitivity. Her findings implicitly challenged accepted tenets of personality psychology.</p>
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<p>No one would choose this sort of painful adolescence, but the fact is that the solitude of Woz’s teens, and the single-minded focus on what would turn out to be a lifelong passion, is typical for highly creative people.</p>
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<p>Extroverts are more likely to take a quick-and-dirty approach to problem-solving, trading accuracy for speed, making increasing numbers of mistakes as they go, and abandoning ship altogether when the problem seems too difficult or frustrating. Introverts think before they act, digest information thoroughly, stay on task longer, give up less easily, and work more accurately. Introverts and extroverts also direct their attention differently: if you leave them to their own devices, the introverts tend to sit around wondering about things, imagining things, recalling events from their past, and making plans for the future. The extroverts are more likely to focus on what’s happening around them. It’s as if extroverts are seeing “what is” while their introverted peers are asking “what if.”</p>
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<p>What looks to Westerners like Asian deference, in other words, is actually a deeply felt concern for the sensibilities of others.</p>
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<p>Here’s a rule of thumb for networking events: one new honest-to-goodness relationship is worth ten fistfuls of business cards.</p>
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<p>that introverts and extroverts differ in the level of outside stimulation that they need to function well.</p>
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<p>What does it mean to be quiet and have fortitude? these descriptions asked implicitly. How could you be shy and courageous?</p>
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<p>What’s so magical about solitude? In many fields, Ericsson told me, it’s only when you’re alone that you can engage in Deliberate Practice, which he has identified as the key to exceptional achievement. When you practice deliberately, you identify the tasks or knowledge that are just out of your reach, strive to upgrade your performance, monitor your progress, and revise accordingly.</p>
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<p>“It’s not that I’m so smart,” said Einstein, who was a consummate introvert. “It’s that I stay with problems longer.”
Jonas Hjalmar Blom: Better to do something really good, than a lot of things half as good?</p>
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<p>That’s because top performers overwhelmingly worked for companies that gave their workers the most privacy, personal space, control over their physical environments, and freedom from interruption.</p>
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<p>Westerners value boldness and verbal skill, traits that promote individuality, while Asians prize quiet, humility, and sensitivity, which foster group cohesion.</p>
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<p>if the history of pharmaceutical consumption is any indication, many buckled under such pressures.</p>
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<p>Introverts, in contrast, may have strong social skills and enjoy parties and business meetings, but after a while wish they were home in their pajamas. They prefer to devote their social energies to close friends, colleagues, and family. They listen more than they talk, think before they speak, and often feel as if they express themselves better in writing than in conversation. They tend to dislike conflict. Many have a horror of small talk, but enjoy deep discussions.</p>
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<p>Saddleback also has one more thing in common with Harvard Business School: its debt to—and propagation of—the Culture of Personality.</p>
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<p>We’re told that to be great is to be bold, to be happy is to be sociable. We see ourselves as a nation of extroverts—which means that we’ve lost sight of who we really are.</p>
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<p>The highly sensitive tend to be philosophical or spiritual in their orientation, rather than materialistic or hedonistic. They dislike small talk. They often describe themselves as creative or intuitive (just as Aron’s husband had described her). They dream vividly, and can often recall their dreams the next day. They love music, nature, art, physical beauty. They feel exceptionally strong emotions—sometimes acute bouts of joy, but also sorrow, melancholy, and fear.</p>
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<p>when they embraced the Culture of Personality, Americans started to focus on how others perceived them.</p>
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<p>Introverts often work more slowly and deliberately. They like to focus on one task at a time and can have mighty powers of concentration.</p>
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<p>(John Quincy Adams, incidentally, is considered by political psychologists to be one of the few introverts in presidential history.)</p>
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<p>Open-plan offices have been found to reduce productivity and impair memory. They’re associated with high staff turnover. They make people sick, hostile, unmotivated, and insecure. Open-plan workers are more likely to suffer from high blood pressure and elevated stress levels and to get the flu; they argue more with their colleagues; they worry about coworkers eavesdropping on their phone calls and spying on their computer screens. They have fewer personal and confidential conversations with colleagues. They’re often subject to loud and uncontrollable noise, which raises heart rates; releases cortisol, the body’s fight-or-flight “stress” hormone; and makes people socially distant, quick to anger, aggressive, and slow to help others.</p>
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<p><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Quiet-Power-Introverts-World-Talking-ebook/dp/B004J4WNL2/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1402959431&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=quiet">Quiet by Susan Cain</a></p>

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			<title>New site, again</title>
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			<updated>2012-11-14T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>So I have redone my site again. From the point of view of what you see when you look at the site, it really doesn't look like I've done much at all. The design was slightly tweaked, but really, the site looks the same. So, what did I do? I transformed the backend and how I am creating this site. Previous to today, this was a Wordpress site, with all the PHP and MySQL that went along with that. I have to say that I don't really hate Wordpress, but for me, it seemed to be a lot of work for very little return. I know CSS, I know HTML, I can code this stuff. So after reading <a href="http://daverupert.com/2012/11/brander-newer/">Dave's post</a> about how he had gone ahead and changed his site to run off Jekyll and what was on the server was just a static site, I became intrigued and began to investigate what this would take.</p>
<p>Monday morning I sat down and had a frustrating hour of trying to get Jekyll running, but I emerged victorious with a running set up. I then proceeded to get my templates set up. This was so much easier than using Wordpress it was amazing. Plus, for the pages of the site that I don't change very much, such as the About page or the Portfolio page, those became just static pages with it all in HTML and CSS. For me, this is easier and faster to maintain. For the blog pages, I extracted everything out of Wordpress and converted it all to Markdown using <a href="https://github.com/thomasf/exitwp">ExitWP</a>. It worked really well. Although I have to admit, I did end up going over the posts by hand to make sure everything was rendering correctly and add in a variable to the YAML front matter for the excerpts. I feel like I have a lot more control over my site at this point. It is also faster, which is always a bonus.</p>
<p>My biggest concern was keeping my url structure and set up, which proved much easier than I thought it would. I've double and triple checked urls to make sure I haven't broken anything. But please let me know if you see anything funny or broken. I also implemented an RSS feed solution and I hope I haven't broken that either, but again, let me know if something is amiss.</p>
<p>There are still a few things left to do. I haven't found a way to paginate my main journal page that I like. None of the plugins for Jekyll I've seen are quite what I want, but I'll keep looking and thinking about it. Right now the page isn't crazy, so I'm just leaving it as is. I also haven't quite figured out how to do a deploy using rake. I've found lots of files on Github to implement, but admit to feeling quite dumb about this and unsure of how to actually put the file into practice. So I have that to get through. For now, I'm really happy with the way things are and I'm excited about using this system in the future. Plus when I go to make design changes in the future, I think this will be way easier.</p>
<p>I want to thank <a href="https://twitter.com/davatron5000">Dave</a> so much, he was there cheering me on and super helpful over twitter. Our community is fantastic and this experience just proved it to me again.</p>

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			<title>Tablets, tablets</title>
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			<updated>2012-10-29T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>So G and I have been trying to figure out a computing solution for a family member whose computer has come to a slow, sad death. We have batted around the idea of a tablet and have been researching if that could be enough with no other machine. The only thing it needs to do besides email and browsing the web is the ability to store photos and load them from the SD card. We both thought the iPad would be a great solution, but as we researched things the problem is how to back up and be able to sort through photos in iOS. Honestly, Apple isn't making this easy and as G said last night, the technology of the iPad is so great and the hardware is so wonderful, but there are a just a few things you can't do that make it harder to have as a standalone machine.</p>
<p>Well, yesterday we drove out to the suburbs to take a look at the Surface and see if that may be the solution to the problem we are trying to solve. G loves the fact that with the Surface you can see into the file system, always get back to the standard, familiar desktop of Windows and therefore you get more control over files and being able to move them around. The biggest let down about our visit is that the cover/keyboard was terrible. I hit several keys several times and nothing happened, so typing would not be fast and easy unless you got the more robust, harder keyboard. In addition to this, the staff at the store were unable to answer a lot of G's questions. I realize that we are the minority of the public who knows a bit more and develops for a living so the questions may be more unusual, but seriously, no one can answer them? They weren't hard questions - the main one being if there is an automated back up utility that can be set up to back up to a network drive.</p>
<p>I will say the design of the OS for the Surface, when you are in the tile mode, is really interesting and fairly easy to use. I liked it and think that a shake up of how we look at touch interfaces needs to happen, there needs to be another paradigm and I think Metro is giving us that. Hopefully it will push designs for touch interfaces farther and hopefully it could push Apple into something more interesting with iOS. That being said, the touch interface of the Surface seemed a lot less responsive than my iPad. I had to hit things several times to get them to respond on the screen, which made a keyboard with a touchpad even more appealing.</p>
<p>Finally as we got home I was looking through my twitter stream and came upon this from <a href="https://twitter.com/fling/status/262620237730570240">Brian Fling</a>:</p>
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<p>The Surface is an amazing ultra thin PC, but a lousy tablet. I think it is just miscategorized.</p>
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<p>In my brief interaction with the Surface, I think Brian has hit the nail on the head. I also think for the enterprise user who is enmeshed in the Microsoft world; using Outlook, Office, possibly remote desktop, the Surface is probably a great machine.</p>
<p>So, what are we recommending to our family member? We still aren't sure. The lack of being able to move photos around and having a harder time printing things off, make the iPad a bit less appealing. But the Surface didn't impress us enough either with its ease of use, so we aren't sure that will be better than a small laptop. Right now the iPad is winning based on the ease of use and the automated back up to iCloud even with the two negatives listed above, but our family member will make the ultimate decision.</p>

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			<title>Introvert</title>
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			<updated>2012-10-23T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I just recently started reading the book <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Quiet-Power-Introverts-World-Talking/dp/0307352145/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1350688377&amp;sr=8-1&amp;keywords=quiet+the+power+of+introverts+in+a+world+that+cant+stop+talking"><em>Quiet: The power of Introverts in a World That Can't Stop Talking</em></a> by Susan Cain. I've only read the preface and the first chapter, but I'm already incredibly intrigued by the book.</p>
<p>One of the thoughts that I keep coming back to is how the world, or maybe I should say American culture, really push people to be extroverted. Even in the field of development, there are people being pushed to speak at conferences and possibly even teach on the topics they know well. The irony, to me, is that many of these people got into working with code because it was a solitary endeavor. The could sit at a computer and make things happen. Sure, we all like to share what we've done, but with Github or Codepen, you can do that without speaking or having to put yourself out there in a truly extroverted way. In addition to this many of the modern work environments for developers are completely open spaces, where everyone sits together and, as I have found, there is a lot of chatter and talking. For an extrovert, this may be the perfect work environment, but for the introvert, it can be pure hell. How do you concentrate and get anything done? In my last full time position, when someone needed to concentrate and get work done, she worked from home in order to cut down the interruptions. So I am in a field where introverts are attracted to be, but the way the offices are set up and the work is done is the exact opposite of a conducive environment for them to work. Something I've thought about a lot over the past year or so.</p>
<p>What caught me about the beginning of the Cain book is that this is not how it always was. There was a Cult of Character before the early 20th century and the characteristics that were important were things you could work on and achieve, such as duty, work, honor, morals, or manners. That has all been replaced with a Cult of Personality over the course of the 20th Century where the characteristics that are valued are things that you either have or you don't, such as magnetic, fascinating, attractive or dominant. How do you feel valued if you can't even achieve those things that society finds valuable?</p>
<p>As I continue to read the book I am sure there will continue to be nuggets like these. I came to the realization that I am an introvert years ago. I like to be out with people, but it drains me, unlike quiet time; which revives me. I am OK with that but admit that I often feel pushed to be something I'm not in this culture and I battle with that still.</p>

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			<title>Tweeting and Posting</title>
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			<updated>2012-10-03T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been reading about all the changes at Twitter lately with a bit of sadness and also a bit of understanding. I can see the point of view of the company as they want to own the product and profit from it, but as a geek I also see the point of view of the developers and many others who have spent countless hours to make Twitter what it is. That being said, a while back I joined App.net. I really liked the idea of paying for the service and making that the way the service survives and breaks even. So I joined and I checked it out and I followed a few people, but really, it was a ghost town in there. There wasn't much action and there certainly weren't too many people posting. And to be honest, keeping up with two streams just was too much for me. I wasn't finding much value in it, but was glad to support them as it was more about the principle of what they were trying to do.</p>
<p>Well, today that changed quite a bit. Tapbots, makers of many cool iOS Twitter clients, released NetBot, a client for App.net. It is a gorgeous, easy to use client and it makes checking the stream more interesting and I am already seeing a rise in the people posting on it because of the new client. There are ways to have posts go both places so I'll probably be doing something like that in the near future and switch most of my posting to App.net. We'll see how this goes and where App.net goes in the future, but I think, eventually, it could be better than Twitter  because there won't be any ads. It is another reminder that if you value an online service and it is free, then the service is really using you, or your data, to sell something else. Paying for something you value allows the service to be about users and not about advertisers.</p>

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			<title>Programming</title>
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			<updated>2012-09-28T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I just read a fantastic article on learning to program by <a href="https://twitter.com/worrydream">Bret Victor</a>, <a href="http://worrydream.com/LearnableProgramming/">Learnable Programming</a>. I've spent the last few months really concentrating on learning more about programming. I've been reading books and doing exercises using both JavaScript as the language and I've dipped my toes into Python as well. I've talked about this on the blog before, my quest to become a better JavaScripter and to really understand how to program.</p>
<p>The article by Bret basically said in words why I feel so incredibly frustrated as I try to learn this and why I am progressing so slowly. My academic background is in the arts, I have a degree in drawing and painting, which means that I am a fairly visual learner. I need to be able to see what is happening to understand it. With CSS and HTML, that is super easy, I type in some code, go to a browser and I see what it does. It's an immediate outcome and I can see exactly what is happening just by looking at the browser. This is definitely not the case with JavaScript. I type in some code, I go to a browser, there is an error and what it says in the console doesn't really tell me anything. What was happening when the code ran? I can't see that, therefore I've found it difficult to figure out what is truly going on.</p>
<p>As I read the article by Bret and watched all the small screencasts that showed what was happening in the code I realized that this is the element that is missing for me. By being able to see what is happening with the code, I better understand how it works and how to write it myself. I have grown increasingly frustrated with all the various ways of learning to code, basically read some documentation or a book and go over the examples and then just translate that into your problem. This isn't enough for many people and I am one of them. I have the desire, but it has continually been difficult to figure out what is truly happening with the code I write.</p>
<p>I loved the comparison of learning to program,  as it is most often taught, with learning to cook in the same way; why do we teach programming so differently than almost anything else? By that I mean, with so little visual representation of what is happening. I highly recommend the article because it is eye opening about how people learn. It is a long read and a bit abstract, but worth the time. It's helped me stop feeling stupid as I struggle to learn new programming concepts, and has made me realize that my style of learning may not be suited to how almost all the books and sites are trying to teach me the concepts.</p>
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<p>Some people will defend poorly-designed systems by pointing out all the creativity that they have enabled. For example, if novices are creating lots of programs in the Khan Academy and Processing systems, doesn't that mean the systems are worthwhile and valuable?</p>
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<p>Not necessarily. People are inherently creative, and some will manage to create in even the most hostile of environments. That doesn't justify bad design.</p>

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			<title>XOXO</title>
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			<updated>2012-09-17T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I spent the past two days in an old building in SE Portland with an absolutely amazing group of people, hearing passionate people talk about doing what they love. I am still amazed that I was there and feel so lucky that I got to attend <a href="http://xoxofest.com">XOXO</a>. I went into the weekend not quite sure what it was going to be like, but super excited not just for the speakers and fringe events, but excited for the attendees. As the weekend approached my twitter feed was filled with so many  people whose work I've admired flying into my town, that I got more and more excited. And the short bit here is that the weekend was so much better than I ever thought it was going to be.</p>
<p>I also approached this weekend differently and didn't really take notes as I listened. As a matter of fact, most of the people in the audience were just sitting listening with very few lap tops out. It was a treat to just soak it in and then chat about it with the people around me afterwards and over lunch at the carts. I also really enjoyed the way the talks were set up with some shorter 15 minute talks and then longer 30 minutes talks and the keynotes were 45 minutes. Sometimes I think the shorter talks can be better because they distill what they wanted to say down to the essence and I love that.</p>
<p>If I had to pick one overarching theme from the weekend that is sticking with me it is to not be afraid and do what you love. When you follow your passion things will work out and the various people who spoke all work in very different fields, but they followed what they love and amazing things happened to them. I want to own this for myself and to focus on that one thing that I truly love rather than be so scattered, which I've felt quite a bit lately.</p>
<p>If you want to get more detail about the talks, <a href="https://twitter.com/anildash">Anil Dash</a> live blogged the event, so head over to <a href="http://dashes.com/anil/">his site</a> and check out all the posts. He did an amazing job of really capturing the talks and the feel of the room.</p>
<p>Thank you <a href="https://twitter.com/waxpancake">Andy Baio</a> and <a href="https://twitter.com/goodonpaper">Andy McMillan</a> for such a wonderful weekend and for such a great set up. It was awesome to be in my city with so many great people.</p>

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			<title>Thank you community</title>
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			<updated>2012-09-13T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>So I recently purchased some more books on JavaScript, specifically things that <a href="https://twitter.com/rmurphey">Rebecca Murphey</a> recommended to me via Twitter and on her site. (As a complete aside, she's become a coding hero of mine.) I've been making my way through <a href="http://eloquentjavascript.net">Eloquent JavaScript</a> and it is the one book that is starting to make sense to me. I have two different projects that I want to make happen, using JavaScript first and then probably translating that into Python, since I've started to dabble in that as well.</p>
<p>Recently I feel like things are starting to sink in. This is taking me much longer than most of the other parts of working on the web has taken me, but I'm getting it and I can't wait to actually have a project at the end that I can say I built myself. But the reason for this post is to say thank you. So many different people have encouraged me and offered tidbits of their knowledge over the last year and finally I feel like all those bits and pieces are coming together. In between paying projects I am trying to make my own stuff and getting really excited about it all.</p>
<p>Lately so many in the community have been so helpful in so many different ways and my quest to become a better developer in the area of JavaScript is just one of the places. Thank you community, you are the best.</p>

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			<title>Interesting things (to me)</title>
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			<updated>2012-08-31T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've spent a lot of time this week listening to things and reading things so I just thought I would share some of the things I'm finding interesting in case you missed them.</p>
<p>I started listening to <a href="http://shoptalkshow.com">Shop Talk Show</a> over the past few weeks and I really, really enjoy the format that Dave and Chris do. It's super relaxed, they talk about stuff going on lately and they are really funny and entertaining. I haven't heard Chris or Dave speak ever, but after the podcast, I would love to hear both of them speak sometime. Just gotta figure out how to make that happen.</p>
<p>I've been reading <a href="http://eloquentjavascript.net">Eloquent JavaScript</a> in my quest to get better at programming JS. This is the first book that really makes sense for me and I love that it is online with exercises and a console to do them right there. It's been great and I'm reading it through for the second time. I highly recommend it for vanilla JS. I'm using it to get me going on making my own little JavaScript program to really grasp OO JS.</p>
<p>I know this is an old post, but I've been reading it and thinking about it a lot, <a href="http://rmurphey.com/blog/2012/04/12/a-baseline-for-front-end-developers/">A Baseline for Front-End Developers</a>. I heard <a href="https://twitter.com/rmurphey">Rebecca</a> on Shop Talk Show a couple weeks ago and she has become one of my coding heroes. I also watched her and <a href="https://twitter.com/rwaldron">Rick Waldron</a> do a <a href="http://youtu.be/9MZoB9_-SDE">Google Hangout</a> talking about using <a href="http://www.arduino.cc">Arduino</a> to program robots with JavaScript - how cool is that? I am not at that level yet, but I thought is was really cool and it is inspiring me on my road to getting to be a more advanced JavaScripter.</p>
<p>On a non tech note, I am in love with Alec Baldwin's podcast, <a href="http://www.wnyc.org/shows/heresthething/">Here's the Thing</a>. He interviews a super wide variety of people and his knowledge and research of them and their work is amazing. His interview style is also relaxed and fun. I love the fact that the people he interviews are people he genuinely wants to talk to, which makes a really great interview.</p>

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			<title>Going deeper into responsive</title>
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			<updated>2012-08-22T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>This week I read <a href="https://twitter.com/tkadlec">Tim Kadlec's</a> <a href="http://www.implementingresponsivedesign.com"><em>Implementing Responsive Design: Building Sites for the anywhere, everywhere web</em></a>. It's a great read and I think the perfect book to pick up after you've read <em>Responsive Web Design</em> by Ethan Marcotte. Tim takes the concepts that Ethan so succinctly puts forth in his book and takes the whole thing farther with lots of sidebars from other really smart folks in the field who are working on the various problems of responsive, things like images, content, mobile first, etc. I also really like that Tim doesn't shy away from lots of code examples to show exactly how he is solving the problems, getting into the details is great because there are so many varied thoughts on the problems of getting things to move around and work across multiple devices.</p>
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<p>...[A] successful responsive approach builds upon the very same prinicples laid down by <em>progressive enhancement</em>. It is, to be blunt, progressive enhancement on steroids.</p>
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<p>Tim takes the reader through how to think about making the site by showing the reader how he is making a simple site. Most important for me was that Tim went through a workflow. I have found this is where the real rough patches are. Teams need to adjust their workflows and the way they make a site and it is painful to change. Change is hard and it is taking quite a while for many to adjust their way of thinking and help clients through this transition as well.</p>
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<p>The Web is a living, breathing canvas that they can manipulate and bend to their will. The Web is much closer to being software than it is to being print.</p>
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<p>I would argue in our world of web applications, most of the web is turning into software and moving away from being the informational brochure sites of past years. Tim acknowledges this and helps us with the technical and workflow details of how to get our own projects to move towards this everywhere web.</p>
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<p>Maturing is hard—just ask any acne-ridden teenager. It is necessary though. If we're ever going to embrace the full potential of the Web, we need to move beyond our comfort zones now and again.</p>
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			<title>Content strategy for mobile</title>
			<link href="https://susanjeanrobertson.com/journal/content-strategy-for-mobile/"/>
			<updated>2012-08-16T00:00:00Z</updated>
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<p>The only way we’re going to support future-friendly content management—a model that allows for flexible content reuse—is if we give content creators usable interfaces, workflows, and tools to make that happen</p>
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<p>Today’s crummy, crippled mobile experiences are inadequate environments to evaluate what people really want to do on mobile.</p>
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<p>What if your stakeholders and content owners had to physically move each piece of content to its new home? Would it merit the effort?</p>
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<p>You are in the content publishing business. It is your mission to get your content out, on whichever platform, in whichever format your audience wants to consume it. Your users get to decide how, when, and where they want to read your content. It is your challenge and your responsibility to deliver a good experience to them</p>
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<p>If there’s one thing we should have learned from the web, it’s that user behavior evolves more quickly than businesses realize. User expectations evolve and move forward, and only later do organizations hurry to catch up.</p>
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<p>Mobile experts and airline app designers don’t get to decide what “actually matters.” What matters is what matters to the user. And that’s just as likely to be finding a piece of information as it is to be completing a task.</p>
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<p>you should think about how best to encode your content with meaning, rather than just styling.</p>
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<p>Businesses want to invest the least possible time and effort into mobile until they can demonstrate return on investment. Designers believe they can guess what subset of information or functionality users want. Everyone argues that they’re designing for the “mobile use case.”</p>
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<p>Mobile sites that don’t provide information, don’t enable transactions, and don’t influence purchase decisions really aren’t very strategic</p>
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<p>Creating structured content within a content model means making a leap: you’re writing content for the chunk and not for the page.</p>
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<p>Content creators need to break free of imagining a single context where their content is going to “live” and instead plan for content reuse</p>
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<p>Looking only at your competitors may not exactly inspire you to greatness. You’ll also want to go outside your competitive set to look at best-in-class examples of mobile websites and apps, regardless of industry.</p>
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<p>But make no mistake: the content model is bigger than the CMS interface that supports it. The content model needs to reflect the needs and goals of the content authors who will create content (not to mention the people who will read the content).</p>
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<p>There is no “how to write for mobile.” There’s only good writing. Period.</p>
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<p>This is possible because NPR focuses on creating structured content independent of visual presentation. They permit and enable each delivery platform to make its own decisions about how to style the content, because formatting isn’t embedded in the content. They also create content for maximum flexibility, creating multiple sizes and versions for text, images, and audio formats. And, they make it possible for each platform to query the content to determine which content chunks to display.</p>
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<p>When we say someone is on mobile, all we know is they’re using a device that is…not a desktop. We know very little about what they see and how they interact.</p>
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<p>A lot of rhetoric about “marketing to the mobile context” can be summed up simply: don’t waste money on advertising if you don’t have a mobile website to back it up.</p>
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<p>Don’t forget: mobile is new to most people. Even seasoned digital executives can feel like neophytes when asked to make decisions about this new medium. Other executives often feel “digital fatigue” at the pace of change in our space. Part of your role is to help them feel comfortable and confident making decisions—don’t make them feel like idiots who don’t get it.</p>
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<p><a href="http://www.abookapart.com/products/content-strategy-for-mobile">Content strategy for mobile by Karen McGrane</a></p>

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			<title>Read and heard</title>
			<link href="https://susanjeanrobertson.com/journal/read-and-heard/"/>
			<updated>2012-08-16T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been spending a lot of time with my head down in the weeds of learning python and improving my JavaScript skills over the past week or so, but I've also been taking breaks to read and went to an online conference, so here's a few tidbits that have been making me think over the past few weeks.</p>
<p>I was lucky enough to get to sit in a room of geeks and hear the <a href="http://environmentsforhumans.com/2012/css-summit/">CSS Summit</a> conference earlier this month. It was a fantastic three days of info and I am grateful to <a href="https://twitter.com/teleject">Christopher Schmitt</a> and <a href="https://twitter.com/ari4nne">Ari Stiles</a> for letting me be in the room as they conducted it here in Portland. <a href="https://twitter.com/davatron5000">Dave Rupert</a> spoke about fluid media in responsive design, but what he said about the whole concept of responsive has stuck with me.</p>
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<p>Think of responsive design as a system of ratios and percentages.</p>
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<p>That may sound obvious, but after an experience I had last month working on a responsive site, it just isn't the way many designers are thinking, sadly. It's the only way to move this forward though, pixel perfection has always been a myth and finally with responsive design more designers are finally seeing that.</p>
<p>I'm also reading through Tim Kadlec's new book, <a href="http://www.implementingresponsivedesign.com"><em>Implementing Responsive Design: Build sites for an anywhere, everywhere web</em></a>. I am about half way through and there will most likely be more on this blog about the book, but for now I have been continually thinking about something Tim writes:</p>
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<p>The problem is that <em>basing the future on past experiences limits the evolution of new ideas and media</em>.</p>
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<p>As I learn more in the realm of programming and use new devices and interact in new ways with the web, I keep thinking about this. How limited are we by thinking about the way things are now or were when we try and tackle new problems? How do we shake ourselves of this mindset? I don't really have answers, but I'm ruminating on it in between battling code.</p>
<p>Lastly, I just read this post from Whitney Hess this morning, <a href="http://whitneyhess.com/blog/2012/08/16/how-when-i-reasoning-poisons-a-team/">How “When I…” Reasoning Poisons a Team</a>. I reminded me of my own <a href="http://susanjeanrobertson.com/geekery/assumptions/">post</a> from quite a while ago, but the value of Whitney's is not to be missed. How many times do we make decisions about products because it is what we would do or how we would use it? How often do we skip over the user testing that is so necessary. Also, how many times does a stakeholder or team member with more power get to overrule that research? Again, just thoughts, but I know that we need to be better about distancing ourselves from the things we are making in order to see them as our users see them.</p>

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			<title>JOMO</title>
			<link href="https://susanjeanrobertson.com/journal/jomo/"/>
			<updated>2012-08-03T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Anil Dash wrote a post recently entitled <a href="https://www.anildash.com/2012/07/19/jomo/">JOMO</a>, Joy of Missing Out. He talks about living in New York City where there is so much going on and you are always missing something great, but that there is a certain joy in realizing you would rather be doing other things.</p>
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<p>Sometimes, you don't go to that amazing event because you're just going to stay home and read a book or watch TV or flick away idly at your phone, only realizing you've missed the moment when it's already too late. And then, when you get old and wonderfully, contentedly boring like me, you stay home because you'd rather be there for bathtime and bedtime with the baby than, well, anywhere else in the world.</p>
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<p>This is the Joy of Missing Out.</p>
<p>I read this post after being lucky enough to attend most of the sessions for <a href="http://environmentsforhumans.com/2012/css-summit/">CSS Summit</a> online this week. I sat in a room of friends and fellow developers and we learned some really interesting things in the realm of CSS, Sass, and many other related things. It was great. In the chat room I noticed people were lamenting the fact that they just couldn't keep up with everything that is going on and all the things they want to learn or master.</p>
<p>So when I read Anil's post this morning it made me think that maybe we should take the same idea he is talking about in relation to living in a vibrant, bustling city and think the same way about trying to keep up with all the new techniques of web development. I realize that keeping up is crucial to our field, but I also realize that we could very well run ourselves ragged trying to do just that. We deserve to have a life, to enjoy other things, and sometimes that may be at the expense of reading the latest article on the newest technique. Lately I have taken the attitude that if something is really crucial, then I'll probably see it linked from several different sources, letting me know I really should take the time to read it. It means I do miss things, but it also means I keep my sanity and have time to disconnect from the internets. I believe in the end, that will make me an even better developer.</p>

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			<title>Humility, passion, hyper(links), history</title>
			<link href="https://susanjeanrobertson.com/journal/humility-passion-hyper-links-history/"/>
			<updated>2012-07-25T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I just finished the third issue of <a href="http://alwaysreadthemanual.com">The Manual</a>. I tried really hard to savor it because it is so good, allowing myself only one essay per day. But yesterday I broke down and read all that I had left. It is such a wonderful publication and if you haven't checked it out, I really recommend that you do, now, immediately.</p>
<p>This third issue again had me thinking during and after everything I read. Here's just a taste of the quotes that I am still mulling over.</p>
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<p>Whether or not chance operations has agency applications, I suspect the design community at large has much to gain by more openly confronting ambiguity, self-doubt, and complexity in our relationships and in our <em>selves</em>. I'd like to counter the celebratory stance of the moment--design bravado--with a more humbled position. A slow ramble: sensing, collecting, and being fully present to changes in light, weather, and sound.<br>
-<a href="https://twitter.com/soulellis">Paul Soulellis</a>, page 10</p>
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<p>I loved Paul's beautiful look at what sharing our failures and our ups and downs can mean for the community. How being transparent in process can bring about some great things.</p>
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<p>If you want to have passion for your work then do what your coaches told you: set challenging goals for yourself every day, work hard to achieve them, and evaluate how you did at the end. Structure it in a way that makes absorption possible. <em>Do it</em>, in other words. Then do it some more.<br>
-<a href="https://twitter.com/ticjones">Tiffani Jones Brown</a>, page 21</p>
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<p>Tiffani describes perfectly what I need to do - I need to just do it. Every day. Explore, get creative, have fun, but always work at it. This too builds on Paul's call to have humility-don't be afraid of failures.</p>
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<p>The devices we love to connect with are the same devices that cause us to <em>disconnect</em> from one another. Everyone knows where everyone is and what everyone is doing, but how does that enrich our lives?<br>
-<a href="https://twitter.com/DuaneKing">Duane King</a>, p 52</p>
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<p>Duane's essay was close to my favorite of the bunch. I loved that he talked about how hard it can be to disconnect. Also, how are the devices we use affecting us? Why can't we stand in a line without looking at our devices, let alone go on a walk with nothing but our thoughts. I think about this a lot and I've made some significant changes in my life to try and get away from always being distracted.</p>
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<p>We should recognize that when we design and publish information on the humblest homepage or the grandest web app, we are creating connections within a much larger machine of knowledge, a potential Turing machine greater than any memex or calculus racionator.<br>
-<a href="https://twitter.com/adactio">Jeremy Keith</a>, p 68</p>
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<p>Jeremy's essay was certainly right in line with many of the things he is always talking about, especially if you have heard some of his AEA talks in recent years. I love his passion for the web and I agree, we are at the beginning of this medium and we don't fully understand it yet, but it needs to keep the crazy connections so that we all get the most from this interesting thing we call the web.</p>
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<p>By looking for inspiration in others' work, adapting it significantly, and openly acknowledging those debts, I think we can move that phrase &quot;web design trends&quot; past that stereotype of unthinking, unambitious adoption and set a standard for evolving those trends over time. And, in doing so, we'll invest a sense of memory--of <em>history</em> in our adolescent industry.<br>
-<a href="https://twitter.com/beep">Ethan Marcotte</a>, p 82</p>
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<p>Ethan ends by talking about history, how short the history is in the world of the web and designing for the web. I love jazz and he goes to that medium to show how we can build on what has come before us, without shame, but with acknowledging that we do have a history, albeit a short one, but that we should be looking to it and know it to understand where we are now. It reminds me of my time in art school. I immediately gravitated to abstract painting and my professor one day made me stop painting, head to the library and check out several books by specific artists. Showing me where I sat in time to my predecessors and how I could take inspiration from those that came before me and build on what they had done. I love that Ethan's essay reminded me of that all over again and how I can do that in the web world too.</p>
<p>Every issue of <em>The Manual</em> seems to top the one that came before. The third issue is certainly no different. Thank you to the team that publish it, you get my brain going every time for days thinking about the ideas you bring to light.</p>

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			<title>Agonizing over code</title>
			<link href="https://susanjeanrobertson.com/journal/agonizing-over-code/"/>
			<updated>2012-07-19T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>The past few weeks I've finished one project and then worked on a mini exercise to hone my skills with a particular CSS style. In both of these situations I've spent a lot of time thinking about what I'm coding. Sometimes I have to tell myself to loosen up and just get the work done, because I'm almost agonizing over what I'm writing. I desperately want the code to be flexible, maintainable, and performant. It doesn't help that I am continually reading new ideas and theories on how to do exactly that in the realm of front end code.</p>
<p>Recently I actually tweeted about how I was worried what other people would think when they view the source. That's the thing about this industry. Everyone can see what I'm doing and how I've done it. They just go ahead and right click and inspect away. But the other thing about this industry is that things are constantly changing and in flux. What I code today may be right for today, but in just a few weeks there could be a new and better way to do it. The pace of change is both exciting and at times a bit overwhelming.</p>
<p>So lately, as I agonize over how I write the CSS (because really, that's where the real choices exist), I try and tell myself that I just need to do the best job I can and that it may not be the exact way someone else would do it, but that doesn't mean it's wrong. I have been trying to lighten up and have fun with the code. Because in all honesty, when I get something to work in a new and better way, it is awesome. I still get excited and I still want to jump up and down and tell people about it. Those are the moments I should search for and just let go of all the rest.</p>

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			<title>How I learn</title>
			<link href="https://susanjeanrobertson.com/journal/how-i-learn/"/>
			<updated>2012-07-10T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>So I have been working on a project for the past several weeks and it's been a challenge for me in several ways, but by far the biggest thing I've had to adjust to is that I am it. I am doing this thing on my own. For most of my development career I've worked in teams. Either product teams with lots of back end devs or in agencies where there is usually at least one other helping hand around. What that meant for me was that when something got hard, I had people to ask and in many cases, people who knew how to fix it really quickly.</p>
<p>Well, when it is just me, I don't have that luxury. It is me, Google, a shelf full of books, and sometimes I talk with Sally dog, but she is definitely no help. I have learned more doing this project than I have learned in a long while. Why? Because I had to. The client asked for things and I needed to figure out how to make it happen. I've learned more JavaScript in the flavor of jQuery. I'm actually getting much better at that. I've also written a dash of PHP for the custom Wordpress theme. I don't know that I want to delve too far into that world, but I don't mind dipping my toe in once in a while. It was definitely fun getting it working.</p>
<p>And that is what I have loved the most these past few weeks. I get such a rush when I get something working for the first time. I love it. And it had been far too long since I had felt that way on a regular basis. The only thing I don't love is that I have no one to share it with other than Sally dog, but she listens and wags her tail. So I learn by having to do and having to push myself because there is no one else. I am thankful for all the people who post to their blogs on all the different topics that I have searched for in Google and also the great authors that I have keeping me company as I work. Without them I know I would never have finished this project (well, it's almost done).</p>

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			<title>Busyness revisited</title>
			<link href="https://susanjeanrobertson.com/journal/busyness-revisited/"/>
			<updated>2012-07-02T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Yesterday I was quite lazy and spent my Sunday watching some things on Netflix and reading my twitter feed and anything interesting that was linked to. I think about five people linked to an opinion piece on <a href="http://www.nytimes.com/">The New York Times</a> site, <a href="http://opinionator.blogs.nytimes.com/2012/06/30/the-busy-trap/?ref=opinion"><em>The 'Busy' Trap</em></a>. It was no surprise to me that so many people really resonated with the article. As I've <a href="http://susanjeanrobertson.com/self/cult-of-busy/">written</a>, I believe our culture has a weird infatuation with being &quot;busy&quot; and using that term to feel important.</p>
<p>This piece is just another reinforcement of how I feel about being busy and how I feel about our culture which seems to hold up the busiest person as the best, most important. The author also points out that most of the people who are so crushingly busy aren't busy because they are working 3 minimum wage jobs, but busy because they have made choices about how to spend their time. They choose to be busy, it may be an unconscious choice, but it is still a choice. And this is what bothers me so much about people complaining about being busy. It is usually because they have scheduled themselves into way too many activities, etc. Or they refuse to think about how changing jobs and maybe even scaling back their lifestyle may make their life better because they won't need to work so much to keep paying for the things they don't really need.</p>
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<p>The present hysteria is not a necessary or inevitable condition of life; it’s something we’ve chosen, if only by our acquiescence to it.</p>
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<p>But the most worrisome part of the article is how the author points out that idleness of the mind is absolutely necessary. We need this for our brains.</p>
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<p>Idleness is not just a vacation, an indulgence or a vice; it is as indispensable to the brain as vitamin D is to the body, and deprived of it we suffer a mental affliction as disfiguring as rickets. The space and quiet that idleness provides is a necessary condition for standing back from life and seeing it whole, for making unexpected connections and waiting for the wild summer lightning strikes of inspiration — it is, paradoxically, necessary to getting any work done.</p>
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<p>The need for idleness is pointed out by Steven Johnson in <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Where-Good-Ideas-Come-From/dp/1594485380/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1341243482&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=steven+johnson"><em>Where Good Ideas Come From: The Natural History of Innovation</em></a>. Most great ideas came from having time to let the mind wander. After reading many different things it is when the mind can relax that it will put together two ideas to form a new one, one that could be truly great.</p>
<p>My challenge for people who are &quot;busy&quot; is to think about why they are busy and what is occupying their time. I made several changes in my life in the last year to help me see how I am spending my time and making sure that it is what I want to be doing, not what I feel like I should be doing. For me, this meant changing my work life in order to have time for things that are important to me. Not everyone can do the things I've done and I realize this, but I do think most of us have more choices than we care to admit. We just need to be honest with ourselves and that can be really hard.</p>

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			<title>SMACSS Workshop</title>
			<link href="https://susanjeanrobertson.com/journal/smacss-workshop/"/>
			<updated>2012-06-28T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Just one week ago I rose a bit earlier than is normal for me, made my way across the river to the NW section of Portland in order to attend the <a href="http://smacss.com/">SMACSS</a> (Scalable and Modular Architecture for CSS) workshop that <a href="https://twitter.com/#!/snookca">Jonathan Snook</a> put on. In a one word summary of the day: fantastic. I have been using <a href="http://oocss.org/">OOCSS</a> on several projects for layout and when Jonathan put out his ebook on his way of doing some of the same things, I purchased immediately. I read the book, highlighting as I went and really like the way he breaks down the set up of CSS and making sure it is truly scalable for large projects. And Jonathan knows a thing or two about large projects as this system was born while he was working at Yahoo on all their many applications.</p>
<p>I think my favorite part of the day was the times we worked on some small exercises and Jonathan walked around the room making sure to talk with as many people as possible about their solutions. He also then used what people were doing to explain how SMACSS would work in the same situation. It was a really well run day and if you are in England or Germany this fall, you should try and get to the workshop this fall.</p>
<p>I'm excited to start a new project in the next week where SMACSS with some OOCSS will be the way I set up the application front end so that as it grows the CSS can easily scale. Thanks so much Jonathan for such a great day!</p>

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			<title>Responsive is hard</title>
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			<updated>2012-06-22T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm working on a new project that is all responsive. It's the first time I've worked on a responsive site with a designer as my experience has been limited to my own site. A week and a half into coding this site my conclusion is that this stuff is hard. I know there are many who are probably thinking, umm, yeah, we already knew that. But what I'm finding is that the back and forth between the designer and myself is almost continual. As I develop and run into issues, we go back to the design, look at what can change and how it can be better.</p>
<p>I'm excited about the project, but dang, the small details are never-ending and they just keep cropping up. As of now we are about two thirds of the way through and we are still finding all the little things we need to think about. I am thankful for good communication with the designer and also for just the cool things I'm learning. This is definitely challenging, but so worth it. I believe strongly that no matter what device you use to access a site, you should be able to get all the content and have a great experience. We are trying our hardest to make that happen for this new site and it's exciting. Can't wait for this project to go live, it's been such a great, challenging experience.</p>

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			<title>Interlink Conference</title>
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			<updated>2012-06-11T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Last week I drove up I-5 and got to Vancouver to attend <a href="http://interlinkconference.com/">Interlink Conference</a>. I was excited to attend because all the speakers were people I had followed a long time on twitter or on their blogs and I was finally going to hear them speak. All I have to say is that this conference was fantastic. <a href="https://twitter.com/#!/shawnjohnston">Shawn</a> does a great job of organizing and putting everything together and the day  of the conference I sat in my chair switching between writing mad notes or just being blown away by what was being presented.</p>
<p>Below are some of the things I pulled out of the day. I can honestly say that I have a lot to think about and I am so grateful that I was there and to Shawn for pulling together such a really great event. If you have the chance to go, do it. Vancouver is a fantastic city and the conference is completely worth the price.</p>
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<p>We have a fantastic capacity to do so many things, but our process is asleep. Take a step back and look at how we work in our industry and in teams.<br>
--<a href="https://twitter.com/#!/kurafire">Faruk Ateş</a></p>
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<p>Faruk started the day by talking about being responsive as people with our process and teams. <a href="https://twitter.com/#!/kissane">Erin Kissane</a> was next and her talk had me so engaged. But what I really took away from her was the knowledge that as I forge ahead looking for the type of projects and work I want to do that I am not crazy for thinking that working long hours is unnecessary. I don't need to give up my entire life for something because this is my life. We can do great work and take the time to make it great. As Erin spoke of systems, she laid out five different things to think about and the two that grabbed me the most are &quot;ship small, but excellent&quot; and &quot;respect the deep knowledge.&quot; We can get to a world of systems that works for everyone, the creators, the makers and the users and we don't have to do it all at once.</p>
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<p>People will tell you that these values are naive and that isn't how the world works, but that isn't true. There is value in protecting this. If someone tells you this is for dreamers then they don't have your best interests at heart. 'You don't want a career. You have life. Do the work.' (Dear Sugar online advice columnist).<br>
--Erin Kissane</p>
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<p>Thank you Erin for reminding me that my desire for this is not crazy. That me wanting to have a life and do good work is the goal.</p>
<p>The rest of the morning was filled with really fantastic content from <a href="https://twitter.com/#!/whale">Matthew Smith</a> and <a href="https://twitter.com/#!/jaminjantz">Jamin Jantz</a> and then <a href="https://twitter.com/#!/jessicahische">Jessica Hische</a>. To be honest, their talks were filled with fantastic nuggets, but I don't have a great way of summarizing. Other than saying that Matthew and Jamin encouraged me to think about how I work, the way I do the work and interact with people. As I grow my business I need to be aware of the right things in the relationships I build. Jessica reminded me to build things for myself and that for independents, being a specialized worker is a good thing, clients can easily tell what I do when it is one thing I do well.</p>
<p><a href="https://twitter.com/#!/jina">Jina Bolton</a> began the afternoon with talking about Sass and Less - a great intro to the two preprocessors but since I've used both and really honestly like them both for different reasons, I just sat back and enjoyed. She pointed me to some resources I wasn't aware of, so on my next project I'll dig in further than I have before.</p>
<p><a href="https://twitter.com/#!/boagworld">Paul Boag</a> was next and he did an amazing talk on eCommerce. Probably one of the best talks I've seen on that topic, mostly because they did so much user research and built the site for the users. The client saw an amazing growth of sales while they worked with <a href="http://headscape.co.uk/">Headscape</a> and it truly proved the necessity of really great UX work to make sure your users can actually use the site and it works for them. In addition to this Paul pointed out how working well with a client can benefit both sides of the relationship so much. It was a pleasure to hear a talk that was focused on a successful client relationship.</p>
<p><a href="https://twitter.com/#!/jontangerine">Jon Tan</a> spoke next about web type and I got a ton of good tips and also a bunch of things that I want to look into, I'm excited about the new things available with swashes and  I feel a bit better prepared to take that on now that I've had some explanations on good usage. Web fonts have come so far and it's exciting to see what can be done now.</p>
<p>The day ended with <a href="https://twitter.com/#!/cameronmoll">Cameron Moll</a> and it was the perfect ending. Cameron actually used an iPad and the <a href="http://www.fiftythree.com/paper">Paper</a> app to give his talk, jotting things down as he went through the points in his talk. He spoke about creativity, that illusive thing so many of us seek. My to-read list had grown over the course of the day and Cameron only added to that with so many juicy quotes read from various books. I loved the way that Cameron pointed out how so many of the things that we create are based on so many different ideas that came before us. We are constantly taking the things around us and rearranging them into something different. This reminded me heavily of <em>Where Good Ideas Come From</em> by Steven Johnson. The way we can take things we read and see, put them all together and come up with something new. I felt like Cameron gave a peek into a common book with all the different quotes he pulled out of different sources.</p>
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<p>Smaller flashes of inspiration are more important.<br>
Share the messy parts of projects and creativity.<br>
Sometimes you have to build the product it shouldn't be to build the product it should be.<br>
--Cameron Moll</p>
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<p>Thank you to all the speakers for sharing your thoughts and to Shawn for putting it all together. I am excited to craft the web, to think deeply and to continue the conversation in other formats.</p>

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			<title>Shape of Design</title>
			<link href="https://susanjeanrobertson.com/journal/shape-of-design/"/>
			<updated>2012-06-04T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I just finished reading through <a href="http://shapeofdesignbook.com/">The Shape of Design</a> by <a href="https://twitter.com/#!/fchimero">Frank Chimero</a>. I took my time with this book, even though it is a slim book and I could have read it in one sitting, I split it up over the course of a week - reading a bit each day and then chewing on what I had read. I've long admired Frank's writing and his speaking. Thank God for videos of the speaking since I've never seen him in person. I backed this book right away and am so glad I did. It was definitely worth the wait to receive it.</p>
<p>Instead of actually reviewing and going through the book, I'm just going to pull some of my favorite quotes out of it and let you get intrigued and hopefully buy it yourself. These are the things I chewed over and came back to after reading each section. Since I read the epub version of the book and pages change based on orientation, I'm just giving the chapter for my location in the book.</p>
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<p>The relationship between form and purpose - How and Why - is symbiotic. But despite this link, Why is usually neglected, because How is more easily framed. It is easier to recognize the failures of technique than those of strategy or purpose.<br>
--Chapter One</p>
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<p>I really enjoyed the way he talks about getting started, that we rush past the objectives of a project into how to do it way too often, I know I am guilty of this on many occasions.</p>
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<p>The first step of any process should be to define the objectives of the work with Why-based questions. The second step, however, should be to put those objectives in a drawer. Objectives guide the process toward an effective end, but they don't do much to help one get going.<br>
--Chapter Three</p>
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<p>But the objectives aren't enough, we need some freedom to explore and play.</p>
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<p>Using the structure and affordances of content, tone, and format, once can riff on how the elements interplay and come to exceptional ends.<br>
--Chapter Four</p>
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<p>I absolutely love the way he uses jazz as a reference point for design. I think that making changes, being inspired, and riffing, as he puts it, is exactly how good design is achieved and it takes time.</p>
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<p>[W]e monologue to listen.<br>
--Chapter Five</p>
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<p>I talk to myself quite a bit and in the book the idea of talking to oneself as a way of listening comes up. That listening is the most important part of a conversation and I love that.</p>
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<p>It means that products of design are not autonomous objects, but are creations that bridge in-between spaces to provide a way toward an intended outcome. ... A train station that doesn't create a lust for exploration is flawed, just as a cathedral that doesn't inspire awe is a failure.<br>
--Chapter Five</p>
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<p>The leap between what we design and how that interacts with the world is so well put and made me actually stop and think about what I consider successful design and what I consider failures.</p>
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<p>[T]he things that we make are more than just objects. They're the way we paint pictures of what's to come. They are the projects that give us license to imagine a better future for ourselves and everyone else. These objects represent the promises that we make to one another and symbolize the connections between us.<br>
--Chapter Ten</p>
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<p>This is what the book is all about to me. We create, but our creations are about so much more than just the objects. So much can be wrapped up in them and they can do so much more in the world than we sometimes imagine.</p>
<p>Thanks Frank, for such a thought provoking read. I will most definitely be reading it again.</p>

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			<title>One Hour</title>
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			<updated>2012-05-30T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Recently I started adding a new thing to my work day routine and it has turned out to be a great addition. I take one hour when I'm done with my coding/sitting at a computer work and I go into a different room, I sit in my favorite rocker and I read or sketch or do a bit of both for one hour.</p>
<p>For years I've had several dense non fiction books on my Amazon wish list that I wanted to read. Most of them are about the brain or psychology and how the mind works. My problem was getting myself into a place where I could read them with full concentration and digest what I was reading. It was completely my own fault that I wasn't able to do this because I always made an excuse for something else I needed to do. But that ended when I went back to an article that the Wall Street Journal published about our state of busyness. <a href="http://online.wsj.com/article/SB10001424052970203358704577237603853394654.html">Laura Vanderkam</a> argues that we really aren't as busy as we say we are, we just aren't saying no or prioritizing the stuff we want to be doing. Well this past week I decided to change that and rearrange my priorities. It means I spend less time online and just falling down the rabbit hole of twitter or wikipedia. It means that I disconnect myself from everything for an hour each day to concentrate on a few things that I want to make a priority. I am using a small piece of technology to help me sort and think about what I want my priorities to be, a new app for my iPhone called <a href="http://habitlistapp.com/">Habit List</a>. I've found it helpful to write down my priorities so I don't get distracted away from them.</p>
<p>So far it has been really wonderful and I end my day with some quiet, peace and also some stimulation for my brain in a different way - something other than code. I also leave the hour and then move into cooking dinner, usually, and as I do the tasks that don't take much concentration, I find myself thinking about what I read or getting an idea to take a sketch further. It doesn't seem like much as I write it here, one hour a day, but in the way our culture pushes it can be a lot. So I am taking my hour and I believe that it will help me in my work in the long run. Not just in refreshing my mind but also in learning something that may not make me a better coder, but will definitely make me a better team member.</p>

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			<title>Digital Magazines</title>
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			<updated>2012-05-22T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I am a big magazine reader, in fact I have one subscription that is now 20 years old; although sadly I'm letting it go this year, Newsweek's quality has dropped since Daily Beast took it over. When I got my iPad a year ago I was interested in trying out reading some magazines on it. I've gone two routes and gotten two different magazines through the Zinio app and I've gotten two through the Apple Newstand app. I've now gotten them for close to a year and I have some questions and thoughts about this whole genre of reading that hasn't really figured out how to take full advantage of the possibilities of being a great digital product.</p>
<p>The Zinio app magazines are really just pictures of magazine pages. It isn't really an enjoyable reading experience, I would rather just have the magazine because it in no way takes advantage of being digital. There are no links, no interactive features, nothing. The only nod to being on the device is the ability to zoom in on the text. The only reason I will continue to subscribe is because I want to save the paper, since most magazines I read and then recycle.</p>
<p>The two magazines I get in the Newstand app are both done by Martha Stewart's company and they are actually trying to utilize a portion of possible interactivity. Scrolling down, linking to web sites, using touch icons to get more information, etc. It's way more enjoyable to read and get the information and I will definitely keep subscribing as long as I enjoy the content of the magazines.</p>
<p>But the big issue for both apps and all the magazines is how large each issue is, I wait for several minutes to download the individual issues and I don't keep many back issues on my device since the files are so large. In addition to this, I feel like there is more they could be doing to take even more advantage of the web. Just today everyone on Twitter was linking to <a href="http://eephusleague.com/magazine/">The Eephus League</a>, which takes advantage of the true scrolling nature of the web to provide a seriously cool user experience. Plus it is plain old beautiful and all I need is my browser to use it, not having to download an app is a big bonus in my opinion.</p>
<p>Then there is the success story no one seems to want to copy, The Financial Times. They just stopped supporting their iOS app and are running completely in the browser, utilizing all the great things that HTML5 can do with offline storage in order to be able to provide a great user experience. Why is no one else doing the same thing? Why are they putting so much money into developing apps that are not profitable or popular? There has been an article going around, <a href="http://www.technologyreview.com/business/40319/">Why Publisher's Don't Like Apps</a>, where a publisher is finally admitting what a mistake the app route may have been. I am glad to see someone take notice of a success story and think about how they can implement a similar model.</p>
<p>So I long for my favorite publications to figure out a better way and I admit that I am not exactly sure what the way is, but I think it looks a lot more like The Financial Times model than the Newstand or Zinio model. I just want to use my browser to get the content I want in a way that takes full advantage of the capabilities of the browser. With how far the browsers have come, why are so many publishers so scared of them?</p>

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			<title>Head First Mobile Web</title>
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			<updated>2012-04-26T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I have spent the last week or so slowing reading through <em>Head First Mobile Web</em> by <a href="https://twitter.com/#!/grigs">Jason Grigsby</a> and <a href="https://twitter.com/#!/lyzadanger">Lyza Danger Gardner</a>. I have to admit that at first I was a bit turned off by the whole format of the Head First series, but after reading through it, I am a believer. The way they set it up really kept me engaged with the various styles of sharing information. It also was helpful to have some simple exercises to reinforce the concepts - breaking out a pencil while reading is great. I've always been a fan of workbooks. Of course the code examples are fantastic as well.</p>
<p>I totally went into the book thinking the first couple of chapters would be a review for me, but holy cow, I learned a ton about responsive design, especially the ways to do it mobile first. Then the book moved on to the more difficult subjects of whether or not to build a separate mobile site, how to do that if you choose to do it, and the craziness that is WURFL and device capability detection. For me these chapters were the meat and potatoes of the book and I learned so much about how to go about all of this. As a front end coder, the PHP was a bit difficult for me, but the book laid things out in an easy to understand manner. Since I've lately been working on learning to program I found all the vanilla JavaScript concepts I've learned to be in the PHP so it wasn't as hard as I would have initially thought.</p>
<p>The chapter where they use jQuery Mobile to build a site was also a fantastic insight into what a great framework can do to help push along the process, especially when you may not have easy access to lots of devices. Using something that is already tested thoroughly is so helpful. I am a huge fan of the mobile web and so seeing how to do that really well with clean, semantic markup and then just using the new HTML5 data attributes to add on to the look and feel is awesome. It all comes together so easily; I hope I have a future project where I get to use this.</p>
<p>They leave you on a high note, with the idea that doing things cleanly with the markup and moving from there towards progressive enhancement is the way to go to be future friendly and hopefully support as many devices as possible. This really translates into supporting as many users as possible, because it is the people interacting with the device that we want to support. Everyone deserves to get to the information they are after no matter the device they are using or the speed of their connection. Jason and Lyza show how to do that beautifully. I am so thankful that we live in the same town, because I get to pester them at Mobile Portland and I will be able to benefit from the device lab they are working tirelessly to build.</p>
<p>My next steps are to go back over the CSS for this site and set it up to be mobile first. I hope some mobile projects to come my way soon, it's definitely where my interest lies at this point. The diversity of it all fascinates me. Thank you Jason and Lyza for feeding my fascination with a great book.</p>

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			<title>Respect</title>
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			<updated>2012-04-17T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>My last post was on the culture of busy that I think is ingrained in most of our lives, but I looked at it from the perspective of the web world and how it is affecting me when I go out and talk with potential clients about work.</p>
<p>Over the weekend I finished reading <em><a href="http://www.abookapart.com/products/design-is-a-job">Design is a Job</a></em> by <a href="https://twitter.com/#!/mike_ftw">Mike Monteiro</a> (click through to Mike's twitter at your own risk, his twitter background is NSFW). Mike's thoughts actually resonated a lot with me and the busyness I have been thinking about. Like the other books in the <a href="http://www.abookapart.com/">A Book Apart</a> series, it was a quick, easy read and I enjoyed it for the most part. I don't always like Mike's writing style, but the heart of his message is a really important one and I believe it comes down to demanding respect. Through talking about money, dealing with clients who try to design the site themselves, dealing with the problems of working with others; it all boils down to demanding that clients respect you, and your abilities, and also that you respect those around you on the team, be they in your company or the client's.</p>
<p>This means that you stand up for yourself, you are not working horrid hours because of demanding clients treating you with a lack of respect, you are entitled to a life outside of your work. It applies just as much to in-house talent as it does to those of use working independently or for digital agencies. I also found that much of what he wrote about clients applied just as much to working in a large company with in house folks who are your client as it applies to the digital agency with clients outside the company.</p>
<p>So as I strive for the balance I spoke of in the last post, I am grateful for Mike's reminders to stand up for myself. It can be difficult at times, but I've been doing it a lot lately and it's totally worth it. I was also reminded to think about what I love to do and look for the situations where I get to do that and excel. So I am heeding Mike's advice</p>
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<p>...I'd caution you to stay away from jobs that take you away from the things you love to do....</p>
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			<title>Cult of Busy</title>
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			<updated>2012-04-04T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been thinking a lot about the word busy lately. It is used all the time by most people these days. The typical response when two people greet each other and ask &quot;How are you?&quot; is busy. And if you do not say you are busy, you are most likely seen as strange. As I've become more established and reached out to more people about working with them on projects one of the interesting things I've had to figure out is setting expectations. I do not want to be busy. I want to be balanced. I want to work hard when I work and then leave that and do other things, such as cook a great dinner, be with my husband, and read a non tech related book or magazine.</p>
<p>As I strive for this, I am finding I am swimming against the tide of my particular industry norm. I honestly think that because so many people work full time jobs and then take on freelance work for evenings and weekends, they have ruined our clients expectations and skewed the perception of what's a normal work day. Clients expectations are that everyone works all the time in the web/design world. This is directly related to this culture of busy, people overload themselves and then when asked, they are always busy.</p>
<p>I also feel like the fear of missing out plays a very large role in our business. I am most certainly missing things on a daily basis, as I leave twitter alone for hours at a time or don't read all the latest articles that come my way. But I also feel like if it is a big enough deal, I won't miss it. There is just no way that I can keep up with everything, so I step away, even if it means missing something that I may or may not find interesting.</p>
<p>So what is it about our culture that makes us want to seem busy? If you are really busy does that mean you are important? Does it boost one's ego? I haven't figured that out yet, but I do know that I don't care what others think, I'm more concerned with my health, both physical and emotional, and that being busy isn't good for me. I need time to reflect and absorb the things happening to and around me. I love to code, but I also need time away from it. So as I continue down this road of independent working, I look for ways to ensure that I do not become overwhelmed, but instead am balanced with work and the rest of my life.</p>

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			<title>UI Iteration Done Right</title>
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			<updated>2012-04-03T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I have been doing the <a href="http://www.codecademy.com/#!/exercises/0">Codecademy</a> <a href="http://codeyear.com/">Code Year</a> courses for the past three months and during that time Codecademy has done some really wonderful tweaks and changes to their UI. This post is a review of what I've seen as far as the changes to the user experience doing the courses and not about the actual course content (although I may say a bit about that at the end).</p>
<p>When I first started playing around with Codecademy it was in-between Christmas and New Year's when I was doing an intensive week of getting better with JavaScript, something I've been working on for about six months now (and as an aside, it's working, I'm getting better). The UI was inventive, with an area to code, a console to see outputs and the instructions to the left. There were some clunky bits to it, but overall it seemed to work well. But over the course of the last three  months, the team at Codecademy has improved the UI and the experience of actually working through the exercises in so many little ways I cannot even list them all here. They have improved the way the console tracks the changes you've made, the way you move from lesson to lesson, the global navigation at the very top of the page, and more. Each week there are changes and tweaks, the interface is continually evolving. No change has ever been so large that I am thrown off or trying to find things, but they all feel intuitive and improve the experience. This is doing iterative design the right way. The product is improving. There are times when I start a lesson and it isn't until I am part way through that I even notice the change, but it has made it easier to complete my tasks. Plus they are mind readers as well; there are changes I thought would improve the experience and all of them have been made over the course of the last three months.</p>
<p>I am learning about product iteration as I also learn JavaScript. Now each week when I log in to do the latest, I am taking a moment to examine the interface to look for improvements and changes. Good job Codecademy team, you have done well with the improving your interface, which is no easy feat, and I congratulate you.</p>
<p>A small side note about the content. I have done every single JavaScript exercise and some have been better than others, but I do have to say I am learning and the addition of the forum a few months back improved the experience immensely because you could ask questions and get help when stuck. Codecademy is moving on to HTML next week and I've already gone through the first lesson to see what they are doing, I am less impressed with the content and how they are teaching it. Since this is an area I don't really need help with, I won't be doing this section, but I do hope they improve the lessons.</p>

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			<title>Device Ponderings</title>
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			<updated>2012-03-20T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I've been listening to a lot of podcasts lately. Most of them have been quite geeky and to be honest, it's been <a href="https://twitter.com/#!/jensimmons">Jen Simmon's</a> on <a href="http://5by5.tv/webahead">The Web Ahead</a>. She's lately been interviewing a lot of people about mobile, <a href="https://twitter.com/#!/grigs">Jason Grigsby</a>, <a href="https://twitter.com/#!/lukew">Luke Wroblewski</a>, and most recently, <a href="https://twitter.com/#!/lyzadanger">Lyza Danger Gardner</a>. As I work on different projects, I've been thinking about all these devices and what it means for what I build.</p>
<p>I try with each and every project to build a good foundation, whether the client actively brings up the desire for something that will work on mobile. I feel lucky that I do have a client thinking this way, so I am working hard to set up a foundation to prepare for how we will adapt the product to work on different devices. But I must admit, that I am more and more amazed when it isn't brought up at all. Meeting people where they are is so important and as more devices come out I continue to think about this and wonder what the best way forward is. I feel fortunate to be in a community that is also thinking about it too, because they feed my need to learn and push myself.</p>
<p>What I have come to realize is that I really, really want to work with folks who are doing thinking about all these really complicated, tricky ideas. I am excited that I have a project where we are talking about it and I can't wait to see where it goes in the future, but I also really hope that more projects come my way where in the initial kick off meetings how to meet people where they are is discussed, whatever form that takes is not as important as actually talking about it. Speaking of which, if you have projects like this and you need help, I would love to help you out.</p>

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			<title>A bit of freshening up</title>
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			<updated>2012-02-17T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>So I've done a bit of freshening up around here, well really, it's a completely new design. Most of the look and feel changed at least a bit on this site, but the real news for me is the code under the hood. I've been using Wordpress for almost a year now and when I created my original theme last year I have to admit that I cheated quite a bit. I mean, I know how to write code, why figure out how to customize everything in the admin? Well, I decided it was past time to really understand how Wordpress works and to dig into theme creation. Therefore the site you are looking at now is actually using a lot of good stuff to make sure the right data is pulling on the right page. I have built a custom post type for the portfolio section and then used it again on the home page. I've actually made some custom fields for bits and pieces of each page and each page has a template BUT the content is pulling the proper way from either the page content or a custom field. It's been great fun to figure out and I've learned a bit of PHP in the process (ugh, how do people program with this language?) and also learned a lot about Wordpress along the way.</p>
<p>As to the design, I have to thank a good friend, <a href="http://www.poncedesign.com/flash.html">Luis Ponce de Leon</a>, for taking a look at where I was and helping me to see ways to improve, even going so far as to do a quick mock up for me. I am not a designer and so I always need an extra push to get things a bit further along. I also used <a href="http://lesscss.org/">LESS</a> for writing and then compiling the CSS, I don't think I've fully grasped all I can do with it, but I'm getting there. <a href="http://twitter.github.com/bootstrap/">Twitter's Bootstrap</a> has such great layout options. I used that for the basic structure and it made life so easy. I love a good framework if it is right for the project. <a href="https://github.com/stubbornella/oocss/wiki">OOCSS</a> is making an appearance for margins and padding too because I've come to love it so much.</p>
<p>I know I still have work to do, I need to refactor the CSS to really get it down to size and I also have one visual thing that is bothering me, but who knows if anyone else will ever notice it. I've switched my sans-serif font choice and I'll wait to see if I still like it in a week. It's responsive, but I know that there are areas to improve on that front as well. I've tested it in the latest version of Safari, Chrome, Opera and Firefox and IE9, all in all I haven't found anything major that's wrong in any of them, so I <em>think</em> I'm good on the browser front. I also want to add in some basic structure support and text only support for the older versions of IE, but frankly based on my users stats, that can wait a bit. Is a personal site ever really done? Probably not, but I'm fairly pleased with this one right now. I'm sure next week I'll be tweaking it though.</p>

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			<title>This is it</title>
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			<updated>2012-01-31T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Well, this is it, today is my last day at my steady full time position. Tomorrow is my first day as an LLC; Susan Jean Robertson Development, LLC to be exact. I know, I can't believe it either! I am excited, scared, and nervous all at the same time. This idea has been in my head for years but the timing has never seemed right; that all changed in the last several months as the pieces came together.</p>
<p>As of now, I'm open for business and looking for front end development work. I hope to be pairing up with designers in the area to help them complete client projects and of course anyone else who needs some good old fashioned code written. I have a big project right off the bat, for which I am exceedingly grateful. Plus, I'm just plain excited to work on the project; the people are fantastic and the project is exciting and will definitely push my skills.</p>
<p>In addition I feel fortunate for a few people in my life who have pushed me and asked me the right questions at the right time to help me get here. Good friends who push you are so valuable, as is a husband who is nothing but supportive.  I am also grateful for the community both here in Portland and online, because every time I've asked for advice or help, I have gotten answers without hesitation. It is still nothing short of amazing to me when people I admire take the time to answer my questions. The internets is the best!</p>
<p>Here's to an exciting 2012, filled with projects and code. Thanks to all who've helped me get this far.</p>

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			<title>World changing?</title>
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			<updated>2012-01-20T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>This past week I was fortunate enough to attend the <a href="http://www.piepdx.com/">PIE</a> Demo Day at the Bagdad Theater. I was excited to see what the first class of PIE had been up to and what was happening in the start up community here in Portland. It was a fun event and a new experience for me, I'd never heard anyone pitching their business looking for funding, so I learned quite a bit by watching. But it also made me think quite a bit. At some point during the introduction, one of the founders of PIE talked about businesses changing the world. And as I pondered the businesses that presented I couldn't help but wonder how any of the ideas were truly world changing. I mean absolutely no disrespect to any of the folks who worked hard and were on that stage, they all are interesting and the business ideas were quite good. A few of the apps I would love to try. But would I classify them as world changing?</p>
<p>This theme keeps coming up in things that I am reading. First in The Great Discontent <a href="http://thegreatdiscontent.com/noah-stokes">interview</a> with <a href="https://twitter.com/#!/motherfuton">Noah Stokes</a>, he talked about the experience of going to <a href="http://brooklynbeta.org/2011">Brooklyn Beta</a> and being challenged by business leaders to think about how we as a community can use our skills to change things in healthcare and education. I read a lot of different thoughts online after Brooklyn Beta that reverberated the theme of doing something larger.</p>
<p>Then I got the second issue of <a href="http://alwaysreadthemanual.com/">The Manual</a> and read the piece by <a href="https://twitter.com/#!/cennydd">Cennydd Bowles</a>. It struck the same chord, Cennydd calls for great design, human centered design.</p>
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<p>Great products also meet the needs of society as a whole. So we should design for the good of the web, for the good of design, for the good of the world.<br>
-page 56, The Manual, issue 2</p>
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<p>And again he reiterates:</p>
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<p>In this new environment, we'll see personal success defined through the success we bring to other people's lives.<br>
-page 56, The Manual, issue 2</p>
</blockquote>
<p>In the final essay in The Manual, Josh Brewer sums up a lot of what is being said about design leading today.</p>
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<p>The era of great design teams is upon us. It will be led by men and women who challenge what we think is possible, inspire us to do more than we believe we can, and encourage us to be even greater than they are.<br>
These leaders free us as teams to reach inside ourselves and create what has never been seen or done before.<br>
-pages 83-84, The Manual, issue 2</p>
</blockquote>
<p>I in no way feel like I understand fully how I can and should be participating in something that not only is exciting and fun for me to do as work, but also would be contributing to something much larger than myself, but I do know that I'm now on the lookout for what it may be. I not only want to help create beautiful things that function well, but things that will meet a real need. Because I am tired of the chatter about the next great app that connects me to my friends, I have more than enough ways to connect with people online and in reality, I should probably step away from the screen and connect in person more often. So this week I've been contemplative and I've been wondering a lot about what this means for me. The desire is growing in me, now it is time for me to figure out what to do. Also, as I prepare to make a large change in my professional life, where does this fit in? That's what I'll be thinking about over the next several weeks and probably months.</p>
<p><strong>Update:</strong> Just after I posted this, I watched a fantastic video and reread a recent article. They tie in perfectly with the ideas above. <a href="https://twitter.com/#!/wilsonminer">Wilson Miner's</a> talk from <a href="http://2011.buildconf.com/">Build</a> 2011 is amazing and for a small donation you can see all the <a href="http://videos.buildconf.com/access/">videos</a> from the conference, it is worth it for this talk alone. In addition, <a href="https://twitter.com/#!/FictiveCameron">Cameron Koczon's</a> A List Apart <a href="http://www.alistapart.com/articles/an-important-time-for-design/">article</a> is fantastic. We are in a time where lots of people are thinking about design and design as leading the way. It's exciting and provides a lot to think about.</p>

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			<title>3 Things</title>
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			<updated>2012-01-12T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>This past week I began the concrete moves toward a fairly risky and big change in my life. I'll talk more about it later here, but if you follow me on the Twitters, than you probably know what I'm talking about. But after I finally did the first concrete thing toward my goal, amazing things began to happen to me. And I relearned 3 very important things.</p>
<ol>
<li>You never know when you meet someone how they may be an important connection or relationship later on down the road. As I have talked with people this week it has been amazing some of the really amazing leads and connections that are happening. Plus the ability to even make change happen for me is because of a connection that I hadn't talked to in years who contacted me out of the blue.</li>
<li>This is a small town, especially within the sub community that I work. BUT that being said, folks are the most generous people, always willing to chat and answer questions and for that I am so very grateful.</li>
<li>Connections, relationships and people are what it is all truly about. The rest falls into place from there.</li>
</ol>
<p>This was hammered home to me throughout this week. And then today I read this:</p>
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<p>I've said it before &amp; I'll say it again: Act like the person you want to be, not the person you think you are. Action --&gt; Reaction --&gt; Proof<br>
— Whitney Hess (@whitneyhess) <a href="https://twitter.com/whitneyhess/status/157552113495449600">January 12, 2012</a></p>
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<p>Whitney said it so well, and she is right. So as I realize that people around me are awesome, I'm doing my best to return that awesomeness as much as possible.</p>

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			<title>Hey, I&#39;m learning</title>
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			<updated>2012-01-06T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Many months ago I wrote about <a href="http://susanjeanrobertson.com/code/my-dirty-secret/">my frustration in trying to learn JavaScript</a>. It has been my difficulty and my secret for far too long. So for the holidays I took vacation time and the week between Christmas and New Years I studied JavaScript. I am loaded up with books and I am also using a few online resources. I have an idea for a project where I'm going to code a gauge that will pull information from a data warehouse that my husband built that to learn how to do that sort of thing (yes we are a geeky household). So with all that, I dug in to start learning. It is going very slowly, I mean really slowly. My poor mind just doesn't work great with this stuff, but I am persevering and I have to say that I am learning. By the end of the week I was getting the problems and I was understanding what I was doing.</p>
<p>So in the next couple weeks I will be soldiering on and trying to get my project built out over the weekends. But I have to say, this is the farthest I've come and I have also figured out how I learn this stuff well, I need problems to solve and exercises to do and I've found tons. Thank you internets, you are the best for all you offer for free!</p>
<p>In case anyone is wondering, here's my list of resources that I'm using:</p>
<ul>
<li><a href="http://eloquentjavascript.net/">Eloquent JavaScript</a> - It is so awesome to have this all in one in the browser and I'm half way through.</li>
<li><a href="http://www.codecademy.com/#!/exercises/0">Codeacademy</a> - I love the way they do the exercises, basic, but it's been good to get me going.</li>
<li><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Professional-JavaScript-Developers-Wrox-Programmer/dp/047022780X/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1325873537&amp;sr=1-1">Professional JavaScript for Web Developers</a> - I still like having a reference type book and I'm reading it too as I look things up as I work through the above.</li>
<li><a href="http://www.javascriptenlightenment.com/">JavaScript Enlightenment</a> - This is going to be a main focus as I work through objects next</li>
</ul>
<p>The other thing I ran across today was <a href="http://sharedfil.es/js-48hIfQE4XK.html">this</a> from <a href="http://adactio.com/">Jeremy Keith</a> and it just reinforced my decision to learn Vanilla JavaScript rather than jQuery - there may be many times where that is much more appropriate or easier.</p>
<p>I also want to thank the folks who have encouraged me, you know who you are, and it has kept me going. (Especially some help from down under!)</p>

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			<title>The Manual, Issue I</title>
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			<updated>2011-11-29T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>This post is incredibly long overdue, but a while back I made my way through <em><a href="http://alwaysreadthemanual.com/">The Manual</a></em> and enjoyed it thoroughly. I read it in various chunks, some on the bus, some while relaxing at home; but no matter where or when I stopped numerous times to reread a sentence and just ponder the idea presented to me. The authors are all excellent, all people who I have followed online and admire. I so wanted to write  a thorough review, but that just hasn't been happening for me, so below I share some of the thoughts that I continue to go back to as I reread the pieces.</p>
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<p>All design has a job to do; so too does web design.<br>
-<a href="http://twitter.com/#!/colly">Simon Collison</a>, page 11</p>
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<p>Colly's essay was fantastic and I actually think I stopped the most while reading through it. The notions and values of craftsmanship along with the need for inquiry, it all made me pause several times.</p>
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<p>Technology runs counter to our personhood; technology is complicated and shallow, but people are simple and deep. Our true needs are not complex.
Good technology makes us feel like we are inching closer to who we truly want to be.<br>
-<a href="http://twitter.com/#!/fchimero">Frank Chimero</a>, page 26</p>
</blockquote>
<p>Following on the heels of Colly, Frank was equally amazing to me. I have struggled mightily with the role of technology in my life. I make my living making things that work on technological devices, but I fear for technology taking over my life. I also think that technology has introduced me to a lot of very shallow relationships, but as Frank says, it should be bringing us closer to who we want to be, not farther away from that.</p>
<p><a href="http://twitter.com/#!/jontangerine">Jon Tan's</a> essay about archiving our work and how we do that has many intriguing images in it, the idea of walking into a museum with old machines running old operating systems so that we can see where we come from it incredibly interesting. We are way too quick with this technology to just dump things and not archive or remember, but remembering can be so helpful to the future.</p>
<p><a href="http://twitter.com/#!/bobulate">Liz Danzico's</a> piece on identity and who we are also struck a chord. I chuckled out loud when she talked about signatures being longer than actual emails because we want to make sure the world knows how to find all our different identities. Is this where we are going? It also ties back to Frank's piece, is this list of technology and identities helping us be our true selves or just a shallow representation?</p>
<p>Finally in <a href="http://twitter.com/#!/standardistas">The Standardista's</a> piece I was so excited to see them encouraging wide and deep reading in all kinds of fields to inform our work. It made me want to move to Ireland to take their course so that I would be forced into making the time to read all the wonderful books they listed. We are often so inward focused and it was great to be pushed to think outside of the code and design to what other disciplines can offer us.</p>
<p>Thank you to <a href="http://twitter.com/#!/goodonpaper">Andy McMillan</a>, <a href="http://twitter.com/#!/carywood">Carolyn Wood</a> and <a href="http://twitter.com/#!/jezburrows">Jez Burrows</a> for putting together such a truly wonderful issue, one which I keep going back to again and again. Now I am waiting as patiently as I can for Issue II and all that come after.</p>

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			<title>Conferences and Tribes</title>
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			<updated>2011-11-07T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>A few weeks ago after I attended <a href="http://south11.webdirections.org/">Web Directions South</a>, I read a great post by Mark Boulton, <a href="http://www.markboulton.co.uk/journal/comments/being-together">Being Together</a>, that got me thinking quite a bit about conferences and why I make it a point to attend and what I would really love to see happen.</p>
<p>I attended my first conference 4.5 years ago when I made the trek up to Seattle to attend <a href="http://aneventapart.com/">An Event Apart</a>. It was a fantastic conference. I was blown away by the speakers, the attendees, and the entire experience. I came back with a mind racing full of new ideas that I couldn't wait to start implementing. So the next year I made it a point to go again and I had the same experience and this time actually got to meet some of the speakers and share lunch. Again, the experience was great. I have attended for 4 years running and then this year I also thought about trying out a different conference, to see what the differences would be. So we decided to vacation in Sydney at the same time as <a href="http://south11.webdirections.org/">Web Directions South</a> and I attended. The experience was different since it was a multi-track conference and I had a lot more choices on who to hear speak and what topics I would delve into, but the quality of the speakers and the attendees was the same. I walked away thinking about many new things, many of which I am still contemplating.</p>
<p>But then I read Mark's <a href="http://www.markboulton.co.uk/journal/comments/being-together">post</a>, if you haven't read it, please go ahead and do so, this will make more sense if you do. I have no experience with the Drupal community, but what he described is exactly what I truly love about going to conferences. For me it is about being with my tribe, it is about being in a room full of people who get it, who understand that standards, accessibility, good design, usability; they are important. The attendees at the events are my people. Since I work in a large bureaucracy, it is so wonderful to have two days together where I sit with people who understand and most of all, people who are probably going through the same things I am when I'm back in the office. I spend a lot of time fighting to get things done well, to make sure everyone can access our sites, so to be able to sit in a room full of people and agree on that and then push past it to delve more deeply into different topics is a true joy.</p>
<p>Mark proposes creating a web design association of some type to mimic what the Drupal community does. To have people come together just to be together to make our field better. Discussions would happen more organically and everyone would be able to participate. This sounds so awesome to me. It is something I would definitely want to be a part of because as I've continued to attend events in order to be with my people, I will admit that the talks are not as great as they first were. I am so immersed in the community now that I feel I am hearing and reading about a lot of the same things over and over again.</p>
<p>To be able to just be together, that would be wonderful and I would pay to get there to be with my tribe.</p>

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			<title>Web Directions South</title>
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			<updated>2011-10-23T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I just returned from a lovely vacation in Sydney where I also happened to fit in a few days of geekery by attending <a href="http://south11.webdirections.org/">Web Directions South</a>. I wanted to attend this conference because I was excited about the people I could meet being on the other side of the world and I have never done a Web Directions event before and I have heard so many good things about them. Plus, who wouldn't want to go to Sydney?</p>
<p>Overall I was extremely impressed with the entirety of the event. <a href="http://twitter.com/#!/johnallsopp">John</a> and <a href="http://twitter.com/#!/maxine">Maxine</a> did such a great job in finding diverse, interesting speakers and the keynotes truly were fantastic and thought provoking talks. I heard a lot of great people, had some awesome conversations and am so glad I went.</p>
<p>A few highlights for me:</p>
<ul>
<li><a href="http://twitter.com/#!/stephenanderson">Stephen P. Anderson</a> talking about sustaining passionate users in the end of day keynote on the first day, he conveyed a lot of what has made me uneasy about the gamification craze of late, as he called it &quot;badgification.&quot; In my workplace we have someone really into the concept, but I don't think games are right for every situation and I also think people tire and bore of them easily, there needs to be more meat there than earning points and badges to keep people engaged. One of the interesting things Stephen has learned is that the applications people use regularly are the ones they trust and that are reliable, not because they are a delight to use or even close to perfect.</li>
<li><a href="http://twitter.com/#!/johnallsopp">John Allsopp</a> revisited his Dao of Web Design article from 11 years ago. I really enjoyed the way John mixed the quotes from the Dao on the screen with the points he was making about the web and the lasting thought from him (excuse my paraphrase from my scrawled notes) is that the strength of the web is that it takes the control out of our hands and puts it in the hands of the user. This is hard, it's hard to have so many different devices and scenarios where someone may be accessing our content, but the challenge is what makes it so interesting. A final point he made is to try and stop controlling the web, but harness the adaptability of it. This talk was inspiring to me and I'm still sorting through and thinking about the ideas he presented. I scribbled as many notes as I could and I'm sure I'll be going back and listening to the podcast when it is available.</li>
<li><a href="http://twitter.com/#!/rahulsen79">Rahul Sen</a> did a talk entitled &quot;Interaction Design Bauhaus&quot; and I admit that I wasn't quite sure what it would be about but I stuck around out of sheer curiosity. I am so glad that I did, it was one of my favorite sessions. He took us through the different movements of historical design, mostly using architecture to illustrate them (he was originally an architect). It was a fascinating walk through history, but then he tied that history to what is happening now in interaction design. We are currently making new forms and containers for design and interaction and currently we are using look and feel of the old ones, making calendars in the iOS look like old desktop calendars, but really we need to break out of that and let ourselves think differently. He spoke highly of Windows Phone 7 because the design is so different from iOS and he's hoping it will push some new and creative design ideas out there. He talked about the phase we are now in as needing to let go of the old look and feel of things and needing to return to an honesty and purity in interaction digital experiences. It was a great talk and I highly recommend the podcast once it's out, it will be worth it.</li>
<li>I also went to several different technical talks and I honestly can't wait to get the slides and start playing with the CSS3 in more detail, <a href="http://twitter.com/#!/@stefsull">Stephanie</a> did a great presentation on it as did her husband <a href="http://twitter.com/#!/@garazi">Greg</a>, most impressive was the demo of the CSS Shaders that Adobe has proposed. I learned about a lot of great tools for CSS from <a href="http://twitter.com/#!/@stubbornella">Nicole</a>, and can't wait to start using them in my day-to-day  work life. In addition to this, once I'm more deeply into JavaScript, I want to learn more about Coffeescript, as <a href="http://twitter.com/#!/@jashkenas">Jeremy</a> spoke I realized I need to learn more about it. I laughed my way through <a href="http://twitter.com/#!/@RellyAB">Relly's</a> talk on microcopy, but was also reminded how important it really is, and <a href="http://twitter.com/#!/@jamesbridle">James</a> really challenged me to think a lot about what is happening in our world and the new aesthetic as he calls it (be sure to catch the video of this when it comes out).</li>
</ul>
<p>Thank you so much to Web Directions for putting together such a fantastic couple of day. I'll be pondering many of the things said for quite some time to come and I can't wait to try out the many coding ideas as well. All of the talks will be coming out as podcasts, so I suggest you check them out, well worth the time. And the video of James Bridle should be amazing as well.</p>

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			<title>Joys of Starting from Scratch</title>
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			<updated>2011-09-28T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Many may think that this post is odd, but when you toil in a large, bureaucratic organization, starting and working on something new, from scratch is a treat. Recently I got to do it three times. Instead of maintaining a five year old code base and just fixing and updating it or adding on a feature here or there, I was given new mock-ups and told to go wild. I admit that at first I was so excited I hardly knew what to do. But then I started to think, really think about what type of standards I wanted to set for all the new sites and redesigns that will come in the future. The designer chose a 12 column grid, so I rolled my own small CSS framework for it, rather than use one that already exists and seemed quite bloated. Then I continued to think. I wanted the CSS to be as compact as possible and where have I heard that before? From <a href="http://www.stubbornella.org/content/">Nicole</a>, of course. Off to the <a href="https://github.com/stubbornella/oocss/wiki">OOCSS github</a> I went and downloaded the code to see what would work for our situation. Thank you so much OOCSS for your margins and padding, you percentage splits to divide columns, you are a God send. Then it was time to start and I enjoyed every minute. The best part? This all happened about 8 months ago on the first of the three sites and because of the things I instituted then, the sites I've done since have been a breeze. I don't think I'll ever do another site again without incorporating some part of OOCSS, at the very least the margins and padding cause it is so wonderful to not write that over and over in your CSS. Not that anything is perfect, but anything that cuts down on how much you have to write over and over again, is wonderful.</p>
<p>What would I do differently? Well, once we can get LESS working on the server side, then that's when I think the real fun will come. We hesitate to use it until it is on the servers so that folks with JavaScript disabled aren't left out on the styles, but I'm so excited to see how much that will increase efficiency in writing the code.</p>

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			<title>The Working Life: The Promise and Betrayal of Modern Work</title>
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				<p>You can find more about this book in a <a href="/books/the-working-life/">piece</a> I wrote after reading it.</p>
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<p>the work ethic as the American dream: With virtue and hard work, anyone can make it.</p>
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<p>Rybczynski tells us that the only other pastime in history that engaged people for that many hours was reading, during the eighteenth century. He believes that one reason why people spend more time watching television than reading is that reading requires a short regular daily habit, whereas television can be watched at irregular intervals.</p>
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<p>What we call the Renaissance man is someone interested and accomplished in many areas and in control of who he is and what he does. The ideal of the Renaissance man stands in sharp contrast to the modern view. While we still admire well-rounded people, we tend to encourage and reward those who excel in one profession or area of work.</p>
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<p>One of Studs Terkel’s interviewees observes: &quot;Most of us have jobs that are too small for our spirit. Jobs are not big enough for people.&quot;</p>
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<p>But where do we get these “nurturing coaches” and “head coaches” who are willing to give up the power they have held in the past to stand on the sidelines? Do they take sensitivity training? Or do companies hire new managers with these traits? Nurturing, coaching, and the ability to refrain from using positional power are not skills or personality traits that people learn and develop in business schools.</p>
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<p>Another result of modern management techniques was that they reshaped the social significance of work so that work slowly took over a larger slice of our lives. Lastly, while employees were busy having their “hot buttons” pushed, hanging from ropes in Outward Bound programs, and building teams and task forces, wages remained stagnant, while behind boardroom doors corporate executives patted themselves on the back with bonuses, stock options, and platinum parachutes.</p>
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<p>because employees participate does not mean that their relationship to management is ethical. People can participate in fraudulent business practices or they may participate because they are afraid of losing their job or afraid of their manager.</p>
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<p>Employers and the economy are fickle and you shouldn’t invest too much of yourself in the organization.</p>
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<p>Guilds are one of the most important developments in the history of work, because they gave workers greater control over their lives. The guild’s main function was protection of the trade, protection of its members, and protection of the customer.</p>
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<p>Work takes on greater importance in a society where people believe that they can master the material world and shape their own destinies, and less where they believe that they can’t.</p>
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<p>This scene in Wilson’s novel still resonates with readers today because all of us at some time decide how much of ourselves we are willing to reveal to an organization. In the modern workplace it isn’t always easy to draw this line. This thin line is not about the quantity of work you will do. It is the boundary that you draw between your private life and inner self and the more public aspects needed to do your job. Some workplaces prefer that there be no line between the two. Deciding how much to give and how much to withhold can be confounding and confusing.</p>
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<p>Not all romantic visions of work are fantasy; however, the ability to reap the personal, moral, social, and material benefits that work offers depends as much on where, for whom, and under what conditions people work as it does on what they actually do.</p>
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<p>brings out what is best and most distinctive about being human—our abilities to think, feel, reflect, create, and learn. We need leisure to develop wisdom.</p>
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<p>The preindustrial worker isn’t lazy; he or she doesn’t regard time as money and doesn’t see the point of working more than is necessary. Leisure is more valuable than money.</p>
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<p>Power is a word unsaid—or only occasionally whispered—among the managerial ranks. Nonetheless, managers have power over the economic well-being of employees.</p>
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<p>wish for time off to build wood-strip canoes, travel, or spend time with their families, but not to watch more television(even if that’s what they actually would do with time off).</p>
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<p>Leisure is more than free time; it is freedom from need and the necessity of work, and an opportunity to do specific things.</p>
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<p>But cohesive groups and teams aren’t always the best way to work or make decisions.</p>
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<p>jobs should be designed so that they are not overly tedious or demeaning. And what we do at work shouldn’t inhibit our ability to pursue a good life outside of it.</p>
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<p>work itself has moral and spiritual value and everyone is called by God to some kind of work in life. In this view, work is good no matter how menial and regardlessof pay.</p>
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<p>Rybczynski argues that the weekend is not a place to escape work, but a place to create meaningful work and compensate for the lack of personal rewards on the job.</p>
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<p>While work was no longer disparaged by the Church, the key social distinction between “respectable” people and the rest of society still rested on who did manual labor and who did not.</p>
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<p>The idea of worthy work is subjective in the sense that hope is a potential that people have, but may or may not actualize. Not everyone gets to use the object that they make. But Morris’s point is that if they did, they would take pleasure in using or owning it.</p>
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<p>The names of the things we work with and the terms we use to talk about work form a conceptual map of the workplace.</p>
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<p>The word work is not only a kind of activity but a set of ideas and values related to that activity.</p>
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<p>The accumulation of wealth was a sign that you were among God’s chosen. Laziness and poverty indicated that you probably were not.</p>
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<p>The principle of freedom is at the heart of this relationship and is fundamental to how we think about work—freedom to work, freedom at work, and freedom from work.</p>
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<p>Psychological tests, like horoscopes and magazine quizzes on sex appeal, promise to shed light on the inner self. The problem is that when one takes these tests at work, self-knowledge comes at the price of self-exposure and perhaps unfair pigeonholing. While many things have changed since Whyte’s time, his general critique of the corporation probably still holds true, but most employees either don’t care or simply accept these tests as part of the job.</p>
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<p>We wish we didn’t have to work so that we could enjoy what the market has to offer us in terms of toys, vacations, and other amusements—all of which cost money.</p>
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<p>We live in a paradoxical culture that both celebrates work and continually strives to eliminate it.</p>
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<p>some people will always prefer to be on their own rather than at work. For them, work truly is pay for lost freedom, as much as employers want them to believe that they are paid for their “value added.”</p>
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<p>When I look at the historical big picture, I am perplexed at the domination of life by paid employment at a time when life itself should be getting easier.</p>
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<p>Nonetheless, it took about a thousand years for the idea of work to ascend in priority from Benedict’s ideal of “prayer and work” to the Protestant notion of “work and prayer.”</p>
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<p>The Rule of St. Benedict, written in 528, may well be the oldest and most continuously used management guide in Western history.</p>
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<p>Perhaps the demand for meaningful work grows because we see the supply shrinking.</p>
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<p>“The chief purpose of business entertaining is to confuse people into applying social standards, such as loyalty regardless of merit, to business dealings.”</p>
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<p>Ideally, professionals have jobs, but they don’t do jobs.</p>
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<p>Taking the plunge into meaningful work is risky:</p>
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<p>although work can ennoble us, wear us down, or make us rich, it is leisure that perfects us as human beings.</p>
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<p>By “de-job” Bridges means that people in organizations have to get rid of the fragmented idea of work expressed by the word job.</p>
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<p>Job is the word that best refers to the activity of economic beings whose work consists of specific tasks done in order to buy thethings they want and need to live. In contrast, the definitions of work, labor, toil, and drudgery refer to the positive and negative characteristics of these activities, regardless of whether they are paid or not paid. The meaning of the actual work we do every day and the meaning of work itself in our culture may be different, but they are intertwined. The first is about one’s own experience of work and the second is about work’s cultural meaning and value.</p>
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<p>Today, time measures and structures tasks, rather than tasks measuring and structuring time.</p>
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<p>The man at work became the man at home. In this case the integration of work and life that Mills applauds in the nineteenth century is disastrous in the twentieth. Work, as Mills describes it, ruins rather than enhances home life and life in the community.</p>
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<p>Perhaps now, more than ever, young people need to take Aristotle’s advice and study the liberal arts so that they can learn how to make life choices. We have let work dominate us because it organizes our lives and it has obvious built-inrewards. But one can only marvel at the possibilities for work and life once those who “long for something more” figure out what that “something” is and choose to pursue it.</p>
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<p>consequence of removing boundaries of time and location from work is removing the wall between work life and home life, between organization time and self time.</p>
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<p>there is something to be said for doing nothing and hanging out with one’s friends. While there may be the potential for trouble, there is also the potential to learn how to enjoy life on one’s own terms and not those of the consumer market.</p>
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<p>Did TQM and the management innovations before it make work better for people? In other words, did work become more enjoyable, meaningful, profitable? Did these new systems create an environment of trust? Did they deliver on all that they promised—empowerment, training, the joy of being a team member?</p>
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<p>the amount of control people believe they have over the world around them influences the meaning of work in a culture. Work is important if we believe that we have the ability to control our future. The reverse is also true. As William Julius Wilson said, work gives people self-efficacy, and as William Morris observed, worthy work gives us hope. Without a belief that humans control and take responsibility for the economy, and that individual effort at work makes a difference, there is little reason to care about work.</p>
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<p>Howard portrayed the brave new workplaces as organizations where emotions and power relationships are tricky because management cloaks the hierarchy in friendly, surface egalitarianism and achieves control over work through domination of meanings, values, and feelings.</p>
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<p>Aristotle’s concern about people who focus their lives on working to make money was shared by Aesop and, as we shall see, later by the Catholics and Protestants, albeit for different reasons.</p>
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<p>One of the first things that Americans ask when they meet someone new is, “What do you do?” Europeans used to consider this a rude question, but they too are changing.</p>
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<p>Since the work ethic of Calvin and Franklin did not come naturally to most people, it was conveyed to children through stories.</p>
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<p>The great advantage of a strong corporate culture was that it was an all-inclusive, self-regulating social system. The disadvantages included the fact that it could be oppressive and resistant to change. But perhaps the greatest downside to it was that employees became increasingly dependent on work to fill needs—e.g., for friendship—that they might otherwise have filled outside of work. Hence, if you lost your job, you lost much more than your work and income.</p>
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<p>It is ironic that most students today pursue a liberal arts education so that they can get a job, when ideally it was meant to teach them how to use their leisure, not how to work.</p>
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<p>According to St. Thomas Aquinas, acedia is a kind of sadness or inability to find joy in spiritual work and doing good works.</p>
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<p>Employers wanted trust, loyalty, and commitment from employees, but many employees knew that their employers were no longer willing or able to reciprocate.</p>
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<p>have discovered that the “great job” that they worked so hard to get wasn’t what it was trumped up to be. Work was cutting into life outside of work. Life outside of work had more to offer than life at work.</p>
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<p>Aristotle believed that leisure was necessary for human happiness.</p>
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<p>Today we understand sloth as laziness or disinclination to work. But that was not the original meaning of acedia. It was neither a condemnation of laziness as we understand it, nor an affirmation of the value of work. Sloth wasn’t about not working, it was about not caring.</p>
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<p>having meaningful work energizes one’s life as a whole. That is the most distinctive thing about it. In this respect the experience of meaningful work and the elevated notion of leisure that we have been discussing are almost indistinguishable from each other.</p>
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<p>Whether life makes work better or work makes life better depends in part on which is more important. For some, work is simply the means of making a living; for others, it is that and an end in itself.</p>
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<p>It takes tremendous faith to overcome the demoralizing impact of a tedious dead-end job that offers no hope of a better life. Unemployment not only destroys hope, but it destroys the faith that we had in organizations and the social and economic system. Not everyone wants meaningful work. Many people just want to be treated with respect and to earn a decent living.</p>
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<p>one should perform one’s work to the best of his or her abilities,</p>
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<p>This is an era when life should be filled with all sorts of rewarding activities. Yet many find themselves caught up not only in long hours of work but in debt, and suffering from stress, loneliness, and crumbling families. Why? In part because we always want more, in part because we don’t realize that we have choices.</p>
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<p>Does life have a point if you live like an ant, working and accumulating things until you are aged and feeble? and Given the freedom to choose, what should we be doing with the time allotted to us in life?</p>
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<p>But not everyone exercises this freedom upon reaching such a goal, and most people don’t make it.</p>
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<p>Our most beloved picture of work came from the Renaissance: thatof work as creation.</p>
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<p>if you give people information and a say in how to improve their work, they can produce impressive results. The fact that managers are constantly amazed by this tells us something about the respect that they have had for employees.</p>
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<p>professions have become nothing more than a way to make a living. As a result of this they have not only lost the privileges of professions, but they have also abandoned the moral virtues that were just as much a part of crafts and professions as skill.28</p>
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<p>said that “business entertaining” is an oxymoron. It is neither business nor is it entertaining.</p>
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<p>For example, as late as the early seventeenth century, the working-class people of England seldom ate meals at regular times.15 Life in preindustrial days was a bit like the life of a college student—irregular eating and sleeping, intermingled with intense drinking, partying, and all-night work sessions.</p>
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<p>Both Martin Luther and John Calvin wrote extensive commentaries on the Book of Genesis in which they interpreted work as God’s commandment to us, not his curse on us.</p>
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<p>we put our happiness in the hands of the market and our employers.</p>
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<p>the most hated and unnatural way to make money is through usury and interest. Money should be used for exchange, not for the breeding of more money. Those who believe they should spend their lives working at getting or not losing money are, according to Aristotle, “intent on living only, and not upon living well.”7 People who are consumed with getting wealth use everything as a means to wealth. They are not able to enjoy anything for its own sake, which, as we saw earlier, was Aristotle’s definition of a leisure activity.</p>
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<p>There is something dishonest about an organization where workers create profits for the company and get a party, while senior management receives huge bonuses and stock options. This is the winner-take-all mentality. Those at the top take the lion’s share of rewards, and the gap between those at the top and those in the middle and bottom of organizations and society grows.</p>
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<p>The equation of hard work and a better life is more difficult to see when we work for other people, because in doing so we give up control of what we do.</p>
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<p>The ant lives for the future, but doesn’t always know what to do when he reaches it. The merit of the ant’s life plan is that his frugality saves him from want and prepares him for emergencies. But money also ensures freedom.</p>
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<p>I argue that work often promises to contribute more to our lives than it can deliver.</p>
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<p>Today employers know they can’t promise much to employees, especially when they must promise so much to stockholders. They know they can’t get trust and commitment with smoke and mirrors. Nonetheless, most still try.</p>
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<p>By examining the way we use and define the word work, we will see how our own use of the word isconnected to the collective use of it over time.</p>
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<p>you can play at your work only if two conditions are met: first, you don’t have to work, and second, you can work anywhere, anytime, and any way you want.</p>
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<p>In theory at least, if you set up a society for Aristotelian leisure, it might provide people with the same psychological and social needs as a society set up for work. In an Aristotelian utopia there would be no idle minds, hence no workshops for the devil.</p>
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<p>The stories in the readers showed how children with the right character got ahead, while the morally weak and undisciplined went away empty-handed.</p>
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<p>when people have to choose between more free time and more spending, most choose more spending.</p>
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<p>we tacitly assume that activities called work are less desirable than other sorts of occupations, since they keep you from doing other things.</p>
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<p>even with an engaged workforce and company educational programs, work sometimes cannot compete with the lure of really free time,</p>
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<p>Aristotle’s ideal life of leisure is not an idle life, but a socially, physically, and mentally active one.</p>
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<p>Unless you block out the world around you (as many people do), it’s difficult to enjoy leisure in a work- and consumer-oriented society that sometimes seems to be falling apart. Leisure is free, self-determined, reflective, and gratifying. It is what you really want to do, when you want to do it. Leisure doesn’t cost money, it can be hanging out with friends or family, reading a novel, or just daydreaming. It is a time in which we do those things that are valuable to us and worth doing. Because leisure is a time when we are free, it is also a time when we are most ourselves. Without leisure we might lose track of who we are. Without leisure we may find it more difficult to make sense of our lives.</p>
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<p>Empowered, so-called, on the job, they are powerless over their employment itself.</p>
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<p>Work provides for our material needs, but is work itself a human need?</p>
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<p>Why is it that the most democratic nation in the world does nothave the most democratic workplaces in the world? Perhaps the answer to this question lies in national characteristics.</p>
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<p>Whyte recommends that people fight the organization by tricking it or simply failing to capitulate to its demands.</p>
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<p>In their view, vagrancy and unemployment were not the result of economic conditions; they were the result of a personal moral deficiency.</p>
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<p>From ancient times to the early middle ages, hard work didn’t get you into heaven, demonstrate your moral goodness, endear you to your neighbors, or promise insight into the meaning of your life. Over time, work emerged from a morally neutral and somewhat negative idea to one that is rich with moral and social value, and fundamental to how we think of ourselves.</p>
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<p>We can endure the worst of jobs, if it is reasonable to hope that the job will get us where we want to go or at least feed us along the way.</p>
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<p>The other difference between job and work is that work is an activity done with or without pay, whereas the word job has a specific connection to work for pay or profit.</p>
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<p>If we have indeed traded freedom in the workplace for freedom in the marketplace, then one way to regain control is to restrict our freedom in the marketplace. Living below our means may not be as much fun as living above them, but it does allow more flexibility in deciding where we work and how much we work. Debt and desire can tether us to a job that we hate and devour the time that we might spend doing something we like.</p>
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<p>Meaningful work was primarily about the social and moral qualities of a job, not the particular work that one did.</p>
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<p>With industrialization workers were treated like replaceable parts. Today they feel like obsolete or disposable parts.</p>
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<p>One unforeseen problem with giving employees real power, based on an understanding of the business, is that they become frustrated and angry when management makes stupid strategic decisions.</p>
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<p>Little did Calvin know that despite his warnings against luxurious consumption, the work ethic would, for some, mutate from the belief that we were born to work into the belief that we were born to shop.</p>
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<p>Work feels very different when you can take it or leave it.</p>
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<p>Spontaneous sociability is operating when people work as a team, not because management tells them that they are a team, but because they trust each other and agree to work together toward a common goal.</p>
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<p>Holidays are more than days off; they are supposed to be public celebrations. But the public can’t celebrate together if most people are working.</p>
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<p>An important part of what it means to act “professional” is to have strong control over one’s emotions.</p>
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<p>The misery of work is frequently caused by others, whereas the joy we usually find on our own. That is why, when people dream of their ideal jobs, they often dream of working for themselves.</p>
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<p>meaning of life is a balance between living for the present and for the future. Russell and a number of other philosophers argue that the meaning of life is about how we should live, but Russell asserts that the hardest part of living is living for today.</p>
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<p>It is a frame of mind or attitude of imaginative people who love ideas.</p>
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<p>the Church had become more interested in a person’s disposition to sin, which was rooted in concrete social and work-related situations.</p>
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<p>Life would be empty if we could not engage in activities that were good in themselves and not driven by necessity.</p>
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<p>The Grasshopper, Suits speculates that if we lived in a utopia where no one had to work, we would eventually invent games that resembled work.</p>
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<p>People don’t mind toil or drudgery if it serves a purpose and they believe in the purpose it serves.</p>
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<p>the worst thing that we can do is relegate religion to the workplace. As we have seen, ever since the 1950s work has claimed more and more of employees’ lives.</p>
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<p>By the twelfth century, surnames that identified a person with his or her work came into use. Consider the number of common last names that derive from trades, like Baker, Carpenter, Thatcher, Smith, Weaver, Goldsmith, and Cook.</p>
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<p>Suits believes that in his utopia work activities would become play because people would freely choose to perform them, for their own sake and not for some outside goal.</p>
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<p>So the more pertinent question is not, What is meaningful work? but rather, Is it possible for organizations to provide meaningful work? Most important, on a personal level, What is the relationship between meaningful work, a meaningful life, and happiness?</p>
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<p>Cultural values such as independence, freedom, and equality make the idea of working for others almost “un-American.” This does not mean that Americans don’t like to help each other; they just like to do so on their own terms.</p>
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<p>Some people actually enjoy taking the Myers-Briggs test because it tells them something about themselves. It puts them on a map and makes for good conversation. Sometimes companies get carried way with the results of these tests.</p>
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<p>Today we tend to feel that working in an office is better than working in a coal mine, regardless of which worker makes more money. Even our language suggests that it is a privilege to work sitting down. We respect our chairman, honor the throne, seek a professor’s chair, and run for a seat in Congress.18</p>
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<p>strong corporate culture removed uncertainty from employees’ lives by giving them what they needed: structure, a value system, and pride in belonging to a company of which they could be proud. However, some of the so-called problems that employees had weren’t clearly explained.</p>
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<p>Rybczynski remarks that there is generally so little mental involvement in TV watching that it should really be called TV staring.</p>
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<p>Friendly, caring managers didn’t necessarily negate the lines of power and authority in an organization, they masked them.</p>
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<p>“Without trust, there can be no betrayal, but more generally, without trust, there can be no cooperation, no community, no commerce, no conversation.”8</p>
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<p>Honest work means telling painful truths and preparing others for them. Basically, it’s “treating workers like adults.”</p>
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<p>In their book, as in the TQM books, its not clear how these managers are transformed or why employees are no longer afraid of their bosses, but the underlying belief seems to be that if you change the system, people in it change too. Yet more often than not you need to change the people who run the system.</p>
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<p>The work ethic that emerged from the Benedictine legacy applied Christian spiritual virtues to crafts and other vocations. It encouraged people to work with care and diligence, but was still wary of the riches that came from work. These values of quality and craftsmanship were shaped and enhanced by the craft guilds that later emerged in twelfth-century Europe.</p>
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<p>We credit Calvin and Luther with the idea of work for work’s sake and the abhorrence of rest and pleasure. This is but one of the many renditions of what is called the work ethic. For Calvin, work was a token of grace and the means of salvation.</p>
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<p>Groups, he said, simply give order to the administration of work.</p>
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<p>The ancients saw work as a necessity and a curse. The medieval Catholic Church bestowed on work a simple dignity; the Renaissance humanist gave it glamour. But the Protestants endowed work with the quest for meaning, identity, and signs of salvation.</p>
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<p>The way to wealth for Franklin was through prudence, industry, and frugality. Good character was necessary for success. In his autobiography Franklin lists eleven virtues that one needs for success: temperance, silence, order, resolution, sincerity, justice, moderation, cleanliness, tranquility, chastity, and humility. He preached a worldly asceticism, but he also believed that money was a means to an end—and that end was the freedom to enjoy life.7</p>
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<p>Perhaps the reason that the unemployed do not have leisure is because they have no work. They have no free time because they have no constrained time.</p>
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<p>Time, like necessity and freedom, is intimately connected to the meaning of work.</p>
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<p>the major source of our economic problems over the past twenty years is in the way most U.S. corporations treat their employees and the way that they have maintained their bloated bureaucracies.</p>
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<p>Slavery is a pejorative for work—it signifies human degradation, work at its worst.</p>
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<p>The organization man has given way to the team player, the man in thegray flannel suit to the men and women in Nikes. Who or what will they be next?</p>
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<p>How did paid work get such a good reputation in our culture and why is its stature growing in other cultures?</p>
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<p>Work provided a means of discovering and creating oneself.</p>
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<p>The economy is on a roller-coaster ride. Of all the institutions in society, why would we let one of the more precarious ones supply our social, spiritual, and psychological needs? It doesn’t makes sense to put such a large portion of our lives into the unsteady hands of employers. Most people have come to realize this, but they still do it.</p>
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<p>Franklin argued that wealth was morally justified because it benefited society and would bring happiness to individuals. He emphasized work as a social obligation, not a religious duty.</p>
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<p>major difference between amusement and this more elevated idea of leisure. Mass entertainment we can pick up or drop at any time without longing or regret. It is enjoyable, but has no lingering meaning for most people.</p>
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<p>according to Wilson, having a job means more than just meeting material needs. It also satisfies various psychological and social needs such as discipline, connectedness, regularity, and self-efficacy. But is work the only way to fill these needs? Why can’t the unemployed fill these needs from leisure?</p>
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<p>It is because they are realists. They have watched as the middle-aged men in suits lost their jobs. They know the economy is, while seemingly robust, always precarious. A “get it while you can” attitude makes perfect sense in this environment.</p>
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<p>This is why, in a world where job security is increasingly fragile, we need to move away from entrusting important elements of our welfare and social life to employers.</p>
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<p>When commitment is reduced to time at work, loyalty to something one pays for, and trust to a legal contract, these terms are emptied ofmoral meaning and the workplace becomes morally bankrupt.</p>
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<p>Thoughtful people might constantly reevaluate their values and priorities in life. Lastly, what do Deal and Kennedy mean by the so-called confusion between ethics and morality? Is individual morality getting in the way of corporate ethics?</p>
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<p>Is the life we have now worth what we are giving up for it? Meaningful work is rare, but is out there to be found either in a paid job or in our free time, if we really want it. Not everyone wants it, finds it, or considers the same things meaningful. A work-dominated life is fine if it is a conscious choice and makes one happy. But if it doesn’t, then we should start thinking of how to fit work into our lives instead of fitting our lives into our work.</p>
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<p>For the ancients, Prometheus was a trickster who doomed humanity to hard labor. By the Renaissance he was a hero who had allowed mankind to seize hold of fate. The value of work grew as more people began to feel that they could control their lives rather than wait around for divine providence.</p>
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<p>there may be something wrong with work that so zaps us of our strength and resources that that’s either all we feel like doing or all we can think of doing.</p>
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<p>When employees sense or know that the company will drop them in a heartbeat just to stay competitive, loyalty is absurd. Loyalty is a reciprocal concept.</p>
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<p>feel the need to work because of our training and moral conditioning, not because of any inborn disposition. If this is the case, then there is nothing “natural” about work.</p>
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<p>Leisure is a special experience. It consists of activities that are freely chosen and good in themselves.</p>
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<p>For some, meaningful work is interesting and satisfying; for others it is work that contributes to society. Still others want work that gives meaning to their lives.</p>
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<p>We do things with time—we spend time, waste time, save time, sell time, make time, and sometimes do time. Most of all, we live under the shadow of the idea that time is money.</p>
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<p>Today we worryabout the lack of a consensus of values and the breakdown of urban and suburban communities. In the workplace there still is an increasing effort to build “teams” and emphasize the value of groups. No one seems worried about loss of creativity and submission of individual identity to group identity. Managers care more about the problem of the individual who isn’t a team player. Like so many of their predecessors, the majority of management theorists today believe that groups and teams are the foundation of all that is good and productive.</p>
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<p>The content of leisure and work may also overlap in a positive way, especially when people like their work. Then we find the stockbroker who likes to gamble, the art teacher who likes to paint, the academic who enjoys lounging in a hammock reading journals. Some of us enjoy leisure activities that compensate for creativity, skills, or social interactions that we don’t exercise or take part in at work.</p>
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<p>Work is an extraordinary word because it does so many different things. We do work and we go to a place called work. Work is something we have, something we own, and something we make.</p>
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<p>noun and the verb work form a continuum between the doer and what is done. On the one hand work is necessary and restrictive of our freedom, while on the other hand it is purposeful and creative.</p>
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<p>In an environment where employment is precarious, it is important for people to be connected to activities and organizations unrelated to work. In this way they build more stability into their lives.</p>
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<p>Perhaps the most fundamental satisfaction that work offers is the satisfaction of earning a living, the satisfaction of getting what we need to stay alive.</p>
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<p>The first and oldest is a principle of fairness and social obligation. Able-bodied people have a duty to provide for themselves.</p>
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<p>He argues that when work dominates people they become neutralized, degendered, and subservient to the rules of the market. According to Keen, organizations that push people to work excessive hours destroy the fullness of manhood and womanhood.</p>
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<p>too much worknot only interferes with teens’ schoolwork but can cause an “adjusted blandness” at a time when they should be curious, imaginative, and combative.21 This “adjusted blandness” is exemplified by the routine “have a nice day” patter of counter workers in fast-food restaurants.</p>
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<p>Worthy work is objective, in the sense that most people would like to have jobs that offer adequate leisure, useful high-quality products, and the opportunity to exercise skill.</p>
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<p>companies that used teams to increase quality and productivity did not share their gains with the teams, unless they were unionized. He also discovered that the companies that used teams tended to have more layoffs that those that did not.</p>
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<p>Employment insecurity is the new way of life, even during times of low unemployment. Many workers have begun to rethink their commitment to employers, because their employers have changed their commitment to them.</p>
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<p>close of the century the manager’s mantra is made up of “quality,” “commitment,” and “teamwork.” All of these approaches to management attempted to change and control the meaning of work in an organization.</p>
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<p>The word job is usually used as a noun, “a job,” whereas work is almost equally used as a verb, “to work,” and a noun, as in “their work.” Rarely do we use the verb job,</p>
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<p>The faster we work, the faster our time fills with new work. The faster we go, the lesstime we have.</p>
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<p>Sometimes it’s almost embarrassing to admit that you aren’t busy or that you have plenty of time. After all, important people have little time, less important people more time, right?</p>
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<p>In the first, work is a quest or a project with a goal—it has some point to it, beyond making a living. In the second view of time work is performed to make a living or taken on a day-by-day basis, but it has no direction or particular point to it.</p>
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<p>This results in a vicious circle: employees desire more, management promises more, and the expectation for finding meaning in work rises. Both sides grope in the dark, searching for a workplace El Dorado.</p>
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<p>Sometimes the reasons why we work are more important than the work we actually do. The experience of working to support a family or go to college may well be more satisfying than working for clothing and CD players, because the goals themselves are more lasting and meaningful.</p>
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<p>The defining moral aspect of what it means to be a professional is dedication to the task, not the clock. When the institutions that employ professionals put intense time/money pressures on them, they can undercut the integrity of their work.</p>
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<p>Technology changes the way we do work and the kinds of work we do, but it doesn’t radically alter what the word work means.</p>
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<p>The irony was that the investigation found that all employees expressed simultaneously a love of and commitment to Pacific Bell and a mistrust of its managers.14 A survey of two thousand Pacific Bell employees concluded that top managers at Bell “blame the employees for the lack of productivity and are trying to make them think better; however, the Pacific Bell workforce already knows how to think.”15 These employees resented being told what to think.</p>
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<p>The irony is that if job security is really rare, smart employers will have to start offering security provisions as a means of luring top talent into their organizations.</p>
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<p>Work makes life better if ithelps others; alleviates suffering; eliminates difficult, dangerous, or tedious toil; makes someone healthier and happier; or aesthetically or intellectually enriches people and improves the environment in which we live. All work that is worthy does at least one of these things in some small or large way. Still, not all people will find worthy work personally meaningful to them.</p>
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<p>so many desires and so many choices, some can’t or don’t choose how they want to live. Instead they let advertisers, employers, or the opinions of others choose for them. Yet if we are willing to make some trade-offs between an interesting or prestigious job, consumption, leisure, and security, we can gain control and possibly improve the quality of our lives. Of all these trade-offs, containing our desire to consume may be the most difficult, but also the most liberating. The seductive array of things that we can buy ties us to our jobs and often deprives us of our time.</p>
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<p>Work may have a positive, negative, or neutral value for a religion or a culture, but within a culture different kinds of work will carry different spiritual, moral, and social values. Every society has its own prejudices against certain types of work.</p>
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<p>The drive and motivation to work that come from inside a person can be far more powerful than outside forces. This is certainly true for the monk, who is driven by his spirituality.</p>
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<p>The bee symbolizes a life of useful and rewarding work.</p>
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<p>Philosopher Hannah Arendt said work provides us with the artificial world of things that are distinct from our natural surroundings. These things outlast us all. Hence, according to Arendt, the human condition of work is worldliness.20 John Locke distinguishedbetween the “work of our hands and the labor of our bodies” to separate man the maker (homo faber) from man the laboring animal (animal laborans).</p>
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<p>The one good that came from the 1990s was that people began to see their jobs for what they were: first and foremost, economic transactions in a fickle global economy. People began to question the priority of work over other things in their lives. They began to wonder whether the time and energy that they had sacrificed for their jobs was really worth it.</p>
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<p>Might we then say that any activity is work if it has a purpose?</p>
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<p>The most lasting stricture of Luther’s and Calvin’s work ethic is the belief that people who work hard are good and those who don’t work or don’t work hard are morally inferior.</p>
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<p>We have gone beyond the work ethic, which endowed work with moral value, and now dangerously depend on our jobs to be the primary source of our identity, the mainspring of individual self-esteem and happiness.</p>
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<p>what are people afraid of at work? In their study of fear in the workplace, Kathleen D. Ryan and Daniel K. Oestreich found that people were usually afraid of retaliation, reprisals, and retribution. Other sources of fear are found in the things that people in the organization are afraid to discuss, or the “undiscussables.”43 According to Ryan and Oestreich’s survey of 260 people in twenty-two organizations, the boss’s management style ranked as the number one undiscussable; next came coworkers’ performance, and compensation and benefits.44 If people are most afraid of talking about a manager’s style of managing, then it may be very difficult to gauge what employees think about TQM, or any other management initiative for that matter. Increased productivity may be the result of factors that have nothing to do with “teamwork” and “coaching,” such as fear.</p>
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<p>Freedom from fear, material needs, and commitments allows us the liberty to develop ourselves through leisure.</p>
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<p>but it also makes the word work very broad, if it describes everything that is done with a purpose.</p>
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<p>For Americans and non-Americans alike, meaning in work, leisure, and life is not something that is hand delivered. We must all go out and find it for ourselves.</p>
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<p>Reengineering then, promises that work will become more varied and maybe more interesting—but only if you still have a job.</p>
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<p>Without work we face infinite options about what we should do and what we should be. Also, people who can work but choose not to have to explain themselves to those who suspect the only reason they gave up good jobs and now choose not to work is that they are lazy or in some way deficient.</p>
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<p>Our language is our world. Words designate the people and things in our experience and our ideas about them.</p>
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<p>As a result, there are no strikes or protest movements; the only signs of discord are the Dilbert cartoons that grace the walls and cubicles of offices today. Employees haven’t been altogether honest with their employers about the way they feel, in part because they are afraid, in part because a growing portion of the workforce has become cynical.</p>
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<p>Teams, even more so than cultures, can be a powerful form of social control. In a team, peer pressure from the group keeps everyone in line, pulling his or her weight. The team affects the individual in a more direct way than the larger culture of the organization.</p>
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<p>businesses frequently reward the best engineers, teachers, or account executives with managerial or administrative positions. Some of these people don’t make good managers, but few turn down the prizes: more money, power, status, and freedom.</p>
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<p>the average employed person in America worked 163 hours more in 1987 than in 1969. Women average 305 more hours of work than they did in 1969. The amount of free time fell nearly 40 percent since 1973, from twenty-six hours a week to slightly under seventeen.1</p>
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<p>even though some workers may have to do a terrible job, the job itself should be structured so that they do not have to lead a terrible life because of their job.</p>
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<p>rarely hear about cases in which employees complain about a company training program. That’s why the Krone program scandal is distinctive. Most employees are a captive audience and their success in the organization is contingent on playing the game and using the language of these initiatives.</p>
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<p>For St. Benedict, work was not a job or a calling, but a kind of visible prayer.</p>
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<p><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Working-Life-Promise-Betrayal-Modern-ebook/dp/B004KABC6W/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1402957517&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=the+working+life">The Working Life: The Promise and Betrayal of Modern Work by Joanne B. Ciulla</a></p>

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			<title>The Working Life</title>
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				<p>I recently finished reading a book that has gotten me thinking about a lot of things. The book, along with a couple of online conversations, have made me seriously wonder about what work is in relation to a job and how does work fit into our lives. <em><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Working-Life-Promise-Betrayal-Modern/dp/0609807374/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1314663395&amp;sr=1-1">The Working Life: The Promise and Betrayal of Modern Work</a></em>  by Joanne B. Ciulla, is a great read that starts off with the history of work, the word and how it has been viewed over time. The author then moves on to discuss the history of management theory in the 20th Century and then the final section looks more closely at work as related to life.</p>
<p>Before I get into the meat of what I have been thinking about, I first want to say that I realize that even thinking about this subject makes me extremely lucky. I was born in the latter half of the 20th Century in the Upper Midwest of the US to a family that valued thinking, reading, and education. This is a blessing that I realize many in the world do not have. And so as I sit here and ponder what it means to work and find meaningful work, I realize that I am lucky to not have the worries of survival that so many have, especially in these days as the gap in the US between those who have and those who don't widens.</p>
<p>I read this book because my husband read it in one day on July 4. One. Day. For him, that is extremely unusual. And he then went on to take extensive notes and journal about his thoughts. It seemed I needed to read this and we decided to make it our inaugural household book club book. Yes, we are having a book club with just us in it. It took me longer to get through it, but the first and final sections of the book are amazing. I was highlighting so much in my Kindle edition, that in the epilogue I was coming dangerously close to highlighting the entire thing. She begins by talking about our culture today and then contrasts that with Aristotle and what he defined as work and leisure. Our culture doesn't quite know what to do with work anymore:</p>
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<p>We live in a paradoxical culture that both celebrates work and continually strives to eliminate it.</p>
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<p>-Kindle Edition, location 63</p>
<p>It is the goal of so many to make enough money that they no longer have to work or that they can strike out in their dream job, be their own boss, etc. Why is this the case? Is it because we are searching for meaningful work and just not finding it? Is work just the economic transaction of earning money for doing tasks or thinking? If that is the case, is that not a job rather than work? But do we then look down on people who do not work?</p>
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<p>Without work we face infinite options about what we should do and what we should be. Also, people who can work but choose not to have to explain themselves to those who suspect the only reason they gave up good jobs and now choose not to work is that they are lazy or in some way deficient.</p>
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<p>-Kindle Edition, location 260</p>
<p>Why is the first question we ask people when we meet them, &quot;what do you do?&quot; Is this the role that work has come to play in our lives, is it that central?</p>
<p>It is the final section of the book where she discusses our life in relation to work that truly hit home for me. The way our culture of work is going, work is becoming more and more a fixture of our identity and for many, it is where they find who they are. But in a society where the flows of the economy change frequently, when you lose your job, you then lose your identity and who you are. Also, when your whole identity comes from work, do you also cross a line of sharing all of yourself at work, can that not be a danger when the realities of work in our culture is that it is an economic transaction?</p>
<p>Please do not get me wrong: I love coding, I love the web, and, on most days, I like my job. But I also realize that we work because it is what is expected of us and that work should not be the end all be all of my life. There must be more to it than that. There is so much joking in conversations when you talk about having a life and doing, or not doing, things in time away from work, but is it really a joke or has our culture come to expect that work will be everything?</p>
<p>In the final analysis, is it not better to work less, to have more time for leisure (in the Aristotelian sense of the word, not amusement, which are two very different things)? If one is willing to live a modest life, to forgo things in order to save more, then one is able to work less hours per week in order to enjoy life more in the here and now. Is working really hard now to retire early a good balance? Because really, who knows that something won't happen before you reach the magical retirement age you set for yourself. All of this has changed my idea of what being &quot;rich&quot; is. It is not about having a lot of stuff or a lot of money, it is about having time; time to be able to spend in activities you are passionate about, which may or may not be something you can get paid to do.</p>
<p>I'm closing with just a few more quotes from the book, these are from her epilogue and I am still chewing them over.</p>
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<p>When I look at the historical big picture, I am perplexed at the domination of life by paid employment at a time when life itself should be getting easier.</p>
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<p>-Kindle Edition, location 4533</p>
<p>Is that not true? With all of our achievements in technology, why do we still work so much and so hard? Why is work the predominant part of our culture?</p>
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<p>This is an era when life should be filled with all sorts of rewarding activities. Yet many find themselves caught up not only in long hours of work but in debt, and suffering from stress, loneliness, and crumbling families. Why? In part because we always want more, in part because we don’t realize that we have choices.</p>
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<p>-Kindle Edition, location 4536</p>
<p>This one hits me, because to me it is about money. Again I say that I am lucky to have been born to the parents I was, along with a paternal grandfather who valued education. They gave me a great start in life, but the choices I make now also play into what role paid work must take in my life.</p>
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<p>Is the life we have now worth what we are giving up for it? Meaningful work is rare, but is out there to be found either in a paid job or in our free time, if we really want it. Not everyone wants it, finds it, or considers the same things meaningful. A work-dominated life is fine if it is a conscious choice and makes one happy. But if it doesn’t, then <strong>we should start thinking of how to fit work into our lives instead of fitting our lives into our work.</strong></p>
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<p>-Kindle Edition, location 4551 (emphasis mine)</p>

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			<title>My dirty secret</title>
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				<p>I have a secret, it's not a shocking one, don't worry. And yes, it does have to do with front end web development. Well, here it is, I really dislike JavaScript. When I say that, I don't mean that it's just not my favorite thing to do in my job, I mean to say it is at the very bottom of the list. For years I have bought books, I have read articles, I scoured the web for blog posts, and yet when I am confronted with a JavaScript issue, I cringe. I put it off. I do everything else first. And usually, I ask a coworker for help. For some reason, JavaScript just doesn't stick with me.</p>
<p>I have talked to all kinds of people about it, gotten advice from coworkers, other conference attendees, experts in the field, listened to talks, and yet I still struggle. Many have said to me, learn pure JavaScript first, that way you will understand what the library is doing for you. Others say to just go with jQuery, it will make life so much easier. I have tried both approaches and right now, I am again going back to just plain jane JavaScript. I'm reading up on Crockford, I've bought yet another huge book on the subject and am trying to tackle it in bits and pieces at a time.</p>
<p>For me, CSS is so easy, so elegant, so understandable. I know what's happening with it, I can write it out quickly and even as it becomes more complicated with new modules, I seem to pick it up so much easier than JavaScript. But I see the future in many of the new things happening, I see where things are going with canvas, SVG, and more and it is only going to get more complicated. I feel the need to get my brain to think a bit more like a programmer. To do that I must finally tackle my nemesis of code.</p>
<p>So the goal? Learn JavaScript. Not jQuery, but JavaScript. Be able to sit down and write out some easy functions to get something to work. The hard part for me is always coming up with what I want to try and do. I need a solid project to work on to drill the skills home. After that, then I will start with jQuery, hopefully I will understand better what the library is doing for me, so that if it can't get the job done, I am better equipped to find another way. My hope is that as the field of web development advances, this will help me keep up and still have the same fun I do with CSS. Still feel like it's magic to write lines of code and then open a browser and see it work. I know there will be a lot of frustration along the way, but now is the time. I'm telling you all this, well, because I need some accountability and because I'm open for any suggestions you may have, so send me some <a href="http://twitter.com/susanjrobertson">tweets</a> and let me know what you think. I hope in the coming months to follow this up with some of what I'm learning and doing.</p>

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			<title>Access for all</title>
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			<updated>2011-07-15T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Last night I attended the local meet up group of Portland Web Designers. I went because I wanted to actually see a blind person use the web and the whole evening was all about accessibility. I admit to being slow to learn all the ins and outs of accessibility, I've read some about it, but recently with a new project I've been working on, I've become passionate about making sure it is accessible.</p>
<p>As I have started to wave the accessibility flag on this project I have gotten the usual push back from others. It is too hard, it's too much work, it isn't worth it. After last night I believe more than ever that it is worth it. <a href="http://lorelle.wordpress.com/">Lorelle VanFossen</a> spoke for the first half hour about what it means to be accessible and some of the reasons why you should do this. Here are just a few of the facts that hit me during her talk:</p>
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<li>18% (50 million) Americans are classified as disabled (this includes things such as using glasses to see).</li>
<li>That 18% represents $175 billion in discretionary spending, which is 2x as much as the teen market and 18x that of the &quot;tween&quot; market.</li>
<li>Beginning March 15, 2012 the ADA 2010 Accessible Design Standards will be required for a whole heck of a lot of sites, including restaurants, shopping sites, and basically anything serving the public. The fines for noncompliance can be quite large and more and more lawsuits are being filed by people demanding their right to access information.</li>
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<p>After Lorrelle spoke, Winslow Parker took the stage and he went over some sites that members of the group had volunteered for critique, and he also showed examples of sites that work really well for him using JAWS and others that do not work at all. It was so fascinating to hear the screen reader and to have Winslow talk about what works well and doesn't for him. The most helpful things for him when surfing the web are good labels, that make sense when read out to him, landmarks so he can easily move around the page, and headings in outline order so that he can easily understand what is most important on the page. He was so gracious and it was a treat to hear him speak.</p>
<p>I walked out of the meeting realizing that this is so very important and that so many opportunities are being missed for our industry to reach all users. Just as I have been passionate about mobile users getting all the content of a site in a way that is easy for them to consume and interact with, I am now equally passionate that all users should have the same access to the web when using assistive technology. It just makes sense, it's the right thing to do, and I will be fighting for that in all my projects from the beginning.</p>

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			<title>The Art of Choosing</title>
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			<updated>2011-06-27T00:00:00Z</updated>
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<p>We may appreciate and aspire to a certain level of uniqueness, but we believe it’s also important that our choices be understood.</p>
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<p>We need to pay close attention to how people react to our actions and, if possible, talk to them directly about how we come across.</p>
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<p>In the end, the desire to have others know us the way we know ourselves can be more powerful than the desire to be put on a pedestal. When we see how others look at us, we want more than anything to recognize ourselves.</p>
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<p>Personal happiness is always a very serious matter. It’s all well and good to propose formulas and strategies to other people, but we’re not sure we should trust them when our own long-term happiness is clearly at stake.</p>
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<p>Beneath the many layers of shoulds and shouldn’ts that cover us, there lies a constant, single, true self that is just waiting to be discovered. We think of the process of finding ourselves as a personal excavation.</p>
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<p>If we learn we’re not as great as we thought we were, we can decide to change our behavior so that it aligns more with how we want to be perceived.</p>
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<p>Though self-control may not be solely responsible for the positive outcomes, the correlation suggests that we shouldn’t underestimate its impact on our lives.</p>
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<p>Restrictions do not necessarily diminish a sense of control, and freedom to think and do as you please does not necessarily increase it. The</p>
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<p>to choose, we must first perceive that control is possible.</p>
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<p>When we speak of choice, what we mean is the ability to exercise control over ourselves and our environment. In order to choose, we must first perceive that control is possible.</p>
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<p><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Art-Choosing-Decisions-Everyday-Improve-ebook/dp/B0035II95W/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1402958360&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=the+art+of+choosing">The Art of Choosing by Sheena Iyengar</a></p>

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			<title>I&#39;ve gone responsive</title>
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			<updated>2011-06-20T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>So this weekend, with <a href="http://twitter.com/#!/beep">Ethan's</a> <a href="http://www.abookapart.com/products/responsive-web-design">book</a> in hand, I sat down to tweak my blog. (See my <a href="http://susanjeanrobertson.com/geekery/progressive-enhancement-and-responsive-design/">previous post</a> for a review of the book itself.) When I launched this design back in March, I had used the A List Apart <a href="http://www.alistapart.com/articles/responsive-web-design/">article</a> to set it up and prep it for a liquid layout, knowing that I would eventually come back and make it truly responsive. Well, this weekend the time came and I set about to add in the media queries and see how I could make the design flex depending on the width of the browser.</p>
<p>I have to say, it was so much fun. It really only took me a couple of hours to get the basics down and have it flexing from 3 columns, down to 2 columns, down to 1 for the smallest screens. I did run into a few bugs, things that I missed or wasn't sure about, but I loved having the book by my side to help me work through all those issues. After getting the basic layout to conform, it was then time to decide about the design.</p>
<p>While making it flexible, I decided to do some very minor tweaks to the design. I got rid of my name and made my tag line the main line, Pixel Coder. I also took a look at how the navigation was working on the smaller widths and I hope that I solved the problems there and made it easier to use at smaller sizes. In addition, on the work page, I implemented the fluid image idea and I am loving how that flexes and changes as the screen size changes.</p>
<p>The other major change is the type. I have gone all <a href="http://typekit.com/">Typekit</a>, all the time. So now my whole site, both headers and body text, is using one of two different fonts from Typekit. Because this site is mainly about reading I wanted to choose a type that was easy to read. I chose Chaparral Pro for the main typeface and I upped the size of the type for the body text, hopefully making it easier to read. I also decided to have the body and header type the same, I like the unified look. I am using Urbana for my navigation, I just love the tight, sleek quality of it and felt that it was a nice contrast to have a sans serif font there when I am using a serif everywhere else. I'll see how this goes as time goes on, there is always tweaking to be done, but right now I am happy with the outcome. The only thing I am still pondering are font sizes  for the different widths, not sure I've got them exactly right yet.</p>
<p>Since I only have a few devices myself, I could only test this in a few different screen sizes, but things seems to be working well for the iPhone, iPad2 and Kindle. If you see anything weird, please do let me know. I am eager to try it on a few others if I can track down someone at work who will let me take a gander at my site on their device.</p>
<p>I of course still have things I want to change, tweak, investigate. I am still learning about Wordpress, so there are things not working exactly as I'd like behind the scenes. I know that my stylesheet could be cleaner and more compact. But I am loving that I am now serving my content up in a legible, easy to use layout no matter the device users are using to read it. Thank you <a href="http://twitter.com/#!/beep">Ethan</a>, your clarity of writing made this fun and easy!</p>

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			<title>Progressive Enhancement and Responsive Design</title>
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			<updated>2011-06-14T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Wow, what a week to be a working on the web. Two fantastic books came out recently and they both arrived in my little hands in the last week and I sped through them. What they both have in common is the small, compact, not a wasted word style. They also go about explaining the concepts in humorous, fun ways. What books am I talking about? <em><a href="http://easy-readers.net/">Adaptive Web Design</a></em> by <a href="http://twitter.com/#!/aarongustafson">Aaron Gustafson</a> and <em><a href="http://www.abookapart.com/products/responsive-web-design">Responsive Web Design</a></em> by <a href="http://twitter.com/#!/beep">Ethan Marcotte</a>.</p>
<p>I read Aaron's book first as it arrived before Ethan's was released. It was a great read and for me what was so helpful was the easy manner in which he laid out using JavaScript to make sure it <em>is</em> an enhancement and not a necessity. The checklist at the back will be referenced again and again. Plus there were lots of little nuggets of CSS and JavaScript that I know will stay with me in my work as I continue to refine and change the way I write code. Now I just need to get this book in the hands of the folks I work with, it is a never ending source of frustration to me that so many tasks on our sites can only be completed with JavaScript enabled.</p>
<p>Ethan's book got read via the iBooks edition. It is actually the first book I've read in iBooks, but the functioning videos pulled me away from Kindle reading and I just couldn't wait for the paper copy to arrive. I highlighted at length while reading and wrote notes and journalled ideas. <em>Responsive Web Design</em> brings together all kinds of ideas that are floating around the internets at the moment and it does so with so much humor and fun that I laughed out loud several times while reading. But on a more serious note, Ethan also addressed the real benefit of responsive design and how many sites could benefit from allowing all users, mobile and desktop, easy access to all their content (something near and dear to me if you've been reading this site recently).</p>
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<p>But just because desktop users can sift through more content, does that mean they need to? In other words, why is easy access to key tasks only the domain of mobile users? Why can't all users of our sites enjoy the same level of focused, curated content?</p>
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<p>--Responsive Web Design, page 111 of the paper copy</p>
<p>Both of these books will be close to me as I work and I'm sure they will start to show their age as I continue to thumb through them for reference and ideas. I am itching to work on this site, to make some changes and to implement some of what I've learned. When I finish reading a book on the web, the true test of how good it is for me is how much I want to dig into code and start implementing what I've read. Both these books left me with the desire to code now, to improve and tweak things now, and to tell everyone I know that they need to read them immediately. Thank you both gentlemen, for you have enriched my thinking of all things webbish and I am grateful.</p>

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			<title>Mobile Portland Notes</title>
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			<updated>2011-05-26T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>So last night I made my way down to <a href="http://mobileportland.com/">Mobile Portland</a>. I was so excited about the event as the topic was the exact thing I have been thinking about over the last couple of weeks, <em><a href="http://mobileportland.com/events/myth-mobile-context">The Myth of Mobile Context</a></em>. The panel did not disappoint and <a href="http://twitter.com/#!/grigs">Jason</a> did a great job of moderating the discussion. I took copious notes and will try my best to make sense of them here. The panel consisted of <a href="http://twitter.com/#!/globalmoxie">Josh Clark</a>, <a href="http://twitter.com/#!/ourmaninjapan">Daniel Davis</a>, <a href="http://twitter.com/#!/tyhatch">Ty Hatch</a>, <a href="http://twitter.com/#!/hinman">Rachel Hinman</a>, and <a href="http://twitter.com/#!/tkadlec">Tim Kadlec</a>.</p>
<p>Jason started off the evening by asking the panelists if mobile is a new mass media or is it just the internet brought to a different screen?</p>
<p>Josh kicked off the answers saying that the devices we are seeing now are bringing about new combinations that we haven't seen. Touch is brand new and it lets us manipulate things differently, it changes the way we think about interfaces. Daniel is wary of the idea of anything being labeled the &quot;new&quot; anything. He sees the PC as a stopgap much like the Mainframe was a stopgap on the way to the PC. Mobile is the new normal internet. Ty was on the fence with this one, thinking that maybe it is, but he had a great comparison, saying that it is a lot like the disruption that was caused by Impressionism when you look at art history, it led to so many new areas in the art world. Right now with the internet we have an explosion of what is experience and what do we do with it. Rachel spoke to the mental model of computing changing, rather than a desktop with folders (being a tool to get something done) it is becoming a distribution of media. It is changing what we can do. Josh then brought up a great point - mobile as distribution of software media and how people see the apps on their phones as accessories just as much as the phone itself. The question finished with Tim saying that he agrees resoundingly that mobile is a new mass media and he compared it to the bastard (or love) child of the web and mobile, which explains our difficulties because we just don't quite know where it fits in.</p>
<p>Jason then asked if there was anything different about mobile and how you would define those differences if there are.</p>
<p>Tim started out the round of answers saying that there is a context to it, but it is very difficult to find. He likened it to sci-fi, where things adapt and have potential, that's the way mobile feels right now. Rachel said the dirty secret of mobile is that we all don't have a handle on context. To design for usage everywhere is really hard. She also said that we don't really know the answer to what mobile offers that is unique, we are still learning.</p>
<p>Jason broke in with a question about Opera, since it is used by many people who have never used a PC before, the mobile web is their first experience of the web, do they view mobile totally differently?</p>
<p>Daniel replied that many of them are no PC and straight to mobile and so Opera tries very hard to put a desktop browser in a mobile phone, trying to give people the full experience. He also made the excellent point that mobile can be <em>any</em> device depending on the situation of the user. Josh then pointed out that we should start thinking more about mobile devices and capabilities because mobile is actually <strong>more</strong>. Devices can do more than a desktop computer, so why aren't we thinking about it that way? He went on to my say my absolute favorite quote of the evening,</p>
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<p>Every time you say; &quot;Oh, this is mobile, people won't want to do this,&quot; you are making a mistake. You can make educated guesses about the most common things people will do and create hierarchies for that, but give them the full website.</p>
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<p>Dan then intoned the mantra of <a href="http://www.lukew.com/">Luke</a>, start with mobile first.</p>
<p>Jason then opened it up to the audience for questions and I will admit, my notes from this part aren't as good, so I'll just give a few highlights of things that were said.</p>
<p>Ty had a great piece about finding the sweet spot of what someone is actually trying to do with the device, making sure they aren't trying to cram in too much into the experience, but if you aren't sure what someone is doing, this device allows you to ask, find out and then you can get information back to make the experience much better for the user.</p>
<p>There was then a long discusion towards the end about how the label of mobile is the problem. Josh brought this up, but Tim also <a href="http://timkadlec.com/2011/05/is-mobile-doing-more-harm-than-good/">blogged</a> about it. Instead of thinking about mobile, think about <em>devices</em>, or as he put it, nontraditional computing devices, which obviously will never catch on, but is a more appropriate way to think about all the various ways that someone could access the internet. I especially like the metaphor that Ty used, he said we are still in the Star Wars phase with mobile, with Han and Chewie banging away at the Millenium Falcon, but we want to be in the Star Trek phase and just ask for Earl Grey Hot and it will appear. The panel seemed to agree that mobile is still trying to find its way, it has taken a lot from the PC and just tried to use it and some of that isn't quite right, as Rachel pointed out.</p>
<p>The final bit that I really found useful was in talking about trying to use geo browsing, knowing where people are and then giving them more information. Rachel spoke about being careful about how we do this because people associate place and space in different ways, there are nuances to behavior in what you do when you are in a specific space, her example was asking someone on a train platform for help rather than digging out the phone. You need to make sure you are adding to the experience and not detracting from it. Josh followed this up with the excellent point that there is a cultural context, just because people can do something doesn't mean that they will. He used the example of Best Buy and people actually didn't want to scan bar codes to see if they could find a better deal, it wasn't viewed as behavior they wanted others to see them doing.</p>
<p>All-in-all it was a great panel and I am so thankful to have Jason and Mobile Portland in this community. The work they are doing is awesome and the events just keep getting better. CAN NOT WAIT for next month on Mobile Health, should be really interesting. I do believe they may release the video of the event, so if you are interested keep your eyes on the Mobile Portland <a href="http://twitter.com/#!/mobileportland">twitter feed</a> or <a href="http://mobileportland.com/">website</a>.</p>

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			<title>Mobile Context</title>
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<p>But if there’s one thing I’ve learned in observing people on their mobile devices, it’s that they’ll do <a href="http://www.lukew.com/ff/entry.asp?1269">anything on mobile</a> if they have the need. Write long emails? Check. Manage complex sets of information? Check. And the list goes on. If people want to do it, they’ll do it on mobile -especially when it’s their only or most convenient option.</p>
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<p>--<a href="http://www.lukew.com/ff/entry.asp?1333">Luke Wroblewski</a></p>
<p>This is a great post, proving my point from previous posts that we really, really need to think about devices/mobile differently. It seems like this topic is everywhere and like many people are doing some really thoughtful writing about it. Another great post by <a href="http://timkadlec.com/2011/05/is-mobile-doing-more-harm-than-good/">Tim Kadlec</a> is asking if we are using the wrong language and maybe that's why we are getting so tripped up in our conversations about these things.</p>

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			<title>We are the minority</title>
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			<updated>2011-05-19T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>On the heels of the post from the weekend, I have been thinking more and more about how to implement a single code base that works on all devices. When talking about this at work with a coworker, he was skeptical. I described what I have heard about the Boston Globe redesign and he said, &quot;nirvana, it doesn't exist.&quot; Then he said, &quot;when I am on my mobile, I want to complete my task quickly and easily and be done.&quot; I pointed out to him that not everyone is like him, that many people are using their mobile devices to read on, to dive deeper.</p>
<p>As I thought about this conversation in the hours after, I realized something significant. My coworker has an iPhone 4, a personal laptop that he brings with him to work most days, he sits at a 24&quot; monitor with a PC with Windows 7 on it, and recently he just talked about the iPad2 he had purchased. He has a lot of devices and he can choose to read long form things on something other than his mobile because he has the choice, he has the device. We are geeks, we make web applications for a living and we are quick to buy the latest and greatest to try it out, to see what it's all about. But what I realized is that <em>we are the minority</em>. Most people aren't like us. Most people do not have all kinds of computers and devices. Most people do not have extra computers sitting in closets that are old, but we just haven't parted with them yet (actually most people are still using that old computer that my husband and I decided needed to be replaced). Many of my friends from college are now mothers of young children and their mobile phone <em>is</em> very much the main way they connect with the internet. Also, there are many folks sitting on the bus with me every morning and they <em>are</em> reading for 25 minutes or more (depending on their commute time) from a small screen.</p>
<p>I watched the slides from <a href="http://scottjehl.com/">Scott Jehl's</a> <a href="http://mobilism.nl/2011">Mobilism</a> <a href="http://filamentgroup.com/lab/jquery_mobile_and_boston_globe_at_mobilism/">presentation</a> yesterday and one in particular caught my attention, 25% of people in the US are Mobile Only, meaning they are accessing the internet almost exclusively from a mobile device and only infrequently or never use the desktop internet (Scott got his information from <a href="http://ondeviceresearch.com/blog">On Device Research</a>, scroll down to the post titled &quot;The 'mobile' only generation.&quot; and I used that slide show to help elaborate what Scott's slide said.) That statistic astounded me. I knew that in other parts of the world, such as Africa or Asia, this stat was much higher than the US, but 25% is a much higher number than I ever would have guessed for the US.</p>
<p>What this tells me is that the way I use devices and the way my colleagues use devices may not be the best indicator of how the general public uses them or how they want to be able to use them. Research and data are the keys to making sure you are meeting people's needs and not just making an experience that meets the development teams <em>ideas</em> of what those needs are. It all goes back to the assumptions that I talked about in my last post. This information just cements it for me; we need to start asking our users what they want, or better yet, we need to design and create experiences that work well no matter the device/screen size of the user and let them access all that we have to offer in a meaningful way.</p>

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			<title>Assumptions</title>
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			<updated>2011-05-15T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Lately I have been thinking a lot about an image that I saw at An Event Apart in Seattle. It came at the very end of <a href="http://adactio.com/">Jeremy's</a> talk and he was standing on the stage in front of the screen and the slide he was showing just kept adding in more images of his website on several different devices, such as the iPad, the iPhone, the Kindle, a large monitor, and even a very old version of IE. As he was showing this, he said, &quot;this is all my web site.&quot; (Sidenote: I searched Flickr high and low for a picture of Jeremy in front of this slide, but to no avail.) This keeps coming back to me as I am inundated through my twitter feed and my reader feed with more and more articles about responsive web design, mobile, context, etc.</p>
<p>This ties in with what I've been working on at work, we are finally venturing into a mobile experience. I have been having fun actually coding up the first designs for this venture. It's fun, I like it, but I can't help but wonder if we are making a lot of assumptions about what our users actually want out of mobile. If I hear one more time that the mobile user has just got one eye and one thumb and aren't paying full attention to the device, I may scream. I don't think that is always true, not in what I see on a daily basis, not in how I am using my devices, and not in what I am reading around the web. <a href="http://adactio.com/journal/4443/">Jeremy wrote </a>about this very thing, and ironically enough, I read it laying on my couch at home, on a fast connection, <em>with my mobile device</em> (in this case my iPhone). So I guess people aren't always rushed, they aren't always on a slow connection, and maybe they are totally focused. In fact, maybe what we may lump into the <em>mobile</em> device category is their only way of accessing the web? And then just today, <a href="http://www.lukew.com/">Luke</a> <a href="http://www.exquisitetweets.com/collection/lukew/447">tweeted</a> about it (which you'll see by the link that many others agreed). Why is context what people seem to be fixated on? Also, why do we continually believe that the mobile user only wants some of the content?</p>
<p>So what does this have to do with the image I described at the beginning? All of those images of Jeremy's web site, including the one on a very old version of IE, they are all his site. They are all on the same web and no matter how the user chooses to access the content, they get it all in a way that is easy for them to read. This is what is most important to me, the user gets it all and is not punished by only getting the surface level content because they chose to access the site with a <em>mobile</em> device. So the work being done on responsive design, serving the right thing to mobile and moving up from there (<a href="http://stuffandnonsense.co.uk/projects/320andup/">Andy's 320 and up </a>project is an example) is intriguing to me. It isn't perfect as optimization is tricky, but I think it may just be worth the difficulty it takes to build it. Increasingly I believe it depends, but stop assuming how, when, and why a user is hitting your site with a mobile device, and start the project with asking them. Because I firmly believe that it will be surprising every time what they answer.</p>
<p>On a side note, I cannot wait for the Boston Globe redesign to go live that this <a href="http://unstoppablerobotninja.com/">guy</a> worked on. Jeremy alluded to it when I met him in March and said it will be a game changer, like when ESPN redesigned with a CSS layout, and I agree that it just might. These are exciting times and I just hope we serve the user well by not assuming things at the beginning of our projects.</p>

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			<title>Screens</title>
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			<updated>2011-05-02T16:43:44Z</updated>
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				<p>I have been thinking about screens a lot lately. Part of that is surely because I just finished <em><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Winter-Our-Disconnect-Teenagers-Technology/dp/1585428558/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1304376294&amp;sr=1-1">The Winter of our Disconnect</a></em>. It's a really interesting read about an American woman living in Perth, Australia who decides her family, which consists of 3 teenagers, needs to take a 6 month break from screens in their home. This means for 6 months no smartphones, no computers, no TV, nothing which has a screen. The kids can use computers, etc outside the home, just not when they are home. She actually starts the experiment by cutting the power to her house for 2 weeks. She writes about the experiences she has as well as what she witnesses in her kids and weaves lots of research in and out with the story. She's an engaging writer, so the book is really well done. Plus the changes in her children are absolutely amazing and totally lead one to believe that there is something to putting the screens away.</p>
<p>In my life, I have dramatically cut back the use of screens when I am not at work. Since I work all day staring at a computer, I decided it would be good for me to get away from that. So the reading of the book came at a very appropriate time as well. G also decided a few months ago to move the TV upstairs and out of our living room. The hope was we would watch less TV and maybe read or just plain talk more. This has been the biggest impetus to change for us. Now instead of G sitting drinking beer and eating snacks while parked in front of the TV while I'm cooking dinner (yes I do the cooking and I don't want to hear about it, I like it), he sits at the kitchen table and we talk about our day, maybe we have NPR on and listen to news and talk about that. It's been great and I'm really enjoying it. That doesn't mean that we don't actually go up after dinner and watch something, but we rarely watch while eating dinner. We do have the occasional treat of eating take out upstairs, but it is a treat and feels like that, rather than normal.</p>
<p>In addition to the TV change, I am rarely looking at a computer when I am not at work. It is only actually to do the chores of life, such as our bookkeeping, checking on my blog, etc. I do have the iPad now so that has become something to do a bit of surfing on and I think I spend way more time on that than on my laptop. But on weekends, especially now that the sun is coming out more and the temperature is rising, I read, I sit in the sun, I take the dog for a walk, I talk with friends, or I just sit and think and ponder ideas. It has been a great change for me.</p>
<p>I have to say, after reading the book, I don't know that I could go 6 months without screens, it would be hard, but I am not married to my screens. Most evenings my iThings sit without me even touching them and they are on vibrate so I can't hear them from another room. I am more relaxed and able to concentrate on people rather than on screens and that is a very good thing.</p>

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			<title>Follow the Links</title>
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			<updated>2011-04-23T00:00:00Z</updated>
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<p>Go for a walk; cultivate hunches; write everything down, but keep your folders messy; embrace serendipity; make generative mistakes; take on multiple hobbies; frequent coffeehouses and other liquid networks; follow the links; let others build on your ideas; borrow, recycle, reinvent. Build a tangled bank.<br>
<em>Where Good Ideas Come From</em> by Steven Johnson, location 2817-2819, kindle edition</p>
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<p>I finished this book in the last week and the thing that has hit me the most is the need to just let things sit and percolate. When you have an idea, it may not be the right time, but if you let it sit, it may work out years later, or something else may come into your thoughts to build on it. The need for collaboration and working in groups to feed off of each other is so important, most of the successful ideas come from doing it. I struggle to know if I am a part of such a group or not, but from now I'll be more actively writing things down and building my tangled bank.</p>

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			<title>Where Good Ideas Come From</title>
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			<updated>2011-04-19T00:00:00Z</updated>
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<p>Stacked platforms are like that: you think you’re fighting the Cold War, and it turns out you’re actually helping people figure out where to have lunch.</p>
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<p>Proprietary platforms that reach critical mass are not unheard of—Microsoft Windows has had a good run, for instance, and Apple’s iPhone platform has been extraordinarily innovative in its first three years—but they are rarities.</p>
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<p>Concepts from one domain migrate to another as a kind of structuring metaphor, thereby unlocking some secret door that had long been hidden from view.</p>
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<p>But that noise makes the rest of us smarter, more innovative, precisely because we’re forced to rethink our biases, to contemplate an alternate model in which the blue paintings are, in fact, green.</p>
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<p>We need the phase-lock state for the same reason we need truth: a world of complete error and chaos would be unmanageable, on a social and a neurochemical level. (Not to mention genetic.) But leaving some room for generative error is important, too. Innovative environments thrive on useful mistakes, and suffer when the demands of quality control overwhelm them.</p>
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<p>Legendary innovators like Franklin, Snow, and Darwin all possess some common intellectual qualities—a certain quickness of mind, unbounded curiosity—but they also share one other defining attribute. They have a lot of hobbies.</p>
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<p>Even as much of the high-tech culture has embraced decentralized, liquid networks in their approach to innovation, the company that is consistently ranked as the most innovative in the world—Apple—remains defiantly top-down and almost comically secretive in its development of new products. You won’t ever see Steve Jobs or Jonathan Ive crowdsourcing development of the next-generation iPhone.</p>
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<p>The process is noisy and involves far more open-ended and contentious meetings than traditional production cycles—and far more dialogue between people versed in different disciplines, with all the translation difficulties that creates. But the results speak for themselves.</p>
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<p>Go for a walk; cultivate hunches; write everything down, but keep your folders messy; embrace serendipity; make generative mistakes; take on multiple hobbies; frequent coffeehouses and other liquid networks; follow the links; let others build on your ideas; borrow, recycle, reinvent. Build a tangled bank.</p>
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<p>A world where a diverse mix of distinct professions and passions overlap is a world where exaptations thrive.</p>
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<p>You can immerse yourself in a single author’s perspective, but then it’s harder to create serendipitous collisions between the ideas of multiple authors. One way around this limitation is to carve out dedicated periods where you read a large and varied collection of books and essays in a condensed amount of time.</p>
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<p>He took a machine designed to get people drunk and turned it into an engine for mass communication.</p>
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<p>But there is steady variation nonetheless, not just in the subject matter but in the kind of work performed in each task.</p>
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<p>The problem with assimilating new ideas at the fringes of your daily routine is that the potential combinations are limited by the reach of your memory.</p>
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<p>Two brilliant scientists with great technological acumen stumble across evidence of the universe’s origin—evidence that would ultimately lead to a Nobel Prize for both them—and yet their first reaction is: Our telescope must be broken.</p>
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<p>But encouragement does not necessarily lead to creativity. Collisions do—the collisions that happen when different fields of expertise converge in some shared physical or intellectual space.</p>
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<p>[I]t’s no accident that one of the mantras of the Web startup world is fail faster. It’s not that mistakes are the goal—they’re still mistakes, after all, which is why you want to get through them quickly. But those mistakes are an inevitable step on the path to true innovation.</p>
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<p>The groups that had been deliberately contaminated with erroneous information ended up making more original connections than the groups that had only been given pure information.</p>
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<p>By compressing their intake into a matter of days, they give new ideas additional opportunities to network among themselves, for the simple reason that it’s easier to remember something that you read yesterday than it is to remember something you read six months ago.</p>
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<p>It is possible to create such a space in a walled garden. But you are far better off situating your platform in a commons.</p>
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<p><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Where-Good-Ideas-Steven-Johnson/dp/1594485380/ref=sr_1_1_title_1_pap?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1402937585&amp;sr=1-1&amp;keywords=where+good+ideas+come+from">Where Good Ideas Come From by Steven Johnson</a></p>

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			<title>Balance</title>
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			<updated>2011-04-17T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>For the past several months I have been thinking a lot about balance. I am sure that the fact that I started practicing yoga last November is part of the reason, so much of it is about balance, and not just in keeping your balance as you hold poses, but also in being balanced in mind and body.</p>
<p>The idea of balance has then taken over in my mind, I've been thinking about work/life balance, and about computer and non computer time balance, and about eating balanced. It seems to be something that at this time of life I desperately want to get right. I want to be balanced. I want to feel good and healthy. I want to be able to let go of the crap and enjoy the good things.</p>
<p>So, how have I done that? What changes have I made? They have been slow but sure lately, but I no longer look at any type of computing device after work. I am present with G during dinner and we are together either watching a show or reading in the evenings. I have also become more dependent on meal planning, I want to know what I will be eating so that I know it will be good for me and easy to prepare on days when I am busy. The final thing is yoga, I am digging in more and more to what it truly means to practice and I refuse to miss the two classes I go to weekly.</p>
<p>Do I feel balanced? I feel better, but sometimes the balance can tip too much to one side. I find this happens during the work day way too often. I lose sight of what I am trying to do as I am pulled left and right by others. I forget to slow down, breathe, and then move on to the next task. It is hard to get others to help out in this area and be respectful. I find that it is hardest at lunch time and I need to find a way to block people out even if I am at my desk. I can't wait for nice weather, being able to eat outside, away from the din will be wonderful.</p>
<p>I continue my quest for balance and I am hopeful that as I do, I will get stronger and able to say no more often and have people respect that more often.</p>

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			<title>The Gadget Review</title>
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			<updated>2011-04-09T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>So it's been just over 48 hours since it arrived. By it I mean the iPad. First impression? I like it, a lot. I can already tell that I will be using it a lot more than my 3.5 year old laptop.</p>
<p>The speed is amazing and I don't even really care about all the apps, I just want to be able to check email and surf the web. Don't get me wrong, I've downloaded some apps, but most are to be able to watch things, such as PBS and Netflix. I'm not a gamer so I honestly don't care about those at all. For me, this is about keeping up with the things when away from my main machine and being able to do some things (I am writing this post on it to see how that goes).</p>
<p>I didn't get one with a lot of space on purpose to limit my use of it. Reason? Trying to balance my time with screens and info overload (post on that to follow soon).</p>
<p>As I already own a kindle, this will definitely not be a reading device, I much prefer the e-ink for that and the lighter weight in my hand.</p>
<p>All-in-all, a good device and I am glad I got it and I can't wait to travel with it.</p>

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			<title>THE Conference</title>
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			<updated>2011-04-02T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>This past week I traveled up to Seattle for <a href="http://aneventapart.com">An Event Apart</a>. It was my third year doing this and I really look forward to the speakers and information that I know will be top notch. But this year was also different in many ways for me. For the first time I was going not as a contractor, but a full time employee and they paid for my registration (woo hoo!) and a coworker was there with me. G came with me for the first time, he took some time off work and wandered around Seattle while my head was being filled up with information. And through a <a href="http://petragregorova.com/">friend</a> I finally met in person just the week before, I got to meet a lot more people. I also had a great time at the opening night party. I have finally come out of my shell and am going up to people I've read online and just striking up a conversation. It paid off and I met some really wonderful people. I came away from this year's event feeling so grateful to be a part of this community of folks, they are all so generous and willing to help out and talk.</p>
<p>Now, on to a bit of review. To do this, I'm going to just list off some of the speakers and the main thing I took away from them. There was so much information and I have a moleskin half full with notes, but really, each one left me with a thought that I keep coming back to as I think back on the talks and as I think about how to incorporate them into my coding life.</p>
<p><strong><a href="http://www.sazzy.co.uk/">Sarah Parementer</a>:</strong> Sarah talked a lot about the use of psychology in design. This week I have been thinking over and over again about how when we design and make sites, we should be thinking about how impressions can be made quickly on people and most importantly how those impressions can be influenced by the choices we make: color, layout, etc. I also enjoyed the peak into Dark Patterns, a frankly repulsive concept.</p>
<p><strong><a href="http://www.jasonsantamaria.com/">Jason Santa Maria</a>:</strong> Two things from Jason's talk are the things I actually keep hearing him say. &quot;People set stuff and forget it, but not in a good way.&quot; Think as you set that type! The second is that type is really more like a texture as people look at it. Therefore there is a lot of emotion tied up in how we interpret it and see it. So everyone will interpret the type differently, we just do our best to get it right.</p>
<p><strong><a href="http://www.scottberkun.com/">Scott Berkun</a>:</strong> I have to say that I think this was my favorite talk of the two days. Scott really challenged me about how we deal with failure and how we come back from it. Failure is not bad and we actually do it day after day as we change designs/code to suit the project. But this quote stuck with me as it really applies to my work situation, &quot;Being a great designer is not just doing great design for yourself, but also having great people around you who allow you to design.&quot; I feel fortunate that I do have people around me and in my team that allow all of us to suceed and make great things (or at least better/good things).</p>
<p><strong><a href="http://adactio.com">Jeremy Keith</a>:</strong> Jeremy was all about taking us through Design Principles and how we are answering the how of what we are doing. The two things that really stood out to me, &quot;the web is agreement&quot; and the goal is universal access. He is so passionate about the access and the goal needs to be for everyone to get the information by whatever means they choose. So how are the Design Principles we use helping us to get to that goal?</p>
<p><strong><a href="http://aarronwalter.com/">Aarron Walter</a></strong>: Aarron spoke about giving ourselves permission to have ideas and act on them, but the thing that I am actually working on right now and trying to implement at my work is a very practical one. I have started working towards a design pattern library with all the things we are doing and using on a regular basis, including the front end code for getting there. His example of what they do at <a href="http://mailchimp.com/">MailChimp</a> was great to see and it got me and my coworker really excited to try and do the same.</p>
<p><strong><a href="http://www.plasticbag.org/">Tom Coates</a>:</strong> Tom's talk was a great wrap up to the two days, it launched us into the thinking about how what Jeffrey started with, an overview of the history that we are currently building on, can be taken even further. The idea of taking the web and connecting it to more, to everyday objects, so that data breaks out of the web and is actually networked across everything. Intriguing, high level, but oh so fascinating to think about. His examples, of parking being variable in San Franscisco, of the scale that puts his weight in an app so he can track it, and more were really interesting to think about and cool that some are happening right now. This is where we could be headed and I find it really exciting.</p>
<p>That is a super brief overview and I know I didn't mention everyone who spoke. That isn't to say I didn't enjoy all the talks, I really did, but I also think things hit you different places and the above is what hit me square between the eyes and made me sit up and take notice. I enjoyed the animations of <a href="http://www.stuffandnonsense.co.uk/">Andy Clark</a> and I loved <a href="http://meyerweb.com">Eric's</a> talk on ways to use CSS transforms, rotates, etc and <a href="http://zeldman.com">Jeffrey's</a> history was a great way to start; but I keep coming back to what I wrote about above, as I sit on the bus, as I pause at work to think about something or as I am taking a walk.</p>
<p>I am so glad I got to go this year again and experience the event again. I am so glad that I got to meet and talk with many of the speakers and other geeks that were there. I am so thankful that this community exists.</p>

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			<title>I&#39;ll be back soon.....</title>
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			<updated>2011-04-01T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>I'm in the midst of getting away from the awful GoDaddy and to another host. My data and posts will be back, it's just taking a bit longer than I thought.</p>
<p>Don't worry, it's coming back (at least I hope so).</p>
<p><strong>Update:</strong> I'm back, but I'm not sure all the links are exactly the same. Thanks to G for all his help getting my posts transferred over. I am free of the sexist, awful GoDaddy - YEAH! And as a bonus, my site is running faster and the support has improved and my email is now all IMAP!</p>

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			<title>Healthcare system?</title>
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			<updated>2011-03-22T00:00:00Z</updated>
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<p>We prescribe and we operate as much as we can. That is our healthcare &quot;system.&quot; The more diseases individual doctors can diagnose or invent, the more they make from the insurance companies that pay your bills. In reality, our system wasn't designed to keep you well; it was designed to profit off your sickness.</p>
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<p>-<a href="http://changeobserver.designobserver.com/entry.html?entry=12267">The Road to Wellville</a></p>
<p>The above quote is troubling on so many levels. The more I dig into how our system works, the more I truly believe that it is greed that is driving the rising costs. Doctors who see way too many patients and don't spend nearly enough time with them to find out what is truly wrong and think through solutions. Provider groups who are continually haggling over their contracts with insurance companies, forcing the cost to go up because they insist on earning more each year, like 15% more, not just an inflationary raise. For profit insurance companies looking to make the most money they can each year. And it is because of this system that I have taken the reins of my health care, I see mostly alternative providers (they take time to talk and listen), I have a high deductible plan from my employer that enables me to use my HSA money (some of which they contribute, some I contribute) to see who I choose, to learn more about what is best for me. Above all, I educate myself and I <em>choose</em>.</p>
<p>People who can't afford to choose as I do are left with the <em>system</em> discussed above. A system that does not always recognize that people are inside the system, suffering and longing for help. At times I get angry, at other times I am just saddened by what I see. And how do we fix such a system? I wish people would stop fighting and actually really look into that part of the problem. Because this isn't about a political party, this is about people's right to receive care, become healthy, and be treated with dignity in the process.</p>

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			<title>Serendipity</title>
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				<p>I'm currently reading <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Where-Good-Ideas-Come-Innovation/dp/1594487715/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&amp;ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1300409465&amp;sr=1-1"><em>Where Good Ideas Come From: The Natural History of Innovation</em></a> by Steven Johnson. Of course I'm reading a lot of it in snatches and little bites on the bus and at lunch and a bit before bed, which will make the following a bit ironic, but still it really caught my attention. He has a whole chapter where he talks about the serendipity of ideas coming together from reading deeply and widely on many topics. In fact he says it's the way that connections between things can actually come about. He talks about a habit of Bill Gates, who stockpiles different things he wants to read and then takes a &quot;reading vacation&quot; to read all of it in one long sitting over the course of a couple of weeks. Intriguing.</p>
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<p>By compressing their intake into a matter of days, they give new ideas additional opportunities to network amont themselves, for the simple reason that it's easier to remember something that you read yesterday than it is to remember something you read six months ago.</p>
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<p>-Location 1281 of the Kindle Edition</p>
<p>As I thought about this idea after I got off the bus and was walking the several blocks to work I began to wonder if that isn't what happens when working with code or projects at work. If there is time to think deeply on something and plan and wonder will it lead to better ideas, better code, better projects? Lately I have felt very rushed and hurried on my projects and it is all about getting things out the door and completed to be able to go on to the next thing. If that is the case, am I writing the best code, is the end product the best it can be? I am not sure, but I long for time to be able to think, to be able to let ideas come together in my head, to find a bit of serendipity.</p>

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			<title>iPad</title>
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				<p>I admit it, I've been thinking of getting one of the iPads. It all started when my computer started making funny noises. You know the ones, right? The ones with clicking and weirdness, the ones where you start to hear them and you think, oh no, it's on its way out. To be fair, I have a 3.5 year old MacBook Pro and it has served me well, but the hard drive may be giving up the ghost. I, of course, immediately went online and started looking at replacement options. MacBook Air or one of the recently refreshed MacBook Pros. I liked the portability of the Air, but the small hard drive size was a stumbling block for me. Then G suggested something I hadn't even thought of, why not get a Mac Mini and an iPad? Really, a desktop? The reality is that I don't take my computer around with me hardly ever and when I do move it from its perch, it's to surf the web, write emails, or look at twitter. So yeah, a desktop may not be a bad idea. I was going to get the smallest laptop and get an external display and in the Mini/iPad scenario, I would be giving Apple the same amount of money as I would for a laptop.</p>
<p>I will admit that I'm not a huge fan of the iPad, articles like this on <a href="http://www.wired.com/gadgetlab/2011/03/ipad-creation/">Wired</a>, don't help at all. But it is small and it can do the things I want to do when I'm away from my desk. And the new case is so cool and I've played with the <a href="http://www.apple.com/ipad/smart-cover/">demo</a> way too many times.</p>
<p>Time will tell. I want to see the Mac Mini get a refresh, hoping for an i5 chip. For now, praying my hard drive holds out at least a few more months and backing up religiously.</p>

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			<title>Interesting thought</title>
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<p>Digital publishing, it turns out, isn't so much a second print run (as it seemed at first) as a whole other ecosystem, with a unique atmosphere, strange new rain patterns, and its own troubling signs of pollution and climate change. Diving into it means learning how to breathe all over again.</p>
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<p>-<a href="http://aworkinglibrary.com/library/archives/three/">Mandy Brown</a></p>
<p>If you haven't checked out the books from <a href="http://books.alistapart.com/">A Book Apart</a>, I highly recommend them. The first two were great reads and fantastic little books to have by my side while I code. I expect the same from the latest on Content Strategy.</p>

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			<title>A Blog</title>
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			<updated>2011-03-06T00:00:00Z</updated>
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				<p>Yes, I've started a blog. The reasons are many and varied, but it mainly boiled down to two. The first is that I wanted to have a place to put links, quotes, images, and other stuff that I find on the web - somewhere it would be stored and I could have a record of it. I did think about doing a Tumblr blog, but I wanted more of a challenge coding wise, so here it is on WordPress. Yup. My second foray into the WordPress world, this time I am doing a completely custom theme for the first time. The second reason for doing the blog was to try this out, this theming thing. It's been a challenge in all the best ways.</p>
<p>In the coming weeks I'll be tweaking lots of little things here and there until I get things finished up. It continues to amaze me how many different things there are to remember about getting a theme done. I've also made a few decisions to make life easier for myself. There aren't any comments as I just didn't want the headache of dealing with them.</p>
<p>So here it is, feel free to use Twitter to get in touch and let me know what you think.</p>

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